silidafay

Things here are... awkward.

Its pretty lax actually so good for me if you ask me!

HAHAHAHHAHA I wish internship was a real job.

Like I could do nonsense like what I'm doing now and get paid like $5000?

That'd be siiiiiicccccck.

HAHAHAHHHA.

People here are so nice! Got 2 presents already.

Not that I don't want to return the thought, but my pay wasn't docked in soon enough so I'm only getting it this Friday...

And basically those who give me gifts go on leave the next day, and after I get my pay on Friday, its our one week break!

HAHAHHAHAHHAHHA and after that it's the new year and all, we should let bygones be bygones right?

LOL.

Besides I have all my carts waiting to be checked out... Can't keep them waiting can I?

Blah. Everyone feels cold here and they shut the air vents -.- I'M WARM.

Ok but I'm not sweating so I'm not that irritated. Lol.

Argh can't wait for the Christmas holidays!!!

YAYAYAYAYAYIDAYAY!

And then the new year~~~

Then it's CNY. OHMYBAKWA.

-.-

I'm so fucked.
So much work to do.
Hope it goes well for today.

Ugh and haven't finished reading for my FTT.
Double fucked.

And now I have to revamp this whole computer cos my vaio's screen is fucked.
Fucked again.

So after this Sunday, this space will be locked till further notice.
If you have Blogger I can invite you :>

this that this that

sigh.
my mind+brain.
what is your problem.
craving for papaya soup.
why must you be so delish.
and everything with fries!
sigh omg and the carbonara at cine.
why so awez.

food food food.
my brain.

3 days since I moved my butt and exercised.
need to swim more!
feel so good after swimming because I don't sweat hehehehhe I wuv swimming!
even though I always cheat and stop like 3-5 meters before the end hahahhahahaha.

forever broke iz me.
why why why.
can't wait for internship to start.
pay is my only motivation.
hopefully I don't mess up :/

quite scareded.

okai bai..

now I haz gel mermaid nailz too^^

tears of gold

I thought someone would give a damn. I forgot there's only me in my world.

@someonewhocares thanks for your concern. My bag/laptop that I have to carry around annoyed me. My hair that was tugged on by my bag annoyed me. The heat annoyed me. My weight annoyed me. The fact that I left my new formal shoes at school annoyed me. My want to eat annoyed me. The constantly decreasing weight of my wallet annoyed me. Everything annoyed me today. That's why I was annoyed and thought I was going to be weird tomorrow.

But it got better once I got home and put everything down and took a bath.

So maybe I won't be so weird tomorrow.

Thought I won't bring an actual bag because it annoys me so much.
But I gots no llcoolj clutch to carry lehhhhhhhh.

Wish I had the ability to save some money.
My fucking brain.

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Thinking of YG's new group makes my heart go back and forth.
Weird hunch.

But anyways. Its too much of an obsession these days...
Gotta learn to let go...

I think I'll only be able to once I watch a full-blown 2NE1 concert and a full-blown Big Bang concert. Or maybe 2 YG Family concerts?

Only I won't be able to go to any of these unless they bring it to Singapore...

So I'll just continue stalking them online.
Imagine 70 years later... I'll be wrinkled and lonely, on my sad old computer with my sad old hard disk filled with pictures/videos of people who used me to earn money and don't give a damn about my life or death... I can only imagine...

fucking straightener

I don't know how many times I've explained this.

I really hate it when people say my skirt is too short.
Seriously.

BECAUSE, IT ISN'T.

I make sure the amount of exposure is decent enough for me to walk out of the house.

The reason why people think they're too short is because I have a short torso, and longer legs. And also fat legs. So the part just above my knees is like comparable to another average sized girl's upper thighs and people think my skirt is short. Also I have a big butt and it makes it worse down the back.

But, no matter how short it is, I definitely make sure it does not make me look like a slutty vamp.

I make sure that if I bend down and reach for something, I WILL NOT EXPOSE ANYTHING.

Umm, hello? Look around you? I'm not one of those ah lians who go around wearing shorts as tiny as their underwear or "cool" fashionable people who wear high waist shorts but when they turn around, BUTT CHEEK ALERT.


And other girls (who are considered to be dressed decently) wear shorter than me can.

Then again, you might think, "So since you know how your legs/body look and how short your skirt looks, why not stop wearing such short skirts/dresses?"

Reason is, I DON'T WANT LEHHHHHHHHH.

