30 October 2006
Listening to :Yui - Life
doro darake yo najimenai tokai de
onaji you ni waraenai utsumuite aruita no
isogiashi de surechigau hitotachi
"yume wa kanaimashita ka?" atashi mada mogaiteru
. In the city I'm not used to that's full of dirt,
. I can't laugh the same and I walked with my head down
. People pass by in a quick pace
. I ask "has their dreams come true?" But I'm still struggling
kodomo no koro ni modoru yori mo ima wo umaku ikite mitai yo
kowagari wa umaretsuki
. I want to try living in the present
. rather than returning to my childhood
. It's my nature to be a coward
hi no ataru basho ni dete ryoute wo hirogete mita nara
ano sora koete yukeru kana? nante omotta n' da
. If I go to a sunny spot and stretch my arms out,
. I wonder if I can go beyond the sky
. that's what I thought
tobidatsu tame no tsubasa sore wa mada mienai
kantan ni ikanai kara ikite yukeru
. The wings I use to fly away are still invisible
. It's because it's not simple that I can go on living
nureta koinu hiroiageta dake de
chotto waraechau hodo namida ga koborete kita
ai saretai ai saretai bakari
atashi itte ita yo ne motomeru dake ja dame ne
. I just picked up a wet puppy
. and for a while, I laughed so much that tears spilled
. "I want to be loved, I just want to be loved"
. is what I said. It's no good just to ask for it
kodomo no koro ni modoru yori mo ima wo umaku ikite mitai yo
kowagari wa umaretsuki
. I want to try living in the present
. rather than returning to my childhood
. It's my nature to be a coward
hi no ataru basho ni dete kono te wo tsuyoku nigitte mita
ano bsho ano toki wo kowashite I can change my life
. I went to a sunny spot and tried holding your hand tightly
. I will destroy that place, that time so I can change my life
demo kokoro no naka subete wo totemo tsutaekirenai
kantan ni ikanai kara ikite yukeru
. But I really can't express everything that's in my heart
. It's because it's not simple that I can go on living
hi no ataru basho ni dete chizu wo hirogete miru kedo
I know... You know... mayoimichi mo shikata nai
I can change my life
. I went to a sunny spot and spread out my map, but
. I know... You know... that even the path of doubts can't be helped
. I can change my life
sugite kita hibi zenbu de ima no atashi nan da yo
kantan ni ikanai kara ikite yukeru
. All the days that have passed make up the me that's here now
. It's because it's not simple that I can go on living
Anyway ,
Basically all that is worth-while today ,
Is that I caught a movie with Iggy and Bosco .
DOA .
Not my choice ,
But hell ,
Just tag along .
Oh and I met some friends there to .
Eugene Marcus Ian Nathalie Samantha .
They must have done something from church or somewhere .
Going to Malaysia tomorrow .
Will be back on Friday .
28 October 2006
7.10 - Alarm sounds .My sleep is interrupted .
I`m too drowsy to get up .
Blanked out .
7.40 - Phone vibrates .
My nap is disturbed .
I flip open my phone .
Enlightenment .
What I have is not a message .
It is a phone call .
Dude .
It`s 7.40 .
Who is up and running at 7.40 on a Saturday morning ?
Mr Ho called .
Asked for some NCC people's numbers .
Had to go down and find the phone list .
Okay so I`m up and running at 7.45 on a Saturday morning .
7.50 - Signing into MSN .
I`m online .
Ian greets me .
A confession .
He hasn`t slept yet .
So .
What can a guy do at 7.50 on a Saturday morning ?
I`m SO not going to school to exercise .
I managed to configure my IP to be static ,
Did some portforwarding too .
Thanks Ian for advice .
About looking for Blizzard Support .
Now I can host on Battle.Net .
Wasted away time on Warcraft for awhile .
Went to use MSN for the rest of the period .
Surprise surprise .
Bryane signs into msn .
Personal message :
LIKE I GIVE A #$%^ ABOUT NCC
- Explict content censored .
God knows what Mr Ho talked about .
11.45 - Mark`s Confrontation .
Mark spams me .
Mark bugs me .
Mark insects me .
I give up .
I`m going to school later okay ?
For curia .
On the context of ,
Maybe .
So anyway I had my plate of spagetti .
Time to move out .
Oh , I tried my Computer Processing Speed test .
Failed .
In fact , I tasted my own medicine from Lennon .
Thanks alot .
I went upstairs to wash up and change .
I gave up on the computer cause it was lagging .
Came down about 15 minutes later .
