Praise

Sooooooo I've been getting back the results for CTs the past week or so.

Did better than I expected for almost every subject, I'm actually really happy with my performance haha.

Of course, I know without a doubt that none of this was my own doing, and in every sense, all glory to my  Lord.

Thank You God for Your strength, for carrying me through this.

My God never fails :)

Andddddddd on to EOYs leggo

I have probably spent at least 20 hours in front of my laptop this weekend, supposedly doing work.
But I am not done with anything, because I'm getting distracted every 2 minutes and I am dissatisfied with every sentence i type.

This feeling sucks

How badly do you want it?

Time to get off my ass and find my way back to the track

Over

Pretty overdue, considering CTs ended on tuesday but
WHOOOOOOOO CTS ARE OVER.

*feigns ignorance towards the fact that EOYS are in 6 weeks lol.*

Ugh, time is passing way faster than I'd like it to.
Way, way too fast.
I'm in year 4. 16.
where did all that time go to?
I should be taking my O levels this year, the climax to almost every 16 y o in Singapore.
Feels strange not being a part of it.
I can't help but wonder how I would do.

And Guides -- dropped by jihe for a bit with the rest today
Had so much fun talking, gossiping, reliving all the memories I hold so dear through watching the juniors.
I realise I never finished my PDP post.
Typed out over a thousand words, wasn't anywhere near done, so I left it as a draft.
I think I'm gna leave it there.

Sooooooo.
CTs are over.
Thank God the drama that was lit paper has all blown past, and in some twisted way I learnt something about grace, and doing the right thing through all of this.
Thank God that it's all over, now I'm just awaiting results with bated breath.
Asdfghjkl it's scary, because I've actually invested so much this time round.
I miss those days when results were a very ...eh. thing to me
To some extent, I really do envy people with that attitude.
They seem to be a lot more content.
But ah well, it's all in God's hands, and I know that.
I've tried my best, depended on God, so come whatever, all glory to Him :-)

On a side note, Tom Daley won a bronze a few days back.
Yay.
:)
I miss the olympics :(

Incoherence wins. Again.
Whooooooooooooooop.


P/s HELLO SIYUN YOU STALKER

Priorities set straight

So... CT week starts tmr.
I'm all jittery and stuff.
Especially terrified for LA.
I haven't got much confidence
And if confidence is directly proportional to faith
I'm in desperate need of faith.
Faith x info = confidence.
So I'm going to not study anymore, get myself a healthy 6+ hours of sleep.
QT + pray first, though, because I'm so far from adequately prepared, and God has all the answers I don't.

All for You, Lord.

Blessed

I am, even though half the time I'm too caught up in my situation to see it.
But looking beyond all of that, I realise that with God, there's always a silver lining.
Actually, it's more of a cloud with really bold silver marker outline such that the grey part is really not all that visible.
Unless you choose to zoom in on it, that is.

Silver clouds.

Breathe

Having an early night tonight, going to sleep soon but I thought I'd just blow off a bit of steam before going to sleep.

CT week is in like what, 4 days? 

Lololololol I don't think it has struck me yet.

I'm just praying for the best, depending on my Lord God, because in Christ all things are possible :)

But still , it's pretty darn scary because the next 2 weeks are really make or break.

Especially considering how my results haven't been stellar of late.

Mediocre, average.

I'd really like to change that. For the better.

Also, it's the 2nd last hurdle before the big one, which ups the level even further.

Asdfghjkl.

One good thing that will come out of all this?

I'm learning how much I depend on God on a day to day basis, and how dumb I am for having overlooked all this and crediting it to my own ability.

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"(now that I'm grown) When I fall, I bleed." -> line taken from some Lit test. So true.

This really struck me.

When you fall, I bleed too.

Pull out the band aids.

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Oh yeah, so, OLYMPICS :)

I've been following the Olympics pretty closely even with CTs round the corner.

My love for the Games hasn't died down since Athens :D

So many amazing athletes to watch.

Also, the mere fact that it's in LONDON is reason enough to catch every possible event hahahaha.

Mabbe one day I'll get to watch it live :)

Yeah the Olympics jut make me rly happy.

I even woke up at 4am last saturday to watch the opening LOL.

Spent the 4h texting cray w Yapqi hehe.

OH AND SINGAPORE GOT A BRONZE FOR TABLE TENNIS WHOOOOOP.

Feng Tianwei was awesomeballz seriously!

Also,

I'm still rooting for Tom Daley to get that medal.

10th August, mad excited!!!!

yeah, so not being obsessive.

Gosh he's so good looking and talented it's ridiculous.

And he's british.

I rest my case.

Hope he gets gold :))))))))))

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These days, wanderlust has just been growing inside of me.

My handbook's spammed w travel-related doodles hahahaha.

If my future career doesn't entail frequent travel, I think I just might explode.

BOOM.

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Well I suppose you could attribute the incoherence to the effects of not blogging properly for over a week.

I find myself thinking a lot lately, just random, abstract strings if words flowing in and our of my head.

It's pretty dazing/confusing, but it's nice being able to articulate my thoughts.

That's why this whole post is so jumbled up -- too many fragments of thoughts floating to the surface all at once.

Also, I'm sleep deprived.

晚安。

In Christ alone, my hope is found, He is my light, my strength, my song.

This cornerstone, this solid ground, firm through the fiercest drought and storm.

Random post, but my gosh I love the olympics so darn much.

Also, addition to bucket list -- DIVE OFF A 10M PLATFORM.

That is all.