It's chinese new year again and it's 2011. As usual, I'm at home. It's probably a chance for me to take a break. Slept the whole day, I'm just not in the mood to go out. Everyone else is busy visiting.
It's a long weekend for me and it's a chance for me to start catching up with my studies. School already started 2 weeks ago and till now I have no idea what's going on. Have not started with my notes yet. Yet I still aim for GPA 4.5 -.-"
My last sem's results were bad, very bad. I had a 3.03. Way way below my expectation of 4. Although everyone says that an average engine student will get 3.5, I wanted more. And now I'm below average. Can't blame anyone but myself, I didn't have the mood to study and I was just slacking all the way. Until 2 weeks before the exams where I tried to swallow everything down. Studying till 5am almost everyday and depriving myself of sleep. It was real bad, I didn't have the energy to even talk to people.
This sem, I aim even higher. I want to pull my gpa up. But looking at my calendar, I am more busy than before.
I am involved in bike rally 2011 and I have also joined as sports camp programmer. Both are super xiong. Bike rally will be on 27 feb and all the planning peaks now, especially as a logistics officer. Planning is not as easy as I thought, everything is very strict and formal. It's good in a way as I learn from all these kind of planning. But it drains out my time, just preparing the briefing notes for meeting can take days. But well, I like what I am doing so I have no complains.
Sports Camp programmer, another super xiong post. The sports camp progs are well known to be very uptight,strict and zai. So we gonna live up to the standard. Our meetings are held formally in meeting rooms and proposals are presented to everyone for their criticism. It's not easy at all, somemore with a tighter timeline this year.
Sometimes I wish I can be more creative and have more ideas.
Not just these, I'm also my hall's blk rep and hall foc programmer. These sounds a lot but some others have even more commitments than me! I wonder how do they cope. I'm already dying from all these.
And my new year resolution, is to have more time for my friends and family. I need to rest, I don't like such fast paced life. I like to chill on the beach, lying on the fine grains of sand, drinking a cup of chilled drink.
It's the 2nd sem of my uni life, 2nd sem in hall, and away from home. I feel lost touch with my family (not as if i'm very close to my family previous, but now it's worse). I have no idea what to do. Sometimes I come home, feeling homely, but the things i hear, is not what i want to hear. I know, it's not gonna be easy.
I'm also feeling the pinch on my wallet, spent too much recently. Hais..
When the spirits are low, when the day appears dark, when work become monotonous, when hope hardly seems worth having, just mount a bicycle and go out for a spin down the road, without thought on anything but the ride you are taking.
Always wanted to update but couldn't find the mood to update. Wanted to at least post something about 2009 and what I have been through..but i'm just so too lazy =p Maybe I should add "to update blog" in my 2010 tasklist. haha
Well, I have finally ORD-ed. Not shouting any "ORD loh!" because I simply miss my job. Of course there were times I really hate it but overall I still love it. The team I was in, and the group of ppl I hang around with. And the extraordinary job that I will never forget. I have seen many scenes and encountered many different sorts of ppl that I never knew I would meet. I handcuff-ed ppl and depriving them of their freedom. I have the rights to command them to do something and also have the rights to do anything. We walk in clarke quay looking at how ppl drink their sorrows away. We were the LAW (enforcer). It feels good, giving me much confidence that I never had. Being in blue makes me feel very different. AND so, I applied for VSC =D (aka part time policemen) but still waiting for a reply...
Two years passed so quickly. For those who didn't know, I extended my NS for 2 mths, voluntarily. Now in year 2010, new life starts. Ended my NS phase and stepping into next. This could be the worst phase as I'm stepping right into adulthood. Studies, family and decision making will come straight to me. Anticipating, little worried. BUT! I hope it is not the case, I believe that everything will come smoothly and I will have more fun! woo!
Now I'm working at starhub, good pay but the job sux! Call centre, getting scoldings everyday and apologising even though it's nothing to do with me. Sometime it's plainly because customer have some problems with their logic and we have to just apologise for their illogical thinking. Stupid -.-""
Anyway, biondi pasted me this comic. Because he say he can't read chinese -.-"
It's been a long time since I blog. But I just do not really have the mood to blog. Nothing much interesting happened. Mostly it's work work and work. Went bintan for my team's retreat and it was quite alright. Merlion-ed at bintan though. But well, 家丑不能外传..so yah =X I shall blog if something good happen to me. haha
Anyway, my friend pasted me this link http://www.cds.caltech.edu/~shane/text/quarterlifecrisis.html
And I copied it down.... Read it up, it's quite true for me too.
The Quarter Life Crisis
It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are a lot of things about yourself that you didn't know and may or may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.
