fav scene ever! dean is so fricking hot when he fights off tristan! I think I'm just a sucker for that protective bf figure. dangz. where can i get one of those?

Have I mentioned how much I love snail mail???

& YES! i actually understood everything that they wrote in spanish! :D yay preterito indefinido & imperfecto revision came in useful! haha

dad n i finally went about to buying WII.. damn challenger has a ten dollar markup in all their products in comparison to other shops!

& after some trial & error in starting up the system, we spent abt 2hrs playing ard with wii sports. let me reiterate that BOXING is DAMN tiring. I was playing against my sister and we had 3 rounds of majorly intense all out boxing that led to each other getting floored a couple of times before I lost steam and was KO-ed. By the end, we were seriously sweating and out of breath! haha

well, thats the game to exercise with. tennis is the more leisurely game that we have. and im dying to get mario kart. does anyone know where I can get them cheap?

freaky deaky.

Its the 3rd day that SSC has opened but I've just stepped into it. I left the place feeling kinda scared & mixedup.
1. At the insane number of people who were there..
ok well its xmas eve and i guess lots of pple dont work? anyone who knows me well, knows that i hate crowds. I get mightily pissed off and tired easily in such situations and I am right now on the verge of being pissed off that my nice oasis of a neighborhood is destroyed by this materialistic money making machine. its insane how its like a hive and everyones just swarming all over.. it just didnt feel like my neighborhood :(

2. At the no. of decent shops there are.
Seriously, all you need is Zara and Mango there and I think I will never need to go to town ever again. There's challenger, HEI sushi (woohoo!), GIANT, fish&co, dano, newyorknewyork and omg i think they are having some kind of mini water park on the top!? sth called a splash park? THAT is freaky.


The only thing that stays constant is change they say. I've stayed here for the past 20 years of my life & I have truly seen my neighborhood change. I don't think SSC was even there when I was a baby! I remember we did all our shopping at Thomson Plaza. I like my home. I love that its so quiet yet convenient and 1 really long road away from thomson supper places or town. And then the flats at sembawang went up. and then the swami home went up. then the condo beside went up. Let's just say I enjoy my privacy and quiet time. But with all these developments, I am sadly losing it all. I am probably going to stop getting the sun on my porch in the mornings because SSC is mother effing huge now & blocking it. I hate that the freaking condos are built so close to my house that they can actually SEE into my house. I hate that they built everything so high that it blocks my view of pretty skies and the entire feeling of space. I get so choked up when there are too many tall buildings around. and it doesnt help that tall buildings stop breezes and make the entire neighborhood simply hotter.

In France, I was chatting with Hana, and she said she loved Paris because she's a city chick and she cant stand being in such a slow environment. I said I loved Valencia because it was a good sized city that has a wonderful mix of suburbia and town life. Huge parks and easy beach access with endless spacious skies to spare. Yet I could walk to the heart of town where I can buy all the cheap zara clothes i want haha. This is the same thing, I am the Queen of convenience (not to be mistaken for the band King of Convenience). I don't do anything unless its convenient for me. Maybe my Micro prof will be proud because he says Economists only do whatevers efficient to them. I appreciate the fact that now there is a pretty awesome place within a 5 min walk away but I hate the crowds it bring. I just hope its not this crowded ALL the time. damn i can still remember the time i cud just walk out to buy groceries there in my pjays and no one wud care.
sigh.

It has been a very frustrating season.
4 months :( HOW CAN! HE'S THE CAPTAIN!
There's no point watching football now.. arsenal's going to crumble at this rate. :(((
I know I'm supposed to be rallying my team but face it. this season is in shambles. buck up arsenal. buck up. I just can't imagine how cesc must be feeling.

YAY tv addicts anonymous had a meeting today.. with a successful outing of 8 episodes of Gilmore Girls Season 1 straight! hmm tt sounds so little.. well hopefully it will be continued after 50% of the clubs' exams ends. Note: Club size = 2 but welcomes more. My favorite scene was when dean totally told off tristan during the formal. defending rory's honour like that... woooshh.. pure hotness! but for some reason, I'm totally loving tristan this time around. Note: this is only my 2nd time rewatching my entire dvd box.