It's so fucking hot in Singapore, rain also not say cold lah please, at least for me, which is another thing due to the amount of fats in my body, so I cannot fucking survive in pants. And I'm past the leggings/stockings phase so unless I'm really inspired, I won't wear those either.

And the main reason is I don't fucking care about what you think and I won't alter my choice of clothing/fashion for anyone. Okay, maybe when I'm in the working world, rules are rules, I'm a nobody so my opinion doesn't weigh much. But as for now, I don't see why I should change what I want to wear because I'm obese. I know I am, I'm not saying I'm Barbie, I just want to wear what I want.

not in the mood to take a dump II

whymai so broke.
but its worth it.
the price i paid to be a mermaid.




cb lor all these waves cheat feeling one.
they are all actually fucking curly hair.
which actually look not bad if i use a diffuser with my hair dryer but one problem: my hair IS NOT FUCKING CURLY.
so it looks gross. like maggi mee. and disjointed amongst my hair.
so i have to use the hair dryer to blow it out, which makes it become a lump of frizz, then straighten my hair, and then add waves.
and don't even talk about the washing part.

upkeep is quite tedious.

but i still lovezzz it.

my mo forever adding oil to the fire.
i cant count the number of times i've ranted with an explosive amount of expletives here, and yes, all directed to her.
cb.
im already in such a bad state, and yes im quite the impulsive spender, but isn't that what teenage girls do?
no amount of clothes/accesories/shoes/bags will ever be enough.

haven't go out to work (as in a proper, full-time job) of course don't know the value of money lah.
i'm still a student, so yes, you have to pay for everything.

im fucking broke = im fucking pissed.

i dont even know if i can afford food tmr.

its ok i dont mind starving i hope it leads to anorexia and you will love me more.

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damn long alr lor. from just now 10 years alr. still talking shit about me to my dad. think i deaf ah. cb.. cbk3
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The greed. It comes and goes.









I wish someone real would just happen already-

etc

Not doing it because of her but I've wanted long long longggg hair for the longggggest time.


Can't wait to have hair like this^^^^ :):):):)

And I've decided after that I'm saving up for a pair of Litas. Can't live this life without owning at least one pair. All so pretty but which colour to buy?!?!?!??!

Always safe but they don't have my size :'(

So pretty but no size also!

On sale! Half price! And no more size :/

Cool but too blingggg? Maybe when I got too much money to spend.. Which is possibly never lol

A lil dull...

Must zoom to see the white glitter!! Pretty but hmmmmm


Like this a lot but on some sites the colour looks mint instead of turquoise so hmmmmm.... Probably will be my second pair if I bear to spend on it hahahah


^^^ FINAL DECISION!!! Too pretty and limited ed so.... yeap!!! The minute I can afford it, shipping and all, come to daddy~


and still...

very attached to the Thelma so maybe I'll get this before Turquoise Suede Litas hmmsies..

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Funny how I used to like some celebrities like HD, DL, JB(no not bieber) and LL (whom I still love!!) and I used to save whopping amounts of pictures of them and every single video of them hahaha but now it's all replaced by BB/21. HAHHAHHAHAHA. And also cos my hard disk crash luh. If not I'll still keep everyone. So depressing when you lose data. Think I'm gonna buy 2 more hard disks to have extra back ups.

Kthxbai
xoxo lonelygirl92

who are we to determine what's love and what's not

I don't know why, this song kept repeating in my head today:

COS I'M YOUR LADEHHHHHHH~~~~~ AND YOU'RE MY MAAAAAAA~AAAAAN~

HAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHA.

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WAH, MAMA, REALLY LAST WARNING.
Don't tell people who's coming how to buy ticket?!?!??!?!? Knnbccb.
Hope BB/21 doesn't come so I have nothing to worry about.
My r/s with my rents is like a thread right now so I can forget about asking them alr.
Sometimes I wish I was a sea turtle.
My mom would just abandon me before I'm born and I would fight for my life from the minute I was born. Don't mind getting eaten by seagulls or whales also.

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Oh ya hor forgot hiatus until I succeed. Well obviously this post isn't celebratory so no progress so far. I managed to get up early today but only to catch up on the Internet. Well that's a start isn't it?

In 4 weeks, I will become half my weight. It's do or die baby, do or die.

WAEEE

Why must Japanese music be so expensive?!?!?!?!?!

Why are Korean artists so mean to their fans?!??!?!

