n the count is down to less than 30 :)

got a sch package today well stuff tt i have already anyway but still renewed excitement! i like big packages tt come thru the snail mail. decided to google map since the map they gave is really hard to read. ahhhh school (circled in pink) has never been so close to the beach! ahh!!! hoho all vjcians are prob thinking im nuts..

oooh cute guy

was waiting for football match to start.. so watched mtv with jordin sparks MV coming on.. I totally did not change the channel because the guy model was DAMN HOT! in my own version of hotness of cos so i just HAD to find him online.. n showed my sis. where she proceeded to spoil it for me by saying he looks yindian. he looks like he cud be a rafael tho :D it doesnt help tt the girl dominates 90% of the video cos duh its hers. n she isnt exactly the prettiest girl ard.. and the guy acts all stalkerish n weird in the video but he's still pretty hot and has tt nice lean body i like in my boys.. :P ooh if spain is filled with boys like these, i think i wud feel lke i died n gone to heaven haha

what are the odds?

Finally got around to applying for my student visa. Not without a few runabouts in the city trying to secure documents though. The Spanish embassy is really quite pretty. Especially when the last time I made my visa was at a VERY rundown Egyptian embassy. This time, it had the grandeur of royalty with its wood furnishings, gold cursive carvings and motherass huge spanish and EU flag. Suddenly, it all felt very overwhelming. ayyy the thought of any snoooty person behind the counter felt very scary indeed. But the dude was as jings said, laidback and (reminds me greatly of iylia farber) turns out, as he was looking thru my documents.. he exclaimed (ok fine to the extent tt boys exclaim) tt he graduated from the same uni i was heading for! apparently its a big campus (as i can tell from the map they gave us) and has nice weather for the beach from May onwards. I CANT WAIT! i hope the immigration people will HURRY UP and process the visa though.. I'll die if they really do take more than a month.

Everybody, meet Ashley Rawlings!

Fresh from NY! No-ones prettier and pinkier than her! Now I can't wait to test her out! (& show her off! :) *thx Grace!

EXHILIRATING!

This is probably the most tiring weekend I've had in my entire life. Cousin's wedding means helping out at the house and ogling at adorable babies. This time it also included bringing ard our KL cousins to Orchard to see the Xmas lights. The human traffic was amazing. Thank god one of out cousins works in Coffee Bean so we got free drinks before heading back to the main pack. All our aunties n uncles were still packing and sewing when we got back haha. Our cousin the groom even 'scolded' us for not bringing him along to orchard wth! haha.

and omg the titanic clash just ended and im still trying to calm all that adrenaline pumping! I had to clsoe my eyes and ears in the last 15mins of the match!!! Scrambling to ensure victory! well funny enough I was closing my eyes n ears also during the entire man u liverpool match - tt is sleeping from the tiring day before tt. Watching the Arsenal match at times was like watching a schoolboys team so wrapped up in passion and showing tt their better than the other team. But when the team connected, it was COMPLETELY beautiful .The most beautiful thing I have ever seen in my life. You can see that Fabregas, Flamini, hleb, rosicky are best friends and add persie in the mix and ure in footballing heaven. Not to forget gallas sagna n toure.. the bedrock of defence. n almunia who made sure lehmann was never going to see a place in the starting lineup

but as always, arsenals win was more of a gratefulness - a thankgod we won! rather than YES! it was so obvious we would win. And these vulnerable moments can get soooo painful n heart attack inducing.. Score more boys dammit!!

totalll world domination!

ok mebbe not.. just maybe filthy rich
oh darn you emily haha I've caught the Gossip Girl bug. I want a trust fund where i can conquer europe by storm and do it the proper way (ie the posh way) as Emily (no not emily tan) Gilmore would put it. ahhh yes the tvaddict is back in town. is it wrong to think that Rufus is the cutest guy on the show? and that the parents plot is the most interesting of them all? Is it just me or does serena's mom Lily look alot like Kristen, Seth's mom in the OC? and that the choice of music is no indie oc/greys-typed line. in fact its more of a pop-ish mainstream which I still admit I like. oh emily. we need a TV addict Anonymous n myuk & gill, we need our 'oc' sleepover. Rotting feels so good

Yay Day!

FINALLY caught HERO with emily today! I must say, that must have been our most succesful movie date EVER. I don't know why, but always turns out funny whenever the both of us watch a movie together.. It all started in J1 when we skipped orientation and the only movie showing was Orchids. this most retarded show on earth that I STILL don't understand. Was completely NOT entertained. Then there was the 2nd instalment of Zorro at Jurong Point where for some WEIRD reason, the fire alarm went off and told the people to get out of the movie theatre.. apparently, it was just OUR theatre so they gave us back our money.. gawd! tt was the worst.. then there was the wedding date.. which was like probably 80mins long? it was such a hopeless romantic show but even then it felt like quite a bad show but I was simply there for dermot mulroney. Today wasn't without its flaws. The theatre was awfully stinky. smelt like feet. whats wrong with PS!? we were sitting next to an angmoh dude n he was like.. yea it's f*king stinky.. n then he apologized for cursing hahaha... but overall after inhaling my lip balm and stuffing my face in popcorn, I enjoyed myself. Like really really thoroughly enjoyed the show. I didn't expect I would. But I thought the whole thing was very well written and directed. well except for the ending. and there were all the classic jokes which we loved so much about the show. and it was the first show that I actually watched ALL the trailers in Chinese hahaha..

On top of the movie, my exchange plans are going well. The sch now has approved my econs module so I can now spread out my courses for my remaining terms! YAY! And UPV has confirmed my courses so they can FINALLY send me my acceptance letter to go make my visa!

To round up the day, had a really fun time with the guys n ouyang at holland V. And a mark of adulthood is when people start going home with friends taking turns to carpool :D yay! I hope this good day is not the calm before a storm (ie before i get my awful results!) Pray for me!

So this is where we are...

Just came back from softball camp which was practically a chalet in sch. so many other clubs were also having some kinda camp but we can probably say we had the most fun :) all about the company, the movies, the games and basically chilling out as the name of the camp suggests.

Was talking to bernice and how we can't imagine life w/o this club. Who else would we slack and whine together with? Yet have the love for the same game and for other sports. Everytime I see the club come together and bond, I beam in pride because we worked hard for this to happen. For this set of people to come together. And remember how other pple scoffed at us when we just started. We have come THIS far and I really do hope it only continues to grow. I couldnt help but laugh because I would have ended up in a room somewhere next door to where we had slept had this club not been up. and its validation. i hope we stay close and have MORE fun! like...

sweet is....

woots now it's all going to be about exchange planning!
Confirm courses check
write to student buddy (with the nice name) check
scout out insurance n travelling locations check

i need to earn more moneyyy to finance my escapades..
Anyone knows of any part time jobs!?

DIELAHDIELAH!

i really do hate exam periods. mostly the studying part. and the parts where u scare yrself silly knowing u dont know a gazillion things. n having yr ego shot down like crazyyyy. crap
i dont know why I'm extra jittery this term. i realllyyyy dont want to screw up my finals.
:( scared shit!
i wished grades meant nothing.
it seriously doesnt help that pple keep posting their europe fotos on facebook!
my only salvation is tt I'll be free from this till like NEXT November. HURRY UP ALREADYYY
on a completely unrelated point, I was looking at the mentor student's email tt was sent to me.. they took the first few letters of his first middle and last name.. which means my sch mail there will be ilhazha@...... oh screw my horrible initials..

weeee back to yield to maturities, partial differentiations and intertemporal money models
freak.. i havent even touched bp!
and what is WRONG with my tagboard!
obvs, im highly irritable rar.

weellll heloooo there
study break is always a time to procrastinate and how else than to watch me the first episode of the latest season of project runwayyy.. I've always been a die-hard fan esp since vosovic stole the show with his amazing creations. Let's just say, in football, there's arsenal and then there's fabregas. Well in fashion, there's zara and then there's daniel. looks like I'm not the only gal around who wished he wasn't gay! gah. wished he had his own international label!

anyway the first episode was just about ok only. I prefer the creative challenges than these boring ones. Looks like we have a new santino and chloe.. BORINGG but none to rival daniel. oh shucks. can't wait for future episodesss!

