in with bullets. out with hearts.

Friday, June 01, 2007

ha. here i am blogging.

feeling damn moody therefore jus write it down..

lets jus see..
last fri is janice's bday celebration. Me connie serene janice's god bro n of course. Janice.

met up at suntec n headed for tony romas.. had our dinner
n went to a bar at esplanade. had a cocktail connie ordered n i jus sit down there alone drinking n playing hp game while they are busy talking to themselve. its not enjoyable for me definitely. but hey its janice.. she taken care of me well. i jus don wanna disappoint her..

after tat i am jus trying to stay awake yet they say i am high. they were surprised on wat i told them wat i have been wat i have done. they were shocked.. i got commented by them. but who cares.. nothing else i can do. wat done is done. wat sin HAD sin. i did it. i SINNED worst den no one can expect.

so fyi to those who think they know me. THINK AGAIN.

after tat i took a niteride home as there were no bus. long journey but blahz.. at least i reach home.

sun as usual help out uncle patrick. he brought me to honda showroom. bought a odessy n civic.. for grace of course n himself.. ha.. envy.. but he himself got lots of things in mind.. he cared about me.. keep asking me to study.. but i am low moral. how? too many things in my mind i wish to settle but i don have the guts to. i cant handle anymore false break outs. after tat he drove me to marine parade to get my catalogue n i met up with joyce, amos n kenny for board games.

at nite back to tm to watch pirates of the Caribbean with joyce n amos as kenny have to book in. i watched tis show last yr with her, tis yr i couldnt get a chance. nice movie. but too draggy.. graphics are fanstastic.. go watch. tis show the charbor remind me of michelle. from bds. y? i don think i gonna say it. too draggy also. blahz.. after tat is BYEBYE home sweet home!

mon back to camp. bored.

tue: operation wisdom tooth. damn pain. hell worst den the last time. think it affected my nerves tats why. 1 whole day for the blood to stop flowing out. woke up at 4am with my right side of the sleeves full of blood. took it out n soaked into a pail of water n went back to slp. tue is the worst day. heart pain, physical also pain. don wanna elaborate on the heart one.

wed: cool. rot till evening met cpt mark to go fish at saf yacht club. he jus came back from tioman touch down n meet me. touched. felt bad both him n the wife was tired.. yet he still come out. well he caught 2 fish while i got nothing. take it as a punishment den.. but i really needed tat fishing time.. i was too stress out.. sitting down with the rods there are the only chance i can really think.

thur: stuck at home as its PH. doesnt wanna go out. too many ppl out. so rot at home the whole day with the computer. clean up my stuff. i think i been spending too much money on fishing equipments n its non stop. sianz..
kinda quarrelled with dad regarding the stupid computer.
hell i don know wats wrong with my family.
i alone have to face the parents with their cold war
i cant put my expression on msn cause my family members will see n start asking me question when i don wan them to worry.
i cant settle my problems as i will in the end loose one thing or another.
wat should i do?
n why life must be so unfair for me?
when ppl i don wanna know their info i keep getting it but ppl who i wan the info about them so so much yet i know NOTHING about how are they going.
i tried to care, i fail, so am i fail as a human?
wat should i be?
wat happen with me expressing my life?
am i really happy when i am with my friends?
i felt like a two face. or maybe i really am.

[[~firecomet~]]|Sad @ 6/01/2007 02:53:00 AM|

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