Yesterday was a really fun day! Let's start off with Japanese class. My class had 10 people and there are 3 guys. 1 old one, 1 with attitude problem and me, the young one. Haha. The rest of the girls aren't that pretty either though. The girl sitting beside me, Celia her name is, was the only pretty one but she's really really lousy at Japanese. Haha. I think I screwed up my chances of being friends with her though. Poor first impression. I kept trying to help her. Maybe I appeared to eager? I don't know. Hmmm. But I'll see her next week again, which is good. Okay, focusing on the lesson itself. It's pretty easy at the start. Just reading the hiragana words, which I have memorised more or less. But the sentences at the end do cause me problems. Vocabulary isn't that easy either. I wonder if I have the determination to go all the way and complete the Advanced lessons?

Jimmy's wedding dinner was at night. It was held at this restaurant at UOB Plaza. The place had a rustic charm to it, gave me the impression of a thai restaurant with so much wood. The dinner amazingly started at 8.45pm. We had reached the place late at 7.30pm and we still had to wait close to 2 hrs for the dinner to begin. The food wasn't too bad but definitely not top class standard. I didn't really eat much too. Should have eaten more to make my Ang Pow worth it. I drank a lot of red wine though. Their red wine was wet and didn't sting the throat. I think I very much prefer wet wines to dry wines. Maybe I can be a wine connoiseur in future. That'll be cool. But I don't really like alcohol. And I doubt my wife will either. I've a feeling I'll marry someone who isn't very sophisticated. A girl-next-door type. 7 glasses (I think, lost count) really made me quite tipsy. I couldn't really see straight anymore. Walking straight was still alright. I think with another 2 more glasses, I would just collapse. I managed to reach home safe and sound though, fortunately. However, when I was going to bed, I just knocked into a lot of the furniture and I almost broke a few items. Luckily, none of them suffered irreversible damage.

This morning was fine. Christine's sms woke me up. Surprisingly, drinking so much didn't give me a hangover or a really splitting headache. I feel fresh and energetic. No, don't think I'm full of energy. My body is still aching from the workout on friday. But compared to what I was expecting, it's a world apart.

Weddings are so fun. PCD is really quite a cool department during non-work occasions.

Sigh..I got booked for keeping my hair too long today. Stupid MP. He will suffer from devine retribution. I hope DPA won't scold me, but probably he will. As a result of this stupid booking, I had to go and have my hair cut today. It's really short now. Ahh!! Haha. but not too bad. I think styling it will be a lot easier. I bought hairspray from the hairdresser too. It cost me $10. She told me using hairspray's really hard to style because hairspray solidifies immediately but I prefer hairspray to say wax or mudd because it's easier to be washed off.

Ooh. I finised the second season of Naruto. It's much lousier than the first season though. This time, Naruto was useless. He fainted for more than half the show. Sasuke was cool. But I think he turned evil because of some mark that another evil guy gave him. seems like he's going to be under the control of the evil guy. I do hope Sasuke and Naruto don't become enemies because I really like them both.

I went to see the MO today to get some medicine for my ulcer. He gave me a pseudo-Kenalog ulcer paste. Probably a really cheap brand that SAF uses. Haha. The doctor was also nicer today. He did not hesitate to refer me to NSC to get that rash on my face treated. But it seems that I can see the same doctor on 18th Nov for 2 different conditions. Weird!!

Wimbledon was finally successfully downloaded today. And boy, was is a great show. Although it has a predictable story line, it was still a nice and funny show. Kirsten Dunst just keeps looking prettier and prettier. No, she's just absolutely gorgeous. Haha.

I told Malcolm about me taking Japanese lessons this Saturday and he told me he wanted to sign up as well. What a shock. It's not as though I don't like him. But I just didn't want to be studying with him. Fortunately, the class was full by the time he called the language centre. He's still a really nice guy who's slightly obsessed with sex. And he lent me Naruto Season 2 today. Whee! I can't wait to watch it.