Wenger sees Mexican wonder kid as long-term Henry - Carlos Vela

Arsenal last night confirmed Wenger is close to deciding whether to apply for a work permit for the brilliant young hitman to play in the first team this season or to leave him in Spain where he will end up with an EU passport by next January anyway.
Arsenal fans and players have been disgruntled following the sale of Thierry Henry to Barcelona and Wenger's reliance on youth.
The signing of Dinamo Zagreb striker Eduardo da Silva has been met with muted approval.
But Vela is believed to have the ability to follow the likes of Cesc Fabregas as being a key first-team player despite his tender years.
In fact, just two months ago the normally reserved Wenger admitted to being hugely excited by Vela's awesome potential.
The Frenchman said: "I like his intelligence and his pace. He scores goals but he can also create them. He's a special talent and I believe 100 per cent that he will make it at the highest level."


ooh interesting stuff.
imagine the drool worthy stuff with the likes of cesc + walcott + hleb + vela + persie.. absolutely yummylicious

stop judging

okok replace angsty post with sth more happyfying
finally had the courage to talk to one of the spanish exchange students in class.. (the last class this term woots) muy mal shall go down as the first spanish words i utter to a spaniard.. in was in context of my spanish.. lol.. YAY he says valencia is very pretty now.. n warm. even in jan! thank god! i wudnt know how to survive below ten degrees everyday. for one ill have to shop ALOT haha but jayne decided to spoil my fun by saying of cos spaniards wil say spain beautiful..
stop raining on my parade woman. its like how i wud say the west is bla since im a northie haha now im excited all over again! whipeee!

countdown update (days):
to freedom - 15
2008 - 47
Europe - 67

aaaaaaaaahhh!!!! can't wait can't wait!

perhaps? a little satisfaction... a little more action..

I really didn't mean to break into an elvis song but the last 2 days just got me thinking that I really am enjoying my classes a little more. The only one still giving me grief is BP which is technically a biz mod tt have similarities to other grief-giving subjects tt ive taken in skl thus far. to be fair acct prob gave me the most grief but i abhorrred biz mods tt feeel so empty n fluffy

I enjoy macroecons (dont shoot me) and i will enjoy my mfe once i start practising more and FIIM is good practical knowledge. It sucks that the beginning of the interesting academics of skl is only just beginning and ill be off slacking again overseas next year. Not that I'm complaining. But I won't be in a mood to study when I come back and thats badd cos the heavy subjects are coming up and perhaps I won't enjoy it as much as i would like to. n its the last freaking year of my whole academic life. shoots... why cudnt i have enjoyed ALL the mods i did in skl?

perhaps u only enjoy stuff ure good in or u really do better at things u like. chicken or egg.. hmms well i learnt this in mpw. theres a 70% (wassit?) correlation between doing better at things u like.. woots. so lets leave it at that.

I wanna go but so many doubts linger. I need to live without regrets for once.

an interesting read for football fans esp those of spain
http://soccernet.espn.go.com/columns/story?id=472599&root=euro2008&cc=4716&lpos=spotlight&lid=tab1pos3

explains why i hatehateHATEE stupid teams that play it rough or stop cesc from playing. it stops the beautiful gameee! and Spain from winning things! maybe they will win this time im in spain haha

who knew

first of all.. who knew that my stray cat is toilet trained. and when i mean toilet trained i dont mean knows how to go to the toilet to use the kitty litter.. which btw i dont use kitty litter cos its damn smelly.. tts why i preferr stray cats who shit outside haha but one day the cat walked into the toilet and i thot wanted to drink water as usual. walked over to see what was up n lo n behold.. its ass was over the hole and gave me that blinkblink expression cats give when they are in the middle of sth ahha. i COULDNT believe my eyes but the next thing i knew it she moved away so perhaps i thot she wasnt toilet trained but she started to paw the ground the same way a cat would try to cover its shit with soil. oh my cat is so smart! :D getting fatter by the minute too.. thank goodness black is a slimming color haha

next.. who knew there are some of my relatives who think im lean muscular.. and its unfair to have a sister who is so skinny tt i seem like the round and grreedy one BOO

who knew we cud cover 8 houses in 1 day.. it got pretty fun towards the end catching up with gossip and whatnots haha but the thought of continuing on the journey to the west is simply exhausting.. omg and tts ONLY my dads side.. ohhhh theh complicatedness of our family tree. After years of editing and uploading, its still lacking and MAJORLY long.. madness. at least now i know i have relatively good looking relatives :P even the right kind of geek cute tt i adore in a 2nd cousin ahahha..

who knew :)

OH YAYYYYY!!!!!!!!!! i saw the poster for this movie as i was going home from skl at Dhoby Ghaut MRT.. took a double look wondering why the hell is the j-drama tt i watched (only earlier this year) has a poster up now.. turns out there is going to be a movieeee!! with the same castt! whipeee!!! yay to takuya kimura! haha yay to the other actors who i really like too! oh crap im such a drama addict! but still.. INK the date emily! its 22nd November 2007.. ooh perfect! 1 week before finals start.. WE MUST WATCH! hahaha

its only been the past few weeks that has got me thinking of who i am as a cultural mix. Sure I say I'm half and half. but what does it mean to be a half? When i say it, pple seem to say 'oh no wonder!' as if it explains my love for jap/korean dramas and listening to jay chou lol. I guess I've always felt purely malay but even then.. perhaps not entirely. like how certain guys say they prefer chinese girls because malay girls are of a certain sort.. arent i an exception!? yknow how we've learnt from mpw tt we tend to lump pple into certain groups for the sake of familiarity? what do pple lump me as? what does it mean to be of my heritage? of cos there are actually quite alot of us out there. considering the time when we played mahjong at mld chalet, we realised there was more chinese blood flowing thru all of us than there was malay lol. but yea.. just contemplated the thought of hey i could be different if i actually knew what it felt like to be a real chinese.

really needs to vent

cant do micro
means cant do 3 mods
means have to do with year ones when im a dino
means it shifts mods i was supposed to do with frens over
means future terms are killer
means term spent might not be money's worth
means i feel awful
siiiiiiighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
WHYYYYY

geek alert

just read most of the articles for fiim project..thank god im only compiling the numbers portion. reading one paragraph of the wordy/crisis sections put me to sleep. nevertheless all the economist articles make for fun reading! which is odd considering all the times ive attempted to read them has led to me simply looking at headlines after headlines.. mebbe its cos the small print turns me off haha.. i DONT do wordsss... but numbers can annoy too like how the stupid numbers have escalated by 1.3 TRILLION in 1.5yrs NUTS! tts about .1 trillion per mth! how is tt even possible!?

oh yes and it is only 12noon on the sunday of the midterm break. ive managed a very successful morning of baking cookies and compiling fiim! since ive been awake from hmm 530am, i blahdy need a nap NOWW

say yay to semana ocho

Ive been dying for week 8 to come.. and its finally here! But, it seems that it will be rather packed considering the crazy ass skl work i have to do on top of making kueh and cleaning the house and the softball clinic.. rar.. this was supposed to be a time to kick back and watch endless amounts of dramaa... but doesnt seem so. boo

oh right then theres tuition.. whipee the last timeee for the yr.. altho tt means no more income at least i get my nights. was chit chatting with my tuteee abt his 'gf' which reminded me that we're past that stage of does he or doesnt he like me? the innocent naive times haha not to say i had too much of such an experience but yea..