On an entirely different note, wtf! An exchange friend mistook my nationality. wowee.. well, she got the right continent??

weeee..

some of the guys + pat came over to watch football/catch up.. and they said my cat is fat. yay! :)

primero.

desde aqui, creo que debes escribir en espanol cada semana por practica mi espanol. estoy muy triste ahora porque real madrid ganar con valencia. tonto madrid. no me gusta un equipo que es tan juvenil! gah.

creo que muchos mi amigos no entender espanol pero por los que lo sabe, deseo puede ayudarme! se mi grammatica es muy malo. por eso, ayudarme correcta donde puede, por favor. muchas gracias!

esta todos por hoy porque debes pienso si debes ir por un reunion con una persona no me gusta.. hmm

oh gosh..

im already having trouble stringing spanish sentences tog but pablo today asked me about hari raya haji.. n i attempted to explain tt in spanish.. gosh.. i dont think i did tt too well ahhaha.

and SCREW REAL MADRID.. those bastards who have no manners. the head telling the fans to unsettle villa whenever he gets the ball just because they are sour grapes that villa had the sense to stay in valencia! after we play liverpool tomorrow, im all for liverpool screwing them overrr

a moth came a-visiting.

there's this saying, that you will get an unexpected visitor when a moth appears in yr home.. it actually happened a couple of times already! today, hana & honlyn came. I like getting such surprises. I wished more friends lived nearer, its so much easier to just meetup and chill. and thats what we did today. because sg is seriously too boring.. I need my own bike.. then we can ride to sembawang beach and have some kinda of decent fun.

Got back my gilmore girls! woohoo!
tackled the first 8 episodes and every time u watch, u always learn sth new.
1. Dean had killer Boyband hair in the beginning
2. Rory had chubby cheeks!
3. Luke looked REALLY good with a gd built
4. i LOVE tristan! - chad michael murray's character
5. they called rory Mary (as in like virgin mary) because she looked goody-goody and when asked what wd they call her if she looked slutty, lorelai said: they wud have added a magdalene behind hahaahha

I can't wait to relive the moments!

on other fronts. pple always ask abt the existence of any significant other.. it doesnt help that a cousin my sisters age just gave birth. seriously man, how hard is it to get a decent guy in this country? I am pretty certain I will tell you at the end of my lifetime that it is very hard. :) & then I ponder.. its so difficult to find a decent mat in this country.. but i just realised sth, if i head just slightly further north or even south. im in mat country. haha. I'm just living in the twilight zone.

ah so cuteee!

cute advert by sofia coppola featuring my fav model! belarussian maryna linchuk

all days shd be like today

i need to be a happy person. because happy pple make other pple happy and I like to feel happy. like duh. There are just some people who are genuinely happy people all the time and it just makes them glowww. I want to glow like that. But sadly, I'm not an original glower. I glow when other people glow. ok im rambling but I had a fulfilling glow-filled day from start to end so I'm very thankful for that.

it doesn't hurt that I also found out that I aced APPLIED ECONOMETRICS! HAHA! well ok its the only A im expecting this semester but it feels good to ace a renowned challenging subject! it even sounds cheem if nothing else wahahha..

oh yes and also because i just realised, im 3!! (4 maybe) degrees of separation from the owner of inditex. FREAK! yknow ive always dreamt of meeting the son to the heir.. who knew reality wud come in the form of a fren whose bf is nephew to the owner!!! that girl made my hyperventilate in the middle of zara!

Could I trade me some humidity for a tinge of winter?


I want to do winter right! Look at the pretty pretty trench coats.. prettyy....

Although I was shivering like shit in Paris and cursing the bloody hail and rain, with a good winter jacket and scarf, makes everything right! When you're cold, u can run around to make yrself warm, cozy up agst someone hehe and have a good warm hot cup of cocoa (which I was surprised to find cools down REALLY fast in winter) but when ure hot, all u wanna do is run into air conditioning which is baddd... bad for the skin.. bad for the bills. why cant we be further away from the equator dammit!

I miss the scarves (even as I suffocated myself)

& the layering....

& of cos the cozying up with a fren over a fire with a good cuppa chocolate con bunuelos:)
(u dont see it in the pic cos we ate them all up)

CITY TO LAND £52M VILLA
Mark Hughes will sign Valencia striker in January

OH COME ON! don't make me weep.. Money destroys the game DAMMIT.

omg! I had no idea sya had videos.. I love me some pablo & fedeee! LOVEE! this was when the spanish boys came over for singapore dinner. We first upset their tummies because of spicy hot. and then we made them try chilli tapioca and those seedless prune thingies. They obviously didn't like it hahaha.. but look at their faces! so funny!! Pablo said "oh, we brought you guys nice things like ice cream and we eat spicy things" & omg! check out the emonemo malay song playing in the background for added malay-night atmosphere setting LOL!



