Monday, February 26, 2007
here i am posting.. if not because of the promise i made to angel tat i need to do a post..
frankly speaking.. i don think i will made a post.. i am highly demoralize, depress, down, on the verge on wanting to die.. blahz.. wateva..
mon tue: public holiday.. monday did no visiting.. yet my grandma n my aunt from SK came.. so we didnt go over... tue went visiting.. damn quiet one.. went bedok den pasir ris.. no one around.. but at least i visited the elders.. did my part..
wed: physio.. after tat went dick's place to pay a visit.. kinda my fav place.. the design of the house etc etc.. even had tons of baby lobster for our steamboat also.. relative n dick's friend are gambling.. bloody hell.. thousand of dollars are on the table.. was invited to gamble.. but nono.. first.. too big.. 2nd.. my mum don encourage.. so ok.. i was kinda left out at first.. den my eldest cousin came to talk to me.. with crap.. n tons of question asking.. i jus answered without thinking of covering myself.. wateva.. too much sins.. left at nite.. n btw.. dick's my cousin.. n among my cousins.. i am the youngest on my dad's side.. so i was kinda dote at young.. but not now.
thur: back to camp.. damn tired.. slept 3hrs only.. but work work.. in the evening playing pool with the officers.. was kinda on form.. like it tat way.. we had a bet.. only one lost.. so one pay all.. drove out near the camp to had prata.. cpt leroy damn steady.. order the whole list of specialty.. end up we cant finish.. after tat i went to pasir ris to collect 2nd hand fishing equipment.. kinda got cheated. but wateva..
fri: camp again.. damn tired.. even officers are inside.. i still try to slp.. only 1.5hrs of slp.. i neva been so tired b4.. migrane attacked me.. so i half slp.. still alert but i really need tat lying down n close my eyes.. half-dead i am.. afternoon mess was quiet.. so i requested to left early n it was approve.. so headed down to orchard to meet friends from my old sec sch.. thought i was late.. even worst.. CHINYGAY! blocked the roads.. freaking turn off by it.. one big round to PS.. i walk to heeren.. but all of them were late.. soon they came.. we had billy bombers.. 8 of us.. 1 extra which is not from our sch.. but its ok.. nothing much to talk also.. after tat we walked to ps n each headed home.. got home at 1130pm.. super turn off..
sat: went fishing with a forum friend.. learnt lots of new things.. caught nothing.. got 3 bites.. but i don know how to strike them.. so missed.. from there we knew another guy.. so 3 of us headed to beach round to look at fishing equipment.. still wanting to buy my fishing rod blackrose! haha.. shall wait.. but den me n my friend left after awhile.. went for lunch n headed for home.. wash up.. n rest.. after tat i don know wat i do.. i forgot..
sun: rested at home.. grandpa got admitted to hospital.. dad's friend came to visit him.. after tat i headed to hospital with eyvonne n khalid.. his damn compromising.. but the nurses there doesnt treat him nice.. sigh.. nothing i can do.. sad.. after tat we went to grany place.. my grandma from bedok doesnt even recognise me.. first thing ask me why i neva greet my sis.. in a spilt min ask me who am i.. i am so forgettable huh? went home after tat.. eyvonne n khalid picked nana.. n there goes the house.. quiet.. as usual...
life hasnt been gd for me.. yet i keep it quiet.. where's my rage? i stupidly got cheated.. i know i got rage in it.. i can keep complaining but i jus cant flare out! wat the hell am i doing.. jus swallowing my saliva? can i really say i am able to control my temper already? sigh.. so wat.. i am too stress regarding the chalet.. i even got the heart to close it.. in the first place i don even want it.. so wat if i open.. u may not even come.. thy also wont come.. angel? roch? don need to say.. seriously its sad.. i really no mood to do anything.. tell me.. wat can i do.. i am tired. i wish to cry.. yet tears cover my eyes but doesnt flow down.. dead..
P:S : Angeline Thanks for your present! i know i haven receive it! but at least u msn me n told me! hope to get it soon! cant wait for the bday present u sent me! first present somemore! muackx! tthanks alot!
