new job, new life

Dear Bloggie...

What doesn't kill me, makes me stronger.

Hello all! =]

I hope everyone's feeling well...

As most of you guys know, I'm now no more working in station...

I'm now in Medical Centre...

The environment is completely different...

And there are some stress to the job, but I can handle...

Anyways...

Won't talk about work...

I'm gonna take leave this friday, so people, start calling me up and calling me out...

Gosh I'm like tired after a day's work...

So yea...

Just blogging for the sake of blogging...

Am I a good friend?

A good bf?

I'm just doing things so that people are happy...

Cause seeing them happy makes me happy too...

But when I see my loved ones feel down, and there's nothing I can do...

I'll just feel helpless, I wanna help, but I can't...

The feeling sucks big time...

But I guess I just gotta understand and take a step back...

At times I don't know if I should pursue it or take a step back...

So yea...

My intentions are good, but sometimes they are just, misinterprited...

Oh wells...

I have no idea what I'm talking about...

I should stop blogging like, now...

So take care people...

Have a great month ahead!

The new year's coming!

I'm gonna start my driving lessons next month...

Hopefully can get my license as soon as possible...

Ok I'm goin off now...

Bye!

*There's nothing that could come between us*

Zupz Zupz!

1 + 1 = us

Dear Bloggie...

There're good times as well as bad ones, it's how we deal with them that matters.

Hello all! =]

Ok it's been like forever since I updated this blog...

*kinda sounds routine for me to be saying this everytime I blog*

Anyways, not that I don't want to blog, I just lost the touch to blog already...

But I'm here now, so I shall blog! =D

The past few month has been filled with loads of ups and downs...

To be honest, mostly filled with downs...

But it's alright, it's the downs that makes the ups more appreciative...

Anyway, even though I still get nervous or anxiety attacks while working...

I'm really trying to overcome it, even though it takes alot of psycho-ing on my part...

I'm also glad that there are people around me understands what I'm going through...

Which makes it easier for me to talk to people...

By far it's my first working experience as I've never worked before...

Quite an eye-opener on many levels...

Lets just see how far I'll go with this...

On to other stuff...

Yesterday I went out with gf...

Followed by meeting my friends to go SGH...

So in the morning, I went to CDC at ubi for my e-trial for FTT...

The questions were much more tricky, but I manage to do all the trial papers...

Then after that, flew over to bukit gombak, gf was late, but it's ok. =]

Then went to Sim Lim, on the way there, we saw ang mohs. =X

So we walked around sim lim trying to find this mp3 player...

Sadly out of all the shops in the whole building, only two shops sold the mp3 player...

So clearly we went for the shop which sold it at a lower price... =]

After Sim Lim, went to bugis to have lunch at PastaMania...

We ate the same thing, which was the chicken cheese *something*...

Spammed the cheese cause cheese is AWESOME... =X

After we're done with eating, something happend *YAY!* then we proceeded to outram...

Waited for jazli and his sister then proceeded to SGH...

After SGH, sent gf home and after that went somewhere, not too sure where...

Reached home at 12am sharp...

Received a msg for gf, made me smile. =]

Then went to sleep...

That was the day I was out of my house for a very very long time... =X

Ok that's all...

I'll update soon I guess...

Take care everyone!

*Lets be there for each other, together*

Zupz Zupz!

and then we turned 2

Dear Bloggie...

Hello all! =]

Just felt like updating this blog...

So far life has been quite alright...

Maybe just having some problems at work...

But other than that, life's quite interesting...

Going out for calls...

Is a normal thing for normal medics, paramedics, drivers...

They can handle the kind of stress the situation throws at them...

And I respect that alot, I really do...

But much to my own disappointment, I'm a medic who has a disability and has to face it sooner or later...

I've tried taking it as a challenge for myself, and I doubt anyone can ever understand what I'm going through...

So this is just me, voicing out my thoughts...

To others I might be a disgrace to all medics, but to some, I'm just doing the right thing...

But what other people think, is only based on personal opinions without any thorough investigation...

Call me a coward or label me courageous, I know i'm doing the right thing, that matters most...

I'm sick of being scared of doing what I'm supposed to...

So I will do what I need to do...

