I'm still here, still alive. Lots been going on, but can't get into it now.....gotta work after all....
Let me just say, that I hate stupid people. I hate people that are so set on making other people miserable, and will stop at nothing to get what they want no matter how miserable it makes other people they supposedly love and care about....
Tuesday, November 28, 2006
Saturday, October 28, 2006
Movie Quote Game
Yes, I'm slacking....
A. Pick 16 of your favorite movies.
B. Then pick one of your favorite quotes from each movie.
C. Post the quotes in your journal.
D. Have those on your friends list try to guess what the movie is — put your guesses in Comments. If you google, you suck.
E. Strike out the quote once it has been correctly identified and place the guesser’s username directly after the quote.
So here we go:
1. '*****, you're not supposed to name it. Once you name it, you start getting attached to it. Now put that thing back where it came from....'
2. 'Your doing it wrong. You do it like that its going to open up on you in a fire and your going to get burnt and die'
Rae (Backdraft)
3. 'Son, your ego is writing checks your body can't cash. You've been busted, you lost your qualifications as section leader three times, put in hack twice by me, with a history of high speed passes over five air control towers, and one admiral's daughter!' Rae (Top Gun)
4. Look, spaghetti arms. This is my dance space. This is your dance space. I don't go into yours, you don't go into mine. You gotta hold the frame. Rae (Dirty Dancing)
5. Y'see, when a girl decides that you're her friend, you're no longer a dating option. You become a complete non-sexual entity in her eyes, like a brother... or a lamp.
6. Jim, Jack, Johnny Red, Johnny Black, and Jose; all my favorite men. You can have it any way you like it, as long as it comes in a shot glass. Rae (Coyote Ugly)
7. Well cause it's sweet, which to me suggests cookie, I mean well putting cheese on something is sort of a defining characteristic of what makes a cracker a cracker. I don't know why I thought of that, i just...
8. At home we had a pet skunk. Mama used to call it Justin Matisse. Do you think that's just a coincidence? All day long she would to scream, "You stink Justin Matisse!" Then one day she just picked up a club and killed it.
9. I live my life a quarter mile at a time. Nothing else matters: not the mortgage, not the store, not my team and all their bullshit. For those ten seconds or less, I'm free.
10. I always tell the girls, never take it seriously, if ya never take it seriosuly, ya never get hurt, ya never get hurt, ya always have fun, and if you ever get lonely, just got to the record store and visit your friends.
11. 'Oh come on, we can take 'em.'
'It's a long way.'
'Toss me.'
'What?'
'I cannot jump the distance, you'll have to toss me.'
'Don't tell the elf.'
'Not a word.'
12. You must not be seen, and you would do well, I feel, to return before this last chime. If not, the consequences are too ghastly to discuss. If you succeed tonight, more than one innocent life may be spared. Three turns, should do it, I think.
13. It's cookies, he smells like cookies, and the smell gets stronger when he's in heat. Rae (Michael)
14. Ma'am, I'm never gonna be an English teacher. But I know why I'm here: to be a pilot. And you don't dogfight with manuals. You don't fly with gauges. I mean, it's all about feeling and speed, and lettin' that plane become like a part of your body. And that manual says that a guy who's a slow reader can't be a good pilot. That file says I'm the best pilot in this room. Ma'am, please, don't take my wings.
15. See that bathroom? Jim Morrison passed out in there one night, with me underneath him.
16. Sometimes the things that may or may not be true are the things a man needs to believe in the most. That people are basically good; that honor, courage, and virtue mean everything; that power and money, money and power mean nothing; that good always triumphs over evil; and I want you to remember this, that love... true love never dies. You remember that, boy. You remember that. Doesn't matter if it's true or not. You see, a man should believe in those things, because those are the things worth believing in.
Well that was fun......how many can ya get?
A. Pick 16 of your favorite movies.
B. Then pick one of your favorite quotes from each movie.
C. Post the quotes in your journal.
D. Have those on your friends list try to guess what the movie is — put your guesses in Comments. If you google, you suck.
E. Strike out the quote once it has been correctly identified and place the guesser’s username directly after the quote.
So here we go:
1. '*****, you're not supposed to name it. Once you name it, you start getting attached to it. Now put that thing back where it came from....'
2. 'Your doing it wrong. You do it like that its going to open up on you in a fire and your going to get burnt and die'
Rae (Backdraft)
3. 'Son, your ego is writing checks your body can't cash. You've been busted, you lost your qualifications as section leader three times, put in hack twice by me, with a history of high speed passes over five air control towers, and one admiral's daughter!' Rae (Top Gun)
4. Look, spaghetti arms. This is my dance space. This is your dance space. I don't go into yours, you don't go into mine. You gotta hold the frame. Rae (Dirty Dancing)
5. Y'see, when a girl decides that you're her friend, you're no longer a dating option. You become a complete non-sexual entity in her eyes, like a brother... or a lamp.
6. Jim, Jack, Johnny Red, Johnny Black, and Jose; all my favorite men. You can have it any way you like it, as long as it comes in a shot glass. Rae (Coyote Ugly)
7. Well cause it's sweet, which to me suggests cookie, I mean well putting cheese on something is sort of a defining characteristic of what makes a cracker a cracker. I don't know why I thought of that, i just...
8. At home we had a pet skunk. Mama used to call it Justin Matisse. Do you think that's just a coincidence? All day long she would to scream, "You stink Justin Matisse!" Then one day she just picked up a club and killed it.
9. I live my life a quarter mile at a time. Nothing else matters: not the mortgage, not the store, not my team and all their bullshit. For those ten seconds or less, I'm free.
10. I always tell the girls, never take it seriously, if ya never take it seriosuly, ya never get hurt, ya never get hurt, ya always have fun, and if you ever get lonely, just got to the record store and visit your friends.
11. 'Oh come on, we can take 'em.'
'It's a long way.'
'Toss me.'
'What?'
'I cannot jump the distance, you'll have to toss me.'
'Don't tell the elf.'
'Not a word.'
12. You must not be seen, and you would do well, I feel, to return before this last chime. If not, the consequences are too ghastly to discuss. If you succeed tonight, more than one innocent life may be spared. Three turns, should do it, I think.
13. It's cookies, he smells like cookies, and the smell gets stronger when he's in heat. Rae (Michael)
14. Ma'am, I'm never gonna be an English teacher. But I know why I'm here: to be a pilot. And you don't dogfight with manuals. You don't fly with gauges. I mean, it's all about feeling and speed, and lettin' that plane become like a part of your body. And that manual says that a guy who's a slow reader can't be a good pilot. That file says I'm the best pilot in this room. Ma'am, please, don't take my wings.
15. See that bathroom? Jim Morrison passed out in there one night, with me underneath him.
16. Sometimes the things that may or may not be true are the things a man needs to believe in the most. That people are basically good; that honor, courage, and virtue mean everything; that power and money, money and power mean nothing; that good always triumphs over evil; and I want you to remember this, that love... true love never dies. You remember that, boy. You remember that. Doesn't matter if it's true or not. You see, a man should believe in those things, because those are the things worth believing in.
Well that was fun......how many can ya get?
Saturday, October 07, 2006
Shoulda, woulda, coulda, maybe someday.
Wow, I'm just full of things to unload here lately, I think this is the most I've posted.....
The phrase 'shoulda, woulda, coulda' seems to be coming up alot lately. Every time I hear it, I think isn' it the truth. There are times that you SHOULD say something and done, then there are times you WOULD say something but don't know the right words, and then COULD say things, but you just don't know how they'll be taken. I guess sometimes I am too free with my feelings and shouldN'T say the things I do.
Lately I have been wondering, and I know I'm not supposed to ask the question WHY. But there are times that I wonder why it never seems to fail that something goes wrong when everything seems to be getting back on track.
*******
Why is it that I always seem to loose my steam halfway thru, then again, this phone has been non-stop today for some reason, keep getting sidetracked.
*******
So, I guess here it is, and part of me wants to say I'm just putting this here to get it off my chest, out of my brain and kind of mend this part of the heart I know is buried in the ruins of the walls that fell down when my dad had his heart attack, cause that's when all of me crumbled. ..... Love is there, and I deep down know its there, but for whatever reasons and I think I have a glimpse of some of them isn't ready to love me back. I got told today that I shouldn't 'settle' and I'm not settling. I have been told time and time again, if things are meant to be that they will be. I can't push them or will them to make it happen sooner, eventually things have to start going right in my life. God doesn't deal you any more than you can handle, and I believe in that, and obviously I still have things to learn. BUT however, I am NOT going to sit around and wait for things to fall into place and let life pass me by yet again.....I did that once, I definatly learned from that mistake, and we all make them, I don't know anyone who doesn't. And I know that there is still growing up to be done, I know that, shoot, I still have some to do myself, and I know this. But I still believe in this and I'm sticking to that, whether its stupid on my part or not, its me that will have to pick up the pieces if need be.
But life will go on, been feelin pretty low and even on the sick side lately. I hope I'm not getting sick...
So tonight we have a dance @ our station, could actually be kinda fun, I've decided I'm gonna do myself up like I've got someone to impress, (maybe just myself at this point) Hair, make-up, even 'goin out' clothes...if I can find things that fit. As the one girl in particular at work keeps telling me my clothes don't fit anymore they're fallin off and pretty soon are going to have to tie something around my jeans to keep em from falling down.
So I'm off for now....may be back if I need to unload my brain somemore.....
The phrase 'shoulda, woulda, coulda' seems to be coming up alot lately. Every time I hear it, I think isn' it the truth. There are times that you SHOULD say something and done, then there are times you WOULD say something but don't know the right words, and then COULD say things, but you just don't know how they'll be taken. I guess sometimes I am too free with my feelings and shouldN'T say the things I do.
Lately I have been wondering, and I know I'm not supposed to ask the question WHY. But there are times that I wonder why it never seems to fail that something goes wrong when everything seems to be getting back on track.
*******
Why is it that I always seem to loose my steam halfway thru, then again, this phone has been non-stop today for some reason, keep getting sidetracked.
*******
So, I guess here it is, and part of me wants to say I'm just putting this here to get it off my chest, out of my brain and kind of mend this part of the heart I know is buried in the ruins of the walls that fell down when my dad had his heart attack, cause that's when all of me crumbled. ..... Love is there, and I deep down know its there, but for whatever reasons and I think I have a glimpse of some of them isn't ready to love me back. I got told today that I shouldn't 'settle' and I'm not settling. I have been told time and time again, if things are meant to be that they will be. I can't push them or will them to make it happen sooner, eventually things have to start going right in my life. God doesn't deal you any more than you can handle, and I believe in that, and obviously I still have things to learn. BUT however, I am NOT going to sit around and wait for things to fall into place and let life pass me by yet again.....I did that once, I definatly learned from that mistake, and we all make them, I don't know anyone who doesn't. And I know that there is still growing up to be done, I know that, shoot, I still have some to do myself, and I know this. But I still believe in this and I'm sticking to that, whether its stupid on my part or not, its me that will have to pick up the pieces if need be.
But life will go on, been feelin pretty low and even on the sick side lately. I hope I'm not getting sick...
So tonight we have a dance @ our station, could actually be kinda fun, I've decided I'm gonna do myself up like I've got someone to impress, (maybe just myself at this point) Hair, make-up, even 'goin out' clothes...if I can find things that fit. As the one girl in particular at work keeps telling me my clothes don't fit anymore they're fallin off and pretty soon are going to have to tie something around my jeans to keep em from falling down.
So I'm off for now....may be back if I need to unload my brain somemore.....
Thursday, October 05, 2006
Where the Heart is.....or isn't.....
I have a direction for this post, but if it stays there, who knows, my brain is pretty scattered today more than usual.
What is it when you meet up with an old friend after a long time, you talk and catch up a bit, and decide you'd like to visit. A blast from my past has recently came back into my life in a sense, for reasons semi unbeknownst to me, other that maybe I would rather not admit are a bit on the selfish side. So, said friend decides they are coming to visit. As soon as you sit down you realize that this isn't the best idea, and truely your heart isn't in it. You are secretly pleading for them to find reason to go, but don't have the heart to ask them to...your heart is somewhere else, every time you look at them you think 'That is the wrong person sitting here beside me'.
When finally both of you have had enough of the 'weirdness' for lack of a better word, you give one another half a hug say 'it was good to see you' knowing neither of you mean it, that you both know perfectly well you just wasted time better spent otherwise. I think the worst is just knowing my heart isn't there, and knowing where this dumb old heart is...and being afraid that I'm never going to get it back....intact or in pieces.
Other than that....lets see, life in general. Busy as always, in debt like the rest of the good ol US of A, tired, don't like my job, mourning the loss of summer and warm weather for what is hopefully not shaping up to be a terrible cold winter. I did some cleaning tonight, got out my lil electric heaters so when it does get cold I won't freeze like I did last Saturday after our lil Fall festival my fire dept took part in. It was cold and raining, and we spent the majority of the day out in it selling yummy baked goods and 'instant bingo' tickets. And it took the rest of the weekend to thaw out. The fire dept. is keeping me pretty busy, the love life is non existant. The family front is about the same as always.
