Sunday, June 29, 2008
but lovers always come and lovers always go.
cause nothing lasts forever,
even the cold november rain.
what we could have been, 4:50 PM.
Saturday, June 28, 2008
LIKE SERIOUSLY WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU.
please stop being so childish can.
you're freaking older than me okay.
LIKE HELLO.
ass. go away lahh can.
and i thought that this year would be fun.
RAHH. ANAL ANAL ANAL.
anyway, went to night safari on saturday!
it was pretty fun. lols (:
i <3>
peekchures soon, yo!
please stop being so childish can.
you're freaking older than me okay.
LIKE HELLO.
ass. go away lahh can.
and i thought that this year would be fun.
RAHH. ANAL ANAL ANAL.
anyway, went to night safari on saturday!
it was pretty fun. lols (:
i <3>
peekchures soon, yo!
what we could have been, 8:58 PM.
Friday, June 20, 2008
i need to go diving.
eddie showed me peekchures, and i am soooo jealous.
RAHH.
work's been tiring, but fun!
met elsie's BLUE EYES. he is this guy who has blue eyes because of some eye disease. and he is super cheena looking.
he is not THAT cute lahh. but oh well (: each to his/her own.
i've been having too much fun this whole week.
school starts next week.
BORING.
oh well (: gonna read my narnia books (thanks, lance!)
eddie showed me peekchures, and i am soooo jealous.
RAHH.
work's been tiring, but fun!
met elsie's BLUE EYES. he is this guy who has blue eyes because of some eye disease. and he is super cheena looking.
he is not THAT cute lahh. but oh well (: each to his/her own.
i've been having too much fun this whole week.
school starts next week.
BORING.
oh well (: gonna read my narnia books (thanks, lance!)
what we could have been, 12:20 PM.
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
it's about accepting the fact that you had a wondrous
experience, enjoy it, and move on.
i need to sleep (: oh, and congrats cleone! i am so proud of you girl! you deserve it. love love.
what we could have been, 2:00 AM.
Monday, June 16, 2008
for you men out there (:
go grab a pen and paper
Fine - I am right. This argument is over. You need to shut up.
That’s Okay - One of the most dangerous statements a women can make to a man. “That’s okay” means she wants to think hard and long before deciding when and how you’ll pay for your mistake.
Nothing - The calm before the storm. This means “Something” and you better be on your toes. Note: Arguments that start with “Nothing” usually end with “Fine” (See #1).
Five Minutes - If getting dress, this means half an hour. (Don’t be mad about this. It’s the same definition for you when it’s your turn to do some chores around the house.
Thanks - A woman is thanking you. Do not question this or faint. Just say, “You’re welcome,” and let it go.
Loud Sigh - Not actually a word but rather a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. It means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is standing here wasting her time arguing with you about “Nothing.” (See #3)
Go Ahead - This is a dare, not permission. (Don’t Do It!)
Don’t worry about it, I got it - The second most dangerous statement a woman can make. It means that a woman has asked a man several times to do something and is now doing it herself. (This will result in you asking at a later date, “What’s wrong?” For the woman’s response, see #3.)
go grab a pen and paper
Fine - I am right. This argument is over. You need to shut up.
That’s Okay - One of the most dangerous statements a women can make to a man. “That’s okay” means she wants to think hard and long before deciding when and how you’ll pay for your mistake.
Nothing - The calm before the storm. This means “Something” and you better be on your toes. Note: Arguments that start with “Nothing” usually end with “Fine” (See #1).
Five Minutes - If getting dress, this means half an hour. (Don’t be mad about this. It’s the same definition for you when it’s your turn to do some chores around the house.
Thanks - A woman is thanking you. Do not question this or faint. Just say, “You’re welcome,” and let it go.
Loud Sigh - Not actually a word but rather a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. It means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is standing here wasting her time arguing with you about “Nothing.” (See #3)
Go Ahead - This is a dare, not permission. (Don’t Do It!)