Regardless of what society thinks, I have to change something which will bring harm to myself...

I pray to Allah that my condition doesn't get any worse.......

On another note...

I love my gf loads! =]

Ok that's all for now...

Stay tuned and please pray for my successful transfer out...

Take care everyone, stay safe! =]

*As long as we stay true to each other, we'll go all the way together*

Zupz Zupz!

a love that's meant to be

Dear Bloggie...

Hello all! =]

Ok...

Yesterday I had THE most amazing time of my life...

For starters, alot of first times yesterday....

Yesterday I went BERjalan raye with my peeps...

My gf tagged along...

Our first time goin jalan raye together...

I was excited, yet nervous at the same time... =X

But it was a day filled with interesting stuff... heez...

Ok I shan't tell the story here, if you wanna know then ask me personally...

Cause I'm not sure if I'm allowed to, say all this things... =X

So yea...

A day that I can never forget...

Wow...

And tomorrow I have work, gosh, what a bummer...

Well nonetheless, I'm a medic, and that's what I do best, helping people! =]

Ironed shirt, Ironed pants, Placed nametag and medic badge on shirt, tomorrow need to wear belt...

Macam batman sak... -.-

Ok, I'm ready for work tomorrow!

I hope my gf's alright...

Hmmm...

I guess that's all for today...

Will update soon then!

Take care people!

*I hope I gave the right impression to her family*

Zupz Zupz!

but they lucky guy's not me...

Dear Bloggie...

As yet another chapter ends, a new chapter unfolds.

Hello all...

Kinda in a solemn mood now...

Don't know why, don't care why, I just wanna sing...

So MOC has finally come to an end...

There were ups and downs, mostly downs to be honest(refering to all the half-rights)...

I came, I learned, I knew....

And now I'm a medic officially...

I entered NS with one purpose and one purpose alone...

To get into Medic course and to be a medic...

A purpose based on putting my energy in helping people...

It's to my full knowledge that the job is a dangerous one...

Being frontline...

But if I can help someone so that their loved ones don't lose him/her, I'll risk my life for it...

I'm posted to Tampines Fire Station and will start working on Monday...

Alot of things ran through my mind...

Could be the cause of my sadness, but at the same time i'm happy...

I need emotional support, as much as I can...

And especially more when I eventually meet with a dead body or killed someone due to my lack of judgement...

but... I know I only have myself to count on...

Currently trying to prepare myself for bloody cases, amputated hands, spinal injuries...

Gosh...

Sorry guys...

I haven't been such a sunshine when I blog...

I know...

Something's bothering me, but I can't describe or know what it is...

Maybe I'm just scared.... scared of losing it all...

Tomorrow shall be a better day...

I want to be as honest as possible...

Be myself...

And if I'm lucky, I'll be happy...

Till the next time...

Take care guys...=]

*Give me the strength to face even the toughest diversities*

Zupz Zupz!

Give me the strength...

Dear Bloggie...

Make me feel alive again...

Hello peeps...or should I say, hey there blog...

It's been... a very... emotionally draining week...

Tiring... my head hurts on most parts...

Tempted to grab a knife and puncture it through the arteries...

But it aint worth it... always not worth it...

Everything I do, is always wrong...

Just plain and simple, it's not worth it...

Why am I feeling this way, i dun have a clue...

Just a very deep dark alley where my mind has gone to...

Nothing i do is ever good enough...

Stress from work, stress from home...

Where else am I to find my peace...

Living when life is just about pleasing others...

What do they know about me...

What do they care...

Do they even listen...

Countless times I've tried to help, but it's still the same problems...

My help was sincere, but now it felt like it never existed...

I guess my advices were to vague, general...

Anyone could give those kind of advice...

So I guess I shall stop my advice, which will only lead to me being hurt over and over again...

Take care people...

And sorry for intruding your lives....

Zupz Zupz!

2 weeks, and more to go towards infinity

Dear Bloggie...

There's no one like you, but you.

Hello all! =]

Ok it's been like, forever since I updated again...

Sorry!

Hmmm, I say this cause I've been online every other night last week...

So yea...

Anyhoo..

First week of MOC!