OMG an ANOTHER ONE! hahahah dammit tine is freaking strong! and for the record, I wasn't using my complete strength because it was the first time we were playing, n i didnt know it was seriously a fight to the finish!!! next timeee no mercy!! haha

Of Numbers and happiness

Over the past 4 days, I've had 3 finals that have only added to my marginal happiness only in the sense that its over. 1.5hrs ago, Christina told me she will get visitors in the form of Asilah and Dzarrin in 10hours time. 1.5hrs ago, I told her that in 12.5hrs time I will be sitting for my 4th and last exam for the 2nd last term of my life, which yet again only marginally contributes to my happiness that we are nearing the end. Interesting too that at this exact moment, in 11.5hrs time, I will be panicking like shit in the top paper I'm dreading while Asilah and Dzarrin happilly settle in London.. 8hrs away. boo. AND in 144 days time (OMG) I will be sitting for my last ever paper in my undergrad life (hopefully) which I will be most happy because perhaps in 144 or 145 or 146 or 147 days time, I MAY be back in spain. omgomgomgomgomgogmogmogmomgogm.. hahhaha.. I've already seen how much it costs to get there.. lemmegolemmegolemmego.. ironically, in 144 days time, xtina would be starting school and not able to join me in spain :(

144. thats what separates me from the sadness and shaggedness and i want to giveupness of this thing called micro and the expected utility of being back in spain & having a horrid final gpa! I'm content with 13.5hrs really for now..

Captain Cesc here to lead the wayyyy..

haha I just thought that was a very cute foto with him leading the pack and all of them so nicely decked in red and navy blue.. I must say.. I love my igoogle and rss feeds. It brings up tonnes of awesome stuff for me like this foto and the fact that I got to know about Cesc's appointment a mere 2hrs after it was announced in London. Somehow, the mods I took in Spain seem to be more value added to my life than more than half the ones i've taken at home - speaking this with only the faintest of biasness haha.

Anyway, more interesting quotes from my favorite Arseblog:
"As much as Cesc now has a responsibility to Arsenal, Arsenal has a responsibility to him."
"So, here's to Captain Fabtastic, may he develop a terrible withered elbow from lifting too many trophies. Come on Arsenal."

Let a new era begin with Fabregas at its helm.

As much as he was the likely candidate, I didn't think Wenger would pull it this fast. Even during the good times, we all knew he would eventually make captain but we would never think he'd do it at 21. He was always a little earlier than the rest. Let's hope the entire squad has his backing as all the fans do. Let this be the beginning of something great. Something LEGENDARY. He cannot singlehandedly change the team and results but with hope, he can inspire change.

I'm pretty sure I'm going to get lots of shite from non-Arsenal peeps after the man city game. It just ended and of course there is disappointment and frustration but my dad and I agreed that this is exactly what Arsenal and Arsene Wenger need to realise how far they've fallen from grace. I swear, I thought the 19yrold average carling cup lineup would have played better than this senior team. I do find it awfully suspicious that so many key players can't play when the going gets tough. Like how John Terry was too injured to play for England and Ashley Cole for Arsenal. Even so, everyone knows that Arsenal have the talent and skills to win. But today, they were not playing at that level at all. Time after time Bendtner, Song and Denilson have always shown us that they are not ready to be playing at this level. Hoyte was just a joke.. Clichy was absolutely not focused and RVP hasnt found his scoring form for Arsenal in eons. Nasri and Ramsey were really trying but there was simply no support.

And as for criticism that Fabregas is not playing well. What do you expect? What do you expect when you ship ALL yr closest friends and support off. What do you expect when you expect him to be playing with next to nothing support!? You would of course hope that he can inspire the team, but first of all. he's got to be inspired himself.

I really do hope that a massive change happens. Remove the people who are ineffective and destructive and bring in the people we need. Defenders. A STRONG midfielder. I do think we have strikers, but sadly their performances have been very volatile and very much dependent on a strong midfield. I am extremely curious as to who would will be captain after this debacle. If you remove gallas entirely from the squad, I do believe Fabregas can do the job. But as a longterm captain for the team? Fabregas still seems like a lightweight. THe problem is.. there isn't any one to choose from. The best option would most likely be Toure.