Don’t worry about it, I got it - The second most dangerous statement a woman can make. It means that a woman has asked a man several times to do something and is now doing it herself. (This will result in you asking at a later date, “What’s wrong?” For the woman’s response, see #3.)
what we could have been, 11:35 AM.
Sunday, June 15, 2008
It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been
through
Going coming thought I heard a knock
Who's
there no one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realise that I really
didn't know
If you didn't notice you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know
is I will be ok
[Chorus:]
Thought I couldn't live
without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in
time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve
to
It'll all get better in time
Since there's no
more you and me
It's time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my
life how it should be
No matter how hard it is
I'll be fine without
you
yeaps, it's something i've got to learn to do. thanks for dinner (: i had fun with you, and it's been a long long time since i last had fun with you.i tried reading our blog, all the past entries and the peekchures just tore my heart out. it's been a helluva two years and four months.
icc today! (: i sooo cannot wait. working from seven to eleven! hopefully my parents won't kill me. HEES (:
what we could have been, 2:28 AM.
Friday, June 13, 2008
happy 20th, lance! (: thanks for always being there, and bitching with me! love ya! (:
oh, btw, time to get a girlfriend! lols.
and we still have a bet k? you better not bluff me! lols (:
what we could have been, 3:17 PM.
Thursday, June 12, 2008
death is terrifying because it is so ordinary. it happens all the time; susan cheever said that. and it is so so true. andy rooney said that death is a distant rumour to the young. and it was until now.
i never really thought about death until recently. not that someone close to me or directly connected to me died. people around me knew someone who recently passed away. and it's not someone that is like forty or eighty or something. they are my age, and slightly older. they were okay one minute, and the next? they're down. DEAD. how the hell did this happen? they have their whole lives ahead of them. they had plans, dreams, expectations to meet. they haven't even had the pleasure/pain to raise children and grow old with someone they love. AND WHAT IF THIS HAPPENS TO YOU? ARE YOU READY?
i know i am not. and i don't think i can ever get ready to die. there are so many things i want to do, to say, to experience, to love, to hate, to cry over, to laugh about, to grow into, to make amendments for and so much more!
so i decided to leave notes for people here (just in case. i really am not suicidal or anything! (: life's too good to waste). i'm really sorry if you're not mentioned, but i tried!
bestie: even though i have known you for like a really really short time, i want to let you know that it has been a blast! and i'm sorry for being such a bitch on monday night. i love the way you make me laugh and cheer me up no matter what! i hope that i have made you as happy as well, and that we'll remain BFFs! and if i die, i'll miss that killer smile of yours and the "awwwww" sound. lols. and making calls to you, pretending to be a telemarketer! lols (: thank you for loving me! evolove you! (:
carole: my sweet lil girl. thanks for hugging me randomly and cheering me up when i am sad! oh, and not to forget, making the family laugh with your bimboness! and even though you're an accident, i'm glad that you happened! (: and if i die, i'll miss calling you a bimbo!
cheryl, dee and gladys: hello ladies! thank you for making church fun for me! (: and for all the flea market (failed or otherwise) expeditions that we have! it has been really nice knowing you girls and growing up in church with ya'll. love ya! (:
cleone: ha. the bitch. thanks for always being there for me, and cheering me up especially during that difficult time. i love listening to you analyse stuff. and i'll always remember the royal pets paradise peekchure! hees. and if i die, i'll miss your ah ma's chilli! lols. just kidding. i'll miss your talent (of stringing words to make a hilarious song) and your face when we laugh at you. hees. love you!
