Friday, December 30, 2005

with peiyan in in alex's LOVELY pool room.. no not swimming pool.. i could roll ard tt bed forever!

and xmas prezzies below.. the first 7 to arrive.. ended up with abt 40.. haha


a ljungberg groupie and a ljungberg wannabe ahahahha..

Thursday, December 29, 2005

serak

my voice is so sexyy.. gah the rest of the time when i try to speak loudly, i sound like chewbacca.. yes tt hairy dude tt wails in star wars..

anyways.. finally met Twan! he's nice! when yest the flight came in early.. today the flight got delayed and then he took like FOREVER to come out.. so introed myself to his host mom while trying to figure which blonde dude is him haha.. he must have been the last dude off the plane mann.. even this cute overmars-like guy waiting for pple on the same flight left before he even appeared.. n finally a guy in a green shirt with goatee appears.. yayee.. haha..

anyway, he called me ilai.. haha ok not his fault.. my msn nick was on ilai so he thot it was pronounced like tt.. so i told him only my close frens call me tt.. so he said so ill call u ili for now.. and hopefully soon ill call u ilai.. hahhaa.. anyway, being all excited he got on the wrong side of the cab and was so happy cos he said at home the roads were all white with snow but here everythings clear.. my sis thinks he looks like a slightly broader version of persie.. but erh.. a bit mebbe.. anyway, cabbed to the house at tanjong rhu... my godd.. he really struck lottery with accomodation! the condo is located opposite the indoor stadium so the window has a lovely view of it.. n the host mom is SUPER hmm to put it nicely accomodating hahah.. like she gave a tiny vibe like she was all possessive over him hahaha.. n a little shocked tt i knew his whole agenda for his first few days.. but okaylah.. she's nice.. the security feature of her condo is abit much tho.. like u can only go to yr own floor with a swipe of yr card.. like wow what a way to promote neighborliness.. as if pple still cant rob u anyway.. left him to wash up and everything but meeting up with him tomorrow.... perhaps we'll talk of football :p erh i hope he didnt think my voice was natural tho.. tt must sound freaky.. hahah..

and any ideas of where to bring him to and what food at where to recommend will be most appreciated.. im no singaporean who knows which stall the katong laksa is at and etcetc.. esp for chinese food.. or sth to do in the heartlands.. where he's staying hardly counts as anything averagely singaporean.. what a way to portray singapore.. aphooey! sg is such a little faker..

but i figured the airport is a really nice place to waste yr time at hahaha.. i understand it now ain.. haha.. i cud sit at some cafe with a hot cup of coffee and read a book and just stare at the pple walking in n out.. sounds like a good way to waste away an afternoon.. :) terminal 2 especially hahaha..

Wednesday, December 28, 2005

today was incredibly eventful.. in quite the wrong sense haha...
Alex's xmas party in Bkt Panjang last night..which was pretty fun, and the gift exchanges were so silly.. i ended up with a pink water bottle.. which is actually kinda cute hahha..shall upload pix later.. esp the one with my pseudo ljungberg.. steve got a 'tatoo' of ljungberg's signature tummy tatoo on his arm.. so poser!! ahaha but told him ill just have to photoshop his face mwahha..

so then trudged all the way to ULU opera estate! It is a BAD idea to NOT sleep before picking up people EARLY at the airport.. 'Slept' over at sarah's house (tankew for all the cookies and water & alphabet blanky haha) watched Emma till abt 2+am its pretty good! Mr Knightley is soo charming... where can you find such a great guy but in a picture perfect world with perfect English! ah yes and we just ended up talking till 5am.. n thot hmm mebbe we shud get some shuteye.. woke up realizing we were sorta late or rather would have been JUST right IF their flight hadnt come in 25mins earlier than expected!!! didnt know what to do.. so sat right in the airport till 9am hoping some blur american with lotsa luggage will come barrelling thru.. tt didnt happen.. obviously.. attempted sleeping on the couch at pacific coffee.. and wondering what to do.. decided to give up at 10am (haha yes 3 hrs doing NOTHING in the airport.. wasnt too bad tho) n head to town.. when.. *drumrolls* MIA guy finally calls sarah saying he was in skl!!! my goodness.. he was MIA until then that we were beginning to question his existence! so trudged all the way to skl haha n brought them along to Lavender to get their student pass, buy all their cards and alll... its quite hilarious to see them use the EZlink cos they just pause, kinda slowing down traffic behind! n apparently they took the train down to Bugis from the airport at abt 710am (we came at 715 hahaha) n imagine peak hour traffic with them and ALL their bags... woops! and at lavender.. u CANNOT imagine how long the freaking queue is!! being all new n confused, we resorted to asking these pple who also looked like exchange students.. (apparently from ntu hahaha) what to do exactly.. apparently u have to queue for a queue number.. n tt queue was INSANELY long!! we left them at hmm 1230am perhaps n they were still waiting for the 2nd queue at 130pm.. twan is definitely coming at 8am in the morning.. hopefully beating the awful queue!

ended up leaving them to mingle with the other exchange students so i went to SPCA to play with the kitties.. alot of kittens.. n a veryyy manja cat was totally sleeping on my lap.. damn wanted to bring him home.. managed to see n play with Stinky n Sweetie.. love them to pieces.. hope they get a good home..

went home plopped on the bed and didnt wake up till dinner.. im still only on 3 hrs sleep for today.. with 6hr from yest.. so realllyyy grogggy nowww.. n im totally losing my voice.. stinking sore throat.. shall relax till i make yet another trip to the airport tom.. *yawnzzzzz*

Saturday, December 24, 2005

i ahm getting seeck..

started out with a sore throat.. but then a runny nose continued.. plus my back was aching so bad from tt time of the mth tt i woke up in the middle of night/early morning in pain! heh other pple get cramps in their tummy.. i get cramps in the back.. whats wrong with mee

but seeck means not going out means antisocial which can mean good or bad.. hehehe.. ok u cant scold me for being a bum hon..its not my fault anymore.. ahh.. where art thou my youth?

Wednesday, December 21, 2005

no fairrrrrr

weikiat got BSM gny n i didnt... ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh my gny hopes are dashed.. UNLESSSS... i creep into twan's (my exchange buddy's) or Sarah's luggage then :D but well as tiny as i am, tt will be unlikely... UNLESSSSS.. sarah so lovingly helps me get a free ticket haha.. pleaseeeee.. pretty plsss with cherry on top.. as promised ill stop hitting u hahaha..

anyways, im sooo pooped from hmm a couple of hours of sentosa n hmm frisbee... n dinner. im really getting old yea.. but we had very charming service at our good ol' haunt: glasshouse fish & co. haha right sya?? who 'gave' her number to the waiter there.. he's wayyyyyyy too young for u tho.. :P i hardly have fotos n not putting the ones i ahve up cos i think i look too unglam and geeky in the shot.. its time for project makeover.. yearight.. iguess i prob need to get my contacts made first.. or at least get a new pair of specs..

decided wasnt too tired for SATC! sorry denise.. watched the first season w/o u.. n topped off with a surprise chat with twan.. who is suuuuperr exuberant. it's like talking to honlyn x10.. seriously hahaha.. God i hope i dont bore him to death ahahha.. perhaps his exuberance will rub off on me... im in need of stopping my lethargic ways.. more satc tomorrow.. yum..

well anyway, heres belated fotos from open house
thats my pretty niece dessy, with her mommy.. she's just got a new sister dhea..



& the pretty flowers we bought tt only bloomed beautifully the day after beh..








and this is a piece of heaven in the middle of the shit.. he's so beautiful but at the same time represents alot tts gone wrong.. and i wished i could have done it a different way. ill save the drama.. just look how cute he is.. blue eyes.. face like an angel but farts damn loudly n shits really smelly.. wanted to call him stinky..





sometimes i just wished i could throw out my morals, values, all conservative self and yell fuck.. scream it out at the top of my lungs n just get all my stinking problems and worries out of my life. out of my head to even begin with..

Tuesday, December 20, 2005

just a snippet of a book i borrowed.. n ull understand why i borrowed it haha

"There are only so many heartbeats in a life... We've been using them up too quickly with all the stress in our lives." So says .... as she happily agrees to accompany him on a trip to Spain...

haha BUT the book is actually abt how they made out spain to be so great.. but it wasnt all tt great haha.. oops.. mebbe itll kick some sense into me

Monday, December 19, 2005

oh so obedient

I did everything my sis told me to do today... so guai haha
u know usually im an awful bum, flailing ard on the bed till .. forever.. esp with my laptop on the bed haha.. so my sis stormed in and demanded i get up pronto n bath n everything.. after much 'whats yr big fat problem!?' i decided to get off my sorry ass haha.. n then accompanied my sis all the way to the mrt station ALLL the way to the gantry haha carrying a floorball stick, the nearest I'll get to holding a floorball stick ever again haha.. then she told me to cut my hair.. so i did haha.. gone is my virgin streaked hair (like it was obvious in the first place) n its back to short haired ili.. kinda happy to see tt girl again haha.. altho its still all dry n frizzy.. but pretty happy, coming home with 3 books from the library.. amazing considering i dont normally read..
beh...
getting satc dvds tom whipeee!! all 6 seasons.. loves u alviN! then sentosa.. n dinner with jc peeps.. it'll be fun.. us n gd ol' fish n co again haha.. plus im getting too manjen for my own good, the hairdresser starting talking to me in mandarin gah.. n she didnt understand what uni was.. n she kept muttering it in the middle of her mandarin convo with the pals.. wth!
Heartbroken

and so ends the hope of Arsenal's chances to the title race.. they should just give up altogether n concentrate on the champs league.. which im sad to say, they still lack the heart and the cohesion to win it.. at this pt, saying they will get relegated may not be so farfetched after all.. Apart from the ill luck n chelseas insanely rich team, arsenal actually did play with more heart than I've seen them in the past couple of games. They stuck it in there and defended together, worked together to get the ball, in my opinion, in the midfield fabregas was doing a wonderful job.. n u cudnt have done it better if it were silva there instead of him. Persie was equally fabulous, not only scoring well but doing his part to work and dfend; altho screw chelsea for whacking him after he made such a perfect shot. kudos to toure too cos he's the one with the most heart, someone's gotta teach him how to strike and he'll be scoring goals real soon. hleb was good too.. its the best effort ive seen in the 3 games lost and the least disappointed really. its just tt circumstances make it seem like the worst. Ironic that Wenger's making a team for the future, when the present may not see them through. Wenger had better pull some hares out of the hat in the january transfer window. anyohow.. Im all for Barca kicking the bloody ass out of chelsea! die mourinho DIEE

oh yea, mr holland replied me.. soo exciting.. he sounds suuuuuuuuuuper fun n i cant wait to meet him! he was asking abt sentosa countdown party tho.. no idea abt it, so anyone can give me any info to tell him?? haha

Saturday, December 17, 2005

People change (people change) everyday (everyday)
Change like you (change like you)
I got all the time in the world

People cry (people cry) all the time (all the time)
Cry like me (cry like me)
We got all the time in the world
It's been so long that no one even asks

And everybody's walkin' on the grass
Grass that took a while to reappear
I'd forgotten green without you here

2005.. ure a piece of work.
u managed me to bring me from a super high to the lowest of low.
u destroyed everything that ever mattered to me
just so you know
i hate you

Friday, December 16, 2005

haha sarah, if you're in luck, perhaps he has some english blood... n is the rare few who watch football.. and i was wrong, Mr Antoine will be able to help us if we go to europe.. I know my geography is bad so I didn't know Netherlands were beside Gny.. hoho.. sarah better go make good friends with him then u can drive up to his place n leave yr luggage when ure in europe next yr hahaa..