[[~firecomet~]]|Sad @ 2/26/2007 07:16:00 PM|
Sunday, February 18, 2007
ha.. didnt wanted to blog.. was reluctant to blog.. but den.. nvm...
seriously i forgotten wat i have done.. camp i guess on monday..
tue: physio.. tats all..
wed: val day.. camp.. got caught using army lappy in my mess by one LTC.. kinda kanna scold.. den reported to the respected department.. 2lt shaun kanna cause he lent it to me.. felt damn bad man.. tat ltc also a ******.. haiz.. after tat me shaun chris n wenhui headed out.. i went to a fishing shop to see the rod i am interested n went to look for them at kfc.. joined them for awhile b4 heading home.. n ya.. tats how i gone thru my val day.. its a memorable day.. as in in yr 2006.. but wat else can i do.. its over..
thurs: nana morning came.. she's sick.. got suspected a children disease call "kawasaki" weird right? to me its a bike, racket brand.. end its a children's disease also.. she got admitted to KK hospital.. finally did my allegy test at cgh.. causes me 16dots on my left hand.. wanted to take a photo of it.. jus too lazy plus its hard to see it clearly.. took 4hrs of my time.. cool.. went to meet QR at army market to get some stuff.. she get name-tag for her bf while i did some shopping.. bought a foldable chair n a small black chinabag.. total $17.. both for my fishing.. hehe.. walk to beach rd as qr wanna get some fabrics.. after awhile.. finally bought it.. den my turn.. look for my fishin stuff again.. lots of shop there sia.. price varies.. the rod i like the design damn nice lohz.. got one black rose drawn there.. the rod name also "black rose".. lolz.. its not tat i am girly.. jus tat the design is nice.. fallen for it.. price also nice.. 85bucks.. cheapest is 75 i found.. still thinking.. thinking of getting 2 sets of reel n rods.. well.. depend.. turning crazy.. haha.. after tat went to have bak ku teh.. taste soso.. blahz.. den we separate n headed home.. didnt go KK to visit nana.. cause mum say they were leaving.. ok lohz.. i didnt slept the whole nite.. only sleep at 4am i think.. whole nite thinking of stuff.. n speech if i open my chalet b4 cutting my cake.. long speech.. i wonder how can my guests tahan.. haha..
fri: camp.. till late afternoon.. kinda had fun.. we got bingo same.. haha.. i won one of the round! 20bucks fairprice voucher.. better den nthing.. even got lion dance n so.. well well.. Singapore Combat Engineer mostly 95% all chinese or indians.. can say 100% also lahz.. haha.. first time see all these.. don even know next yr got the chance to see anot.. nvm.. after tat headed to wisma to collect eyvonne's phone.. rush to kk hospital.. basket i always tio cut queue.. tats the sadist part.. wanted to say the person.. but nvm.. tahan! went there nana so grouchy n poor thing.. needle, scanner on her.. cant eat.. pain.. sigh.. my heart really felt the pain.. but as usual.. she will always say "i don wan gugu" blahz.. left after eyvonne n khalid came.. 9++ i think.. had late dinner.. mcdonalds.. n headed home.. wah freaking pissed.. no cab.. dad brought us wrong direction to take bus also.. so turn rounds n rounds.. 45mins outside kk hospital like an idiot..
got some cabs also don wanna fetch.. nvm.. finally got a cab.. slept inside.. really tired.. 1.5hrs of slp.. deadly.. the ride was fast n smooth.. nice driving.. went to nite market to get some stuff for new yr.. den headed home to rot.. new yr..
sat: new yr eve.. stuck at home.. rest at home with parents.. no reunion dinner cause nana was still at the hospital.. so dinner was like me.. n my parents..
