with peiyan in in alex's LOVELY pool room.. no not swimming pool.. i could roll ard tt bed forever!

and xmas prezzies below.. the first 7 to arrive.. ended up with abt 40.. haha


a ljungberg groupie and a ljungberg wannabe ahahahha..

serak

my voice is so sexyy.. gah the rest of the time when i try to speak loudly, i sound like chewbacca.. yes tt hairy dude tt wails in star wars..

anyways.. finally met Twan! he's nice! when yest the flight came in early.. today the flight got delayed and then he took like FOREVER to come out.. so introed myself to his host mom while trying to figure which blonde dude is him haha.. he must have been the last dude off the plane mann.. even this cute overmars-like guy waiting for pple on the same flight left before he even appeared.. n finally a guy in a green shirt with goatee appears.. yayee.. haha..

anyway, he called me ilai.. haha ok not his fault.. my msn nick was on ilai so he thot it was pronounced like tt.. so i told him only my close frens call me tt.. so he said so ill call u ili for now.. and hopefully soon ill call u ilai.. hahhaa.. anyway, being all excited he got on the wrong side of the cab and was so happy cos he said at home the roads were all white with snow but here everythings clear.. my sis thinks he looks like a slightly broader version of persie.. but erh.. a bit mebbe.. anyway, cabbed to the house at tanjong rhu... my godd.. he really struck lottery with accomodation! the condo is located opposite the indoor stadium so the window has a lovely view of it.. n the host mom is SUPER hmm to put it nicely accomodating hahah.. like she gave a tiny vibe like she was all possessive over him hahaha.. n a little shocked tt i knew his whole agenda for his first few days.. but okaylah.. she's nice.. the security feature of her condo is abit much tho.. like u can only go to yr own floor with a swipe of yr card.. like wow what a way to promote neighborliness.. as if pple still cant rob u anyway.. left him to wash up and everything but meeting up with him tomorrow.... perhaps we'll talk of football :p erh i hope he didnt think my voice was natural tho.. tt must sound freaky.. hahah..

and any ideas of where to bring him to and what food at where to recommend will be most appreciated.. im no singaporean who knows which stall the katong laksa is at and etcetc.. esp for chinese food.. or sth to do in the heartlands.. where he's staying hardly counts as anything averagely singaporean.. what a way to portray singapore.. aphooey! sg is such a little faker..

but i figured the airport is a really nice place to waste yr time at hahaha.. i understand it now ain.. haha.. i cud sit at some cafe with a hot cup of coffee and read a book and just stare at the pple walking in n out.. sounds like a good way to waste away an afternoon.. :) terminal 2 especially hahaha..

today was incredibly eventful.. in quite the wrong sense haha...
Alex's xmas party in Bkt Panjang last night..which was pretty fun, and the gift exchanges were so silly.. i ended up with a pink water bottle.. which is actually kinda cute hahha..shall upload pix later.. esp the one with my pseudo ljungberg.. steve got a 'tatoo' of ljungberg's signature tummy tatoo on his arm.. so poser!! ahaha but told him ill just have to photoshop his face mwahha..