Anyway, all my grades are out.. im THIS close to getting my 3.4 GPA.. so I really really want to get ALL As for next term.. so if u dont see me mugging.. tell me to! Heres to a successful, A+++ filled, busy 2006!
as they say, buang yang keruh, simpan yang jernih. Not all malay is lost on me now.. :)
after 3 days of pure slacking well not so much actually.. kept taking cat naps.. but other than tt felt really tired..
today i spent like the whole day out! from 10 to 10.. legs were achingg only had a mini toblerone for breakfast, donuts for a late lunch cos sarah, asi n i were stuck in the room trying to squeeze a 22 page essay into 10 pages.. we were there till like lik 430! insaneness... but yay met up with a jetlagged fang-i who seemed to remember the shops in town better than any of us haha.. in between went for the buddy briefing thingy with sarah.. we got assigned out buddies.. i was kinda half expecting Asians but sarah got hers first n it was a guy from UVA.. and we were like DAMN there goes our football party hahaha.. wasnt exactly looking forward to finding out mine cos the briefing felt like we had to babysit them haha.. n cmon they are prob gonna be alot older or at least look a lot more mature.. n a billion heads taller haha.. but was surprised to get Mr Antoin Paul R(sth i cannot pronounce) from The Netherlands. yayness.. There is hope of talking of football and Bergkamp and on n on haha.. well, both guys cant really help us if we wanna go to europe for exchange prog but wee.. international friends.. niceee.. after we got our buddies, we started laughing abt the stereotypes, my god we didnt stop till we separated at the MRT.. like how sarah will reeducate her guy on what football really is.. you know to play the ball with yr foot! fun fun! and if all goes well, perhaps we'll request for some spanish buddy next term in view of going to Barca right after! theres only 1 spanish guy this term.. n some manjen got him.. lets stake him out sarah! hahaha.. too bad no turkish guys this time ard.. :D

anyway, afang, dee.. lets go out again with battery life & memory space! :P with even more shopping arrrkkk. When will Zara have a sale!?!? I will pounce on it in an instant after 2 yrs of missing out on it!!!!! gah

Tuesday, December 13, 2005

i hate change
2005 seems to epitomise the word tho.. im kinda looking forward to the end of it.. but who knows, i may just top it off with an even crappier 2006.

anyway, hon im abt to email them saying i quit to.. at least for this yr heh.. kinda sad tt im not taking part in any interskl games anymore..
Rules of the game:1. post 5 weird/random stuff about yourself2. at the end, list the names of 5 people who you want next to do this, and leave a "you are tagged" comment and tell them to read your blog for rules
1. i think some pple already know this but.. i dont like sweets and not too big a fan of chocolate.. i do love cookies.. :) *rawr* cookie monster!
2. I sooooo sooooooooooo want to go to for BSM Germany next year, travel ard europe and go back to germany just in time to experience the world cup! beh fat hope tho..
3. When I'm upset, I blast rock music or lifehouse on my earphones at that stage in between drowning my sorrows and near going deaf decibels.. currently am blasting I believe in a thing called love heh.. at 9am in the morning..
4. i hate hamsters.. they are tiny irritating little balls of crap.. haha.. i shud have let novi eat the class hamster :P
5. heh well not so much my actions but i loved a pic so much tt a fren helped me steal it from the board while i yelped omgs a billion times in the dead of the night.. in skl.. except there was still someone in the gym.. i still have the foto! :)

i cant think of 5 pple haha.. so sya, ain and myuk.. ure it..

Friday, December 09, 2005

hehehe.. i found sth very useful abt learning (or at least trying to learn) spanish
i can sorta make out stuff abt fabregas in spanish haha.. i can mostly pick out the verbs and a few nouns only tho haha. its enough to semi understand i guess.. arg not entirely enough to translate the interview tho.. hahha... the only english site i cud find was pathetic n filled with CMI pple haha..
but it feels like spanish borrows ALOT of words from english.. n i found some similarities quite interesting. like in english when u say orange, theres the fruit or the colour.. in spanish naranja (short for anaranjada) means both as well.. haha n ouyang asked me whats chocolate.. guess what.. its chocolate haha... just returned a big book of nononsense learning to spanish.. i cud only finish like 1/2 of it.. but very bad at forming sentences still hahaha

Wednesday, December 07, 2005

retail therapy
So just before I slept, ouyang msged at 2am in the morning wanting to go out.. I'm quite happy I made the decision to sakae and shop with her. I perfectly knew I was gonna sob & rot at home esp since results were bound to be out today. So I stumbled out of bed at 12 haha to meet her at orchard at 130.. :) n we got matching skl bags! from adidas at only 35 bucks! each of coz.. n i got really funny kiddy books from kino.. haha ull understand why later.. n THEN mac had to call me to tell me tt results were out.. haha damn tt semi spoilt our afternoon but nothing a lil retail therapy n girl talk cant fix... n came home n totally avoided the laptop till after dinner where there was nothing else to do.. n yihan kept bugging me to check my results but i refused haha.. till.. a lil later....

so haha the evilest of evil, the bane of my life, the hugest pain in the ass and the largest worry in the world.. is out.. n is not very good. ah wells.. stupid combi requirement.. at least im not alone.. n im not bawling my eyes out which i was doing like 1, 2 days ago.. interestingly i bawl more when im worried than when the result is actually out.. but would all of you be a darling and pray for the best for me? that I wont be booted out and still get to go overseas? :) tt wud be the greatest gift of all. I know its lying on the foot of a slippery slope but I need this. I need to get out. And its my best opportunity out. if this ends, what remains feels very worthless to me. I made a promise. And I have to stick by it. It's a lesson bitterly taken and I hope I don't suffer the conseqs too badly. Kianfong actually talked some sense into me when I was bawling away and I will know I will always have sth despite being in the deepest darkest corner. well despite the one downfall.. the other grade turned out to be a major surprise. wow I can't imagine what I would have gotten if I hadn't screwed the final paper.

sigh I wish grades didnt have to matter at all. I want life experiences, n the one place tt i may be able to get it from may be taken away from me altogether.

Tuesday, December 06, 2005

FINALLY some good news :)

Fabregas called into Spain training group
Arsenal midfielder Cesc Fabregas has earned a call-up by Spain coach Luis Aragones for a get-together at the start of next week.

The meeting will take place in Madrid on December 12 and will feature the players Aragones is considering for next summer's World Cup.
Fabregas has been a regular with the Spain Under-21 squad, and this is the first time he has been included in the senior party, with Aragones naming a 33-man pool.
Liverpool's Luis Garcia, Fernando Morientes, Jose Reina and Xabi Alonso have been included as a gesture, although the European champions' FIFA Club World Championship commitments mean they will be exempt from attending.
News of the call-up for Fabregas shows Aragones has been keeping a close eye on the 18-year-old's progress at Highbury.
Fabregas also scored against England last November for the Spain Under-21 side - and was a leading figure at the World Under-17 Championships last summer.
There is competition in Spain's midfield from the likes of Xabi Alonso, Ruben Baraja, David Albelda and Xavi, but speaking last week, Fabregas expressed hope he could earn a late call.
He declared in Arsenal's match programme: 'Everyone thinks about the World Cup, even me. You never know. I didn't expect to play so many games for Arsenal last season, so why not?
'You just have to believe in yourself, to work hard, keep playing like that and stay focused.'
He added: 'The [Spain] boss has said I am still young, and that is his opinion, but I am playing for Arsenal and I am making assists for Thierry Henry.
'Of course, I know I am young and I respect his opinion, but I will try to work hard to get into the full team.
'I'm in the Under-21s and I'm 18. But I'm working really hard and if the national coach can see the way I play and thinks I can get an opportunity, it would be brilliant.'
Fabregas only made his Premiership debut at the start of last season, but went on to make 46 appearances in all competitions during his first full campaign.
i should have known tt arsenals loss was coming to round off wth week.. but anyways.. thats over.. so here comes the calm after the storm.. *yay*

need to make more frens.. feeling so damn bored..

anyway sarah 18th Dec, Sunday Arsenal v Chelsea (arrrggg i hope gunners are at least evenly matched) footy sleepover! wee and if im not in Europe for the world cup (crosses a billion fingers tt i WILL be) lets have a billion footy sleepovers then too.. If you've got other soccer loving frens then we'll do it at yr place yes? Cos I dont really have any, so ull just be hearing me n my sis shouting at the tv while my dad gets irritated haha... n mebbe can ask deedee n asi..

anyways, I wanna watch just like heaven! any takers anyone?? And I'm so freee... bah hana n filza only ask me out when im like in the midst of exams..booo.. where are u noww..

i want my novi for xmas.. or mebbe a really early xmas prezzie..
where areee you
i heard the jingle of a bell
i thought it was u
turned out to be another kitty
an orange one..
not you..
i want half of my bed being taken up by u
i want my house pillar to be the place where u stand guard
i want to hear you scratching my roof again
i want to wake up with u sitting on me and brushing yr tail in my face
pple say u wont forget yr first love..