Even if we don't speak Japanese obviously we'd want to collect all their discography ://////

And even a SINGLE ALBUM which has like 2 songs costs over $20, SIAO RIGHT.

An album from Hollywood costs only like $17?!

And they must have 3 versions every time, and every version has something different, different content in the DVD, and in the CD version there'll be a different photobook. So obviously no choice but to buy all right?

Haven't even collected all of the Nolza album now Go Away single album is coming out.

In the future, please just have one version with all the goodies inside. Even though it's quite impossible and my opinion means nothing and they have been dying to go to Japan to use such tactics to earn $$$$$$$

not in the mood to take a dump

BAM RATATATATATATATAA~~~
Actly a lot of things have happened and I imagined myself blogging all of this hahhaha but never happened in real life.

I can't rly remember everything now so it'll be as I go...?

And now my mind kena blank.

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Tbh I don't like Tiff being a rapper...? She's so much better as a vocalist. Rapping is all over the place even though I love you. Leave the hip hop to YG, move over. HAHAHHAH

And then you'd think the rest of the album will be a whole new direction but then it's like their debut style all over again -.- It's like all the songs in the Japan album were so much better and would have been more suited with the title track....

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OMAIGAD. Hahahhaha on 18th Oct we had an 8am lesson. My fucked up body clock kept me awake till 3+ the night before, and we went to watch Midnight in Paris. Reviews were raving... "That movie was amazing" said Nick Jonas on Twitter but, when we watched it, for the first time in my life, I SLEPT IN A MOVIE.

I'm not kidding. Even in kids' movies or Sunshine Cleaning (which is actually worth a watch), I catch myself almost nodding off to sleep but wake myself up because I have a policy with myself never to miss a single scene in any movie/show I watch. Not a flinch. In recent times I have become less anal about it but in this movie, I seriously could not stay awake -.-

Then we had like 6 meals on that day???? HAHAHHAHAHHAHAHA. Madness.
Gorge like crazy.

And we took lotsa Instax. Now I know why people get annoyed when some say 'Polaroid' instead of Instax. BECAUSE THEY'RE A DIFFERENT BRAND. HAHAHAHHAHA all this while I thought they were same brand different model. I want a Polaroid camera though, HEHEHEHHE me likes big frames.

All thanks to @hjortu can't believe she used all her film on us!!!!! You are so awesome baby.
(In my mind, your username, is always "HORTJU". HAHHAHA but when I say it out I'll say zhorts la like cool only)

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I think I will not spend any more money on food. Which means I will not eat when I am out of the house and w/o my parents anymore.

I have nowhere to go in life if I continue like this.

I will save the money. Or spend it online. Preferably both.

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My dad says I can go to Korea to spend the rest of my life there so OKBARI, I'm going once I find a school to take me in. And it'll be even more eggciting if another papayasouplover joins me *eyebrow up down up down* kekkekekekekekekekekke

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I've been trying to wake up at 9am to drag myself out to go exercise but it has been unsuccessful so far. I don't know how many times I have set my alarms then some DJs start laughing on my radio clock thingy, my normal clock is like a ticking bomb, and Bom is singing until her throat is becoming sore repeating the same part over and over and then TOP is becoming thirsty rapping the same part over and over and my grandma comes in and repeats my name a few times and without myself knowing everything becomes quiet again and suddenly when I wake up, its 2.30pm. -.-

So, even though it's 3:22AM now, and my class is at 1pm, I will do the same thing again and make sure I get my ass up at 9am and make sure I'm running/jogging/maybe at least brisk walking? For an hour and then come back and lead a normal lifestyle, not like the usual me who just sleeps more than half a day away..

And if I succeed, there will be a celebratory post here. If I fail, hiatus until I succeed. LOL.

SORRY TO TORTURE U LIKE THIS LEMONTEARS, but I have noone else to talk to so hehehehe you get to eat all my shit :>

So I'm watching this (Korean) drama yes, another one, called Ripley and it's about a girl fucking two guys up by cheating on them and lying to them. IKR how to do both right but anyway it's television and she does it.

Actually what I learned from this is, yes I actually gained a lesson from it, though I usually try not to probe into the underlying meanings of shows, is that you know, when a girl gets fucked up and cheated on by a guy, people (BOTH GUYS AND GIRLS) will be like AWWWWW, don't worry, it's just a bad rut in your life, just forget him and you'll get over it..