Before the start of ANYTHING, we kena pump already...

Interesting right? I KNOW.

But after that it gets alright I guess...

A whole load of bio-related-mumbo-jumbo to adhere to...

Of which my puny brain could not absorb everything once...

Which was why I only understood it after much revision/drilling sessions...

And the fact that there's SOOO much information being drilled into our delicate brains within such a short span of time...

Only shows that the next 5 weeks will be filled with loads more of information...

And to make things even more interesting, ok sorry, "INTERESTING", there's theory tests every week...

So all my Angina Pectoris and Acute Myocardial Infarction plus all the other chim stuff have to be infused into my brain by then...

*and not studying during the weekends won't give me any advantages either.*

I mean come on, I sweat my brains out during the whole week already, the least I could get is a 2 day break away from all the terms... =X

Gah, excuses... -.-

Oh, and it's the first week of fasting month last week...

Somehow being hungry makes me awake during lessons...

Just that I get very lathargic whenever we have to move around and stuff like that...

I'd rather have theory lessons all the way if you ask me...

Just sitting down in the aircon room absorbing information, people, please pity my brain... =X

Ah yes, about fasting, so during lunch we just sit at the foyer doing nothing...

Most of the time I'll either call my dad or my dad will call me...

And I'll complain and complain, ok not that much of complaining la...

Then I'll text my dear and she'll reply back... heez... =X

And usually we will end very late...

We'll never end at the allocated time for god knows what reason...

And going back and forth to camp without a transport is seriously tiring...

I'm grateful to my aunt to fetch me to and from the camp most of the time...

But at times she's busy, travelling is no easy task...

Tomorrow I will leave house darn early, wanna know what it feels like to be early...

Ok I seriously dunno what else to say...

So...

Let's wait till next week to find out how things go! =D

Till then, Take care people!

5 more weeks to POP!

2 weeks and counting! =D

*I'll try my very best to be there for you, always*

Zupz Zupz!

the end of BRT, the start of something new

Dear Bloggie...

With every second that passed us by, we gain experience on life...

Hello all! =]

First off, POP OH! =X

Hahakz, it feels awesome fantastic outstandingly good! =D

No more being shitted at by instructors and crapped at by higher people...

No more being a recruit...

We are finally Privates!

I just can't describe how great it feels... =]

I can't remember what happend last week...

But all I can remember is that, we had Final Ex...

Which was we went to MTV to have an exercise...

It's more of like looking for dummies and putting rescue equipments to practice...

Somehow we were short of one dummy and couldn't find it no matter how much time we spent looking for it...

But it was quite a fun experience...

The teamwork, the people I worked with..

It was just awesome...

I participated in one of the route marches...

Which was freakin tiring...

It was more of brisk walking...

Thank god the bag wasn't that heavy...

My legs felt as though they wanted to snap...

But I just endured and kept on going step after step... =]

On Thursday I couldn't endure my flu anymore...

That was when I decided to visit the MO...

And I was given 2 days of light duty...

Which means I couldn't take part in the parade...

Ok my memory seems to be slipping...

Maybe I'll blog again tomorrow...

And if many of you haven't known yet...

I'm attached already...

Won't say to who, but those who are close to me should know by now...

I'm really really happy that I'm in a relationship with someone I care about...

And I hope it lasts forever...

I also hope that my friends would support us in this relationship...=]

Ok that's all for today...

Maybe I'll post again tomorrow...

Take care everyone!

Gd nitez and sweet dreamz!

And to those fasting tomorrow, jangan luper niat! and SELAMAT BERPUASA!

28 more days only, 4 more weeks! =D

16.08.2009 ; the start of something amazing. ;)

*I'm gonna love ya, till the end of time =]*

Zupz Zupz!

one more time......POP OH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =D

i entered with nothing, i came back with attitude

Dear Bloggie...

Some people are worth waiting for, some people just aint.

Hello all! =]

Somehow, you can only blame your problems on the world for so long...

But someday, eventually, you gotta find a solution to it whether you like it or not...

People will hate you for it, Love you for it, treat you like shit for it...

But as long as you've got no regrets, you've done the right thing... =]

Long weekends are HERE!

I'm paying back my fasting day today, so I have to fast today...

