i watched marley and me.
i really really <3 my dog nowww!!

M is late.
and im getting cranky.

driving later.

and Anna?
thanks for your comment, but i dont think E appreciates being called an idiot (:

D decided to move on without B today.
we'll see how everything goes.
hopefully, it'd be okay.
i'll always be here, my dear! (:

"there are many pretty fishes in the sea. you just have to swim further out! (:"

and i dont really think i want Mathavan to lead me in my life journey.
HAHA (: he's my APEL teacher.

first tutorial today. cercles, i just wanna let you girls know that you are the best. you guys really are, and no one can ever, EVER, replace you guys.

lunched with Joey, Islin, Anne and Lois. they're a great bunch (: and i guess they'll be my clique for year 3.

but please know that cercles is really still the best! (:

Wendy Yu found out that i am an SACian. all i can say is-blankety blankety.
she's so gonna pick on me :(
but she's nice (: in a strange strange way. HAHA.

okay, this whole entry's random.

I <3 CERCLES.
and i love my dog too!!

vaccines for asthma in the works!
please let me be able to live until then.
HAHA.

"are they just together because they have not gotten around to breaking up?"

i am considering OSIP.
last year was Malacca and KL.
i actually dont mind, but i dont know.

civil procedure is really tough.
and it doesnt help that i missed the first lecture :(
oh wells.

thanks, D, for always being there for me (:
you're the best! (:

busy busy week ahead.
say hello to nerdy nickee! (:

still missing you, E (:

i am learning to fall in love with you all over again (:

you know school has started when you start rushing to save the whole stack of ppt slides in your thumbdrive so you can print it in school tomorrow.
and when you are rushing to print the ppt slides for tomorrow's lecture.

HAHA.

sp with nic, iggy and haiqal today. it was fun!! haha (:
there were, sadly, not many interesting individuals.
the best looking dudes were the ones i was with. haha.
the food was good though! too bad tp doesn't have as good a food as them.

but tp is still the best (:
after the excursion down, i realised, that i really love tp very much (:
haha.

and i kinda think that nic, iggy and haiqal regret sp. HAHA.

halfway walking through, D called me and told me that MATT HAS CHICKENPOX!
haha (: so that poor child will be leaving tekong!
clarissa must be so happy!! HAHA (:

anyways, mano saw me on thursss!
and that idiert didn't say hi, can you believe it? lols (:
but it was nice talking to him online after so long.

yayness! (: ding ding, avi and i are gonna be in the same class! (:
plus lois and brenda and joeyyy!
i dunno who else, but hopefully, it'd be a nice combination!
it'll be my last year, after all (:

that's all (:
i miss you, E ):

Main Entry:

¹change

Pronunciation:

\ˈchānj\

Function:

verb

Inflected Form(s):

changed; chang·ing

Etymology:

Middle English, from Anglo-French changer, from Latin cambiare to exchange, probably of Celtic origin; akin to Old Irish camm crooked

Date:

13th century

transitive verb1 a: to make different in some particular : alter change the will> b: to make radically different : transform change human nature> c: to give a different position, course, or direction to

he told her that things were now different. how the houses near her home have changed, how their lives have changed, how radically different their timetables were now, how she has changed.

she? changed? she has always prided herself in being the most consistent. she has seen REAL change. girls who were all innocent now thick with make up sleeping with strange men. guys who used to be real sweethearts turn into alpha males fighting for the prettiest chick and jockeying for position in the group. little babies turning into bratty 4 year olds. she? she has, and probably will always be the same.

maybe her attitude has changed a little. maybe her fashion sense has been slightly more atuned to what everyone's wearing (not that it is bad). maybe her worldview has undergone some construction. maybe she speaks differently and has different priorities. but she's still the same what.

isn't she?

their relationship has changed. somehow, she cheated on him too many times. somehow, things are no longer the same. somehow, she changed along the way. it isn't good, or bad. it just isn't the same anymore.

and that's where trust comes in.

he doesn't know if he can trust her anymore. he loves her, yes, but maybe...and doubts flood him and drown the love that he has. he doesn't know who she is going out with, doing what, maybe kissing whoever she is out with, holding his hand, who knows. he is of the opinion that action speak louder than words, that it doesn't matter what you say, it's what you deliver.

