Footprints in the sand

You walked with me

Footprints in the sand..

and help me understand where I'm going

You walked with me, when i was all alone and with so much unknown along the way

and i heard you say...

"I promise you.I'm always there when your heart is filled with sorrow and despair; I'll carry you, when you need a friend, you'll find my footprints in the sand."

I see my life flash across the sky, so many times have I been so afraid.

and just when I thought I lost my way, you give me strength to carry on..

that's when i heard you say..

"I promise you, I'm always there, when your heart is filled with sorrow and despair; I'll carry you, when you need a friend. you'll find my footprints in the sand."

Troubled

It's been a long time since I updated my blog. Moot competition is coming in 2 weeks, 2 assignments due in 2 weeks, and problems just keep coming to me. Pressure's coming in all direction, killing me slowly. For a moment in time, I feel like I'm all alone, facing all these obstacles.

Be strong, Pris, be strong.

Broke up.

It ended today. Nothing lasts forever, this phrase can never be more true. I should have known. I should have seen this coming. Why, u might ask. Well, I've never got the guts to even ask, because either way, it still gonna hurt. I feel like an idiot for believing in empty promises. I should have known better not to believe in promises. Unjust, unjust indeed.

I feel a lot better, after shedding gallons of tears, using up all Eve's tissue papers. Hope time heals and I pray that I could learn how to forgive n forget. Forgive him, forgive myself for the mistakes I made, and forget everything that happened.

Thanks for the memories. Thanks to Eve again for the tissue, and being by my side when I need you. Sorry, mother...for releasing my anger on you.

First day at ATC.

First day at ATC. This photo was taken before the class started. I looked very excited huh? xD
I don't feel that excited anymore after class.

The environment at ATC and PTPL is totally different, and I'm still in the process of adapting to this new environment. I'm starting to miss that feeling when I'm at PTPL, that friendly environment, like the college is my second home. I miss how Annex C's receptionist would always be very friendly to us students, and I miss how some of the lecturers would call me "Fish", almost like they were my friend. Guess I'd need some time to adapt to this new environment =(

Note to God.

If I wrote a note to God,
I would speak what's in my soul.
I'd ask for all the hate to be swept away
For love to overflow

If I wrote a note to God,
I'd pour my heart out on each page
I'd ask for war to end and for peace to mend this world.

I'd say give us the strength to make it through
Help us find love cuz love's overdue
and it seems like so much is going wrong on this road we're on

If I wrote a note to God,
I'd say please help us find a way
End all the bitterness, put some tenderness in our hearts

I'd say give us the strength to make it through
Help us find love, cuz love's overdue
And it looks like we haven't got a clue
Need some help from You

Grant us the faith to carry on
Give us hope when it seems all hope is gone
cuz it seems like so much is going wrong on this road we're on

We can't do it on our own!

- song lyrics of Charice's song, Note to God.

Christmas eve and Christmas 2009

As i grew up, the joyous feeling and the anticipation towards Christmas is gradually decreasing. Christmas used to be the happiest season of the year for me, but as i grew up, people around me just don't seem to to celebrate Christmas anymore. I guess people forget about tradition as time passed by. Surprisingly, i had an awesome Christmas celebration this year, together with my family and relatives.

On Christmas eve, my family and I went over to my relative's place to attend her house warming party, which later turned out to be our little Christmas party.

Hmmm...Ignore the beer cans on the table, cuz I did not drink them. =p But I had some Bailey's though. Yummy, but later got allergic reactions towards the alcohol..
As you can see, we were holding Uno cards in our hands. Hehe, we played Uno til about 2.30am! Yew Han, my second cousin, taught us played Uno, with his special rules and got Kelly, my cousin sister addicted to Uno. It was so much fun! It was my first time, that i actually enjoyed being around my relatives, without the lame small talks. I actually felt comfortable being around them.
And, on Christmas, went to church lor as usual. and this photo is taken after the service, together with my sis, my second cousin, Uncle Martin and his wife, Aunt Jenny and Aunt Lai Huey.


Super duper tiring Christmas. had lotsa fun though. Thank you, God, for everything.

10 Thoughts/Experiences

The long holiday is seriously wearing me out. I figured out lots of things and experienced a lot during this holiday though.

1) People can never change. There's a chinese saying, 江山易改，本性难移, it means people are hard to change. I thought xxx has changed to a more polite and nice person this holiday. Well, how naive i am to believe that someone who used to be rude, who loves to use foul language can change in such a short period of time!

2) Some people just love to brag. I've figure this out long time ago, but i encountered someone who loves to brag lately. He annoys me to the core. The way he brags makes me doubt his credibility and leaves a question in my head, "Is he as successful as he says he is"?

3) Some people just love to crush other people's dream by giving nonconstructive advices, asking people to give up, but it's best to just ignore these people cuz they just probably don't want others to be better than them. I met someone who asked me to quit A levels and law if i failed my exam this time. I was furious upon hearing that. What a stupid advise. According to him, A levels is too hard. Hello, NOTHING IS EASY IN THIS WORLD! If we were to quit upon facing obstacles, when are we ever going to succeed, right?

4) I've got my 2nd wisdom tooth removed! and gosh, i swell like a balloon for a few days, looking like a chipmunk with puffy cheeks. I can't even talk, smile and laugh properly. Worse, i had to attend my relative's funeral looking like a super fat girl, and i thought, "Nah, who cares?I'm attending a funeral, not a party or something". But lots of pictures were taken that day, with me looking like a chipmunk.

5) I have lots of relatives! xD
Just found out that i have lots of relatives when i attended the funeral. Here's one of the photos.

The funeral of my relative's grandma brought all of my relatives together. Though i have never met her, i bet she's a great person, cuz she nurtured and brought up her children very well. Meeting them was a great experience.

6) I found out some facts about my character and personality from a relative. It fascinates me to see myself from other people's point of view.

7) Friendship and love can be so fragile sometimes.
"One word turns into a war. Why is it the smallest thing that tear us down?" - quoted from Jordin Sparks' Battlefield.
Yep. I think I lost a friend. and I don't have the guts to even send him a text message cuz i find it awkward. Great.

8) "Don't judge a book by its cover", this is a popular saying, telling people not to judge other people by their physical appearance, but i don't think many people apply this though. I heard from a friend that some people choose to only hang out with good looking people. *laughing out loud* Is this absurd or what?

9) Watched the movie, 2012. Many have tried to predict when the world is coming to an end, many have failed too. The Mayans predict that the apocalypse will occur on the year 2012. The book of Revelation also warns us that the end is near. Is the world gonna end on the year 2012?No idea. But I have a feeling it's near.

10) Komtar is not a nice place to shop. Prangin Mall too. I'll never land my feet there again.