why is it so hard for people to like me

Dear Bloggie...

Despite everything, I still love you.

Hello all! =]

Seriously lazy to blog nowadays...heh...

Anyhoo...

School's starting tomorrow!

And no, I'm not excited one bit...

For three straight weeks I haven't been doing any school related stuff...

It's enjoy all the way, probably forget alot of things already also...

Nvm, I must start to be more independant in my learning...

Projects are stacking up soon, so gotta accomplish them too!

Past week, been going out with friends alot...

On Christmas Day, went to ECP golf range to play golf...

I sucks at golf like totally, ok, not totally...partially, I think...

And on Friday I went to Changi Airport to teach Naqiah grade 1 music theory...

After that went to Esplanade and finally settled down at coffee bean at the merlion...

Going out with Liyana, Jazli and Salihin was AMAZING...

We talked about when we go NS and stuff...

Though I'm a lil freaked out, at the same time I can't wait for the experience...

BOTAK! =X

Saturday went to NIEband concert with Leonard Teo and Daron Na...

I felt I was very quiet...

Maybe I just don't click very well with them...

I dunno, something wrong with my socialising skills I think...

Don't ask about the concert.

After concert, went to East Point for dinner...

Ate at Banquet... I had western, Leonard too, Daron had Jap...

Then I think reached home at around 10+...

I am super summarising everything aren't I...

Gosh I am so getting lazy...

If this keeps up, I'm so dead during NS...*sigh*

I need to make a schedule and keep to it...

I need to exercise and stop PROCRASTINATING...

Although the weather can be a bitch sometimes...

Waking up in the middle of the night with cold sweat...

And having frequent Dejavus' doesn't help either...

Having flashbacks more frequently nowadays too, why is this happening...

Is it some kind of a sign from above?

Saw some youtube videos on how to gain weight...

I can't believe that just by eating Mac n Cheese everyday will make you gain weight...

With an addition of a pill...Which I forgot the name...

But the other videos suggest eating at proper meal time...

And also eating alot of food with calories and proteins...

LEAFY VEGETABLES!

It's not krptonite to me, but I just don't like eating it that much...

Does fruit juice make a good substitute?

Maybe I'll start drinking blended fruit juice in school more often....

And also, the equation isn't complete with exercise...

I need someone to psycho me to exercise, it's to proportionate the food in my body...

So that all the food doesn't just stay in the stomach and goes down the toilet bowl...

I should make a new year's resolution...

Let's start with some items and sum it up on 31st december or any days before that if I'm not free on 31st Dec...

Ok here goes...

1) Exercise everyday, be it jogging, weights, push ups, sit ups, just get my ass sweaty.

2) Practice violin at least twice a week, more would be better.

3) Reduce time spent going online/play computer games.

4) Eat/Drink fruits everyday AND eat vegetables in meals.

5) Pray at the early prayer times and not delay it.

6) Revise on what is taught during class at home.

7) Reduce the amount of skipping classes due to laziness.

8) Clean my room regularly.

9) Make more friends.

10) to be continued another time. =]

Ok that's it for now...

Take carez everyone!

Good nightz and sweet dreamz! =]

*When you're gone, it's like my world drowned into darkness...*

Zupz Zupz!

i have no idea where i stand anymore

Dear Bloggie...

As the burning ambers dies off through the night...

Hello all! =]

First of all, MERRY XMAS TO EVERYONE CELEBRATING IT!

I'm not, obviously. =]

Yesterday's concert was awesome...

I knew like 3/4 of the songs they played...

So I kinda enjoyed myself...

Only at the last two songs I was kinda tired, so my ears could do all the work...

My whole body was just jammed...

So yar, amazing...

Today band was quite interesting...

Had alarm at 7.45am...

Went to toilet, bro in law was inside, went back to bed...

The weather was freaking nice to continue sleeping, but I didn't, I got up and bathed and went for band...

Mr Yeo gave a very long talk before we started playing...