You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you do not realize is that they are realizing that too and are not really cold or catty or mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.
You look at your job. It is not even close to what you thought you would be doing or maybe you are looking for one and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and are scared.
You miss the comforts of college, of groups, of socializing with the same people on a constant basis. But then you realize that maybe they weren't so great after all.
You are beginning to understand yourself and what you want and do not want. Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging a bit more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and add things to your list of what is acceptable and what is not. You are insecure and then secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.
You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you or you lay in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough to get to know better. You love someone but maybe love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you are not a bad person.
One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap and getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through the same emotions and questions over and over and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision.
You worry about loans and money and the future and making a life for yourself and while wining the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender!
What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.
Long long time since I blogged. I read through my previous post and found that I seemed to be complaining about work. But actually that wasn't my intention. I hold no grudges against anyone or anything. I'm fine, I'm cool =)
Quite broke recently. Just made a hole in my pocket. Trying to seal it up now. This is what I bought...
Kena 'tok' a bit. Spent S$909 on this baby. And now it's still in the box =\ Bought it at SLS and that ah pek who served us, got some attitude problem. Die die also don't want to give us some freebies. Even a few dollars thing also cannot. I believe the young one who we approached, will give. But he doesn't! Then he keep saying that it is the best price and he blamed the young one for quoting such a best price. Wtf? Almost wanted to walk out of the shop. So yup, I'm eating grass now. ........
Sigh, my friends are now busy with their own stuffs. Some are busy with studies/work, some are in the Army. Want to go walk around and chill also don't know who to find. It's difficult to find friends whom you can really talk. Or at least, listen. Okay, I think I'm more of a listener than someone who shares. But well, because of this kind of boredom, I start to think about some other stuffs. Which made me fear as I grow. I'm reaching nearer to it. I have got no one and nothing to learn from. I have to face it myself, which I am trying to run away from. I do not want to think about it, hoping that I can take one step at a time. This feeling sucks. People can understand, but they are not able to feel it.
Have been busy recently, I am starting to feel the fatigue. Staring into space. My mind is blank and my speech is slurred. Not sure whether I'm physically or mentally tired. I really peifu those who can stand this kind of work for the past few years. Shift work is so bad for health. Need to take in more vitamins already. My eyes are closing as I blog, ideas running here and there in my mind but doesn't make up to anything.
I need something light...like this..
------------------------------ Found this somewhere:
Today(Monday) is my first off day after a straight 10 over days of working. But! I am still working today. haha! Anyway, planned to go swim in the morning. If I miss the timing, I planned to go cycle instead.
So, I set my phone alarm at 9am. Slept and received a call at 10am+. Felt tired and went back to sleep. The next time i woke up, it's 1pm already. Then I was thinking, why didn't my alarm ring? I also did some mental calculation and found out that I was late. Rushed out and went to the coffeeshop for my brunch. Thought of eating my usual kway png, or else my wanton noodles. To my surprise, both stalls were closed -.- I stood there, walked about for 10mins and discovered that I got no more time to think. So I decided to eat fishball noodles. When my food came, I realised that my wallet got no money! Digged out few coins and managed to pay for my food. Rushed again and took a bus down to the next busstop for Bus 5. Before that, I checked iris and bus should be here in 14mins. So I was quite relaxed, should be able to reach station in time.
Reached the busstop and iris again. This time, it shows the next bus is 21mins. WTF! It was 2.41pm and I was supposed to be at station at 3pm. Or at least be ready by 3.30pm. So I panicked. Checked my wallet and there is no cash. Looked around and there is no ATM nearby. So I was thinking, this time die liao. Subsequently I saw bus 59 came. So i think "fug lah, take go toa payoh den see how" So I took the slow 59 and reached TPY at about 3pm. Checked the busstop at TPY and found bus 57 which goes straight to my station. Checked iris and the next bus is 14mins. I was thinking, cannot wait, sure late one. So I decided to walk to HDB hub and look for an ATM and take cab.
So i walked, and walked, and walked. Cannot find! Managed to ask one security guard and he told me the POSB ATM is on the other side of the hub, which was where I walked from. So, rushed there and finally found some hope by looking at the big blue POSB sign. Drew money and chionged to the taxi stand. Hopped on to a cab and went to station. On my way, I saw the bus 5. And I was thinking "wtf am i doing? wasting my money and efforts when I can just sit there and wait for this bus".
Reached station 3.20pm, rushed and managed to be on time. zzzz
Another tired day for me, now deciding whether to go swim or not. A bit lazy thou =\ Some updates first..