I would think they can draw inspiration from Valencia's current season. The way they've dealt with their problems with a new coach. a new start, team attitude and making sure they tell their important players they are valued. Arsenal cannot afford to lose fabregas, nasri and i might even say adebayor. Although if Arsenal doesn't deal with this situation appropriately, I would completely support their decision to leave. Then, it'll be la liga here I come...speaking of which, lets cheer up with a yummy foto of the vlc players over some press release. Marchena's looking good in tt leather jacket :) & Silva is 2 weeks away from playing in a game! Just in time after the exams!

wahlao!
my angst has been rising like a utility curve for a risk seeking individual over the past 3 days over 1 stupid qn! All the Econs Gods have been stumped by an italian and then 1 God who is taking Public Policy has enlightened me. But you know how your angst and tension rises and builds u up...n it almost always ends up being an absolutely WTF KINDA ANSWER IS THAT? this falls under that category.

looooveeee this sonng and the video!!.. totally puts u in a 'letss partyyy' mood! (even while i study)

Micro has been a constant bane in my life this semester.
& right now all that floods my brain is Cournot, Stackelberg and Bertrand. or occasionally John Nash comes haunting too. Massi's tests are notoriously student-stumping so I think I've begun to do a Maccann (ie jump for joy whenever I get a qn right..) Why am I studying for game theory! theres a reason I decided not to take it as my elective! rar!

damn! i was in the store before! & they were renovating this part.. ooh probably to host him haha.. weeee

teeheeheeSo the other day I had a pri school hari raya outing. Last night, we had a mini class gathering mainly to say goodbye to the school compound we made so many memories in. At least the school name and song (& perhaps my name on the wall) will live on at a different compound (which I guess Peixin alumni won't be too happy about.. i wonder if jennie reads my blog). After taking pictures of every nook and cranny of the sch, saying hi to friends & teachers from yesteryears, I decided to dig up old fotos & post them on facebook. oh what fun & furore ensued thereafter haha. oh how we have grown. (some of us at least haha) ahhh!! I miss those days so much! I even miss the never ending teasing I got which was a result of sitting in the middle of all the boys.. they were so funnyyy! sitting next to zhaoquan because ms chew wud make me try to keep him quiet but he was really a lot of fun to be with.. bhuvanesh & junjie in front and dingli and edmund behind! haha i still remember!!

n geez.. I've always had hair problems all my life. as well as the stupid cheesy grin haha while syuhaidah looks as poised & pretty as ever.. I guess some things are just in-built eh! n benjamin! the boy who introduced me to piano! I do miss him so!

omg. u see. this is why I wanted to reserve Santorini for my honeymoon..
cannot tahan.. wanttogonownownownownow
p/s this is Weimings foto.. lucky ass!

SQUEEEEE! guess who is back in traininggg!

ok i was trying to find a post where i go on gushing about spain. and i couldnt find one.. well not one that was some serious paragraphs long gushing.

Dzarrin and asilah just got back from spain.. and so i decided to revisit my travel fotos and suddenly, all the emotions came rushing back.

Picture after picture I gushed omg i love tt. omg thats so spain. omg thats so pretty. sigh. I can't decide where to go for my grad trip. US or Europe. It seems I might have kakis for either after all and so it might be down to me. How do I love thee. Let me count the ways.

1. land of la liga, the beautiful spanish game and it SERIOUSLY seems only the footballers are cute
2. land of Inditex. Heaven of all shopping heaven
3. land of valencia, my adopted kampung and fireworks and fallas city
4. land of beautiful romantic alleys
5. land of perfect weather
6. land of kukuxumusu!
7. land of buenos dias as u step into buses
8. land of the pyrenees and sierra nevada which I'm still determined to go to
9. land of chocolate churros which I'm determined to eat at the famous one once i get my feet back to madrid
10. land of dos besos and where I've left my heart in... Not to a person.. but to a buzz about it that I cannot put my finger to. I love how much they love their families. I even love their siestas.
let me return! dime volver!
sometimes, I wonder if I could just stay there forever.
A spaniard would do just nicely. :)

Obama-mania at the American Club.
Before the crying and champagne popping.

NOWAYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!

"Valencia compra el estreno de James Bond con dinero público"

long long day.