Saturday, December 03, 2005

the last of the open house guests have finally left.. 2 hrs of packing up before arsenal match starts! shall go snack on all the leftover food.. yums.. anyway, Im slightly annoyed, apparently pple thot i used to be .. fat.. ok fine.. fatter... they said i slimmed down alot.. BAH BS i only lost 3kg in ramadhan but im sure ive gained it all back.. well, on the bright side im supposed to be thinner now haha.. but heyyy ive always pride myself on being slim.. boooo.. but urh some relatives are so annoying.. n i feel partly disgusted n kinda disappointed in such low expectations they have... but then, my more ard my age range.. or age culture cousins came, n had lots of fun chatting up with them.. which ive never done so before cos it seemed like we had nothing in common.. but omg i was like talking semibusiness stuff with someone, cars n driving and cats haha.. i feel.. a little old.. haha.. n like there were quite a few peeps there who salamed me! ayy..

Friday, December 02, 2005

okay a lot of pent up frustation needs to be let out.. i chose the bloody WRONG QUESTION!!! i chose the frigging hard one n im soooooooooo gonna flunk it!!!!! n my heart was positively beating harder n harder when i was listening to bingkai n kelvin talk abt things i didnt write about.. aaaaaaah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im going to dieeeee.. im deadddd.... dieedeeddd.. i dont want next week to come.. *bites fingernails* let it always be the weekend WEEKEND.. so i never need to know how awfully i did.. -cries- seirously, I've never been THIS terrified of doing badly in my life.. the minimum to keep my stuff is awful AWFULly stressful! even if i failed chem in rj, it was just a stupid common test but this.. THISSSS shit of a final exam.. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!

so what will cheer me up??
and overtly excessive indulgence in arsenal n fabregas of cos.. may fab score another, may arsenal thrash bolton for my need to feel good..

not to mention lots of really loud music to drown out my fears.. and perhaps my usual dose of Lifehouse when I'm feeling down.

arks.. i think im now convinced of the need to work and play hard.. if u dont play hard.. ull go insane from the amt of STINKING hard work u did.. (urh i need to raise the working hard part a few notches tho)

SYAA come homeee... then we can have our oc marathon alreadyy n gill can prepare us LOVELY food again hahahah.. we shud make it potluck this time.. n force myuk to bring sth all the way from KL.. better yet, myuk, come back to sg NOT kl.. haha..

Thursday, December 01, 2005

continuing the week of WHATTT THEEE...,
was looking at the cat sites, n looked thru the lost n found section, crossing my fingers each time. But no cats found.. but a very odd thing i found was on the 2 sites i looked at, there was only 1 cat reported missing, and that one cat was a xsiamese breed, white/yellowish and with kinked tails!! its like the exact same description as Novi!!!!!!!!

so my sis n i are hoping agst all odds (& in pure insanity inflicted from the lack of novi) that theres some kinked tail xsiamese convention that they all went to and therefore went missing.. sigh. novi come home.... its been so long but i still miss her so much and the pain still remains.

well lets hope tom marks the end of wtf week, of coz preferably today but its impossible when biz law is tom.. hana asked me to go sentosa tom.. bleh... -pouts-

Wednesday, November 30, 2005

the week of WHATT THEEEE...

papers were shit.. im expecting a really REALLY bad GPA.. gross
a huge point to take note for next term onwards: do really REALLY well for presentations! final papers are impossible to score.. n perhaps get nice generous profs..

n it doesnt get any better.. biz law on friday.. *laughs hysterically*

ah well keep those fingers crossed hmm need to keep them cross for lots of things actually.. ssh shall not say or they wont come true..

anyways, reyes finally scored. good for him! hmm I suddenly feel like sarah is creating a whole blog of barca reports n im doing the gunners report.. so if henry does transfer all henry news moves from my blog to hers.. heheh.. ah well, wenger is definitely creating a team for the future and i cant wait till they all blossom! I was scouting around for more articles and found terribly funny ones.. like how bergkamp influenced fabregas' fashion sense for the better (thank god he cut the terrible hairdo), van persie's wife is morrocan! ie muslim.. , n there was an article comparing ROONEY n FABREGAS! the CAPS are to attract the man u fans to read this haha.. it says how rooney is so terribly educated tt he cant even speak english properly whereas fab mastered it in 3 mths n is currently learning french. n he's possibly going to london U, too bad smu isnt a partner uni :P n they showed tt rooney is earning gazillionss n spending it like water, whereas fab is actually earning a tiny sum in comparison to rooney.. n staying with senderos n the landlady.. all these tiny fun facts.. :)

anyway, was looking at all the UK partner unis smu has and the most appealing is prob City Uni cos its like almost right next to Highbury!!!! which should be near Ashburton Grove.. haha. the point in going for exchange prog is to have fun RIGHTTT.. so who cares if its a good uni or not.. haha..

Anyway, check out this really nice theme song from the anime samurai X - Starless

Sunday, November 27, 2005

just a little pick-me-up

:)
whipeee!!!!!! cesc my man scored the opening goal with a classy curl! he's finally on the scoresheet! n persie's goal was a stunner! the young ones are becoming starlets of their own right! finally can arsenal be deemed a force to be reckoned with once again! hmm i know im talking lots of soccer but mark my words! fabregas is gonna be one hell of a spanish star! I hope he plays in the world cup!!

Thursday, November 24, 2005


you know how the more stuff you have to do, the more you tend NOT to do them.. haha thats me alright right now.. its time to mugmugmug.. but noooo.. im surfing.. watching stuff on lappy & tv, playing stupid games, checking out fabregas news

speaking of which.. dont u think less is more? looks sooo much better w/o the sideburns and longish hair n earrings.. n waxed hair.. haha.. when he overwaxes, he looks like persie esp when he doesnt dye his hair.. and when he wears his earrings, he looks like cristiano ronaldo -gags- im sorry crystal, cronaldo is NOT hot.. haha.. see what i told u abt not muggingg... weeee pottering tomorrow..

Wednesday, November 23, 2005

Just finished watching Thun v Arsenal.. the afternoon telecast.. cos i wont be able to be conscious to watch it in the morning.. was tempted to look at soccernet for the results all morning but resisted.. anyway, v interesting match with a record number of offsides! I was half rooting for Thun cos they were really playing very well and i cudnt help but think tt the match was fixed from the number of offsides there were esp when the disallowed goal wasnt actually offisde.. plus.. Ferreira is kinda cute haha so poor thing.. he was in the middle of the protesting agst the penalty and the referee was just looking for someone to yellow card n he was so suay to get it.. but was also watching Fabregas play woohoo.. He is totally controlling that midfield! In the thick of all the action, distributing the ball well and plays very maturely.. not to mention he looked so adorable when he was gonna get subbed in.. haha.. and reyes was making so many plays in the first half.. there is hope for arsenal once the youngsters develop more.. i reaaalllly reallllyyy hope arsenal buys casillas n the other good prospects.. itll be a team of wonderful youngsters (who arent bad to look at :) led by the very person tt best represents arsenal.. henry! (if barca doesnt tempt him.. go away sarah!:P) yea!

Tuesday, November 22, 2005

Spanish media have said that Premiership sides Manchester United and Arsenal are both interested in recruiting the 24-year-old Spanish international

THAT 24 yr old spanish international happens to be IKER CASILLAS! back off man u! u already have van der sar.. we NEED casillas to replace the incompetent lehmann & almunia.. that would be the smartest goalkeeper deal arsenal would make if it falls through! n one of the better deals in a realy long time..
http://www.q-news.com/index.htm
I just stumbled upon this site for a british muslim magazine. very good read especially about the relevance of Islam in the modern context, particularly in a western country; tempted to subscribe to it. It's something that is lacking in discussion here and I really do agree that our views are too much of a byproduct of the media. Even though i really do loathe reading, I don't want to be a simpleton believing every word the media feeds me. I appreciate the security we have in the country but I feel too sheltered that I can't even offer an original opinion to matters of concern. I really need to get out and experience life for what it really has to offer and what it really is.

Saturday, November 19, 2005

i hate smu!!!!!!!!

why? cos it robs me of my friends.. EVERYONE is either busy in some project meeting. (thats YOU DENISE how can u be having a proj meeting when classes have ended!?) or busy mugging (thats you yanling.. how can u blow off lunch with me to mug!?). kirpal was right.. smu students have become like any other bunch where they put too much emphasis on the final exams.. im actually stoning NOWW cos i dunno what to doooo.. -pouts-

i want to watch movieessss.. but everyone will simply blow me off for... yes projects & mugging.. boohooooooo.. mebbe i shud go fazly's house tom haha after 5 hrs of CT with the other smu malays.. but i hardly even know them.. boooooo i have no life..

Friday, November 18, 2005

what a nice lazy day..
leong was nice to let us off at 1030 where i spent the rest of the time lounging on the couch waiting for the biz law pple to come out..

ended up borrowing the follow-up to the notebook & some random learn spanish book.. i realise i can only understand written spanish.. forming sentences are atrocious ahah n trying to decipher what they say is worst haha.. n rented madagascar.. where ive only watched the first cd cos i decided to take a nap in between n ended up sleeping till dinner.. the movie's kinda weirddd..

anyways, yays amal, asi n i prob gonna sign up for some buddy thingy next term where we'll buddy up with an exchange student.. one of us wants a hot turkish guy.. and the other 2 want a hot muslim spaniard.. u can try n decipher which of us it is haha.. budden.. whyyy are the guys in those region + the arabs so gatal.. its so ew.. for the lack of a better word. discovery travel n living was showing cairo, egypt and they were showing how gatal they were n sucking on their sheeshaas... its STILL smoking u knowww.. and.. how can u be talking abt a christian monastery when ure in egypt!? heloo.. when ure in italy.. u dont talk abt any other thing except the main religion tt is catholics rightt.. so when in egypt, could u pls show the main religion there!?