ok i take back the curse

its not their fault ok mebbe partly.. why is their deadline in DECEMBER!? so the skl has us on the lowest priority.. boooooooo!

n why starhub is not showing ARSENAL PLAY!? ok wait im not supposed to write anything before a match.. lest i jinx it!

well in better news, ive finally gotten SOME of the egypt fotos from dzarrins comp by insisting he put them in my thumb drive.. n was messing ard with picasa.. so walah! looong overdue http://picasaweb.google.com/ilihazwani/Dzarrins

i forsee this shall be where i put up nicenicefotos sans any unwanted i dont want mummy n daddy to see ones haha

oooo CURSE the (in)efficiencies of the spaniards.
mac has done god knows how many things in preparation for his exchange, and my uni has yet to even respond.. phooey. I doooo love my spain.. but of cos in all anticipation, im even more anxious to go.. to prepare and just start my funnn! it sucks though that everyone is in a small town and the valencian airport only links to the busier airports like london and paris.. How am I supposed to travel to all the the remaining quirky places in europe? like holland and austria? Any other suggestions of the mustgos and travel tips!?

Speaking of travel, met up with fang, dee n hon at holland v trying fake churros and as usual 4 pple sharing damn little food cos we didnt feel like ordering anything haha.. cant wait till i finally become part of tt group of pple who meet up with other pple in europe lol..

n yay to someone who made my day! we both have cute smiles! lol

filming.. in another language.
so on sunday saw suria filming for rarabazar.. today saw hey gorgeous instead haha.. for my darling friends who have no idea what it is, its where fiona xie and company (pardon tt i have no idea who the other hosts are besides michelle chia) invade different schools each week to find the cutest guys/girls in skl. subjected to voting of their looks and personality. the most interesting part of the day was when we all realised that the general dressing of girls today saw a big jump from denim skirts and jeans to dresses... lots n lots of dresses.. lots skimpy too. heck saw a girl today who wore satin polka dot short shorts.. she looked like she forgot to change out of her pjays. saw a couple of towel-tubedresses too... too bad the contestants didnt really showcase the besttt of the skl.. we all bet that if jianfeng had gone up, he wud have won hands down. anyway, the smu episode is supposedly airing in 2 weeks time on monday.. :) shd be fun.. even tho theres no subtitles so ill have to makedo with my pathetic level of mandarin ahha.. translator anybody?

Porque sin ti mi vida yo no soy feliz Porque sin ti mi vida no tiene raíz

poofed

So... was supposed to spend the day catching up on macro readings. but instead when traipsing ard the eastern part of Sg ahaha.. Shopping at Ikea is exciting because u never know what ull end up with at the end of the loooong walk through everything! This time ended up with a bathroom scale haha, a new bright blue towel, foto frames for the 2 papyrus I bought from Egypt and other stuff parents dumped in the trolley lol. n omg they even sell kuih raya at ikea. parents actually bought 2 types! just for kicks.. haha

so after we loaded up the car and i promptly fell asleep on the 2 new pillows, we headed to geylang to buy dinner. OMG there was a whole stretch of road dedicated to Ramly burgers and kebabs.. and dyed-haired mats manning the ramly burger stalls haha. the heat and meat got to me esp since i was all cranky from just waking up phooey.. n there was hardly anything itneresting to eat boo.. and takopachi queue was loooong.. so i didnt get my customary octupus balls! but.. met shah in the midst of it all.. he attempted to sell me random baju kurungs.. n when i came back later.. saw a whole tv crew ard him.. which i THEN remembered he was so enthusiastic abt RA RA BAZAAR. lol. i guess we can keep an eye out for him on SURIA later this mth..

soooo tireddd.. in random news, found 2 other pple going to valencia via facebook.. weeee i wanna go for exchange ALREADDYYYY..

Back in my freshie days, someone mentioned that when girls hit y3 and haven't gotten attached, they start being very nice to their male counterparts. I smiled and laughed along hoping I wouldn't have to witness this myself. but OH SHUCKS.. it seems my pattern never ends.. haha i do realise though.. its when im absolutely comfortable with who i am and very happy with what i have, that these things start creeping in n playing ard with my insecurities. Even though it might seem easier to laugh it off with each time, maybe its just the numbing effect taking place instead. But yknow what? I am happy with where I am right now.. I have fabulous friends and family.. I'm gonna have a kickass term in valencia coming up.. so why?

Honestly what will become of me
don't like reality
It's way too clear to me
But really life is dandy
We are what we don't see
Missed everything daydreaming
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end

When the offer came in, I didn't know whether to be happy or sad.. Sad cos I didn't get my first 2 choices in Barcelona but happy cos its the one with the longest period yet a cheaper cost of living. Muddled around for a week.. Did some research.. and gosh.. I never knew the Valencia emblem had a freaking BAT on it! freakky..

But now knowing that the slots are all filled up and theres bound to be at least 1 person I know who is going.. My spirits are up again. Esp after looking at pictures of people on exchange! PLUS.. since its a relatively smaller town, I'm just thinking what my chances are of bumping into these 2 fellas. :) OOh can we fastforward this term already!! Choices choices choices.. Should I sacrifice my Dec holiday to intern at Tangs? After all, if i really am on my way to valencia, I'll have the whole of January to bum around.. But would I miss out if my softies had a camp? ayeee.. I guess y3 is when theres lotsa things to do.. but its scarily coming to tt foreboding thing called WORK.. ew

ili has got the sniffles. in more ways than one

newly formed thomson kakis supper.. but minus ching now tt she is somewhere along her way to the swiss.. boohoo.. but tts part of the sniffles.. the other is the ever runny nose of my.. i hate getting seeckk. GAH... altho it does give me valid reasons not to study :) i just cant do this thing called mugging anymore..

Oh happy days!

Team dinner turned out to be a camp in disguise.
Imagine meeting more or less the same people for 3 days straight for a large portion of those 3 days. This even excludes last weekend madness.
Friday 330-10pm: Training + Team dinner at Swensons. Best turnout ever! in the end our 80 dollars voucher only covered our gst haha.
Saturday 745am-430pm : Cancelled game turned team breakfast turned mahjong/PS session at liangjuns house before grabbing some team lunch before our 1245 match. Add on Team Tea at rochor tauhuay and guys LAN session before going home to concuss/mug BEFORE
sundays matches.. 1 more day left to our camp it seems. It certainly has been sometime since we were decked in the same outfits running ard together by public transport. Oh what scarce happy days that remain.. I shall treasure theee..

officially has munjen hair

weeee!
i would post a high-induced happy post but im a bit dead to...
Part one of my grand weekend is over. down to part 2 in Hougang Mall then part 3 at Kallang again and the Finale at the airport. Now I remember why we love this game. Beautiful hits, great plays and all the jokes, cheers and encouragement along the way. Lets stay tight.. this could be the beginning of sth really beautiful.

