The old man, the young boy and the donkey

5: Kinderland

"Aiyah nothing big one la also not Montesorri or anything"

7: Cedar Primary

"HUH. Canossa better. That school lousy one."
"HUH. My daughter RGS leh."

12: 225

"Why you don't do better..."
"Why you don't work harder..."
"You could have done better and gone to a better school..."

13: Holy Innocents'

"HUH? What is that?"
"Where is that?"

"Wah that school a lot of ah lian one"

14: deteriorated

"Better start working hard"
"Wake up your idea" <- As I've always mentioned, a phrase that makes completely no sense.

16: 14/18 or 12/16

"Wah not here not there, can go where ah?"
"Try JC lah go poly for what"

17: SP

"Poly ah? Orhh.....hard to go local U ah" (discerning smirk, thinking poly kids go nowhere)

19/20: SIM UB

"SIM ah..."
in their heads "See la poly no use one. JC is the best. Go SIM use money buy paper only"

Every fucking shit you do, fuckers have shit to say about it.

But I don't fucking give a shit.

보여줄 께

reason to get free stuff

HOLA

16 days to my birthday

you can buy me:

20pks of blkmth
a hard disk - preferably 500gb - 1tb
clothes that are pretty (i lean towards blue, silver and black, lacking thin sweaters wearable in the singapore autumn, and shorts!)
anything that can keep me from eating
etude face color corset #5 tight shading corset (any amount - knock yourself out, its cheap and its my base powder, i need like 10 to match up to the amount of bb creams i have stocked up before i finish them and buy foundation that actually matches my shade)
toners that keep oily skintypes at bay (or any acne prevention items you might suggest)
books (i like to collect whole serieses(sp?) hehe)
a legit camera digital/polaroid (if you're feeling generous, you can combine it with my christmas present; be aware that i do not lug heavy things around due to my back/shoulder issues)
a nail package (any kind! i get so sexcited over nails)
a boyfriend

and you can help me hint my dad if you see him:
to buy me this
 http://www.ssense.com/women/product/alexander_wang/black_studded_diego_bucket_bag/59382
or
http://www.ssense.com/women/product/alexander_wang/brown_leopard_calf-hair_trigone_wallet/53838

again, if you're feeling generous, knock yourself out, the chips are down with my dad, and i'm practically in love with everything on that site.

THANK YOU, MUCH LOVE XX

giving

like the words i see in the sky,
they are cast into stone.

nothing fills me but thanks.
maybe the blood is worth a little more gold.
i always believed it was unbelievable, but the sun seems to show me so.

so broken down and stripped,
so torn, and so dry

i guess i really wasn't as big as i thought i was.

essayd

I honestly just had a good laugh at my URL.
LOL. Seriously? Any other soul even reading this? Hahahhahahhah
Oh and it even changed while I was away. .sg liao worrrrrr

This is actually the lowest point of my life.


Maybe we would all have been better off not growing up.


I thought I hiatus damn long hahhahah but it's been.. 7-8 weeks? Hmmmmmmmmmm

I never thought I'd...

leave my blog untouched for so long

come off as annoying to anyone (though I think I do, more often than I think I do, but why...? :/)

feel depressed about how I'm perceived as

actually not be able to save money (I had faith, now I'm not so sure...)

ACTUALLY TALK TO SOMEONE FIRST (conversation starting is my weakness, no joke)

be so motivated to lose weight (I thought I'd be able to find someone who loves me for me, but not so much now I guess...)

***

not that I now think I have to become another person, before people will like me more, rather that I need to throw away my fairytale inhibitions and stop thinking of that one guy who will ride to me on maybe a turquoise-haired horse (HAHAHAH TOP)..................

and I know it's been more than like a thousand times I've said I'm gonna work on my health,

(hold on, need to pee)

(ok back)

BUT I REALLY REALLY AM DOING something and am sticking to it

enough of the fat jokes, enough of the loser/ugly jokes, enough of the ridiculous lies and teasing, I'm sick of it all.


not that these are the main reasons, but because, I, myself, in general, dislike fatness.

Right, I mean, if I saw a model and a pluz size model, I obviously would look at the model more.
The hot one. Just cause. That's who I am.

And I know there are people who are okay with and like fat people, and I respect that, I don't disregard that at all, seeing most of these people are my friends hahahahha because they hang out with me... I think?

Ok la enough with the fat talk. I need to go exercise. HAHAHAHAHHAHAH

Oh and proud to say I am now an undergrad. Though I still have to hit 2.5 before I can advance to my major... Shit I need to start studying for real now. In. 2. Days.

Madness.

Sometimes I wish

my life was like those Disney channel sitcoms.

Funny funny funny life, small problems happen and in the end it's sorta solved and some funny idiotic thing happens again. And got cute angmoh boys.

No la I'd rather korean drama. HAHAHHHAHHA hot hot korean men <3

KOREAN DRAMA FORMAT:
Ep 1-2: Guy and girl meet, and hate each other.
Ep 3-5: Start to understand each other and something will happen for them to keep meeting.
End of Ep 6: Romantic happening.
Ep 7-9: Shyness and small problems keeping them apart.
Ep 10: Finally admitting they're into each other and happily being together.
Ep 11: Sometimes same as ^ or next few:
Ep 12-15: Big problem which keeps them apart
Ep 16: HAPPY ENDING!!