And how are YOU doing?!?!?!?
What is it when you meet up with an old friend after a long time, you talk and catch up a bit, and decide you'd like to visit. A blast from my past has recently came back into my life in a sense, for reasons semi unbeknownst to me, other that maybe I would rather not admit are a bit on the selfish side. So, said friend decides they are coming to visit. As soon as you sit down you realize that this isn't the best idea, and truely your heart isn't in it. You are secretly pleading for them to find reason to go, but don't have the heart to ask them to...your heart is somewhere else, every time you look at them you think 'That is the wrong person sitting here beside me'.
When finally both of you have had enough of the 'weirdness' for lack of a better word, you give one another half a hug say 'it was good to see you' knowing neither of you mean it, that you both know perfectly well you just wasted time better spent otherwise. I think the worst is just knowing my heart isn't there, and knowing where this dumb old heart is...and being afraid that I'm never going to get it back....intact or in pieces.
Other than that....lets see, life in general. Busy as always, in debt like the rest of the good ol US of A, tired, don't like my job, mourning the loss of summer and warm weather for what is hopefully not shaping up to be a terrible cold winter. I did some cleaning tonight, got out my lil electric heaters so when it does get cold I won't freeze like I did last Saturday after our lil Fall festival my fire dept took part in. It was cold and raining, and we spent the majority of the day out in it selling yummy baked goods and 'instant bingo' tickets. And it took the rest of the weekend to thaw out. The fire dept. is keeping me pretty busy, the love life is non existant. The family front is about the same as always.
And how are YOU doing?!?!?!?
Monday, September 25, 2006
Frustration!
I hate this place, I hate ppl in this place!
Boys.....that trip is sounding real good! Lets go, where do I sign up? Get me my ticket!!
Boys.....that trip is sounding real good! Lets go, where do I sign up? Get me my ticket!!
Thursday, September 21, 2006
A MeMe from JuJuBee....
It seems that my dear cousin JuJu, and Aunt Wink have gotten some very therapeutic experience from this. I could really use some of that these days.
There has been a lot going on. And imagine this, I jinxed it once again. Have a great guy there, and for reasons unbeknownst to me, something snaps and changes and *poof* gone.
But lets start with my list.....then maybe we'll go from there.
LIST TEN THINGS YOU WANT TO SAY TO PEOPLE YOU KNOW BUT YOU NEVER WILL, FOR WHATEVER REASON. DON'T SAY WHO THEY ARE. USE EACH PERSON ONLY ONCE.*
1. Why must you always be causing trouble? There always has to be some kind of conflict, does that make you happy? Do you get ur jollies from other people's misfortune? You are nothing but trouble, and I hope that some day when you get yours that I'm around to see it! *more than one person involved here*
2. You do NOT have to be the head of everything. It is not always your job to be the chief commander. You do NOT have to do it all, there are other people to do things-let them. And if you don't, don't go complaining about it later that no one else contributed. And on top of that, when you aren't don't get mad cause someone else is.....
3. You have been there for me thru so much, for so many years. I don't know what I would do without you, and don't know how I will ever thank you enough, I love you and am so proud of you and all you've accomplished!
4. Why can't you take a hint? You aren't wanted, you aren't welcome, go the hell away and leave me and everyone else involved the hell alone. You've been all but told to go take a flying leap, would you like to consider it? I sure won't miss you, or all the aggrivation you cause.
5. I miss you! I wish I knew what happened to have such the gap that there is now. And I have no idea where to being to start to close it. I wish you could make the first move and start the mending process.
6. It seems like you only call when you want something, when there is nothing better to do. Life is busy, life is CRAZY right now in fact. Struggles on many many levels. But it would be nice to just get a 'hey hows it goin' for a change.
7. YOU left us, we didn't leave you! Your the one that ran away from all of your problems and responsibilities. YOU seperated urself from all of us, you BOTH did. I don't want to hear you cry and boohoo that your not included and that WE are your problems, cause we aren't. Deal with it, pull those bootstraps up and take some responsibility for yourself!
8. No matter what, I am here for you. Always have been, always will be. Don't shut me out, don't push me away. Especially now, let me in.
9. Its time, you are all grown up now, its time to step out of the shell that you've lived in for so long and do things for yourself. See what kind of person you are going to be, instead of the person you've been forced to be. I know that you can do this, and I am looking forward to watching you spread your wings and fly all on your own!
10. I don't know what I ever did to you, I wish I did. Maybe someday I'll know and maybe can redeem myself, if its necesarry....
Wow, that was in a sense harder than I thought it was going to be. I am not the type of person to not tell someone what I want to say, at least when it comes to feelings.
Alright, well I'm all blog drained right now, I had many many more things to say, but they have since escaped me. I have a juicy book about fire and firefighters sitting with my pillow and my blanket, I'm going to enjoy the fact its Saturday and I have no direct plans, its kinda crappy outside today and I'm gonna lay under a blanket and read a book, just cause I CAN!
Hope everyone has a good weekend! Leave me some love, got any advice, I'll gladly take it all....
There has been a lot going on. And imagine this, I jinxed it once again. Have a great guy there, and for reasons unbeknownst to me, something snaps and changes and *poof* gone.
But lets start with my list.....then maybe we'll go from there.
LIST TEN THINGS YOU WANT TO SAY TO PEOPLE YOU KNOW BUT YOU NEVER WILL, FOR WHATEVER REASON. DON'T SAY WHO THEY ARE. USE EACH PERSON ONLY ONCE.*
1. Why must you always be causing trouble? There always has to be some kind of conflict, does that make you happy? Do you get ur jollies from other people's misfortune? You are nothing but trouble, and I hope that some day when you get yours that I'm around to see it! *more than one person involved here*
2. You do NOT have to be the head of everything. It is not always your job to be the chief commander. You do NOT have to do it all, there are other people to do things-let them. And if you don't, don't go complaining about it later that no one else contributed. And on top of that, when you aren't don't get mad cause someone else is.....
3. You have been there for me thru so much, for so many years. I don't know what I would do without you, and don't know how I will ever thank you enough, I love you and am so proud of you and all you've accomplished!
4. Why can't you take a hint? You aren't wanted, you aren't welcome, go the hell away and leave me and everyone else involved the hell alone. You've been all but told to go take a flying leap, would you like to consider it? I sure won't miss you, or all the aggrivation you cause.
5. I miss you! I wish I knew what happened to have such the gap that there is now. And I have no idea where to being to start to close it. I wish you could make the first move and start the mending process.
6. It seems like you only call when you want something, when there is nothing better to do. Life is busy, life is CRAZY right now in fact. Struggles on many many levels. But it would be nice to just get a 'hey hows it goin' for a change.
7. YOU left us, we didn't leave you! Your the one that ran away from all of your problems and responsibilities. YOU seperated urself from all of us, you BOTH did. I don't want to hear you cry and boohoo that your not included and that WE are your problems, cause we aren't. Deal with it, pull those bootstraps up and take some responsibility for yourself!
8. No matter what, I am here for you. Always have been, always will be. Don't shut me out, don't push me away. Especially now, let me in.
9. Its time, you are all grown up now, its time to step out of the shell that you've lived in for so long and do things for yourself. See what kind of person you are going to be, instead of the person you've been forced to be. I know that you can do this, and I am looking forward to watching you spread your wings and fly all on your own!
10. I don't know what I ever did to you, I wish I did. Maybe someday I'll know and maybe can redeem myself, if its necesarry....
Wow, that was in a sense harder than I thought it was going to be. I am not the type of person to not tell someone what I want to say, at least when it comes to feelings.
Alright, well I'm all blog drained right now, I had many many more things to say, but they have since escaped me. I have a juicy book about fire and firefighters sitting with my pillow and my blanket, I'm going to enjoy the fact its Saturday and I have no direct plans, its kinda crappy outside today and I'm gonna lay under a blanket and read a book, just cause I CAN!
Hope everyone has a good weekend! Leave me some love, got any advice, I'll gladly take it all....
Monday, August 28, 2006
Borrowing Trouble...(why do I always do this???)
I'm still alive, haven't fallen off the face of the earth yet.
Life has been a lil crazy. Camp weekend got cut very very short. We were there for maybe a half hour when we got called back cause my dad had a heart attack and was life flighted to a city hospital where they attempted a heart cath, and ended up having to do a triple bypass surgery on his heart. That was 5 weeks ago Saturday....And just looking at that, I guess it doesn't seem like its been that long. But he's doing great in his recovery and can go back to work for a few hours at a time the week after next. They are sending him in the middle of Sept. For an eko-cardiogram to check for permanent damage to his heart, but they don't look to find any.
Other than that and some minor family drama, the firehall life is good, most of the time. And for the most part life in general has been pretty good. But for those that know me, know that I 'borrow trouble' from time to time and make myself crazy. And after making myself an absolute mess yesterday for what I've come to the conclusion that my insecurities and past experiences give me 'fodder' to make my mind race and give me doubts.
I should be on my way to work right now, but I'm hoping that writing this will make me feel better....am actually considering if I get what I need to get in here just showing him...goodness knows I read his blogs...
I think the real reason I haven't posted in so long isn't because life has been crazy, its been because for the most part things have been going so well for me, and I didn't want to jinx them.
For almost the last 2 months I have been back to hanging out with a very good friend of mine that for a lot of reasons before wasn't around. He has been a good friend for a LOT of years, and these days the easiest thing to call him is my best friend. Typically, and this is getting proven more and more, common friends have come to automatically asking where he is when we aren't together, cause we usually are. He was there for me thru the whole ordeal with my dad--he took me to get dad the first hospital trip, stayed til they told us to leave, my parents told us to go ahead and go to camp, so we did, he was, as another dear friend of mine calls him---my nascar driver and got me SAFELY to the hospital that was probably a good 3 1/2 hours from camp in under 2 1/2 and never left my side until the worst of things were over,and even then, he was only a phone call away--going as far as arranging to have someone ready at a moments notice to bring him to the hospital to come get us if we needed him.
Like I said, we've been friends for years, somewhere like 8 I think. And I know at least the last couple, there have been other feelings there, and not just on my part. But when you've been friends that long, its not real easy to take the chance of jumping into something more without thinking about the consequences of what happens if things don't work out, are those feelings and exploring them worth the chance of loosing a friend that close? We've talked about it, and I *THINK* (I know this is where I am with this, and I am pretty sure this is where he is too...)we've come to the decision that its worth a shot, cause everyone always says you have to be friends first, and that the best relationships come out of strong friendships.
He is more recently out of a relationship than I am, and we've talked about our feelings and have come to the point where we both want to see what happens between us. He still has some things he wants to get straight in his own mind, he tells me often that he wants to get his head back on straight. And that's in absolute fairness to the both of us. And I'm completely fine with that. I keep telling myself that 'slow and steady wins the race' and I want him to get all that he needs to get worked out for himself taken care of. All of my cards are on the table, he knows exactly how I feel. I tell him its his move and every time it seems like everything is going great and things are where they need to be, something always happens and he clams up and pulls back again. And then I start doing this 'borrowing trouble' thing that I start using past experiences and fretting over things that I probably shouldn't be fretting over. And I KNOW I SHOULDN'T DO THIS!! SO WHY DO I?!?!?!?!?
And when I normally voice these worries, he tells me that he hasn't went anywhere yet and if he hasn't yet, why do I think that he will. And I think that THOSE insecurities fall to my past where someone promised me the world, or at least THEIR world, on a 'silver platter' so to speak and when it actually came time that it could happen took it all away and acted like there was never anything. And I don't want to think of having to pick up THOSE pieces again. But I have said more than once, that I'm willing to take a chance, and if I get hurt, then I'll worry about it when or IF it happens. But sometimes, its harder to think that and BELIEVE that than it is to say it.
My goodness after some of the things he's been around THRU the last 2 months with me, any other guy I've ever known would have turned tail and ran a long long time ago. He is absolutely amazing!!! He makes me feel good about myself, and makes me laugh and smile, and feel special, thinking about seeing him helps the day go, and the lil messages I get thru the day make me smile, and everything else that lets you know your loved and cared about. And that scares me, cause what did I do to deserve something, no SOMEONE so good in my life? And what do I do so I don't go screwin it up before we even really get started. How do I put my insecurities aside and let this take me, where its going?
Last night when I talked to him, I was real down, and ended up bein pissy with him, and ended up making things worse when I tried to apologize, but knew if I got into it I was gonna get upset and look like an idiot cause I shouldn't have even been thinking the things I was. And hopefully it will get chalked up to a bad day, and I know everyone has them, but.....I don't want to screw this up....
Okay, I think I'm just coming to where I'm repeating myself and doing a bit of rambling, I don't even know if this makes any sense....
Wish me luck I guess....
Life has been a lil crazy. Camp weekend got cut very very short. We were there for maybe a half hour when we got called back cause my dad had a heart attack and was life flighted to a city hospital where they attempted a heart cath, and ended up having to do a triple bypass surgery on his heart. That was 5 weeks ago Saturday....And just looking at that, I guess it doesn't seem like its been that long. But he's doing great in his recovery and can go back to work for a few hours at a time the week after next. They are sending him in the middle of Sept. For an eko-cardiogram to check for permanent damage to his heart, but they don't look to find any.