sun: struck 12.. cny.. dad actually gave me an ang bao.. don know whether its the 1st time he gave a separate ang bao with mum or its been yrs since he did tat.. was surprised.. mum gave me one too.. again i slept at 430am.. freak.. rot at home the whole day today.. wat else can i do? mum's on morning shift.. so no visiting today.. nana came in the afternoon.. discharged.. lookin better.. but still irritatable easily.. i didnt go near her often.. cause she doesnt likes me.. i myself was moody also anyway.. had a conversation with a friend in msn, no longer be able to click.. lots of misunderstanding between me n her.. why.. cause of the long separation n no communicating? i don know.. it only hurts me to loose a gd friend.. but i been loosing ppl also right? my love one, best friend, friend? wateva.. i am tired.. my heart aches everyday.. add one more.. don think it really matters.. n ya.. left side of my nose bleed AGAIN.. lolz.. i wonder how many times i must nose bleed.. blahz.. ya tats all i guess.. i really tired of writing.. cya.
[[~firecomet~]]|Sad @ 2/18/2007 11:45:00 PM|
Sunday, February 11, 2007
back ah.. lolz.. blahz.. but i don know wat to write lehz.. lost in memories.. lets try..
mon: rot rot n rot.. tats all..
tue: off.. early evening went to meet jacelynn in bugis to try to see another shirt suits me.. guess not.. went to hongkong cafe near BJ.. its near can cafe.. food.. ok lahz.. not tat gd.. but also not tat bad.. after tat slack down.. cause don know where to go n its abit too late for movie.. got my v3x back from her.. finally.. but the phone hitch(spring) is dmg.. so had to change.. den home.
wed:camp. nthing special. jus camp!
thur: off! i was blurred.. really blur.. thought its my medical appointment.. even talk to my mum about it on wed.. den when i wake up.. er.. i told myself to check the medical appointment card.. its next week... blahz.. haha.. wat a blooper.. after tat i don know wat i do liao lehz.. oh ya.. i went to temple to pay a visit on my late grandpa.. last yr neva go.. so tis yr went.. after tat went to a scam place where i got my letter from my bro in law place.. wat free gift.. felt uneasy.. hey but lets try mahz.. bad bad lahz.. so i went.. jus beside the temple only also.. so received a dumb camera.. worst den a toy.. my parents decide to give nana as a toy.. hehe.. den went to the bank get a new bank book.. stock up some stuff for home.. n wala.. home sweet home..
fri: camp again.. tis time works alone.. CDF came.. fyi.. is chief defence force.. the 3 star general in singapore.. biggest in saf lahz.. haha.. hm.. he jus stepped down.. changing a new cdf during march.. but well.. he sure gonna get another big position job again.. lolz.. he is kinda humble looking guy.. not as fat as on tv.. but he seems to stare at me for quite a while twice.. blahz.. wateva..
sat: a day i do things alone.. i went to bugis to buy fishing stuff alone.. didnt know anything at all.. so didnt buy much.. took a cab to marina south pier to fish.. quick start.. but no fish.. keep throwing.. but cant reach the distance i wan.. lolz.. i see fishes jumping in front of me.. but i cant reach it.. grr.. only 4 fishes i caught.. damn lame.. like damn lousy skill i got.. let go 1 one of it cause its so damn small... 2-3cm in length? spent about 3hrs there.. althought i got nothing.. i kinda able to get peace... a peace where i hardly can find.. a peace where i can think of things.. n dream.. n ya.. freak! i slip n fall again! same place.. wah kaoz.. tis time no injure.. but i jus sit down there n laugh at myself.. wanted to wash hand den slp.. wallet wet.. HENG! both hp in my pocket dry.. tis time really lucky! lolz.. took a cab home.. was shocked when i saw 2bucks extra charge.. didnt know sat also peak hr. but nvm.. both cab uncle charge me less.. like round off.. i am like ok.. haha.. got home.. mum help me pack up.. n settle down.. took out my wallet stuff to clean n dry them..