Wednesday, November 16, 2005

9) Ili Hazwaniaka Ilai / Hazwani / Gorilli
Our resident sprinter, Ili frequently hears remarks about her impressive leg muscles ("You must be a long-distance runner"). However, when she's not on the run (pun intended) during track training, Ili likes to indulge in her recently taken up pastime: aquisition of skirts. The number of these pieces of clothing that Ili has in her possession is presently unknown. Sources have indicated, that, owing to the recent passing of her birthday, that number might have taken a sudden leap. She is a friendly, honest person. Ili also endears herself to an active character with a sunny desposition named Tigger. Another passion: football.Ideal gift: a skirt, or an oversized stuffed Tigger.Quotable quote:"Tigger!""DON'T CALL ME GORILLI!!"

emily just showed me old OLD stuff.. from days yonder! ok fine sec2.. theres a hideous foto too my god.. n u know what.. i havent changed much.. DESCRIPTION-WISE.. im STILL acquiring skirts.. i think they're pretty! hahah hmm my Tigger has turned into Novi and will possibly turn into another kitty if she doesnt appear soon.. oh but no more impressive leg muscles haha

Tuesday, November 15, 2005

i stink

i literally do.. shall make a quickie before i jump into the shower

THANK YOU SYA!!! i had a nice surprise when i found yr letter in my mailbox.. was the only letter too.. great! altho I have no idea what the piece of wood in the letter was haha.. the flowers which I dont know if they were brown to begin with were falling off haha.. but weee! I have live things from france haha.. how cool is tt! snail mail rocks!

today alone was a whole rollercoater ride of emotions.. had a nice macs breakfast after being let off class early.. felt awful for letting my grpmates down cos of a miscommunication with ms chew.. but we solved the prob thank god.. then felt relieve that I finally achieve my first semblance of an A from *drumrolls* Biz law oral presentation.. haha.. i think im more worried for MA than for biz law. DIE DIE DIE.. then as usual videocams were giving us a problem n only solved it 2 hrs later.. (btw ain u will totally love my fren's brother who is a muslim vik, i liked his physique but u know i dont have a thing for viks, 2 yrs younger aha) right.. another down was i reached home at 620pm and i forgot the house key AGAIN.. so waited till mom came home at 645 and walked in to find Sya's letter yay! so all in all sya, you rounded up my topsy-turvy day on a good note.. or i hope no stupid things will occur with 4 hrs left to wednesday.. :)
indulgences are fun!
ms chew woke me up abt cancellation so I ended up reading the papers at 11am and decided to watch Zorro at 1145am! yeaaa I finally watched the wholeee thinggg. Catherine Zeta Jones was perfect, I always thot of her as ice queen-ish but after tt movie, wow she is just awesome.. and I admire her for raising a family and all.. i feel like breaking into 'she's a lady' haha.. Antonio Banderas looks a lil old and haggard but how can you hate him? and their son's antics are soooo hilarious.. the movie will probably rise up the ranks as my favorite movie.. :)

anyway, mark ruffalo is EVERYWHERE!.. he is in 3 movies this last stretch of the yr! theres just like heaven, this story with jennifer anniston & kevin costner and the family stone or sth liddat.. and he is surrounded by stars! woweee! i think 13 going 30 really shot him to fame! He's soooo adorable! oh wait.. the family stone is dermot mulroney not mark ruffalo... weee! my lovely leading men.. and to those who say every girl loves richard gere.. sorry EW.. i can name at least 5 other guys better than him..
1) Brad Pitt (come on... )
2) Dermot Mulroney (STILL swooning over my best friend's wedding singing scene)
3) Mark Ruffalo (he's rising up the ranks fast)
4) Michael Vartan (WHY did jenn garner choose ben affleck?)
5) Kevin Costner (he is totally swoonable in tt movie)

im sorry.. im a tabloids reader.. haha

Monday, November 14, 2005

im stuffed
i ate the last of the ketupats (yes my family takes ages to finish them) plus half a regular pizza leftover from the other night while watching one tree hill.. i totally enjoy my pure hour of heaven each time i watch one tree hill or oc.. plus there was gilmore girls today.. sad episode but i love all the characters still.. so quirky..

2 families came today.. 1 of which was jau's family minus the guy who's busy mugging haha..n we pointed out tt yet another pretty distant relative is currently teaching physics in RJ.. he's my... grandaunt's son.. i would really love to have a family version of friendster but quite paiseh to ask people for their names n everything when i dont even talk to them or know their existence hehe.. so far my family tree is prob only abt 1/2 done.. my 4 or 5 other grand aunt's/uncle's sides are still not filled.. n i started this project like eons ago.. mebbe ill only finish it in abt 10 yrs time.. parents are planning to celebrate their hmm 26th? wedding anniversary one day after my last paper.. n my sis n i told them to invite the whole family tree haha.. oh yaa.. another reason why its soooo paiseh to ask is cos it would sound like we're planning a wedding and writing the invites.. :S thats oh so wronggg!

i want to watch Zorro (the whole movie), just like heaven (yay to mark ruffalo!) & harry potter!

now that my shallow side has had enough
was reading the malay papers today, yes one of the rare times & they were talking abt all the measures they want to put into place to help teenagers at risk, esp the ones who end up pregnant & all. Seriously speaking, I don't know how these programs work and how effective they really are. I don't think it reaches the bulk of the community cos I've never even seen any of the programs. Perhaps the only ones I know about are the ones that are too late when those who become pregnant & want to use marriage as a cover-up are forced into counseling. For something to be effective, it's got to be so widespread that it reaches everyone. I mean when its a national problem theres always schools and education to be the -rollyoureyes- main solution cos it addresses the root of the problem.. Interestingly enough, there was another article that mentioned why address it as only a community problem, when we are part of the nation? Everyone has a whole has got to do more to tackle the problem. I was reading Nizam's blog too and he was commenting about blaming certain failures as the innate nature of a Malay. and its true, whenever there is a problem, the root is always seen as that and its all the parents fault. But I do blame the parents. I blame them for not kicking enough sense into their children and i blame the children for being too materialistic and shallow, too narrow minded and too easily satisfied. I see traces of talent even within my own family but I'm scared for them because they might not succeed in our cookie-cutter environment. It makes me think how much we as a community have to offer but when we're too caught up with all these silly social problems, too easily satisfied, its a shame to see that talent waste away. Not to mention, it makes me think how inadequate I am and I shamefully admit that I am a cookie cutout with nothing extra to offer. Maybe one day, I will be able to help my own community shine through. Don't scorn my dreams.

Saturday, November 12, 2005

technophobe

i REALLY hate anything electrical.. they are the BANE of my life..
why cant all things be idiot proof!? and cant every connection be a USB connection?? it makes life SO MUCH simpler..

heres the hair-pulling details of the day
1) started out realising leina's videocam is super old.. its soooooo old u have to look thru the small hole & it seems like its black and white..
2)thenn.. i realise her cam n my cam dont share the same wire.. so essentially i cant use it to transfer footage to the comp since my cam is relatively newer and thankgod has a screen u can open n flip for easy recording..
3) last night i was turning the house upside down trying to find my own wire and couldnt find it
4) after skl, i turned funan upside down trying to find my wire but cudnt either
5) kicked up a tantrum cos i STILL cudnt find the wire after more searching at home
6) dad miraculously finds the wire.. in my cupboard compartmentn with all the comp stuff
7) stupid muvee program refuses to be installed saying the product key is invalid
8) Brilliantly decides to move moviemaker from lappy to PC via thumb drive
9) I didnt move the whole file so that didnt work
10) home PC ALREADY had moviemaker..
11) vidcam is not detected by PC
12) -3 hours later- muvee program decides that it will finally let me install
13) -30mins later after (12)- dad finds out the connection to the camera is loose... & PC detects vidcam
14) Uses movie maker to extract footage but resolution sucks!
15) Uses muvee to extract footage but cannot edit!
16) Moviedirector refuses to be opened, saying it only opens with resolution higher than 16bit but my comp was on 32bit!!!
17)Finds a way to manipulate muvee so tt hopefully in the future i can burn the bloody footage on cd..

i started this nonsense at 830pm.. its now 1am.. its really WTF.. i hatee technology.. hateithateithateit!!!! my dad was all.. oh shall we buy another tape & another wire & another card? but that would mean I would have to figure the whole thing out.. n as u can see from above.. i AM not technically inclined.. every single time i have to work with vidcams, the amount tt i curse & swear is astronomical. it seems to get worst with each time... i want imovies.. it was the most user friendly software ive used so far... :(

and more rantings
GPA is screwed
its officially Novi's 6th bday.. why isnt she home!??

I don't know why but it seems that bad luck seem to fall on me like dominoes.. i could sulk and say its not my fault but i guess its partly my doing. Mostly, I'm still confused over a billion things. Life, religion, who I am, studies, socialising.. i feel so lost and normally I feel theres something invisible hand guiding me along.. but this time, I really do feel lost. I don't know how to strike a balance. I don't know what I have to do. For instance, I relish just wallowing in my own selfish shallowness and then I see & hear other people and really admire what they are trying to achieve. This is exactly what I am. Just like it says above, like iron eaten away by rust; my jealousy head is too big for words. But all I want is to be happy. If you say I can take a stand and be happy for what I have.. bullshit. How can I be happy with what I am now? It's unacceptable. I hate cheesy ohthatssofuckingobvious advise. You think simplifying the solution like tt makes pple have a new look on life? it makes u feel worst actually cos ure trivialising the problems. like. don't worrry you're not alone in this.. whats tt supposed to mean? like ure one of the common problematic people? and ure a problem to be fixed by a fixed set of steps? thats why I never know what to say when someone's sad. No matter what you say, the person's gonna think the worst anyway.. at least in my position. i really dont want to be this self absorbed.

Thursday, November 10, 2005












cutey kitties!

i want my kitty! -whine-

anyway, just watched all the videos i have of the rgs & rj class.. and now i realise the need to keep such tapes.. the unedited versions of rj were especially funny! wish i cud tape all the funny & nice moments in life!