so then trudged all the way to ULU opera estate! It is a BAD idea to NOT sleep before picking up people EARLY at the airport.. 'Slept' over at sarah's house (tankew for all the cookies and water & alphabet blanky haha) watched Emma till abt 2+am its pretty good! Mr Knightley is soo charming... where can you find such a great guy but in a picture perfect world with perfect English! ah yes and we just ended up talking till 5am.. n thot hmm mebbe we shud get some shuteye.. woke up realizing we were sorta late or rather would have been JUST right IF their flight hadnt come in 25mins earlier than expected!!! didnt know what to do.. so sat right in the airport till 9am hoping some blur american with lotsa luggage will come barrelling thru.. tt didnt happen.. obviously.. attempted sleeping on the couch at pacific coffee.. and wondering what to do.. decided to give up at 10am (haha yes 3 hrs doing NOTHING in the airport.. wasnt too bad tho) n head to town.. when.. *drumrolls* MIA guy finally calls sarah saying he was in skl!!! my goodness.. he was MIA until then that we were beginning to question his existence! so trudged all the way to skl haha n brought them along to Lavender to get their student pass, buy all their cards and alll... its quite hilarious to see them use the EZlink cos they just pause, kinda slowing down traffic behind! n apparently they took the train down to Bugis from the airport at abt 710am (we came at 715 hahaha) n imagine peak hour traffic with them and ALL their bags... woops! and at lavender.. u CANNOT imagine how long the freaking queue is!! being all new n confused, we resorted to asking these pple who also looked like exchange students.. (apparently from ntu hahaha) what to do exactly.. apparently u have to queue for a queue number.. n tt queue was INSANELY long!! we left them at hmm 1230am perhaps n they were still waiting for the 2nd queue at 130pm.. twan is definitely coming at 8am in the morning.. hopefully beating the awful queue!

ended up leaving them to mingle with the other exchange students so i went to SPCA to play with the kitties.. alot of kittens.. n a veryyy manja cat was totally sleeping on my lap.. damn wanted to bring him home.. managed to see n play with Stinky n Sweetie.. love them to pieces.. hope they get a good home..

went home plopped on the bed and didnt wake up till dinner.. im still only on 3 hrs sleep for today.. with 6hr from yest.. so realllyyy grogggy nowww.. n im totally losing my voice.. stinking sore throat.. shall relax till i make yet another trip to the airport tom.. *yawnzzzzz*

i ahm getting seeck..

started out with a sore throat.. but then a runny nose continued.. plus my back was aching so bad from tt time of the mth tt i woke up in the middle of night/early morning in pain! heh other pple get cramps in their tummy.. i get cramps in the back.. whats wrong with mee

but seeck means not going out means antisocial which can mean good or bad.. hehehe.. ok u cant scold me for being a bum hon..its not my fault anymore.. ahh.. where art thou my youth?

no fairrrrrr

weikiat got BSM gny n i didnt... ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh my gny hopes are dashed.. UNLESSSS... i creep into twan's (my exchange buddy's) or Sarah's luggage then :D but well as tiny as i am, tt will be unlikely... UNLESSSSS.. sarah so lovingly helps me get a free ticket haha.. pleaseeeee.. pretty plsss with cherry on top.. as promised ill stop hitting u hahaha..

anyways, im sooo pooped from hmm a couple of hours of sentosa n hmm frisbee... n dinner. im really getting old yea.. but we had very charming service at our good ol' haunt: glasshouse fish & co. haha right sya?? who 'gave' her number to the waiter there.. he's wayyyyyyy too young for u tho.. :P i hardly have fotos n not putting the ones i ahve up cos i think i look too unglam and geeky in the shot.. its time for project makeover.. yearight.. iguess i prob need to get my contacts made first.. or at least get a new pair of specs..

decided wasnt too tired for SATC! sorry denise.. watched the first season w/o u.. n topped off with a surprise chat with twan.. who is suuuuperr exuberant. it's like talking to honlyn x10.. seriously hahaha.. God i hope i dont bore him to death ahahha.. perhaps his exuberance will rub off on me... im in need of stopping my lethargic ways.. more satc tomorrow.. yum..

well anyway, heres belated fotos from open house
thats my pretty niece dessy, with her mommy.. she's just got a new sister dhea..



