ok i dunno if this works.. but if it doesnt.. go to this site to listen! http://www.mortalwombat.com/Audio/Caesars%20Palace%20-%20Jerk%20It%20Out.mp3

It's the Ipod commercial song.... it can get anyone to moveee.. it rocks.. but if you dont like it just hit the stop button on top hehe.. i promise it only plays once.. if i figured the html right that is..

Jerk it out - Caesars
Wind me up
Put me down
Start me off and watch me go
I'll be runnin' circles around you sooner than you know
A little off center
And I'm out of tune
Just kickin' this can along the avenue
But I'm alright

Cause it's easy once you know how it's done
You can't stop now
It's already begun
You feel it runnin' through your bones
And you jerk it out
And you jerk it out

Shut up
Hush your mouth
Can't you hear you talk too loud?
No can't hear nothin' 'cause I got my head up in the clouds
I bite off anything that I can chew
I'm chasing cars up and down the avenue
But that's ok
Cause it's easy once you know how it's done
You can't stop now
It's already begun
You feel it runnin' through your bones
And you jerk it out

Cause it's easy once you know how it's done
You can't stop now
It's already begun
You feel it runnin' through your bones
And you jerk it out
And you jerk it out
And you jerk it out
And you jerk it out
And you jerk it out

Oh baby don't you know you
Really gotta jerk it out
When you jerk it out
Oh baby don't you know you
Really gotta jerk it out
When you jerk it out
Oh baby don't you know you
Really gotta jerk it out

i want moneyyy!
heh..
i am the queen of bad timings..
but from now on.. i shall stop being such a coward and apply for stupid jobs like this data entry job .. in orchard at a french mnc no less.. hehe and try n find a way to do my work so well that i can afford to take 'french' leaves haha to go for driving n mebbe even a trip to KL haha.. right.. as if.. by experience.. ill prob be rejected before anything else.. just like my LKC scholarship and how silly i am to say no i dont want any other smu schoalrships.. im such a dumbass.. and now im feeling guilty tt dad has to sponsor skl..
plus.. of all the days i have to have driving.. are the days rj have their games.. heez.. seriously.. the world just WANTS me to be stuck doing nothing.. fine.. im just being whiny
i wished there was sth i cud look forward to.. perhaps an oc 'outing' i have finally dlded all the way to episode 20.. i shall spend tom curled up on the bed watching 19 & 20.. yay.. see what ive done since im so bored..

Your type is the Preppy
If he's conservative, friendly, and clean-cut, he's just your type! You fallhard and fast for the Preppy guy. Whether it's because of his handsome appearance orhis impeccable hygiene, this guy's a safe bet! He's fun and social withoutbeing immature or wild. Your guy's refined, runs with a cool crowd, and hasa little cockiness thrown in for good measure. This Yuppie male is alwaysput together well. He's just cool, calm, and collected. Another quality thatdraws you to him is his ambition. He aims for success and follows whateverpath will lead him there. You respect how he always makes time for hisfriends and has a tendency to be a little goofy. With this cheeky,well-groomed guy, you can rest assured that you'll live the Americandream!

i dunno abt the american dream part.. but is it what most pple want cos it describes EXACTLY what the perfect guy wud be.. and u have to admit.. its realistic right!?

i love my 'belt' from melbourne.. thanks sya!
as seth believes the universe is against him in one of the episodes.. i do believe the universe is against me leaving the house.. whenever i do.. it pours.. and i can never get a stinking job.. that must be it.. its hte universe's fault.. heh.. the 2 afternoons tt i wanted to leave the house either for softball or cycling.. it rains.. at the exact time that i do wanna go out.. and when its too late to do anything already.. it stops.. i hate you clouds.. and the rest of the week was fine n hot n dandy.. grrrr so we ended up cycling in the rain.. getting wet.. sorry u guys.. but at least it was free.. :) felt bad tho.. and we didnt even reach sembawang beach.. bah..

urhh hurry bittorrent.. i want to watch more oc...

anyways.. interview went just ok.. i hvae no stellar personality so wahtever.. but rugger looking interviewer was a perk.. plus em's little encounter with the irritating kind haha.. was simply delish to hear.. urks.. i hope i never get tt mean guy as a teacher..

wth.. smu doesnt offer spanish!!!! there goes my dream.. they do however offer mandarin.. -grumble- looks like im never gonna get a semester there.. im so grouchy i was even considering ntu's accountancy prog.. its direct honours for one! and hostel!! and softball!!! and inter hall games!!!! :( im not sure which ones the better option now.. :( helP!!! it would be properly solved if smu gave me a scholarship tho.. *cross fingers* sigh.. wish me luck..

