Sick...

-FaLcAo- Its just like another day...
CRAP

Orite.. i am sick.. very.. a very bad migrane.. my body gave way yesterdae and the doctor said i have been stressed up way too much.. yea.. he bloody gave mi erm.. 30 tabs of FENAGESIC.. *its for migrane.. bloody hell.. the dosage is uped to 2 tabs 3 times a day.. from 1 tabs per... haiz..

I am sick yet.. i am gonna head to JE lib to continue studying.. i wont stop until the promos are done.. the only day i will relax is on suday when i have a hockey training... Ta! head out now

Thoughts..

-FaLcAo- Its just like another day...

Hey! back again.. I am kind confused of what to do now.. Promos coming.. cramin and mugging.. Trying to do my very hardest and then think about headin to poly.. Need to really study Hist and econs.. these subjects are in a worrying grade level.. Well anyway, i am kinda short of sleep this few days.. too many stuffs to take in.. hmm

Kinda want to place my worrying thoughts away from me for now (some life stuffs).. Haiz.. hope it will be okay to go through this while neglecting this rather important thoughs.. I got almost nothing to look forward too in this coming month or the nxt.. onli the alicia keys concert 2 days before the exam.. some who read my blog kinda said that its filled with words of depression from me or my depressing thoughts.. I may look like i am in a carefree mood.. but actually i am thinking of alot of mind bending issues of my future and the pain inflicted by the closest people around me..

About them, they give me unnecessary stress and preasure.. Big boss will just barge in and fling his temper at me when i am at my most relaxin period (an hour alone) ... Crapp!! FatB! Mrs boss will put more preasure regarding my personal affairs! f*ck! the question is, aren't those MY AFFAIRS?!! And theres money problem, they expect me to live by a mere 50bucks a month!! can someone give me a money plan on how to save for my Top up card and ez link pass.. ass.. Might as well pawn my ass and get some cash!! my leisure is is now like once every 3 years.. (eg. alicia keys: a concert which i wanted to go to relax myself.. kinda to relieve my working life early this year and stress of school this year) And to add, its my 1st time going to a concert.. Really looking forward to it..

I am really sleepy now.. still have a lit homework to complete.. too hell with sleep this week or the next and the next! I really need a shoulder to rest on after this damn exam!! i need you honey!! *cries* aite.. gonna sleep now... ta!

-FaLcAo- Its just like another day...

new look.. bored.. pissed.. damn hell!! Argh!! Alicia Keys coming soon! yeah! Happi.. but not now... haiz... kill me!!

-FaLcAo- Its just like another day...
Sleepy!!

Haiz.. its ben a long week.. need my much needed rest and hope i can continue on studying for promos.. I can do it!!.. well at least i hope.. I need a above average pass for all my 'a' lvl subjects... I have to concentrate on studying and not my homeworks...!! boy i am a nutcase... My target, get a triple D grade for my 'a' lvl subjects! HEeheEh

Aite, mi gonna ZZzzZZ now.. ta!!

Moody dude

-FaLcAo- Its just like another day... But somehow worst...
Stressed, Sad, Fustrated and plain Full Of Rage

I am in pain.. Somehow.. As much i wanted to hide it.. It just get busted open!! Too many thoughts now.. abt my homework, my health and just more thoughts.. Stupid!! damn mr chan still dares to ask me abt SC/FL.. That just ticked me off! Oh well. I gave him my though, and he goes Blah Blah! haiz

Aite.. programe for tonite.. do my hmwk.. and do a night jog..

Ps* Dun tick me, my stress and mental preasure is at its MAX!! I will just blow up if you do!! So beware! -.- Ta!

-FaLcAo- Its just like another day...

ARGH!!! i am having really huge pain and continous headache!! Its like a big pin hitting the back of my brain. hurts bad. Oh well.

Be like that - 3 doors down

He spends his nights in California,

To live the life that's in his dreams,

Then he lies awake and he wonders,

Why can’t that be me

Cause in his life he is filled

With all these good intentions

He’s left a lot of things

He’d rather not mention right now

But just before he says goodnight,

He looks up with a little smile at me,

And he says,

If I could be like that,

I would give anything

Just to live one day,

in those shoes

If I could be like that,

what would I do,

What would I doNow and dreams we run

She spends her days up in the north park,

Watching the people as they pass

And all she wants is just

A little piece of this dream,

Is that too much to ask

With a safe home, and a warm bed, On a quiet little street

All she wants is just that something to

Hold onto, that’s all she needs

Yeah!

If I could be like that,

I would give anything

Just to live one day, in those shoes

If I could be like that, what would I do,

What would I doI’m falling into this, dreams,

We run away

If I could be like that,I would give anything

Just to live one day, in those shoes

If I could be like that, what would I do,

What would I doIf I could be like that,

I would give anything

Just to live one day, in those shoes

If I could be like that, what would I do,

What would I do

If I could be like that,

I would give anything

Just to live one day, in those shoes

If I could be like that, what would I do,

What would I do

Falling inI feel I am falling in, to this again.

-FaLcAo- Its just like another day...

Mental condition: Slight headache, giddy
Physical condition: just there..

Great of all days to get the headache starting the day. Haiz.. anyway i am all geared up for hockey later.. hmm betta get some energy bars.. Aite! Wish me luck at the tornados friendly! Its been a long time since i played for a club... Yea Yea! heading out now!! Ta!

-FaLcAo- Its just like another day...

-FaLcAo- Its just like another day...