then he thinks back to all the promises she made that has never been kept. the lies that she told. the times they have quarreled because this guy is too close. the times she cheated on him.

why doesnt he just dump her, she wonders.

not that she'd be delighted to jump into the arms of the next teresterone. not that she has been goading him into a break up. or that she doesn't love him anymore.

he just deserves someone better. someone he can TRUST.

she loves him, always have, always will. and sometimes she is inconsistent, but she knows that she loves him, and will die for him. honestly. she says things she doesn't mean, and her heart bled when he started crying after she screamed at him (her heart didn't literally bled. it was probably worse than that. but really, it is indescribable. you have to feel it to know what i'm trying to get at)

but yes, she doesn't know what to do anymore, how to make things better, and to start all over again.

what can she do?

these couple of days have been crazy, and i am exhausted.
but it was awesomeeee! (:
thank you E, D, C, L, K, P, JJ, J, JH, and L for making it that way (:

haha, that so didn't make sense!!
but yes,
LAW WELCOME LATERRRR!
help me make it on timeee!
haha (:

talking to nic has made me realise how wonderful this year has been going along.
i have made so many new friends,
spent much more time with my friends whom i don't usually get a chance to spend as much time with,
love my family with a new love,
developed closer friendships with my girlfriends,
bond with new found friends,
been productive (although not always, HA),
passed accounts,
and so so much moreeee!
i am thankful for everything!!

but i ask, have i sacrificed my relationship with E, in order to create time/opportunities for the above?

i don't really want school to start.
not yet anyway.
dry run's this saturday!
stress stress stress!

i am feeling pretty happy now.
i guess once you lower your expectations,
it will be much easier for you to be happy
and stay happy (: (?)

tuition laterrr!
and i am sorry, J, for not being able to join you guys for dinner tonight!! ):
another timeee!

that's all.

i was watching teevee with my popo today, and the male lead told his wife

"i don't really know my significance in your life anymore"
and that's how i feel.

tioman - the land of hot angmohs and ramly burgers.

haha. this is going to be a pretty long entry (:

Day One - Wednesday

left house at four in the morning (: i actually woke up at three to take a shower (: my last hot shower for awhile. haha. swung by mustafa to get money changed (where else would be open at four in the morning right?) then it was on to woodlands! (: got lost at malaysia for a bit, but soon we hit the highway.

it was supa foggy, and daddy was going at like, 130/140 or so? it was scary, but supa eggciting. haha. after awhile, i just dozed off. supa tired lahh. haha. got there at 0730, then had to wait till 1000 for the boat (some ferry monopoly thing). chatted awhile with auntie diana (she's still the same) then we got on the boat. haha. slept all the way again, and then we finally reached TIOMAN, SALANG! (:

there were fishes everywhere! the breeze was awesome, and the water was supa clear! (: haha. so we lugged the heavy diving stuff up to uncle roger's place, said hi, grabbed rooms (ended up sharing one room, but there was like 2 queens) and then waited for the dive boat to come back so we could grab a divemaster and go divinggg! (:

but it didn't work out. daddy didn't quite like any of the divemasters, so he ended up going to bed. AGAIN. haha. but i guess driving was really tiring? haha. sie was watching teevee/reading her book, and i changed and got tanned on the sand! (: whoots (: it was a blast. HAHA! (:

went back, showered, and dinnered! (: we had sotong, fish, chicken, some chai and rice! (: ended the meal with corn, and it was oh so good, but definitely fattening as well. HAHA. then grabbed ice cream, and went back to the room to read a bit (i brought along Stephen King's Cell on this trip. it was really good, but gruesome!! :X) daddy once again slept really early, whilst we stayed up to read a bit.

oh, btw, this instructor came by our room to tell us that we had to do a refresher course (last dive was two years ago), so we had to meet her for a 8am dive! and skills would include partial mask clearance (in case water got into your mask and how to remove it), regulator retrieval (in case some eggcited idiot finned you in the face and your regulator got disengaged from your mouth) and buddy regulatory system (in case you run out of air and your buddy is too busy oogling at the fishes to see you turning blue in the face).

