27 February 2013
So here comes another update to breathe some life into this blog. University life isn't getting any less hectic. I suppose I could probably invest more time into this space, but I have not seemed to have had the any compelling impulse recently to do deep reflecting. The only reason why I am even here is because I cannot get to sleep.
Anyhow, a week before Chinese New Year, I trimmed and dyed my hair to a golden brown. It was fun to see how people reacted. Parents were not too pleased at first, but like everything else, they got used to it.
I am enjoying my recess week now. At least, I have been - the past few days of respite did wonders to my mood and disposition in general. I do not think I will have the luxury to sloth around in the following days. Mid-terms are next week and I need to catch up on the syllabus.
My buddy is currently chasing a girl right now. He is evergreen. From what I feel, I would say that he is not really sure if she is the one for him or not. But I am not here to judge. Even if things do not work out, he will benefit from the experience. As I did.
Sometimes I still imagine that we could have worked things out, and lasted forever. But things have come so far now, I guess it will never be the same. I still keep the ring in my wallet, even though my sister gives me a look of utter disbelief when she sees it. I tell her that the ring is a reminder of past troubles - of the things that I could have done better, of how complicated relationships could become.
I also ask myself why I still keep it. It is not as if I still have the remotest chance of getting back together. No, she has long moved on. Have I?
Quick check. Given the opportunity, do you want to be back together with her? Hm, I really am not so sure. I have not talked to her in so long. Maybe she has changed? Is she still the same person? Is my impression of her true?
I think I know what I am feeling. A tinge of wishful thinking, for the girl that I had once known, but now is no longer. She is dead to me, and by god, I am definitely dead to her too. And now, she remains as an unblemished angel in my memory.
So what does this ring mean to me?
A memento. A lesson. A part of who I am.
Anyway, there is this girl in school now. A plain Jane, but very down-to-earth and homely.
God damn it, what do you think you are doing? You are in the university to study, not to look for prospective girlfriends.
Right, right. Study first. Plus I am already occupied with so many extra curricular activities. I must be out of my mind to want to juggle a relationship as well. Maybe, maybe. I will let fate do her work while I enjoy the time I have here.
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27 February 2013
So here comes another update to breathe some life into this blog. University life isn't getting any less hectic. I suppose I could probably invest more time into this space, but I have not seemed to have had the any compelling impulse recently to do deep reflecting. The only reason why I am even here is because I cannot get to sleep.
Anyhow, a week before Chinese New Year, I trimmed and dyed my hair to a golden brown. It was fun to see how people reacted. Parents were not too pleased at first, but like everything else, they got used to it.
I am enjoying my recess week now. At least, I have been - the past few days of respite did wonders to my mood and disposition in general. I do not think I will have the luxury to sloth around in the following days. Mid-terms are next week and I need to catch up on the syllabus.
My buddy is currently chasing a girl right now. He is evergreen. From what I feel, I would say that he is not really sure if she is the one for him or not. But I am not here to judge. Even if things do not work out, he will benefit from the experience. As I did.
Sometimes I still imagine that we could have worked things out, and lasted forever. But things have come so far now, I guess it will never be the same. I still keep the ring in my wallet, even though my sister gives me a look of utter disbelief when she sees it. I tell her that the ring is a reminder of past troubles - of the things that I could have done better, of how complicated relationships could become.
I also ask myself why I still keep it. It is not as if I still have the remotest chance of getting back together. No, she has long moved on. Have I?
Quick check. Given the opportunity, do you want to be back together with her? Hm, I really am not so sure. I have not talked to her in so long. Maybe she has changed? Is she still the same person? Is my impression of her true?
I think I know what I am feeling. A tinge of wishful thinking, for the girl that I had once known, but now is no longer. She is dead to me, and by god, I am definitely dead to her too. And now, she remains as an unblemished angel in my memory.
So what does this ring mean to me?
A memento. A lesson. A part of who I am.
Anyway, there is this girl in school now. A plain Jane, but very down-to-earth and homely.
God damn it, what do you think you are doing? You are in the university to study, not to look for prospective girlfriends.
Right, right. Study first. Plus I am already occupied with so many extra curricular activities. I must be out of my mind to want to juggle a relationship as well. Maybe, maybe. I will let fate do her work while I enjoy the time I have here.
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