(R-L) R1: Jz, calvin, sihowe, josh, bertie, joo, vincent, kennard, victor, jianwen, liangjun R2: Yvonne, Grace, me, Claire, Kervin R3: Ching, Ying, huiling, jianwei

Presenting........ *drumrolls* SMU's first ever slowpitch team! Fresh after a 7-0 win over the Combined Schools team! *sniff Oh how we've grown!

i just had to add this

"He's like a Wenger lab experiment - a bit of Henry, Adams, Dennis, Grimandi, Paddy and Overmars - all mixed up and poured into the tiny body of a fucking Spanish warrior."\

one of the cesc fans on facebook summed it up quite nicely.

omg i am a girl.

shit hahha.. so much for the inner tomboy. Today was the best Wednesday or even fridays turnout ever. 16 pple! awesome! yknow when ure in danger u do things on instinct. apparently my instincts tell me im a girl. Stuck in a hop box position where i was headed for Home plate but Jian Wen one of the new guys caught the ball behind me. I thought AHHH!! SHITT what do i do!? apparently it wasnt just silent in my head well the later part of that sentence was.. so evyerone just heard me shriek! shit damn paiseh! and the thing is.. i didnt even realise i shrieked..! i totally forgot about it. until one of the guys started laughing at me. and told me what i just did.. craps.
it didnt help that my softball idol was right beside witnessing this little lapse in ruggedness. Incredibly embarrassed! Just as much as when Joshua rubs it in about how much I love Kenneth's throw.. I bow at his feet man at how beautiful his throws are. Utterly swoonable. The guys are just awesome this year and it would be an utter waste not to see them compete in SUNIG. Curse one of u other unis who doesnt want to play!

Picked up from The Guardian. they really tend to have great interviews/insights.

How Fabregas plans to save Arsenal

His startling youth is confirmed by some of his more relaxed early memories at Arsenal. "When I scored my first goal, against Wolverhampton, I went home and celebrated by drinking a Coca-Cola and eating a Kinder Egg. Even now I go twice a month to visit my old Irish landlady. Noreen is a very nice lady who helped me and Philippe Senderos a lot when we lived with her and her sons. I spent 2½ years there and it was very special. The last 18 months I have been mostly living on my own. My girlfriend was studying in London last year and she was with me but now she has had to go back to Spain to finish her course."

Other familiar faces have also gone. "Apart from Gilberto, Kolo [Touré] and Jens [Lehmann] - only those three - the team has changed a lot since I came. But look at Barcelona. Three seasons ago they were a club undergoing lots of changes because they went six years without winning anything. They changed their team completely and started winning again. Sometimes you need change."

Part of that difference entails Arsenal's readiness to stand up to increasingly physical opposition. "It's true we didn't feel comfortable in the past going to places like Everton and Bolton. But you have to learn and it took two years for us to adapt to this way of thinking. Before, we would know Blackburn and Bolton and the others would play this way and we were not confident we could handle it. Now we are ready to fight. Our objective is to show everybody that it doesn't matter whether teams are physical against us, whether they play the long-ball or good football, we will not lose easily this season."

Even Arsenal's European opposition now attempt to bully them. Sparta's captain, Tomas Repka, a former West Ham hardman, had promised to leave Arsenal's footballers in a clattering heap. "We were having dinner in Prague," Fábregas remembers, "and Tomas Rosicky told us what Repka said. I don't like to hear these words from other teams."

Fábregas duly brought down Repka, forcing him to limp away from a spiky encounter. It looked as if he had taunted the defender when he lay on the ground. Did he relish the "Fábregas the Enforcer" headlines? "No!" he laughs with a bemused shake of his head. "I've been educated to play football, not to kick. Of course, sometimes you have to do it because you want to help your team but I can guarantee I will not change my game."

Yet Fábregas's desire to display the steel to match his visionary talent can only bolster Arsenal's previously fragile brilliance. Approaching the fourth anniversary of his arrival in London another stronger and tougher side to the boy-wonder is already evident - even when he smiles sweetly and protests that "I'm not hard against other people. I'm only hard on myself."

Fantasy Fab!

Woootsss.. This is the season that the trio that shall be known as van persie, alex hleb and the very awesome cesc fabregas will blossom n do some kick ass damage. The cool head maintained by hleb, fab and kasper schmeichel were inspiring indeed and they played most outstandingly. This is what happens though when you don't do your research well enough for fantasy football. I of course root for Arsenal but totally forgot they were playing Man City, whose keeper is the cutest little boy on earth. with the finest genetics for goalkeeping. persie, fab, hleb and kasper made my list. once i found out.. it was too late to change, so kaspers points were sacrificed.

Sports is in my blood. While walking around with rachel during cca day, I was not itnerested in anything else besides sports ccas. Really wanted to try out muay thai and handball but i have no friends to do them with! Recre fishing kinda sounds fun too. and perhaps a go-karting trip in a mths time? hopefully STH materialises haha. Next 2 weekends will be the slow-pitch competition. Should be funfun! Trained with the guys n yvonne today. As someone who set this team up from nothing, it gives me a helllava pride to see the number of talented softies we now have. It would definitely be exciting to watch the guys play competitive fast pitch. Lets make this work! Bring Kenneth and his chio throw back!

these days, i either feel lost or a freaking dinosaur.

okie just being a tad dramatic but still.
finance & econs.
FIIM class scares the HELLL out of me.. scary knowitalls.. 2 saving graces are tt it actually gives practical knowledge AND cute spanish guys tt sit behind me haha
econs classes are a roller coaster of emotions because its either sad for being so old, scared that i'll need some other prereq before doing it or happy tt i actually for ONCE in uni like what im doing. but i guess, the older you get, the wider your social network gets and so it seems even tho i bidded for practically every class alone.. I really am not. thank goodness for that.

call me a girl but HEY YOU PUT ON WEIGHT is a bothersome comment. well at least I know we're old enough buddies to be blunt with each other. i know i haven't been exercising and the cheeks give it all away too quickly. It doesn't help though that I had 2 separate lunch dates with my 2 fav lunch treating boys and tea with the girlies (read: jayne, grace, lance) today.

u sure know uve been old frens when u can hurl insults to one another and know theres still love haha. I guess the start of school has pretty much been okay. still in the HEYYY HAVENT SEEN YOU HOW WAS SUMMER? phase.. introductions and all the wayang stuff are such a waste of time though. I need to do sth more substantial with my life.

same place. different memories.

2.5mths ard this area.. one skl trip here in the past. and then, 5 girls high on laughter

everyday should be good days

im always super annoyed when I don't get to watch fabregas score.

but YAY! keep them coming! really hope cesc, hleb n persie rake in the goal tally this season!

I could be brown
I could be blue
I could be violet sky
I could be hurtful
I could be purple
I could be anything you like
Gotta be green
Gotta be mean
Gotta be everything more
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like me?
Walk out the door!

omg.. the coveted ONE day left.
yayness
A real new beginning..
Let's be happening!

080807

Possibly the most memorable 8th of August ever! Was sent into peals of laughter alot today..

(In photo, Starting from bottom, clockwise) Was tinily star struck by going to Caldecott to watch the live recording of Variasi Petang with Riz Sunawan and Suriani Kassim. They have such nice voices!! i likee!! and i loved that suriani was so comfortable that she cud slip in and out of recordings and talks so smoothly!! its really sth! n boy can DJs talk haha. (LEFT) Hung out a bit with the boss today, though after today I guess he'll just be known as Adi.. Really hope to keep in touch! Thoroughly enjoyed all the times we talked. (Top & Right) Halima's engagement party. We only send her all the love in the world! and it was awesome fun hanging out with the random rj peeps haha.. and anuja is such a shutter happy girl tt she finished my memory card with random shots!! tsk!

omg!
8 more days!!
down from 49!
ill really really miss my bossss. he's possibly the best boss u cud ever ask forrr!
all the stupid lame jokes.. the times racking the brain for malay translations... n the CARRR haahha..

