Kindness in packets of tissues.

Hey guys, i hvnt been blogging for quite a while, and since I've got my laptop, i will try to blog a bit more. I have been busy with life and catching up with my deteriorating health, and that means by healing my body and restoring my health through the power of food. Anyway, I am having a lot of rest as well just to get better in that regards.

Kindness in packets of tissues, very interesting story. I want to share an incident that happened to me not long ago. I was having my holiday in Singapore with my beloved Soon kok Wee back in February. We did not buy a lot of things, but!! guess what we bought the most???? PACKETS OF TISSUES!!!!!! I have to admit i enjoy street food and hawker food and that means i love dining in in Grade B food courts while sells a lotta good food. Yum Yum... (thinking of the fish ball soups, fried rice, roasted duck noodles for SGD 4!!!! that is heaven!!!) anyway, the tauke who sells drinks will ask if i want a packet of tissue for $0.5 and i would say yes cuz I dont have the habit of bringing tissue in Australia (all the public toilets are loaded with tissues). Then, came along some old ladies selling packets of tissues. I bought 3 packets of tissues for $5 (gladly doing charity at the same time).

Whenever i travel via MRT, I bought tissues as well, from elderlies sitting on wheelchairs outside the stations. Massive crowds of people come and passed, but noone had the time to stop and look and feel the crowd. I stopped, bought packets of tissues again from those ppl and continued walking.

At the end of the trip, I came back with at least 10 packets of tissues in my Bally bag. As i arrived in Australia, i could not be bothered to unpack my things and i totally forgot about those little packets of tissues.

I went to the city last week just to get some herbal meds to restore my health, as I was there, I had some nice hong kong food from the food court in darling harbour, YUM YUM hong kong food....  then, as i hopped on the train, i felt like going to the toilet badly. omg. It is not food poisoning, it's just my tummy having a bad turbulence. I had to wait till i got off the train, went to the nearest public toilet, and guess what!!!! no toilet papers in allllllllll 3 cubicles!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! that was the worst experience ever.

I had to thank soon kok wee for insisting me go out with that bally bag instead of my new Charles and Keith (What is wrong with charles and keith???? that bag is awesome, but it hasnt got tissues in it) and guess what? I have got packet of tissues just when i need them. Kindness in packets of tissues. ENd of story.

As i got home that day, I quickly put packets of tissues in every single bag i have. I am never ever going to trust the public toilets anymore. omg...

New laptop!

Yay, I am back, with a new laptop. Cant believe that i have been living without a laptop for like 2 months. Alfred TAN!!!! make sure you make good use of the laptop i gave to you.
  It has been a while since i last blogged. I came back from Singapore. Yay!

More pictures to come.

lazing around~

Time flies...
Chinese new year is just around the corner~ hoho~
and I am still jetlagging!!!!
Rawr!

变了和不变的事

每每回到家，都会有很多很多的感触。话说，在起飞的前几天，我已经每天在梦到自己在这片国土了，马来西亚，你，始终还是家。跟阿德莱德，墨尔本说了再见，来到悉尼自己一个人从零开始，当初做这个选择，很难，也可以说，我别无选择，为了生活，为了饭碗，我到悉尼上班了。面对着国际品牌的诱惑，更面对着美食的‘色诱’。

变了的事：
习惯自己在家当老大，以前，都是我最高，欺负弟弟，我最开心（也没有很严重啦，半开玩笑地说）。2011年回家，我两个弟弟已经高过我了。今年回来呢，才发现跟我很陌生的小弟，（因为我在他生活失踪了6年。记得我离开时，他还是一个小屁孩，我超级讨厌他，觉得他很笨，也许这就是人家说的男孩比较晚熟吧。一直问我很笨的问题，我当时快发疯了）长大了，也·高了很多，人高马大的，我不敢欺负他了。听说他IQ比别人强，我没IQ。

经常也和朋友谈到自己的父母什么的。看见岁月在家人的脸和头发留下的痕迹，哎呀，真的是岁月不饶人啊。

往年，每个人都会回来过年，现在呢，我们6侠缺2.堂姐在英国念书，弟弟在中国，哎呀。都会抢用电脑，到每个人都有一台电脑，到我们6缺2.