625am: woke up *damn missed the champs league matches*
730am: election countdown begins at the american club
12pm: Left club for school "obama leading at 204 votes"
1230pm: opened laptop in school "obama wins campaign"
1pm: Meeting
330pm: AE Class
730pm: Free movie screening courtesy of amcham - quantum of solace

such a shame that we didnt get to see the official declaration of obama's win. apparently, the americans at the club starting getting emotional and patriotic.. n popping champagne bottles and all. its seriously like watching a football match! well i shall wait for my picture with obama hee
as much as it was pretty much a one sided affair - even in terms of supporters at the club, I must say, I'm really impressed with Mccain's conceding speech. & its pretty amazing the impact of their speeches have made.. even on me! i doubt u'll ever get that in sg! but wow.. this is how u make memory-lasting speeches (eg. I have a dream...)

oh yea.. someone mentioned on the obama/biden campaign sign.. if u see it REALLY fast *obama/biden* actually looks like osama bin laden! it was an.. UHOH! moment haha.. im surprised it wasnt made out into a joke or sth..

dragged myself to watch 007. it was quite decent.. lets just say he fights/chase scene in virtually every mode possible.. ok mebbe with the exception of space and underwater oh and snowmobiles? ahah the girl is super hot! but warning* the guy doesnt get the girl *gasp!* but i actually liked it that way! i guess craig suits the all moody angtsy bond rather than brosnan's version of slick charismatic bond.

i think hardly any of u who read my blog share the same passion for football and the spanish language.. so i guess this is for my keepsake:
http://www.fernando9torres.com/index.php?p=2786

the behind the scenes footage and interviews with the team about the euro cup.. every stage of the way.. except its more of.. detras de las escenas y entrevistas con los jugadores sobre la euro copa en cada juego. yes.. i mean to say its all in spanish.. i suppose i will have to save this and wait till my spanish improves before i watch it again to see what i've missed out.. god knows how long tt will take hahaha

oh no..carol just reminded me why i love spain so much.. it might have so many flaws, quite a bit of ignorance and perhaps a fiesta lifestyle i don't really care for but a flawed history makes for quirks... which is far more interesting than i can say of ours.. the people may be deemed racist by many but I find is simply just some insensitivity issues and ignorance, which is made up by some strong family and rooted principles which is pretty amazing for a western country. n of cos.. the fashion.. the endless love for sports.. the lovely old abuelos u bump onto the streets the most romantic spanish alleys.. WHATS NOT TO LOVE!

a friend from a different country said he wanted to run.. run away from his home.. to spain.. i found it amusing tt we met each other there through the same reasons. since i came back ive been having roller coaster ride of emotions about home.. some good some bad.. yknow if spain was just next door, this would be a hell of a lot easier.

Found a little funny titbit on my shampoo bottle as I was showering today...

"I am actually very busy on a cellular level"
- hah! the perfect argument as to when I will slack in December :)

the professor has officially lost it.

and no im not talking about school. talking about ze professor.. at arsenal. yknow they say you have to support your team through thick and thin, i've mentioned before, when there are so many changes to a team each season, what makes a fan continue to support? cripes i cant rem the fallacy for this argument.

Sadly though, I believe arsenal is on their demise. which is REALLY disappointing because wenger could have COMPLETELY avoided this situation. you can already tell the disappointment in fabregas and adebayor. It's so sad because it means the definition, the characteristic of the club has to change for a revival. that would mean the end of the wenger era.. I cannot imagine who will replace him. and its extra sad because I watched fabregas since he started out... his beautiful passes, the matches that he totally owned - mostly champs league matches against Juventus, Real Madrid and most recently, AC milan. He WANTS to stay at arsenal but given the situation, its not going to happen. and i truly believe he will leave next season.. which could also mean adebayor leaving.. van persie.. and all the people who count.. The only other person I've seen work so hard all the time is clichy.. the silent hero who got a bittersweet goal today. you know whats the freaking worst part is? It's not even HALFWAY through the season! does that mean there is hope? Maybe they can pull a valencia (ie win the FA cup this year and pull it together for next year) who knows. who knows.

finally given up hope on them.. just like quite a bit of things in my life lately.. whipee

oh how i miss me some marta!

"dont be so stressed! it will not help you! I havent met person who is studying more than you!! Im sure you will have only the best grades and you will find perfect job;)"

if only dear.. if only it were true..

oh yes.. n last week for some random reason, clement greeted me with dos besos.. its been such a long timeee!!!! & it felt strangely comforting! damn seee... this is what happens when u have too much time to reminiscice over things..

I have a favorite temperature. Sadly I'm not in the right latitude. How boring is our weather?

doomed.

