It's been a fun weekend!

Saturday started off badly. I was tired and I had a runny nose. But I still had to drag myself to tuition. Tuition went quite alright. Miz learnt pretty well though he had forgotten quite a few number of things from last week. He could understand the concepts pretty quickly. I do wish him well for his test and I hope that he doesn't make elementary conceptional mistakes. Anyway, I was paid $200 for the month! Fantastic. Really could do with the money. I was already getting poor from getting all the clothes.

Got home and prepared to go for alumni. I couldn't believe I had to eat my words. Haha, and Shu-en was teasing me about what I said about nothing ever going to make me play for band again. Lol. Anyway, it was really fun. I really missed the camaraderie of band friends. It feels good being able to make music again. Thank you. We had dinner after that at S-11. I had Ban Mian. Haven't eaten from that stall for a really really long time. Hmmm. Though my batch was split to 2 tables. It was still fun talking to the guys about stuff. We left at about 6.30pm and headed home. Cassandra asked me to go to her place to play Amplitude and hell, I agreed. Wanted to ask Debra along too. She was reluctant at first, but we managed to persuade her. Haha. We played Amplitude for pretty long and Debra really had a low score. Hong Ming came after and he was the best out of all of us. Haha. Talk about natural talent. Left at about 11.30pm. I walked Debra home. You know about her, no matter how pretty she is, she's still someone who's really hard to get along with. I mean, the way she speaks, she doesn't seem to want to continue with the conversation. But at least it wasn't too a point that was awkward that day. Oh, had to apologise to her too. I didn't really want to leave after we started playing the tennis game. It was sooooo fun!! That night, I couldn't resist the temptation to download the Bleach manga. Stopped for soccer though. Man Utd won Middlesbrough 3-0 with Rooney scoring 2 sublime goals. However, I fell asleep for his second goal. Lol. Match ended and I went to my room to read the mangas again. I was really so engrossed but I forced myself to sleep.

Got up at 12 on Sunday (today) and continued reading mangas. I just finished it! It's just so so so cool! My desktop wallpaper is now of Kurosaki Ichigo. Oh damn, he's really kakoii. Anyway, I went to cut my hair. They raised the price again, this time to $22. What rubbish. Anyway the haircut is really crappy today. Maybe Karmen had a bad day. She simply just shaved and shaved. Goodness, and my hair is just so damn short now!! Faintz man. Can't bear to look at my hair now.

Anyway, that's all to the weekend. Got to do my Jap homework now! Lol!

I just watched Bleach!! Yeah!! It was so cool. So many new stuff coming up. And I realised that I really do like scenes that show a guy coming in aid of a damsel in distress. Haha.

Back to the story though. The first part was basically a waste of time. About Rukia getting attacked and stuff. Then Ishida came along to save her but he was soundly beaten. Ichigo found Kon taped to the toilet bowl and saved him. From there, he found out that Rukia had left. So he transformed into a Death God and went after her. Then, he managed to save Ishida from dying at the very last moment. The fighting scenes were really good. And I managed to see the Soul Slayer changing form for the enemy. I wonder how Ichigo's will be. Should be super cool right? Anyway, he was wounded quite badly. And the episode just ended there. What a cliffhanger. Arhhh!!

Damn. Today's a bad day. A day worth forgetting. A day that shouldn't be blogged. Still, I'll just write why it's so bad.

1. Man Utd lost to Chelsea in the League Cup Semi-finals. Damn. 2-1 was the scoreline. A freak goal from a Damien Duff freekick sealed the game for Chelsea on 85min.

2. Almost quarelled with Malcolm. I felt like I almost lost control of my emotions. It was so much work and no help offered. Just constant nagging.

3. Felt pretty sick during Jap class. Think I'm coming down with flu. Headache, sorethroat, and possible fever. I just lack the runny nose or cough to complete the combination.

4. Roger Federer lost to Marat Safin. Now, THAT is sad. I can't believe Roger Federer lost. Oh my gosh. That's like crap. a 5 set encounter. And then Safin managed to break Federer. So now, the Australian Open is gone.

Sigh, how is life worth living now?

Hmmm.. I think I'm beginning to come to realise that Serine is probably not the one for me. What Yahui said is right. You can't really go on loving someone who doesn't love you back endlessly. It's just too difficult. It's difficult for me. However, I still feel that it's a waste that we couldn't get together. Or rather, she did not give me anything positive to look towards. The only thing I received was to be ignored and avoided. Sigh. I lead a sad life. Why am I so drawn to people who won't like me? Life is an irony, a cruel one at that too.

Hmmm.. I've not blogged for quite long. Not really long though, but things have been happening in my life.