BUT, if it's the other way around, meaning guy gets fucked up by girl, most people (BOTH GUYS AND GIRLS) will be like WADAFUCKERYCHILLICRAB IS THIS!!! YOU BETTER FUCK THAT BITCH UP BAD AND MAKE SURE SHE GETS WHAT SHE DID TO YOU. NO?

I'm thinking yes.
Think about it. If girls wear jeans and shirts everyday (even if they are not bi/homo and all) it's cool cos being a guy is cool. But if a guy dresses like a girl, people laugh, and think, "SIAO EH."
OMG I FEEL LIKE I'M IMPERSONATING MADONNA. Whom I actually have little or no love for.

So anywayz back to my main topic, you might think, "No what, girls also take revenge mah." Do they, do they really? If you're talking about exaggerated romantic comedies and music videos, -.-. Think again. Think reeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaal hard.

There's a reason to live afterall

OMAIBEESWAX TTLY THOUGHT ITP STARTS OCT 28 AND SCHOOL WAS ONLY FOR 2 WEEKS AND ITP WAS IN 2 WEEKS AND I WAS GONNA DIES.

If not for hellokittyloverxoxo91 I would have ttly thought that forrrealz.
I LIVE!!! FOR ANOTHER 6+ WEEKS!

Can't wait for 21/12/2012 still though.
Fucking excited. I hope we all get crazy earthquakes and it'll be like Transformers buildings falling blah blah but point is, WE ALL MUST DIE.

It wouldn't be fair if some people survived and they meet some alien form and get all the good stuff in the future. IF THEY SURVIVED, THE ALIENS BETTER MURDER THEM.

Calling Paul/ET now.

$570.50

EVERYWHERE IS SELLING THE SAME STUFF AND THEY'RE MOSTLY KNOCKOFFS AND WELL I DON'T MIND REALLY, I JUST WISH I COULD FUCKING FIT INTO THEM!!!!!! BESIDES MAKEUP, WHY DO MY FEET HAVE TO BE SO BIG????????? FUCK.

BRB STABBING MY FEET TO MAKE THEM SMALLER.

BUT ANYWAY IT'S NOT LIKE I HAVE THE ABILITY TO AFFORD EVERYTHING IN MY WISHLISTS/CARTS I'VE ADDED TO... COME TO THINK OF IT BUY ALR WEAR TO WHERE AH? IT'S NOT LIKE I HAVE 10,000 FRIENDS WHO ARE ASKING ME OUT EVERYDAY IN FACT NOBODY REALLY WANTS TO MEET ME....................................... NOT IMPLYING ANYTHING TO ANYONE READING THIS I'M JUST BORED AND LONELY

BRB THINKING OF WHERE TO GET $570.50 BY FRIDAY TO BUY ALL ZE THINGS ME WANTS.

PS: SO IF U LOVE ME AND HAVEN'T BOUGHT ANYTHING FOR MY BIRTHDAY AND ARE WILLING TO SPEND $20-$30 WHICH OF COURSE I WILL RETURN THE THOUGHT OF DURING YOUR BIRTHDAY BUT YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT TO BUY FOR ME PLS LET ME KNOW!!! (AND I WON'T EXPECT X'MAS PRESENTS EITHER TEEHEE)

what happened and where I was during my absence of which nobody really felt

I just counted and I bought 20 bottles of nail polish back from Korea.
and 58 items of makeup+skincare and all. (And another 19 for my friends) (But some makeup is for stocking up, like cleansing wipes, bases, BB creams and mascaras and so on, those I'll always need~~)

BAHAHAHHAHA MACHIAM OPEN SHOP.

I think the phrase people always used to say when they saw my collection of nail polishes "walao eh you can open manicure salon already" is more justifiable now with the new additions.

Walao but I got cheated for 3 bottles lor.
Its this brand, created in Korea, called Nfu Oh and they have this special kind called flakies, and I read from a previous personal account that they sell it cheaper in the headquarters, around 10usd and more expensive in other stores who bring in the polish.
But simisai, when I went to the headquarters, it cost me $36?!?!??! USD?!??!?!
But I still bought one holographic one, they didn't have the flakies colour I wanted.
Then when I went to an outside store, I saw the flakies I wanted and it was selling for $17?!??!?!?!? USD?!?!?!! KANASAI HALF THE PRICE CAN.
So I bought 2, though there was one more colour I reaaally wanted but they also didn't have and anyway last chance already, my mother also contemplating to send me to Woodbridge/Buangkok because of my obsession with nail polishes.

