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Monday, July 23, 2007

woot..

after months of not blogging..
think i better blog once.. haha.. since in camp nothing to do..
will strike a meaningless post.. u can choose not to read it. =)

hm..

i don know for the past months my life have been gd anot..
lots of ups n downs.. things tat i suppose to know n not suppose to know..
but a few great stuff happens tat i am happy about..

first thing is my malaysia trip!
although its not as fruitful as its suppose to be my fishing trip.. mainly is a diving trip lahz.. but i got no diving cert.. how to dive? lolz.. gonna learn it soon man.. it gonna be one in my wishlist! hoho..
- i manage to drive a 90tonne boat for like 10km.. damn hard to control but its gd experience.
- know lots of different kind of ppl, although i am not close to them. they were friendly, they are all from different kind of job scope.
- great captain n crew! chinese captain, lots of stories told by him, fun n the skills he teaches me. Crews are all malay, although older den me, i click with them way better den i click with the divers! even played catching with them around the god damn boat! haha.. so much more fun den playing catching on HDB flats or playground =\ we are not childish hor! jus tat limit fun in a boat surrounded by water n huge WAVEs!
- food are great! grew fatter. =(
- full of movies, aircon on board, even got warm water to bath!
- see lots of different kind of fishes, sotong n jelly fishes!
- different habitat of the places.
- nice stars n sky to see! confirm plus chop u cant find it in singapore.
- n oh ya.. got lots of fishing experience from an uncle who purely do fishing in tis boat trip. like me!

but the cons
- sometimes very hard to balance cause the wave very the big even though the boat very the heavy. wahaha.. *act cute english*
- my equipments are poorly taken care of as the crew doesnt know how precious it is.
- didnt really interact with the singaporean much.. even when i interact with them its always 1 to 1 only..
- didnt manage to see any shooting stars despite spending hours lying on top of the deck n stare at it! ( QIURONG BLUFF ME AH!)
- HP bill go sky rocket after so long of average bill!
- Wanted to jump down to swim so badly but scare i drown(no guts. =( )
- The CAPTAIN say i cannot board his boat next time unless i got my diving cert n dive. =(
- Long car ride.. sitting in a van running speed at 80-100km/h, cutting thru cars n lorries.. horrible! but not as scary as in indo one.. hehe..

Tis trip i was really enjoying it although lots of things came thru my mind, even had the thought of being a seaman for awhile man..

right after came back to singapore.. bad things happen.. some of u know lahz.. so i don wanna go elaborate about it.. its sad.. but den.. nothing i can do.. it happened.

n well.. other den this..

i am happy tat lida n sarah came back tis yr although we didnt had a chance to do a heart to heart talk.. well.. accompany from them all the way from US is way better den nothing.

went to ndp performance twice.. sorry for those who are interested to go. well.. i only got a few tickets.. but pls don expect me to give u all the ticket without me going, i manage to have tickets cause its given by someone. not tat i am issued as if by right i should get it since i am in the unit. no. so for those who put aeroplane last min n those who requested to take the whole package. PAI SEI HOR!.
-anyway the ndp rehearsals are really funny sometimes. enjoyed it.
- didnt enjoyed the fireworks though, it really breaks my heart. =)

okok. i type more den enough. gotta cut it short.
my life seems to be very busy till i got no time to rest even though i am having lots of off.
been helping out patrick. these few days of helping out i really learn alot.. be it event coordination or networking.
but i felt disappointed in myself as i still find myself slacking sometimes in work. its doesnt feel right for me. n i am sure i didnt really 100% use my heart to go remember those stuff he taught.

my sis n bro in law are back. but i haven even really go interact with them either. seems normal tat they are back but i am always out. or they are always out also. not sure when we gonna have a full family dinner man..

n lately i guess some of u felt my frustrations n heck care attitude on some of the stuff.. cant be helped man.. i really cannot tahan ppl who say le neva do.. it really pisses me off, don ask me why. if u cant do it.. at least tell me den ok i will try to understand. but pls don wait untill ppl push liaoz den u feel pressure, did it unwillingly.

for my heckcare attitude i realise tat i back off alot, it causes me to loose my sense of judgement. i now don really know how to go interact with ppl.. lolz.. even when i am helping out patrick on stuff.. jus nice see my friends around. cant strike a conversation tat will be able to last. with tis kind of me.. how am i able to go care about ppl? lolz.. i find it really hard. guess it have to be like tis for awhile untill i really can see the world again to open up myself.

ahya..
i don know wat to type le.. my hands are freaking cold untill i can put on anyone of ur faces n u will start cursing n swearing!! hoho..

shall update next time when i have to say anything.. hehe..

[[~firecomet~]]|Sad @ 7/23/2007 10:30:00 AM|

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