First up, Priscilla added me on msn on Friday night, but I was already alseep then. So, we only got to chat on Sunday morning. I asked her about the Japanese culture event. Coincidentally, she was also interested in going. So, we went together for it. It was a pretty interesting affair. We learnt how to make this flower ring with japanese dolls, cranes, japanese fans, etc. I was slow as usual and I didn't really finish my flower ring. But, that didn't matter. It is the experience that counts.

I'm glad that I managed to pluck up my courage last Thursday and talk to Priscilla. She is really an easy-going girl, not very smiley, but still really cheerful. Honestly, it isn't really tough approaching a girl and talking to her. I should put that into practice. Haha.

Okay, we talked again last night, tried using Japanese to converse. Though slow, it was still great fun. Hmmm.. And she asked if I had a girlfriend. Dear, dear, I really hope that she doesn't have a crush on me. Probably not, it's probably my imagination taking over and my consistently incorrect sixth sense giving me wrong directions. Haha. But it was still fun.

Roger Federer just beat Andre Agassi!!! Staight sets even, 6-3, 6-4, 6-4. The Federer Express keeps speeding on. Oh gosh, tennis is really so exciting. I really wanna master it and be able to play it well in university. Must really get my knee properly healed soon. :)

Started tutoring Cassandra's brother, Theodore, on Monday. Teaching a primary school kid's really so much easier. Especially when the primary school kid is passionate about learning and has a good concentration span. I just can't believe how I'm surviving teaching someone in secondary 2 and is so dumb. Lol. But that doesn't matter, hard work can triumph over genius. As the saying in Naruto goes, "One day, a genius in hardwork can beat a genius". Something like that I think.

Okay, gonna watch an episode of some anime now. :)

I wonder if it's a good idea not playing for Raffles Winds.

When I put down my instrument for the last time in 2003, I had decided that it would be the last time I would be picking it up. So, I'm not going to join band in SMU or any other university. But well, somehow alumni just feels different. I'm really tempted to go for it. But I'm bring held back by my obligations. Obligations like my schedule, my decision, my reputation (I wonder why I'm so affected by it), etc. Well, I guess I shall not play then.

Just came back from Huawei's place after staying over for a night. We played Pro Evolution Soccer till about 4am then went to bed. Continued with a flurry of games today. His cousins (Yue Mei and Jin Jie) came over in the morning and we had some fun together all through the afternoon. Jun Jie's a really nice person, very obliging and helpful. Huawei's mum asked me to help Yue Mei out with her Sec 3 A maths questions in the afternoon too. Haha. I think teaching girls is really much easier than teaching guys. They are more willing to learn and more patient. And everything is not about 'face'. Ahhh. Saaving face is crap. Hahaha.

All in all a really fun day.

My first Jap Lesson at Elementary 2 went well!

Gosh, that sentence is simple yet it contains volumes of unspoken emotions. Okay, let's start of with my teacher. He's called Gima Sensei. At first, I thought having a male sensei would be worse than having a female one. Guys tend to be less meticulous and more blur, to put it bluntly. But Gima Sensei is really good. He's funny. He's sincere. He's understanding. Components of a great teacher. Okay, then there's this girl. (Why's there a girl I notice in every Jap class?) She's called Priscilla and she's 17 this year I think. Yeah. I think she's waiting for her O level results. But I don't think her prelims were very good because she's not studying now. I talked to her after class starting off with "So, you're in band?". Haha. Quite pathetic. But, you know she's the typical nice girl. So she wasn't like scared off or anything. And she thought that I looked familiar. Haha. But no, we didn't really know each other at all. She's from TKGS and she played the french horn previously. All in all, it was pretty fun chatting with her before we boarded separate buses and left for home. I don't know if it's just me, but I thought she threw glances at me throughout the lesson, or at least the first half of the lesson. I almost had a chance to talk to her alone. But there was this girl who brought a drink into the classroom and Gima Sensei for the answers to the first textbook. And we left the classroom almost together. That's when I made my move. Pretty cool. I mean, having the guts to approach her. What could go wrong? And if anything went wrong, it wouldn't change my life right?

Today was cool!

Arhh!! Today was a day I almost just exploded. When people ask me to do stuff, fine, I'll do it. But if I see you sitting in one corner, slacking away, it's just too damned irritating. No wonder no one ever liked you.

Anyway, I don't really feel like blogging now. These few days the only thing I wanted to do was to stay at home and be alone. I wonder why. Just didn't feel very sociable.

I thought it feels bad to be sick. Unfortunately, I was wrong. Being sick makes one feel tortured, literally.