Wednesday, November 09, 2005

silly laugh-filled day.. even tho i woked up not wanting to go to skl..

got back biz law written report today.. ayeeee.. why is tch so strict? :( other classes have A- as the lowest grade and the top in our class was still lower than that... he must really hate us or sth to give us such shitty grades.. and i thought he was nice... :( ah wells.. at least according to some pple its impossible to get out..

anyways, while waiting for AS class, we started playing all the songs we had on our laptops, and bingkai was playing the Captain Planet's theme song.. with eileen singing TOTALLY out of tune & with the wrong lyrics hahah.. its damn rofl.. being all silly is good.. then we had meeting which was just as laughter inducing.. cos its Creative thinking project! I hope we get good footage! anyway, ended up meeting sixuan by chance outside SESS while going to 7-11 with elizer, this really damn funny RI-VJ filipino guy.. relishing our old times was really fun!

oh and after class on tuesday, the whole contingent of us trooped to suntec for jap buffet where we could get it cheaper if we finished up in an hour. The sashimi was HEAVEN! and everyone just kept eating n eating their money's worth! and Alvin being on my table was TRYING to be helpful and took extra helpings of everything.. so we ended up being the table with the most food still on our table with little time left.. 10mins before the hour was up, he decided to take dessert, someone wanted a particular dessert, and he took... NINE pieces of it!!! not to mention the OTHER food that was still on our table and the OTHER types of dessert that he took together with it.. PLUS ice cream & mini puddings.. so in 10mins, we were scolding him for taking too much, he was stuffing his face silly with ALL the food, defending himself by saying he was being nice... & we were just laughing to bits, being unable to put food in our mouths watching him eat everything in 3 mins! haha we ended up being the last table to get out while we got the rest to pay for us first haha. so that we would get an extra 5 mins haha.. alvin still could tapao his ice cream out..

it turned out to be a happy day.. even tho skl is sooo boring.. i hope happy days persist...

Monday, November 07, 2005

renew..

the most stupid thing happened while i was watching Zorro.. i was thinking. wow this has the possibility of making the ranks in the list of movies i would watching.. and then what happens next is a fire alarm announcement telling pple to move out to the auditoriuM!??! so we did.. n no one explained anything to us.. so we just got back a refund.. but i WANTED to watch it dammit..

so em n i trooped off to KFc cos i wanted to try the fish ole burger.. the sauce is quite nice.. then went off to mt sinai to hang out in rj.. its the perfect place to have a picnic.. now tt grass is actually growing.. and if not the spex gal is good enough. perhaps em n gang will meet again for a picnic in rj.. i was thinking.. when nus high skl moves out they shud just preserve the skl for pple like US! for ex rj peeps to come down n hang out or study and play handball and what not since smu is severely lacking in such facilities (interesting tt im actually supporting rj facilities when its terrible aha)

anyway, i try to start anew.. somehow visiting 10 houses in 12 hours on sunday put some things into perspective n i feel more than ever the need to stop seeing the bad side of things and throw myself into the moment. to persist with whats good for me even tho its painful and more than ever.. to get out of here.

Sunday, November 06, 2005


This guy right here is my ljungberg substitue (since he's out with injury).. francesc fabregas! :D He's cut off his sloppy long hair, he's on the starting 11, he's a terrific midfielder and he's ONLY 18! AND he's a spaniard.. if he found the back of the net more often, he'd be PERFECT!

ooh i esp wonder why theres an orange/red line across his face everytime he plays.. but he's grreat to look at hahaha.. sorry.. but it's not wrong to look at nice things.. :)

Friday, November 04, 2005

its ooooooooooooover....
the presentations at least.. ive still got a tonne of written work to do but im taking it easy for now... blehblehbleh..
so since kak isnt coming home today, we're not going visitng and i ended up in C&K (not CK.. haha very big gap in prices there) and bought the white bag that ouyang says is ugly for..... $9! i had a discount voucher so whipee.. so now i have a bimbo bag which i plan to bring with me if i ever go for my exchange prog.. to put all my passports and stuff haha. i tend to think toooo far ahead..
the lowdown on hari raya:
went for solat raya which felt really fast this year.. wore my pretty pretty black baju kurung.. (finally one in a dark colour!) its great to wear black cos no one knows when u spill stuff on yrself haha.. which happened ALOT throughout the day haha.. hmm however it issss a mat colour haha.. :X oooh the funniest part was when we were driving back home from masjid kampung ahmad ibrahim, there was this merc in front of us that looked like it wasnt driving straight n it would come so close to us.. then we realised, it was our uncle's car! haha he was slowing down, waiting for us to pass them so that he could pass us lepat hahah.. so motorists behind us could see someone transferring food from one window to another haha.. it was incredibly funny

ahah.. well most of the time was actually spent doing MA blech n sleeping.. ahah yes i was napping.. damn tired lahh.. n the quiz today was SHIT.. gd thing i didnt spend too much time studying cos it wudnt have mattered haha.. im so gonna fail skl.. im abt to embark on a fallacy of slippery slope where it ends with me having a pathetic life and being poor.. haha.. for more info, ask peiyan what that means.. :p

but at night there was like a rombongan who came over.. where there were like.... 24 of them.. 6 adults.. and most of the kids were like my age and male haha.. didnt get a good look though.. n were mostly mats... plus.. they are my 2nd cousins who i did not know existed.. so they're family.. im actually linked to them by BLOOODDD..however diluted it may be.. it just makes me think how easy it is to get a bf who happens to be related to u.. well taking into the fact it supposedly is easy to get a bf in the first place haha.. anyway, they were all mostly outside on the swing anyway while i was busy trynig to get enough drinks for the whole gang.. funnily, they all mistook the newly renovated bathroom as someone's bedroom.. so like when one person entered, there were a few otheres who were peering in at the same time haha.. imagine having that many people with that many hyperactive kids bouncing around in a 3 room flat! surely spill into the corridor already haha..

yay.. next week the legend of zorro and/or max brenner with emily! i wished that were the only thing i had to do next weekk.... boooo....

Wednesday, November 02, 2005


so ramadhan's come and gone
i do wonder if shes gotten my card...
anyway, i love making ketupats.. a dying art.. haha.. well.. how many of u know how to weave anyway! so fun.. n to think i couldnt do it cos my hand was too small for the leaf to wind round my hand thrice.. my.. how big my hands have grown..

anyway, note the marble cake at the background.. its freshly baked right out of the oven.. yum.. they're so good, even my cat eats them.. well when she decides to greet us with her presence..

what a stinkingly workaholic deepavali i had.. lets hope i get a break thurs.. n let the horrible project-filled week be over~!

Tuesday, November 01, 2005

Let me fall - One tree hill
let me feel
i don't care if i break down
let me fall
even if I hit the ground
and if i cry a little
die a little
at least i know i lived
just a little

I've become much too good
at being invincible
i'm an expert at play it safe and keep it cool
but i swear this isn't who i meant to be
i refuse to let my life roll over me

I want to be someone
I want to be somebody
who can face the things that i've been running from

it's october again
leaves are coming down
one more year's come and gone
and nothing's changed at all.


the words couldnt' ring more true..
there's so many things unresolved, so many wants, so many things I just don't know how to handle.. and who to turn to. this is just one of many paths i can take though at times I can't help but feel regret. It's such an ugly word..

Monday, October 31, 2005

i know im REALLY slowww
but i just familiarised myself with talkingcock, the movie.. just finished watching it.. it was incredibly out of point!!!! but i guess that WAS the point.. i loved the raffles part n kirpal made 2 appearances!! haha i was waiting and waiting for some funny malay story to come up.. n woohoo, they featured the oh so cool mat rockers haha.. which is actually quite reflective of the culture of all the wannabe rockers.. and how mats are soo incredibly inclined to rock.. which is actually a good thing in comparison to sissified boybands haha.. but would it be so wrong to say the big brother is kind of cute??? hahha not when he was in boyband mode tho haha. and in typical singaporean fashion, I have one tiny complain.. why in the world was the malay story dialogue in 50% awkward english when i could melayu-fy it easily and make it sound so much better n natural. haha but i felt so comfortable listening to the slangs! and woohoo.. most of the mat scenes were shot in sembawang park! and the jamming session was at this place near my house!! hahah i guess idiosyncracies bring out the pride in yr own race & country..

n just for the hell of it, heres MY significant pt in life.
I was out to prove I was better than my snotty aunts.. I've done it so far.. and now I need a new motivation to get me off my lazy ass. There is this one belief but there doesnt seem to be enough to spur me on. Perhaps one day, I'll realise how I can be the one spurring it on.. but maybe just one for now.. its to prove that im better than those fakos who I hope simply wither and DIE

Saturday, October 29, 2005

first kiss
i forgot to add tt while shopping with ouyang, we got asked to be on mtv! i declined because u know.. i just dont want the fame and all.... haha.. YARIGHT.. fine heres the truth.. it was supposed to be abt the song of your lives.. and that week was about first kiss.. and ha ha.. i sooooooo don't qualify.. unless it was my first kiss with my cat? my mom? haha.. which i dont think i have a soundtrack to.. ah well.. who told them to choose that theme..

tried out my new tees from zara.. n they rock! they look pretty with jeans and one of them even prettier with the turkey skirt..

im started to be addicted to blogging.. theres nothing else to do online except blog n read blogs.. anyway, i cant install the driver STILL haha.. but throwing balls ard with grace lifted up my spirits.. n watched the spurs gunners match got me all excited and infuriated at the same time. cant wait for world cup so i can wear my turkey tee! im being all girly and clothes-horse-y.. cant help it.. ill take anything tt will cheer me up..
there is hope

THANK YOU KHIRMAN! & stop disappearing on me :)

when i felt stoned and downright down in the dumps, things are starting to look a lil more cheerful. even tho novy isnt back YET and fakos remain fakos, and work is a stinking pain in the ass at least I had ouyang & clarabelle to go retail therapying with.. got 2 tops from Zara for 33 bucks tog.. im happy.. Wait till I reach the stores in Spain, Gloria and em said that stuff there are cheap! and was supposed to go rollerblading, but they were taking a god awful time to leave the skl to ecp so i ended up having a semi fun time in the room.. I pestered Nicholas cos i was bored till he let me use his laptop and all of us started playing a spotthedifference game haha.. we got hooked.. n we were damn bored lah.. to top off a relatively good day which actually started out with me being all sombre and dontbothermeorillkillu morning, i intended to nap for an hour at 8.. but i ended up sleeping all the way to 5am this mornin! even tho ive work to do.. i dont care.. sleep is bliss. and then after sahur, i slept somemore.. till ... now.. :D how can i not be a happy trooper at this hour.. with an email coming from khir supplying me with an installation driver for my printer.. I'm feeling a lil bit more sane again.. all i need is my cat and ill be complete..