Other than that and some minor family drama, the firehall life is good, most of the time. And for the most part life in general has been pretty good. But for those that know me, know that I 'borrow trouble' from time to time and make myself crazy. And after making myself an absolute mess yesterday for what I've come to the conclusion that my insecurities and past experiences give me 'fodder' to make my mind race and give me doubts.
I should be on my way to work right now, but I'm hoping that writing this will make me feel better....am actually considering if I get what I need to get in here just showing him...goodness knows I read his blogs...
I think the real reason I haven't posted in so long isn't because life has been crazy, its been because for the most part things have been going so well for me, and I didn't want to jinx them.
For almost the last 2 months I have been back to hanging out with a very good friend of mine that for a lot of reasons before wasn't around. He has been a good friend for a LOT of years, and these days the easiest thing to call him is my best friend. Typically, and this is getting proven more and more, common friends have come to automatically asking where he is when we aren't together, cause we usually are. He was there for me thru the whole ordeal with my dad--he took me to get dad the first hospital trip, stayed til they told us to leave, my parents told us to go ahead and go to camp, so we did, he was, as another dear friend of mine calls him---my nascar driver and got me SAFELY to the hospital that was probably a good 3 1/2 hours from camp in under 2 1/2 and never left my side until the worst of things were over,and even then, he was only a phone call away--going as far as arranging to have someone ready at a moments notice to bring him to the hospital to come get us if we needed him.
Like I said, we've been friends for years, somewhere like 8 I think. And I know at least the last couple, there have been other feelings there, and not just on my part. But when you've been friends that long, its not real easy to take the chance of jumping into something more without thinking about the consequences of what happens if things don't work out, are those feelings and exploring them worth the chance of loosing a friend that close? We've talked about it, and I *THINK* (I know this is where I am with this, and I am pretty sure this is where he is too...)we've come to the decision that its worth a shot, cause everyone always says you have to be friends first, and that the best relationships come out of strong friendships.
He is more recently out of a relationship than I am, and we've talked about our feelings and have come to the point where we both want to see what happens between us. He still has some things he wants to get straight in his own mind, he tells me often that he wants to get his head back on straight. And that's in absolute fairness to the both of us. And I'm completely fine with that. I keep telling myself that 'slow and steady wins the race' and I want him to get all that he needs to get worked out for himself taken care of. All of my cards are on the table, he knows exactly how I feel. I tell him its his move and every time it seems like everything is going great and things are where they need to be, something always happens and he clams up and pulls back again. And then I start doing this 'borrowing trouble' thing that I start using past experiences and fretting over things that I probably shouldn't be fretting over. And I KNOW I SHOULDN'T DO THIS!! SO WHY DO I?!?!?!?!?
And when I normally voice these worries, he tells me that he hasn't went anywhere yet and if he hasn't yet, why do I think that he will. And I think that THOSE insecurities fall to my past where someone promised me the world, or at least THEIR world, on a 'silver platter' so to speak and when it actually came time that it could happen took it all away and acted like there was never anything. And I don't want to think of having to pick up THOSE pieces again. But I have said more than once, that I'm willing to take a chance, and if I get hurt, then I'll worry about it when or IF it happens. But sometimes, its harder to think that and BELIEVE that than it is to say it.
My goodness after some of the things he's been around THRU the last 2 months with me, any other guy I've ever known would have turned tail and ran a long long time ago. He is absolutely amazing!!! He makes me feel good about myself, and makes me laugh and smile, and feel special, thinking about seeing him helps the day go, and the lil messages I get thru the day make me smile, and everything else that lets you know your loved and cared about. And that scares me, cause what did I do to deserve something, no SOMEONE so good in my life? And what do I do so I don't go screwin it up before we even really get started. How do I put my insecurities aside and let this take me, where its going?
Last night when I talked to him, I was real down, and ended up bein pissy with him, and ended up making things worse when I tried to apologize, but knew if I got into it I was gonna get upset and look like an idiot cause I shouldn't have even been thinking the things I was. And hopefully it will get chalked up to a bad day, and I know everyone has them, but.....I don't want to screw this up....
Okay, I think I'm just coming to where I'm repeating myself and doing a bit of rambling, I don't even know if this makes any sense....
Wish me luck I guess....
Wednesday, July 26, 2006
Far Behind
I know, I need to update.
So much going on, so little time to post....at least right now. Waiting on a ride to go work bingo, cause my lovely wonderful car got a flat on the way home and the rim is cracked too, so I've got the donut on there, and am not planning on driving it unless I have to.
Things are good, got a GREAT bunch of friends I've been spending my time with. I'm enjoying being back in the fire dept. (Though I really could think of better things to do than go work bingo tonight ;) I know I'm bad)
This weekend we're going to camp, a whole big group of us, next weekend another group of us is going to a country concert. Should be fun times......
Well, puppy is here begging to go outside.....catch ya'll later.
What's goin on in everyone elses worlds?
So much going on, so little time to post....at least right now. Waiting on a ride to go work bingo, cause my lovely wonderful car got a flat on the way home and the rim is cracked too, so I've got the donut on there, and am not planning on driving it unless I have to.
Things are good, got a GREAT bunch of friends I've been spending my time with. I'm enjoying being back in the fire dept. (Though I really could think of better things to do than go work bingo tonight ;) I know I'm bad)
This weekend we're going to camp, a whole big group of us, next weekend another group of us is going to a country concert. Should be fun times......
Well, puppy is here begging to go outside.....catch ya'll later.
What's goin on in everyone elses worlds?
Tuesday, June 27, 2006
Well, Here we go!
So, I've been gone for a while, and been doing a lot of thinking over that time. I've been thinking about how much of a lazy butt I've become, I come home from work and sit here either in front of this computer or with my nose in a book. And that's all well and good, but I have always done things for the better of other people. Since I have been 14 years old, minus a couple of years for leave and such, I have been a volunteer firefighter. Last year about this time, I was at the end of my rope. I needed a break, everything that someone else wouldn't do around there, I took on, and I was killing myself. So I asked for leave of absense, they regretfully granted it and have been trying ever since to get me back. I wanted time ot make my massage business work, get it up and moving. Its still feast or famine, but when its feast, I'm definatly high on the hog. But its time to go back and do something for someone else. I think my wake up call really has been my friends and their family loosing their house and everything they owned. Not that it was around here and I would have been on that truck, but just the fact that, they are okay, things can be replaced, but somewhere around here that could happen and I could somehow make a difference.
I'm going back in a little different status than I was. Since I've been having so many troubles with my back, I've been advised by my chiro that he doesn't want me doing the manual labor end of firefighting. That is fine, the chief before I left wanted to impliment a better accountability system and wanted me to be in charge of it. What exactly does that mean? I'm not completely sure, but I'll be keeping track of who's on a fire scene and where they are on that scene to keep everyone safe and accounted for. Or at least that's the plan. And of course help whip some of the new younger firefighters that we call juniors into shape *just kidding*. But I would like to maybe eventually be some kind of junior advisor to the 5 younger kids we have around the station.
So Rae---I am anxious for B to come back and see his face when he sees me down there....shall we tell him or leave it a surprise?
Tam, see I finally wrote something.
Aunt Wink, Welcome back from vacation.
And JuJu *waves* Hi, I miss you !!!
Alright, its off to work for me.....
I'm going back in a little different status than I was. Since I've been having so many troubles with my back, I've been advised by my chiro that he doesn't want me doing the manual labor end of firefighting. That is fine, the chief before I left wanted to impliment a better accountability system and wanted me to be in charge of it. What exactly does that mean? I'm not completely sure, but I'll be keeping track of who's on a fire scene and where they are on that scene to keep everyone safe and accounted for. Or at least that's the plan. And of course help whip some of the new younger firefighters that we call juniors into shape *just kidding*. But I would like to maybe eventually be some kind of junior advisor to the 5 younger kids we have around the station.
So Rae---I am anxious for B to come back and see his face when he sees me down there....shall we tell him or leave it a surprise?
Tam, see I finally wrote something.
Aunt Wink, Welcome back from vacation.
And JuJu *waves* Hi, I miss you !!!
Alright, its off to work for me.....
Friday, June 02, 2006
Girls weekend
Girls weekend at camp!!!! CAN NOT WAIT!!!!
As soon as Beck gets here, we're loading up the vehicle, picking up last minute things and goin to get Nee and we're OFF!!!!!
As soon as Beck gets here, we're loading up the vehicle, picking up last minute things and goin to get Nee and we're OFF!!!!!
Saturday, May 13, 2006
A Tribute.
This is probably one of two tributes I will be writing this weekend, or at least that's what I'm hoping for.
So in 9 days my friend RAE will officially be a published romance writer for Samhain Publishing.
Rae has been my friend and surrogate big sister since as long as I can remember, she used to babysit me when I was a small child while our parents would go out together to either have a good time, or make some money for the local fire dept. that everyone volunteered for. Then as she went off to the Air Force and got married and started having her children, I became the babysitter to her, at the time, 2 children. As we all got older, my babysitting days ended, and Rae became more like a best friend to me, she is the one who got me into reading romances in the first place, I would have never in a million years thought that I'd ever enjoy reading the things I do now. As she started working on writing to make it as an author I would get a message that said, 'Hey Jo will you read this for me and tell me what you think?', then I started getting whole chapters. I have read many of Heather Rae Scott's stories, and hopefully some of those wonderful characters will see the light of day in print (though she has sworn to me that I will never see it!). I love reading what Rae writes because I've known her for so long, I see the life experiences of her or the people around her from time to time in what she writes. Not to mention they tell her to write what she knows, so you get Pittsburgh, and from time to time a hot fireman.
;)
In real life, Rae has been there for me always and helped me pick up the pieces of my life about as many times as there have been pieces to pick up. And she's always able to remind me of what I went thru to get here, at the very moment I'm about to go down the same path again. She has been, and always will be one of my very best friends.
So I am asking you that come here and read what I have to say, the whole 3 of you (Rae makes 4, but we need to go see her!, to go over to HER PLACE and give her some encouragement, because I know she's going a little stir crazy over there, and the butterflies are fluttering strongly in her tummy!
And for those of you who like romantic comedies, you'll love this book, and this series....Go ahead, go meet Rae, and Gracie, Tori and Callie in Last Thing I Expected, Last Thing I Wanted, and Last Thing I Needed.
Rae, I love you and I know you'll do well, this is only the beginning of much much more to come. In August when the book comes into print we'll have the picture from Borders picking it up off of the shelf! And you better get that pen ready, cause there will be lots of signing for you to do!!!!!!!
So in 9 days my friend RAE will officially be a published romance writer for Samhain Publishing.
Rae has been my friend and surrogate big sister since as long as I can remember, she used to babysit me when I was a small child while our parents would go out together to either have a good time, or make some money for the local fire dept. that everyone volunteered for. Then as she went off to the Air Force and got married and started having her children, I became the babysitter to her, at the time, 2 children. As we all got older, my babysitting days ended, and Rae became more like a best friend to me, she is the one who got me into reading romances in the first place, I would have never in a million years thought that I'd ever enjoy reading the things I do now. As she started working on writing to make it as an author I would get a message that said, 'Hey Jo will you read this for me and tell me what you think?', then I started getting whole chapters. I have read many of Heather Rae Scott's stories, and hopefully some of those wonderful characters will see the light of day in print (though she has sworn to me that I will never see it!). I love reading what Rae writes because I've known her for so long, I see the life experiences of her or the people around her from time to time in what she writes. Not to mention they tell her to write what she knows, so you get Pittsburgh, and from time to time a hot fireman.
;)
In real life, Rae has been there for me always and helped me pick up the pieces of my life about as many times as there have been pieces to pick up. And she's always able to remind me of what I went thru to get here, at the very moment I'm about to go down the same path again. She has been, and always will be one of my very best friends.
So I am asking you that come here and read what I have to say, the whole 3 of you (Rae makes 4, but we need to go see her!, to go over to HER PLACE and give her some encouragement, because I know she's going a little stir crazy over there, and the butterflies are fluttering strongly in her tummy!
And for those of you who like romantic comedies, you'll love this book, and this series....Go ahead, go meet Rae, and Gracie, Tori and Callie in Last Thing I Expected, Last Thing I Wanted, and Last Thing I Needed.
Rae, I love you and I know you'll do well, this is only the beginning of much much more to come. In August when the book comes into print we'll have the picture from Borders picking it up off of the shelf! And you better get that pen ready, cause there will be lots of signing for you to do!!!!!!!
Saturday, April 29, 2006
Catching Up
I have NO idea why I'm awake at 10 minutes to 7 on a Saturday morning, maybe cause after waking at 4:30 every day, that's all the sleeping in I get *blah*
Lets see, the past week has been interesting. Last Sunday I spent the day with my mom and my gran, that was a nice afternoon, we don't do that enough.