Computer was fine now , (IT BETTER BE!)
Loaded all the emoticons .
Walked to school .
MP3 in my pocket ,
Feeling the breeze .
No sorry , the car exhaust .
Met Daniel on the way .
He was going for Judo .
Nearing SJI , walked past Ian and Eugene .
They were going for a run before Curia .
Invitation to go run with them .
I passed .
Went to the fitness corner instead .
Did abit of bars .
In the end I got tired .
I visited the chapel instead .
When I came out I met Ian and Eugene again .
They exercised abit more while I soaked in the sun .
Hanged around in Air Room for abit .
I decided to go for Curia after all .
Cenacle was not open .
Curia was held in the Chapel .
Equats into WARM and STUFFY .
Does that hamper me ?
Well yes , but who actually cares ?
I wore a long sleeve jacket over my PE shirt .
Top that up with jeans .
2.40 - Enter the chapel .
Of course we were late .
4th Glorious Mystery .
How wonderful .
Until I get the paper with the Meeting Agenda .
We`re still at point one .
One thing about Curia .
You`re either a Noob , or a Professional .
The guy reads with such swiftness and such complexity ,
You can hardly comprehend what he said .
After he was done I was like uhh did you get that ?
Reports and all .
ORB and stuff .
Wrapped up .
I`m a visitor in Curia .
I`m not an officer in Legion .
That`s good in a way too I guess .
I changed out behind some bushes .
Then I headed home .
4.10 - Back Under Shelter .
Whacked off most of my evening on the computer .
I guess I must have been tired .
Slightly more than two hours later ,
I went to nap on my bed .
7.15 - Eyes Opened .
It`s LATE .
Rush to get ready .
Bother ! Brother wanted to use the toilet .
I had to use the other one .
The one with the bath tub .
Yucks .
Dinner was light .
I didn`t want to be late for tuition ,
Since it was my neighbour fetching me .
Can`t afford to make them wait .
Was ready and in time .
Thank goodness .
8.05 - Tuition Commences .
Talking about immigrants and Singapore`s population today .
It`s boring .
Really boring .
10.00 - DotA .
Logged onto Battle.Net .
4FaNg on .
Yihuo , his friend came too .
Special Delivery as usual .
I used Death Prophet .
A decent score , but good pushing .
We won cause their top was ,
Kind of empty .
11.00 - Presently
MSN and blogging .
Blogging and music .
Ian is shagged .
He`s turning in .
What he said is true .
Alot of decisions to make now .
Never too late to be decisive , then .
11.53pm on my clock now .
Thus ends this post .
Who is up and running at 7.40 on a Saturday morning ?
26 October 2006
A single drop of water ,Coursing silently through grooves .
Nothing to it does matter ,
Except the fact that it moves .
The journey seems too simple :
Effortlessly travelling ,
With subtle meanderings .
Yet End awaits its meeting .
Caught at the edge of the plane ,
Unable to continue .
Hanging and left to remain ,
Till another leaves the pew .
A second droplet flows down .
The choice was dealt from the deck :
To the other it was bound ,
The route decided and checked .
So many pathways to walk ,
Yet the two could tread the same .
Contact established and locked ,
And movement was then reclaimed .
The new entity shrugged off ,
An adventure had begun .
Gone were the constricting troughs ,
Freedom never known was won .
The past never truly dies ,
And truth remains eternal .
Horizon spilts seas and skies ,
Likewise it was communal .
Distance like time swiftly passed ,
The drop of water gained speed .
Pride engulfs humility ,
And again End does suceed .
There were no braces of aid ;
Impact left nothing intact .
To try sense guilt or betrayed ,
Futile attempts to react .
Seperation is unkind .
One was flung to a dead end ,
Left to dry and left behind .
The other still could descend .
As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
An open mind is like
a fortress with its gate
unbarred and unguarded .
Still have the whole holidays to tend to this festering wound .
Better to trust my principles than to trust myself .
My word .
I`ll never break it again .
Purity of purpose .
25 October 2006
Last day of school .I found a nice quote !
May the wind always be on your back ,
and the sun upon your face ,
and may the winds of destiny carry you aloft ,
to dance with the stars .
When I went to google the first line again ,
I go this quote
May the road rise to meet you
May the wind be always at your back
The sun shine warm upon your face
The rains fall soft upon your fields
And until we meet again,
May God hold you in the hollow of his hand.
Found something else to chew on .
There are four questions of value in life :
What is sacred ?
Of what is the spirit made ?
What is worth living for, and what is worth dying for ?
The answer to each is the same.