& the pretty flowers we bought tt only bloomed beautifully the day after beh..








and this is a piece of heaven in the middle of the shit.. he's so beautiful but at the same time represents alot tts gone wrong.. and i wished i could have done it a different way. ill save the drama.. just look how cute he is.. blue eyes.. face like an angel but farts damn loudly n shits really smelly.. wanted to call him stinky..





sometimes i just wished i could throw out my morals, values, all conservative self and yell fuck.. scream it out at the top of my lungs n just get all my stinking problems and worries out of my life. out of my head to even begin with..

just a snippet of a book i borrowed.. n ull understand why i borrowed it haha

"There are only so many heartbeats in a life... We've been using them up too quickly with all the stress in our lives." So says .... as she happily agrees to accompany him on a trip to Spain...

haha BUT the book is actually abt how they made out spain to be so great.. but it wasnt all tt great haha.. oops.. mebbe itll kick some sense into me

oh so obedient

I did everything my sis told me to do today... so guai haha
u know usually im an awful bum, flailing ard on the bed till .. forever.. esp with my laptop on the bed haha.. so my sis stormed in and demanded i get up pronto n bath n everything.. after much 'whats yr big fat problem!?' i decided to get off my sorry ass haha.. n then accompanied my sis all the way to the mrt station ALLL the way to the gantry haha carrying a floorball stick, the nearest I'll get to holding a floorball stick ever again haha.. then she told me to cut my hair.. so i did haha.. gone is my virgin streaked hair (like it was obvious in the first place) n its back to short haired ili.. kinda happy to see tt girl again haha.. altho its still all dry n frizzy.. but pretty happy, coming home with 3 books from the library.. amazing considering i dont normally read..
beh...
getting satc dvds tom whipeee!! all 6 seasons.. loves u alviN! then sentosa.. n dinner with jc peeps.. it'll be fun.. us n gd ol' fish n co again haha.. plus im getting too manjen for my own good, the hairdresser starting talking to me in mandarin gah.. n she didnt understand what uni was.. n she kept muttering it in the middle of her mandarin convo with the pals.. wth!

Heartbroken

and so ends the hope of Arsenal's chances to the title race.. they should just give up altogether n concentrate on the champs league.. which im sad to say, they still lack the heart and the cohesion to win it.. at this pt, saying they will get relegated may not be so farfetched after all.. Apart from the ill luck n chelseas insanely rich team, arsenal actually did play with more heart than I've seen them in the past couple of games. They stuck it in there and defended together, worked together to get the ball, in my opinion, in the midfield fabregas was doing a wonderful job.. n u cudnt have done it better if it were silva there instead of him. Persie was equally fabulous, not only scoring well but doing his part to work and dfend; altho screw chelsea for whacking him after he made such a perfect shot. kudos to toure too cos he's the one with the most heart, someone's gotta teach him how to strike and he'll be scoring goals real soon. hleb was good too.. its the best effort ive seen in the 3 games lost and the least disappointed really. its just tt circumstances make it seem like the worst. Ironic that Wenger's making a team for the future, when the present may not see them through. Wenger had better pull some hares out of the hat in the january transfer window. anyohow.. Im all for Barca kicking the bloody ass out of chelsea! die mourinho DIEE

oh yea, mr holland replied me.. soo exciting.. he sounds suuuuuuuuuuper fun n i cant wait to meet him! he was asking abt sentosa countdown party tho.. no idea abt it, so anyone can give me any info to tell him?? haha

People change (people change) everyday (everyday)
Change like you (change like you)
I got all the time in the world

People cry (people cry) all the time (all the time)
Cry like me (cry like me)
We got all the time in the world
It's been so long that no one even asks

And everybody's walkin' on the grass
Grass that took a while to reappear
I'd forgotten green without you here

2005.. ure a piece of work.
u managed me to bring me from a super high to the lowest of low.
u destroyed everything that ever mattered to me
just so you know
i hate you

haha sarah, if you're in luck, perhaps he has some english blood... n is the rare few who watch football.. and i was wrong, Mr Antoine will be able to help us if we go to europe.. I know my geography is bad so I didn't know Netherlands were beside Gny.. hoho.. sarah better go make good friends with him then u can drive up to his place n leave yr luggage when ure in europe next yr hahaa..