Tuesday-my Grandma went in for a procedure. Almost a year to the day before, she was taken in to the ER thinking she was having a heart attack, they in the tests found her kidney was enlarged, with further tests, they found she had tumors (yes multiple) on her kidney and the uretur (I don't spell well---you'll get used to it) tube that goes from kidney to bladder. So the tests put us into late June, they scheduled to remove the kidney mid July in one of the fancy hospitals in the city cause they are 'better'. Well surgery comes and goes, Novemeber, before thanksgiving, She goes back in, something isn't right, there is a lot of pain. They do a cystoscopy for the second time, find, that the dr that did the procedure at this 'better' city hospital didn't do what he was supposed to, there is still part of that tube left coming to the bladder, and there are tumors growing all over it, BOTH inside and out! So, he did some work on the inside right then with that test, then another procedure 2 days later to get the ones on the outside and the remainder of the tube. We find out between then and now that the one remaining kidney is NOT working at the capacity it should be, and then find out there are tumors on THAT kidney too. So for THAT problem they are going to start next tuesday, a 'non chemical' treatment. Its not Chemo, its not radiation, but its a 6 week regiman of something I'm not really understanding. So.
That brings me back to Tues Grandma goes in for Cystoscopy #3, they think there are 2 more tumors in her bladder, they find 4, do their thing to remove them and hopefully keep more from coming back. So its been a lil stressful. Thank you for the thoughts and prayers.
Wed. was Dad and my tiny cousin Maddy's b-day----Happy Birthday again Lil girl!
Thursday, we went for piercings, and yes, Tam is right, he is a very treasured friend. There are a lot of times I don't know what I'd do without him. But damn is he entertaining.
Then last night well I just sat at home and watched tv like a couch potato, it was kind of nice.
Today will be busy though, my small cousin's birthday party is at 1, then I was invited to a bonfire this evening, so I will have to be going pretty soon so I can put together some yummy goodies to take with me......not that I have any idea what I'm throwing together....
So, I'm not sure what else I was going to blog when I sat down to post the update, YESTERDAY....but when it comes to me I'll come back....
Enjoy the beautiful weekend, I'm planning on it!
Lets see, the past week has been interesting. Last Sunday I spent the day with my mom and my gran, that was a nice afternoon, we don't do that enough.
Tuesday-my Grandma went in for a procedure. Almost a year to the day before, she was taken in to the ER thinking she was having a heart attack, they in the tests found her kidney was enlarged, with further tests, they found she had tumors (yes multiple) on her kidney and the uretur (I don't spell well---you'll get used to it) tube that goes from kidney to bladder. So the tests put us into late June, they scheduled to remove the kidney mid July in one of the fancy hospitals in the city cause they are 'better'. Well surgery comes and goes, Novemeber, before thanksgiving, She goes back in, something isn't right, there is a lot of pain. They do a cystoscopy for the second time, find, that the dr that did the procedure at this 'better' city hospital didn't do what he was supposed to, there is still part of that tube left coming to the bladder, and there are tumors growing all over it, BOTH inside and out! So, he did some work on the inside right then with that test, then another procedure 2 days later to get the ones on the outside and the remainder of the tube. We find out between then and now that the one remaining kidney is NOT working at the capacity it should be, and then find out there are tumors on THAT kidney too. So for THAT problem they are going to start next tuesday, a 'non chemical' treatment. Its not Chemo, its not radiation, but its a 6 week regiman of something I'm not really understanding. So.
That brings me back to Tues Grandma goes in for Cystoscopy #3, they think there are 2 more tumors in her bladder, they find 4, do their thing to remove them and hopefully keep more from coming back. So its been a lil stressful. Thank you for the thoughts and prayers.
Wed. was Dad and my tiny cousin Maddy's b-day----Happy Birthday again Lil girl!
Thursday, we went for piercings, and yes, Tam is right, he is a very treasured friend. There are a lot of times I don't know what I'd do without him. But damn is he entertaining.
Then last night well I just sat at home and watched tv like a couch potato, it was kind of nice.
Today will be busy though, my small cousin's birthday party is at 1, then I was invited to a bonfire this evening, so I will have to be going pretty soon so I can put together some yummy goodies to take with me......not that I have any idea what I'm throwing together....
So, I'm not sure what else I was going to blog when I sat down to post the update, YESTERDAY....but when it comes to me I'll come back....
Enjoy the beautiful weekend, I'm planning on it!
Friday, April 28, 2006
I know...
I know, I know, Before Rae yells at me. I need to update, I have LOTS to blog. But this morning isn't the morning, got up late, want to be in early this morning, proves to be interesting. I took my favorite male co-worker yesterday and I got my ears pierced a few more times, and he got his tongue done......The ride home was MORE than entertaining, so the swelling will be more today, and I definatly have to be there when he comes in.....Today could be fun! *note, it may sound mean, but he knows we love him, he's like a brother to me, we definatly fight like we are brother and sister---today he just happens to be our entertainment!*
I'll be back to do soon.
Happy b-day to Madeline Grace, & Jenny---and my dad, uncle and cousin Joe too, but I don't think I have to worry about them coming here to read.
Happy Friday!
I'll be back to do soon.
Happy b-day to Madeline Grace, & Jenny---and my dad, uncle and cousin Joe too, but I don't think I have to worry about them coming here to read.
Happy Friday!
Saturday, April 15, 2006
Happy Easter!
Happy Easter everyone!!!
This past week has been productive, I gave the apartment a thorough cleaning this week scrubbed everything down, smells lysoly clean in my place, its kinda nice!
It's hard to believe this coming week will mark the year that I have been in this place. I didn't officially move in til the 30th of April last year, but I think the 18th of last April I decided I was going to do this and started the whole moving process. How exciting! And I still love it!!!!!! (though a maid would be nice...but doesn't everyone want one of those?)
No, I'm not exactly having a problem with a reader so to speak, back in my bad week I was having last week somehow I was in a messenger window and had sent a picture to a friend and Wickett came and sat on the keyboard and next thing I knew I was getting asked about a particular post and was he supposed to get this link.....So I had to explain the whole blog thing, and after that I just felt I needed to put that in there, for future reference.
On that whole subject, I'm hoping things are getting better, we have plans next weekend as 'just friends' but, as I've said before, I don't think either one of us wants to be done just yet. It was agreed, and I even got told I was missed! That's a good sign right? Well enough about that.
Last night I made AWESOME dinner.....kabobs marinated and cooked in A1 marinade, grilled to the point they didn't stay on the skewers, over rice with garlic bread. I cooked for the parents :) I'm such a good kid *coughs*, they feed me more often than not, I was off earlier than they were so I had it all planned out. Then sat with them and played video games with my dad for a bit, came home and fell asleep on the couch reading a book at 9-crawled in bed at 1030 and slept all night!
Took my gran shoppin' this morning, got what I need for tomorrow's holiday dinner, (trying a new recipe, I'll let ya know if its any good). Got goodies to go to Rae's for an Easter Egg Hunt! Cooked a bit, finished cleaning, and went to spend the afternoon with my dear friend, her man and her kids, It was a wonderful thing to see the looks on those kids faces when they came running. and even more when they opened everything!!! Thanks Rae, it was fun!
Back here, with a tuckered out Wickett laying on the arm of the chair here beside me, enjoying music playing in the background and the cool night air coming in thru my open windows and door. It was 74 degrees today!!!! and Beautifully sunny in the afternoon!!!!
Hope everyone gets to spend the holiday with friends or family!
I'm off to be lazy somewhere else.
HAPPY EASTER!!!
This past week has been productive, I gave the apartment a thorough cleaning this week scrubbed everything down, smells lysoly clean in my place, its kinda nice!
It's hard to believe this coming week will mark the year that I have been in this place. I didn't officially move in til the 30th of April last year, but I think the 18th of last April I decided I was going to do this and started the whole moving process. How exciting! And I still love it!!!!!! (though a maid would be nice...but doesn't everyone want one of those?)
No, I'm not exactly having a problem with a reader so to speak, back in my bad week I was having last week somehow I was in a messenger window and had sent a picture to a friend and Wickett came and sat on the keyboard and next thing I knew I was getting asked about a particular post and was he supposed to get this link.....So I had to explain the whole blog thing, and after that I just felt I needed to put that in there, for future reference.
On that whole subject, I'm hoping things are getting better, we have plans next weekend as 'just friends' but, as I've said before, I don't think either one of us wants to be done just yet. It was agreed, and I even got told I was missed! That's a good sign right? Well enough about that.
Last night I made AWESOME dinner.....kabobs marinated and cooked in A1 marinade, grilled to the point they didn't stay on the skewers, over rice with garlic bread. I cooked for the parents :) I'm such a good kid *coughs*, they feed me more often than not, I was off earlier than they were so I had it all planned out. Then sat with them and played video games with my dad for a bit, came home and fell asleep on the couch reading a book at 9-crawled in bed at 1030 and slept all night!
Took my gran shoppin' this morning, got what I need for tomorrow's holiday dinner, (trying a new recipe, I'll let ya know if its any good). Got goodies to go to Rae's for an Easter Egg Hunt! Cooked a bit, finished cleaning, and went to spend the afternoon with my dear friend, her man and her kids, It was a wonderful thing to see the looks on those kids faces when they came running. and even more when they opened everything!!! Thanks Rae, it was fun!
Back here, with a tuckered out Wickett laying on the arm of the chair here beside me, enjoying music playing in the background and the cool night air coming in thru my open windows and door. It was 74 degrees today!!!! and Beautifully sunny in the afternoon!!!!
Hope everyone gets to spend the holiday with friends or family!
I'm off to be lazy somewhere else.
HAPPY EASTER!!!
Tuesday, April 11, 2006
Still unsure, but getting better maybe...
Well, yes Rae, I'm still confused.
*DISCLAIMER* I write in my blog to get things off of my chest, for those few that I know read this and give me advice and send me love and encouragement when I need it, Thank you. For anyone else, this is the place that I have to unload what is going on in my life, I am NOT trying to be 'correct' in everything I say, nor trying to be nasty towards someone.....Its just how I feel at the very moment I sit down here to type. Don't question me, cause after I type it I may not feel that way any more, just need it off my chest and outta my head... Not to mention sometimes I blog before work and its WAY darn early....Okay *END RANT*
So confused and quite bleary eyed at this time of the morning since I think I got 3 hours of sleep. Though I think things are getting a little bit better. Had a discussion about daring someone to do something (within reason of course) and I got dared to make a 3 hour drive last night, cause someone doesn't have any classes today and 'Misses me'. I'm still trying to figure that one out, just a bit. Said, I just don't pick up and make trips like that, not to mention until pay day, I have half a tank of gas and remnants of a $20 bill left in my budget.
Then there is an old boyfriend, who is a very very good friend even still. But I'm beginning to wonder if he has a spy. Seems like every time I start hanging out with a new guy friend, he somehow knows it and seems to call only when there is a new guy hanging out on the fringe of my life. Its been quite a few years now and he still knows how to get to me, and its driving me CRAZY!!!!! Last Monday I hear from him, asks what's up and I am telling him about things, and that particular topic peaks his interest, but at the same time he starts acting funny. 'HELLO--your MARRIED?!?!?!? Why should you care?' and he has to go and we'll talk more about 'mistery guy' later as it was said. So next day, back again, this goes on for 3 days, I'm last week there was a combination of all kinds of things that added to my mood...And made it darker and darker....And he was a large part of it. So finally Thursday I tell him, things were over before they got started....And will you imagine this? I haven't heard from him since!! Can we say he's got me bugged or somethin?
Oh btw....congrats JuJu, and yay for Aunt Wink :) I'm excited for ya'll.
Well, before I'm late, I guess I must be going on to work.
Its TUESDAY UGH!! Thank goodness for red bull!
If I'm not back before, HAPPY EASTER!! happy tuesday *with as much enthusiasm as I can muster
*DISCLAIMER* I write in my blog to get things off of my chest, for those few that I know read this and give me advice and send me love and encouragement when I need it, Thank you. For anyone else, this is the place that I have to unload what is going on in my life, I am NOT trying to be 'correct' in everything I say, nor trying to be nasty towards someone.....Its just how I feel at the very moment I sit down here to type. Don't question me, cause after I type it I may not feel that way any more, just need it off my chest and outta my head... Not to mention sometimes I blog before work and its WAY darn early....Okay *END RANT*
So confused and quite bleary eyed at this time of the morning since I think I got 3 hours of sleep. Though I think things are getting a little bit better. Had a discussion about daring someone to do something (within reason of course) and I got dared to make a 3 hour drive last night, cause someone doesn't have any classes today and 'Misses me'. I'm still trying to figure that one out, just a bit. Said, I just don't pick up and make trips like that, not to mention until pay day, I have half a tank of gas and remnants of a $20 bill left in my budget.