爸爸呢，我们家里的司机长，打从我上幼稚园开始，准时接送。到了今年，连我的baby brother都中学毕业了，不用载我们到不一样的三间学校念书，我，还真的不知道那是什么感觉。找一天问问他。我个人觉得这是一个很大的转折点。。。哪天，我们三个都毕业了，那就时间真的不饶人了。

念书时，妈妈奶奶七早八早起床弄爱心早餐（以前中学时候还一直嫌说不好吃什么的，唉，真不孝啊。 直到去了澳大利亚，每天早上赶时间，牛奶和玉米片，那是种多冷漠的早餐啊，没感情，没温度，没爱心=（。。。。。。）现在呢，爸爸天天吃麦片（很好的选择，多纤维，减低胆固醇，要乖哦，变漂亮，一定要由里到外），妈妈在睡觉，奶奶也在睡觉。唯我独醒有没有～好啦，我承认我是jetlagging。多希望每天早上就有别人弄好的早餐，炒面，炒果条，什么都好～

不变的事：
家里的摆设，还是一样。

弟弟，还是跟以前一样-_-'''。我可能是个自私的姐姐吧，把自己还没达成的愿望都寄托在弟弟身上。钢琴，他比我厉害，还会长笛，我他妈的音乐细胞都死去那？记得当时还是我要爸爸让他学钢琴的。7岁的小屁孩学钢琴，如今，18岁啦，弹的，都是我们听演奏的歌，超讨厌他，我还在弹流行歌曲。哈哈哈哈。算了吧，有这样的弟弟，我还能要求什么呢？

回家的感觉，还是一样好～

最后，送上我小弟的一张艳照～



一中老师们，我和我们永远最棒的07年理忠班会回去学校的～=）

Things I do when I am having days off

Another day off!
I used to love my days off and it always seemed so short.
So, I decided to watch this series as Mr. Soon is at a camp.

This is a very good movie!
Cried several times, smiled several times.
However, I find the storyline is similar to "xia yi zhan xing fu"
but different in their own way...

中年危机？

中年危机？重点是我还没过完我的青春期。有时候，还会问问自己，自己到底几岁，anyway，最近又有很多问题要问自己。
1）我应该继续念硕士还是拿另外一个degree。老实说，当护士，不简单。我们，都累了。
2）我自己是真的喜欢我这份工吗？
3）现在的我，还真想坐在办公室里吹冷气，偶尔当当护士也不错。但，全职真的我快受不了了。
4）或许，我应该兼职。

又再次站在人生的十字路口。如果，我勇敢一点，念了个什么医生，压力跟护士一样。如果，我念了个商科，又跟护理查天差地。

好烦。好烦。。。。。

you can loose everything, but not hope

I was having some period where I think my world is gonna shatter

people call this midlife crisis.

I think I am going through that, 

Wth, mid life crisis and I am not even 25.

LOL!

Things just went so so so wrong everyday,

I was lucky enough (trying to be scarcastic) 

to be audited by the almighty Australian Taxation Office.

They think I filled in the forms by mistake and that my school fees was $9500 for one semester.

They think I made a mistake by donating $680 to the society in the last financial year.

What's wrong with people these days???

There went the calling games, 

I had to call allllllll the people who could help me, 

from uni to my nurses board,

from ATO to Medicare,

I hate this process and I am still in this shitty process...

God save me from all these.

Work wise,

things just went wrong from dont know when,

it went to a point where I felt that I am not capable of nursing anymore.

It's not about my attitude, it's like things just went wrong..

I lost all my confidence.

I dont want to do nursing anymore.

I was literally like this

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when i got home, 

depression?

yes!

low self esteem?

Yes!

stressed?

BIG YES!!!

I tried to tell myself that I can get through it, 

but in fact, I cant.

I had to go back to the good old basic question when people ask you when you were in nursing school.

WHY DO YOU WANT TO BE A NURSE?

that's a million dollar question!

So, it turned out that I was having some mood swings, 

thanks to

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Now, keep me on top of your prayer's list!

I dont wanna go through all these again.....