Anyway, all my grades are out.. im THIS close to getting my 3.4 GPA.. so I really really want to get ALL As for next term.. so if u dont see me mugging.. tell me to! Heres to a successful, A+++ filled, busy 2006!
as they say, buang yang keruh, simpan yang jernih. Not all malay is lost on me now.. :)

after 3 days of pure slacking well not so much actually.. kept taking cat naps.. but other than tt felt really tired..
today i spent like the whole day out! from 10 to 10.. legs were achingg only had a mini toblerone for breakfast, donuts for a late lunch cos sarah, asi n i were stuck in the room trying to squeeze a 22 page essay into 10 pages.. we were there till like lik 430! insaneness... but yay met up with a jetlagged fang-i who seemed to remember the shops in town better than any of us haha.. in between went for the buddy briefing thingy with sarah.. we got assigned out buddies.. i was kinda half expecting Asians but sarah got hers first n it was a guy from UVA.. and we were like DAMN there goes our football party hahaha.. wasnt exactly looking forward to finding out mine cos the briefing felt like we had to babysit them haha.. n cmon they are prob gonna be alot older or at least look a lot more mature.. n a billion heads taller haha.. but was surprised to get Mr Antoin Paul R(sth i cannot pronounce) from The Netherlands. yayness.. There is hope of talking of football and Bergkamp and on n on haha.. well, both guys cant really help us if we wanna go to europe for exchange prog but wee.. international friends.. niceee.. after we got our buddies, we started laughing abt the stereotypes, my god we didnt stop till we separated at the MRT.. like how sarah will reeducate her guy on what football really is.. you know to play the ball with yr foot! fun fun! and if all goes well, perhaps we'll request for some spanish buddy next term in view of going to Barca right after! theres only 1 spanish guy this term.. n some manjen got him.. lets stake him out sarah! hahaha.. too bad no turkish guys this time ard.. :D

anyway, afang, dee.. lets go out again with battery life & memory space! :P with even more shopping arrrkkk. When will Zara have a sale!?!? I will pounce on it in an instant after 2 yrs of missing out on it!!!!! gah

i hate change
2005 seems to epitomise the word tho.. im kinda looking forward to the end of it.. but who knows, i may just top it off with an even crappier 2006.

anyway, hon im abt to email them saying i quit to.. at least for this yr heh.. kinda sad tt im not taking part in any interskl games anymore..
Rules of the game:1. post 5 weird/random stuff about yourself2. at the end, list the names of 5 people who you want next to do this, and leave a "you are tagged" comment and tell them to read your blog for rules
1. i think some pple already know this but.. i dont like sweets and not too big a fan of chocolate.. i do love cookies.. :) *rawr* cookie monster!
2. I sooooo sooooooooooo want to go to for BSM Germany next year, travel ard europe and go back to germany just in time to experience the world cup! beh fat hope tho..
3. When I'm upset, I blast rock music or lifehouse on my earphones at that stage in between drowning my sorrows and near going deaf decibels.. currently am blasting I believe in a thing called love heh.. at 9am in the morning..
4. i hate hamsters.. they are tiny irritating little balls of crap.. haha.. i shud have let novi eat the class hamster :P
5. heh well not so much my actions but i loved a pic so much tt a fren helped me steal it from the board while i yelped omgs a billion times in the dead of the night.. in skl.. except there was still someone in the gym.. i still have the foto! :)

i cant think of 5 pple haha.. so sya, ain and myuk.. ure it..

hehehe.. i found sth very useful abt learning (or at least trying to learn) spanish
i can sorta make out stuff abt fabregas in spanish haha.. i can mostly pick out the verbs and a few nouns only tho haha. its enough to semi understand i guess.. arg not entirely enough to translate the interview tho.. hahha... the only english site i cud find was pathetic n filled with CMI pple haha..
but it feels like spanish borrows ALOT of words from english.. n i found some similarities quite interesting. like in english when u say orange, theres the fruit or the colour.. in spanish naranja (short for anaranjada) means both as well.. haha n ouyang asked me whats chocolate.. guess what.. its chocolate haha... just returned a big book of nononsense learning to spanish.. i cud only finish like 1/2 of it.. but very bad at forming sentences still hahaha