Got up at 4.30am this morning feeling terrible. My back was aching badly as I went to get a thermometer. Instantly, I knew I was sick even without the need for the thermometer. Nonetheless, I took my temperature. It showed 37.3 degrees I believe. That wasn't too bad. But I was unable to get back to sleep due to my aching back. At about 5am, I took my temperature again and this time it showed 37.7 degrees. Still not that bad. But I lay awake in bed all the way till 6.20am when my mummy got up and I told her I was sick. She asked me to go back to bed and to get up at 8am to see a doctor. Another 1 and a half hours lying awake, feeling tortured. At 8am, as I wanted to go and see the doctor, my dad was taking his time getting ready. We only left house at about 9am.

The clinic (Raffles Medical Group) was pretty crowded. And I had to wait about 1 hr for the doctor to see me. Terrible. It was freezing too. When it was my turn to see the doctor, my fever had subsided, possibly due to the air con in the clinic. However, he warned me to watch out for the symptoms of dengue fever (rashes, sustained high fever) as it was uncommon for fever to be unaccompanied by other symptoms.

I got home and took my medicine, and went immediately to bed. The pain in my back had subsided a little due to the paracetamol and I was able to have undisturbed sleep for about 3 hrs. Got up for lunch with no more fever. But at about 4pm, my fever acted up again and this time the highest it had gone was 38.5 degrees!! Oh no.

Well anyway, it's now about 38.1 degrees, still high but I'm not feeling that hot anyway. Don't really feel like blogging. Feeling weak all over. Hope I get well soon.

Anyway, the thing I wish for most now would be a message from Serine wishing me well. With that, I will definitely get well instantly I think. Haha. No chance.

I realised that I had not really set any resolutions this year. Hmm. So this post will be mainly dedicated to my new year resolutions.

1. Play tennis regularly (fortnightly, at least). Take tennis lessons if possible.

2. Save at least $100 a month, regardless of expenses. Ensure total savings of $4000 by end of year. $3000 by mid-year.

3. Cut down on expenses on clothes/accessories.

4. Live healthily. Eat healthily.

5. Bathe every night, without fail.

6. Brush my teeth after all meals, when convenient.

7. Study japanese diligently.

I decided to change my blog address. Just can't really entertain the thought that my secrets are read by my friends. I mean, if I want to relate them, I will do so at an opportune time. So yeah, it's now changed..again.

Okay, I think I've finally come to a conclusion/ decision about the Serine issue. It's probable that she'll never ever fall in love with me when I'm in NS. Things are just too uncertain and the opportunities of meeting up and having fun are far and few between (Does that sound right?). Yeah. So I think I'll just leave things to time. Time will tell. Will I still be so in love with her after 20 months when I enter university? Will I be in SMU? Yeah, many uncertainties in life. So, I guess it would be good to wait till I enter university and then I'll think about this relationship again. If I still love her, I'll go all out for her. If not, well there are other girls out there. Nothing's confirmed now. And right now? Guess I'll just concentrate on studying and working. What a poor combination. Sigh.

Saturday was a pretty alright day. Although I really expected a whole lot more out of it. Had a 3 hour Winning Eleven session with Huawei that started at 12.30am and ended at 3.30am. Was really really reall tired. But I still managed to get up at 9.30am to prepare for lunch with Huawei and Shu-en.

Lunch was at Olio. It's slightly renovated and has lots and lots of new staff. Plenty of malays. Bleahz. But there was this new waitress. She is pretty cute and Huawei was hitting on her. Haha. Her name was Lindy according to Huawei. Talked about life and stuff going on in life with both of them. Nothing really scandalous. But it still seems that my life seems the suckiest. Lol.

Okay anyway, I went home to wait for Ruxin and Yahui to come over to play tennis. Unfortunately, it started raining just at about 4 when Ruxin arrived. Yahui and Yale reached shortly. And we started on Amplitude (again). Got quite bored of it midway and I went to my room to read some magazines. Yahui also came and she found Men's Health haha..pretty interesting. Okay, at about 6 when the rain stopped, the 3 girls went down to swim. I was totally against it as I hate swimming just after rain and when it's cold. Anyway, I couldn't accompany them for dinner as well as my parents had bought back food. Didn't really expect them to though.

Sigh, actually, from the way I'm blogging, isn't it pretty obvious that I'm not in the mood to do so? Haha. I'm tired. Anyway, to Ruxin, if you read my previous entry, I'm sorry for being mean. I just wasn't in a good mood then.