daddy: hello daddy. i just want to let you know that i love you! and i know that i don't say it often enough, so from now on, i'm going to say it as often as i can. thank you for marrying mummy! and for bringing me into this world and taking care of me all these while. i'm sorry for the many times i cause you heartache! but i know you love me still. and that you will love me no matter what! and if i die, i will miss laughing with you over stupid things. and you hugging me after i have done something wrong. love you! and i don't say it just because i did something wrong okay (:
edison: you whom i have spent the last 2 years and 4 months with. i took my Os with you. i got my IC with you. i went grocery shopping with you. i took my first cable car dinner with you. i went to Phantom of the Opera with you. i entered poly with you. i cut hair with you. i went on a holiday with you. i shared special moments with you. i worked with you. i brought the kids swimming with you. i went JB with your family and you came with mine. i know your IC no, your passwords, your matric card no, your whole family's birthdays, your height, your weight, your house address, your preferences. i fought with you, i cried over you, i walked away from you. i'm sorry for the bad times. but i am happy for the good. just know that i love you, and honestly, nothing's gonna change my love for you. and if i die, i'll miss you and not knowing how things might have turned out between us if circumstances had been different.
elsie: SMALL EYES! you're the best thing that happened to me. i can always share everything with you, bitch, pig out, sharing clothes, and even though sometimes we fight, i love you! (: and thank you for covering me when i need it! for listening to me whine, and then tell me to grow up. lols and for nagging at me to off the light and close the cupboard door. and not to forget, leaving my undies on your bed! lols (: stop watching videos on the lappie, and start studying! i love you!(:
emily: my fellow alto! thank you for cheering me up with your sweet letters, and for talking crap with me in church! (: you are the one person who has never, ever got angry with me before and doesn't grow fat even after pigging out! and that's so cool. lols (: i'll miss writing letters to you and talking about food places with you! don't eat too much, yo! (: love love!
G8: hey girls (& 1 butch)! thank you for making class in SAC so much more tolerable. if there's one thing i regret, it's because i don't meet up with you guys often enough! i love you guys! (:
kimberly: my neighbour, my classmate (going to be two years), my sec school friend and my confidant. thank you for making my day by being yourself (aka bimbotic). lols. you're loved, my dear, and no matter what, always be happy. you'll always have cercles with you.
lance: my most loved senior! thank you for hearing me out and bitch with me when i need a shoulder to lean on! and all the deep talks that we have! it's damn zhai lahh. lols. it has been swell knowing you, and talking to you makes me laugh. lols. you can be an asshole, but i will still love you. lols (: please go get a girlfriend soon and make your mummy happy. hees (:
li ying: my manly girl! i forget you, and i'll miss eating at design school with you! lols. always talking about law and alcohol, and damn slow when it comes to understanding what serene is saying. lols. but super duper quick when someone is being unglam, or when kim is being bimbotic. lols. i will miss crapping with you (:
mummy: you're the best mummy anyone could ever have! even though we fight very often (because we are so similar and both so stubborn), i love you very very much! thank you for deciding to bring me into this world and for taking care of me all these while! (: please remember where your house is (inside joke) and come home from work! (: and please don't love nat too much. lols (: i will miss your face reading/body language thing and looking at your expression when i am right, and you are wrong. lols (: eeevil, i know, but i love you! (:
nathanael: stinky boy! thanks for randomly telling me that you love me and the kisses. oh, not to forget, you coming into my room to tell me "RISE AND SHINE! IT'S TIME TO WAKE UP!" lols. i know you enjoy me kissing you, so don't pretend! lols (: i will miss waking up and screaming because you're lying in MY bed beside me. lols (: and telling you how himbotic you are, and disturbing you (hello, nattie!) love you, bro (:
serene: lover! and my first friend in poly! (: thank you for being an encouragement to me all the time. lols (: and thank you for the sweet notes you'd write for all of us! i will miss the random outbursts from you, and not to forget, the strange noises you make during lecture. lols! love you! (:
vanny: my fun-sized friend! (: thank you for all the yummy treats you make for us, and feed us till we grow fat. i will never cease to be amazed at how much you can eat during buffets! lols. and thank you for listening! you are so good at that! i will miss the yummy treats and having you as part of cercles, my dear! love you!
that's all.
i never really thought about death until recently. not that someone close to me or directly connected to me died. people around me knew someone who recently passed away. and it's not someone that is like forty or eighty or something. they are my age, and slightly older. they were okay one minute, and the next? they're down. DEAD. how the hell did this happen? they have their whole lives ahead of them. they had plans, dreams, expectations to meet. they haven't even had the pleasure/pain to raise children and grow old with someone they love. AND WHAT IF THIS HAPPENS TO YOU? ARE YOU READY?