Jimmy forced me to go for the bowling session tomorrow. I really don't feel like going. It's so much hassle to be going down to the SAFRA club after physio and then bowl. And the fact remains that I don't know how to bowl. They actually have a name for sucky bowlers - 'Long Kang King/Queen'. Sigh. I think I shall withdraw tomorrow. I just don't feel like going.

I've got a horrible ulcer. It's pain and it's right in front of my tooth. Not a bad place cuz I can easily treat it with the medicine, but I don't have any more medicine left. Sigh. I need to take some herbal tea and more fruits.

Oh yeah, I had a really strange dream on Sunday night. I dreamt that I got a call from Sargeant Pong and he asked if I wanted to volunteer to parachute into enemy territory to do some attack or something. I agreed immediately. When my dad was fetching me to the rendevzous point, I suddenly remembered I didn't have my helmet and SBO. I called Sargeant Pong and he asked me to hurry home and get. Then I remembered that I had lent Junjie my SBO. Dieeeee. Okay. I also realised that I had not gone through any parachuting course, so how would I know how to operate the parachute? Dieeeee again! The thought of jumping out of the plane and getting tangled up with another guy really freaked me out.

Today was a really crappy day at work. One thing I really hate is that others ask me to do work when I have a lot to do myself. I know this feeling is like universal. But to me, it's the bane of my life. unco-operative people are even worse. Those who think for themselves only are the evilest. Sigh. I wonder how I'm going to survive when I'm in a real workplace. There's just so much politics going on. The rumours really do fly.

2-0!! Man Utd beat Arsenal 2-0!! Unbelievable!! But what's even more unbelievable is the fact that I slept at 9pm last night and missed the match completely. Sighh. I woke up at 1.30am though but it was long over. But never mind. I managed to catch the replay today. Though less exciting than a live match, it was still better than nothing. Haha. I can't wait for the next match Man Utd plays.

Met up with Cassandra today and she brought me to the language centre where she's learning Japanese. I signed up for the Elementary 1 course which starts this Saturday. I hope I've a nice teacher and nice classmates. I better go revise on the words so that I'll not feel too lost during the lesson. But, I feel really good that I've finally signed up for lessons. They do cost a lot though. $180 + $20 registration fee + $9 for the textbook. Sighh. My account only has $750 now. That's so pathetically little. I need to give tuition desperately. I need money!! Sighhhhh..

I'm feeling sleepy already. Maybe I won't study tonight. Shall go to bed early. Maybe I can wake up at 4am and do some revision. Haha. Won't happen probably, but I'll try.

I'm still considering whether to buy The Prince of Tennis from Malcolm. I'm really really tempted to. For $180, it's really a very very good deal. But $180 to me now is quite a lot. I shall think longer. I borrowed Naruto from Malcolm also. This is really a great anime. Maybe even better than Prince of Tennis in the sense that it's action packed and doesn't beat around the bush. Cool!! Now, I feel like collecting Naruto. But honestly, a lot of shows, I'll just watch once and that'll be it. The re-watch value isn't high enough.

Anyway, I attended the PAFF aniversary at harry's@esplanade. It wasn't fantastic. But it wasn't too bad either. The band was pretty cool and the singer has a really great voice. But I still think it's not the kind of place for me. I didn't really enjoy my time there. Really, I think I'm so anti-social. I hate to admit it, but I think that's what I am. Anti-social. Hmmm..not a very nice thought.

Jocelyn introduced me this tuition assignment and I got really excited. But the lady hasn't called me yet!! I wonder if she wants me to tutor her child or not. I hope I won't screw up. No, I'm sure I won't screw up. Haha. The extra cash will really do wonders.

I really wonder what my internet connection is for. I don't really chat on msn anymore since it's always the same few people I chat with. Downloading? My downloading speed is so pathetically slow. Curse all of you who suck my bandwidth. I hate you. Wait, what's my computer for then? I don't even do anything else other than read soccer news, chat on msn and play the occasional game. Did I really need such a good comp? I could have saved like say $500 if I had just settled with a lousier one that matchs my needs. Sigh. Life is full of unwise decisions. I need to learn from them. Money is a commodity that isn't essential but can't live without. I need to start saving for my laptop and university education. I think animes will have to wait. I don't think I should spend money unnecessarily, especially on luxury goods.