A weekend in KL

oh my.. what a weekend! disappeared to KL right after work and coming back only to start work 8hrs later again.. *groan* but in between spent scouting every inch of Mid Valley Shopping Centre haha, attending a cousins oh so posh wedding and meeting up with my lovely muns! It's like no time has passed and we're still little girlies back in JC.. still talking abt boys.. and catch up with old old gossip haha.. But thoroughly enjoyed the time in msia! hehe it was good feeling like I knew where I was going, the culture and the food but at the same time, feeling like on holiday cos its not home. the only bad thing was.. I couldnt bitch in malay haha and when i was helping out with the guest registration and seat allocation, I didn't know that the guy in front of me was a Tan Sri!! haha oops. n was semi star struck by a couple of msian artistes.. not too popular tho.. but all the guys still thought they were hot.. if u have any idea who the popular twins are.. they look like azza ELITE. & radi was the EMCEE for the night.. supposedly with OG ahmad daud, but apparently she cudnt make it. aw the 5 hr bus ride didnt feel too painful so perhaps ill reconsider taking many more mini vacays there.. but only with myuk around!! :)

*warning: psycho paranoia entry

OMG
whinewhinewhinewhinewhine
im gonna be a weirdo y4 takingmicro n macro alone..
as it is im taking all my mods except FIIM next sem alone..
omg.. *breathe*
new pple.. new experiences..
its ok ili.. just bear one more termmm.. then ull be off to europeeee!!
(n then back to bear another years worth of freshie embarassment omg)
shit im hyperventilatingg.. ackkkkk
n then OFF to work.. while the rest of my frens are still studying
OMGGGGGG
shit i hate this

suits.shirt.scrubs.heels

its so odd.. that as im sitting on my 19th bday prez ('i would like to be a ____ when i grow up' bedsheet) i see pictures of all of us clad in our future officewear. unnerving. hmmm.. i think id rather be a soccermom hahah. a la victoria beckham perhaps. minus the fakeness abt her of course! i keep mulling over this.. (our oldness not the beckham) n maybe.. i should stop mulling. since i tend to mull the days away.. im twenty-freaking-one. wheres the enjoyment in life dammit!

one night of sleep does wonders for the dark eye rings..

So yest I worked at the BH event from 730am-630pm which warranted a day off today. Altho I'd rather take a day off on the same day as the boss o/w theres really no work to do. But im sheeck. so forgive me aha.. Yest was kinda fun... Talked to all the aunties who wanted to open bank accounts.. they're so cute. haha And boss n i didnt think we wud have such a huge response. We only photocopied 50 application forms the day before and they were all promptly used up by the end of the day w/o much persuasion. Yay! Didnt realise it was so late.. so boss sent me homee hehe.. and he opened the top cover!! I was.. "OOOOH!!! CAN I STAND!?" hahah too bad it started raining a while after.... but i still saw pple gaping at the car haha weee!!!! ooh and khairudin saharom's brother was working with us too.. they look alike! kinda.. in case u dont know who tt is.. he's a cute malay artiste who is also an architect... vvv eligible indeed ahha. ah... i wished today stretched as long as possible..

Promptly cheered up by the genius of Edward Monkton.. INSANELY cute stuff!
1) i WANTWANTWANTWANTTTT the first item: Where are we going? - and its aptly (or not) a passport cover LOL
2) & omg.. ALL my hair wants to be dragons...
3) INSANELY cute rock pig!
4) my favorite one of them all.

my dear friends from the UK, would you buy them for meeee hehe

shagged to the pt of being sick.

thx for putting up with all my nonsense & playing taboo (altho i wud have liked to play too except i was busy catching up with pple etc.) & playing captains ball and getting all sweaty hehe

all of u guys who were so sporting (literally as well) who were prepared in yr tshirts n shorts.. i cudnt believe u guys actually did tt :D yay! 21 is just a number! i can be 16 if i want to haha

the best part was probably when em said it was one of the better parties she's been to and josh said tt was the first non-alcoholic 21st bday he's been to that was surprisingly fun. LOL. can we have more random meetups just to play captains ball and taboo!? :D

& yes as the title of the post says it.. I think I'm falling sick.. but i guess its worth it.. as long as I can get an mc for tomorrow eheheh

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JHzz2mO5uSc

Because I'm loved muchmuch!

Talk about kiasu.. its barely my last hour of 20-hoodem & already I've seen my Sembawang American Naval Base fireworks (see video above), gotten a REAL angpow from my parents, a lovely visit by Jayne who nuttily waited for me to come online just to make sure I'm home to send fabulous roses & cake right to my doorstep & very many birthday wishes.

tomorrow doesnt have to come to know that itll be great :)

thanks!

Presentinggg... Mr Italiano called Luigi Dimitri Alfa Romeo..
my boss' 2nd love.. (assuming he loves his wife more)
well.. old convertibles don't look as nice as the current ones but the insides pretty sweet.

haha lets just hope, when I'm his age, I'll be successful enough to own one of these babies (but ill prob get a nicer one haha) & be happy where I am.. life sure pans out in stages.. and this would make for a nice goal for the next phase of my life :)

20 years 364 days 21hrs & counting...

Fly Away from Here - Aerosmith
Gotta find a way
Yeah I can't wait another day
And nothin' gonna change
If we stay around here
Gotta do what it takes
Cause all in our hands
We all make mistakes, yeah
But it's never to late to start again
Take another breath
And say another prayer

Then fly away from here
Anywhere Yeah I don't care
We'll just fly away from here
Our hopes and dreams are out there somewhere
Won't let time pass us by
We'll just fly

why cant i be allowed to dream big?
why cant i stay naive?
why cant i remain having the same wonder and innocence as young child?

why must reality slam the door in your face
why am i so concerned over appearance, image and status
why, does our world have limitations?

i like being an idealist. cant i just remain this way?
if life doesnt get better than this, maybe it should just stop.
maybe its the paranoia before the 21st.
but growing up is such a big pain in the arse!

hmmm.. pple keep asking me what i want for my birthday..
honestly, theres nothing material im dying for.. unless u buy me the whole zara store of course. oooh or cesc fabregas! a bf candidate would be nice too.. but im realistic :P lol

i guess im looking forward to just having some good fun, as unconventional as a 21st bday as it might be.. captains ball will always be fun to me.. with super rara friends around. :) i know how 21st bday presents can really burn a whole in pple's pockets and in jon chens words 'hold a party. to recoup losses' haha but yea i do enjoy the small customized touches.. :) so no worries.. come and if you have fun, ILL have fun.>!

teehee

This is what happens when u get 2 cheapos who were kinda full on briyani but still wanted dessert + great service.

Had originally planned to go bakerzinn at one fullerton for dessert but turns out it isnt there anymore! oh well.. we had to make do with starbucks but it was worth it because of cos with all the well-heeled and business-y pple ard, service must be top-notch.. hehe played on this fact to get freebies along with our order. we only ordered ONE choc cake-like thingy between the 2 of us.. but it looked kinda sad alone on the plate and i thot the choc wud have melted upon heating but it didnt.. so rachel decided to ask for whipped cream and i asked for chocolate syrup hehe n they kindly decorated the plate n cream with choc yummm.. ray still unabashedly asked for 2 cups of iced water.. hehehe.. all for a lowlow price of 550! (for 2)

shucks.. too bad its ray's last week.. im gonna miss having spillyrguts sessions and loooooong lunches with her.. hehe.. but yknow how pple normally loveee tt their bosses are away.. i want mine backkk. or at least let me come along to kL!

psyche up!

omgosh! did my research on spain exchange.. LIKE FINALLYYYY this may hopefully finally materialise.. n it seems my best option is valencia.. its the cheapest n the uni seems to be the most accmodating.. even tho its like somewhere southern of spain n not THE most happening place.. heck ill just take 2 weeks off travelling at a shot! haha.. omgomgomg i want this so bad!! pray for me!

need.to.breathe.

the bubble tt ive been living in for the past month is wearing thin..
help!

oh the shaggedness of it all

And this marks the proper end of BSM. I've never been this occupied for long stretches of my life before. and its still not over.. after this, 9 more weeks of according to mac, being lower than scum.. then 15 weeks of school... THEN a month of holidays.. woots! before hopefully flying off to god knows what country i shall exchange in.. how exciting! if i can get past these 24 weeks first.. oh dear.. 24 weeks!?