sun: today.. went to meet pam.. she is late.. AGAIN.. lolz.. so i went to SE service centre to repair my sister phone.. been 4 mths since i said i will help her.. nvm.. n i did.. her LCD stock is finally here.. so ok.. haha.. den went to meet pam.. went to shops n shops.. nthing special.. untill we saw at springfield.. shirt 79.. jacket was like 159?!! den wah laoz.. she like psychoing me to buy.. but we went around first b4 we decided.. S n K got a reversible jacket.. 40bucks.. thick n not as nice as the one in springfield.. went to diesel at paragon to look for the watch i am interested.. but they sell mainly clothes.. haiz.. ok.. went back to wisma to get the shirt.. jacket.. no money lahz! but will buy soon.. find it a need now to buy a jacket since pam totally changed my dressing style.. she wants me to look younger.. lolz.. went to hereen to look for the watch.. but fail.. so we spilt as she needs to go for facial.. i went ps to get my v3x fix.. but den.. no stock for hitch.. i jus have to wait.. headed back by mrt.. n rot at home to watch pck last episode.. ha.. really nice comedy.. gonna miss it.. well.. tats it..
hm.. oh ya.. wanna congratulate my friends who got their O lvl results.. wah kaoz.. all of u got nice result ah.. r4 14.. zai lehz! lolz.. proud of u peeps! especially xinmin! r4 8 points.. busy doing superband yet still zai! lolz.. unable to post her pic here as she have not send me.. lolz.. next time shall post..
ha.. i still don know whether i wanna celebrate my bday.. not really in the mood.. so many ppl not around.. her.. angel.. thy.. so n so.. really lost the mood even though its my 21st.. any suggestion? how should i celebrate? lolz.. or i shouldnt? blahz..
Pam ask me put wishlist! lolz.. i shall.. y not? its my blog!
- New Wallet.. cause it got soaked in water..
- New watch.. cause old le.. aimming diesel!
- New jacket.. from springfield or others.. haha..
- New fishing equipment! n maybe prawn..
- Maybe a psp.. getting cheaper.. lolz..
- Maybe a new mp3player with radio also.. scare i spoil the old one again..
- Levis jeans.
hm.. Don know liaoz! n ya.. if i celebrate my bday.. hope u will come.. :)
I am kinda glad tat i wet my wallet.. if not i wont know.. ur picture are still in it.. i smiled..
[[~firecomet~]]|Sad @ 2/11/2007 11:04:00 PM|
Sunday, February 04, 2007
back.
today's special.. blogging with a bacardi brezzer cranberry beside me.. its been in my fridge for years.. think at least 1.5yrs.. haha.. so why did i take out.. cause today its meant to be a special, happy, best, record breaking day tat should happened.. but it didnt..
cause i crashed it with my bare hands.. go do the guessing? jus don ask me.. cause its jus too painful..
right.. lets start!
mon: back to camp.. nothing much happened.. wat can camp happened actually.. haha.. n ya.. with my partner.. morning he will hides one side n slp.. while i slp in the open.. so when officers come in.. i will be alert n be awake by them to serve them.. stayed in on tat day.. stupid partner of mine dirtied my shirt tat i hang it..
tue: still in camp.. left abit earlier den usual.. suppose to stay in.. but dad sms me says mum cooked some nice dinner for me.. lolz.. ok.. so i headed back home instead.. shaun's dad sent me to pasir ris n i head back home from there.. dinner was ok lahz.. not really cook for me.. den dad cooked extra cause got guest.. end up too much.. sigh.. don know wat he doing..
wed: back to camp. tats all.. nothing to continue..
thurs: off day! yeah! went for my medical appointment to resume my physio.. den meet pam at vivo for my shopping.. first time to vivo.. was excited.. but once i got there.. wasnt tat impressed by wat it is.. shops.. soso.. 3 storeys.. but only 2 have shops? tats wat pam told me.. outside scenery is nice.. but why need pathway outside the restaurant? its so turn off.. if not.. it can be romantic.. ok.. we went shopping like siao.. haha.. but cant seem to find something nice.. spent 200 already over there.. got myself a puma shoe, a jeans from pull n bear(its own by zara), n a belt from river island.. tis pam was like keep saying rivervale.. den i keep laughing n suan her tat we are not at sengkang! haha.. didnt manage to get anything nice from topshop.. it was disappointed.. hm.. n ya.. saw a shirt from river island.. its nice.. but i got the feeling i only wear it on special occasions.. n the colors don really fit me.. cause nearly a 100.. so i cancel my mind on buying tat.. after tat.. headed home.. when back.. have to fix the freaking laptop tat dad crashed.. haven really crashed yet.. but soon.. cant even find the recovery disc.. even SHAN called me when she didnt did the trial n error for her LAPTOP, ended up.. slept at 3am.. ridiculous..