Friday, October 28, 2005

Does anyone have an epson printer? I need the installation cd.. sigh.. things just refuse to go right for me..

everything's a cycle.. and i had a stinking feeling tis wouldnt turn out right and i was right.. i guess the only good thing is that ill climb back to being happy after this.. what i seek is guidance or I'll continue to be lost and find myself drowning in tears. its one hell of an emotional roller coaster and I wished I could take it all away by leaving who i am


some mini retail therapy.. isn't that the prettiest cap... NY yankee stuff are actually much more nicer and affordable than arsenal stuff.. remember to get this for me when you go to NY junwan!! :D

I can't help but have a split personality. mood swings are aplenty

Tuesday, October 25, 2005

aaarggh i forgot to bring my cam to skl today so no pretty photos of sarah in cheongsam n asilah in a punjabi top n dont even ask what the crap i was wearing haha.. it was completely out of point.. but yea cudnt snap a shot of elizer's puppet show n how superhero-ish tegap weifa is! (the one who i pointed out looks like mr incredible:)

3 more presentations to go.. n they dont take up as high a percentage as the other 2 did so can breathe a little.. and I've cleared my errands and mail.. i love getting/sending mail from abroad.. so excitinggg! oh snail mails are welcomed from locals too haha.. hums wait i forgot to reply to sofia! id definitely want to keep in contact with her so ill have an aunt to tag along in Madrid.. :)

any-o-how yay liver tooshie finally made contact!! hahaha.. -pokes- I can't wait till myuk n sya come back so all of us can have a proper OC3 marathon.. i think its damn funny that we're still talking abt the plot in myuk's blog when we're miles apart.. the oc brings us together.. maybe we should go there together for some good californian fun & sun.. *daydreams* it could happen!

ohh.. i watched some talking dog show on Star Movies and there was a part where the dogs went missing and the owners were damn sad cos their pets just simply disappeared in the middle of the night.. it wud have been lame otherwise but I was sobbing a little cos novy did the same thing to meee.. i wished i cud be home all the time to have a million cats to love.. but even just that ONE cat will do.. if only it were time for her to come back.

Monday, October 24, 2005

i cant help but have the stinking feeling of -imscrewed- hanging over my head...
maybe im just not cut out for this.. but i dont know what it is that i am cut out for.. sigh.

anyway, FINALLY sent my digicam photos for printing.. n collected them today.. haha i thot i was gonna get lost trying to find the shop in confusing chong pang but i managed to find it no problem yay.. n developed all the photos ive gotten from other pple online.. wee.. saw my prom photo again.. i actually got my short hair to work with the dress.. hehe.. n silly sarah thinks its sexy when shes the one who bared her midriff!

anyway, miss the silly class.. as many weird loonies ive made frens with here, nothing beats the old ones..

i really cant wait to go overseas tho..

stupid stupidddd presentationss.. a bugger called bgs presentation tom.. which i will look ridiculously western when im talking abt india..
we've calculated tt we'd prob have 5 per term, 10 per yr, 40 throughout. eek.. just lemme leave here and enjoy man.. n how can theere be so few days of ramadhan left!? well at least i can get back to floorball o/w they'll think i've left them for good.. hmms mebbe what i need is to get out more.. who wants to watch the legend of zorro!?

i dont ever want to stop knowing how her fur feels like
i dont ever want to forget the sound of her purr
i dont ever want to forget how she gets her way
i dont want to forget her
i dont want her to never be part of my life again
even though life goes on and i wait her return
i'm scared I'll forget her
I want to feel as good as I did when she was around.

Foo Fighters - Everlong
hello

I've waited here for you
everlong tonight..

and I wonder
when I sing along with you
if everything could ever feel this real forever
if anything could ever be this good again
the only thing I'll ever ask of you
you've got to promise not to stop when I say when
she sang

Saturday, October 22, 2005

so bored.. locked outside the rooms.. after one hell of a freezing lect.. anyways i made a sweeping assumption that short guys have pretty phones hahaa.. elizer AND alvin have the very pretty motorola razr in black! so sleek so sheek.. so tempted to be bought haha.. maybe i shud really go ahead with my blackmailing plans haha..

Friday, October 21, 2005

i've been trigger happy! inspired by those kiddos overseas posting all their lovely photos.. i thot, i could do the same.. haha and make them miss home.. hehehe.. anyway, hari raya is fast approaching.. time isnt whizzing.. its zoooming by.. n im partially fed up.. with loneliness of all kinds, work & orang2 yang sungguh plastik/bukan tulen(sorry i really dunno whats the translation hahaha)

anyway, sports fiesta today, watched teeny tiny floorball and non-ice ice skating and just simply stoned in the room.. n doing all kind of nonsense.. till FIVE but i've discovered interesting things, watched pretty and fun things! so im contented.

because there's always gonna be someone who finds you special.
the trick is to find the one who finds you.

reallly nice songg.. almost every verse is different!
Tak Tahu harga cinta - Exists
Biarlah satu dunia tahu
Betapa bodohnya diriku melepaskanmu
Biarlah sampai ditertawakan
Kiranya rayuan ku nanti dipersendakan

Begini seharusnya balasan yang semesti
Harus menimpa ke atasku
Aku manusia tak pandai bawa diri
Tak pandai menilai cintamu

Biarlah satu dunia saksi
Betapa jauh ku tersasar kali ini
Biarlah ku dijadikan teladan untuk semua lelaki yang bercinta
Janganlah dibiarkan peluang keemasan mengecapi hidup bahgia
Disisi sang kekasih kurniaan tuhan
Salahku telah mengabaikan

Akulah manusia yang buta
Buta hatinya
Tak nampak redup mata yang jujur adanya
Menyuluhi segala dan menyuluhi jiwa
Hingga satu pintu pun tak bisa ku buka(tanpanya)

Diriku yang terlena sudahpun sedar
Kau kekasih ku damba
Diriku yang terlena sudahpun sedar
Kau kekasih ku puja...ku cinta

Wednesday, October 19, 2005

weeee! biz law presentation down.. 3 more to goooo.. :D
eekss.. some of them said i v garang when presenting and i was closee to having said your honourr.. hahah.. but i was half panicking! and felt like i was talking like a bullet train!









ooh looky.. kianfong has GREEN ketupat shoess! so cute! ew hairy ankles tho hahah

















and here is my CT project! or what it should vaguely look like when its complete.. :) i wished my teammates were as excited as the rest of the world that i showed.. lloyd even said 'wow.. malay friends rock' hahhaa.. then i read the questions on the cards.. which we invented ourselves.. n oh mannn.. i soo cant remember abt 90% of the stuff.. its gonna be so much fun reminiscicing n playing this in the future.. :) thanks ain for coming all the way down to city hall to pass it to me.. the best thing on earth is too see yr creation being loved and appreciated by others.. n sarah told me to go patent my idea and sell it.. haha but whats so unique abt it is that its special to each person and its even more special because someone took the time to compile things special to tt person.. i loveee coming up with fun bday prezzies..

Monday, October 17, 2005

went to arab street yest in the awful heavy rain! to get ALOT of pastries from the halal pastry shop there.. it felt like i was in one of those bakeries in turkey again haha.. but i only ate up the eclair, cakes and 1 pastry out of the gazillion we bought.. they look soooo good but i realise i dont like pastries esp when they are SUPER glazed and sweet.. its too much.. so our fridge is filled with uneaten pastries when there'll only be my mom n me at home this week since sis is in hostel and dad will be in msia for some insane workshop.. and theres leftover sushi from the halal sushi place in chai chee.. their salmon is awfully fishhy.. but whatever. ill take whatever sushi i can grab hold of haha.. n there are strawberries yum.. n timeout choc.. n omg my granduncle just dropped off 3 insanely huge packets of bubur masjid! that will feed us for 2 weeks! im serious! blah.. i got kinda sad in the middle of arab street cos we were buying so much food but theres only gonna be so few of us at home and its not like we enormous appetites.. cos in the past we'd buy all the food home for my granny and i would love seeing her expression when she saw so much food haha.. but now theres nobody to buy things for.. it truly feels better to give than to receive..

n today had 2 hrs of creative thinking class.. u know tt article abt cross dressing in the sunday papers? i thought.. what a wonderful way to start a class by reading abt its insaneness in the national paper.. hummsss.. haha but it turned out to be quite fun and kirpal singh our prof knows the whole world! he is on first name basis with.. catherine.. as in.. catherine zeta jones!!! and michael douglas.. AND edward de bono! and god knows who else.. yea i look forward to crappy joke-filled lessons.. thats what its all supposed tobe like mann hahaha.. and for our main project, I'm just gonna rip off ain's last yr bday prez.. :D be ready for me asking to borrow it soon ain! :P n he even let us off an hour early.. yayee.. but sigh, a part of me crumbles and dies a little bit when i come home each time.. im filled with hope that my kitty will come crawling out of some longkang and start mewing and welcoming me back home.. but when i finally open my door n step in, n she has yet to appear, the feeling just sucks.

anyway, be prepared for a moon eclipse at about 8pm tonight.. :)

Sunday, October 16, 2005

You Are A: Kitten!

kitty catCute as can be, kittens are playful, mischevious, and ever-curious. Kittens are often loving, but are known to scratch or bite when annoyed. These adorable animals are the most popular pets in the United States--37% of American households have at least one cat. Whether it is your gentle purr or your disarming appearance, you make a wonderful kitten.

You were almost a: Bear Cub or a Monkey
You are least like a: Turtle or a DuckWhat Cute Animal Are You?

wth i was almost a monkey???