& since christina has taught me the wonders of picasa, im now in with the programme haha. all the fotos i forgot i had on my hp!

1. The huge ass rainbow that formed outside my office window after the storm

2. Juice in Dubai called Joo's

3. Burj Al arab which made my wallpaper in Dubai

4. Egyptian Kitty!

5. The Red Sea, Current HP wallpaper

6. Zara Home, (yet another reason to love dubai)

7. Oceans 13 trailer with arab subtitles! (watched pirates in dubai!)

8. Shoes shoes shoes! mind u tts only one row out of like PLENTY.. i really really thought of jayne at tt moment, but its too ex :(

9. MY CAR! haha yummy.

I WANT THIS TSHIRT!

not so much cos of its design.. but its prob what ive been echoing the past 230445345 years :)

so if any of u are interested, my birthday is coming up hehehhe...

which perhaps I WILL have a 'idontwanttogrowup' themed bday party.

anyhoo.. met rachel for lunch today! yay.. the little things to keep sane 47 more days to go!

the bad thing abt counting down internship days is tt it counts the no. of days till skl starts.. eek

but today was relatively fun. met up with mediacorp/suria with regard to advertising opportunities.. it was hilarious cos my sup hardly watches tv and still tinks basir is the head.

enough blogging! reports need to be conquered!

Little did I know that my deadline for 2 BSM reports are on FRIDAY!!! ie.. IM DEAD!! im currently staring at report v1 and empty learning journal, and what am i doing? I am blogging.. well, gotta start the creative writing juices flowing somehow right?

Anyway, I survived my first day of work! Well if you could call it work... I just sat around and read all the fact sheets and services they provided trying to store all the instrument names and its uses. i really wanted to sleep at certain points but considering the department is SO tiny.. itll be really obvious and such a bad thing to start off the job with. but at least my small boss has got nice dimples.. :) The job scope suddenly became super daunting but hopefully I can really contribute! unlike the paper that I read written by the MBA students.. bleh.. i could have written a better paper and there were 6 pple working on it.. sheesh. not to mention the billion grammatical errors.. no one proofread it obviously.

Think the best thing I've realised from my 3 weeks abroad is the sense of independence.. like wow finally I get to take care of myself for real.. felt real good. Like I found my confidence again and it took me on such a high that I stopped worrying about the small things.. the people were super nice & everything was smooth sailing & I get to pass through Fullerton underpass every morning :D all i need is a 3 week holiday everytime i feel down :) The travel bug has struck! I WANT TO GO BACK TO DUBAIIIIII!
48 more work days to go!

Dubai

Even though the cost of living is so expensive. even though many think its a bubble.. theres just sth about it that I love. They are trying to build utopia.. and getting as humanly close to it as possible.. i love being surrounded by so mny diff nationalities with not really a single one dominating.. and there is a certain amount of dignity and conservatism that can still go hand in hand with progress which i respect. People like Mr Sultan. theres just an aire about him that just sweeps me off my feet :) *swoon* damn issit jz with the foto haha I want to go backkK!!! soonish...

Hurghada - next to the Red Sea

the clearest sea on earth!! just looking at it calms the soul. I could sit on the boat forever.. not surprising then how dark we are now after snorkelling/swimming/chilling out for 4+ days there! Minus off the fact that there are husslers everywhere, its really a nice place to be.. not to mention my favoritest papa bear, Wafeek. used to be bodyguard to one of the ministers and has taken a bullet shot before.. before retiring after his best fren was shot in the head.. scary stuff. gots loadsa stories to share but too tired noww and for pictures, hit facebook!

till i find the time n energy...!

greetings from cairo

1 week left before i have to go home.. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
never have i felt so resistant abt going home.. prob cos im going to be paid peanuts for my internship for a whole 10 weeks remaining of my hols.. i hope its slack then.. gah

a billion things to do when i get back.. sigh..
this summer is so tiring!!! gonna slack my ass off at resort beach hurghada for 3 nights

last chance for some good times..

ooooooooooooh just watched the last episode of greys!
next season is gonna be gooooooood! i can feel it in my bones..
everyones so screwed up u cant help wanting to know what happens next!
but in sufficient amts not as cliffhanger-ish as last seasons end tho..
oooooooooooooooohhh cant wait for the sister dynamics!!!

anyway,
ill be on my way to the middle east in abt 24hrs time!
till 3 weeks later! :)

1 tooth less

extracted my top wisdom tooth when it was my bottom one tt was giving me painnnn.. having mild pain now prob from the same source but a teeny bit less prob cos no more top one tts biting down on it.. hopefully i dont need to pull out ANYMORE, feels a bit weird tho tt im one tooth less. i brought it home! all bloody too hehe.. but wished to be one of those normal pple with all my teeth in where they shd be. haha.. so still managed to enjoy my sushi albeit it being a teeny bit bloody.. :D

n can pple please stop getting engaged/married! my count is going up to 4. its hard not to compare when certain times in yr life pple expect you to be with someone. heck, you expect you to be with someone. i could be happy as i am. as long as pple STOP getting engaged/married!

owwwww

I knew i shd have gone to the dentist.. now my lower wisdom tooth is prying its way out and causing some serious pain cos my teeth are too big for my jaw.. shucks my teeth are not gonna be straight anymore.. stupid wisdom teeth. why dont u just not come out.. to make things worst, i have a sore throat.. so everything mouth down is in pain AND if i choose to extract my tooth later at 1130pm, I wont be able to eat solid food which is STUPID because i just ordered 28 bucks worth of sushi for my relak one corner day & im leaving for the land of kebabs and MEAT.

talk abt bad timing.. at least i ended up not going for class. my grades are a goner.

i want my straight teeth back.. sulks.

Maybe, we are already old.

Its a bit much.. to see the pace & fragility of life. of the sorrows n heartaches in the soap opera called life. maybe i have been sheltered & it pains me to see pple ard me suffering. I only wished I could do better, be better for their sake. but, i get to see the purity of life. how u shdnt judge someone based on the past & their mistakes when you get to see how sensitive they really are. how mature and thoughtful we've become when my mind is stuck at always given the excuse 'im still young & immature' we dont have an excuse. & the comfort i craved, was given a little to me & it felt good, felt exactly like it shd. putting a smile on my face for no good reason. which i wished happened everyday. with or without it.

maybe time & space just reminds how much some things matter to u
my trip is in 1 week.. but suddenly, i miss my sister so much.
maybe i just dont want to leave home.
its weird.. i spent a nice evening finally just chilling out with her & realised how much the time we have means to me. suddenly, i wished i was travelling with her instead. she's like my comfort pillow, someone i can hide behind, sob over, hug & squeeze no matter how im feeling. sobs.
love her lots!

Plans unravel. shatter. in an instance.

because we can only plan as our capacity of humans.
Someone else decides for us the bigger path.
So what do you do if you lose your plan now?
and yknow how plans have a way of making a web of things, affecting other plans
n like a spider web, one fatal blow just collpases the whole thing
You hope and pray that you find a new plan that is in line with the bigger path, that is better than the last plan.
And I hope and pray that I don't lose myself in the process.

happiness and comfort comes in the form of pasar malam takopachi minus the red ginger stuff

AND procrastinating that other pile of work to be done for bee ass am
AND not thinking abt the billion of pple i know who are gettting engaged

yknow i always knew i was going to have the consolation speech to myself where i say its okay ili. its not abt being left on the shelf.. its ok.. u have a life! (sorta) the right guy just refuses to appear. or rather they dont exist.. but i never expected this speech to start so early on in my life! i havent even hit 21 dammit.. hahhaha dont mind the exaggerations.. but i really cant imagine getting hitched so early on.. altho it wud be nice not to have a generation gap with yr kids.. :P

HAPPY FABREGAS DAY!

