30 January 2007
S loth .L ethargy .
A pathy .
M oodiness .
I feel all whacked up .
Misty tales and poems lost
All the bliss and beauty
Will be gone
Will my weary soul find release for a while
At the moment of Death I will smile
It`s the triumph of shame and disease
Iliad
Raise my hands and praise the day
Break the spell show me the way
In decay
The flame of Troy will shine bright
When I grow up should I have children ?
When I grow up should I be a teacher ?
When I grow up should I live in a one-room flat ?
27 January 2007
Is that what it feels to be depressed .If I could be at the top of Mount Kinabalu again .
Just lie on a rock face .
Enjoy my life .
Not here .
Somehow ,
Not here .
24 January 2007
Well mum is right .Watch your thoughts ,
for they become words .
Choose your words ,
for they become actions .
Understand your actions ,
for they become habits .
Study your habits ,
for they will become your character .
Develop your character ,
for it will becomes your destiny .
Can`t go shooting off again ,
Like I did today on the way back to school .
Just a point to make to myself .
Nothing to fret about .
I took a walk around the world to
Ease my troubled mind
I left my body laying somewhere
In the sands of time
23 January 2007
I think I`m kind of hopeless at this game .Rain down on me
Rain down on me
Here in Your presence I am free
Pour down like rain
Come and touch me again
Lord let Your presence fall on me
I think I`m going to change blogskin .
22 January 2007
Wake up alarm .0600h .
What`s my phone doing at the foot of my bed ?
Luckily it didn`t fall off .
...
Mum comes into room .
"Jon wake up it`s 6.40 already ."
Guess I took a short nap .
Bi-weekly today .
Surprisingly I finished with 5 minutes to spare .
I checked my work and changed some .
Cross my fingers and hope I`ll pass this time .
Chemistry .
Spent the whole period being lectured by him .
Quote Wesley : My textbook got thrown on the floor .
I look at my own textbook .
It`s my brother`s one .
My brother was taught by him .
It`s frayed at the edges .
Not much else happened today .
Did two stupid things .
One was kick a chair and hurt my leg .
Another was to stop a swing ,
Ended up falling off my own .
Face down .
Nothing much today .
Just lots of homework .
21 January 2007
Hey hey hey !Went to Christ The King Church today for mass .
Before that ,
I woke up at 6 to play with Elian one game .
One nice game .
Cathechism class up next .
Post-confirmation class .
Old faces , new venue .
We walked to Farrer Court ,
Went to the basketball court there .
We played some game I played in Prefects` camp before .
I guess it does has SOME use after all .
Basically my group finished the fastest .
Followed up with a blindfolded-dodgeball sort of game .
The sun crawls across the sky and finally it`s over .
Gathered for debrief .
I`ve done debrief so many times myself ,
I`m think that their debrief was a little lame .
I`m also feeling guilty for that .
1130h mass at Christ the King .
Was late , and there were no seats .
So I stood .
I`ve so got to tell you ,
Standing for about 1hour ,
After a 10++km walk the day before ,
Well , that`s not very comfortable .
The sermon was very interesting .
Very long .
I think it`s meaningful ,
Pass on the weird accent .
Punch line :
Live your life for God .
People come and go ,
People pass our way .
But God is always there .
So much for Ms Goh`s summary lessons .
Went to Guild House for lunch .
Portions were small .
Reminded me of an advert :
A big silver platter , the cover is lifted .
A teeny weeny piece of steak .
I was late , again , for tuition .
They were doing some speech thing .
For recieving prizes .
We all had to go up and talk .
MAN I WAS NERVOUS LA .
Obstacle overcome ...
I think .
Got it over and done with .
Home coming .
Played dota with Bryan till dinner .
Now it`s going to be 2000h .
Time to get going .
Big Heart
13 January 2007
Just came back from Orientation Camp 2 .Ah well .
What I learnt ,
Focus .
The camp`s focus was the Secondary Ones .
I should never lose sight of that mission .
Same goes for NCC .
Never lose sight of my vision .
Don`t allow myself to be blinded or muddled .
Putting that aside ,
10 fast facts of a SJI Orientation Camp .
(From a PSFs point of view)
1. Basic fundamentals: Serve , serve and serve
2. Sleeping is not a neccessity , it is a privilege
3. When playing cards , try not to be the asshole .
4. The Prefects room can be messed up easily .
5. Briefing is always important . Especially for showers .
6. Getting the Sec 1s to strip is no easy feat .
7. Getting the PSFs to strip is chicken feed .
8. When in doubt , act otherwise .
9. Happy hour is really gay with music and slacking .
10. Showers is always a brand new experience each time .
Please note that we are straight normal fun loving boys .
Sometimes I actually believe ,
I can overlook and overcome ,
Any faults or differences ,
Through my eyes of that I percieve ,
Wholeness with respect to all and one ,
And live peacefully without grievances .
Something tells me this is not the day .
