because of people like you.

just got off the phone with a supposedly good friend.. but u know what.. FRIENDS DONT JUDGE.
screwit man. recently, I've been thinking, maybe working in Singapore might not be a bad thing. My colleagues at work are fun and there are benefits & perks being where I am home and where my friends and family are. But the questions my friends just asked me makes me super pissed and exactly why I cannot stand being in this country. I can't believe I actually forgot. I actually thought maybe it's just me believing it and now after being at work, its not true. hell no.

don't FREAKING judge me if my gpa is under a certain level. even with that score, its STILL A FUCKING 2nd class upper u ass. YOU THINK im not stressed enough about it? and screw you.. to think a 2nd class upper is NOT GOOD ENOUGH!?its people like you who drive me to believe that I wouldn't be good enough for certain things. and THATS NOT TRUE. i know my limits. i know my ambitions and I make realistic goals. I do things I'm proud of doing and not applying to every other bank JUST BECAUSE EVERYONE ELSE is doing it. and YET AGAIN you say with disbelief, you don't want to work in a bank!? WTF if anything that the current situation hasnt taught you is that MAYBE a bank is NOT the best place to be working in. EVEN if i do have a finance degree. SO WHAT pple study engineering and end up in marketing. people study lit and end up in finance. OPEN YOUR FREKAING MIND. initially I wanted to go abroad simply because its fascinating and different, now I will probably be doing it to run away. The people I've met abroad have not mapped out their lives the way you have - are more worldly and know that even though they dont know what to do with their lives YET its NOT the end of the world and they travel to get a perspective of what it is they do want.

get some perspective would u. and save your time judging me

oh looky what i found! after sarah's project runway post, I couldn't help delve in some fashionweek ogling.. while poring over ralph lauren's 2008 spring collection, i stumbled across an outfit i found rather familiar.. why!? it was in gossip girl!

When serena first wore it, i was WTF IS THAT!? i do love the movement in the dress. despite the too-out-there-ness haha

I am loving gossip girls' outfits this season although i havent had the time to watch the last 2 episodes.. perhaps after midterm today! cantwaitcantwait! in any case, i'm a new fan of donna karan & ralph lauren! their sophistication in simplicity! if just i could afford them all hummsss or i could sew it myself!

hmm all this while in ethics class which btw omgawd my prof got invited by jadine cycle&carriage for all 3 days of the SG F1 in their luxury suites - he said he was looking forward to a wkd of drinking champagne.. which makes me wonder.. how DID he get invited!? what sort of a bigwig is he? hmmmmm

Arsenal's youngest starting 11 EVER (average age of 19) scored 6-0 against Sheffield in the Carling Cup. I've been keeping my eye on the Mexican sensation called Carlos Vela & boy he's something! Wenger was even quoted "he is so cool, he makes me smile" WTH! how does vela feel having yr boss think ure cool hahaha.. thats so odd.. & out of character for wenger. Vela DID score a hattrick by gollyyyy his goals were so very pretty. makes me so excited just thinking of a cesc+vela+nasri+ persie combi! Too bad flamini isnt in there to hustle the midfield ard.. shucks.

oh & I just recalled an incident that had me rolling my eyes. I was in a Q&A session with a random employer and other applicants, when the HR lady asked 1 of them how she became to be so informed of the roles of the different positions. In reply, "As a well-informed person, of course I read up & ....." DUDE no well-informed person self proclaims they are a well-informed person. hee I always remember this quote: self-praise is nothing but disgrace!

a strange sense of dejavu

I don't know why, but slowly, everything that I've been wondering quietly in my head has appeared right in front of me, almost immediately. Signs of something I've been looking for or pure coincidence?