Malcolm says he's willing to sell me the Prince of Tennis dvds for $30 per box set. Wow!! I hope he means it. $180 for the first 6 seasons is really worth it. Original!! Oh gosh.

Anyway life's pretty boring now. I don't seem to have a direction. No focus of my energies. Just basically waiting for the 2 years to just pass. What kind of life is this? A life of no meaning. Sigh. This is a time when I need someone to confide in. Someone to make life less boring. This is a time when I need a girlfriend. Haha. Quite stupid. Entirely for the wrong reasons. Anyway, I realised that i can't forget Serine. I can't just say I'll stop liking her and I'll do it. Even though I know that one-sided relationships don't last or work out, I still can't let go.

I'm really a sucker.

Sometimes, when I read about Yahui and Huawei in her blog, it just sends shivers down my spine. Seriously, I think it's going to be really hard for me to treat a girl like how Yahui treats guys. And how Yahui treats Huawei is more like a girl courting a guy. The things she does for him is on the edge of reasonable with more than a foot into overboard. If a girl constantly did stuff like what she did for me, I think I'll be kinda freaked out. Maybe I'm just not mature enough for a relationship. I only see a relationship as a guy and girl having a special bond. They feel totally comfortable with each other, without the need to appear special. Do they need to talk over the phone every night? NO! I'll never be able to do that. Think about each other every single moment of the day? Absolutely not! That's way too much. I wonder why some couples need to go through all that? Is that the only evidence that they are together? Does a ring mean that much when you're not married?

Will someone share my philosophy? I don't really think so.

Signed up for a new Singnet Broadband contract yesterday. The queue was really long. Had to wait about half an hour. But I'm just glad that I've finally done it according to my planned schedule. This week went pretty well, other than the busy days at work where Malcolm was over stressed. I reiterate the fact that working under someone who can't handle stress is a monumentous task, especially when you are supposed to maintain your calmness and assuredness.

I think my temper has subsided to a point where it is non-existent. I hardly get really angry now. Maybe the occasional rise in temperature, but nothing that will let me blow my top. The self-hissing might be the key to keeping the water from boiling and overflowing. But then again, there's not really anything to make me really really angry now. This is a good thing.

I think I'm still overspending. I need good financial planning. I shall deposit $150 into my UOB account every month when I get my allowance. The remaining $200 will be spent on necessities like food and transport. Any excess can be spent. The UOB account shall be my long term savings plan for the notebook that I'll buy when I go into university. And I shall maintain a minimum balance of $1000 in the POSB account for emergency expenditure. SAving is the key.

Surprisingly, after my mini-argument with Serine yesterday, she asked me out to watch a show. Although it didn't materialise, I'm glad to know that she didn't take our argument to heart. That's good. And I managed to ask her out to watch Wimbledon next weekend. I don't know if she'll be free or not. She can't confirm as of yet. But she said she'll try her best. I'm expecting her to be able to but I know when it's her, expecting the best will only give me the worst.

I bought the usb network card today for $78. And now, my wireless network works! But, I think someone is tapping into my network. The speed is really low for my downloads now. Sigh. I need to learn how to encrpyt my network. but the good thing is that it works! Yay. Also, I bought 20 dvd+r discs to copy the prince of tennis onto. I hope they don't screw up and they don't take too long. Sigh, 18 discs really sound a lot.

Physio in the afternoon was good too. I met Lay Ming again. This time I ran more than 2.4km!! But I've got a hamstring strain according to Ben. It shouldn't be permanent. But it really hurts when i exert force. Ugh. But that doesn't really matter lah. Rest should take care of it.

Today was a pretty good day. Rather free and stress-free too. Haha. Please let me have more of these kinda days.

I just had a mini argument with Serine on education vs. results. We live in a practical world, and for that she's right that the certificate is important. But just thinking of that doesn't make life interesting. The reason why we live is not to be successful or rich or whatever. We live to be happy. We shouldn't torture ourselves doing what we don't like. Instead, we need to learn to like what we don't enjoy. If we have to do something, might as well like doing it.