Haiz... Thx Opz! Tmr hockey and i am hyper worried. Because, now i cant even go around without experiencing headaches everywhere i go. Haiz... Something is definately wrong with me these few dayz. I have to be tough till the exams are over. THEN, i can R&R...

I am now lost... i forgot what i wana write.. oh well! Anyway, it starts at 9 at ccab! Wish me Luck!!! Ta!

-FaLcAo- Its just like another day...
Pain

Thats one word i cant fail to say the whole day todae... even now... Y? super combi headache.. Woke up giddy.. continued sleeping with Pain circulating my brains... ow!

Anyway, i just entered another chain of thoughts.. Will update later..

-FaLcAo- Its just like another day...

Another day of spliting headaches.. I am thinking of WAY TOO MANY things... Usual questions.. I am so insecure about my own future... I am so sick and tired to think this way! I still havent got a day for my mind to rest... Too many thoughts of unprecedented events that may happen.. I am in need of an open minded talk.. with anyone i am close too... i really need it... i just need to let it all out!!! F*ck this pain!! I know i deserved it but, why now!? Why am i now gaining confidence of my Studies? Why this pressure coming from my mind's self-deception?! something that supposed to help me get what i want?!! isn't it?! WHY!!? ARGH!!

I am not really healthy.. never was until afew days back.. i am sick from the pressure from my parents, my own expectations.. I really hope this f*ckin exam is f*ckin over!! I just want to rest my tired mind.. i need just a day without and pressure and thoughts.. just one day...

-FaLcAo- Its just like another day...

Haiz.. Continuous headache for a few days too many... I kinda collapsed at home few days back... I remember that i was walkin to my room... then with no intension to sleep i'd just black out... woke up on my bed with a slight fever and a bad headache.. From then on, as i think... i will get major headaches.. Still havin a string of headaches now.. i need go fer a check up soon.. piority! Sayunsengikoyo! What am i thinking? Alot.. from nonsensical crap to skool work, from dearie to family...education to poly detour... weight my chances.. Now i realise that it is killing me (as in my concentration in current stuffs) gotta seek a 'no thinking' activity..

Aite.. need my last tablet and sleep.. Ta!

-FaLcAo- Its just like another day...

One week of doing nothing at all, heals. Hahhaa.. Power. Well, i back to the trouble maker me again. I feel contented with myself. However, my homework are not done... yet. EHeheh.. Oh well, might as well do now.

Ta!

-FaLcAo- Its just like another day...

I get moody very easily now. I have no idea why. My insecurities? What am i insecure about? I have no idea. I need to open up. I just don't know how anymore. What is happening to me? I have no idea. Self-reflection? Won't happen. What am i afraid of? My studies? I am just so tired now, i haven't have a decent meal in days. Just gonna collapsed back to my bed. I need you hannah, sliently, more that ever. Bail me out of this. I am silently miserable, just too many thoughts. To heavy to be carried, too laden with pain. Just gonna collapsed back to my bed.



Someone to heal me with some empathy But I can't find Nobody, not really

-FaLcAo- Its just like another day...
Lost boy?

Too many things happening around me that made my life change drasticly. I become more impatient towards my parents, my sister, my friends and myself. I just cant take the fact that i am under alot of stress and my mom just keep putting more on me. I just would like to keep my mind away from this norm and just kick back and rest my mind. Doing something i love, like buliding webpages and hang out with hannah. I Just dont want to strain myself until next week. I am just too tired. I dont want to worry, because everytime i do my head hurts. Can you, mom, just grant me that wish? You are always there.... to cause my down fall!!!. SO GET LOST!!! If you ask why am i so rude to you, i would reply, 4 out of 4 times i have proved that you caused my down fall!!! You may want to swear that i would never touch the light, I would reply, I EVEN WISHED I WAS NEVER BORN!!! You many assume that i am just unappreciative, i would reply, IT WAS YOU WHO NEVER APPRECIATIVE OF I WHAT HAVE ACHEIVED. You may want to talk to me, i would reply, SHUT UP!!! STOP HURTING ME, MY DREAMS, MY HOPES AND MYSELF!!! I will never let you get in my way again!!! If you truly care, just SHUT THE HELL UP!! If you love me, JUST STAY AWAY!!! If you know me, YOU WOULD AVOID ME!!! I HATE YOU MOM!!! Congratulations!! you have just turned me into a evil person!! I HOPE YOU ARE HAPPY!!!

Someone to heal me with some empathy But I can't find Nobody, not really

New beta done... more testing going on..
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Sneak peak... Kekke!! The new Millenium AD webby intro page.. not quite done yet though 

-FaLcAo- Its just like another day...

Trust. Sometimes the smallest thing can determine whether you could be trusted or not. Well, definately i can never trust my parents. Hypocritical parents. They promise me one thing, change to suit them better afterwards. Eg, now they own me my Phone, MY SONY ERICSSON T610. Defiantly my MOM (who was complainning that it looks ugly) wouldn't let it go. My dad who promised to return my phone if there is a drastic improvement in my grades, is still holding to it. So now, I WILL NOT listen to their 'advises' anymore. To me it is deemed as useless. I wont follow anyone who is a hypocrite. Make that 2 people. Or rather, my whole family.

Since i am still typing about trust. There is a handful of people whom i trust. I was hurt once too many.

I will leave it at that. Ta!

Armani Gals..!!! Wooo!!! 

Millenium AD with The Lastika Chix 

-FaLcAo- Its just like another day...

Moody day today... i am totally moodless... something happen at home and till now i am still quite pissed.. I now desire a night in the park... alone. Will write something later..

Ta!

Hard working Students of 04A1..!! 

Me in the dance 'costume'.. kekek