retail therapy
So just before I slept, ouyang msged at 2am in the morning wanting to go out.. I'm quite happy I made the decision to sakae and shop with her. I perfectly knew I was gonna sob & rot at home esp since results were bound to be out today. So I stumbled out of bed at 12 haha to meet her at orchard at 130.. :) n we got matching skl bags! from adidas at only 35 bucks! each of coz.. n i got really funny kiddy books from kino.. haha ull understand why later.. n THEN mac had to call me to tell me tt results were out.. haha damn tt semi spoilt our afternoon but nothing a lil retail therapy n girl talk cant fix... n came home n totally avoided the laptop till after dinner where there was nothing else to do.. n yihan kept bugging me to check my results but i refused haha.. till.. a lil later....

so haha the evilest of evil, the bane of my life, the hugest pain in the ass and the largest worry in the world.. is out.. n is not very good. ah wells.. stupid combi requirement.. at least im not alone.. n im not bawling my eyes out which i was doing like 1, 2 days ago.. interestingly i bawl more when im worried than when the result is actually out.. but would all of you be a darling and pray for the best for me? that I wont be booted out and still get to go overseas? :) tt wud be the greatest gift of all. I know its lying on the foot of a slippery slope but I need this. I need to get out. And its my best opportunity out. if this ends, what remains feels very worthless to me. I made a promise. And I have to stick by it. It's a lesson bitterly taken and I hope I don't suffer the conseqs too badly. Kianfong actually talked some sense into me when I was bawling away and I will know I will always have sth despite being in the deepest darkest corner. well despite the one downfall.. the other grade turned out to be a major surprise. wow I can't imagine what I would have gotten if I hadn't screwed the final paper.

sigh I wish grades didnt have to matter at all. I want life experiences, n the one place tt i may be able to get it from may be taken away from me altogether.

FINALLY some good news :)

Fabregas called into Spain training group
Arsenal midfielder Cesc Fabregas has earned a call-up by Spain coach Luis Aragones for a get-together at the start of next week.

The meeting will take place in Madrid on December 12 and will feature the players Aragones is considering for next summer's World Cup.
Fabregas has been a regular with the Spain Under-21 squad, and this is the first time he has been included in the senior party, with Aragones naming a 33-man pool.
Liverpool's Luis Garcia, Fernando Morientes, Jose Reina and Xabi Alonso have been included as a gesture, although the European champions' FIFA Club World Championship commitments mean they will be exempt from attending.
News of the call-up for Fabregas shows Aragones has been keeping a close eye on the 18-year-old's progress at Highbury.
Fabregas also scored against England last November for the Spain Under-21 side - and was a leading figure at the World Under-17 Championships last summer.
There is competition in Spain's midfield from the likes of Xabi Alonso, Ruben Baraja, David Albelda and Xavi, but speaking last week, Fabregas expressed hope he could earn a late call.
He declared in Arsenal's match programme: 'Everyone thinks about the World Cup, even me. You never know. I didn't expect to play so many games for Arsenal last season, so why not?
'You just have to believe in yourself, to work hard, keep playing like that and stay focused.'
He added: 'The [Spain] boss has said I am still young, and that is his opinion, but I am playing for Arsenal and I am making assists for Thierry Henry.
'Of course, I know I am young and I respect his opinion, but I will try to work hard to get into the full team.
'I'm in the Under-21s and I'm 18. But I'm working really hard and if the national coach can see the way I play and thinks I can get an opportunity, it would be brilliant.'
Fabregas only made his Premiership debut at the start of last season, but went on to make 46 appearances in all competitions during his first full campaign.

i should have known tt arsenals loss was coming to round off wth week.. but anyways.. thats over.. so here comes the calm after the storm.. *yay*

need to make more frens.. feeling so damn bored..