AND THE HEADQUARTERS BLOODY HARD TO FIND CAN.
Everywhere in Korea is super hard to find. Walk until die.
Every street/alley looks exactly the same, has the same 7Eleven/GS25, find until die really.
You'll die if you can't speak basic Korean and ask for directions.
Sorry ah my family like to act one smart every holiday free and easy.

And the subway, in Singapore its the norm to find escalators, and actually rare to find stairs if you think about it, the amount of escalators : stairs is like 4:1 or maybe 5:1, but in Korea its the exact opposite. They almost have no escalators, everything is stairs, and if you think transferring from NEL to EWL at Outram is troublesome because of the walking, think AGAIN.... my feet are still traumatised...

They do have elevators(aka lifts here in SG, UK, and the list goes on...) but they're for the handicapped/elderly/pregnant people and so on, but my mum and I are shameless (no I won't say Singaporeans, or the more specific phrase I hate: typical Singaporeans) so we took the lifts anyway :P
Walao feet all blisters already leh.

Which led me to think, what are escalators in Chinese? 电梯? And what are elevators/lifts in Chinese? 电梯?
Which led me to a big fat HUH????

And then the part about my feet led me to think, WHY THE FUCK KOREAN GIRLS' FEET SO SMALL??????
Their shoes are sooooooooo fucking pretty but I only managed to get a few so-so sandals because my feet are big as fuck.
Their biggest size is a 38(250), (which I have been thinking is a 40, no wonder those shoes from Zipia hurt :/ ) and my size is a UK 7, US9.5, EU40-40.5???
NABEI. All so pretty but I cannot buy :'(

Please don't ask me "Got see BB/21 a not?" Not even in the mood to spell their names out in full, because of my dad and his secretary's one-sided or double one-sided decision making, without asking the people who are actually traveling if their schedule is full, anyhow go and book ticket without my knowledge and caused me to miss F1 GDTOPRI, and not even see a single soul waiting in the (relatively) cold outside YG, because well, 21 WAS IN JAPAN ENTERTAINING FANS THERE. UGHHHHHHHHHHHHH :'(

What was worse was that we thought it was a 5 day trip, and then when we checked the tickets the night before the flight it was only 4 days -.-
Then my mom flared up and slept with me. Quite funny. Hahahha she thought I was asleep but I was sniggering next to her...
Then my dad changed our flight to Sunday night instead and it got extended to a whole week!
So I'm supposed to be an excited girl but actually, for what ah, GTOPRI AND 21 also not back yet-.- But I guess it was worth for the amount of shopping we got to do. Although changing the ticket meant paying more -.- it was some offer ticket so SIA rules blah blah eee why I keep using -.- HAHAHHAHA

ALL WE DID WAS SHOP. NON STOP SHOPPING FOR 7 DAYS.
We didn't even eat much. Only exciting eating place was Se7en's Yeolbong and I took pictures with pictures of YG singers -.- and the fake cardboard Se7en. Hahaha didn't even go to a Korean sauna cos we couldn't find one.
Only tourist-y place we went was Namsan tower. And ogle at all the locks/couples in love and be sad.

Amount of clothes probably more than 10 and shoes like 5 pairs?

Oh but I did see singer 'Z' while walking at Itaewon heheh mysterious much.

Die liao keep speaking in Korean to my grandma.
After like these few years of ignoring her or giving her one word replies I'm forgetting all my Tamil.
Hahahhaah and Korean just comes out of my mouth *NOT ON PURPOSE!!*
But she seems to understand me...
I keep saying aniya (no) instead of e-leh in Tamil lol
In my head is :"Why are you so sensitive? Because of small noises you keep waking up!!"
and when I try to say that to her: "Wae jakku irona? Keunyang saljjak soriramyeon neon irona!!"
*Realises that was Korean* *Grandma's face like YOU GONG SIMISAI?!*
"Ani ani keu (still Korean LOL) - Ye tiripi tiripi yendringeh? Sooma sineu sineu satteo la yendringeh!!"

Hahahha and I only know this now. Just now when I was thinking of how to say it in Tamil my mind was just blank and I gave up and came back to my room....