09 January 2007
Heather Alexander - March of CambreadthAxes flash , broadswords swing
Shining armors` piercing ring
Horses run with polished shield
Fight those bastards `til they yield
Midnight mare , blood red roan
Fight to keep this land your own
Sound the horn and call the cry
How many of them can we make die ?
Follow orders as you`re told
Make their yellow blood run cold
Fight until you die or drop
A force like ours is hard to stop
Close your mind to stress and pain
Fight `til you`re no longer sane
Let not one damn cur pass by
How many of them can we make die ?
Guard your women and children well
Send these bastards back to Hell
We`ll teach them the ways of war
And they won`t come here anymore
Use your shield and use your head
Fight `til everyone is dead
Raise the flag up to the sky
How many of them can we make die ?
Dawn has broke , the time has come
Move your feet to the marching drum
We`ll win the war and pay the toll
Fight as one in heart and soul
Midnight mare and blood red roan
Fight to keep this land your own
Sound the horn and call the cry
How many of them can we make die ?
Axes flash , broadswords swing
Shining armors` piercing ring
Horses run with polished shield
Fight those bastards `til they yield
Midnight mare and blood red roan
Fight to keep this land your own
Sound the horn and call the cry
How many of them can we make die ?
How many of them can we make die ?
How many of them can we make die ?
But is life so simple anymore ?
Not just swords or axes or fighting .
Life is so damned complicated .
People , more so .
Myself , most so .
God , incomprehensible .
What a winding road it is to my shangri la .
When I can see a circle road filled with ,
mainly just all the people in the world .
I think I`m going to write about this when I have the time .
06 January 2007
Thursday .Second day of school .
Also the beginning of Orientation Camp preparation .
School ends at 1410h .
Technically , that is .
Chinese teacher has set the gears in her master plan moving .
The plan to improve our Chinese .
O levels . FTW .
Five of us stayed back to talk about a topic .
Oral topic .
The rest would do on other days .
After that Eugene and I went to see Mr Goh .
Discussed the Training plans for the year .
Left about 1630h .
Came back at 1800h .
Waited in the LT1 for quite awhile .
Left for Toa Payoh for dinner .
Food court !
Desert was Swensen`s .
Teachers treat .
Ahh . Life is good .
Went back and did a rundown on the program .
A lot of hiccups ,
But well ,
We went to bed smoothing most things out .
Woke up freezing .
Even more freezing was the showers .
Morning water sure makes the day so much cooler .
I`m pretty shagged ,
So I`ll just home in on the interesting parts .
I "left" camp to have training .
Apparently some wise Part Cs thought that ,
Since I was a PSF , I wouldn`t be free .
So they assumed that they could skip training too .
Pleased with the Part Bs .
Only 3 missing .
One was sick ,
Other two missing since day one ,
I think . So I heard .
Lizard crawl is FUN !
But really ghey .
Just to adjust my specs ,
My arms felt tired already .
Bath time !!!
Shower IC is one of the more interesting duties .
Simply ,
Get the sec ones to bathe .
More details inside .
Communal bath .
Night time ,
Night Trail .
Jit Yong is evil .
He hide the "CLUE" in the most unconcievable nook and cranny .
Chatted with Ian after the debrief .
Talked and talked .
From himself to Richard to ghosts .
I got freaked thanks to him .
Goosebumps all over .
Woke up .
Helped out in Team Games 2 .
Memory Card game .
Sec ones like to cheat , period .
After the last group ,
Kenneth and I just sat at the bench and played dai di .
Stopped before briefing for Closing Ceremony .
Played in the showers .
I poked myself while pinning a badge .
Darn .
Went home almost seven .
Had dinner and bathed .
Found out at Fu Lu Shou ,
There wasn`t an O level class for the slot .
Walked to the hotel .
My big mouth asked why Christmas deco was still there .
My helpful hands finished the conversation .
Sa Sim and San Su fetched me back home ,
Cause they dropped by the hotel .
They picked Andrew from his friend`s birthday party .
Sa Sim and Andrew were having an intriguing dialouge .
Andrew began by asking what time mass they were going .
Sa Sim said 1015 , but depends whether he had cathechism .
She still had to check when it starts .
Andrew states : Cathechism is boring .
Sa Sim carries on something like the devil was in andrew ,
That`s why he never listen .
Andrew countered and said that Cathechism taught nothing .
Sa Sim went on blah blah and used me as an example .
I bit my tongue and said nothing .
I can throw my Cathechism classes into the bin ,
And still have no effect on my faith .
The stuff I learnt was from SJI .
I totally agree with Andrew !
Then the topic moved to the party .
Andrew was asking why he had to leave the party so early .
Sa Sim pointed out the fact that he had been there for nearly 12 hours .
Then she said that even I didn`t stay so long at parties .
Another example used at my liberty .
I kept my mouth shut and said nothing .
I go for parties and stayover , and they aren`t even birthday ones !
No reason to point that out though .
So I`m at home .
Using the computer now .
Going to turn in .
It`s late .
Got an appointment with my friend tomorrow morning .
Have to wake up on time .