i know i am not. and i don't think i can ever get ready to die. there are so many things i want to do, to say, to experience, to love, to hate, to cry over, to laugh about, to grow into, to make amendments for and so much more!
so i decided to leave notes for people here (just in case. i really am not suicidal or anything! (: life's too good to waste). i'm really sorry if you're not mentioned, but i tried!
bestie: even though i have known you for like a really really short time, i want to let you know that it has been a blast! and i'm sorry for being such a bitch on monday night. i love the way you make me laugh and cheer me up no matter what! i hope that i have made you as happy as well, and that we'll remain BFFs! and if i die, i'll miss that killer smile of yours and the "awwwww" sound. lols. and making calls to you, pretending to be a telemarketer! lols (: thank you for loving me! evolove you! (:
carole: my sweet lil girl. thanks for hugging me randomly and cheering me up when i am sad! oh, and not to forget, making the family laugh with your bimboness! and even though you're an accident, i'm glad that you happened! (: and if i die, i'll miss calling you a bimbo!
cheryl, dee and gladys: hello ladies! thank you for making church fun for me! (: and for all the flea market (failed or otherwise) expeditions that we have! it has been really nice knowing you girls and growing up in church with ya'll. love ya! (:
cleone: ha. the bitch. thanks for always being there for me, and cheering me up especially during that difficult time. i love listening to you analyse stuff. and i'll always remember the royal pets paradise peekchure! hees. and if i die, i'll miss your ah ma's chilli! lols. just kidding. i'll miss your talent (of stringing words to make a hilarious song) and your face when we laugh at you. hees. love you!
daddy: hello daddy. i just want to let you know that i love you! and i know that i don't say it often enough, so from now on, i'm going to say it as often as i can. thank you for marrying mummy! and for bringing me into this world and taking care of me all these while. i'm sorry for the many times i cause you heartache! but i know you love me still. and that you will love me no matter what! and if i die, i will miss laughing with you over stupid things. and you hugging me after i have done something wrong. love you! and i don't say it just because i did something wrong okay (:
edison: you whom i have spent the last 2 years and 4 months with. i took my Os with you. i got my IC with you. i went grocery shopping with you. i took my first cable car dinner with you. i went to Phantom of the Opera with you. i entered poly with you. i cut hair with you. i went on a holiday with you. i shared special moments with you. i worked with you. i brought the kids swimming with you. i went JB with your family and you came with mine. i know your IC no, your passwords, your matric card no, your whole family's birthdays, your height, your weight, your house address, your preferences. i fought with you, i cried over you, i walked away from you. i'm sorry for the bad times. but i am happy for the good. just know that i love you, and honestly, nothing's gonna change my love for you. and if i die, i'll miss you and not knowing how things might have turned out between us if circumstances had been different.
elsie: SMALL EYES! you're the best thing that happened to me. i can always share everything with you, bitch, pig out, sharing clothes, and even though sometimes we fight, i love you! (: and thank you for covering me when i need it! for listening to me whine, and then tell me to grow up. lols and for nagging at me to off the light and close the cupboard door. and not to forget, leaving my undies on your bed! lols (: stop watching videos on the lappie, and start studying! i love you!(:
emily: my fellow alto! thank you for cheering me up with your sweet letters, and for talking crap with me in church! (: you are the one person who has never, ever got angry with me before and doesn't grow fat even after pigging out! and that's so cool. lols (: i'll miss writing letters to you and talking about food places with you! don't eat too much, yo! (: love love!