Only love.
24 October 2006
Yes , yesterday turned out worthwhile in the end .But then again , it may be just the way I look at things .
Dinner was out .
Went with my sister to follow ErGu and family to Tampines .
We had sushi for dinner .
Was quite full yea .
After that Bryan and I walked around the place .
There was a street soccer court and some guys were in it .
After awhile they asked us if we wanted to play .
Some hesitation , but we obliged .
Bosco and AhDior (Did I spell that right ?) played with us .
Four versus Four .
Guess what .
We won .
So all the sweat was worth it haha .
Had to bathe again when I got home .
Oh well .
The things I do for fun .
Today , ah today .
Not again .
I woke up late .
I guess I slept through my alarm .
I shouldn`t think I`m such a heavy sleeper ?
Maybe it was just the late night .
I didn`t go to Gift of Love Home in the end .
Time out of bed , about 11am .
Elian gave me a ring later .
*Rubs hands together*
Battle.Net session .
So Elian TingSoon and I ,
We played a 3v5 .
Which soon became a 3v4 when one dude left at the start .
We still won in the end .
I just love my PhantomLancer .
I digress .
The main highlight is shopping today .
Was supposed to go to UnitedSquare .
In the end we went to QueensTown Shopping Centre ,
Since Elian was going there to buy shoes too .
Met Wesley at the SJI bustop .
I was a little late !
Haha sorry Wesley , I ran okay !
We took 153 down to the place .
Elian came abit later .
"dad pms"
Shopping .
I think it`s okay as long as you don`t go with girls .
Bought 2 shirts .
3 tennis balls .
$24
I`m not going to gauge and say
"Ouch that burns my wallet" or "Not that bad for the first time"
I got nothing to compare with .
Haha .
We hanged around quite alot .
Talked alot of rubbish .
When we went off , we had to run for the bus !
Haha .
Caught it though .
Buses are slow .
Got down and went to the park first .
There was that old (maybe not THAT old) woman again .
With her small (maybe primary 1 or 2 or younger) girl .
"Kan gor gor biao yan"
OMG .
How is exercising a performance .
But anyway haha just smile smile loh .
Do my own stuff .
Went home and had a shower .
Then went to BeachRoad to get my SSG rank .
Need it tomorrow for the procession .
Bought a button cause 1 went missing the other time .
Off to the TeoChew Restuarent .
Had a quiet dinner .
Quiet for me .
Maybe not for the others .
Stress .
Does wonders .
Owww .
Stress .
I`m like so DONE with blogging for today !
23 October 2006
Had a little shopping with my family yesterday .It was after church and lunch at Sakae Sushi .
Looked around in Cash Converter ,
But didn`t get anything .
I saw something I liked .
Maybe I`ll go buy it another time .
Went to World of Sports later .
I bought some trek shoes .
For Sabah .
I got my first "card" yesterday .
Haha .
Today was ... uneventful .
Well so far it is .
It`s still 2.40pm (right now) .
Anything can happen .
What if an angel of death collects me ?
Haha ! I like this quote from WH40K:DoW
Serve the Emperor today , tomorrow you may be dead .
Anyway the point is ,
Even though it may be uninteresting at the moment ,
It could be exciting later on !
So I found out I`m in charge of Gunung Lambak .
Meaning I`ll probably have to climb up and down ,
510m about say , 6 times ? I think .
There goes my wish for a tan .
Luckily there`s still OBS Sabah .
See haha some fun stuff .
Someone said : you talk until veri formal leh
I beg to differ .
Only when I`m blogging or feeling serious .
Haha ! But sometimes my blog is not formal either .
Like now ! (:
So Elian has not come online .
Better to give him a ring ,
Than to wait indefinitely .
If a job`s worth doing it`s worth dying for .
17 October 2006
Yesterday night celebrated my mum`s birthday ,With a cake .
A simple cake .
Baked by my Grandmother .
A single candle .
A solitary flame .
Won`t ask her what wish she made .
Anyway it`s quite late already .
I`ll try my best to recall the day`s events .
Not exactly a lot to write though .
Unless you agree that :
Every moment is an eternity .
Which would probably prove crazy .
The post would be infinity .
I must be feeling lame .
I`m actually typing what is going through
my mind this very second .
Listening to old songs .
Robbie Williams - Better Man just finished .
So from the time I got out of bed ,
To the time right now ,
It`s almost 12 hours .
I woke up several times .
I got up at 12 plus .
See the difference ?
I had my lunch .
Spaghetti .
Dirtied my PE shirt in the process .