Then there is an old boyfriend, who is a very very good friend even still. But I'm beginning to wonder if he has a spy. Seems like every time I start hanging out with a new guy friend, he somehow knows it and seems to call only when there is a new guy hanging out on the fringe of my life. Its been quite a few years now and he still knows how to get to me, and its driving me CRAZY!!!!! Last Monday I hear from him, asks what's up and I am telling him about things, and that particular topic peaks his interest, but at the same time he starts acting funny. 'HELLO--your MARRIED?!?!?!? Why should you care?' and he has to go and we'll talk more about 'mistery guy' later as it was said. So next day, back again, this goes on for 3 days, I'm last week there was a combination of all kinds of things that added to my mood...And made it darker and darker....And he was a large part of it. So finally Thursday I tell him, things were over before they got started....And will you imagine this? I haven't heard from him since!! Can we say he's got me bugged or somethin?
Oh btw....congrats JuJu, and yay for Aunt Wink :) I'm excited for ya'll.
Well, before I'm late, I guess I must be going on to work.
Its TUESDAY UGH!! Thank goodness for red bull!
If I'm not back before, HAPPY EASTER!! happy tuesday *with as much enthusiasm as I can muster
Wednesday, April 05, 2006
Confused
So I posted yesterday, was talking to Mike after the fact, and my dog sat on my keyboard, and of all things to happen, it posted him my BLOG LINK!!! And I get pasted back my boys r dumb statement! UGH!!!!!
And I just don't know, we talked all evening, and I'm pretty sure we decided that it WAS stupid, there were other things a factor into the reactions, and * I THINK * that we both don't want to give up just yet.
WHY do guys have to be so darn confusing?!???
Alright, well its off to work, and I need a red bull or I'll be cutting tubing in my sleep....stayed up til almost 1 talkin to him.
Happy Wed. Everyone!
And I just don't know, we talked all evening, and I'm pretty sure we decided that it WAS stupid, there were other things a factor into the reactions, and * I THINK * that we both don't want to give up just yet.
WHY do guys have to be so darn confusing?!???
Alright, well its off to work, and I need a red bull or I'll be cutting tubing in my sleep....stayed up til almost 1 talkin to him.
Happy Wed. Everyone!
Tuesday, April 04, 2006
Short lived
Thanks everyone for the advice and votes of confidence. But things were short lived, and the reasoning is absolutly stupid, but hey whatever. I guess boys will always be dumb......
And Wickett is in my face sittong on my hands telling me its time to move away from this computer..........bye all....
And Wickett is in my face sittong on my hands telling me its time to move away from this computer..........bye all....
Monday, March 27, 2006
Lots! Both questions and statements
Since Rae needs something to read. :-p
Well there has been lots going on....Work banquet was alright, I wasn't overly impressed. Though I felt pretty for a lil while, I was glad to get home and get those darn pantyhose off!!! If I didn't have to wear those darn things I think I would dress up more often.
Since the teeth acted up, I've been off my diet, and I think I've only managed to gain 5 pounds or so back....so hopefully next week I'll be back to normal on that and back to shedding the pounds. (as i sit here and eat twizzlers *smacks forehead*)
Went out with the bestest for St. Patty's day, and was green, all the way around!!! Irish and otherwise. *blah*
Then there is my coworker, trying to play matchmaker with me. I finally agreed after about a month of telling him I didn't think so that I would at least meet the guy. His name is Mike, I had talked to him online for 2 weeks, we all made plans to go bowling after the banquet. The night before the banquet, his plans for the night changed. So it was 'well do you wanna do something tonight instead of waiting til tomorrow?' So in indecision, we couldn't decide on a movie or anything else to do here in nowhere usa. So I had a movie here I was planning on watching anyway, so he came over we sat here and watched a movie.
He's very shy, but when you get him talking he's sweet and funny. He's a big ole country boy. He has manners and knows how to use them. I don't know what will happen, we have plans to go out again tomorrow night, maybe we can agree on a movie. He's younger than I am, he's still in college-which is 3 1/2 hours away---so that distance will hopefully give me the time i need to decide what to do. He called me his girlfriend yesterday and I'm not sure how I feel about it. I am truely interested. I don't know if I've just been hurt too many times and the walls are built too high, I've just become to pessimistic(?sp), or I'm just out to find an excuse.
Today has just been not a great day, woke up to the neighbor revving the p.o.s. car next door,10 minutes before my alarm went off, ppl @ work grating on the nerves, then in trying to keep my mouth shut, (cause the filter between my brain and my mouth wasn't working today) sitting isolated today on my own accord my brain was working overtime and making me my own worst enemy. WHY do I do this to myself?
On a brighter note, the weather today was GORGEOUS!!!! Wickett and I took a walk to go visit Rae, (THANKS FOR THE MAGNET RAE) and back, got some nice fresh air and got some exercise.
Well, I'm about out of coherent thought, I need to get going. Maybe my brain will be in a better place tomorrow.
Hope everyone has a good weekend!!!!!
Well there has been lots going on....Work banquet was alright, I wasn't overly impressed. Though I felt pretty for a lil while, I was glad to get home and get those darn pantyhose off!!! If I didn't have to wear those darn things I think I would dress up more often.
Since the teeth acted up, I've been off my diet, and I think I've only managed to gain 5 pounds or so back....so hopefully next week I'll be back to normal on that and back to shedding the pounds. (as i sit here and eat twizzlers *smacks forehead*)
Went out with the bestest for St. Patty's day, and was green, all the way around!!! Irish and otherwise. *blah*
Then there is my coworker, trying to play matchmaker with me. I finally agreed after about a month of telling him I didn't think so that I would at least meet the guy. His name is Mike, I had talked to him online for 2 weeks, we all made plans to go bowling after the banquet. The night before the banquet, his plans for the night changed. So it was 'well do you wanna do something tonight instead of waiting til tomorrow?' So in indecision, we couldn't decide on a movie or anything else to do here in nowhere usa. So I had a movie here I was planning on watching anyway, so he came over we sat here and watched a movie.
He's very shy, but when you get him talking he's sweet and funny. He's a big ole country boy. He has manners and knows how to use them. I don't know what will happen, we have plans to go out again tomorrow night, maybe we can agree on a movie. He's younger than I am, he's still in college-which is 3 1/2 hours away---so that distance will hopefully give me the time i need to decide what to do. He called me his girlfriend yesterday and I'm not sure how I feel about it. I am truely interested. I don't know if I've just been hurt too many times and the walls are built too high, I've just become to pessimistic(?sp), or I'm just out to find an excuse.
Today has just been not a great day, woke up to the neighbor revving the p.o.s. car next door,10 minutes before my alarm went off, ppl @ work grating on the nerves, then in trying to keep my mouth shut, (cause the filter between my brain and my mouth wasn't working today) sitting isolated today on my own accord my brain was working overtime and making me my own worst enemy. WHY do I do this to myself?
On a brighter note, the weather today was GORGEOUS!!!! Wickett and I took a walk to go visit Rae, (THANKS FOR THE MAGNET RAE) and back, got some nice fresh air and got some exercise.
Well, I'm about out of coherent thought, I need to get going. Maybe my brain will be in a better place tomorrow.
Hope everyone has a good weekend!!!!!
Saturday, March 18, 2006
Stole it from RAE
A is for age: 25
B is for Booze of choice: Jack & Coke or Miller Genuine Draft
C is for career: Massage Therapist
D is for your dog’s name: Wickett
E is for essential items you use everyday: computer, toothbrush, glasses, music
F is for favorite song at the moment: how do u possibly pick just one? "What hurts the most"-Rascal Flatts, "Kerosine"-Miranda Lambert, "I Dare You"-Shinedown
G is for favorite games: Scene It, Phase 10, Skip-Bo, trivia games---we do family game nights a lot....LOVE GAMES
H is for hometown: Apollo, Pa
I is for instruments you play: tried to learn the guitar...
J is for jam or jelly you like: Strawberry or home made grape
K is for Kids: none
L is for last kiss: kiss on the cheek after thursday night
M is for most admired trait: ????
N is for the name of your crush: don't have one.
O is for overnight hospital stays: none
P is for phobias: snakes, being alone
Q is for quotes you like: "If you love someone let them go, if they come back they're yours if not, it was never meant to be", and 'You can't love someone else until you love yourself'---my good friend Rae taught me that one.
R is for biggest regret: oh too many to air here....
S is for sweets of your choice: Reese's Peanut Butter cups, Take 5 candy bar, Fudge stripe cookies
T is for the time you wake up: 4:30 am
U is for underwear: walmart cheapies
V is for vegetable you love: asparagus and broccoli
W is for worst habit: drinking, swearing, and beating myself up over things....
X is for x-rays you’ve had: R shoulder, both ankles, both feet, chest, lots of mouth ones
Y is for yummy food you make: macaroni salad, spaghetti, chicken quesadillas, baked chicken, chicken parm,
Z is for zodiac sign: Gemini
it was fun, I was bored....and that way Aunt Wink didn't have to see any more about my scary dentist trip :)
A is for age: 25
B is for Booze of choice: Jack & Coke or Miller Genuine Draft
C is for career: Massage Therapist
D is for your dog’s name: Wickett
E is for essential items you use everyday: computer, toothbrush, glasses, music
F is for favorite song at the moment: how do u possibly pick just one? "What hurts the most"-Rascal Flatts, "Kerosine"-Miranda Lambert, "I Dare You"-Shinedown
G is for favorite games: Scene It, Phase 10, Skip-Bo, trivia games---we do family game nights a lot....LOVE GAMES
H is for hometown: Apollo, Pa
I is for instruments you play: tried to learn the guitar...
J is for jam or jelly you like: Strawberry or home made grape
K is for Kids: none
L is for last kiss: kiss on the cheek after thursday night
M is for most admired trait: ????
N is for the name of your crush: don't have one.
O is for overnight hospital stays: none
P is for phobias: snakes, being alone
Q is for quotes you like: "If you love someone let them go, if they come back they're yours if not, it was never meant to be", and 'You can't love someone else until you love yourself'---my good friend Rae taught me that one.
R is for biggest regret: oh too many to air here....
S is for sweets of your choice: Reese's Peanut Butter cups, Take 5 candy bar, Fudge stripe cookies
T is for the time you wake up: 4:30 am
U is for underwear: walmart cheapies
V is for vegetable you love: asparagus and broccoli
W is for worst habit: drinking, swearing, and beating myself up over things....
X is for x-rays you’ve had: R shoulder, both ankles, both feet, chest, lots of mouth ones
Y is for yummy food you make: macaroni salad, spaghetti, chicken quesadillas, baked chicken, chicken parm,
Z is for zodiac sign: Gemini
it was fun, I was bored....and that way Aunt Wink didn't have to see any more about my scary dentist trip :)
Tuesday, March 07, 2006
BLAH
Had a root canal today, took almost 2 hours----it sucked.
MY. MOUTH. HURTS. ! ! ! ! ! She had to do some major digging and scraping to get it done, I'm hoping that was the tooth giving me problems, right now, it feels like it did on Friday---thank goodness I still have a couple meds left.
My wonderful mommy went to get me food, not that I know if i can eat it, but mushy french fries sound like a winning ticket to me.
Please go over to RAE's place and check out her news!! *YAY* so exciting!!!
Alright, I'm off to lay on the couch and be a lump. Carry on amoungst yourselves, have a good time, See ya'll soon.
MY. MOUTH. HURTS. ! ! ! ! ! She had to do some major digging and scraping to get it done, I'm hoping that was the tooth giving me problems, right now, it feels like it did on Friday---thank goodness I still have a couple meds left.
My wonderful mommy went to get me food, not that I know if i can eat it, but mushy french fries sound like a winning ticket to me.
Please go over to RAE's place and check out her news!! *YAY* so exciting!!!
Alright, I'm off to lay on the couch and be a lump. Carry on amoungst yourselves, have a good time, See ya'll soon.
Sunday, March 05, 2006
Teeth and Drugs
no no, its not what you think *LOL*
I've been fighting absessed teeth since last Thursday. Went to the dentist, they gave me a script for an antibiotic, went thru last weekend popping ibprofin every 4 hours, called again monday and they gave me a stronger med. Thru the week I'm still popping advil every 4 - 6 hours.....insert stomach destruction here. Bring me to Friday at work the pain isn't going away for anything, call the dentist to ask about it.....they AREN'T IN TIL MONDAY!!! NO EMERGENCY # to speak of....'leave a message and if we check the machine we'll get back to you' LIVID!!!!!!!!!!! I was in pain comparable to having my wisdom teeth out. I can typically handle pain fairly well, unless its my teeth---I'm not so good about that---crying at work the girls there were trying to figure out if anyone had anything to give me.....willing to actually give me their pain meds, those who had them. So I call regular dr. and they give me a good strong pain med and tell me to get ahold of the dentist, if these pain meds don't work, go to the ER-the infection may be worse than they thought.
So I leave work, go get drugs from the pharmacy, come home and anxiously await relief.....an hour into the waiting for darn things to work I finally call my best friend the nurse and say, how long is this gonna take? about 2 hours in, I finally dosed off, for about half an hour and the pain was back....so my Friday evening was spent in the ER----they gave me stronger drugs. So my weekend has been a blurr of pain, and fog, and sleep.
