Wednesday, July 29, 2009
i miss us.
i dont wanna go to school today.
& happy anniversary.
it is three years and seven months.
& counting.
love you.
"And ever has it been known that love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation."
what we could have been, 9:11 AM.
Monday, July 27, 2009
E's gone. i had a terrible Sunday. i fought with D over something minimal and stewpid today. i am angry with my mummy for something even dumber. i blew at Elsie cos her feet stinks and she is not doing anything about it.
i think i will be a cranky old bitch for the next three months.
i miss you very very much :( im dyinggg!
i think i will be a cranky old bitch for the next three months.
i miss you very very much :( im dyinggg!
what we could have been, 9:04 PM.
Thursday, July 23, 2009
D has a fever! So does Ro (:
H1N1?! :(
If only the Home Quarantine Order was still in effect.
HAHA (:
H1N1?! :(
If only the Home Quarantine Order was still in effect.
HAHA (:
what we could have been, 2:02 PM.
Monday, July 20, 2009
her: hey, are we still together?
him: i thought you were going to sleep already?
her: are we?
him: i dont know.
D says i would be glad that he didnt say no, but i am not happy that he said dont know.
but dont know is better than no.
N says that i would rather know the answer than to be kept hanging like that. a definite yes would cause me to work on the relationship, a definite no would give me time to grief, mourn, scream, cry, laugh and then move on.
D continued and said that guys tend not to want to initiate a break up. either because he is interested in continuing a relationship with you later in the future, or because he is interested in your friends, and doesnt want you to bitch about him to them.
he said that the girl could work some of her magic to keep him.
N said no, every girl just wants a man to love her, and not have to work her magic just so he would.
"would i regret if i didnt send you off?"
him: i thought you were going to sleep already?
her: are we?
him: i dont know.
D says i would be glad that he didnt say no, but i am not happy that he said dont know.
but dont know is better than no.
N says that i would rather know the answer than to be kept hanging like that. a definite yes would cause me to work on the relationship, a definite no would give me time to grief, mourn, scream, cry, laugh and then move on.
D continued and said that guys tend not to want to initiate a break up. either because he is interested in continuing a relationship with you later in the future, or because he is interested in your friends, and doesnt want you to bitch about him to them.
he said that the girl could work some of her magic to keep him.
N said no, every girl just wants a man to love her, and not have to work her magic just so he would.
"would i regret if i didnt send you off?"
what we could have been, 9:22 AM.
this peekchure because you always insist that you look handsome-er in shades.
LOLS (:
happy birthday, mbb (Male Best Buddy), asswipe, best, buddy and sweets.
you're twenty two this year,
and it's been an awesome three months with you.
i dont think i have ever had so much fun with such an idiot (:
the first time i met you was in Tioman,
when you were sitting on the bench on the boat with matt,
wearing your red bull shirt and Adidas shorts.
my first impression? beach boy, ego much, disgustingly handsome and funny.
which is pretty much who you really are (:
we have been spending pretty much every alternate day together,
and it's always fun.
even though we are stressed out by tests and assignments,
you almost always do something stupig enough to ease the stress.
you make me laugh, you piss me off.
you hug me when im stressed, you bring me to eat ice cream too.
you know the right words to say when im upset, you know when to keep silent and just breathe with me.
you know what im thinking about, and you know me scarily well (:
happy 22nd, best (:
what we could have been, 9:01 AM.
Thursday, July 16, 2009
ive had the same hotmail address for seven years.
HAHA (:
i hate MLOCT!
im dyingggg.
meeting D to study later.
stress much! :(
HAHA (:
i hate MLOCT!
im dyingggg.
meeting D to study later.
stress much! :(
what we could have been, 5:18 PM.
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
how can i be in love with you when you're not in love with me?
that's one of the rules.
don't break the rules. - sex and the city.
i hate how Carrie breaks up with Mr. Big.
it scares me.
what we could have been, 6:55 PM.
