Wednesday, April 30, 2008
april sucked.
come quickly, may.
what we could have been, 11:55 PM.
WISHLIST 1. dress2. dress3. dress4. printed tops5. bag6. mother's day present7. blouse8. blousei had fun double dating today (: went to downtown east. had ben & jerry's, then new york new york and doomsday. ben & jerry's strawberry and cheesecake super nice. add that with good company, hilarious cavemen, and funny pictures, WALA! you have a great dessert. new york new york's mushroom medley pizza is yummy. and doomsday is like king arthur + underworld + resident's evil + the italian job all rolled into one. but the last part was super funny. the few hour was just gruesome. like ewwww. i should change my PM and remove "so kiss me". cos random people (yes, haiqal, you and some others) have been "muuuaaahing" or "muacks-ing" me. so not cool, yo. lols (: i talked to you for 40:45 mins and it made me think a lot. those questions you posed did not clarify anything, it just confused me. and i swear, the bit on "curiousity killed the cat, but satisfaction brought it back" that you talked about is bulls***. lols. love you anyway. and in my opinion, nothing's changed. but i think i am beginning to see your point.
what we could have been, 2:23 PM.
i love my cds tutorial group.
they are so cute (:
hees.
can't wait to meet cercles tmr (:
missed you, ladies
this week was a helluva week.
i almost died.
and guess what?
mummy's leaving for thailand tmr aftnoon,
leaving me in charge of two maids, one emo kid, and two out-of-control children.
i am so dead.
lols. two maids because my aunt deposited her maid here, cos she is going to msia.
thanks a lot, people.
like i don't have enough on my hands. anyway, here are some pictures from like waaayyy back.
when we skipped smth.
big mouths. everyone of them. lols (: 
and a complete photo of cercles (: after law welcome! heehee. that's all.
what we could have been, 10:37 PM.
i really don't think that i am such a bad child.i don't a) come home after one in the morningb) ask for extra allowancec) do terribly and play truant in schoold) dress too scantilye) scold vulgarities in your facef) raise my voice when i am talking to youg) waste foodh) drinki) do drugsj) smokek) look like a hooliganl) fight in schoolm) skip churchn) forget to say graceo) hate taking care of my personal hygienep) give lecturers a hard time in schoolq) bully my younger siblingsr) forget to memorise my bible versess) embarrass you in publict) take out my temper on things in the houseu) ask for too muchv) make you pay for my phone billsw) have really bad friendsx) try to commit suicide (although i have come up with plans) y) make other parents call you up to complain about mez) have an addictionso i don't see the problem you have with me. you should have got rid of me when you still had a chance, so you can go on your merry way and you could have pretended that everything's normal. it's too late now, and you're stuck with me for awhile more yet. oh well. random rantings.
what we could have been, 5:11 PM.
i just came out of a nice, hot and super long shower.feels so good! yay!today was law welcome.i took 1L02, cos they needed help.SLs were ah lun, zaf, paris, rabia, and myself. class is called MARCO!we had emi, ryan, jane, huili, fathin, CD, nathson, joshua 1, joshua two.and i am sorry if i left out anyone, but it was my first day there! had icebreaking (apparently, only for me) then caterpilliar, followed by lighthouse.lunched, then lt-ed for awhile,station games, some obstacle course thing,followed by touch rugby.then water bombs i think. lols. it was fun.then dinner-ed with cercles + tracy and yue yuan at subway.those two are super funny.then lepaked with vanny, serene and kim at starbucks. the conversation with kim got me thinking. how can someone you thought you knew suddenly become a stranger? i mean, it's not just like a freshie you met at orientation lehs.it's someone you're intimate with, someone you trusted, someone you were in constant contact with. someone you missed when they didn't text you, someone you wanted to go out with, someone you couldn't wait to see. someone you thought would stand by you even when the skies are turning grey. they say people change. but how? rahh. mankind is so complicated. i need to take a step back and evaluate my life too. before i get too busy again. that's all (:
what we could have been, 9:16 PM.
AND BUSINESS WON,again!lols. too bad for design (ahahahah to you, edison)but...it's okay! it's alright!design design fight fight fight. go design! clap x5we loved design! clap x5i love my freshies! (except for that one, which i have never seen since she left. YES!) and i feel kinda bad that i am actually not from LRM.when they found out that i was actually from law,they were so disappointed. oh well. LRM freshies quite poor thing.cos all the juniors spend sem 2.1 at sentosa,so they cannot seek help from the juniors. i sound like a man. HELP!anyways, going for LAW WELCOME TODAY!i can finally bond with my freshies. L-A-W! mess with us and we will sue! lols. upload pictures soon.
what we could have been, 8:00 AM.
I LOVE MY CLASS!got posted to T01!have kimberly, cleone, chap, and really really nice people! yayness! and my timetable is kinda swee.lols.monday - 1 to 6tuesday - 9 to 11 wednesday - 10 to 1thursday - 9 to 4friday - 9 to 4okay lahh, it may not be the best, but i am quite happy (:hees. my heart is like bursting with love for you lahh!lols. aston please! i'm craving for it. RIGHT NOW. "if you're leaving, will you please take me with you"
what we could have been, 12:49 AM.
i just found out today that many people read this.and it's people i don't expect.rahh.good thing i am not racist.lols. stupid APNNs.you know, people all around me hold broken hearts. i don't know what to say to them, cos i have forgotten what the feeling is like. is this a sign? it is just so sudden. i am so confused.just when you thought that "yeaps, i've got it all together" things like that happen to make you pause, and think, and most of all, to cherish.i spent 15 mins crying after reading a particular entry. what i am feeling is beyond words. crushed. i mean, from my vantage point, it looked like everything was going hunky dory. next thing i knew, WHAM!, it's all gone. i love you, girls (: you know who you are."wow. five months. i'm impressed (: "
what we could have been, 10:48 AM.
i was so full of hope and love before i made the call.
i called like ten times.
each time was either a
1) smth smth service unavailable.
2) cannot even get through.
then when you finally picked up the phone,
you tell me that you were in the lift, AND THAT IT IS NOT YOUR FAULT.
OH COME ON.
you were the one that told me to call, when all i texted is goodnight.
thank you very much for the wonderful reception to dreamland.
screw it. ANYWAY,
here are some pictures.
tampines cc mac's toilet.
school toilet. so it's nic, serene, cleone and ly! (: 
sleepover at ly's house (:

left to right - nic, ly and crayon. lols.
what we could have been, 3:01 AM.
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
i am stuck at home because mummy is being a monster.
i'm surprisingly, not pissed. i mean, i was before, but not anymore.
growing old and softening up?
i used to be able to throw tantrums for weeks.
and now i can't even last an hour?
LOLS. anyway,
SL TEA PARTY WAS A BLAST!
lols. i had fun, although things were a bit rough on the inside at times.
we (meaning cercles) have officially joined LRM.
the plan? to psycho lrm people to join law.
lols. we had fun talking about it.
i am partnering serene (but she'll be leaving earlier on thurs), vanny with cleone and ly with kim.
the people in LRM were quite fun! super noisy. lols.
and and and hopefully the freshies would be nice too.
cleone went with caesion to surprise loulin with the cake,
while the rest of us (ly, kim, serene, me) camwhored at our secret spot.
KIMMY'S CAMERA IS COOL.
after tea party, serene, ly, cleone and i went to MACS!
kim went dinner-ing with hatshe.
we had fun talking, and laughing.
AND SOME IDIOT (looks at serene) STOLE MY SLIPPER.
lols. so ass lahh.
then serene left for tuition, while the three of us stayed.
then moved to the bus stop. talked somemore.
while walking to bus stop, we saw design people.
so i was like where is edison
then they said in school.
then i shouted BUSINESS ROCKS
and ran off. lols. damn funny lahh.
LY & I WAITED SO LONG FOR BUS EIGHT LAHH.
lols. but we had fun.
4 hamsters on the run. 3 more to go (: LOVE YOU CERCLES
LOVE YOU IDRISLOVE YOU LAM (law+lrm)
love you too! (:
what we could have been, 3:17 AM.
oh nicky, you're so fine says:
okay, i'm here for mine! [kiss]
t says:
HAHA!
t says:
for mine, there is a preorder
oh nicky, you're so fine says:
why are we waiting?!
t says:
******n's FREE
oh nicky, you're so fine says:
LOLS. you damn mean lehs
t says:
haha! as if SHE is NOT mean to me
oh nicky, you're so fine says:
lols.
t says:
you should hear how she speaks to me man.
t says:
heart sinking
oh nicky, you're so fine says:
don't cry
oh nicky, you're so fine says:
we're all in this together
oh nicky, you're so fine says:
lols.
t says:
HAHA!
t says:
of cos!
t says:
i shall see how he survive through saturday
oh nicky, you're so fine says:
no, it should be how WE survive
t says:
haha! it wont be that case cos I AM THE EMCEE FOR THE DAY
t says:
HAHAHAHA
t says:
how exciting is that?
t says:
LOL
oh nicky, you're so fine says:
lols. really?
oh nicky, you're so fine says:
yay! go tracy, go you go
oh nicky, you're so fine says:
i think i'm going to die laughing
t says:
HAHA!
t says:
you should. cos he is very funny.
t says:
saw how he ran?
t says:
like chicken like that la
oh nicky, you're so fine says:
lols.
what we could have been, 1:25 PM.
it's a sunday aftnoon,and i am super sleepy. lols. had law dry run on thurs.it was bearable. lols (:and ab claims that i look like KIMBERLY SIM.hello?! square jaws vs advocado face (credits to cleone)got demoted to LOL.rahh. and i thought that i could slack at food min.lols (: then went to ly's house. breakfast at novena on friday.MCSPICY, yums! (: kallang-ed for awhile(it's quite a cool place. looks a lil like m'sia)then dinner-ed at 85.i just realised that we didn't take pics. at all.lols. met up with steffie! even though we're both from TP,i have not seen her in like forever! lols (: slept in on saturday.ha. what a pig.dinner at ah ma's house tonight!finally! i can watch teevee. lols (: can't wait for monday. and just when i tuned in to the radio,jason mraz's i'm yours comes on (:
what we could have been, 6:30 AM.