She and I probably have different ideals in lives. Different goals. Different a lot of things. I wonder why I liked her so much that time. Admiration to her good points. But I with someone like this, I don't think I can live my life. I hope one day she changes her way of thinking. I still really think that we could be together, other than the differences in ideals, viewpoints, goals.

Am I this philosophical anyway? Or was it to spite her? To spite myself? To avenge my heartache? To give myself reasons that it was a good thing that she didn't like me in return? My minds really messed up. I can't be true to myself. What do I really want?

Yes, I want to be successful. Yes, I want to marry a girl I really love. Yes, I really want to have a good family. But what is most important to me? Am i living in impracticality? Is my direction wrong? NO! I don't think so. I just haven't met someone who shares my ideals exactly.

Unfortunately, Serine is not the one. Probably what I had for her, was merely a simple crush. Is it? Was it? I don't know, but I shall just leave it as that. The episode with her is over.

Today had a really sucky morning. I woke up super early, bathed and got ready really early. But I left my house at normal time. That's not too bad, knowing that I'm such a procrastinator. Then I reached the interchange at 7.05am. The bus was supposed to come at 7.10am but no. It came later than 7.15am, making me get to work late. fortunately, Malcolm didn't scold me cause he was stuck at the entrance for bringing a thumb drive in.

There was a lot to do at work today and Malcolm was really stressed. He's not someone who can handle stress and it really gets to him. And when it gets to him, he'll take it out on me. That's the bad thing about working under someone who can't take stress. But other than that, he's a pretty nice person.

I don't know if I should go for Jimmy's wedding or not. I'll need to come up with $29.99 for the ang pow. Low enough. But that's not really the point. I'll be quite out of place there. Everyone's going to be my superior. And I won't really know anyone. Haha. But then again, I might meet some really pretty girl who thinks I'm cute and wants to be friends with me. Lol. That's just like Malcolm. I'm not going to be like that. And besides, I've promised myself that I don't want to get attached until 5 yers later.

I went to E-mart today and I saw the new SAF shorts. They are pretty cool. Looks like FBT shorts. But with SAF on them. Hmmm. At about $6 each, I can consider getting them. And the vests to wear too. Cool man. Haha. Thank you government for giving poor folk like us credits to spend.

My knee started hurting again. I think I've got to have electrotherapy everytime after I run during physio. There's not going to be physio tomorrow since the branch meeting is in the afternoon. So instead, I'll go on thursday and friday. That gives me the chance to buy the sports attire and bring them home without much hassle. Haha.

Monday the 11th. To some, friday the 13th could be unlucky. But today is probably the unluckiest day of my life. What happened?
1. The pole that's used to hang my clothes in the wardrobe broke.
2. My name tag hook broke.
3. My long pants zip came off.
4. Fell asleep on the bus and went to Khatib.

The zip was the worst. I was trying paper clips and clips before I finally went to the shop at the canteen to get some safety pins. Sigh. What a bother. But at least I could change to outside clothes for physio at about 2. *sigh of relief*

I hope tomorrow's a better day.

Okay!! I've got the green light to go for the 512kbps singnet broadband package at $47.25. Really worth it man! I'm currently paying $57.50 for 256kbps. But I wonder, when this promotion ends, what'll the next promotion be? 1500kbps at $47.25? Can't be right? Throw in more freebies? Maybe. Arhh. I don't know. Right now, I'll be contented to have 512kbps. Good deal!

I just saw this Linksys usb network adaptor on HWM. I think it's what I've been looking for since forever. I'll wait till the next Sitex to get it. At $89. It's not really worth it now. Hmmm. I hope prices drop during the exhibition.

I went to see the doctor at the policlinic this morning for a referral regarding my sweaty palms a.k.a hyperhidrosis. Sounds cool? Bleahz. Stupid condition. I really hope I can get this surgery done soon so that I won't need to be plagued by the fear of handshakes or holding people's hands again. Anyway the referral is at National Skin Centre on the 10th November. Not too long according to Ruxin, but to me a month is long enough.