Not a problem, got loads of stuff to do today...

Go out with dad later, then I'm having violin lessons in the evening...

And throughout the day, I'll be either Ironing, Polishing or Practicing my violin...

Someone msg-ed me in the morning just now which made me smile...=]

Tomorrow hopefully can go out with the Sgbandfusion gang...

Been dying to go out with them, especially with Keeper... =X

It's been like months since I saw them...

So tomorrow is definitely a must...

Monday will probably be more of ironing and polishing of uniform and boots respectively...

Have to bring back my most KILAT uniform and boots...

FOOTDRILL COMP IS COMING!!!

And I really want Bravo to win...

WE HAVE TO WIN!

Every night we spend our free time training for it, till it ends so freaking late...

But even though it's tiring, some people make it so so so much interesting...

I simply love my platoon... TROJANS ROCKS! =D

Last week was quite filled with ups and downs...

There were times when things were crazily tiring, there were times when things were freakin slack...

And I realised from my time in camp...

I learned to voice out myself more, be more confident in myself...

I entered NS with nothing, but I'm leaving it with attitude....=]

Many people would say I've changed, most probably I have...

But I am still myself, to those people close to me, you guys know who I am...

And I am not a MAT ok... I might sometimes sound like one, but that doesn't make me one... =X

I passed my Standard Obstacle Course!!!

Woo yea!

I finished as 3rd position...

That felt freaking awesome...

To start off, I never expected to pass...

But yesterday I just keep chiong-ing and I almost fainted too...

But I pressed on and on and on until I reach the end point...

So proud of myself... hahakz... =X

So now I passed 4 out of 5 tests...

That freakin IPPT I can't seem to pass due to pull ups... -.-

It's like out of everything, the only thing I failed is pull ups...

RAWR!

I so need to train more...

But it's quite good that I passed 4 out of 5...

I feel freakin awesome sia... hahahakz...

Ok I'm gonna stop here cause I need to go out with my dad...

So take care peeps!

Anything just gimme a msg ya... =]

*you pushed your luck too far... just a lil too far...*

Zupz Zupz!

oh. btw. TWO MORE WEEKS TO POP OH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =DDDDDDD

i guess this is goodbye

Dear Bloggie...

I wish I could be there for you, but you were never there for me.

Hello all! =]

The past week gone past so fast, I'm left with 3 more weeks...

The final three weeks FINALLY came...

A whole load of crap coming my way AGAIN...

Went for Medic interview yesterday...

Hopefully I aced it, I need to get into the medic course, I WANNA BE A MEDIC!

So yea...

Next week's National Day!

I so can't wait!

I also can't wait to POP. =X

Being a recruit seriously stinks balls...

But at the same time it's kinda fun swearing and cursing at people for nothing, HAH!

Ok sorry. =]

I'm just gonna make this entry a short one...

Cause I need to go out soon...

So take care peeps!

I guess my search for love continues...*sigh*

OH WELLS....=]

God has better plans for me, Insya Allah....

*I hope you find someone better...*

Zupz Zupz!

P.S.: THREE MORE WEEKS TO POP OH!

i'm only but a human being

Dear Bloggie...

Is there something wrong with me?

Hello all! =]

Last week has been...

Slow.

Each day passed by so slowly till I actually had the time to count the days left all the time...

And as I don't have the time table with me now, I can't remember what I did...

But yesterday was quite fun...

I was actually dreading the first training, but it was surprisingly FUN!

We played games at the second half of the lesson...

I hope we get to play the same thing again...

That PTI rocks manz... =X

Next lesson was at CDA...

Learn how to use Changkol(no kidding, they actually wrote it that way in the slides), wheelbarrow, PUNKY(pronounced POON-KEY) and shovel...

Mainly tools to clear debris...

Which made my uniform freakin dirty...

After lesson, we had lunch...

I'm not gonna talk about the food cause, well, there's nothing to talk about...

Went to friday prayers after lunch...

I saw Yassir! Omg I miss that dude...

He's doing fine in ERS, I saw Azim too...

Hope to see them again...

We all got free milo after friday prayers... =X

After friday prayers, went back dorm and changed to my smartest 4 damn fast...