NUMBER 1:The rules are easy, just post 10 things that recently made you happy! Then tag 10 people and force them to post this meme on their LJs. Because it is good. Everyone needs a little happiness once in a while.01) cercles (:02) you*03) IDRIS! 04) talking to kim from my window last night. 05) nat's retarded-ness06) breakfast (:07) yesterday's weather08) cercle's msn convo yesterday. LOLS (:09) comments people had for me on friendster.10) my new fringe, which only 1 person noticed. lols (:NUMBER 2:01. Spell your name as it sounds: neekold02. Are you available? i have enough boy trouble already, thank you very much. 03. What's your favorite number? 9! 04. Favorite color(s)? GREEN. 05. Least favorite color? none?06. What are you listening to? Ryan Cabrera - True07. Are you happy with your life right now? yeaps! (: besides the few hiccups lahh.08. Favorite Subject? APEL! lols (: 09. Favorite smell? the smell of your kiss. 10. How do you make money? being nice to mummy towards the end of the month. lols (: 11. Are you outgoing? errs. i think so? 12. Do you like Big Mac's? lols. only when i am very hungry. 13. Do you own big sunglasses? yeaps. 14. Where do you wish you were right now? anywhere with good company (: 15. What should you be doing right now? nothing. i am on holiday. hees (: 16. Do you have a crush on anyone right now? hees. refer to question 02. THE CANS:01. Can you blow a bubble? yeaps, from a bubblegum right? 02. Can you touch your toes? lols. can i bend my knees? 03. Can you whistle? nopes! 04. Can you wiggle your ears? lols. i think so (: 05. Can you roll your tongue? yeaps. 06. Can you tie a cherry stem with your tongue? yeaps. THE DIDS:01. Did you ever want to be a doctor? lols. i will probably be sued for professional negligence. 02. Did you ever receive an engagement ring? lols. nopes! 03. Did you ever want to be a fire fighter? nopes, don't think so (:THE DO'S:01. Do you know how to swim? nopes. lols. 02. Do you like roller coasters? very much! 03. Do you own a bike? bicycle, yes, motorbike, nuh-uh. THE DOES:01. Does your car get good gas mileage? lols. no idea. i have a car, but i don't drive. lols (: 02. Does your family have family picnics? does eating durian by the roadside count? lols. 03. Does your home have a bookcase? lols. i think so. THE HAVES:01. Have you ever been to Canada? nopes. 02. Have you ever gone fishing? yeaps. 03. Have you ever seen a celebrity? lols. i think so. 04. Have you ever been on a motorcycle? nopes. THE HOWS:01. How many cars have you own? 1? 02. How many jobs have you had? errs. three. 03. How tall are you? 165cm. THE LASTS:01. Last person you hung out with? cercles minus kim and serene, and ah long. 02. Last thing you said out loud? the hole puncher is there. 03. Last time you ate at McDonalds? lols. a few weeks back? 04. Last thing you bought? chips. super unhealthy. lols. but super yummy. THE WHATS:01. What is the temperature outside? no idea. 02. What time did you wake up? ten? IS YOUR/ARE YOU:01. is your hair wet? nopes. 02. is your cell phone right by you? yeaps. 03. do you miss someone? lols. li ying? 04. are you wearing chapstick? nopes. i am well hydrated (: 05. are you tired? kinda. 06. are you wearing pajamas? nopes. 08. are you mad? lols. in the angry or crazy sense? 09. are you upset? nuh-uh. HAVE YOU:01. recently done anything you regret? lols. yeaps. 02. ever lied? ahahha. no? lols (: 03. ever stuck gum under a desk? lols. ya. 04. have you ever kicked someone? during mass dance. front 2 3 KICK. "OEI!"05. ever tripped over your own feet? lols. always. TODAY HAVE YOU:01. have you cursed? nopes. 02. have you gotten mad at someone? nopes. 03. Is there a person who is on your mind right now? lols. no, not really. 04. do you have any siblings? 3 younger siblings-elsie, 16, ro, 8 and nat, 605. do you want children? yeaps! a dozen please! lols. 06. do you smile often? lols. always. 07. do you untie your shoes every time you take them off? nopes. 08. do you like your handwriting? yeaps! (: but it is rather kiddish. 09. are your toenails painted? nopes. 10. whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in ? hees. what a question.11. what color shirt are you wearing? yellow! 12. what were you doing at 7pm yesterday? dinner? 13. I can’t wait till: thursday! (: WHAT WOULD YOU RATHER BE CALLED? 01. Babe or baby: babe02. Sweetie or cupcake: sweetie03. Darling or Sunshine: sunshine04. When did you last cry? no idea (: 05. Are you a friendly person? i'd like to think so. lols (: 06. Whose bed did you sleep in last night? mine. 07. Do you have any pets? a dog, fishes, and thousands of hamsters. lols. 08. Ever cried on your friend's shoulder? yeaps. 09. Do you think that special someone will repost this? errs. everyone's special?
what we could have been, 3:07 AM.
Wednesday, April 09, 2008
some photos are terribly overdue (:

our date at thai express (: everyone looks nice in this picture, except long. lols. kidding!

cleone me and long. at some security thing at mrt station. lols (:

THE SCANDALOUS PAIR. choosing shoe for their yet unborn child (:

cleone's sweet (: super yummy. thanks, girl!

this is the face of the sweet watch! (:

cleone bitching...again. lols (: super funny can.

my half finished drink (:
what we could have been, 1:23 PM.
my life has been at best, a mess.i have been thinking a lot these few days,even though i was kinda busy.what in the world am i going to do with you? and you know,i need to practice saying no.i cannot keep saying yes and being nice.but it is so darn difficult. i don't really know what i want.rahh. and i hate boys, i swear, they make life so much more difficult.why cannot we just stay friends? and it's not that they are bad, evil, irritating people.they are so lovable.but i am sorry, i think i have found that one already. the following is an example of something that stresses me.hey dudette, i guess i should be honest with you, that i finally found someone that i like, or perhaps fond of, and this person is none other than you.
i too, know that you are attached and i never had the intention to come between you and him because it will end up with you feeling down and a load of crappy mess.
i don't have a solution to this yet, but in the meantime, i just hope that you will have the cheeky grin on your face, always.
goodnight, sweetie.
what we could have been, 1:17 PM.
okay. joke of the day.the whole family was in the car, and i was right next to nat.so i told him "nat, you're G-R-O-S-S! do you know what is that?"then he was like, "I'M A GENIUS?!"oh my tian. i need to pee. BYE. something to think about, ladies, would you give up your heels for your man?
what we could have been, 10:52 AM.
massive headache.
my life is like a song on repeat.
i so cannot wait for school to start.
i wanna watch silk.
rahh.
what we could have been, 9:26 PM.
"am i worth all the pain that i cause?"
went to school for mtg yesterday.
good thing i go late.
cos it started super late. lols (:
then went for lunch with cercles! (:
WE DIDN'T TAKE PIC THOUGH.
lols (:
rushed to get phone for sie.
the guy (APNN) is a pain in the rear end.
cos my daddy bought it online.
then i had to call the guy to collect the phone.
he ah. wa lau. talk to him until i want to vomit blood. lols.
then rushed over to VCH.
concert was a blast!
but never in my entire life have i been sooo late for a concert.
concert started at 730 pm and i was there ate 655 pm.
lols (: it was hilarious, but i managed to get everything done on time.
sir didn't come though.
so much for "we managed to get sir to come back"
LOLS (:
after concert, hitched a ride back to school.
easier and cheaper to go to simpang.
the dinnermates were eunice, audrey, maxine, ain, jojo, clarissa, weelyn, farah and me! (:
we went to tang tea house.
super funny.
pics not up yet though. another time! (:
what we could have been, 1:44 AM.
sunburnt nose and cheeks.tons of email to read.plenty of shitting to do.aches in places i didn't even know exsisted. butCAMP WAS SUPER ZHAI.lols. i love idris! and and and it was just super fun.lols. i need to find people to play qing ni ken we ze yang zhuo with me. i am super tired, but today is going to be a long day again! (:nat and ro actually missed me!i am impressed. lols (:but elsie didn't even know that i was gone.LOLS (: anyhows, got to go! tons to prepare for tonight.pictures are here!http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=102191&l=6f404&id=514885045 http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=102272&l=c53b2&id=514885045
what we could have been, 9:27 AM.