A night at ECP and a day at Formula Drift

In actually fact, says the title, i went to ECP at night and that i spent an entire day at Formula drift. Lets start from the top shall we?

ECP

Actually, i was at starhub and was busy doing some payments the most fu*ked up cable and internet company there is in Singapore. And sometimes i think that paying up for their services is a sin because it sucks really bad. Anyway, i went down to Dhoby G to pick dear up (in a rush). Reasons for this will not be explained here. To be put simply, i was worried if anyone around there would do something bad. (Its just me being paranoid and worrying a lot).

After we met, we got ourselves dinner and ate under the stars. It was the first time i ever did see a star filled sky in Singapore. i repeat, FIRST! After dinner, we went to a more quieter place to gaze at the stars. Indeed, thats where i almost broke down again and again bearing my soul to her. It was the first as i had ever said everything about what i feel so openly. And i meant everything i said. and tralalalala.

Formula Drift

I am getting lazy to write here. i'll give you a low down, i love cars and that is all to it. I see cars, my camera cant resist the temptation.

letting gas out.

This is the first time that i have been reacting slow and like as if i had a big rock stuck to my head. The reasons being that i am still trying to believe that i am moving out of my ROOM! and that there is way too many things keep happening at the same time. Namely, the loss of my job (IT helpdesk), renting out the house (and lossing my most favourite place to rest which is my room), running out of money (because i lost my freaking job) and the last but not least regaining my confidence in myself to carry on loving the person i love the most (my dear of course).

It seems that i need time at the beach sorting what needs to be sorted and get my head settled into my current time frame. It seems that i have left my brain somewhere after the 2 week ordeal at IT helpdesk that killed most of my brain cells. So much so that i decided to leave it there.

I think that because of my old relationship, i kind of suffered in terms of the ability to trust. I shroud myself in doubt and tend to not believe what any body says. I do not care about my pride being damaged. But i care about my level of confidence in trusting someone. There is a few incidents where certain some of my opinions (that was rather private) was shared willingly by another party which knew. (For those who don't understand, it means someone said something that i told as my personal secret or opinion to a friend who in turn purposefully or accidently spilled it out. If it wasn't for dear, i would have kept it all in my heart and u should see me dead on the floor due to too much preasure. I sure need to thank my dear for that else i would be really depressed if she hasnt sat down and hear me out. Indeed she is the person who i trust the most together with a few of my friends.

Learning to trust again is such a daunting task which i need to complete if not i will be a very doubtful person and could fall into depression as i tend to think to much and not let it out. So if you were to say something and i will be keeping quiet. Means i could be hurt or just letting my head wonder around.

This is a long post which is full of crap. i got too much things in my head and i need the beach to clear my head. Else i will be talking uther rubbish as seen above.

My last day at IT helpdesk

Oh right, i was told that i will be employed until NS at this location. However, it doesn't seem to be that way. Its says it all, my title that is. Today is officially my last day working at the IT help desk. Interestingly, i feel really irritated to the fact that i am losing a job which i love a lot. Even if the job is stressful, it was really fun working here because i get to see my dear every single school day. I get to eat lunch and breakfast with her too. *Sigh.

With all that said. I am going back to Sony Style to work. But i am going to work 4 days a week. Will write more soon. Need to nap at my work bench.

Another Entry after being away

Ah.. I have been away from this Blog for so long until my dear ask me to revamp and restart writing a blog. Which i must say a rather bothersome job especially when i need to get rid of the rust and re-tune my habits to actually get back into swing.

Oh yes, i broke up with dear old Hannah. Who apparently thinks that the relationship was not moving. It was her not moving at all when i made all the impossible possible and what can't be done, done. So yea, i do not want to think deeper and i would like to wish her all the best and may she find her happiness someday.

On another note, i fell in love with Anthea all over again when i took her out on my mini photo outings. Many facts will remain hidden until the time comes but i have found a person who can actually makes me blush over and over again (and no i am not a wuss). She found out about my true feelings which i was hiding for a long time. A long story short, we ended falling for each other.

Another tone of the day, i am working at IT helpdesk. The hell pits of RP when the whole school have to potential to seek you out for troubleshooting (which is where i am stuck at) and knock you socks off with the weird troubles that you thought could never happen on a laptop. The amount of stress to solve each and every case is excruciatingly painful and IRRITATING. Especially vista operated systems, they tend to be bitches sometimes.

Oh well, i shall go and catch up with my sleep which has made me forgetful since the start of the week. Scary. To sum all this years i am missing out on updating up and for those who skips lines, i broke up with my girlfriend of 3 coming to 4 years, worked at the worst place every imagined (IT helpdesk) and got together with a lovely girl who loves to smile.

Me out..