27 January 2010
I have completed the Thailand leg of my trip, and am now in Vietnam.Homesick. Yes.
24 January 2010
When I met a sailor on the bus to Patong beach, his occupation seemed to be so ridiculously appealing to me.A simple bunk and living quarters. Routine schedule. Days on end of open sea. Will definitely have time for myself.
Oh well.
17 January 2010
I am off to Thailand now.
16 January 2010
In asking myself whether I will ever become permanently emotionally attached, I wonder what made me the way I am. Do I think to much? Is it a stoic influence brought about by a fatalist view of the world? Why can I just get up and walk away from a relationship that I would otherwise treasure tenderly?Should I walk back and sit back down? I do not know. I am left only with my indecisiveness. And so I let my indecision decide for me. Every breath of inaction I take stirs a breeze to drift us apart.
I really am sorry for the tears and heartache. I never meant for things to turn out this way.
Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road
Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go
So make the best of this test, and don't ask why
It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time
What if you were the love of my life?
14 January 2010
At least now I know why people drown themselves in work.
09 January 2010
‘Who are you?’ he said.‘I am the Happy Prince.’
‘Why are you weeping then?’ asked the Swallow; ‘you have quite drenched me.’
"When I was alive and had a human heart," answered the statue, "I did not know what tears were, for I lived in the palace of Sans-Souci, where sorrow is not allowed to enter. In the daytime I played with my companions in the garden, and in the evening I led the dance in the Great Hall. Round the garden ran a very lofty wall, but I never cared to ask what lay beyond it, everything about me was so beautiful. My courtiers called me the Happy Prince, and happy indeed I was, if pleasure be happiness. So I lived, and so I died. And now that I am dead they have set me up here so high that I can see all the ugliness and all the misery of my city, and though my heart is made of lead yet I cannot choose but weep."
~The Happy Prince by Oscar Wilde
If you have the time, you should read the full story.
How much are you willing to give so as to bring joy into the life of another person? The Happy Prince gave all of himself. The Swallow gave up its life. Their hearts were filled with goodness, yet no good worldly end came to either of them. Why did they do what they did? They did not love the ugliness and misery of the world. They wanted to make the world a happier place. They acted. They did not wait for others to ask for help. They did not assume that another person would be the good Samaritan. They put their feelings into action.
Maybe, if you sense some one in need yet lapse into inaction, you do not really wish with your heart and soul to spread joy throughout the world. Has personal convenience or bias overcome the prerogative to bring a smile to the other?
Maybe you believe that ugliness and misery is inevitable, and that trying to alleviate the pain remains a futile and worthless cause. However, if you believe that every bit of love given counts, then never hesitate, never hold back. The actions of a person should always be an extension of the principles held.
While I believe that ugliness and misery will always exist, I also believe that my friends happiness are left in my charge. And I will try my utmost best to improve the lives of the people in my life.
You must be the change you wish to see in the world.
~Mahatma Ghandi