I missed 2 evenings of fun with my friends out having a good time----I think I've slept more than I have in a VERY VERY long time....and I do a lot of sleeping. I read a whole book in between my naps. And done a lot of playing online.
My 'date' for the banquet has fallen off the face of the earth---or more accuratly, went back to the old girlfriend. So I'm officially looking for a date for an evening out----it could be fun, it might not be, but its a free meal and a free hour of drinks *shrugs*. If not, my mom will be going with me---which would be kinda fun too.....then I think a bunch of us are going midnight bowling afterwords. Or at least that's the plan for now....if not there's a show that night up the road. :)
Well, so much for my ramblings.....my evening to watch television is disrupted by some stupid awards show *LOL* so I'm off to find something to do---most likely I'll sit in this chair til my butt goes numb then go lay and read til my eyes can't stay open.
Hope everyone has a good week!
I've been fighting absessed teeth since last Thursday. Went to the dentist, they gave me a script for an antibiotic, went thru last weekend popping ibprofin every 4 hours, called again monday and they gave me a stronger med. Thru the week I'm still popping advil every 4 - 6 hours.....insert stomach destruction here. Bring me to Friday at work the pain isn't going away for anything, call the dentist to ask about it.....they AREN'T IN TIL MONDAY!!! NO EMERGENCY # to speak of....'leave a message and if we check the machine we'll get back to you' LIVID!!!!!!!!!!! I was in pain comparable to having my wisdom teeth out. I can typically handle pain fairly well, unless its my teeth---I'm not so good about that---crying at work the girls there were trying to figure out if anyone had anything to give me.....willing to actually give me their pain meds, those who had them. So I call regular dr. and they give me a good strong pain med and tell me to get ahold of the dentist, if these pain meds don't work, go to the ER-the infection may be worse than they thought.
So I leave work, go get drugs from the pharmacy, come home and anxiously await relief.....an hour into the waiting for darn things to work I finally call my best friend the nurse and say, how long is this gonna take? about 2 hours in, I finally dosed off, for about half an hour and the pain was back....so my Friday evening was spent in the ER----they gave me stronger drugs. So my weekend has been a blurr of pain, and fog, and sleep.
I missed 2 evenings of fun with my friends out having a good time----I think I've slept more than I have in a VERY VERY long time....and I do a lot of sleeping. I read a whole book in between my naps. And done a lot of playing online.
My 'date' for the banquet has fallen off the face of the earth---or more accuratly, went back to the old girlfriend. So I'm officially looking for a date for an evening out----it could be fun, it might not be, but its a free meal and a free hour of drinks *shrugs*. If not, my mom will be going with me---which would be kinda fun too.....then I think a bunch of us are going midnight bowling afterwords. Or at least that's the plan for now....if not there's a show that night up the road. :)
Well, so much for my ramblings.....my evening to watch television is disrupted by some stupid awards show *LOL* so I'm off to find something to do---most likely I'll sit in this chair til my butt goes numb then go lay and read til my eyes can't stay open.
Hope everyone has a good week!
Sunday, February 26, 2006
B-day craziness
What an interesting evening....started at like 6:30 got some dinner, celebrated a 21st b-day with whole bunches of ppl. T, wasn't it so much fun?!?!?!? From there, a crew of other friends met us at that bar, we did some heavy partying and celebrating, and the only other girl in that crew said, 'you girls can't leave me I at least have a fighting chance with you girls with me.' So we went off to another bar to see a band play, cause that's what the long haired freak wanted. Insert more partaking here, lots of laughs and fun in between, it felt good to be out and with so many good friends, at both places!
From there, one of the guys and I ran down to see if old friends he went to school with were bowling like they were last weekend, got to see who I spent most of my last weekend with *YAY*, and he knows Jake, so THAT was an interesting ride home trying to talk myself outta that one. Then they decided it was time to move onto the next bar. so 7 of us piled into an extended cab pickup truck and rode a half an hour to a bar I'd never been to, and there was not a soul in there I knew *woohooo* cause by this time, I was done with this evening. Esp after some disturbing events. *Shudders* which I won't be posting I doubt.
So I am giving those who I was with about another hour to sleep, and then I'm calling to see how the rest of their night was....cause lets just say I was the best behaved! :-D
From there, one of the guys and I ran down to see if old friends he went to school with were bowling like they were last weekend, got to see who I spent most of my last weekend with *YAY*, and he knows Jake, so THAT was an interesting ride home trying to talk myself outta that one. Then they decided it was time to move onto the next bar. so 7 of us piled into an extended cab pickup truck and rode a half an hour to a bar I'd never been to, and there was not a soul in there I knew *woohooo* cause by this time, I was done with this evening. Esp after some disturbing events. *Shudders* which I won't be posting I doubt.
So I am giving those who I was with about another hour to sleep, and then I'm calling to see how the rest of their night was....cause lets just say I was the best behaved! :-D
Thursday, February 23, 2006
Tagge by Rae
Current Clothing: exercise pants, t-shirt and socks
Current Hair: Hair net hair, I haven't done anything with it since I woke up this morning
Current Mood: Cranky and confused. Went to the dentist, have to have a root canal, and life sometimes throws u curve balls....I'm having one of those weeks.
Current Annoyance: Everything.
Current Avoidance: making my party lite list, cleaning and packing my massage bag.
Current Smell: the smell of my apartment, I dunno....
Current Thing You Ought to be Doing: dishes, laundry, playing with wickett....making my party lite list and tracking down orders.
Current Thing or Things on Your Wall: Calendar, pictures, americana stuff
Current IM person You’re Talking to: Rae
Current Jewelry: claudda on right hand facing away from me, silver indian ring on left middle finger and pink and blue earring in my upper right ear in cartilage piercing.
Current Book: Hot spot by debbie renyolds
If you are reading this....TAG YOUR IT!
Current Hair: Hair net hair, I haven't done anything with it since I woke up this morning
Current Mood: Cranky and confused. Went to the dentist, have to have a root canal, and life sometimes throws u curve balls....I'm having one of those weeks.
Current Annoyance: Everything.
Current Avoidance: making my party lite list, cleaning and packing my massage bag.
Current Smell: the smell of my apartment, I dunno....
Current Thing You Ought to be Doing: dishes, laundry, playing with wickett....making my party lite list and tracking down orders.
Current Thing or Things on Your Wall: Calendar, pictures, americana stuff
Current IM person You’re Talking to: Rae
Current Jewelry: claudda on right hand facing away from me, silver indian ring on left middle finger and pink and blue earring in my upper right ear in cartilage piercing.
Current Book: Hot spot by debbie renyolds
If you are reading this....TAG YOUR IT!
Monday, February 20, 2006
M u s t H a v e S l e e p . . . . . . .
I'm beat!!!! Today seemed like I worked hard @ work, or should I say harder than normal. I mean c'mon I sit in a chair at a desk all day listening to music of my choice and getting entertained by some of the most eclectic (sp?) ppl I know :) And granted, the mental challenges and trials they put us thru are tough in themselves, but today was more physical, I think I only sat an hour, and I'm not used to being on my feet. So its too bed very very soon for me.
Lots of love to my Aunt Wink who is working the new shift and I don't get to see her, but I know she comes to check up on me every now and again! I miss ya in the mornings :)
Although I don't feel like a balloon floating aimlessly today, I'm still happy, actually happier than I have been in a long time. I'm back in touch with many of my friends whom I seemed to have, by my own doing and no one elses, strayed away from and missed very much!!!!
I feel better about myself more and more these days too, the scale said I am down another 4 pounds, making my total a whopping 40 pounds in the last 6 weeks---I still can't believe it came off that fast!!!! My goal is still another 70 pounds away, but I can honestly say that I would be just as happy with another 40 and to get back into the smallest size jeans I have in my closet and am hoping to again wear some day soon. And today I wore a pair of jeans that didn't fit 6 weeks ago. Though they are the same size as the ones I HAVE been wearing, they are cut differently and I was extremely excited to not have to suck anything in to get them buttoned and zipped this morning. All of this after I almost lost my pants every time I stood up saturday night----those particular ones I HAVE been wearing I can pull down without unbuttoning and unzipping, and w/o a belt I look like I have a load of something in the back of my pants.
And still looking ahead, I have a date for my work banquet at the end of march, he has been my friend for 6 years, and the only time he's seen me dressed up was to go to a funeral viewing once last year.....so if things keep going the way they are, I wanna be able to make his mouth fall so far open I have to help him pick his jaw up off the floor!!! And as long as I don't find a reason to not go to the banquet I do believe I can do that!!!!
Well, if I haven't babbled on forever, its past time I wanted to be in bed, and I still want to read a lil bit, so til next time......
G'night
Lots of love to my Aunt Wink who is working the new shift and I don't get to see her, but I know she comes to check up on me every now and again! I miss ya in the mornings :)
Although I don't feel like a balloon floating aimlessly today, I'm still happy, actually happier than I have been in a long time. I'm back in touch with many of my friends whom I seemed to have, by my own doing and no one elses, strayed away from and missed very much!!!!
I feel better about myself more and more these days too, the scale said I am down another 4 pounds, making my total a whopping 40 pounds in the last 6 weeks---I still can't believe it came off that fast!!!! My goal is still another 70 pounds away, but I can honestly say that I would be just as happy with another 40 and to get back into the smallest size jeans I have in my closet and am hoping to again wear some day soon. And today I wore a pair of jeans that didn't fit 6 weeks ago. Though they are the same size as the ones I HAVE been wearing, they are cut differently and I was extremely excited to not have to suck anything in to get them buttoned and zipped this morning. All of this after I almost lost my pants every time I stood up saturday night----those particular ones I HAVE been wearing I can pull down without unbuttoning and unzipping, and w/o a belt I look like I have a load of something in the back of my pants.
And still looking ahead, I have a date for my work banquet at the end of march, he has been my friend for 6 years, and the only time he's seen me dressed up was to go to a funeral viewing once last year.....so if things keep going the way they are, I wanna be able to make his mouth fall so far open I have to help him pick his jaw up off the floor!!! And as long as I don't find a reason to not go to the banquet I do believe I can do that!!!!
Well, if I haven't babbled on forever, its past time I wanted to be in bed, and I still want to read a lil bit, so til next time......
G'night
Sunday, February 19, 2006
Floating
Okay, I don't wanna go saying things that will mess up my energy of life----but, if I may say....it so far has been a damn good weekend!!!!!
Hot stone class yesterday, well actually Friday considering that is is now 4:52 a.m. on Sunday morning and I'm a lil wired right now. Friday night was spent with friend mentioned previously in the week. Today had a lil get together here at the apartment, co-babysat my best friend's nephew's with her so her bro and sis-i-l could go to dinner and have a couple drinks. Then out midnight bowling with a co-worker, his friends and both above said friends. It was just all around a good night, even though I ended up fixing someone's injuries at 3:30 when we came home!!!
I don't want to dwell on it too much, but it kinda feels like I'm floating in the clouds somewhere. I don't know if that is my lack of sleep or just my energy surrounding me right now.....I DO know that is has nothing to do with the 3 beers I had VERY VERY early in the evening!
Co-worker says give it 3 weeks, I retold that story tonight, he didn't run away screaming, nor did her say, 'no I don't think so' he just kinda laughed. Dunno if that is good or bad......I wonder what will be said monday now after spending the evening with us......
Alright, I think I'm well overdue to head to bed, I'm gonna be all screwed up tomorrow....
G'night!!!
Hot stone class yesterday, well actually Friday considering that is is now 4:52 a.m. on Sunday morning and I'm a lil wired right now. Friday night was spent with friend mentioned previously in the week. Today had a lil get together here at the apartment, co-babysat my best friend's nephew's with her so her bro and sis-i-l could go to dinner and have a couple drinks. Then out midnight bowling with a co-worker, his friends and both above said friends. It was just all around a good night, even though I ended up fixing someone's injuries at 3:30 when we came home!!!
I don't want to dwell on it too much, but it kinda feels like I'm floating in the clouds somewhere. I don't know if that is my lack of sleep or just my energy surrounding me right now.....I DO know that is has nothing to do with the 3 beers I had VERY VERY early in the evening!
Co-worker says give it 3 weeks, I retold that story tonight, he didn't run away screaming, nor did her say, 'no I don't think so' he just kinda laughed. Dunno if that is good or bad......I wonder what will be said monday now after spending the evening with us......
Alright, I think I'm well overdue to head to bed, I'm gonna be all screwed up tomorrow....
G'night!!!
Tuesday, February 14, 2006
Mushy love day and crap AND Rae's TAG
Well I'm much MUCH calmer than my last post. I apologize greatly for giving those that I did a scare, this was truly my only outlet to vent and say all the not nice things to those people that I have been wanting to say for months if not a couple of years.
I hope everyone has a good V-day, though I think its very commercial and a total waste of time and money....though I probably would be saying different if I was in love and had someone to dote on myself. What is your ultimate Valentines fantisy?? Keep it clean now.....PG rated at worst. I think mine would be something as simple as a dinner in cooked by both parts of the couple, maybe a walk out in the glistening snow hand in hand, and come back and cuddle up all nice and warm and cozy for the night. AND the best part about that dream is it wouldn't have to be Feb. 14th for that to happen, (though the snow might be tough in July *LOL*) I guess I'm a simple sap....