anyway, i did 2km yest.. dont ask how fast.. more of like how slow.. my legs werent aching but the breathing was horrible.. stupid asthma.. urhh.. had to like spit out all tt mucus buildup after every few hundred metres.. got so woozy and light headed after tt.. attempted a split and woohoo.. im still as flexible as i am since sec4! terrific.. im like 5cm away from the ground!! not bad considering i havent stretched in ages.. except today my joints are grumbling ehehe.. no jogging today! in case i cant even bring myself up smu's hillly skl tomorrow.. n cycling with munyuk and ouyang on friday! cant wait.. hope it doesnt rain!!

ayeeee!!! smu starts a mth later than other unis.. as if im not bored enough!! ouyang suggested crashing nus orientation hehe.. n smu has convocation??.. ew. sorry but tt just sounds cheesy.. was just surfing ard their site n realise i dont really like many of their sports.. no softball.. -pouts- perhaps ill find a fanatic there who'll start it.. hmm was thinking maybe floorball.. but tt means i gotta get off my lazy bum and start exercising so tt i dont die after like 5 mins.. heh.. i will jog! i WILL! haha.. if i do.. the next entry is probably abt me feeling sore everywhere.. ayee.. and today has such fine weather.. why does is bloody hell rain every monday.. its like its fated i stay in the house forever..

sigh.. hmm just got NTU offer for acc.. ah well..
aye.. -getting off this bum to attempt exercise-

ok i know this is damn slow but i only started to clear out my jc notes.. cos i just thot tt i screwed up my As and might need to retake them.. dont roll your eyes!! the sentiment is shared by quite a few pple!
but i think i might need my maths stuff in case i forget how to integrate in uni haha..
anyway.. looked theru the notes but only found 1 funny piece of doodle.. unlike.. ains haha and i realise im damn repulsed by all my notes.. like the whole bulk of information tt was stored in my brain.. is now gone.. n completely useless besides the fact tt it helped me garner tt oh so important letter in my A level cert..

SALE!
anyway.. to all STRANGERS or pple with frens/family/siblings with peeps sitting for As.. would anyone like to buy my stuff?? :D I have.. past yr papers.. red spot bio mcqs with answers, chem red spot, soper, sloman.. u get the drift.. so pls.. i am willing to sell them at any reasonable price! zero is not a price tho.. haha..

met fangi n dee today for lunch..
n had a lil bout of scholarships n unis talk with frens last night.. felt.. inferior.. and sad cos i thot i missed my own chance.. but yay.. 2nd round of interviews next thurs.. pray for me! tt i dont stumble on my words AGAIN.. but who knows.. tt each time i stumble is actually good luck hahaa..

gah im sick of shopping.. im sick of pricey pricetags.. n i only bought 2 things in a span of 3 mths.. gillian.. ain.. filza.. we are definitely going shopping in KL in july.. gah.. thats 3 mths away.. mebbe can celebrate my bday there haha.. oh wait i bought my crappy cheapo watch today.. u know those swatch ripoffs? i love crappy watches.. n thanks to dee she found one with drawings of buildings of those cool spanish houses.. ay.. i hardly know anything abt spain but i love it to death! i learnt how to say i dont want pork, wine and beer in spanish ahha.. n i can ask where is the toilet too.. haha..

hmms.. i know my entries are so very shallow.. but intellectual entries can be rather boring if ure not witty enough..or.. dumb haha.. or a sarcastic shit.. i was reading neil humphreys scribbles from the same island just now.. its so god darn crap..(well but as his boss puts it.. bloody funny) n pple actually reply to rebuke what he says.. and their comments just dont make sense.. and attempts at sarcasm are sorely met with similarly sarcastic lame retorts.. but i guess its pretty fun to read stupid comments regarding normal life here.. im so sick of fiction.. i hate to read!! i am a rebel of the da vinci code.. shall not fall prey to best sellers..haha like mitch alboms tuesdays with morrie.. (which is nothing but nagging) and his 5 pple u meet in heaven.. which btw has been turned into a movie on hallmark.. ooh yea and harry potter.. i havent touched a single book.. haha. i did watch all the movies tho haha..

spent like a grand total of 1 hr out.. heh
went back to pri skl to coach softball but i was harrassed by a 1.4m girl more than anything else.. it was raining.. so got nothing to do.. in the end after mebbe 45mins of contemplating things.. she dismissed the kids.. and u know how yingmei is the thinnest catcher alive.. this 1.4m girl has to be the smallest catcher alive.. shes so tiny i cud fit her into my sling back.. no kidding.. and shes p5.. but ay.. small in size.. but she doesnt stop talking.. she keeps calling herself adik.. haha. well they call me kakak instead of ms ili anyway.. its not too bad since ive learnt how to handle harassment after a few days with my kid nephew.. but im looking forward to coaching them next week..
AARRRH! I hate stupid popups!!!
oh n apparently rg had sports day today.. and my pri skl came in 4th in the invitational relays.. not bad!