This is the end you know
Lady, the plans we had went all wrong
We ain't nothing but fight and shout and tears

We can't cry the pain away
We can't find a need to stay
I slowly realized there's nothing on our side

Out of my life, Out of my mind
Out of the tears that we can't deny
We need to swallow all our pride
And leave this mess behind
Out of my head, Out of my bed
Out of the dreams we had, they're bad
Tell them it's me who made you sad
Tell them the fairytale gone bad

maybe I need to go through it once and for all for me to get over it.

count it with all your fingers. 10. since we all first met, 16.

the (still) naughty one - the smart one - the quiet one - the perfume wearing one - the one who has seen us grown up - the bollywood lookalike one
(the currently very sleepy one) - the married one (!) - the pretty bookworm one

por siempre. no olvidare.

999 - the no. of posts ive made since inception...eeks thats just scarily alot.

just watched the last 10mins of Belgium v Spain. SHUCKS I suddenly remembered how fun it is to watch spain play and to watch their games with spanish commentary.. sigh. i miss it so so sooo much. and thank god for spanish commentary because online streaming is so bad and jerky i only knew it was a goal because he said GOALGOALGOALLLLLLLLLLL as they so often do.. & who else but villa maravilla! STUPID STARHUB and ex british colony who only shows england play. WHY do we pay so much for football channel if we dont get to watch the matches that we want.

is happy being a puzzle geek.

hello im ili and i love finding patterns in things. i live on sudoku and picking odd things out. is there any occupation in the world where I can just play with puzzles? hmmm maybe a code breaker! ooohhhh.. i WISHED! beh.

well not as cringeworthy as i thought it would be.
but still i'm taking it as a bad sign.
back to the drawingboard folks

i dont know what im doing

does everyone feel this lost or is it just me?
i officially hate interviews and form filling. cant pple just be hired based on what they see on paper? :D I'm just grumpy because the job market is bad. and I'm not in the mood to be looking fervently for a job. and I don't like nervous before interviews and the worst still cringing at my answers post interview... it doesnt help that break week is over and i still have 3 midterms coming up and 3 projects due and i feel totally not prepared which means tts going to impact my grades negatively which affect job prospects negatively. slippery slope? dramatic much? half empty glass it is.

im missing my spanish boys :(

school has started in spain and tt means i havent had my weekly dosage of spanish being corrected :( why don't spaniards use more internet in school!? boo.

People say only bad news is big news. who wants to know about happy people?
Perhaps thats what been intriguing me these past couple of weeks.. I hardly even read the newspaper before this admittedly.

Anyhow, some random guy who is apparently now working in Maybank Islamic Banking suddenly dropped me a msg on facebook. Didn't know an alumni was growing haha but its so small, everyone knows whoever that goes in and out. Which is probably why I must have suddenly wondered the impact of the current market turmoil on Islamic Banking. Considering its lower risk profile and investors fear and terrible market sentiment right now, they will be willing to pour their money on anything stable - even Treasury Bills with yields so low that they don't even guard against inflation. Did some googling and right on the money, analysts are saying the same thing. However of course, we are in early days. There is too little liquid investment products in the market right now for this new type of banking to take the world by storm.

So my friends, I ask what are your views - of such turbulent times, of the evolving role of islamic banking and of our job opportunities. Damn makes me wonder why I didnt sign up for any bonded scholarships back then! lol

help my laptop is dying..

by my own doing of course. perhaps i should really get a mac so i shant be tempted to download things that potentially harm my comp. of course after taking 'introduccion a la informatica' last term, even after deleting the sources of trojans n viruses i cant help have Miguel's voice haunting over me that 'all programs running at the same time as the infected program including yr OS wud have already been affected' so yes basically I need to either reformat my comp or buy a new one. tempted to just reformat as even though the economy is how bad, I'm tempted to start buying my first lot of shares! which I'm predicting si going to cost as much as a laptop. It's all about value investing! - according to Bill Miller & Warren Buffett. You see! something did come out of my learning finance. and its not down to waste even though i don't want to work in a bank. I bet I would have no clue what is happening in the world if I hadn't taken it.

how now brown cow. be a guai laptop and let me survive for another yr k? or at least until the next great student Mac deal. had the biggest scare since it took forever to even startup the computer yesterday. I must have rebooted my comp at least 10times. I thought it was all gone so much so I don't think I'm going to switch off my comp anytime soon lest it decides to die on me again.

losing the sense of hari raya already. so fast!! sian. Come on mats & minahs! show yrselves in all your glory so i can live vicariously through you. Or perhaps I shall be having my own mat/minah gathering if a pri sch exschmate is planning to do so hee. it has officially been a decade. yowza

