I'm so so so tired. This week has really been terrible to me. Being tasked to do so many things while already having so much to do. I'm really beginning to hate malcolm more and more. This somehow works in waves. And yes, I have to comment that he really doesn't have good interpersonal skills, really loves to slack, and really really loves to get others to do all the dirty work for him. WTF!!

Woke up early for the GRL visit today. I really hate these affairs. They are a complete waste of time and I don't do anything much, just registration. Sigh, I think this is a really really dumb thing. Let's hope they don't have many such visits lined up. The only consolation is that it's near my place.

I'm having very bad impressions of Jamie and Carin now. They're doing their work for the sake of doing it. I don't feel a passion coming. A passion to make them care for what they do. I don't know, but I think by reading the first chapter of Rules of Management, I find that making people care for their work, whether it's by telling them that they help people, it's for a good cause or something, it's the best way to motivate people, because that's how I feel.

Met this really pretty girl yesterday. She's Sandra from STB. I had been on the phone with her for quite some time until I met her and now, I can put a face to her voice. A pretty face matching a pretty voice. Wow, she really is blessed. Nadine was saying that pretty voices don't really have pretty faces, haha, Sandra proves her wrong. Haha.

Okay, I gotta go bathe. Feeling slightly better thinking and writing about her.

:)

Hmmm. I felt like blogging earlier today and I told myself to do so when I got home. But now, it seems that there's nothing to blog now.

Work. It's been insanely crazy the amount of work that is coming in. I feel so cornered. There's nothing in life to look forward to. There's no date with Serine, or anyone else. It's just so mundane. Work then tuition. Or work and sleep then work again. I need to get out of this routineness. Something to make my life more interesting. Sighh.

I can't seem to feel motivated for jap lessons anymore. I don't know. Could it be that my teacher is a guy? Haha. Stupid reason really. But it might be that on the subconscious level. Sigh. Homework is getting tougher as well. I feel like my flair for the subject is gone. Sigh. Things are getting pretty tough.

I want to ask Serine out on Saturday evening. But I don't know if she's free or not. Gonna ask her tomorrow, a 2 day grace from Saturday. Hmmm. I wonder if this advice really works or not. But no harm trying right? Saturday is so packed.

7am - Grassroot Leaders visit to 35 SCE (at least it's near my place)
12.30pm - Tuition (Don't know how I'm going to get there on time)
3pm - Alumni prac (I'm going to be so late!)

But hopefully, I wouldn't mind a date with Serine after alumni prac. Haha.

:)

Today's tuition went pretty well. Theodore concentrated pretty well. Saturday's one wasn't too good. I just got pissed suddenly. Arhhh. I can't believe I didn't keep my temper in check. Sigh. I'm so sorry for that.

It's Monday night and I'm not really feeling tired. It must be because of the long nap I took yesterday afternoon. Naps are really good. Haha. I seem to be unable to do without my morning bus naps anymore. I even try to sleep as long as possible and not shower in the morning. *groanz*.

Main topic of today's post: Band. After going to alumni pracs and listening to PLAY, I find that I will find it hard to live without band in university. And after Yahui told me that Symphonia is like the major CCA in SMU, it makes me want to join band all the more. Hmmm, but i really wanted to join tennis. I think this really needs serious consideration. I'll probably be able to get a leadership position in band to lead, it'll look good on my resume. But will I get that much satisfaction? Don't I want to do sports? Do I want my life to revolve around band so much? Hmmm, as there are pros, there will also be cons. There's nothing perfect in this imperfect world. I think I shall think about it more. On one hand, I don't want to miss the opportunity to try something new, on the other, I would like to continue with something I already excel in. Sigh, why can't I choose both?

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BAD NEWS!!!! NARUTO IS GOING TO BE LICENSED.

Oh gosh, I can't believe this is happening. Naruto, Naruto, do I really need to buy the dvds? And they are so incredibly expensive. Unblievable.

Having a headache now. Pretty bad one, so I'm going to sleep soon. I finally finished my piano score for Sadness and Sorrow. Yay! Sounds pretty good. Think I'm improving at this.

Anyway, this post is going to end here. I'm feeling pretty shitty now. Haha.

:(

Okay. It's Valentines' Day today. Right now! You may ask, so accurate? Haha, alright, alright, I cheated. But it's as close as possible.

Hmmm. I was reading this article on love in Men's Health. They were saying love is like a drug. There's tolerance, withdrawal and relapse. The truth of this statement gives me the creeps. I just wished Serine would have a dinner with me tonight.

Thinking of her makes my heart skip a beat, makes my mind go blank, makes my knees go weak. I don't know when it started, that she meant so much to me. And I'm just sad that I'm sitting here not doing anything, fearing that our friendship would vanish if the feeling wasn't reciprocated. Sigh. My life is still screwed. But anyway, I've got to keep my chin up. There's the future to look forward to.

:)

8 days without blogging. That's a record. Ironically, these days were mainly free, with so many public holidays.

Chinese New Year came and passed. My family didn't really celebrate or anything this year because my grandfather passed away about 3 months back. But still, I think my angpow collection wasn't that bad. Visiting the relatives on my dad's side is more of a waste of time. My cousins and I aren't close and my aunts don't give much money in the angpows. Yeah, I haven't really seen them since last new year. And the year really passed pretty quickly. Just that when you're stuck doing mundane stuff, it really seems long. Yeah, the present seems long. But looking back, it really seemed like time whizzed past.