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SOooooooooooo, birthday in about two weeks peeps! Any peeps out there?
*cricket sound*
Lol nobody reads I know. HAHAHAHHAHA

SOMEONE PLEASE BUY ME ALL THE CROCHET-Y LACEY STUFF AND SILVERY/METALLIC SWEATERS!!!

Even though its impossible to survive in knits here in Singapore :/

I bought like 3 from Korea already but I WANT MORE, MORE I SAY!!!
And this godly pair of shoes.......
http://www.shopnastygal.com/products/Thelma-Platform-Wedge.html
THEY ARE MAGIC.
No matter how much I can't walk in them or pain they will give me, I will tolerate it because they are too pretty!!!

P.S. my size is 9.5 hehehhe

I don't know why, I kind of knew myself to be not much of an animal-print, polka-dots, lacey/crochet kinda girl but I've recently gotten 1 or 2 animal print items, still strictly no polka-dots though, and all things lacey and crochet appeal to me like mad!!

Sigh, remind me again why I have such big feet and why Korean shoes are so small. WHY!!

P.S. no pictures hahahha they are all selcas in my hotel room LOLZZZZ unless you wanna see pictures of the YG building -.- or the Namsan Tower both of which you can Google and easily obtain better views of rather than the lousy pictures I took....

anybody knows any loanshark's number? me wants to spend $2000 overseas but me haz no monz as usualz...

CRAVING DESPERATELY.
NEVER HAD A STRONGER CRAVE IN MY LIFE.
AND I KNOW THIS WON'T BE SATISFIED.
I NEED LIKE A, A CHEESECAKE WITH RASPBERRY SAUCE ON IT, NOT TOO MUCH, ONLY NOT SO MUCH OF A CAKE, SOMETHING TOUGHER, LIKE A, BAR OF SOME SORT??? MEANING LIKE BROWNIE BUT RASPBERRY CHEESECAKE FLAVOURED. SKADOOSH??

I NEED IT. PRONTO. BUT ITS FUCKING 3 AM.
NO WAY I'M GETTING IT:/

SO INSTEAD I'M GOING TO PONDER ABOUT HOW SKINNY FEELS.
BECAUSE NOTHING TASTES BETTER THAN SKINNY..............................................

I wish I wish,

Remember that show, what was that land???

Far far away? Where the little boy and his sister would go into some other world where there are dinosaurs??

Anyway -.-

I wish I had many moneys.

Then I could go see GD&TOP more times this year......... :'(

Before I'm bound down by my internship.

KMW KL Sept 24th but me haz no monz. Howz.

Scareded to ask the 'rents again because the other time it already cost them $321???

And I said I "would return" but I obviously haven't till now. HAHAHAHHAHA.

And then there's KPN again on Oct 15th.

Should I go to one or both??

Then there's F1 which amazingly costs only $38 for which I have already bought my tix.

But.... but THE OTHER TWO!!!

And I'm not even sure if they're coming on Oct 15th...

Maybe they are and maybe 2NE1 will come too!!

So I shouldn't go to the KL one right???

Though I really want to................. *curls up in a ball and cries*

When I'm troubling over these things, I start to wonder again, am I stupid for being a fan?

Just wasting my life/money away, who else does this??

Then again nothing else really is happening in my life so...

I DA NAAAAAAAAAAAA~~~~~~~~~

Aiyah I just need $500 please just drop down from the sky and into my hands tomorrow.

And another $1000 if you can spare for me to do some shopping. TYVM.

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UPDATE:

Thinking about it. OF COURSE DON'T GO THE KL ONE LA. SIAO OR WHAT.

HAHAHAHAH COS the F1 one is on 23rd Sept, and obviously I can't go to KL overnight right, heck I don't even know if I could go to KL..

And even if miraculously I could, and my dad drives, even if I could wake up in the morning and let's say we leave at 9am, we would reach at.... 1pm???

But what if by that time the M'sian fans already queued overnight??

I don't wanna pay $230+ to stand behind!!

And anyway don't even know if my dad is free to drive me there -.-

Highly unlikely that he would even allow me to go and drive me there either. Siao ah.

So now I pray that both BB and 21 will come to SINGAPORE on Oct 15th. Yes baby. By that time my body will be ready.

HAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHIAKHIAK

i say so what

the hot 90210 guy (Y)



really brings me back.
hahaha and not the best voice but i kinda like her whole album..

i wonder if i'll ever get to feel this way, because right now all I feel is alone--------

Just for laughs

Non-K Pop fans, this won't be torturous.
HahahaAHAHHAHAHAa.