Aidilfitri 2008

panas gilerrr. ok normally i hate it when anyone uses the mat way of speaking but the humidity today was quite a killer. add in a cough, sore throat, fever, flu and sore eyes, it was rather trying at times. tapi.. dapat juga ingat kenapa cuma suka yang melayu sahaja.. :)

because of people like you.

just got off the phone with a supposedly good friend.. but u know what.. FRIENDS DONT JUDGE.
screwit man. recently, I've been thinking, maybe working in Singapore might not be a bad thing. My colleagues at work are fun and there are benefits & perks being where I am home and where my friends and family are. But the questions my friends just asked me makes me super pissed and exactly why I cannot stand being in this country. I can't believe I actually forgot. I actually thought maybe it's just me believing it and now after being at work, its not true. hell no.

don't FREAKING judge me if my gpa is under a certain level. even with that score, its STILL A FUCKING 2nd class upper u ass. YOU THINK im not stressed enough about it? and screw you.. to think a 2nd class upper is NOT GOOD ENOUGH!?its people like you who drive me to believe that I wouldn't be good enough for certain things. and THATS NOT TRUE. i know my limits. i know my ambitions and I make realistic goals. I do things I'm proud of doing and not applying to every other bank JUST BECAUSE EVERYONE ELSE is doing it. and YET AGAIN you say with disbelief, you don't want to work in a bank!? WTF if anything that the current situation hasnt taught you is that MAYBE a bank is NOT the best place to be working in. EVEN if i do have a finance degree. SO WHAT pple study engineering and end up in marketing. people study lit and end up in finance. OPEN YOUR FREKAING MIND. initially I wanted to go abroad simply because its fascinating and different, now I will probably be doing it to run away. The people I've met abroad have not mapped out their lives the way you have - are more worldly and know that even though they dont know what to do with their lives YET its NOT the end of the world and they travel to get a perspective of what it is they do want.

get some perspective would u. and save your time judging me

oh looky what i found! after sarah's project runway post, I couldn't help delve in some fashionweek ogling.. while poring over ralph lauren's 2008 spring collection, i stumbled across an outfit i found rather familiar.. why!? it was in gossip girl!

When serena first wore it, i was WTF IS THAT!? i do love the movement in the dress. despite the too-out-there-ness haha

I am loving gossip girls' outfits this season although i havent had the time to watch the last 2 episodes.. perhaps after midterm today! cantwaitcantwait! in any case, i'm a new fan of donna karan & ralph lauren! their sophistication in simplicity! if just i could afford them all hummsss or i could sew it myself!

hmm all this while in ethics class which btw omgawd my prof got invited by jadine cycle&carriage for all 3 days of the SG F1 in their luxury suites - he said he was looking forward to a wkd of drinking champagne.. which makes me wonder.. how DID he get invited!? what sort of a bigwig is he? hmmmmm

Arsenal's youngest starting 11 EVER (average age of 19) scored 6-0 against Sheffield in the Carling Cup. I've been keeping my eye on the Mexican sensation called Carlos Vela & boy he's something! Wenger was even quoted "he is so cool, he makes me smile" WTH! how does vela feel having yr boss think ure cool hahaha.. thats so odd.. & out of character for wenger. Vela DID score a hattrick by gollyyyy his goals were so very pretty. makes me so excited just thinking of a cesc+vela+nasri+ persie combi! Too bad flamini isnt in there to hustle the midfield ard.. shucks.

oh & I just recalled an incident that had me rolling my eyes. I was in a Q&A session with a random employer and other applicants, when the HR lady asked 1 of them how she became to be so informed of the roles of the different positions. In reply, "As a well-informed person, of course I read up & ....." DUDE no well-informed person self proclaims they are a well-informed person. hee I always remember this quote: self-praise is nothing but disgrace!

a strange sense of dejavu

I don't know why, but slowly, everything that I've been wondering quietly in my head has appeared right in front of me, almost immediately. Signs of something I've been looking for or pure coincidence?