The 'If' Questionaire

If I were a month I would be July
If I were a day of the week I would be Saturday
If I were a time of the day I would be 6 in the morning
If I were a planet I would be Eath
If I were a sea animal I would be a Clown fish
If I were a sin I would be Greed
If I were a direction I would be Forward
If I were a liquid I would be Wine
If I were a tree I would be a Maple tree
If I were a bird I would be a Eagle
If I were a tool I would be a Pen
If I were a cake I would be Oreo Cheesecake
If I were a flower I would be a Rose
If I were a kind of weather I would be Fine
If I were a musical instrument I would be a Cello
If I were an animal I would be a Dog
If I were a colour I would be Blue
If I were an emotion I would be Excitement
If I were a vegetable I would be Asparagus
If I were a song I would be The Reason
If I were a book I would be Get Anyone to Do Anything
If I were a place I would be The Eifel Tower
If I were a taste I would be Sweet
If I were a scent I would be Sweet as well
If I were a word I would be Empathy
If I were a body part I would be the Heart
If I were a facial expression I would be Smiley
If I were a subject in school I would be Dance
If I were a cartoon character I would be Naruto
If I were a shape I would be a Heart
If I were a number I would be Seven

First things first. I accepted Ruxin's invitation to go for the New Year Countdown with her classmates. But then. there were unforeseen circumstances. Weibin and Yankai turned up. So Ruxin decided to leave me with them while she hangs up with her class. Quite a good thing too, because I had a really good time catching up with Yankai and Weibin. It has really been ages since I've seen them and talked to them. But, things got a bit boring, walking around and stuff, so we met up with Serine, Ruxin, Wei Leng and Qu Yuan at Olio Bites. Sat down to talk and we only left after about 10+. Then, we went to walk somemore at the Esplanade. Took a really long route there though. Through the park, which was really deserted. There, Serine and friends saw their classmates. And so, we were stoning round them for a while. This year, it was really pathetic. There were so few band people going for the Countdown. But anyway, Cassandra and Hongming met up with us with about half an hour to go to midnight. And Yahui came at about 11.50pm. Okay, so New year came. Without much of a blast, since there was supposed to be a minute's silence, in respect for the people who had died because of the tsunami. Alright, we started hugging and wishing each other happy new year. Took a few photos. Yeah, and I took a photo with everyone except Serine. :( Didn't really dare to approach her to ask for a photo. So, in the end she went home. Sighh. I can't believe it. Someone I know so well, and I couldn't even ask her to take a photograph with me. Arhhhhhh!!!

Okay, woke up the next morning. And I was going to have a date with Serine!! Haha. Though it was going to be short, because she had to meet her friend at 4 to shop for a present for Ruxin, whom she would be meeting at night to celebrate her birthday. Yeah, we met at 1pm, supposed to be at 12pm, but she said she wanted to sleep more. Haha. But that's alright. We went to Di Summer so that I could get my hair cut. This time it was Alan who cut my hair as Karmen was having her hair done. But it was still nice, though he doesn't really know my normal style. However, I think I'll have to cut it soon again, because it isn't really very short this time. Yeah, it was still cool that she was sitting around. Okay, so after that, we went to lido to check out tickets. The show was at 2.45pm, which wasn't suitable for her schedule. She suggested watching something else, but well, I didn't really want to. Then, she tried calling her friend to check if they could meet later. But no, option killed. So we headed to PS to see if there was a 2.25pm show there. Unfortunately, Serine and I had remembered wrongly and it was actually 1.25pm. Okay. We ended up not watching. Walked down PS and noticed a new restaurant called Summer Spoon. Serine thought the place looked interesting and the menu looked alright. So we went in and ordered some stuff. She had a baked pasta and I had a spaghetti carbonari. Hmmm. It was really not bad, big portions and pretty tasty. But, the restaurant really lacked the professionalism of say Olio Dome or NYDC. First, the cutlery were dirty, waiters were pretty unprofessional and laid back. Imagine serving drinks and spilling them. Okay, it wasn't really that bad. Then we left, walked about PS for a while, headed to Yamaha, G2000 and U2. Serine wanted to get some books to start learning the guitar. Cool! Haha. For me, I would prefer learning a new language because well, it's more useful when I work. Another qualification you know. Yeah, that's why I'm taking Japanese now right. Okay, we headed toward Orchard by bus. She wanted to accompany me to beads to check out this necklace that I really wanted. But then, the bus was stuck in a traffic jam and she had to go meet her friend by the time we got there, which was already 4.20pm. Yeah, so I headed home after that. Felt really sick on the bus and I missed my stop. Haha.

Oh yeah, she gave me a Christmas present. It was this metal cage with a plush dog inside. Haha. Really nice. Though I don't really know what I'm going to do with it. Hmmm, just at this moment, I had this thought that I dreamt about this before. Like Serine giving me a present that I didn't know what to do with. And I thought that I like the person, so I'd like whatever present the person gave. Lol. I don't know, that was indeed a slight de javu. Anyway, she really liked the jacket I gave. Asked me last night whether it was expensive or not. Well, obviously I wouldn't tell her how much it was. So I said that it was worth it for the price. Well, satisfaction is really rather priceless right? Haha. She's happy with the jacket. And I'm happy that she's happy.

Yeah, that's about how my New Year went. I'm glad that well, it was spent with Serine. Just disappointed that she's going to be really busy to go out anymore, since school is starting again today.