fri: back to work.. late morning manage to borrow my major's car.. was rushing though.. went to sengkang to fetch QR as my navigator, got there quite fast.. i was speeding.. haha.. 120 at tpe.. slowed down while i saw TP.. lolz.. i didnt know i was speeding lahz.. cause i was concentrating on the road.. the next thing i saw the tachometer.. 120 le.. lolz.. b4 tat i was reversing out of my camp carpark.. the slope so high n difficult.. i hit the kerb.. laugh at the warrent looking at me too much.. haha.. ok.. after fetching her headed our journey to jurong.. dot dot.. got lost.. even with a navigator.. after tat i got serious.. den QR got serious.. lolz.. so we corrected ourself.. concentrate.. n got there.. n ya.. spent 15mins at akira only.. hopefully can be repaired.. cause its the only thing tat she left for me.. so headed back to jalan kayu for roti prata.. first time.. blahz.. but its not nice at all lohz.. who say its nice?! only think not bad is the banana prata.. cheese.. puI!! yucks.. n the service so slow.. no ppl yet SLOW.. wth? u are famous also don need yaya can? ok.. after tat i didnt had time to send QR home.. was feeling sorry about it but she understand.. cause we wasted alot of time when we got lost.. so i headed back to camp.. got it back by 10mins.. like the driving experience.. returned the car back to my major.. i finally got to use my sunglass! n it really helps alot on tat sunny day.. got back to work.. pissed with my partner.. wateva he do i also pissed.. thanks to him i have to change my physio date somemore.. really a fucker.. jus because he wanna earn money outside.. i have to sacrifice for him? wth? happy hour at nite.. quite ok.. NYP students came.. certificate for them as they helped on some designing for tis yr ndp.. finished early.. quite ok.. my mood was still fine cause of the driving i had.. my LTC sent me to pasir ris as he stayed there.. so i took a cab from there.. wala! i am home.. saw nana.. carried her n gave her a kiss on da cheek.. miss her so mucH!
sat: rested at home whole day no move.. wanted to go prawn fishing.. but no one wanna go with me.. blahz.. lolz.. n i was fearing for the date feb 4 to come.. sigh.. wateva..
sun: today! meet xian in the afternoon.. for prawn fishing at marina.. quite ok.. 4hrs.. waste of time.. at least it gets my mind off.. was feeling real real depressed.. yet i not even sure how i keep my composure.. guess the training of controlling myself kinda work.. my hook broke 5 times.. lolz.. 2 times with huge prawn with the size of like er.. 25cm? lolz.. got 1 25cm n 21 other prawn in my fridge now.. lolz.. will post the pics later.. after tat.. we spilt n i headed for home.. i really don know wat i was doing... jus stare.. with my mind blank.. feeling tired.. restless.. ha.. guess i don wanna comment much about it.. i can neva express my feelings well..
recently i really feel damn tired.. with work, soul.. everything.. ha.. i don know..
end it with a post of photos from the mercedes showroom event n my prawn catching prawns!
Mercedes turn!
I dreamt of u a few days ago.. i dreamt tat i saw u.. been months in real life i have not seen u.. days without u seriously got no color.. in the dream i approached to u.. u still pissed with me.. angry with me.. u didnt wanna talk to me.. u walked off from me.. i boarded a boat.. u did too.. with a friend.. but u didnt notice me.. i went to a ball game.. with celebrities.. i nearly dropped my ring.. its jus a normal ring.. but it seems to represent u in the dream.. y.. i burst out loud at one of the celebrity when he asked me.. i sound out my sadness.. my regret.. everything.. den woke up.. i guess i still missed u.. hope u like the gift..
[[~firecomet~]]|Sad @ 2/04/2007 10:47:00 PM|
