Revelation.

Thank you for giving me such a clear answer. What a tight slap to my face. Each hit on my heart comes after each revelation. Thank you for making me realise what a materialistic person you've evolve into. I just can't help feeling that your decision was purely based on such superficial reasons. Thanks for all the false hopes you've made me pinned upon. Thinking back, I really felt used. Was I the second one in line all the time? I realise I'm always making the first move, were you enjoying my stupidity, as if you're watching a clown doing it's tricks to earn the applause from it's audience. I felt worse than a clown. I don't even gain anything after making a fool of myself, instead I felt humiliated. I can't imagine everything undergone such a drastic turn in a short span of just months. All I'm asking of you now is to spare a thought for me and keep your lovingness out of my sight. I'm not that strong to endure such a huge blow. Please don't always assume I'm strong enough to be facing all these myself. A clown is afterall still a human.