G8: hey girls (& 1 butch)! thank you for making class in SAC so much more tolerable. if there's one thing i regret, it's because i don't meet up with you guys often enough! i love you guys! (:
kimberly: my neighbour, my classmate (going to be two years), my sec school friend and my confidant. thank you for making my day by being yourself (aka bimbotic). lols. you're loved, my dear, and no matter what, always be happy. you'll always have cercles with you.
lance: my most loved senior! thank you for hearing me out and bitch with me when i need a shoulder to lean on! and all the deep talks that we have! it's damn zhai lahh. lols. it has been swell knowing you, and talking to you makes me laugh. lols. you can be an asshole, but i will still love you. lols (: please go get a girlfriend soon and make your mummy happy. hees (:
li ying: my manly girl! i forget you, and i'll miss eating at design school with you! lols. always talking about law and alcohol, and damn slow when it comes to understanding what serene is saying. lols. but super duper quick when someone is being unglam, or when kim is being bimbotic. lols. i will miss crapping with you (:
mummy: you're the best mummy anyone could ever have! even though we fight very often (because we are so similar and both so stubborn), i love you very very much! thank you for deciding to bring me into this world and for taking care of me all these while! (: please remember where your house is (inside joke) and come home from work! (: and please don't love nat too much. lols (: i will miss your face reading/body language thing and looking at your expression when i am right, and you are wrong. lols (: eeevil, i know, but i love you! (:
nathanael: stinky boy! thanks for randomly telling me that you love me and the kisses. oh, not to forget, you coming into my room to tell me "RISE AND SHINE! IT'S TIME TO WAKE UP!" lols. i know you enjoy me kissing you, so don't pretend! lols (: i will miss waking up and screaming because you're lying in MY bed beside me. lols (: and telling you how himbotic you are, and disturbing you (hello, nattie!) love you, bro (:
serene: lover! and my first friend in poly! (: thank you for being an encouragement to me all the time. lols (: and thank you for the sweet notes you'd write for all of us! i will miss the random outbursts from you, and not to forget, the strange noises you make during lecture. lols! love you! (:
vanny: my fun-sized friend! (: thank you for all the yummy treats you make for us, and feed us till we grow fat. i will never cease to be amazed at how much you can eat during buffets! lols. and thank you for listening! you are so good at that! i will miss the yummy treats and having you as part of cercles, my dear! love you!
that's all.
what we could have been, 4:46 PM.
Friday, June 06, 2008
you know,
sometimes you look around and see people who don't really work hard get something and be successful. you think you deserve it because you worked harder, and only you deserve it. but the sad fact is you don't. because someone else will always be better/more capable/prettier/more likeable/funnier. and the other sad fact is this isn't the first time that it's happening to you.
so you take a step back and wonder, what went wrong, for like the umpteenth time. but you don't get anything/understand why, and you go, fuck it. and personally, i think that it's the best thing you can do. life's too short to envy others. so go out and live your own, encouraging others and be there for your friends, but never ever look at another and go "hey! i want that." or "that's not fair", cos life's like that.
so here's to you, my dear (: got to go back and study family law now.
sometimes you look around and see people who don't really work hard get something and be successful. you think you deserve it because you worked harder, and only you deserve it. but the sad fact is you don't. because someone else will always be better/more capable/prettier/more likeable/funnier. and the other sad fact is this isn't the first time that it's happening to you.
so you take a step back and wonder, what went wrong, for like the umpteenth time. but you don't get anything/understand why, and you go, fuck it. and personally, i think that it's the best thing you can do. life's too short to envy others. so go out and live your own, encouraging others and be there for your friends, but never ever look at another and go "hey! i want that." or "that's not fair", cos life's like that.
so here's to you, my dear (: got to go back and study family law now.
what we could have been, 10:23 AM.
Thursday, June 05, 2008
sent kannan off to Tekong today.
army food is not so bad.
and they are like super pampered now lahh.
gone are the days of boot shining and miserable food out in the field.
but the boat ride was kinda horrible.
plus the bus ride. EEEEE.
have fun at Tekong! (:
army food is not so bad.
and they are like super pampered now lahh.
gone are the days of boot shining and miserable food out in the field.
but the boat ride was kinda horrible.
plus the bus ride. EEEEE.
have fun at Tekong! (:
what we could have been, 11:40 PM.