For the first time they will no longer call him a teen.

wellwellwell... somehow we all knew it was gona be a milan 'pool Finals even though they both lost their first leg. interesting to note that the last time they met was just next door (ie athens/istanbul)
altho i really do hope that the ruckus/laughable moments of the last finals does not repeat.. although to be honest, that was the first time i actually sat up n took notice of the champs league
but milan rocks! my 'mat' brudder alvin will be so proud of me tt im converted. When seedorf maintained his balance and composure to thump that ball in, the balance they showed in flair, precision and aggression (& not to mention some ricardoizecsondossantos hotness), i knew what im missing out on when i watch the epl and even arsenal.

I feel old & a lil bit scared.

yknow how financial reports are such a blur and u have no idea what the heck everything means. its creepy when u have a vague idea of whats going on & realizing OMG i actually learnt sth from corporate reporting & accounting. HAHA..

but seriously, reading grownup material feels odd. Maybe, all I want to be is shallow and flaky all my life. Or rather, I don't really believe I can be non-shallow haha.. I even forget to read my dailies like Trent! Sigh, but theres a looooong way to go.. having a totally legally blonde moment..
acks.

Supper

I was in the EAST till 330am on a Tuesday morning! haha ok grace n jayne prob sick of me saying it. for the umpteenth time.. but im sorry.. the girl tt stays the furthest deserves to bitch the most :)

the insane amt of food devoured by 4 pple at simpang bedok.. enduring the bitching of the owners for buying rojak n kailan from diff stalls.. the food left more to be desired tho.. thomson road how much nicerrr! haha n the loads of time we attempted to take foto with grace's new cameraaaaa.. swore we wud have stayed there till dawn trying to get a good shot. well, itll be some time till we get an oppor like this again,... gah...

all i really want is to rot the hols away.....

I need a day to recover from all the random nonsense I do and need to do!

I couldnt even will myself up from bed today. Completely looking forward to tomorrow! whipee!

Ili did more silly things yesterday like reach the embassy at 930 when it only opens at 10! spent the morning whining to jayne on the phone.. but was rightly cheered up by watching Meet the Robinsons! there has to be a sequel! they have so many characters but touched on so little! but it was a really fun movie!

anyway random images from softball camp! the most random fun in ages :) stupid earthworm mistaking me as blackbean with chilli sauce.. n the mysterious blue thing is ching haha..

silly silly dayyy

garh!
my days are filled up so quickly... all i want is a day of sleep n slack

anyway, my day was SUPPOSED to start at 930.. was SUPPOSED to meet asilah n dzarrin at orchard mrt then, but hoho guess what time i woke up?? 10. haaiiiz.. fone had 3 msgs.. oh goody asilah is gonna be late too! looked at the clock. shit im never going to reach the embassy and get my foto done by 12. heck just GO! reached orchard mrt, flagged down a cab n theh guy in front of me claimed it as his own, but i begged him for it.. turns out we were going the same way so we shared cabs hahaa.. n the egyptian embassy is ONE HELL OF A RUNDOWN place.. its like some haunted house or sth.. reached there.. n hahahahahha no picture. no passport. no cash. ooh mebbe i can run over to tanglin to get my foto taken.. acks 15mins to 12pm. acks! then was ALREADY late for my 2nd appointment at 1130pm in bugis. aiyaiyai. but headed down for a free lunch n dessert.. weeeeee!! :D
n 230 ran off again with yvonne, jz n joo to go to pri skl to help out with the kids training. but it was freaking muddy n i was NOT in the right attire to be trampling ard in the mud.. hehe have to thank them again for coming.. surprised they offered to come over allll the way to the north :)

sigh but i have to go to the embassy before 12 again tomorrow!!! and get my foto taken tooo before then.. n make sure i dont oversleep again o/w we'll NEVER get ard to booking our flight tickets n whatnots. n have to prepare slides for meeting on thursday.. and have to go to skl to pass cheque to hilary on friday.. booooooooo... sadness... n the week is gone just like tt.. rar

hums.. im such a sucker..

screwed up
theres sth seriously wrong with me.. the one tt everyone complains is hard i can get an A but the one everyone does well I get a B. im so f*ked up lah..

Come down to me - Saving Jane

Words fall out of my mouth
And I can't seem to trace what i'm saying
Everybody wants your time
I'm just dreaming out loud
I can't have you for mine and I know it
I just wanna watch you shine

Tripping up on my tongue
It's all over my face and i'm racing
Gotta get away from you
Burning all the way home
Try to put it to bed but it chases
Every little thing I do
When the light falls on your face
Don't let it change you
When the stars get in your eyes
Don't let them blind you

You're beautiful
Just the way you are
And I love it all
Every line, and every scar
And I wish that I could make you see
This is where you ought to be
Come down to me

Spell it out in a song
Bet you never catch on to my weakness
I'm singing every word for you
Here i'm thinking i'm sly
Then you're catching my eye, and just maybe
You're thinking what i'm thinking too
When you see it on my face
Don't let it shake you
I know better than to try and
Take you with me

I can't rem who sent me this song.. but THANKS! im totally loving it right now

back from Nuah aka Softball Camp

uber fun!
we had the most random fun in all sorts of things!
from eating half price cakes in pyjamas at menotti's
to watching the guys get half drunk
to riding josh's motorbike in the carpark at midnight
to pushing joshua down the concourse slope in a trolley countless times
to sleeping in frujch at 430am to playing stupid things in the swimming pool
to playing joo's funny win lose or draw
to sleeping/watching 300 in an SR
to all the drama tt happened while night cycling
to sleeping at 830am after night cycling
to playing a friendly match against ORA.

the stupidest moment is probably waiting to bath in the gym after night cycling. the gym was supposed to be open at 7am.. so a couple of us went down with all our barang2 waiting for the gym staff to come n open it.. we waited so long, we ended up sleeping outside the gym until 745. felt damn sian already so tried my luck n tapped my card on the door opener.. n voila, it opened.. WAHHHHHH wanted to kick ourselves for insanely waiting outside when it was actually open!!! bathed for 30mins also the gym staff never come.. wahpiangg

n wahlao.. RI's softball diamond is so chio.. n the grass is so fake, u cant even pull it out. but apparently there is a smell of burnt rubber on v hot days. blech! met ms wong too along the way! she's still as cute as ever. n still preparing her lecture material haha. flexi loyalties as i pitched for the ORA team so I ended up cheering for both sides involuntarily.. ahahah.. i swear slow pitch is so much more stress-free than fast pitch.

OMG!!!!!!!! cutest pepsi ad evaa!