Doesn`t matter .
It was just tiny spots of red .
A careless obsevation would be that I`m bleeding .
Haha .
Not really .
Looks just like sauce .
Pasta sauce .
Went to school .
Went to see Ms Lim .
Went to have Math Olympiad .
Went home .
That took away my afternoon .
I walked up there and down here .
I realised , walking next to SCGS ,
It`s faster than walking by Malcolm Road .
What can I say ?
More incentive to walk by SCGS .
Back home ,
Was seriously bored .
Had a long nice dinner .
Long dinner because there was a lot of bones .
That`s not the true reason though .
I was playing DotA with Elian too .
One game .
Beyond Godlike .
Not me ! Haha .
I was Ezalor pumping Tidehunter .
Looks like Elian watched Equilibrium already .
Yea like I think the whole world should watch it .
Called alot of people .
NCC stuff .
People can actually lose their Part phone list .
That`s okay .
I can`t find my Class phone list .
But it has to be somewhere around .
There`s no wastepaper collector living here .
Must be my forgetfulness hard at work .
Action Plan : In Progress .
Stage 1) Meeting on Monday (Completed)
Stage 2) Call the Absentees (Completed)
Stage 2) Meeting on Thursday
Stage 4) 'Whack' the Absentees
Stage 5) Training on Friday
Stage 5 should prove sucessful .
I`m still crossing my fingers .
Okay , played a game with Bryan just now .
I owned with Lich , again .
Not boasting .
I`m no Professional .
(But I think my Lich can be my main)
Okay .
I`m eating into Wednesday already .
I`ll listen to this song ,
Then I`ll go straight to bed .
Michael Learns To Rock - That`s Why (You Go Away)
There is so much to say now between us
There ain`t so much for you
There ain`t so much for me anymore
16 October 2006
Listening to Dr Bombay now .Kind of weird .
Since I`m not feeling anything again .
Must be on dosage again .
EC-10 .
Awhile ago , the modem was acting up .
Disconnecting me countless times .
I`m so practiced with typing -wtf -pm -apem now .
No thanks to the numerous remakes me and wesley had .
We were playing AI anyway .
Silence and Perseverance are of the highest virtues .
That is from Warhammer 40k .
Kind of makes sense for a person like me .
So anyway ,
I got alot of calling to do .
Alot of Part Bs and Cs didn`t come for the check .
That`s not a very healthy sign .
Will have a second one for them on thursday .
Friday should be a good day .
Listening to Keane now .
Maybe Five for Fighting later .
Definitely better than techno .
Released from studies for the time being .
Might as well use this freedom .
Exploit it by improving myself ,
My english and chinese .
Though he may not know it ,
I don`t mind being a logical automaton ,
as he puts it .
Reading his blog is enough sustain my interest .
Maybe I need surgery for the soul .
Maybe I need modelling of the mind .
Maybe I need building of the body .
Maybe I just need hurt in my heart .
I feel yes .
I feel then I forgive .
I feel and forgive and forget .
It`s just too easy to do .
Then after all that .
What then ?
Nothing .
No feeling .
Maybe I won`t be a logical automaton afterall .
I may just become a emotional automaton .
EC-10 .
Haha .
Thanks Elian for buying that NC16 vcd .
Even though you are still my age .
It`s lucky you were out with your parents .
I, me and myself were all I had to engage .
13 October 2006
Feeling kind of _ today .Probably because of the _ that happened today .
Went of medical _ in the morning .
Then I went to go meet _ to go play LAN .
We played 2 rounds of _ , and I lost .
I went home around two plus to _ .
Off the Plaza Singapura to wait for _ .
In the end I met Chien Ming and _ him drum .
After that I was just doing _ shopping .
I wanted to buy some tennis _ but ,
It came in big packs and _ alot .
_ forgot to tell me that the movie ended .
So I was _ behind at PS .
Told myself that there was no need to feel _ .
Maybe that explains my _ mood right now .
Infected by a virus ,
Plagued by a disease .
Yet still caught in this pass ,
With no hint of release .
08 October 2006
Hmm ,Seems like there wasn`t any cathechism today .
So anyway ,
Dawn of War is kinda cool .
I`m sure I`ve got much to learn in that game .
I`m pretty darn sure I also have alot to learn ,
For Chemistry .
So I haven`t been blogging for a while .
Exams are hanging in the air .
So is the haze .
4 more papers .
3 more days .
2 more somethings .
1 more something else .
To the end of examinations !
What more could I ask for ?
Except that it ends faster .