anyway sarah 18th Dec, Sunday Arsenal v Chelsea (arrrggg i hope gunners are at least evenly matched) footy sleepover! wee and if im not in Europe for the world cup (crosses a billion fingers tt i WILL be) lets have a billion footy sleepovers then too.. If you've got other soccer loving frens then we'll do it at yr place yes? Cos I dont really have any, so ull just be hearing me n my sis shouting at the tv while my dad gets irritated haha... n mebbe can ask deedee n asi..

anyways, I wanna watch just like heaven! any takers anyone?? And I'm so freee... bah hana n filza only ask me out when im like in the midst of exams..booo.. where are u noww..

i want my novi for xmas.. or mebbe a really early xmas prezzie..
where areee you
i heard the jingle of a bell
i thought it was u
turned out to be another kitty
an orange one..
not you..
i want half of my bed being taken up by u
i want my house pillar to be the place where u stand guard
i want to hear you scratching my roof again
i want to wake up with u sitting on me and brushing yr tail in my face
pple say u wont forget yr first love..

the last of the open house guests have finally left.. 2 hrs of packing up before arsenal match starts! shall go snack on all the leftover food.. yums.. anyway, Im slightly annoyed, apparently pple thot i used to be .. fat.. ok fine.. fatter... they said i slimmed down alot.. BAH BS i only lost 3kg in ramadhan but im sure ive gained it all back.. well, on the bright side im supposed to be thinner now haha.. but heyyy ive always pride myself on being slim.. boooo.. but urh some relatives are so annoying.. n i feel partly disgusted n kinda disappointed in such low expectations they have... but then, my more ard my age range.. or age culture cousins came, n had lots of fun chatting up with them.. which ive never done so before cos it seemed like we had nothing in common.. but omg i was like talking semibusiness stuff with someone, cars n driving and cats haha.. i feel.. a little old.. haha.. n like there were quite a few peeps there who salamed me! ayy..

okay a lot of pent up frustation needs to be let out.. i chose the bloody WRONG QUESTION!!! i chose the frigging hard one n im soooooooooo gonna flunk it!!!!! n my heart was positively beating harder n harder when i was listening to bingkai n kelvin talk abt things i didnt write about.. aaaaaaah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im going to dieeeee.. im deadddd.... dieedeeddd.. i dont want next week to come.. *bites fingernails* let it always be the weekend WEEKEND.. so i never need to know how awfully i did.. -cries- seirously, I've never been THIS terrified of doing badly in my life.. the minimum to keep my stuff is awful AWFULly stressful! even if i failed chem in rj, it was just a stupid common test but this.. THISSSS shit of a final exam.. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!

so what will cheer me up??
and overtly excessive indulgence in arsenal n fabregas of cos.. may fab score another, may arsenal thrash bolton for my need to feel good..

not to mention lots of really loud music to drown out my fears.. and perhaps my usual dose of Lifehouse when I'm feeling down.

arks.. i think im now convinced of the need to work and play hard.. if u dont play hard.. ull go insane from the amt of STINKING hard work u did.. (urh i need to raise the working hard part a few notches tho)

SYAA come homeee... then we can have our oc marathon alreadyy n gill can prepare us LOVELY food again hahahah.. we shud make it potluck this time.. n force myuk to bring sth all the way from KL.. better yet, myuk, come back to sg NOT kl.. haha..

continuing the week of WHATTT THEEE...,
was looking at the cat sites, n looked thru the lost n found section, crossing my fingers each time. But no cats found.. but a very odd thing i found was on the 2 sites i looked at, there was only 1 cat reported missing, and that one cat was a xsiamese breed, white/yellowish and with kinked tails!! its like the exact same description as Novi!!!!!!!!

so my sis n i are hoping agst all odds (& in pure insanity inflicted from the lack of novi) that theres some kinked tail xsiamese convention that they all went to and therefore went missing.. sigh. novi come home.... its been so long but i still miss her so much and the pain still remains.

well lets hope tom marks the end of wtf week, of coz preferably today but its impossible when biz law is tom.. hana asked me to go sentosa tom.. bleh... -pouts-