Moments

in this distinct moment
It all seems so blurred
shadows are cast
gliding away
hiding away
from memories past

fickle disguises
are walking on by
blackened like ash
dissolving in grey
fading away
like last year's whiplash

closing the front door
black cats surround me
eyes glowing bright
piercing my way
in hues of deep grey
back into the night

what's supposed to be and what isn't

it's amazing how high-handed some people can get. but then they've always been like that. and to think people would only do things for me just because it's my wedding, so they'll do whatever i ask. i'm not a queen or anything and i don't expect to be treated like some royalty one day and then a nothing the next. i expect to be treated like a darn human being who has feelings and someone who has her head on her shoulders securely placed. i may want to feel like a princess, but don't insult my intelligence by just treating me one way because that's what everyone does all the time. do it because you love me. because i'm a friend, family, because you'd actually want to do that for me. and not coz it's what you're supposed to do.

it's funny...

i guess when you've grown up with everyone else being assertive of their own ideas, they will never think twice about yours. because your supposed to be the quiet one. the one who shouldn't have the mind to speak your own opinions. and if you ever had any idea or opinion of something that is significant in our lives, then whatever you say is wrong. because these people have been brought up to think that nothing they ever say or do can be wrong. wouldn't that mean that these people are too proud to look at themselves and see that maybe they are wrong about certain things. maybe they are the ones that can't see the bigger, proper picture. and if so, wouldn't that be a sin in itself? we all know what the seven deadly sins are.

the funny part is, they were the ones telling you that you should be more assertive and decisive. that you should be able to open up and speak for yourself.

then they'll think that your opinions are someone else's. because you're too influenced by other people. and with the same breath, tell you that you've always had a good head on your shoulders.

I probably go on about this time after time. But it never ceases to amaze me how some people think they are so great and wonderful. And the whole world revolves around them. Then they think that everyone around them is small and miniature and they should try to be more than what they are. But because their heads are getting bigger by the minute, for i've no idea what reasons, they can't see past their own little world to realise that those little people have changed. It's they that haven't changed - much.

I know far too many people who either think they know everything or always have to be right and no one else can tell them different. But wouldn't that make them ignorant and closed-minded because they can't look at things differently? Especially when you're trying to tell them the truth about something. It's no wonder they think they're so great. That's the greatest evil ever.

Awakening

Passing the clouds,

The waves and the sand,

In my rearview mirror,

I'm leaving it behind.

Walking across,

This wiry road,

Carefully treading,

It's all in my mind.

Dreaming again,

Complicates things,

Why can't you see,

You're not that kind.

Washing the sleep,

All from my eyes,

Now I can see,

All that is mine.

ah steph you were just being stupid.

yet again.