Grumpy

I don't know why but I've seem to have grown grumpier. maybe because I'm always busy. Maybe because my official ms grumpy (read: jayne) isn't around to rid me of my grumpiness. maybe all i need is a happifier. sigh. wants to gorge herself with cookies right now but we didnt make much, and if i do, ill probably finish it all up before hari raya. hrmph.

ooh ooh.. i remember now.. I've come up with a new morse code haha. guess what this means!
402604768249

weee!
just came back from my first auction! no i wasn't buying anything. Was supposed to be doing some data entry but the comp conked out so I was happily getting paid to shake leg hahaa. it was rather interesting and at times scary when they were shouting at each other over the prices. which btw OHMYGOSH that was the first time ive seen WADS AND WADS of 1000 dollar notes. hell! i think thats the first time ive seen a 1000 dollar note! haahha. now thats freaking scary. and they had no qualms whisking them out n counting them super fast (easy anyway since they are super new n crisp) not to mention some of them bid like for SOOOO many things that it amounts to 8,000 dollars! eeek! and thats only for ONE pawnshop! DOUBLE EEK. they bid for like at least from 3 pawnshops. and someone bought a rolex watch for 6000? YIKES! no wonder there were a billion policemen ard to look over every single transaction.. in fact as i barged in, in the morning thinking i was late, one of them stared me down (or so i thought) n i thot it was very rude to stare at pple no matter if its yr job (do it subtlely can! haha) so i stared back at him and made a why are u staring at me so oddly look. lol. well, but by the start of the auction, we made friends and ended up sharing a couple of laughs instead. a decent way to earn some cash hee esp since everyone is super friendly and nice! (except if u screw up big time and the stupid auctionees scream at u BEH)

wtf!

out of curiosity, i was watching youtube videos of the palin-mccain-obama.. my interest was piqued after reading reports of the palin interview. in short. omg. There is so much double standards, so little knowledge of the world that it is absolutely appalling to wonder why they wud even pick her. If they had thought that she could be their puppet & popularity based on her easily relatable status, then why did they let her go on that interview on ABC? I would have thought they be more shrewed. What's worst is the POSITIVE response by the public after the interview. truly, this election will go to show what portion of the americans have any insight at all on politics and government affairs.

they did go on & on about how mccain had far more experience than obama but i stumbled upon an article where he didnt even know who zapetero was! ok to be fair, I probably know more about spanish politics than he does but he thought zapetero was someone from latin america! seriously man, shdnt there be an all-knowledgeable sidekick somewhere feeding all this info to him?

my fav video was actually this random woman's commentary of palin's interview. it hit the nail on the head. on the use of God in campaigns.. in double standards. haiz. we really DO live in exciting times.

b.o.r.e.d. n yes. in fact I do go through this myself everyday. even the color of cat is correct. except she sleeps on MY pillow on MY bed.. ahhh im dying for the week to end

hmm.. buang?

beh.. u wud think along the way of growing up, ud figure what ud do with yr life
i always thought it wud come to me. COME TO ME ALREADY DAMMIT
hee

i wasnt wrong when i said what i did back then
its odd but this time i truly feel happy for not my happiness
i need my own happifier. another COME TO ME ALREADY DAMMIT

rar. random is fun.

full circle!

Its a bit tiring to repeat how happy I am. But yes I am! Very happy indeed. We've finally won something! Yay to us!

geez!
yknow how u joke abt spaniards taking their siestas seriously.. u always see the shops closing but of cos u never ever catch a spaniard actually napping.. (since they are in their own houses n im not a stalker) 2 friends just said bye cos they are tired and need to take their siestas at 430 spain time. incredible! and its not even in sleepy andalucia. its in valencia! 3rd largest city in spain! after all this while, im still amused (& jealous of them & their pretty little pueblos)

sarah tagged me.
hmm. emily, jayne? when ure bored u can do the same.. eh tt rhymes :)

Basically, just answer the questions by doing a google image search, take a picture from the first page of results, do it with minimal explanation.

1. the age i will be on my next birthday


2. a place where i'd like to travel to



3. my favourite place


4. my favourite food


5. my favourite colour

6. my favourite piece of clothing


7. my favourite song

8. my favourite tv show

9. the first name of my significant other/crush


10. the town in which i'm staying in


11. my screen name/nickname


12. my first job


13. my dream job



14. a bad habit that i have



15. my worst fear

16. the one thing that i'd like to do before i die



17. the first thing i will buy if i get $1M



18. how long i took to finish this

i don't need all the money and status in the world to be happy

just give me my friends. team camaradarie. alot of laughter. alot of support. & alot of mud. :)
all the pain. all worth it. this is what we started it for. 1.2.3.SMOO!.woohoo. Perhaps thank god for ORA so I can always have this. its never going to beat this moment though.

