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Only way out

What seems to be the only way out now is avoiding.

The ugly truth.

The pain.

Everything.

Sh*t never fails to happen, doesn't it?

Reminisce

As I was sitting down staring blankly at the walls around me, memories start filling my head.

Memories that is carved upon my heart.

Memories that I'll bring along with me to my grave.

And even to my afterlife.

:)

If only a genie would pop out of his lamp right now, I'll ask him to bring me back to when I was 15. Yes, my form 3 life. The year that I have to go through PMR. The year that everyone seems to have high expectations from you. The year that everybody things that you should be studying 24/7.

Don't ask me why I choose to go back to when I was 15 out of these 16 years. Thats the irony that I myself can't answer. Lol. It's just that the year 2009 brings a lot of significance to my life. And the things I did last year, all the crazy and stupid things I did last year is still so distinctive. So transcendent. HEE.

And most importantly, the people who I spent the year with. The outrageous and nonsensical friends of mine. :) The people who are part of the memories that is sown within me. Okay, I'm not trying to say that I'll forget those of you whom I didn't spend time with last year. NO OKAY. :) Thats not what I mean.

Wowkay, this is all for now yo. Bejeweled is calling out for me. :D

Whatever may come our way,

I'll be there. :)

About a girl

She is a girl. She has feelings. She overeact. She underestimates. She overestimates. She over thinks everything. She looks too deep to everything's meaning. She dreams big. Her expectations are high. She can tell when she is being lied to but sometimes wishes that she doesn't. Yes, she gets jealous and she's always scared she'll lose you. Thats why when she asks you how are you she means it. When she asks you how was your day, she genuinely wants to know. And when she says she loves you, she really means it.

:)

It's getting so routined.

Been patient with it for a very long time.

Hence,

I. Am. Done. With. Everything.

Okay, thats about it. :)

Sorry about the ugly layout. Didn't have the time to change it YET. Hee. Will change is soon alright? I actually thought of changing it first before unprivatising (if there is such word. Well, at least it exists in MY dictionary. Haha) my blog. Lol. But my two very loyal fan - Sara and Jia-Yi can't wait to read my posts, I decided to unprivatise my blog first before renovating it and make it pretty. Hehehe. Till then. =D

Hahaha. I love you Jia and Sara! Lol.

Walking down memory lane

"I don't want to friend you anymore."

"I'm going to tell my mummy."

"Teacher! She/he hit me!"

Does it sound familiar to you? Lol. Oh well, these little phrases brought back memories of me being a kid not long ago. Not long ago considering I'm only 16 now. HAHA. I was actually serving at the children's ministry on Sunday and as I was sitting down, I heard one of the little girl saying "I don't want to friend you already," to her friend. And I actually laughed to myself when I heard that. Okay, it may sound sadistic or evil, but then I couldn't fight back the thoughts and memories it hit me at that moment. :D

It reminds me of myself in primary school. Goodness, I can't believe I'm actually bringing this up. LOL. I remember myself being a small and innocent and chubby and cute and naive and lovely and hyper and.. And.. Lol. I'm out of words already. I should stop being narcistic. Lol. -.- But then, really. I was really damn fat and round last time. O.O I actually feel like pinching myself through the pictures. Awww.

And and and. Being a kid in primary school. (I seriously can't believe I'm bringing this up) I remember going around asking my friends "Do you friend me?" Ooo. And I can go on and on and on and only God knows how many times I can ask the same miserable question. Reallllyyyyyy. :( Don't believe? Ask Leow, or Jia-Yi or Sara or Trishala or Lynette. Goodness. The thought of it now is so embarassing and dumb. And come to think of it now, I can imagine how annoying it can be. Lol. Forgive me my highness. :P Can't believe I was like that last time. Lol. *Digs a hole to hide my head*

I particularly miss my primary school days at PP1 too. It's like pent up in my brains. Hee. Playing hopscotch. And the five stones. Badminton before the break of dawn. Playing with plasticine. And how we used to put the plasticine at the side of the class where the sun shines so brightly and the heat causes the plasticine to melt. Lol. Masak-masak. -.- Barbie dolls. Lol. I've got like tonnes of Barbie dolls back then. :D And how a bunch of us would share one small plate of food everyday. Lol. The good old days with Leow, Trishala, Chi Jun, Lynette, Xian-Hui, Syanaz, Ameeratun and Anusha. Wooo~ I've got such good memory. HAHAHAHA.

Nevertheless, new memoirs were made when I first set my foot at SBS. :) Up till now. HEHE. More and more memories are being made with my ever insane and harebrained bunch of friends.

Ahh, reminiscing the good old days. (Y) And the much embarassment it brought me. Lol.