UNFAIRR
arrhhh theres such a love hate relationship in reading other people's blogs.. i lurvee reading their wonderful lives and their fantastic experiences and new friends and fun.. while what am i doing back home? slaving and sulking awayyy.. why does novy want me to be soooo unhappyyy? same question to the profs.. geez.. the good news is i actually finished my AS critique.. all 1900 words/4 paged long of fetal humanity.. took me the most hell-ish 3 days to finish. i'd better get a good grade! and im on top of things for biz law n bgs... n the guys are hammering out MA so next week.. i WILL have fun.. hmms how am i supposed to do tt?? HUMS...

watched discovery channel on spain today.. man its SO christian, its kinda scaring me away from wanting to study there. ill just leave it for my honeymoon then mwahha.. hmm sweden shall be my next pick then.. where maybe ill intern in Nokia or Ikea.. hehehhe..

Journey to the past - Aaliyah (Anastascia soundtrack)
Heart dont fail me now
Courage dont desert me
Dont turn back now that we're here
People always say life is full of choices
No one ever mentioned fear
Or how the world can seem so long
Or how the world can seem so fast

Courage see me through
heart im trusting you
On this journey to the past

Somewhere down this road
I know somone's waiting
Years of dreams just cant be wrong
oh arms will open wide
i'll be safee and wanted
finally home where i belong

Friday, October 14, 2005

haha shittt im not suddenly miss happy but i cant help but laugh like shit when i stumbled upon a very old old OLDDD STUPIIDDD boyband called Take 5.. mwahaha.. mentioning their name already makes me want to roll on the floor laughing.. literally.. id be super embarassed if im the only person who remembers them.. but whatever.. it was oh so in pri skl during the imagine this.. MOFFATTS period haha.. i do wonder if they look back and regret ever living such lives.. well they did earn alot of money.. anyway, just for kicks, i happened to find their song online and listening to the first 3 secs of the song makes me hurl and laugh at the same time.. what seriously bad taste i admittedly have.. good thing i never bought their cd hahaa. i mean BSB n NSYNC are like successful boybands. but the rest are like C-grade shits man.. so my pt is.. do take the time to look back at old idols and crushes.. and LAUGH or die of embarassment cos its tonnes of fun.. :)

Thursday, October 13, 2005

cranky
the whole week feels like one whole hormonally-charged tumble of emotions. this is the most stress ive encountered in my life man. i mean even exam related stress was stressful but it lasted a miniscule compared to this. worried then frazzled then destressing then relaxed then cranky then lonely then sad then irritated then disappointed then i get a headache.. and it happens over n over again throughout. i see some things that remind me of what hurts, and it hits me again. im probably in the most foul mood ever. term break my ass. being in Ramadhan, i'm supposed to be more patient than ever. It's proving to be the most challenging task.

Sunday, October 09, 2005

Nobody can understand how I've felt over the past 24 hours. And what i need is just to vent.. not to get any sympathy from anyone and i dont want anyone telling me what to feel. Life is so cruel and unfair. To lose my grandma and someone to come home to everyday from school was painful enough. But to come home completely to an empty house, not even to someone who will give me a meow is the worst thing to feel. Yes you're right I call her someone cos my cat is more than just a pet.. she's part of the family and we miss her sorely. I don't understand why she hasn't come home and its sending me to a state of depression. From an extended family with a cat, we're down to just me coming home to an empty house with parents working and sis in hostel. I feel so lonely and pained. I've never cried so hard before. Nobody knows how much she means to the whole family. That's why it's especially cruel to take her away from us. If it's one of life's test, then all I hope for is that I learn the point fast and get her back asap. As much as I've yapped about how I want an easy life and all things materialistic, the truth is all I ever wanted was to be happy now and in the afterlife. That's all I've prayed for and I find it especially disappointing to be given such a blow. As far as friends go, family is what sticks and novy is part of my family. Novy is the friend whose stuck by me forever and the family I share everything with. No cat or friend can replace her. I want the real original her back.. and deep in my heart I know that if I keep believing and keep praying, I won't be disappointed forever. For death and missing are 2 very different things. Those who don't treat pets as if family can never understand this. They think, get over it or get a replacement. But its not the same. I can't make anyone understand it unless they feel it themselves. And when I'm depressed, the antisocialite in me comes about. For I like to sulk in darkness and loneliness and do away with useless idle chatter. So I've vent and I pray that in the near future I can celebrate her reappearance. For I believe in miracles and fairness.

Friday, October 07, 2005

come back to me.
im damn sad and depressed.. novi hasnt come home in 2 days.. pls come home. and i wont know if shes back till i get back ard 5+ and if she isnt home im gonna get super upset.. sigh.. she's the only buddy i've got.. i lurvee the way she meows and wakes me up in the morning.. i lurve taking her out for walks.. i miss her sleeping beside me.. where areee youuuu... dont leave me..
:(

Thursday, October 06, 2005

'The general public is rarely informed of the deep-seated uncertainty about human origins that is reflected in these statements by scientific experts. Instead, we are simply fed the latest version of somebody's theory, without being told that paleoanthropologists themselves cannot agree over it.'

i couldnt agree moree.. All we are ever fed with is Darwinism where men were from apes.. But did you know that they surfaced a fossil far older than our so called ape ancestors which has very human characteristics? and so that theory is on its downfall? which leads me to wonder we still studied evolution in jc.. natural selection is sth i can deal with but darwinism is sth else.. anyway, harun yahya is a fascinating read.. coming from a person who doesnt read.. :)

Wednesday, October 05, 2005

i lurrrve having cross atlantic contacts!
hehe shan im bounding ard trying to let go pent up stress and working off all the foodd i keep consuming... when im not fasting, im eating the night away! anyway, even though i get jealous looking at everyones photos overseas, I absolutely love browsing through them.. and imagine tt i can uni visit-hop haha.. it does sound like peeps overseas seem to have more tests than we do back home..
n speaking of cross atlantic contacts, sofia perez from spain, this woman i met during my trip to europe finally emailed me! she asks when im coming to spain.. :D soon sofia soon!! *cross fingers*

anyway, would it be completely sadistic and insane of me to say that todays AS class was soooooo fun!! hahah its the most i understand all term.. and its soo.. MATHS! it consists of functions and sets and mindless manipulation which i absolutely LOVE.. peiyan wanted to strangle me when i said it was fun haha... sorry.. but it is!!! mwaha.. i have a thing for logical fun.. like sudoku.. it destresses me.. n just takes my mind off annoying work.. weee... nano comes in abt a week's time~! cant wait to go jogging with it.. :D

Tuesday, October 04, 2005

im like so totally shagged..
i was asleep from 8-10pm n my legs ar still aching from all the running around in skl n for floorball.. simply cant open my eyes.. oh man had like major project sessions for Biz law n BGS today.. finally got stuff wrapping up.. whereas MA is still floating ard.. heh probably was what contributed to my major headache and sleep inducement
heh im feeling antisocialite again.. i dont care a rats ass abt things anymore.. life is so pettyyy

on a happy note, ramadhan starts.. i love it when Muslims break fast tog or just before breaking fast, everyone is busy selling/buying food/waiting for azan & when azan comes along.. everyone just stops what they are doing to break fast and is so jovial and friendly to one another, celebrating another day of ramadhan.. i love the spirit!

Saturday, October 01, 2005

ahh... sports is life man..
i dunno since when ive become a sports addict.. but it feels good haha..
a dosage of baseball in the morning (albeit the loss), a floorball friendly in the afternoon.. (where the coach said i ran alot in the last period haha.. actually.. i didnt feel like i did.. shud have gone all out shagged man.. n wahlao.. theres so much nudging and pushing n tripping in floorball! since when!?!? haha but violence can be fun) then MORE baseball tonight (1am-ish) some dragon boating tom noonish.. and some arsenal football tom night..floorball training mon night and doing some throwing around with the girls next weekend -bliss- ill just have to find time to slot in studying for MA and Biz law haha.. the seniors wanted to kill me when i said i didnt have midterms haha.. weee!!.. i knew id feel right at home when i have a proper cca.. ill be ambitious and attempt to start softball too... :D
im upthis early cos of baseball but the yankees are trailing!!
haha forgive me for lack of knowledge or teams to support. im a virgin spectator.. BUT come on the yankees look so much smarter in their outfits.. much more atheletic physique! david ortiz looks damn intimidating tho.. COMEON YANKEESSS!! haha
:S

Friday, September 30, 2005

Jason Wade - You belong to me

See the pyramids along the Nile
Watch the sun rise
From the tropic isle
Just remember, darling
All the while
You belong to me
See the marketplace in old Algiers
Send me photographs and souvenirs
Just remember
When a dream appears
You belong to me

And I'll be so alone without you
Maybe you'll be lonesome too

Fly the ocean in a silver plane
See the jungle
When it’s wet with rain
Just remember
Till you're home again
You belong to me

And I'll be so alone without you
Maybe you'll be lonesome too

Fly the ocean in a silver plane
See the jungle
When it’s wet with rain
Just remember
Till you're home again
You belong to me

Due to the overwhelming popularity of 'the way u look tonight' because of michael buble, ive changed my imgonnameltifusingthissong song to the jason wade's song.. haha.. anyway, only dermot mulroney did justice to sinatra's classic on the boat in my best friend's wedding. You NEED a deep voice for the song.. o/w its not as nice.. so now.. i want to belong to somebody.. hehe..

Yankees won!

room dispute is stupid.. pple shud seriously bugger off.. and its really making a mountain of a mousehole or whatever the word is in tt idiom..

Thursday, September 29, 2005

warrrghh..
i think im getting dark rings ard my eyes.. i knew i made the right choice by enjoying my sleep before skl started.. anyway.. work is piling up sky high.. partly my fault cos ive left MA to rot but MA is a pain to read.. the numbers are easier to understand than the text itself.. biz law is an utter tragedy and other subjects are just.. sleep inducing.. tonight i sleep.. tomorrow i shall conquer! i will at LEAST finish my damned 1st BGS draft, get up to speed for MA and brainstorm like ive never stormed before for law.. oh wait.. i still have that annoying thing called AS.. oh i do conclude one thing tho.. whatever that humans come up with by themselves is pure an utter bigotry BS.. i dont want to deal with pple man.. haha..

i watched faking it where the girl pretended to be a socialite.. n she didnt want to get out of her beautiful clothes.. can i wake up a princess tomorrow? that will happen iff (philosophers fav showoff word: if and only if) a prince comes and sweeps me off my feet.. tomorrow yes? :) so he can bring me away from sky high pile..

in other sporting news.. mixed results..
the yankees lost.. painful considering before i left home i just saw them get the lead and when i checked the score in skl, they were losing by 9 pts..
but my fav CK model scored in soccer news.. v nice strike.. with a win in overseas territory FINALLY..
but i must say.. ronaldinho is one hell of a footballer.. hattrick agst udinese with fantastic strikes.. phuh...
but which of u actually care :P who can i share my sports love with!?