Grumpy

I don't know why but I've seem to have grown grumpier. maybe because I'm always busy. Maybe because my official ms grumpy (read: jayne) isn't around to rid me of my grumpiness. maybe all i need is a happifier. sigh. wants to gorge herself with cookies right now but we didnt make much, and if i do, ill probably finish it all up before hari raya. hrmph.

ooh ooh.. i remember now.. I've come up with a new morse code haha. guess what this means!
402604768249

weee!
just came back from my first auction! no i wasn't buying anything. Was supposed to be doing some data entry but the comp conked out so I was happily getting paid to shake leg hahaa. it was rather interesting and at times scary when they were shouting at each other over the prices. which btw OHMYGOSH that was the first time ive seen WADS AND WADS of 1000 dollar notes. hell! i think thats the first time ive seen a 1000 dollar note! haahha. now thats freaking scary. and they had no qualms whisking them out n counting them super fast (easy anyway since they are super new n crisp) not to mention some of them bid like for SOOOO many things that it amounts to 8,000 dollars! eeek! and thats only for ONE pawnshop! DOUBLE EEK. they bid for like at least from 3 pawnshops. and someone bought a rolex watch for 6000? YIKES! no wonder there were a billion policemen ard to look over every single transaction.. in fact as i barged in, in the morning thinking i was late, one of them stared me down (or so i thought) n i thot it was very rude to stare at pple no matter if its yr job (do it subtlely can! haha) so i stared back at him and made a why are u staring at me so oddly look. lol. well, but by the start of the auction, we made friends and ended up sharing a couple of laughs instead. a decent way to earn some cash hee esp since everyone is super friendly and nice! (except if u screw up big time and the stupid auctionees scream at u BEH)

wtf!

out of curiosity, i was watching youtube videos of the palin-mccain-obama.. my interest was piqued after reading reports of the palin interview. in short. omg. There is so much double standards, so little knowledge of the world that it is absolutely appalling to wonder why they wud even pick her. If they had thought that she could be their puppet & popularity based on her easily relatable status, then why did they let her go on that interview on ABC? I would have thought they be more shrewed. What's worst is the POSITIVE response by the public after the interview. truly, this election will go to show what portion of the americans have any insight at all on politics and government affairs.

they did go on & on about how mccain had far more experience than obama but i stumbled upon an article where he didnt even know who zapetero was! ok to be fair, I probably know more about spanish politics than he does but he thought zapetero was someone from latin america! seriously man, shdnt there be an all-knowledgeable sidekick somewhere feeding all this info to him?

my fav video was actually this random woman's commentary of palin's interview. it hit the nail on the head. on the use of God in campaigns.. in double standards. haiz. we really DO live in exciting times.

b.o.r.e.d. n yes. in fact I do go through this myself everyday. even the color of cat is correct. except she sleeps on MY pillow on MY bed.. ahhh im dying for the week to end

hmm.. buang?

beh.. u wud think along the way of growing up, ud figure what ud do with yr life
i always thought it wud come to me. COME TO ME ALREADY DAMMIT
hee

i wasnt wrong when i said what i did back then
its odd but this time i truly feel happy for not my happiness
i need my own happifier. another COME TO ME ALREADY DAMMIT

rar. random is fun.

full circle!

Its a bit tiring to repeat how happy I am. But yes I am! Very happy indeed. We've finally won something! Yay to us!

geez!
yknow how u joke abt spaniards taking their siestas seriously.. u always see the shops closing but of cos u never ever catch a spaniard actually napping.. (since they are in their own houses n im not a stalker) 2 friends just said bye cos they are tired and need to take their siestas at 430 spain time. incredible! and its not even in sleepy andalucia. its in valencia! 3rd largest city in spain! after all this while, im still amused (& jealous of them & their pretty little pueblos)

sarah tagged me.
hmm. emily, jayne? when ure bored u can do the same.. eh tt rhymes :)

Basically, just answer the questions by doing a google image search, take a picture from the first page of results, do it with minimal explanation.

1. the age i will be on my next birthday


2. a place where i'd like to travel to



3. my favourite place


4. my favourite food


5. my favourite colour

6. my favourite piece of clothing


7. my favourite song

8. my favourite tv show

9. the first name of my significant other/crush


10. the town in which i'm staying in


11. my screen name/nickname


12. my first job


13. my dream job



14. a bad habit that i have



15. my worst fear

16. the one thing that i'd like to do before i die



17. the first thing i will buy if i get $1M



18. how long i took to finish this

i don't need all the money and status in the world to be happy

just give me my friends. team camaradarie. alot of laughter. alot of support. & alot of mud. :)
all the pain. all worth it. this is what we started it for. 1.2.3.SMOO!.woohoo. Perhaps thank god for ORA so I can always have this. its never going to beat this moment though.