I want to fucking kill myself.
Fucking postman had to fuck up my order cos they sent my fucking litas to my fucking house and cock eye never see bell or what nobody answer the door, took it back WITH NO COLLECTION NOTICE.
How the fuck I know it came on 10 Jan?
YOU TELL ME HUH FUCK LA CBKNNANCNASCCCB

Everytime I see a pair of litas I wna kill somebody.

Shipping included everything cost me fucking SGD 230.

And it's no joke considering how broke I am now.
Stupid Singapore Post sent it back on 6 Feb, apparently, AND NOW ITS FUCKING 21 MARCH?!

And now it's fucking on sale, and those bitches at nastygal don't fucking wanna send me another pair and have been claiming that they haven't received the package.

I shall call the fucking USPS now.

CB im so FUCKING PISSED

I am 13 in one

Aww I might be coming back on Monday but it's the last official day.

Bye my little office and everyone here.

It has been a good time.

And it's going to be an even better time.

CHEERRRRRRRRRRS

beauty wishlist.

On a lighter note,

I need these in my life :/

lipstickssssssss

peroxide

lovechild

naked

liploveeeeeeee

drizzle

lipglosssssss

wallflower

eyeshadowsssss

uzi

haight

minx

goddess

grifter

N.A.K.E.D!

NAKED 2!

powders blah blah

and lashes/bronzer/blush blah blah blah lazy to post hahahahaha

and this freaking holy grail my hair really needs desperately:

some people, just cannot stop acting smart

People say RIP to a singer/someone famous they like, you got problem is it?

Obviously they say it because they've listened to their songs, been touched by them in one way or another, so do you have to be sarcastic about it?

Of course there are people dying everywhere, but really, who gives a fuck about people you don't know/can't see/whom you don't even know have been living?

You tell me, will you give a fuck? A dude just died in Africa of AIDS. I don't see you feeling sad for 5 days about it?

So, stop trying to be the smart aleck here and move on. It's okay I'll just remember not to post a tweet in your remembrance. Since sending regards to someone I care about/knew in someway seems to bother you...?

And another thing,
'wah all the Korean stars face the same one'

Seriously.

How do you think Caucasians see us?
"Asians all look the same."

I can't stand people stereotyping the Koreans stars. Don't like it, fuck off. Don't come and say "all go to THE SAME PLASTIC SURGEON AND ALL ASK FOR THE SAME FACE"

Firstly, they obviously don't all go to the same surgeon.

Secondly, you think all your Hollywood stars natural one ah?
(See Scarlett Johanssen, Lady Gaga, Kim Kardashian...)

Of course, some Korean stars have had drastic alterations but most, like any other loaded celebrity on the planet, go for cosmetic enhancements to improve their outlook.

They don't all have the same face. Stop fucking saying that. I'm not asking you to recognize and tell them apart. If you don't like it, then just fuck off. What drew me to them was their music in the first place. First Big Bang, then 2NE1. Both for their music, no visuals at all.

So the next time you're going to make a comment like that, think a little bit about why you're hearing/seeing K-Pop all around you.

I wish I had 3 million dollars

I would...
buy a $500,000 car,
a $500,000 house,
spend $1 million on clothes, bags, shoes, hair and makeup,
and $1 million to live on for the rest of my life.
Sounds like a plan?

Now where do I go to find $3 million?

*For the car and the house the amounts include maintenance, and for the shopping it won't be spent in one day.

officially saving up for a pair of these

And omg I love everything about this:


PAY PAY PAY WHERE DA FUCK IS MY PAYYYYYYYYYY

just 3 guys who can actually look hot in long hair

vocal








actor

rapper/bassist

orama

I love how red hair can look like so many different shades when under different lights...
I'm kind of tempted to dye it some other thing again, maybe its the time of the year and everyone wants to, but I just can't stand the condition of my scalp.

Its so flaky :'(

Black roots are coming out, I've been thinking to forever keep my hair this shade of brown, and just keep touching up the roots, but the scalp isn't holding up :/

Now I want to dye it a different colour but I don't want to touch the roots... Lol is that possible?

But I know if I just let it grow out, I won't be able to take it cos the process looks hideous and I'll just end up dying my roots, damaging my scalp further.

Then another option was to maybe dye the top half of my hair (avoiding my roots) so that it looks dip dyed on purpose, like black on top and the current brown below?

Think that's my best option so far, protecting my roots, not much maintainance needed, and I don't have to worry about my extensions when dyeing my hair blah blah blahhhh.

For now I guess I'll just let them roots grow out. To the point where I can't take it then I'll do the last and most feasible option.

It's like I talk about my hair way too much, but whatever man this is my blog hahahaha and it's just one of those things I can't stop being obsessed with. Like nail polish/art. And makeup. And how fat/ugly I am. And my never-ending wish list. And clothes. And pretty girls. And hot guys. And it goes on...