The uniform I've been ironing for 4 days, it looks freakin nice and shiny...

My boots can't get anymore shiny as I need my secret weapon...

So after changing to smart 4...

Went down for Footdrills...

Even though I screwed up here and there, as a whole, we sounded freaking awesome...

Bravo's gonna be champ this time manz, FOOTDRILL COMP IS OURS! =X

Ok, sorry to sound so arrogant, but, well, we just rock... =]

After footdrill we had standby bed...

We packed our bags and get ready to be fucked...

So the instructor come into the dorm and look for mistakes...

In the end there was 2 mistakes, so we owe him 20...

That was the easiest standby bed ever...

I'm just thankful nothing fucked up happened...

After that we booked out!

Reached home at around 6pm...

Went online then bathed and slacked...

At night went out with family!

Went to some restaurant near Sultan Mosque...

I ate like a pig sia...

Never knew I could eat so much... =X

By the time we went home, I was already shagged... =X

So I changed to my PJs and SLEEP!

I feel quite accomplished...

I actually have muscles now...

And and and, I grew by 3kg!!!!

That's like the biggest leap in my weight ever...

I hope in the next 4 weeks I can gain more muscles...

NOT FATS HOR... =X

So yea...

I feel awesome physically...

Even though mentally I'm quite sad...

But that's life I guess...

You gain some, you lose some...

Sometimes no matter how long you wait, you still don't gain anything...

That's just how it is, no point complaining...

If God has plans, then it must be the best plan...

Gosh I really need to pass my IPPT...

Only standing broad jump and pull up!!!!

Gah...

These two stations are my worst nightmare...

Cause of them I can't get into medic...

NO FREAKIN WAY MANZ!

I'm gonna pass my IPPT and be a medic!

Fiqz Medic!

Ok I sound obsessive compulsive....-.-

So I guess that's all for this entry...

Take care everyone!

*No matter how hard I try, No matter what I do, No matter how long I wait, it aint gonna happen isn't it?*

Zupz Zupz!

4 more weeks to POP OH! =]

Calm down sweetheart

Dear Bloggie...

You're pushing your luck with all this wait.

Hello all! =]

Ok yesterdays entry was more of a rant entry...

So can just ignore it if you want...

Last Tuesday was my birthday...

And I was freakin shocked to receive SO MANY WISHES....

So let me just list out the people who SMS-ed me during my bday to thank...

Those people who wished me on facebook I already thanked on facebook...=]

Those SMS people are,

Mabeline,

Natalie,

Jaslyn,

Esther,

Stacy,

XuanLin,

Xueting,

Daron,

Grace,

Joceyln,

Seok Pheng,

Liyana,

Ilyanti,

Shasha,

Fatin Nabilah

and Hidayah.

Thank you all for your wishes!

And thanks for making my 21st bday a special one even though I was in camp...

How I wish I could celebrate it outside camp, but oh well...

Anyways, today I went out with Esther(keeper)...

Met her at 10am, walked to GV Marina and reached there at 10.20am...

Bought the Harry Potter tix and went down to Burger King for breakfast...

Talked about loads of stuff, mainly about ghost stuff...

Then we went back to GV at 11.15am...

Movie started at 11.30am...

Ended at around 2.15pm...

We both found the movie quite entertaining, even though halfway through the movie, our bladder felt full plus it was damn cold in the cinema...

After movie, we chiong to toilet...

Then after that we walked to Suntec and went to Carrefour...

Walked around to find stuff that I need to bring for my next book in...

Not sure how many times we circled the entire Carrefour just looking for my Shoe Freshener...

In the end we couldn't find any, I bought other stuff instead... -.-

We then proceeded to some sports shop, and we finally found the shoe freshener...

After that we went home...

Such an enjoyable day we had today...

Gosh I miss keeper sia...

Must go out again ok!!! =]

And also, let us be successful so that we can prove to THEM that it's their loss for not accepting us...=]

Keeper aka Turtle aka Esther! =]

Ok that's all for today, now I need to iron uniform, polish boots and slack.

Take care everyone!

*YOU make me feel special. =]*

Zupz Zupz!

*5 more weeks, endure fiq*