Day Two - Thursday

so we did the 8am dive. it wasn't all that tough once you get the hang of it, and boy, am i glad we did it. it was the most spectacular thing! (: we saw two pairs of cuttlefish (one was making love, because it was mating season) and it was nice, because Jid (the divemaster who told us to do a refresher course) said that they were leaving any moment now. so i was glad that we managed to see them.

then we went on the boat! (: whooots! i miss the boat, haha! (: divemaster was Glen, and dive group was us (daddy, sie and i) plus this Canadian who is doing his first dive after 10 years! (: on our side of the boat were 2 Singapore guys (talk more about them later) who were doing advanced, and their angmoh instructor.

hit Chebeh Island, which was really bad, even though the dive was amazing, but the stupid current was too strong! i kept smashing into corals, and got tons of scratches on my legs! but the fishes there were like woah, and the corals were like WOAH! haha (:

came up after 43 mins, cause i only had 1o bar left in my tank (which is scary! i've never got that low before!) did the decompression stop for like an hour, and then on to Malang. it was an easy dive, but the corals were not very nice though! haha. but there was this ball of anemone thing, and i did the volleyball thing to sie, and she laughed. HAHA. she was complaining that everytime she did a facial expression, water would get into her mask and she had to clear it. HAHA!

then we got back to land, and we were exhausted! lunched, then daddy went to sleep. HAHA. sie and i went to the jetty to feed fish for a bit, and that's when we saw the two SG guys again. so they said hi, exchanged some pleasantries, and then they walk dunno go where. so that's when sie and i parted ways, cause she wanted to read and i wanted to tan.

i sat on my side of the beach, reading Stephen King, when suddenly there was this shadow above me. so i took out my shades, looked up, and it was one of the SG guys! haha. Desmond (22 years old) was there, and he saw me, so he came by. cause Matt (short for Matthew, 19 years old) went back to get snorkelling gear for both of them (:

so we sat, and talked for a bit, and he was a pretty nice guy. then Matt came back with the snorkelling stuff, and he talked for a bit too (he's pretty shy though) i realised that it was getting late (and i was so busy talking that i didn't realise that i was burnt!) so i left to shower.

dinnered (daddy and sie had half a roast chicken each, i had a chicken salad), bought our ice cream, and got back to our rooms.

Day Three - Friday

boat was at 0930, so we woke up at 0700, left our room at 0815 or so. breakfast (daddy had roti canai, sie had pancake, i had mushroom and cheese omelette) found out that daddy got stung by corals, sie has got sandfly bites (she didn't even go to the beachh!!) and i got sandfly bites, coral scratches and sunburns!

my legs are supa ugly now!! :(

got on the boat, and the Desmond and Matt were in front of us (: talked for a bit, then we reached Mersing at about 1230? drove back and reached Singapore at 3 (: five star chicken rice, and it was HOME SWEET HOME! (:

dinnered, then went for dessert (: didn't realise how much i missed mummy, ro and nat (: even nat. HAHA.

churched today, then went for TMFM (Tanglin Mall FleaMarket) with Jolynn! Barney was on the train (cause he was going to Heeren) for a bit. Jolynn is so much fun to talk to! (: haha. Auntie Sek Jen was there (has been there since three in the aftnoon) and she had this gianormous bag of stuff! haha. TMFM wasn't as fun, not as many stalls, and clothes were not very nice. but okay lahh. haha.

there was this stall that sold clothes by bags. so stuff as much as you want into one bag for 6 dollars! it was down to 4 when we were leaving, but i thought that it was really creative. HAHA (:
managed to get one white blouse and an interesting necklace for 4 bucks!! (: so i'm happy.

busy week ahead! please let my legs heal by thennn! (:

he's gone to Malaysia, and i am so saddd! ): but oh wells, i'll see you soon enough! (:

and stewpid KIMBERLY SIM SOK KEE put me as emcee. WHY!! arghuck. you owe me! HAHA.

sweets, let's go flea market!! (: 11 April, Saturday, Mount Sophia (nearest MRT - Dhoby Ghaut), 2pm to 8 pm! (:

haha. okay, that's all (:

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