Enough of the sidenote. I plan to save all my money this year. This shall go into my mid year plan of $1500 savings by end of June. Haha. But still, I want to get the ipod. Maybe I'll have to fork out the $400 for that. Maybe a tennis racket too. But that can probably wait.

Yesterday was Saturday. One of the best Saturdays of the new year, if not the best. Met up with Shanon and Junjie at about 2.30pm at Orchard mrt (I was 30 min late and Junjie was 40 min late, so sorry Shanon! Haha). Then we proceded to Far East Shopping Centre to play pool at Mechmaster. As usual, we got the sucky No. 21 table which was tilted. Haha. Why do we always get that table when we meet up? It was a race to 7 for 9 ball pool. Shanon eventually won, with much help from lady luck. Haha, they wanted not to be after me because I always gave them difficult shots to hit. Shanon christened them 'Shit Shots'. Haha. But it's skill alright, to snook the other player. Haha.

We proceded to billiard next, with Shu'en and Dennis joining us. I partnered Dennis and we eventually won because Junjie and Shanon fouled more times than us, giving us many 4 point bonuses. Haha. But it was really difficult to play, given the size of the table and the balls. One was too big and the other was too small. Haha. But it was fun and a good experience.

Dennis and Shu'en left after. And we proceded on to Lan. Warcraft was really really really fun. We attempted 1 insane and 2 normal computers at first and we completely whacked them. Then it was 2 insanes and 1 easy. Won as well. We played quite a few games. And we won most of them. However, it could have been due to the maps because for certain maps we were completely crushed. Our final game was against 3 insanes and 1 easy. We ran into some trouble early on but rallied well and managed to defeat them. Haha. All in all it was really fun.

We went for dinner at about 10pm at MacDonald's at Shaw Centre. I had the Chicken Prosperity Burger. It was not bad but the curly fries (think it's called that, or twister fries) weren't that great this time. But it was quite a nice dinner. Went to Lido to catch a show after that. We watched 'I Do I Do', this Chinese/ English/ Hokkien show produced by Jack Neo. I really can't stand Jack Neo actually. The show was probably worth 2.5 stars by me. The jokes were really stupid at times, the plot was predictable, and the acting unnatural. Haha. But we had a good time laughing. So it wasn't really that bad.

Wanted to go home after the show, but we realised that the trains had stopped their service. So Shanon suggested playing pool again. And we really did do it. This time, I won the competition of the race to 3. Haha. By much luck if you should say. Then we proceded home via Night Rider. Fortunately, the 2 of them had a Night Rider service to their place. And my direction to their bus stops were spot on. I fell asleep on my bus though and I missed my stop. Fortunately I got off the stop after and the walk back wasn't too long. All in all, it was a fabulous day. We really need to ahve such occasions at least once a month. Haha.

Valentines' Day is tomorrow. Unfortunately, I've not got a date. Unfortunately or fortunately? I don't know. Anyway, I don't think I would go out with anyone else other than Serine. Sigh. It's just my fault that my life is so screwed up right? It really feels shitty to have someone you like, and in return that person doesn't like you. I guess it's fate. 運命。

Finally, time to blog.

Not much has happened really. Had another alumni prac today. We played Pirates of the Caribbean. And it is so cool!! At first, I didn't really like it, the recording sounded boring and non catchy. But the more I played it, the more I found it challenging and interesting. But I'm just afraid that the audience might not like it as how I didn't like it when I first heard it. I can't wait to get the soundtrack! Wenyang spoke to me about asking my batch to take over the leadership of the alumni. Think it's going to be hard since not many people are keen on being in alumni. The only reason why we're playing for alumni is to see our old friends again. Haha. But to be directly involved? Hmmm..I think it's really not going to be easy. Anyway, I've a feeling that he wants me to be the chairman. Crap. I don't want this responsibility.

Had dinner at Cafe Cartel. Pretty nice place at Bishan. Just that the food isn't too good. Had this panfried Linguine I think. A 'Chef's must try', but it was disappointing. The first mouth tasted good. But subsequently, it just felt stale. Cost me about $11. The portion wasn't too big either.

Huawei came over after I cleaned the living room windows. We played Pro Evolution Soccer again. This time we were pretty good. But got stuck at clubs like Deportivo and Newcastle. Played them quite a few times. But eventually we prevailed. Stopped for a while to watch the Man Utd match. Keane and Rooney scored really nice goals! Haha, I'm just glad there's no hangover from the Arsenal victory. That was absolutely fantastic!

Just watched Bleach. It's just as cool as how it is in the manga. Haha, speaking of Bleach, a new chapter is out. And I'm going to read immediately after this sentence!

Oh yeah. This is a good day.

Hmm..I think I shall try asking Serine out on Saturday evening to watch a show and have dinner. The outcome's pretty expected though. She'll probably say that she's busy and she has lots of work to rush. But hell, I'll just try my best. No harm trying right?

Work today was pretty shitty. As was yesterday. I'm being piled with work again. Malcolm's just being an ass. I can't believe he can't even make some phone calls. I mean, some of the simple stuff, can't you just do it and get it over with? And saying that I slack. Wtf man. He's the exact kind of person I so detest. Yes, detest is the word. He's a parasite in the world.

Need to sleep. I woke up feeling as tired as I was the previous night. I think I shall sleep early tonight so that I can get up and watch the Arsenal vs. Man Utd match later at 4am. Hence, this will be the end of the post.

P.S. Bleach 160 came out today. It's just incredibly cool!