Basically, that was the only thing I did today. The whole day was boring. Slept in the afternoon. Oh yeah, I watched Dodgeball. It's very funny! But definitely not top class. Nonetheless, I enjoyed it. And the girl is pretty too. Haha. Christine asked me for help on some f maths question but I was stumped as well. All data has been deleted. In this case, how am I going to give tuition? Arhh!! Dammit.

Gosh!! I think I'm a certified spendthrift. I just bought 2 pairs of long pants from U2 for $73.50. This isn't good. I'm spending too much. That's like $200 in the space of 7 days. Arrhhhh!! U2 has really good staff. Well, not all their staff, but most are friendly and polite, efficient too. Nike trend has stopped. I'm officially going for the contemporary look. No more small boy look! haha.

Physio was pretty fun. Met up with some of the guys that I knew previously and I got to know this rj j1 girl. Her name's Layming and she has a torn acl too. My left hamstring is really weak. I can barely manage 4kg. 5kg would cause me considerable pain. Sigh. For my right, I can manage 12kg. What a huge difference.

Work is getting more fun. Malcolm knows that I'm hardworking and intelligent and I guess he's treating me with more respect in return. Though there's still a lot of work piled on me, I guess it's better than last time. I spent much of the morning today tearing paper. Restricted documents are so irritating. There were files and files of them. Now I've got think 2 and a half more drawers of documents to shred, or rather tear.

I sent Shuyang her card and gift today. I really hope it gets through. I think it's a really nice card too. Haha. I hope she likes the earrings.

I'm really spending way too much. I can't resist buying that pair of long pants to go with my new jacket. I think I really hate jeans. I prefer long pants made of soft and flexible material. Yeah, so that's why I'm going to get that pair of long pants tomorrow.

Today was DPA's birthday celebration. Amazingly, he still remembers my name. And I only told him my name once. Wow! He's quite a guy. And he sings pretty well too. I beat Malcolm at pool today. Lady Luck was shining on me. Lol.

I've decided that I shall give tuition. I'm going to give Irene a call tomorrow. I'll see what she can conjure up for me. I hope I don't get a malay. A girl would be troublesome too. Imagine if she and I were alone together, she could just accuse me of anything. Girls are indeed troublesome creatures.

I finally made the card for Shuyang. After much deliberation on the design, I finally decided to use cotton wool and fabric paint. I looks pretty cool, I've to admit. Haha. And the earrings, I hope she likes them. Right now, I've got to wait for the paint to dry before I can pack it and post it tomorrow, after buying stamps.

Today was also the day I revamped my work area. All the useless junk were thrown. And I found out that Eng Kheng slacked so much that he still held onto stuff that were 5 years old! Gosh! Now, it's my duty to shred all those. There must be thousands of copies. Sigh, this sucks. Luckily I can take my time to complete that task. I think Malcolm must be impressed with the way I've learned how to hold my own and my amazing learning speed. Yay! Why am I so egotistical?! Haha. Who cares.

I've decided that I need to go for the operation to remove some sweat glands. It's really troublesome having sweaty palms whenever I'm excited or nervous. It's also really embarassing too. I hope the SAF will pay for this operation too. Sigh, but whether they do or not, I'm going to get it done during NS. :)

I can start running! Lol. But I don't want to. That might mean I've to go for physio less often. It's always good to miss a part of work every now and then.

On my way back home today, I passed by 4 kittens suckling on a mother cat at holland village! Oh gosh, they were so cute! Haha.

I need to buy a new pair of long pants. I think the U2 one for $49 is not bad. Very soft and very nice. And I don't have that colour yet. Oh dear, my account is running short on funds. I think there's only $900 left. Luckily, I'm going to get my allowance this sunday. Not much though. Soo much for my promise to be spending less. I should really stop going orchard. I tend to buy a lot of things when I'm there. Sigh. Stay at home and save money lah.

My knee is hurting! I don't know why too. Not good. It feels very bad when I straighten it and my knee clicks with every step I take. Sighhh.

I just watched The Terminal that I finished downloading yesterday. A really really nice romantic comedy. And it's another great performance by Tom Hanks. Very inspirational. Very touching. I just love romantic comedies, just that this time the guy and girl didn't end up together. Sighhh.