So basically, there were a few articles of Rain, yes, Rain, floating around and I kind of got reminded he was the first K Pop star I ever went crazy over.
Not too much though, just that one drama (Fullhouse), the album in 2007, or was it 2006? And yeah it basically ended there...

So anyway honestly, instead of being reminded of his attractiveness, what popped up in my mind was this picture:

And I remember when Stepho and I saw it and just burst out laughing non-stop..
HHAHAHHAHAHAH SERIOUSLY?!??!!
And I remember saying, "Yalah they damn bad go and use his old photo HAHAHHAHAHA"

Then out of curiosity, I went to Google it earlier. And I got this:

And it WASN'T and old picture.
It was in fact, a very current picture, the article with this picture came out around January this year and this photo was from his CONCERT on new year's eve, 2010. LOLRELLAZZXZX.
SO THERE'S MORE??

Just to start off with a cool picture...

And if you haven't figured, yes the next few photos (and basically this whole post) are solely for your entertainment. I personally can't keep my laughter in even after this long, like you know even after saving, and viewing, and uploading the photos omg HAHHAHAHAHAHAH
It's even funnier when he smiles idk why...BAHAHAHHAHAHAHA


I really have to quote one blogger here: "Rain, I just want you to know, that ramen should be in a bowl and on your dining table not on the top of your head, you have a really cute smile"




HAHAHHAHHA seriously, its really funny when he smiles and this last outfit^ seriously??? But I think it was meant to be funny. All his facial expressions are the cherry on top of the humour here....

He even likes it actually... "HAI HERE IS MY POODLE HAIRRRR"

I'm quite amazed though even after wearing a cap, (and yes the pictures are chronological here)

The poof... STAYS!!! STAYING POWER HAIYA~~

Even after wearing a cap, IN THE RAIN, (tell me about it the irony, Rain in the rain)...

The poodle hair... STAYS!! That's money well spent there, I would say. Who knew a perm could be so powerful?

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So yes yes, ladida I may have been lagged because this hair was what, 8 months ago??
But just like its staying power, IT'S STILL BLOODY FUNNY HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA..

Ok la but still must justify why I even liked him, uneven eyes and all, before right??

He can be quite cute at times...

And cool too~~ Heheheh especially in dramas, so if you're a no-lifer like me you should check out Fullhouse or Fugitive. (Well yes, he's originally a singer but he was originally originally a dancer, know what I mean, like born to dance and then trained to sing? I have to admit his vocals have improved since the start but still not my type, sorreh...)
HEHEHEHE. So yupp, I basically appreciate him for his acting. (UM, but English CMI so his English movies so-so nia)
A great performer though. I bet his concert was awesome though(I know because I went to one in Singapore in 2007 HEHHE MUST SHOW OFF), poodle hair and all....

Yeah sorry for the brackets, I have too many voices in my head, might even turn into schizophrenia, hope you had a good laugh bye everybody!

camera on beauty mode

my friend and me the giant

Let me just shamelessly self-indulge for a bit

Honest fo shizzles feel like shiz w/o mu. Like today.

I like to engage in such activities when I have nowhere to go. For e.g. when in my PJs^

Fuck pretty girls.

After seriously trying out what some people say I "can" do, and what I wish I could do, and what I really want to do, I'm pathetic. I suck and I can't do it at all. Seriously.

So after this reality check I'm supposed to rethink my life and live it properly, let go of my insanity and obsession and waste lesser time on the internet but I know that a lot of parts in me don't want to do that.

I need a reason. for life. I honestly don't know what to do or believe in anymore.
School's pathetic, my life out of school is hopeless and I really don't see anything moving on but time.

I honestly want 2012 to happen. Pleeeeeaaase happen. And if afterlife doesn't exist I probably will try to kill myself in a matter of time.

You know, after blaming the world of materialism I find that I'm the epitome of materialism. Well not really after, but I've just always been like that.