My work have been quite boring recently because I'm stuck with counter duties most of the time. Not my supervisor's fault because there were too many new comers. There's another one coming too. Plus there is this guy who cannot do anything else but patrol. Was quite fedup with him because of that. Somemore I realise that he is pes c. I can't really blame him for all these because he don't call the shot also. He was just being lucky, no need go through training but do a job that I myself was trained for. So, I have been doing a job that doesn't require much training. He is leaving soon, in july and I hope he don't come back to my team. Because there is another new guy coming in, will get stuck with counter again. Gonna ord soon, so ya, quite disappointed. That's why I applied for a day leave last monday. As there were so much manpower and my exisitance doesnt really matter, I decided to take leave on that night shift.
I planned to rent a Toyota Rush and was quite excited about it. Able to take a rest from all these nonsense and also bring my parents out for a meal. And since I'm free on monday, I booked my riding pract 3 in the morning and also agreed to go for dinner with my jc classmates. Only until the day before, on the Sunday. I was informed that there is not enough manpower because quite a few guys were pulled out for some other duties. I counted and counted. FUG! I would have to come back. I became quite worried and disappointed.
True enough, I was called back. But I requested to report a little late because of my dinner. So I was deployed at the counter again. Very upset because I choosed that day out of so many other days and I face this shit. No one is at fault, I am just purely super unlucky.
Monday came and I still went for my riding pract. The only good thing is that I passed the pract at one go. Going for pract 4 already. After that, contacted the car rental guy for a time to collect the car. at least I look forward to drive a Rush. Then he told me that there was a booking mistake and the car is not available, he offer me lancer instead. Dammit, I was dam sian. But I managed to settle. So I rejected the offer. To my surprise, 2 hours later the guy msg me saying that the Rush is available.
FUGGING HELL! I was in a dam dilemma on whether to rent it or not. And I rejected it after much consideration. Slacked around and went for the dinner at Vienna in United Square. Was quite noob because it was the first time I patron this kind of restaurant. All sorts of seafood was there. So, I got some cold dish. Some small lobster and prawns. In the end, I don't even know how to break open the lobster -.-"
They finished eating at about 8.30pm and I was so sian of going to work. So I went ttsh to find my colleague. Then I found out that my team is very busy and the patrol cars were attending msges without rest. And heard that there is someone covering my duty at counter. Feeling bad, I rushed back to work.
Worked till 11am in the morning and reached home around 12pm. Totally shag. Slept all the way till 8pm, woke up and had my dinner while half-asleep. Then went back to sleep again. And somehow, I don't know how i slept, I raised my leg and whacked my knee against the table beside. I was so tired that I continued to sleep.
Woke up a while later and felt pain on my knee. dam! -.- Went online and suddenly biondi was so enthu to go for supper. Somemore at Newton Circus. So he drove. Fetched me and we almost got into an accident. I don't know what happened to him, He wasnt being courtesy. Then at the filer lane. He dashed out without checking properly and almost hit the on coming car. The car is much newer and bigger than his! Heng he jammed brake. Or else, our car would get hit and maybe swerve to the left and hit into a tree. Sibei heng.
Came back from supper and I was knocked out again. Freaking tired. So yup..I'm going for swim now. Need some tan before my intense week starts..
Life is Full of Ups and Downs,
We Muz overcome challenges in Life.
Always aim for the sky,for if u fail, at least u can reach the clouds...
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Name : Wei Rong D.O.B : 17 September 1989 Race : 华人 Horoscope : Virgo Where?? : Singapore School : Maha Bodhi School
Bedok North 'low' School
MI bartley (1st 2 mths)
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Fav Snack : Chocolates!! Fav Food : Chicken Rice Fav Book : I don't read. Sports : usually swim, cycle and sometimes play some racket games Hobby : Play, Sleep and Eat Loves : Driving Wants: Peace and alot alot more.. Needs : MONEY!! IQ : 120 (as of Oct 2004)
Find out more from me =p
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ppl who cannot pronounce my name will call me "kang"
i'm actually a quiet person
others eat to live and live to study.. i am the opp
I study to live and live to eat =D
Cravings
Attain First Class Honours for my degree
Get myself a Honda asap
Own an AUDI before age of 30
Own Luxury & Supercars by age of 35 Get into Local University after NS(Came true)
Own a 6-Star Luxury Hotel
A high stable income
Have a house of my dream by age of 30
Get married before age of 30
Have a wonderful family
Learn piano =X
Learn flute =X
Go into R/C Hobby
Lamborghini Estoque
For year 2009,
Ever-increasing wishlist:
Some Great Achievement
New Friends
Build a new PC
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