Saturday, January 29, 2005

She whom dreamt of so much wonders,
holding onto her belief in lives.
Never once did she upset the balance,
but what did she get in the end?

Never mind, she thought to herself.
Forgive and forget, she promised herself.
Things will get better, she consoled herself.
Wait is the word, she told herself.

Her belief, her dreams, her world.
Complexity may occur occasionally, but deep down inside,
she's a naive baby.
That's what she is.

Standing alone, she tried.
Running towards so many different lanes at one point.
She ended up with nothing
Or perhaps, there's nothing for her to gain anyway.

Should she be blame?
No, because she longed for warmth so badly that her actions are understood.
Yes, because she deserved it for being so ambitious.
What can she do to salvage the mess she was tangled in?

Piercing her heart is loneliness.
Inflicting the pain is the never-existed situations.
The reality hits her back,
when she thought of the fairytales.

The silence of the technology.
She wanted so much for it to call for her,
so that she knows her presence is needed.
But it all ends up in disappointment.

Her so-called friends.
Do they exist?
To think she hold them so dearly.
Insensitive, should they be.

When will she actually achieve her dreams?
Her hopes? Her belief? Her theories?
There she goes again,
seeping deeply into her own comfort zone.

Everything is back to square one.

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Wednesday, January 05, 2005

School has finally started...first day of school was a bit mess. All of us don't know where to go. And guess what? My class got disbanded and I was transferred to another with other 8 of my classmates. The rest all went to other classes. That was a surprise for me, how come change class sia?

Then got the new timetable le, for this year...school starts at 9.30am on every Monday! Yes! Haha...only when there's term test then need to report at 7.35am. And there will only be two tests per term only, lol. But still, timetable ain't very good, kinda busy, everyday ends quite late. I only like the first week of school, only need to come back 3 days...cos got exams, still got the time to go shopping, hahaha.

Ah...3 more days to concert!!!

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Saturday, January 01, 2005

Went to Marina Bay and ate steamboat with [S.L.A.C.K] yesterday...but it's raining at that time, so kind of sian, but our mood aren't dampen! Went down to Clarke Quay after that and from there, we wandered around and finally reached a place near Esplanade to countdown. Today is the first day of 2005...the start of a new year, the start of my horror.

Am in JC2 now le, and college's starting in 2 days time. Gotta be extra hardworking, spending most of my time to study, study and study. Oh ya, still got that stupid CCA and CIP thingy. Nevertheless, it means less time for my family and [S.L.A.C.K], so sad. Actually I don't mind having to study so hard, especially when this year is such a crucial year for me...A'Levels. But, it's the company that counts...thinking that I have to go back to college in 2 days time dampens all my mood. So sian, 2005 surely would be a year that is full of hardship, sadness and boredom for me. I'm not saying that those people in my college are bad lah, they all are really nice people, but I don't know why, I just can't click with them. I just don't feel much happiness being with them and I don't really undertand their humour, which caused me not to enjoy my JC life.

Don't care le lah, just hope I can click better with my classmates and fellow CCA members. And like what I told Mz when she asked for my new year's wish, m wish for 2005 is to scrap through this whole year smoothly and get out of the collge as soon as possible. That's when I truely have a long period of time to rest and do what want to, spend time with people whom I want to spend with and to enjoy myself. There's a seven months break between the end of A'Levels and the University admission day (of course, if I'm able to get in to one).

So, anyway, Happy New Year to all, and all the best in whatever you do. Good luck in 2005!

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