Truly envy those who can move, have showmanship and people with outgoing personalities!! I used to think those people e.g those we see on tv are nothing much and all but they are really talented people! And I only realise that now. Hmmmmmmmmmmmm

PS thanks to the two people who left me such pretty messages on fs!! I do believe I know you both in real life so tell me when you see me so I can believe you!! HAhahahahhahah

PPS but if you're an old friend or a stranger, I thank you sincerely too <3

this world is fucked and nothing is fair
i dont believe in afterlife
i want to vanish
all those who are so in love with this bastard of a world can go ahead and take my organs, my 'privileges' as a human and continue living to find out how wretched this piece of shit we call home is
this materialistic, superficial, racist and biased world i wish to burn






not even my flesh and blood will ever understand me

is it so wrong to love eating and being lazy?



















sometimes I really wish the whole world was blind

its been a while.
lol is this some britney song

SOMETIMES I RUN, SOMETIMES I HIDE, SOMETIMES I SCARED OF YOU,
BUT ALL REALLY WANT IS TO HOLD YOU TIGHT, TREAT YOU RIGHT,
BE WITH YOU DAY AND NIGHT, ALL I REALLY NEED IS TIME~~~~~~

HAHAHAHHHA OH HOT DAMN DIS IS MY JAM

I bought my mariel~~~ and now I want my janissss

makes me look lika tranny
i want to shrink my bones srzly

MAAAAAA BOYYYYY OH MAAA BOYYYYY BABY

lol i thought this was kind of funny
i have nothing to say about the colour edit, i admit it does improve the overall quality of the picture,
but her arms and legs, were the curves really needed to be cut off?
ohhhhhhhhhhh~ our society and its warped inhibitions;

everyone please just go to best denki and buy whatever you need. please. just whatever your tv your apple whatever shit you need you should go there and not anywhere else just go please go just go go go PLLLLLLLEAEASE GOOOOOOOO

IF YOU HAVENT ALREADY...

YOU MUST WATCH/LISTEN TO THIS!!!

I'm so addicted to the piano riff intro, the pre-chorus and the bridge. And to listen to those parts I also need to go through the whole song. I simply can't tear myself away from it.. it's been on repeat since I got my mouse on it. PARK BOM FOREVAAA!!! 2NE1 FOREVAAAAA <3

and also...

I just love her, love love love her.

feeling sick from the insides of my stomach.
have i been doing it the wrong way all this time?
its right now that i wish everything ceased to exist, more than ever.

this is not the way its supposed to feel.

ailernd.

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push my.. wow ok I did it hahahha to push my redundant and stupid posts down.

seriously this is garbage. this whole thing. lol.
but somehow I just can't go on a hiatus longer than this.
i might have but the time span wouldn't have been much more than this.
i can't seem to type proper anymore. or rather bother to.
it's all about the images now. hahahaha and videos. lol and animations/gifs.
though i haven't really been on tumblr much either.

you know, at the start of every school holiday, you think to yourself, or rather I, think to myself, wow, what a long period of time. I'm going to spend my time doing dadada and blah blah blah and yada yada yada yet I NEVER DO ANYTHING EXCITING. sure, somehow I'll be able to actually do some of the boring stuff I 'planned' but there's seriously so much more things and so much more time to do things but I never do anything productive. it doesn't need to be productive, but I don't even feel like I'm enjoying myself? honestly I like school. I hate the work and the studying part of course. because, not only is it a great way to spend time between the weekends, it's also the only way I get to see more than 5 people in one place, forced to get along with each other, genuine or fake. and you know, i've given up on everything real. that one true best friend, or more, or one true love, or my dreams materializing. because it fucking won't. and some may have noticed it a long time ago, i'm slowly but surely sinking into the depths of my fantasies. and i don't wanna be pulled out. ever. even something as real as me, or someone dying, won't be able to get me out of it. so here i am, alone. as always. alone. as always. and forever.

seriously hope the world ends next year. seriously. singapore should have an earthquake. or we could become atlantis. fucking cool. llcoolj.

which nineteen year old has to spend every weekend BOTH SATURDAY AND SUNDAY with their parents. which nineteen year old is expected home EVERY FUCKING DAY BY 12MN. which nineteen year old does not get allowance during holidays.

many, i suppose. but there are fucking more who dont need to fulfil any of those, especially the first fucking two.

who made me like this. if you were going to let me see the peaks of the mountain and then throw me down then WHY THE FUCK BRING ME UP?

I hate this. I fucking hate it.

sorry. angst. as always. as always.

sometimes i wish i weren't human. i hate our hunger for perfection, and our undying thirst for greed. if nothing is perfect, i want to become nothing.

so as to

redundant posts

post

try to

going to

I am

FORE HEAD

...and just a pretty picture

...of all of them

I hate my own. bloody. forehead.

Ok I fucking need to study.
Someone hit me in the head please.