Passion Reignited

Dear Bloggie...

I know what I want and this time, I'm not letting go...

Such an interesting day I had yesterday...

For band, to be honest everytime my conductor tells me I'll be conducting alone, I do feel nervous on what I should do...

But yesterday was the day I sealed my insecurities and felt at home...

I came up with the four steps of warm up... 8 counts, 16 counts, Taufiq method and scales...

By the looks on the kids faces, they were really tired...

But can really tell that they are willing to get better

So after the warm up, touched abit on ode to joy... then moved to gavotte.... Played gavotte a lot yesterday and the kids managed to play till bar 18! Which is awesome cause last week they played till bar 10 only... Slowly but surely! So after that had lunch with them... got to know more about them and they got to know more about me... =] They said I'm the first instructor that they are nice to... I'm flattered... Maybe I'm seriously too nice to them, uh oh....... =p Anyways lunch was great! Then went home to rush proposals.. I've got More proposals to do Tmr so better get to sleep! =]

 I know you're probably not gonna read this, but just in case you do, life is filled with ups and downs, I wanna be there when it's up and I wanna be there when it goes down... I'm your friend for life... =]] Zupz Zupz!

Hooded green

Dear Bloggie...

The pain, the suffering, the angst... Feel it, embrace it, submerge yourself in it...

People come, people go...

They leave memories just like a snow...

Once they make you cold...

Your warmth makes them fold...

Into the night, the darkness will take hold...

I'm just a humble person...

Trying to find meaning in life and its lesson...

But all I've tasted are sours from life's lemons...

When will I feel alive? I will never know...

But now my darkest hour, is about to unfold...

Silence shall fall...

Be wary of those around you...

Zupz Zupz!

Expect nothing, love nothing

Dear Bloggie...

Patch me up cause I'm breaking apart...

Today chionged proposals for Tmr cause I'll be having 2d1n camp till Tuesday.

Watched ah boys to men. Amazing.

Nights world.

Zupz Zupz!

Wasted

Dear Bloggie...

Recovery.

Today was spent just doing mindless activities...

I shall just sleep now...

Good nights...

Zupz Zupz!

The recency Paradigm

Dear Bloggie...

One last time for the world to see, just for you...

As much as possible I'll try to make this a daily thing...

So that one fine day I'll get to look back at those days where things just never seems to fall in place...

They just fall all over the place and nothing just works anymore...

People stop trying...

More people crying...

I might just stop.

Breathing.

But that will come later (hopefully)...

It's kinda fun, no one ever comes here but me...

Freedom of thought, spoken words, of expression in poetry...

-Got scolded during band
-Gained popularity with band members
-Didn't get to practice flute
-TMNT,  Glee, survivor
-Early night
-Alumni meeting Tmr morning

Nights y'all!

Zupz Zupz!

Future plans, future pains...

Dear Bloggie...

He could have had the future he has been wishing for, but we all know wishes don't come true...

When I've reached the right age and saved enough, I'll get my own apartment and live on my own...

I'll probably visit the animal shelter frequently, even the SPCA to adopt a cat to shower my love and affection to...

Cause it is just heart wrenching to go through break ups and if that's not an option, rejections are just as bad...

I'm sure cats won't be too harsh on me...

Probably get a mundane office job with no prospects...

Just living in a totally unipolar world...

Life would be so much easier...

When the things you need to worry about would be having fed Dorothy(the cat) or do the laundry or what new recipe will I indulge myself with...

Just away from human civilisation...

I'll have all the love and affection I need from a cat and I'll just live aimlessly...

Sounds like a plan...

It may or may not come true but if life happens to take a turn for the worst, at least this will be a reminder that I am ready to taste the harsh realities of life, love and living.... =]

First time blogging from my phone...

Fiqz owt!

Zupz Zupz!

On my own

And now I'm all alone again nowhere to turn, no one to go to
without a home without a friend without a face to say hello to 
And now the night is near
Now I can make believe he's here

Sometimes I walk alone at night
When everybody else is sleeping
I think of him and then I'm happy
With the company I'm keeping
The city goes to bed
And I can live inside my head

On my own
Pretending he's beside me
All alone
I walk with him till morning
Without him
I feel his arms around me
And when I lose my way I close my eyes
And he has found me

In the rain the pavement shines like silver
All the lights are misty in the river
In the darkness, the trees are full of starlight
And all I see is him and me forever and forever 
And I know it's only in my mind
That I'm talking to myself and not to him
And although I know that he is blind
Still I say, there's a way for us 

I love him
But when the night is over
He is gone
The river's just a river
Without him
The world around me changes
The trees are bare and everywhere
The streets are full of strangers

I love him
But every day I'm learning
All my life
I've only been pretending
Without me
His world would go on turning
A world that's full of happiness
That I have never known

I love him
I love him
I love him
But only on my own

The Origin

Dear Bloggie...

This is just random, just something I thought of and I just needed to blog about...

EUPHORIA - Once Upon an Apple Series IV
~Junnieer

Like I said, random. Heh. =]

Zupz Zupz!

Questions?

Dear Bloggie...

And so a notion was passed, did the chicken come first, or the egg?

Welcome.

It has been awhile.

The only reason for this update is preservation.

There are times in life where you gotta make bold moves.

Life changing decisions. To follow your heart, mind, thought or your plain brain.

I was built on terms of understanding, logic, perception and intelligence.

But subconsciously I was made with passion, emotions, feelings and sensitivity.

How does one weigh and tip the importance between Intelligence and Emotions?

When do we, follow our hearts rather than follow our brains?

We all feel, feeling is a subset of the brain's ability to react to certain scenarios.

In fact our heart is simply a program set by the brain to keep beating continuously until we die.

But love...

Love is absolute.

It has no laws, it abides by no rules.

Love is the epiphany of feelings. It is the créme de lá créme of feelings.

It makes you feel good, it makes the person you love feel good. It's a win-win situation.... No?

But what happens when love doesn't reciprocate?

What then?

Does that mean love is flawed?

Does that turn a win-win situation into a lose-lose situation?

What renders love useless?

Is it the fact that you're always giving your best only to be getting little, or even none back?

Then comes the question of sincerity. Does expecting something back void thoughts of sincerity?

Disclaimer: This is just a thought process and is to be observed as such.

Cause I've been thinking and feeling and... The equation is always lopsided...

Make me understand what true love is...

Make me feel like I've got something to fight for...

Let's make it a win-win situation everytime...


"Those who oppose the reality of constant change will find themselves in a whole poop of conundrum" -Fengz Er Shi San

Zupz Zupz!