in pursuit of happiness

I have some very scary friends. Scary because when you look at their ambitions and how hard they try to achieve it, it's amazing. At the same time, I can't help compare myself to my peers. How am I going to feel 10 years down the road and the disparity between us widens like hell. The colour green always haunts. But, I know that I'm not like them and even though I envy their position, at some level I believe I don't want it. however, it's hard to dispel and totally throw away something that is seen to be universally wanted. why aren't my ambitions big enough? I read the NTU convocation speech with much delight because I believe what he says with all my heart. However, practice is always so much harder.

ok so I know every post so far since ive gotten back has been either about football. spain. or spanish football. haha. forgive me, but I've been away from home more than I have been home this year. Well, its not long till the heartattack of school and dued projects kick in. and thats what exactly happened over the past week. culminating with our presentation this morning for corporate finance. first time I actually really winged a presentation rather successfully. I swear our group is so diverse, its like I'm back on exchange. 2nd pic, clockwise from me (minority sgean), evelyn (sgean holding chinese passport), HK (Ntu exchange student), sharon chinese sgean, clement (French exchange student) and Sana(Pakistani). Times of wanting to kill each other. Times of wanting to laugh in all hysteria of ohnowe'regonnadie or ohshitwe'redamnhigh. I WISHED i can say aww its too bad we cant work tog anymore but theres TWO more FREAKING presentations for this stupid class. ill be seeing more of them in the near future. :( NOT cool.

all warm n fuzzy inside for villa

He insists he left the club to deal with the entire transfer saga, and says the fact they chose not to sell him in spite of their financial difficulties showed him how much he was worth to his employers.

"I feel great here, I owe so much to Valencia and it was always the club's decision. I stayed out of the way.

"I was really happy when Valencia rejected the offer, not for not going to Madrid, but because it was a sign of the confidence they had in me and I felt very valued.

"They chose to keep me instead of taking the money. Valencia valued me more.

"On the Wednesday at 1pm I accepted the offer over the phone. Then at 6pm I signed and for me that was that.

"I never asked for a pay rise, nor a contract extension. It was the club who offered these things to Silva and me after Euro 2008.

"It makes you feel important and loved and for me that's very important."

THIS IS SERIOUSLY WTF

Manchester City's new billionaire owners are planning a world-record £135m bid for Cristiano Ronaldo in the January transfer window before turning their sights to, among others, Fernando Torres of Liverpool and Cesc Fábregas of Arsenal. "Ronaldo has said he wants to play for the biggest club in the world, so we will see in January if he is serious," said Dr Sulaiman Al-Fahim, of the Abu Dhabi United Group.

Al-Fahim also re-iterated that he would investigate the potential availability of the former Arsenal striker Thierry Henry, Valencia's David Villa and the former Brazil international Ronaldo to join Robinho in a "dream team" that would be able to challenge for the Champions League within two or three years.

have I mentioned how much i hate chelsea and how much Im going to hate mancity?

and how much i LOVE SPANISH BOYS because they only move because of footballing ambitions and despite so much $ tempting them, they hardly ever bite. Case in point?

1. Fernando Torres: Ateletico Madrid Faithful till he REALLY realised the club was never gonna amount to anything. sadly.

2. Xavi Hernandez: He still lives with his parents in the most modest of houses.. I think my bedroom might be bigger than his. NUTS! This coming from the man who won player of the tournament in Euro Cup 2008

3. David Villa, Silva & Cazorla: All stayed in their respective clubs to try to win something for one more season with their clubs despite Real Madrid desperately throwing $ at them

4. Of course FABREGAS: the player I've always respected for his work ethic and attitude & said HELLNO to madrid for the last couple of years

R.E.S.P.E.C.T. for the spanish players. for sure. For having their heads screwed on right. I knew it was right to fall in love with spain. :) where else would I get besos enorme from my friends and free spanish lessons from haha. A simple conversation with them never fails to cheer me up! & I'm still amazed at how serious a friend takes his siestas! volver. quiero volver.

*On a side note: why don't I ever come up with argument papers as quickly as I do for this? Why can't I only argue about football!?