Just what the hell is wrong with you..
She did not provoke nor step on your tail, why u have to insult her..
Not only once, but twice....
Last night like that, now again..

Me n her just started talking not long ago, and now u ruined everything again..
I dont need this kind of help from u guys..
This is not what i wanted at all..
Have you thought of how would i feel..

The push that night alr changes so many things..
Things were ugly enough, i dun need u all to add oil to it..
Have u all spare a thought for me..

If you are my true friend, u would have lend me a shoulder and not make things worst..
I only need you to listen and not talk..
And when i needed company so badly, u all would have been there..
But none, none was there..
U all know i did wrong too, but why scold her..
She didnt step on your tail neither will she provoke you..
Then why did u have to scold her..
No one understands me at all, no one..
For this moment, i realise i have no one whom i can rely on..
22 years living in this world, now then i know how this world is..

She really means alot to me, alot..
Even if it's as a friend..

Suddely i realise i'm all alone by myself..

but i enjoy with you around....

Heard some things which i should not have..
Truth is i'm affected by it....

Jiayou....

U told me this, follow your heart,
though it's on the left, it's always right..

And yes i did..
Followed my heart..

I just cant hide and contain my feelings for you..
I'm falling even deeper and deeper day by day..
Even if it's meant to get hurt once again,
i'm willing to suffer all that pain again....
Though it hurts terribly,
but it hurts even more for letting you go..
I dont wanna care about anything else..
For cos having u by my side each day is more than everything i have and cherish..

For once ever, i supported the yellow ribbon ptoject..
Everyone deserve a second chance,
a second chance is what we need for our relationship..

I'm more than happy for the second chance you gave to us..
I'm glad we're still able to spend the memorable date tgr..
Is it a coincident or not i dont know,
but we sat at the same place when we first went there during our first month anni..

happy 2 years anni...
It means so much to me when you wrote it....

I dont know if we are considered tgr not..
But in my heart, you alr hold and had been holding on to the position just like before..

I love you bei,
i really really do..

*learning to take things one step at a time....

if being your friend is forever,
and being your gf is till the day it ends,

maybe i would rather be forever....

for cos you're too important in my heart,
and i cant imagine losing you forever again....

i lost u three times,
it's more than enough..

since our birthday,
i told myself i'm not going to let you go again..
i'm going to hold on to you and never let go..
my heart wanted and needed you so badly..
i cant afford to lose you another time..

but guess i was too late...
i was really too late....

for the past few days i really thought things were back to before..
u didnt mention anything about that night,
i didnt mention anything about that night either..
i thought we could put everything behind and start afresh...
i really thought we could....

guess it's karma for me,
for me hurting you twice,
i had to bear the consequences...
i have no one to blame, only myself..

you know how hurtful it is,
i was really thinking positively about us these few days..
i was really really very happy with you around..
i really thought we could be together again..
i really wanted to go back to the old days....

why stop when you care..
why stop when you feel..
why ask me to go home and give one more night,
after then if i really want to you wont stop me..
why stop when i really know clearly what i wanted..

i wanted you back so badly..
i needed you back so badly..
now i'm telling u loud n clear..
that i want you and need you back..
but i'm too late, so late....

everytime i let u go without really wanting to..
that's not what i want,
that's not what my heart wants..
each time i let u go hurting u and hurting myself..
i felt so lost, so empty without you..
fact is i needed you and wanted you more badly than anything..

pls tell me i wont lose u another time again....

i guess i only have myself to blame for things to end up in this situation..
i screwed up everything..
it's all because of me, yes again..
why do i always have to wait for things to happen before i wake up,
and it's too late to regret or salvage the situation..
why why why.....

you are really very important to me..
i dont want to and cant afford to lose you again even as a friend..
but i think i just did..

love hurts, it really hurts too much for me to handle..
but losing you as a friend is even worst than breaking up..
you are really too important in my life..

though i know that whatever i said and explain will contridict..
but it's because i'm really afraid to lose u in my life..

i'm really feeling tired of waiting...
but i felt really happy then..
happy to be there in your life..
happy to be part of your life..
happy to see you everyday..
waiting is no easy or simple task..
though u asked me not to, i still wanted to wait then..

i just want to be your friend now..
i only want to be your friend..
will you still give me another chance..

i'm sorry...
i really am very sorry..

i miss you badly..
i really do..

many a times i wanted to msg you,
tell you i miss you..
but i dare not..
i held back..
for fear of rejection..

the missing you in within is getting stronger day by day..
thou i still see you everyday,
but i dont know why..
i really miss you so much bei..

as days pass by and gets longer,
it did not let me move on..
instead it made me clearly realise on what i really want..
all i really want is you, still you..
am still waiting for you and will still wait for you..

thou i do not dare to ask for to be back tgr one day..
but i hope the day will come..
if the day dont come,
i would appreciate and hope everything remains the same just like now..

i love to spend my days with you..
i love to spend my nights with you..
i love to help u choose you clothes clothes..
i love to iron your clothes clothes for work..
i love to see you make your hair..
i love to see you rushing off for work..
i love to text you during your break..
i love to pick you up from work..
i love to help you change change..
i love to help you ma ma..
i love to pour water for you every night..
i love to help you massage your tired body..
i love to help you apply medicine..
i love to pat pat you to sleep..
i love to watch the way you sleep..

i want to continue to help you do all the small little things..
i want to spend many many years of our birthday tgr..

i do not want anything for my birthday,
nor do i need anything for my birthday..
i only have one wish..
only just one wish..
for all i wish is you..

i'll patiently wait for the day,
cos all my time belongs to you..

you're my addiction,
for it's you who keeps me surviving..

I'll chase after you, run to look for you,
Till i can finally find you..

Just like today..
Without knowing i can find you or not,
I just ran like a mad women just to find you,
and pass you your phone..

Sounds quite silly isnt..
But if you arent silly when it comes to love,
All i can say is that you never really loved someone before....

Waiting for you...