so i was walking back listening to the radio.. n it felt really good to be out in the sun.. dee.. this honorary member wants to cycle soon! :) i need to go out n do sth.. if no ones gonna hire me.. then i guess ill just have to go learn chinese or spanish then.. mebbe ill drop by a couple of skls along the way n register as a relief teacher.. any o how.. i need a new project! mebbe ill go figure out stained glass or paint my room.. hmms what else cud i do? btw.. hon.. u still have my kayaking cert.. who knows i might need it.. apparently SMU has white water rafting and id love to try tt out!

Desperate housewives tonight... im liking it more now.. ahha.. i watched the special episode of Oprah where they wrote her in into DW and its so cute! and the guys certainly are HOT.. tho the gardener seems so overconfident n a tad cocky.. prob cos he knows hes so darn hot.. gabrielles husband is so.. sensitive.. the poetry kinda guy.. what a romantic... n of coz Mr Plumber is hot stuff.. he's on the same hotness wavelength as Michael Vartan who is btw in a new show called Monster-in-law.. which i dont understand WHY jlo is starring in.. couldnt they get a better girl? anyway.. i think its even more awesome when a hot guy is such a family man.. ahh.. where do u find such a guy here!?

warning: whiny entry ahead

im going crazy out of my head.. sure i said id rather be bored stiff than studying n i still agree but im feeling damn shit..

i try to be a balanced person.. but i end up being too balanced and boring.. sometimes too rigid and hardly have a time of my life. i want to have fun.. but i have rules.. its just ingrained within me.. i hate to go out at night.. when im out at night.. i wont have a peace of mind unless its a chalet.. cos id be worried abt what time ill be getting home.. the unofficial curfew.. i hardly challenge myself.. and im too hmmm stingy? every path i take is so straight.. thought out.. i hardly have contacts.. n i feel like im not a very good fren or person.. i hate ironing and washing with my own hands.. n mom played the then what ure gonna do when ure married card.. but i was thinking more of like.. as if im gonna get a husband in the first place.. i want to do something fun.. i wished i had contacts which would bring me places and stuff.. im still scolding myself for not going to Melbourne with sya.. hrmph.. i wished i had more guts.. but all im gonna be doing next week is bum at home like the rest of time ive been doing.. might as well be getting all the diseases i ought to be getting by now.. eg. chicken pox.. im even getting sick of the comp.. on the other hand... mom just asked me if i would consider going Umrah.. there are some things that when i do.. i want to do it right.. i know pple who go n tell me the kebab is great.. heh..what a point.. mebbe im just too rigid.. sigh.. n now its worst cos im trying to balance being home.. feeding the cat.. doing my share of chores.. but trying to have fun too.. which is nearly impossible when ure stuck at home.. mebbe i shud just screw the balance.. problem solved.. urhh.. im turning into such a Bree.. except for the neatness thing.. i need a new project to do.. sigh

Home - Michael Buble
Another summer day
Is come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home
Mmmmmmmm

Maybe surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh I miss you, you know

And I've been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
“I'm fine baby, how are you?”
Well I would send them but I know that it's just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that

Another aeroplane
Another sunny place
I'm lucky I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I've got to go home

Let me go home
I'm just too far from where you are
I wanna come home

And I feel just like I'm living someone else's life
It's like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
But this was not your dream
But you always believe in me

Another winter day has come
And gone away
And even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home

And I'm surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel alone
Oh, let go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

Let me go home
I've had my run
Baby, I'm done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It will all right
I'll be home tonight
I'm coming back home


I lovee this song! watched the wedding date which was so not worth my money but haiz.. its dermot mulroney.. he's the man! all it did was made me fall in love with the soundtrack haha.. and michael bubles songs.. go to www.michaelbuble.com to listen to the songs.. Home just sounds wonderful.. n emily is such great company! love ya!

dads old kampung neighbours just came to visit..
its been abt 2 weeks.. i dont think abt nek as much but everytime i leave an empty house.. a whole new routine that i have to adopt.. closing the windows locking the doors.. making sure novi has enough food.. is always a reminder that things are different now.. that somethings missing.. if not for novi.. itll be worst cos there really wont be anything to come home for.. nobody to come home to.. i guess i realise how sucky it is to be a latchkey kid.. n how easy it is to stray..