All in all the valentine's day hater that I am....it hasn't been a bad couple of days. Work sucks with this whole 'gag order' and not being able to talk, though we have managed to sneak in a few laughs here and there, we are to the point of just being silly at anything to break the tension. Its like a morgue in there, and it makes for a L-O-N-G ASS day!!!! But last night my best friend and I had our annual 'anti valentine' dinner we do every year that we are single and I cooked. She went with me to drop Wickett off at the vet to get fixed today, (my poor baby-----thankfully he's fine, I can pick him up tomorrow after work) and we just sat around after that and b.s.ed and even did a mile exercise walk!!! Walk off that dinner!
Today I had a very nice visit with a very good friend that I actually thought I lost forever. He and I have in the past been very very close, and like often does, he got a girlfriend that didn't like the 'female friends' hanging around, it had been 10 months since I had seen him, and I probably only talked to him a handful of times in that same length of time. He isn't with her anymore and so he's been free to talk to me lately---he came for me to work on him a bit today, and we had a nice visit that passed most of my evening a little too fast for my liking. I missed that, and am hoping that we can do it again very soon.
So tomorrow is work, and picking up the puppy and I am hoping to come home and be a couch potato with a puppy on my lap. Thursday probably more of the same, and Friday I am taking a class all day, so no work for me WOOHOO!!! and then above said long lost friend has offered to let me practice on him what I learn in the class (oh such a sacrifice I know....*rolls eyes*) and we decided tonight that after that we're just going to hang around here at my apartment like we did tonight, except neither of us have to work saturday!!
AND while on she tagged us all for the list of the 'TEN CELEBRITIES I'D SHAG' So, if your reading this....consider yourself TAGGED!!!!
Sorry Rae, I know some of our guys on our lists are the same....as I say to Beck often....the famous ones I'm willing to share, just not the real life ones *lol*
10. Dierks Bently----I have seen this man on his Harley, OMG, to DIE FOR!!!
9. David Draiman- lead singer of Disturbed-----MMMM I have a thing for guys with a bald head......
8. Vin Diesel-----Another Bald one WOOHOOOOo fast and the furious AND XXX
7. Keith Urban---Gotta love this aussie and his blonde locks, too bad he's with Nicole *BLAH*
6. Johnny Depp----he can be my pirate any day...
5. Orlando Bloom----Lord of the rings, he can be my cupid and shoot me with his arrow.
4. Hugh Jackman---even as wolverine he's hot---just gotta do something with those sideburns there...
3. Kenny Chesney----Yummy sun and sand would be more fun with him
2. Heath Miller---A Super bowl champ AND a hottie!!!
1. Tim McGraw----Sorry Faith, your hubby is the hottest around----and oh what a tush!!!
Okay, be good, and have fun with it!!!
I hope everyone has a good V-day, though I think its very commercial and a total waste of time and money....though I probably would be saying different if I was in love and had someone to dote on myself. What is your ultimate Valentines fantisy?? Keep it clean now.....PG rated at worst. I think mine would be something as simple as a dinner in cooked by both parts of the couple, maybe a walk out in the glistening snow hand in hand, and come back and cuddle up all nice and warm and cozy for the night. AND the best part about that dream is it wouldn't have to be Feb. 14th for that to happen, (though the snow might be tough in July *LOL*) I guess I'm a simple sap....
All in all the valentine's day hater that I am....it hasn't been a bad couple of days. Work sucks with this whole 'gag order' and not being able to talk, though we have managed to sneak in a few laughs here and there, we are to the point of just being silly at anything to break the tension. Its like a morgue in there, and it makes for a L-O-N-G ASS day!!!! But last night my best friend and I had our annual 'anti valentine' dinner we do every year that we are single and I cooked. She went with me to drop Wickett off at the vet to get fixed today, (my poor baby-----thankfully he's fine, I can pick him up tomorrow after work) and we just sat around after that and b.s.ed and even did a mile exercise walk!!! Walk off that dinner!
Today I had a very nice visit with a very good friend that I actually thought I lost forever. He and I have in the past been very very close, and like often does, he got a girlfriend that didn't like the 'female friends' hanging around, it had been 10 months since I had seen him, and I probably only talked to him a handful of times in that same length of time. He isn't with her anymore and so he's been free to talk to me lately---he came for me to work on him a bit today, and we had a nice visit that passed most of my evening a little too fast for my liking. I missed that, and am hoping that we can do it again very soon.
So tomorrow is work, and picking up the puppy and I am hoping to come home and be a couch potato with a puppy on my lap. Thursday probably more of the same, and Friday I am taking a class all day, so no work for me WOOHOO!!! and then above said long lost friend has offered to let me practice on him what I learn in the class (oh such a sacrifice I know....*rolls eyes*) and we decided tonight that after that we're just going to hang around here at my apartment like we did tonight, except neither of us have to work saturday!!
AND while on she tagged us all for the list of the 'TEN CELEBRITIES I'D SHAG' So, if your reading this....consider yourself TAGGED!!!!
Sorry Rae, I know some of our guys on our lists are the same....as I say to Beck often....the famous ones I'm willing to share, just not the real life ones *lol*
10. Dierks Bently----I have seen this man on his Harley, OMG, to DIE FOR!!!
9. David Draiman- lead singer of Disturbed-----MMMM I have a thing for guys with a bald head......
8. Vin Diesel-----Another Bald one WOOHOOOOo fast and the furious AND XXX
7. Keith Urban---Gotta love this aussie and his blonde locks, too bad he's with Nicole *BLAH*
6. Johnny Depp----he can be my pirate any day...
5. Orlando Bloom----Lord of the rings, he can be my cupid and shoot me with his arrow.
4. Hugh Jackman---even as wolverine he's hot---just gotta do something with those sideburns there...
3. Kenny Chesney----Yummy sun and sand would be more fun with him
2. Heath Miller---A Super bowl champ AND a hottie!!!
1. Tim McGraw----Sorry Faith, your hubby is the hottest around----and oh what a tush!!!
Okay, be good, and have fun with it!!!
Saturday, February 11, 2006
Serious Additude
I know I may not be the easiest person to be around at times, and I too have my faults. But I need to RANT!!!
To no one in particular:
WHO do YOU think you are? We have been friends for years, the whole lot of us, and you come in and dictate who can hang out with who and who isn't 'WORTHY of being part of the CLIQUE. In fact, you are the newest member in the place so to speak so who the hell are you to think you have the right to shit on me!?!?!? I don't know what it was that I ever did to you to make you dislike me so, and its sad to say that I feel it is easier to miss out on special events that you will be at because I don't want to deal with you. I'd like to take your shitty, better than everyone else additude and chuck it right back into the pond!! Where do you get off??!?!?!?
I know your mama prolly raised you to think that you are the best thing to this world since sliced bread, cause she acts the same damn way. Well guess what YOU AREN'T!!!!! Yes, you may be thinner, than me, and you MAY be more attractive than me, (given what some of the things I know ppl call you, that statement is made lightly) I give you that, but don't treat me like the mud you wipe off of your shoes when you walk in the door. Cause Sweetheart, you are no better than me!!! You need to remember your manners and treat your elders with respect, don't walk past and think that you should be first before immediate family just cause you who you are. And when you start taking sweet people that never used to act this way and make them act the same---something has to give.
I wish I could say these things to you, but it will just cause more trouble than what it is worth, for that matter what YOU are worth!!!! So yes, you are married into this so called 'family' but you aren't the big dog, and I really hope someday, maybe even very soon, someone puts these DOGS in their place!!!
End rant....for the time being......
To no one in particular:
WHO do YOU think you are? We have been friends for years, the whole lot of us, and you come in and dictate who can hang out with who and who isn't 'WORTHY of being part of the CLIQUE. In fact, you are the newest member in the place so to speak so who the hell are you to think you have the right to shit on me!?!?!? I don't know what it was that I ever did to you to make you dislike me so, and its sad to say that I feel it is easier to miss out on special events that you will be at because I don't want to deal with you. I'd like to take your shitty, better than everyone else additude and chuck it right back into the pond!! Where do you get off??!?!?!?
I know your mama prolly raised you to think that you are the best thing to this world since sliced bread, cause she acts the same damn way. Well guess what YOU AREN'T!!!!! Yes, you may be thinner, than me, and you MAY be more attractive than me, (given what some of the things I know ppl call you, that statement is made lightly) I give you that, but don't treat me like the mud you wipe off of your shoes when you walk in the door. Cause Sweetheart, you are no better than me!!! You need to remember your manners and treat your elders with respect, don't walk past and think that you should be first before immediate family just cause you who you are. And when you start taking sweet people that never used to act this way and make them act the same---something has to give.
I wish I could say these things to you, but it will just cause more trouble than what it is worth, for that matter what YOU are worth!!!! So yes, you are married into this so called 'family' but you aren't the big dog, and I really hope someday, maybe even very soon, someone puts these DOGS in their place!!!
End rant....for the time being......
Sunday, February 05, 2006
STEELER SUPER BOWL SUNDAY
Well today is the day, and I don't have much time, I should be out spending my time in the kitchen cooking all kinda of yummy foods for today. And then getting all my Steeler gear on to yell and scream til I don't have a voice left in my body.
So to those of you who are Steeler fans, I know you'll be right there cheering with me. So as I'm off to make my veggie dip, margarita dip and my chocolate cheesecake pie, I will leave you with a picture though not the 'OUR FATHER' one, same pose, different angle, same prayer being said, from before the Denver Game 2 weeks ago.
C'mon Steelers ONE FOR THE THUMB! Get it for Jerome!!!!
Brain Cramp
So....I had this big ol post idea in my head the whole way home, and now I think either my brain has clamped onto it so I cannot make a fool of myself or maybe I'm just too tired to care?
Which ever it was, so far its been a great weekend!! The last 2 nights I've been out seeing some of the old friends play, and to a Steeler party. I didn't realize I missed going out til I actually went out. There was 1 evening I went out while I was dating this last time around (*BLAH* to even the thoughts of reliving that one *SHUDDERS*) and since then I haven't been out since the end of October. Yeah yeah, so I've become a homebody, I like it that way. I don't have to take a shower before I go out and anotherAFTER after I come home cause I reek of bar smells, I don't come home at after 2 and feel too wound up to go to bed and have to sit around on the computer til after 3. *YAWNS*
I really lost where I was going with all of this....since I'm out of books I'd like to read I'm off to listen to the radio til I fall asleep...I will save writing about football til I have some sleep and can think properly.
HERE WE GO STEELERS!!!!!!
G'night!
Which ever it was, so far its been a great weekend!! The last 2 nights I've been out seeing some of the old friends play, and to a Steeler party. I didn't realize I missed going out til I actually went out. There was 1 evening I went out while I was dating this last time around (*BLAH* to even the thoughts of reliving that one *SHUDDERS*) and since then I haven't been out since the end of October. Yeah yeah, so I've become a homebody, I like it that way. I don't have to take a shower before I go out and anotherAFTER after I come home cause I reek of bar smells, I don't come home at after 2 and feel too wound up to go to bed and have to sit around on the computer til after 3. *YAWNS*
I really lost where I was going with all of this....since I'm out of books I'd like to read I'm off to listen to the radio til I fall asleep...I will save writing about football til I have some sleep and can think properly.
HERE WE GO STEELERS!!!!!!
G'night!
Monday, January 30, 2006
Hmmm
I can't figure it out....I am using the same scale, but its giving me strange weigh ins......yesterday it told me I was down another 10 pounds....making a total of 25 in 3 weeks!?!?!?!?!?!???????? Though I'm not complaining, and I'm having a VERY hard time keeping the back end of my pants up where they are supposed to be-----25 pounds in 3 weeks? That seems a lil drastic, even if my pants won't stay on my butt!
Any ideas?
btw. STEELERS go to Detroit today for the pre super bowl festivities!! And Wickett is now living out of the kennel at night and when I go away, he's sectioned off in the kitchen at that time, that floors easy to clean up in case of an accident. And he's going thru Oreo withdrawl since he can't go visit til they both get fixed, cause as cute as puppies would be, we don't wanna put her thru that.
Today is the class I'm teaching at work, I'm a lil nervous, wish me luck please, I can use it! :)
And on that, I better get going so I can carry everything into work.
LATER!!!!
Any ideas?
btw. STEELERS go to Detroit today for the pre super bowl festivities!! And Wickett is now living out of the kennel at night and when I go away, he's sectioned off in the kitchen at that time, that floors easy to clean up in case of an accident. And he's going thru Oreo withdrawl since he can't go visit til they both get fixed, cause as cute as puppies would be, we don't wanna put her thru that.
Today is the class I'm teaching at work, I'm a lil nervous, wish me luck please, I can use it! :)
And on that, I better get going so I can carry everything into work.
LATER!!!!
Thursday, January 26, 2006
WOW-diet update
Diet update----down 5 more pounds to a total so far of 15.