Tuesday, September 27, 2005

damn cute song! and a damn cute band name haha..

Tell Him - The Exciters
I know something about love.
You've gotta want it bad
If that guy's got into your blood, go out and get him
If you want him to be the very part of you
That makes you want to breathe, here's the thing to do...

Reff: Tell him that you're never gonna leave him
Tell him that you're always gonna love him
Tell him, tell him, tell him, tell him right now

I know something about love.
You gotta show it and make him
See the moon up above.
Reach out and get it
If you want him to make your heart sing out
And if you want him to only think of you...

Repeat Reff

Ever since the world began it's been that way
For man and woman were created to make love their destiny
Then why should true love be so complicated?

Oh... I know something about love.
You gotta take it and
Show him what the world is made of, one kiss will prove it
If you want him to be always by your side
Take his hand tonight and swallow your foolish pride and..

Monday, September 26, 2005

aargh
what happened to super enthu people in smu? even ouyang is slacking like shit haha.. ok to be fair shes piled up with ltb.. and why the freaking hell are the other girls so GIRLY!?!? like only a handful were from sports and none of them are that into team sports anyway.. i feel so.. lonely..!! someone pls call me to go for floorball training tog.. damn if just hon n i were on the same team then can go train tog.. (btw nanos are coming in on the 10th so hold yr excitement till then) n ramadhan is coming up real fast so hardly any exercise happening then.. i promise to go for floorball next week when i sleep over at ntu with kak liyana.. but tonight.. ill finish up on my work i guess.. stupid rj has to be so friggin far.. haha.. anyways, i had a resolution to be the sportiest girl cos im terribly pissed by the lack of sports.. i am DYINNGGGGG w/o an outlet to drain myself physically haha.. i even wanted to hit the gym!!! i HATE the gym n the treadmill.. n so thats how sian i feel tt i even want to do weights! hums.. grrr.. how to be enthu with non enthu pple ard!?

Thursday, September 22, 2005

Despite months of not playing tennis, I think I'm finally getting a hang of the strokes! I finally properly moved to the single handed forehand n double handed backhand.. yay.. n did 4 lazy laps in the pool after tt.. i do wonder how hon finds the energy to do all the things she does.. thinking of which, i SHOULD go for alot more sports now before fasting mth starts.. hmms and after my joking sms to joshua i DID end up having a hmm not so hot date with him ;) (it rained haha) let's do it again when u have less mugging to do!
back to Anal skills.. :x
had lunch with joan, dawn n puipui today.. boy felt good to be ard softees again.. :) n i cant believe that the cap pui got is signed by the best shortstop everr.. derek jeter! dint realise there was a game this morning so i missed out on jorge's 3 runs homerun! damn! but no more puipui till xmas.. i hope she brings back good stuff hahahaa. there are sooo many LSE pple! will miss u puii!

ooh yea n we dropped by the apple shop n took a look at the nano..its so damn small! haha yea i bought it w/o realising how tiny n slim it was.. posters are deceiving! how am i supposed to tell the actual size when they enlarge the pics to >A4? hehe.. but cant wait to get my hands on itt..

Wednesday, September 21, 2005

the saddest thing happened today..
my mom took my key by mistake.. so i got off the bus, rummaged thru my stuff to find my key.. n panicked when i cudnt find it.. thot i left it IN the house.. but my mom forgot to pass it back to me yesttt.. bleh.. so i spent 15 mins calling up different family members whining/persuading them to come back n open the gate haha.. which so did not work.. my sis told me to climb the gate... except.. ill be IN the compound but still OUTSIDE the house. where all the food is.. where the powerpoints are.. cos my laptop n hp were running out of batt.. thank goodness my granddaddy lives like opposite the road.. so i bought him bribery food = KFC chicken and sat in his house for abt an hour plus watching OC on lappie.. thankgod i brought my lappie today.. so i only managed to enter the house after mom came home.. bleh.. n the thing was.. i was supposed to go home with sarah by bus.. but when we reached the busstop.. jus before the bus came, i realised i forgot to take my jacket from the room.. so i had to go back n get it.. mebbe it was a sign telling me tt my key was missing too heezz..

sleepy sleepy.. theres biz law project meeting tom.. yucks

ooh.. ive been trying to educate myself with yankee/posada trivia.. so im like halfway watching sth calling.. yankeeography hehe.. i wished they showed more baseball in sg tho.. im dying from the lack of exercise and sports exposure.. mebbe after im done with his, ill go find derekjeter's yankeeography.. :D just musing.. there must be really few mats who have any interest at all in baseball but itll be cool to find one.. haha n i realise i can be really crabby one minute n fine the next.. very influenced by pple around me.. n so if im nice to u.. consider ureself lucky.. hums.. i feel like going for soccer.. shall book a date next week with amalsarah then.. the only sane girl ard who enjoys sports.. :D i neeedddd my dosageeee! oooh and some NZ exchange student guy emailed everyone asking for an allblacks shirt to wear for world peace day tomorrow.. sort of like an ethnic costume hehehe.. so funny.. mebbe i shud join ICON club too.. looks so fun!

speaking of world peace day,
i heard news of bombing happening at taksim square in Istanbul... its somewhere i've been to.. and it feels just like the orchard road of turkey.. I feel like I can just place myself in tt situation n imagine, what if i were there when it happeend? what are the possibilities of it happening here? It's only when it hits home or somewhere ure familiar with is when u realise how real these issues are.. like how the american visitors thought we were too passive abt the 911 incident.. its cos here, it just feels like a movie unfolding..
the bottomline is, what has our world come to? We are all brothers and sisters after all. How can we enjoy the vast variety of food if not for our differences? Why is power so evil? so damaging.. Why are we causing each other harm!? You and I are no different. The golden rule applies. Love, and be loved my friends!

Sunday, September 18, 2005

wee.. i lurrve slack weekends.. but a mth of intense project doing is aheaddd..
lets just kick back for awhile.. and be the slack ol me.. as alwayss

ok hon is the world's best networker.. the price of my ipod nano keeps going down with every sms she sends haha... being nice ol' me im sharing the discount with herrrr... :P but if none of u know yet, got some discount for ipod nano at 340 bucks 100 off retail price.. tellme by tues if u want in..

just watched love actually.. quite a few awwwwww so sweet moments.. but its just an accumulation of love stories too short to be made into 1 story by itself haha... but it kinda blows when uve got no one to go awwwww with.. n yea sure love actually is all around.. not being cynical! i do love my frens n family! but sth extra cudnt hurt haha.. n the hot guy was only there to provide eyecandy..with no proper plot.. what the shit man.. haha

anyway.. i so want to go overseas for more than a sem.. everyone else ard me gets to be independent but staying at home with parents just makes it difficult for me to grow up haha.. i want to buy my own groceries.. and clean the house when i want to and just do stuff as if the whole place is my own.. u may argue tt u dont have to go away to be independent.. but at home.. there is always a nagging feeling.. n being in my shoes.. u just know when ure expected to be home.. what ure expected to do. what not.. i just wanna be free of those inhibitions for onec in my life.. and actually finally feel somewhat like an adult..

and what is the deal with the media.. they just LOVEEEE to promote the country that i am just abt to go to.. first sibu island.. then turkey... now spain!! what the hell mann.. hahha oh man.. chatting with yuhsin now.. he is in taipei doing medicine.. tom is his 1st day of skl!! and he's telling me abt the hot spanish girls he's met there.. hahahha.. so cool!

hmms.. u know how when ure young.. u look up to adults and think wow.. they are so smart.. they know everything.. they know all the answers.. you grow up n u realise that ure not smart.. u dont know everything.. n its scary.. because i feel like the same 12 yr old.. (mebbe physically i feel old haha) i read my old entries.. even from just 1 yr back.. n realise im still very much childish.. but u know what.. kids have the most fun in life! so why grow up? :)

Friday, September 16, 2005

weeeeeeee~!!!!! im so higghhhh
there better not be rain on thurs.. n everyone who promised to show up better do!! i cant waittt! im gonna be tennis-ing/swimming on a skl week with a whole bunch of random pple n itll be so much fun!.. i hope fah-mi is there to brighten things up even further! *crosses fingers*
whipeee.. this promises to be an eventful fun week.. dont disappoint me now!

Wednesday, September 14, 2005



Just trying to feed my need to be somewhere other than here.. somewhere fun n exotic..somewhere i can be free of worries and live for the now! where else better than a bull ring in madrid.. ole!

im missing gilly baby.. n the rest of my oc fanatics.. sobs.. who else am i supposed to watch marathons of season 3 with? an ode to geel, muns & sya.. cos this song reminds me of liver tooshie and her love of weird bands & weirder band members.. n her groupie tendencies.. :P loves u lots!

I believe in a thing called love - The Darkness
Can't explain all the feelings that you're making me feel
My heart's in overdrive and you're behind the steering wheel

Touching you, touching me
touching you, god you're touching me

I believe in a thing called love
Just listen to the rhythm of my heart
There's a chance we could make it now
We'll be rocking 'til the sun goes down
I believe in a thing called love
Ooh!

I wanna kiss you every minute, every hour, every day
You got me in a spin but everythin' is A.OK!


And.. the 2nd english song that I heard on radio when I was like in pri skl.. and I only just rediscovered it, how much I love it..

I live my life for you – Firehouse

You know you’re everything to me
And I will never see
The 2 of us apart
And you know I give myself to you
And no matter what you do
I promise you my heart

I build my world around you and I want you to know
I need u like I’ve never needed anyone before

I live my life for you
I wanna be by your side
In everything that you do
And if there’s only one thing you can believe is true
I live my life for you

I dedicate my life to you
And know that I would die for you
But our love would last forever
And I would always be with you
There is nothing we can do
As long as we’re together

I just can’t live without you and I want you to know
I need you like I’ve never needed anyone before