Pepsi new adv
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Arsenal - ManCity 2-1 Fabregas
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fabregas rocks my socks!

but didnt manage to catch it cos was too busy girl-talking hahaha thx jayneeee for being the designated driver and hostess n on behalf of the entire smu softball (or rather the guys), we will make u honorary member for entertaining our PS2 request. hahha

I KNEW HE COULD DO IT!

i had all the faith that he would score soon. and he DID.. the stupid part was.. i MISSED ITTTT ackkkss!!! thats what happens when u channel surf.. but he did he did!! all my predictions are coming true.. i HATE missing the fact that i didnt manage to relish the celebration at the same time!!! WINNING GOAL agst the freaking team that arsenal NEVER wins even when they are on a good patch. and of all ironies, perhaps this is the match they stop their losing run.. HAH n what makes it sweeter is that liverpool drew (after charis said she enjoyed watching arsenal self-destruct).. feel all the sweetness of the world todayyyy! hiphiphoorayy!

it must have been fate.

today turned out pretty good. even though i woke up impossibly frightened by the prospect of facing Finance Finals. but justin chan rocks my socks. wud definitely take any classes he's teaching. 50 qns. first 20 was to build up confidence, do-able but not entirely straightforward either. next 20.. STUNNED left so many blanks, thought i was gonna fail. last 10.. relatively do-able considering what the last 20 were. went back to the mid 20s. and with every qn answered, suddenly realised i was ENJOYING the process. totally felt a sense of achievement whenever i slowly managed to figure head or tail of the qn.. but 2 was pure guessing haha. which apparently 1 is right! haha.. but completely happy knowing that I'm not going to dread taking my finance major. even tho i didnt necessarily score well for the finals. its the process tt matter right!

any-o-how, there was the customary visit to Zara for exam survival celebrations and yknow how ive been raving abt wanting to work in zara or inditex, as i walked in a sign said 'NOW HIRING' its the first time ive seen tt all my life. and i dont care what anybody says but its a SIGN. (not just because it IS a sign) its a sign tt zara will be a part of my future haha.. anti-climax.. but summer is completely packed and its not like i wanna be a salesgirl there and they arent exactly hiring interns.. but if anyone knows if they are.. HELL ill drop my banking internship THIS INSTANT.. and sign the dotted lines pronto. pay wudnt matter as long as i get zara discounts! (tts where the money will go to anyway :D) n as i was queueing up at the cashier, the sign read walk in Liat Towers Zara from 2-6pm. Starts Today. i looked at my watch. 2pm. i swear.. if tts not fate, WHAT IS?

sigh. if just!

but its ok.. because its SUMMER 201 TIME!

weeeeeeee... a happiness called Disney... :) love the lyrics!

I'm gonna be a mighty king, so enemies beware!

I've never seen a king of beasts
With quite so little hair

I'm gonna be the mane event
Like no king was before

I'm brushing up on looking down
I'm working on my roar

Thus far a rather uninspiring thing

Oh, I just can't wait to be king!

No one saying do this Now when I said that--
No one saying be there What I meant was--
No one saying stop that What you don't realize--
No one saying see here Now see here!
Free to run around all day That's definitely out--
Free to do it all my way!

I think it's time that you and I
Arranged a heart-to-heart
Kings don't need advice
From little hornbills for a start

If this is where the monarchy is headed
Count me out
Out of service, out of Africa
I wouldn't hang about
This child is getting wildly out of wing

Oh, I just can't wait to be king!

Everybody look left
Everybody look right
Everywhere you look I'm--Standing in the spotlight
Not yet

Let every creature go for broke and sing
Let's hear it in the herd and on the wing
It's gonna be King Simba's finest fling

Oh, I just can't wait to be king!
Oh, he just can't wait to be king!
Oh, I just can't wait...Just can't wait
To be king!

and a tribute to all us muggers..

Hakuna Matata! What a wonderful phrase
Hakuna Matata! Ain't no passing craze
It means no worries for the rest of your days
It's our problem-free philosophy
Hakuna Matata!
Hakuna Matata?
Yeah. It's our motto!
What's a motto?
Nothing. What's a-motto with you?
Those two words will solve all your problems
That's right. Take Pumbaa here
Why, when he was a young warthog...
When I was a young wart hog
Very nice
Thanks
He found his aroma lacked a certain appeal
He could clear the savannah after every meal
I'm a sensitive soul though I seem thick-skinned
And it hurt that my friends never stood downwind
And oh, the shame He was ashamed
Thought of changin' my name What's in a name?
And I got downhearted How did ya feel?
Everytime that I...
Hey! Pumbaa! Not in front of the kids!
Oh. Sorry
Hakuna Matata! What a wonderful phrase
Hakuna Matata! Ain't no passing craze
It means no worries for the rest of your days
It's our problem-free philosophy
Hakuna Matata!
Hakuna Matata! Hakuna matata!
Hakuna Matata! Hakuna matata!
Hakuna Matata! Hakuna matata!
Hakuna Matata! Hakuna--
It means no worries for the rest of your days
It's our problem-free philosophy
Hakuna Matata!
(Repeats)
I say "Hakuna"
I say "Matata"

so that the world will knows how she truly is......... :P

ilililili says:
EH.. then u get to see petr cech lor
ilililili says:
he is playing tonight
[[--jayne;` ]] sabes says:
HE IS?!
omgg!
WHEN
............
ilililili says:
hahha ure damn funny
[[--jayne;` ]] sabes says:
i'm not
[[--jayne;` ]] sabes says:
he's hot
[[--jayne;` ]] sabes says:
blueblue lagoonnnn
ilililili says:
charis disagrees haha
[[--jayne;` ]] sabes says:
charis doesn't like blue lagoons?
.....
[[--jayne;` ]] sabes says:
but he's a bit dumb looking leh
[[--jayne;` ]] sabes says:
haha
ilililili says:
so evil!
[[--jayne;` ]] sabes says:
as in dumb blonde la!
[[--jayne;` ]] sabes says:
not dumb dumb!
ilililili says:
so u really love him for his looks huh
ilililili says:
tsktsktsk
[[--jayne;` ]] sabes says:
oh
[[--jayne;` ]] sabes says:
haha
[[--jayne;` ]] sabes says:
i don't love love
[[--jayne;` ]] sabes says:
i think he's just a bluebluelagoon

charis. says:
hahahaha oh gawwwd that is how..
charis. says:
cringeworthy

charis. says:
ILI! u must have influenced her somehow
charis. says:
gotta help her get her sense back

[[--jayne;` ]] sabes says:
CHARIS
[[--jayne;` ]] sabes says:
haah
[[--jayne;` ]] sabes says:
chariiss you know you love the blueblue lagoon!

[[--jayne;` ]] sabes says:
aiyah.. this charis ah! must learn to love them.. if not for their skills, their looks

charis. says:
i just fell to the floor, i swear

[[--jayne;` ]] sabes says:
i love guys for their intelligence
[[--jayne;` ]] sabes says:
so explain to me why i like the dumb blonde again?

ilililili says:
wud u kill me if i posted all of this up?
ilililili says:
pple will think its all fictional lor
[[--jayne;` ]] sabes says:
erm
[[--jayne;` ]] sabes says:
hahaha
[[--jayne;` ]] sabes says:
depends on how you post it up
[[--jayne;` ]] sabes says:
can la.. you just include a disclaimer that i'm not normaly like this can?
[[--jayne;` ]] sabes says:
HELLO WORLD! PLEASE BELIEVE ME! I'M REALLY NOT NORMALLY LIKE THIS!

Of finance n hot guys.

i completely appreciate melvyn teo's sense of humor when setting finance papers.
case in point
If Oscar the grouch has a stock with a sharpe ratio and low returns, compared to Cookie Monster....
Chewbacca wants to create homemade leverage...
Shoemaker Inc has paid Raikkonen Inc to research on the project...

provides the rare giggle while i trudge along...
sports really do provide the best distractions during the mugging season.
1) watched the Boston Red Sox game in skl this morning over Sopcast.
2) Arsenal v Newcastle couple of hours ago (i still believe fabregas will score soon!)
3) Champs League matches in mid week
4) Yankees game tomorrow morning...
5) damn exciting F1 grand prix over the weekend.

n then theres the first time i hear jayne squeal HOTNESS wrt so many guys haha
1. Cech
2. josh duhamel
n the list goes on.. :)

back to Shoemaker Inc... booo

p/s
spanish word of the day is latir which means throb..
guess we can call heartthrobs, latir corazon? :)

its just unfair how some pple are just so hot!
before totti looked greek-god-like, he was jude-law-like!
pretty pple are gd to look at.. esp after arsenal died in the hands of westham.
felt every pain of the missed chances n woodwork hits.. esp all of cescs chances..
le sigh.