Another work day tomorrow. Work seems to be able to pass quite quickly. Great! I hope my 1 year 11 months will pass quickly. I want to go to university. I want to have school holidays. I want to study. I want to get my 2 degrees.

I can't believe I spent another night sleeping at 9+ and this time it's a Saturday night! Dammit. I missed all the soccer matches last night. Fortunately, there was only the Arsenal one worth watching. And since I hate Arsenal, I don't really care about watching them.

I remember having a weird dream on Friday night. I was having physio and it was the lady physio around. She told me that if my leg doesn't heal properly, it could be something wrong with my hamstrings and I'd need to go for another operation for my hamstring. Shocking.

Yesterday, I didn't have the sushi buffet. I decided that it was too expensive and not worth my money. Instead I bought the jacket that I saw at U2. It's $89. Really expensive. But this is a new image I'm creating. Long pants, t shirt/polo shirt/shirt, jacket. Contemporary look. Mature look. And I'm going to stop buying nike apparels. They are indeed an absolute waste of money. Paying for the brand rather than the quality. Shu-en gave me a nice pair of nike berms yesterday. I like it. And I like the material a lot. Though the design isn't exactly what I would look for. Met up with Yahui and Ruxin to shop with them for about an hour or so. Then I went to my grandparents' place to visit them and cut grass. They've got a new maid. She's actually Luokai's previous maid. Very nice person and very hardworking. And she bothers to cut the grass, unlike the previous lazy old bitch. Basically that's my weekend. Quite sucky right. But well, can't really help it. Better than staying at home. Oh yeah, I opened the UOB account yesterday too. The Debit card is going to take 3 weeks or more to arrive. What efficiency!

Today started off pretty well. I saw that really pretty girl this morning. Remember the one who got me to forget to tap my ezlink card while going home. Gosh. She really is pretty. Tall. Fair. Sporty. Pretty. Wow. But probably she's not my type. Well, backgrounds do play a part as well. And I guess for us people from Rafflesian schools, our future partners will probably be rafflesians as well.

Work started off pretty well. Until I realised that the template for that statistics was totally screwed up. And when I completed it, excel crashed, leaving me to do from the start all over again. Malcolm's another piece of shit. Instead of saying that it's alright, he told me to learn from this and always save my work. What a bastard.

Physio went alright. Nothing special. Then headed down to Orchard. Unfortunately, kino wasn't having a childrens' day sale. So, I guess my books will have to wait. Was passing by U2 and I saw this really really nice jacket. It's not really jacket material. But more of a coat. Something to complement jeans and t shirt. At $89 is it worth it? Maybe, and it really is super cool!

I saw a nice card to send to Shuyang at all and a nice pair of earrings. Thought of getting a Mogu cushion for Shu-en but decided to get tomorrow instead since the design wasn't really that nice.

That's pretty much how today went. Looking forward to tomorrow's sushi buffet. Though I'm really really full now. I hope I'll be really really hungry when I start eating. Then again. I hate spending a lot on food. After a while, you only have a full stomach and a full toilet bowl to show for all that spent cash. haha.

This is the third day I fell asleep at 9+! I can't believe I'm sleeping so early. I'm missing my daily chatting session with my friends. Arhh!! At least the weekend is coming. Maybe my body is sensing that and is storing up energy and sleeping time to tide the weekend.

I can't believe tomorrow is friday! Time seemed to past quite quickly now that I think of it. It was dreaded Monday a few days back and now it's on to friday. Yay! I'm going to kino tomorrow to check out whether there's a discount for Children's day. I hope there is. But the signs are pointing towards not.

Saturday's booked too. In the morning I'll be going to UOB to open an account and get a debit card and then to POSB to get a new passbook. Whee! Then lunch will be with Shu-en for a sushi buffet. I've never had sushi buffets before. And this one is going to be expensive because according to her, we're going to get expensive stuff like soft shell crabs. Wow. I remember the soft shell crabs from Olio. Unfortunately, I didn't get to try them. Then there will be soccer at night. Wow! This sounds like it's going to turn out to be one hell of a good weekend. Hope it turns out just as well. haha.