Monday went to the mall and walked the whole thing which just the walkway once around is a mile, so I did more than that, and it was a fast trip. I was a woman on a mission. I had a list of things I needed to pick up for the girls at work. STEELER AFC CHAMPS shirts!!!! What else would it have been?
Tuesday we line danced. I miss doing that on the weekends- I am seriously thinking I'm going to have to find someplace to go to dance again. I forgot how much fun it was.
Yesterday I was BAD---it was a chocolate day, and Tam, YES I ate the cake! lol
But today was better salad for lunch no junk food, I'm debating to go make a chicken breast on the grill and some rice. And I stayed after work and walked a mile today.
Monday is my massage class at work so I need to be off to get all of that info together so I can copy it all off tomorrow at work.
Happy Thursday!
Monday went to the mall and walked the whole thing which just the walkway once around is a mile, so I did more than that, and it was a fast trip. I was a woman on a mission. I had a list of things I needed to pick up for the girls at work. STEELER AFC CHAMPS shirts!!!! What else would it have been?
Tuesday we line danced. I miss doing that on the weekends- I am seriously thinking I'm going to have to find someplace to go to dance again. I forgot how much fun it was.
Yesterday I was BAD---it was a chocolate day, and Tam, YES I ate the cake! lol
But today was better salad for lunch no junk food, I'm debating to go make a chicken breast on the grill and some rice. And I stayed after work and walked a mile today.
Monday is my massage class at work so I need to be off to get all of that info together so I can copy it all off tomorrow at work.
Happy Thursday!
Sunday, January 22, 2006
HERE WE GO STEELERS HERE WE GO!!!!!
Not too much to say today but. C'mon boys, BEAT THOSE BRONCOS!!!!
Today I'm off to my parents to partake in lots of good food (everything I made is diet friendly :) WOOHOOO!!!), some screaming at the television and LOTS OF FOOTBALL!!!!!! I'm sure the puppies will be hiding anywhere they can from our cheering on the good ol' BLACK AND GOLD!!!!!!!!!!!
RAE---If you hear screaming from down in the hollow, its just us, nothing to be alarmed about!
Today I'm off to my parents to partake in lots of good food (everything I made is diet friendly :) WOOHOOO!!!), some screaming at the television and LOTS OF FOOTBALL!!!!!! I'm sure the puppies will be hiding anywhere they can from our cheering on the good ol' BLACK AND GOLD!!!!!!!!!!!
RAE---If you hear screaming from down in the hollow, its just us, nothing to be alarmed about!
Tuesday, January 17, 2006
Better week......I hope
So far, its started off to be a better week.....
Got on the scale, I'm down 10 pounds. WOOHOOOO!!!!!! And today I got a fairly good workout after work in a dance class. It was fun!
Not too much exciting goin on over this way.
How was YOUR day?!?!????
Got on the scale, I'm down 10 pounds. WOOHOOOO!!!!!! And today I got a fairly good workout after work in a dance class. It was fun!
Not too much exciting goin on over this way.
How was YOUR day?!?!????
Monday, January 16, 2006
In Pittsburgh the blood runs BLACK AND GOLD!!!!
HERE WE GO STEELERS!!!!!!!!!!!!
YAY, after a edge of our seats, nail biter of a game. We beat the Colts and are off to face the Denver Broncos next weekend for the AFC Championship!!!
My blood runs black and gold. Does yours?!?!?! :-D
On another note, the scrapbooking went well----I got about 8 pages done in the 4 hours we were there, then I ran out of pics that I had cropped. It was a very productive day, and Kel, Becky and I had so much fun doing it. I'm definatly having a scrapbooking party-----after yesterday I'm having a candle party too. *rolls eyes*
YAY, after a edge of our seats, nail biter of a game. We beat the Colts and are off to face the Denver Broncos next weekend for the AFC Championship!!!
My blood runs black and gold. Does yours?!?!?! :-D
On another note, the scrapbooking went well----I got about 8 pages done in the 4 hours we were there, then I ran out of pics that I had cropped. It was a very productive day, and Kel, Becky and I had so much fun doing it. I'm definatly having a scrapbooking party-----after yesterday I'm having a candle party too. *rolls eyes*
Thursday, January 12, 2006
Down Days
I think there may be something wrong with me. I seriously just don't feel right lately. I cry at the drop of a hat, sometimes even less than that (I cried watching CHARMED tonight for some reason unbeknownst to me.) I had a meltdown last night over burnt tortilla shells, and today over a stupid lil, FIXABLE, mistake at work. I'm angry at the world at a moments notice, I don't want to get out of bed in the morning, no matter how early I get up.
Yes I'm complaining!!! Some of my friends and family seem to think its the diet I've started and my body is rebelling, and when I think about it at some times, I would KILL for a small amount of chocolate, and if I gave in I WOULD sit and eat every piece of candy and junk food I could find. Last week I tried to diet, and fell off the horse so to speak, Monday I started again and as of tonight, Thursday evening, I still have a few daily allotted points banked and haven't touched the 'flex' ones for the week yet. And since new years I have had one glass of wine during family game night, so I'm still strong on that front.
I dunno, guess things will look up, after all, tomorrow is finally Friday and I already have my overtime in for the week, and have a potentially fun filled weekend planned. Friday night with friends, Saturday scrapbooking workshop and Sunday is the Steeler playoff game!!!!!
BTW.....Its becoming obvious as I read everyone else's blogs that it is DELURKING WEEK! Does anyone even read this thing? Or am I just ranting to myself out there?!?! Ego boosts are greatly appreciated today!
Have a good weekend ya'll its time for me and the puppy to get some sleep.
Yes I'm complaining!!! Some of my friends and family seem to think its the diet I've started and my body is rebelling, and when I think about it at some times, I would KILL for a small amount of chocolate, and if I gave in I WOULD sit and eat every piece of candy and junk food I could find. Last week I tried to diet, and fell off the horse so to speak, Monday I started again and as of tonight, Thursday evening, I still have a few daily allotted points banked and haven't touched the 'flex' ones for the week yet. And since new years I have had one glass of wine during family game night, so I'm still strong on that front.
I dunno, guess things will look up, after all, tomorrow is finally Friday and I already have my overtime in for the week, and have a potentially fun filled weekend planned. Friday night with friends, Saturday scrapbooking workshop and Sunday is the Steeler playoff game!!!!!
BTW.....Its becoming obvious as I read everyone else's blogs that it is DELURKING WEEK! Does anyone even read this thing? Or am I just ranting to myself out there?!?! Ego boosts are greatly appreciated today!
Have a good weekend ya'll its time for me and the puppy to get some sleep.
Wednesday, January 11, 2006
TECHNOLOGY
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!! Its enough to drive a sane person batty!!!!
I just spend over 2 hours at my parents house networking their computers, only to get to the laptop and find it doesn't have a network card slot!!!!!!!!!!
Then I come home to search the internet for a good buy on a new small television for my bedroom since we are getting Dish network soon and I will be getting 2 recievers.....well there isn't much point in getting a tv any time soon b/c by 2007 all tv channels will be broadcasting in high definition, and I'm sorry I'm not paying $600 for a 19" tv for my bedroom that will just allow me to be lazy. ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!
Its been a bad day....can ya tell!?!??!?!?!?!?
I just spend over 2 hours at my parents house networking their computers, only to get to the laptop and find it doesn't have a network card slot!!!!!!!!!!
Then I come home to search the internet for a good buy on a new small television for my bedroom since we are getting Dish network soon and I will be getting 2 recievers.....well there isn't much point in getting a tv any time soon b/c by 2007 all tv channels will be broadcasting in high definition, and I'm sorry I'm not paying $600 for a 19" tv for my bedroom that will just allow me to be lazy. ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!
Its been a bad day....can ya tell!?!??!?!?!?!?
Tuesday, January 10, 2006
WOOHOOOO
YAY, it really DOES work... I can blog thru my photobucket *does the happy dance around the apartment*
Now if I can just recall my html knowledge enough to remember how to size them down....and you may end up with a few more pictures here soon.
Now if I can just recall my html knowledge enough to remember how to size them down....and you may end up with a few more pictures here soon.
My lil boy
For lack of a better topic today....This is my lil Wickett. He's a Lhasa-Apsa miniture poodle mix and is currently 5 months old. This picture is the first night I brought him home.
Sunday, January 08, 2006
Redecorating
I'm trying to make this place look more like someplace in cyberspace I would like to live----I'm still working at it, please don't hold it against me ;-p
Not too much exciting has been going on, the new year is drudging along, to me it seems like January and February drag along at their own slow pace. Must be because the weather is lousy and I'm very much already looking forward to spring and summer.
All the Christmas things are down and put into their boxes, now if I could just summon enough energy and bravery (those steps are kinda scary and I'm VERY clumsy) to put them up into the attic. Maybe that will be a project for today---since then I can at least have part of my room back and find the second half of my closet past everything i have piled in the corner to go upstairs.
Last night was family game night, which is a fun tradition we started. Christmas always brings both my family and the Aunt's family up the street new games to partake in. Last night we played a variety of trivia games. Lots of Shouting and even some Disney "Scene's" on the screen. It was fun, though if we ever play in teams again, I might very well get banned from participating---my love for movies and music payed off. Yay, I found a game I'm good at----at least in the company of my parents, aunt, uncle and grandmother on dad's side. I think I know an aunt and uncle that would definatly give me a run for my money on both of those games. Hmmm....maybe we can have a 'family game night' for that side of the family too.....
Not too much exciting has been going on, the new year is drudging along, to me it seems like January and February drag along at their own slow pace. Must be because the weather is lousy and I'm very much already looking forward to spring and summer.
All the Christmas things are down and put into their boxes, now if I could just summon enough energy and bravery (those steps are kinda scary and I'm VERY clumsy) to put them up into the attic. Maybe that will be a project for today---since then I can at least have part of my room back and find the second half of my closet past everything i have piled in the corner to go upstairs.
Last night was family game night, which is a fun tradition we started. Christmas always brings both my family and the Aunt's family up the street new games to partake in. Last night we played a variety of trivia games. Lots of Shouting and even some Disney "Scene's" on the screen. It was fun, though if we ever play in teams again, I might very well get banned from participating---my love for movies and music payed off. Yay, I found a game I'm good at----at least in the company of my parents, aunt, uncle and grandmother on dad's side. I think I know an aunt and uncle that would definatly give me a run for my money on both of those games. Hmmm....maybe we can have a 'family game night' for that side of the family too.....
Saturday, January 07, 2006
Tagged.....4 things.....
Borrowed this from my cousin JuJu :)
Four jobs I have had in my life:
- Grocery store cashier, baker, shelf stocker, and whatever else I got told to do on a daily basis
- Cook @ a restaurant & @ a pizza shop
- Production worker making medical products
- Massage Therapist
Four Movies I could watch over and over:
- Armageddon
- Practical Magic
- Top Gun
- The Fast and the Furious
Four places I have lived:
- The apartment I live in now
- The house my parents still live in and have for the last 26 years
- Behind the local library
- At my grandparents house on 56
Four TV shows I love to watch:
- Charmed
- Law & Order: SVU
- Desperate Housewives
- Mythbusters
Four Places I have been on vacation:
- Orlando, Florida
- Columbus, Georgia
- Ocean City, Maryland
- Niagra Fall, New York
Four websites I visit daily: Brace yourselves....
- JuJuBee
- A-K Music Scene
- One Wink at a Time
- Raecy's Place
Four of my favorite foods:
- Pizza
- Cheese and crackers
- Buckeyes
- Chicken Quesadillas (sp?)
Four places I'd rather be:
- In bed sleeping
- Someplace Warm
- Getting a massage
- Alaska, cause I think its warmer there right now than it is here and I've always wanted to go there.
Four albums I can't live without:
- Keith Urban-The Golden Road--for when I'm all country and sappy
- Nickleback- The Long Road---for when I'm feeling a lil aggressive
- (kaj)-Bombs----cause they should have been a signed band!!! *grrr*
- Shinedown-both of them
Sunday, January 01, 2006
HAPPY NEW YEAR
Just wanted to stop and say Happy New Year.
Hopefully 2006 will bring many good things and everyone had a great and safe new years eve. I spent mine with my parents at the firehall where I used to be an active member.
I hate making resolutions, because within the first week of the new year I have normally broken them. So I won't call the things I would like to work on for this coming year that, just a list of things to try.
Hopefully 2006 will bring many good things and everyone had a great and safe new years eve. I spent mine with my parents at the firehall where I used to be an active member.
I hate making resolutions, because within the first week of the new year I have normally broken them. So I won't call the things I would like to work on for this coming year that, just a list of things to try.
- Get healthier, eat better, get a little more exercise (dance more, partake in the bending of my arm less)
- Take some classes, learn some new things, expand on the things I do know and don't practice.
- Read more, and keep track of what I read (so I can finally answer that guy @ work exactly when he asks 'how many books do you read a year?'
- Start taking older family pictures, making copies and making family scrapbooks that can be added to for years to come.
That's all for now, HAPPY 2006!!!!!
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