Sunday, July 12, 2009
To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven:
A time to be born, and a time to die;
a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted;
A time to kill, and a time to heal;
a time to break down, and a time to build up;
A time to weep, and a time to laugh;
a time to mourn, and a time to dance;
A time to cast away stones,
and a time to gather stones together;
A time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing;
A time to get, and a time to lose;
a time to keep, and a time to cast away;
A time to rend, and a time to sew;
a time to keep silence, and a time to speak;
A time to be born, and a time to die;
a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted;
A time to kill, and a time to heal;
a time to break down, and a time to build up;
A time to weep, and a time to laugh;
a time to mourn, and a time to dance;
A time to cast away stones,
and a time to gather stones together;
A time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing;
A time to get, and a time to lose;
a time to keep, and a time to cast away;
A time to rend, and a time to sew;
a time to keep silence, and a time to speak;
A time to love, and a time to hate;
a time of war, and a time of peace.
what we could have been, 11:59 PM.
Friday, July 10, 2009
i know what kinda wedding i want already! (:
grecian/roman please (:
or maybe i should just throw a party with that theme.
it would be coming so much faster (:
HEE HEE.
wedding gown! it's really plain, but i think that it is gorgeous! (:
bridesmaid dress. i love love love the green, and how it matches the gold stuff (:
grecian/roman please (:
or maybe i should just throw a party with that theme.
it would be coming so much faster (:
HEE HEE.
wedding gown! it's really plain, but i think that it is gorgeous! (:
bridesmaid dress. i love love love the green, and how it matches the gold stuff (:
what we could have been, 9:01 PM.
1. I have come to realize that my butt: is pretty big.
2. I have come to realize that when I'm angry: I take deep breaths and try not to cry.
3. I have come to realize that, if I love someone: I put my entire being into the relationship.
4. I have come to realize that, I need: to pass my driving ASAP! (:
5. I have come to realize that, I lost: my naivety way too early.
6. I have come to realize that, I hate it when: things dont go my way.
7. I have come to realize that, if Im drunk: I turn red and talk rubbish.
8. I have come to realize that, marriage: is forever, and it is pretty smucking scary.
9. I have come to realize that work: will never be finished, so just try to keep up.
10. I have come to realize that, I will always be: stuck with small boobs. HAHA (:
11. I have come to realize that, I like: spending time dressing up and thinking of what to wear.
12. I have come to realize that, the last time I cried was: watching UP! (:
13. I have come to realize that, my cell phone is: really old and I really need to get my old number back.
14. I have come to realize that, when I wake up in the morning: half my bed is on the floor.
15. I have come to realize that, before I go to sleep at night: I curl up on my side
16. I have come to realize that, right now I am thinking about: dinner and ice cream.
17. I have come to realize that, babies: are cute and can get away with almost anything.
18. I have come to realize that, when I get on Facebook: I remind myself to clear my friend requests, but I end up forgetting because someone posted nice peekchures or an interesting quiz.
19. I have come to realize that, today I will: be fooling around for the last time, because next week, I will be mugging.
20. I have come to realize that, tonight I will not: be sleeping much?
21. I have come to realize that, tomorrow I will: be going to church. and maybe flea market! (:
22. I have come to realize that, I really want to: have him all to myself forever and ever. but i want to have time to talk things out before he goes, and work on us together.
23. I have come to realize that, working out: is really tough and takes committment!
24. I have come to realize that, friends: may not always be there for you, but they try. and somehow they make you feel much much better (:
2. I have come to realize that when I'm angry: I take deep breaths and try not to cry.
3. I have come to realize that, if I love someone: I put my entire being into the relationship.
4. I have come to realize that, I need: to pass my driving ASAP! (:
5. I have come to realize that, I lost: my naivety way too early.
6. I have come to realize that, I hate it when: things dont go my way.
7. I have come to realize that, if Im drunk: I turn red and talk rubbish.
8. I have come to realize that, marriage: is forever, and it is pretty smucking scary.
9. I have come to realize that work: will never be finished, so just try to keep up.
10. I have come to realize that, I will always be: stuck with small boobs. HAHA (:
11. I have come to realize that, I like: spending time dressing up and thinking of what to wear.
12. I have come to realize that, the last time I cried was: watching UP! (:
13. I have come to realize that, my cell phone is: really old and I really need to get my old number back.
14. I have come to realize that, when I wake up in the morning: half my bed is on the floor.
15. I have come to realize that, before I go to sleep at night: I curl up on my side
16. I have come to realize that, right now I am thinking about: dinner and ice cream.
17. I have come to realize that, babies: are cute and can get away with almost anything.
18. I have come to realize that, when I get on Facebook: I remind myself to clear my friend requests, but I end up forgetting because someone posted nice peekchures or an interesting quiz.
19. I have come to realize that, today I will: be fooling around for the last time, because next week, I will be mugging.
20. I have come to realize that, tonight I will not: be sleeping much?
21. I have come to realize that, tomorrow I will: be going to church. and maybe flea market! (:
22. I have come to realize that, I really want to: have him all to myself forever and ever. but i want to have time to talk things out before he goes, and work on us together.
23. I have come to realize that, working out: is really tough and takes committment!
24. I have come to realize that, friends: may not always be there for you, but they try. and somehow they make you feel much much better (:
what we could have been, 7:22 PM.
Thursday, July 09, 2009
the last breath of their dying love.
went tanning/swimming/facial/rome with D yesterday.
D saw the girl who made B who she is today,
and D got supa angry.
HAHA. but D got over it,
cause the girl left.
we talked, and D talked to me about E.
D asked many probing questions, such as
"what is the % of you marrying E if he proposed?" and
"what if i told you that i know that you dont love him as much as you think you do"
D said that i am still young, that i am not ready to be committed, that i still wanna have fun.
i dont really know what to make of it.
there is nothing in sight but memories left abandoned.
went tanning/swimming/facial/rome with D yesterday.
D saw the girl who made B who she is today,
and D got supa angry.
HAHA. but D got over it,
cause the girl left.
we talked, and D talked to me about E.
D asked many probing questions, such as
"what is the % of you marrying E if he proposed?" and
"what if i told you that i know that you dont love him as much as you think you do"
D said that i am still young, that i am not ready to be committed, that i still wanna have fun.
i dont really know what to make of it.
there is nothing in sight but memories left abandoned.
what we could have been, 10:14 AM.
Wednesday, July 01, 2009
i do not enjoy teaching him tuition.
you know how bratty he can get.
you know he is a little smucker.
you were the one that suggested the idea.
i told you that i did not want to do it.
that i am more willing to teach other people.
better working hours, better pay and most importantly, better kid.
i did not teach him for one day and you blew sky high.
we just went swimming yesterday.
it is not like i went out with my friends right.
dont make him sound so pitiful; all of us woke up at 6am for school before.
and for at least 7 years.
so what if he is primary one and has to wake up at six?
life just dealt him a bad hand; that's all.
besides, you were the one that wanted him to get into this school so badly right?
he just has to live with it then.
just admit it-you love him with your entire being, and more so than the rest of us.
im going to sit with my dog. she makes me feel better.
you know how bratty he can get.
you know he is a little smucker.
you were the one that suggested the idea.
i told you that i did not want to do it.
that i am more willing to teach other people.
better working hours, better pay and most importantly, better kid.
i did not teach him for one day and you blew sky high.
we just went swimming yesterday.
it is not like i went out with my friends right.
dont make him sound so pitiful; all of us woke up at 6am for school before.
and for at least 7 years.
so what if he is primary one and has to wake up at six?
life just dealt him a bad hand; that's all.
besides, you were the one that wanted him to get into this school so badly right?
he just has to live with it then.
just admit it-you love him with your entire being, and more so than the rest of us.
im going to sit with my dog. she makes me feel better.
what we could have been, 8:28 AM.