at the same time.. u cud say im badly pampered.. i never really cooked.. cleaned the house etc.. and it kinda makes me think of the difference.. how most pple become independent by the time they reach their 20s while others hardly lift a finger.. the rich are too busy doing other things without ever needing to learn the most basic things in life. but its all in the attitude too.. i cud be the biggest baby and refuse to change my habits but guess what.. im sweeping the house.. (altho im too lazy to mop haha) im hanging the laundry and gasp im cooking haha.. and when my lil niece and nephews come ard.. im like playing babysittter.. yikes.. tt makes me feel so old and domesticated haha.. well.. a cancerian is domesticated anyway.. im too broke to go anywhere haha.. oh and today.. after choppig those veggys good.. i started to tumis (whats tt in english?) the stuff and was wondering why the onions havent changed colour yet.. turns out i ran out of gas!!! of all the stupid things tt cud happen.. attemptd to change to a different tank but i broke the little thingy and i was too scared to open the lid myself in fear of any burst of gas into my face haha.. so being the wuss i was.. i waited for mummy to come home and open the lid haha.. so much for trying to cook a meal for parents before they got home from work.. plus.. dads car got crashed into 2 nights ago stupid moronic hyundai driver.. crash our new mazda 3.. good thing we havent installed fog lights.. so now dad has to go and come back from work by public transport.. thats always a funny sight.. hehe..

darn it.. fahmi doesnt look at all as i recalled him to be.. shant paste his pretty face here then haha...

todays interview went much better than the first one even tho i stumbled over my words and rambled again.. sheesh feel like such an idiot.. there were so many pple who are so good.. plus when i think things are ok.. thats when it means im prob out.. haha.. its always the sad ironic truth.. but theres obviously a part of me thats dying to get in.. come on.. at least 2 opportunities to go overseas.. including the most coveted trip to SPAIN!! bacelona & madrid!!!!!! well most coveted by me actually.. i will find my way to spain by hook or by crook man! haha oh i knew like all the girls in the group.. which made this interview alot more fun.. plus everyone was irritated at this more senior guy.. who talked like a gov official.. like halooooo he said sth abt wanting smu to be a hub of sthsthsth.. first of all.. never say global hub.. its so typical of the gov to use hub.. pls sg wants to be the hub of EVERYTHING.. even the prof cudnt help but say he sounded like the gov.. lets see.. the girls were nadia yeo.. pat! and samantha.. whom i only recognise by face.. all rgs students.. i think samantha is anyway.. or mebbe rj whatever.. but she got offered biz n acc like me too yay i already have a fren! n one of the guys is a... SALSA TEACHER.. aint tt cool? crap i forgot his name.. but yea.. he's cool.. with cool specs.. just none of them were cute.. haha the profs are cool too.. and i hope they like my suggestion for the prog since they were nodding their heads along and think im worth another chance ie.. yet ANOTHER interview.. but yea they have so many interviews.. i wonder if the profs ever get bored.. but if my classmates were like those in my grp today.. itll be uber fun! haha not like that irritating poly girl that i wanted to strangle in the first round haha..

ate at sofra turkish restaurant just now to celebrate kak liyanas bday..
nice place.. reasonable pricing tho the servings are pretty small.. but.. cute mat waiter serving us so not bad not bad.. he had beatles-era like hair.. ahha.. tts my only gripe ah.. but i was tempted to ask if there was a vacancy there haha..
if u guys wanna go for lunch there do call me!! :) its at shaw towers beach road..
then walked ard bugis shopping.. bought me a pretty green skirt.. after lots of trying.. lots of doubts.. and lots of walking ard.. and going back.. haha.. im fickle what to do.. and a cheapskate at tt.. i need more clothes!! and hence more money!!
interview tomorrow.. wish me luck! :) let me ooze charm and wit.. be it boringly typical qns or weird creative i hope i dont get stuck at or kill myself qns.. :) though i really doubt ill get it.. wth.. worth a shot.. there had better not be any essays!! bah.. im prob the guinea pig.. the first one to go.. bleh..

only by like noon did i get all my senses back to normal heh
then went for driving.. tho its been abt a mth i must say it was really fun! finally figured how to use the clutch properly.. yay more driving tomorrow haha.. whoa since when was i psyched up over driving..
ahh! interview on monday.. n in the email.. it said essay/interview.. not AGAIN!!?!?? why are they trying to torment me!!? like those are my worst 2 attributes haha its just a whole stroke of luck tt i got the offer in the first place! hopefully ill be full of wit and eloquence that day hehe.. be nice profs.. be nice!! i just read sharons blog.. thoughtabt the qn which animal would i get rid of.. i would have to say.. cockroaches.. cos they have been on earth long enough.. its time they got off haha all they do is make girls scream anyway.. either tt or humans.. we suck..