Exchanging how everyone felt during the exchange, sounds weird, exchange during exchange...

Then we played MM...

My first time sight read! And I survived the whole piece through!

Ok well, except the last part... That's where Mr. Sparke wants to FLAUNT his stuff...

So the piece overall quite ok, for me...=X

Gonna go through it with Jaslyn ONLY slowly...

Can't be bothered about the other two...

After MM, played sesame street...

Again sight read, cause the other time read trombone score...

Not too bad also...

And after that was KOKOMO...

I played the song before, I even have the tuba score in my file still...=X

Quite a cool song...

If played together with Hawaii Five O will sound nicer...hmmmm...

After KOKOMO, band dismissed...

Mr Yeo talked to me about some stuff which I need to discuss with the Majors...

Now I start feeling stressed liao...

But he has confidence in me, I won't let him down...=]

Now I'll talk about yesterday's medical check up...

Went to Red Hill MRT station and took cab down to CMPB...

Then walked in and did my medical check up...

There were alot of stations to go to...

And the last one was to do some IQ stuff on the comp which took quite long...

And that's it...

Went home in cab...

Wow that was short...=X

Ok that's all for today...

Good nightz and sweet dreamz all! =]

Take carez!

*My bestest buddy in the whole wide universe*

Zupz Zupz!

a new year, a new life

Dear Bloggie...

And that concludes my piano days...

Hello all! =]

Past few days has been crap...

Well, not really crap, but hasn't been fun...

Yesterday in the morning, dad asked me to help him deliver some stuff from his workplace around Singapore...

I sms-ed Cliff and asked him if there's meeting, and he told me it's at 11am...

I was at Orchard at 10.30am and rushed to Rebekah's condo...

Reached her condo at around 12.15pm...

Assiddiq needs to be more alert in taking down points as the secretary...

There's this problem during our meeting, we kept getting side tracked, so the meeting became longer...

So the meeting ended at around 2pm...

Went for lunch with Yihui, Liang Rong, Sheng Hao and Assiddiq...

Then went home...

Today, woke up and watched tv...

Today was sooooo unproductive...

But it's ok, there's band exchange tomorrow, hoping to snap alot of pictures of a 200 strong band...whoa...

I'll have to sleep early tonight, can't reach school at 9am le...

I made friends with a korean girl!

Saw her at the TPJC concert, and she plays the sax!

Damn cool, just when I've finished watching korean dramas...

She speaks korean toooooo, goshness cool...

Oh and I made this ridiculous face out of instruments, will upload it next...

So it's over...

My piano lessons are done...

And it's time to give rise to a new instrument...

Behold, the VIOLIN!
*cue heavenly music*

Ok, actually should cue screeching sound, but nvm...

My violin teacher is gonna order for me the violin, heard it cost around 300+ bucks...

Not sure if I'll take exam grades or not though, maybe I should? Hmmmmm...

Leonard if you're reading this, get ready for an invasion of screeches ok...=X

I'll let ya know when I've got the violin already...=]

Thanks in advanced for allowing me to practice at your place!

Ok, don't be surprised at the lack of format here...

Kinda lazy plus watching soccer match right now while blogging...

So can't be bothered with it...heh...

So I'm done here...

Good nightz and sweet dreamz all! =]

Take care...

*Looking forward to tomorrow!!!*

Zupz Zupz!

be firm on what you stand for

Dear Bloggie...

Why do I feel like I'm watching a re-run of what happend in the past.

Hello all! =]

Hmmmm....

Band today was kinda fun....

I set an alarm at 7.30am to wake jezer up, but I ignored it...

Set another alarm at 7.45am to wake myself up, but I ignored it too...

Was feeling lethargic, don't know why also...

I'm feeling feverish, but not really having fever...

Anyhoo, jumping time.

Band.

When I reached band room, they were in the midst of playing some new song...

Oh, it was Sesame Street...

The score looks kinda easy...

After going through abit, the band had break while me, suky and jezer played the duets I brought...

Kinda interesting listening to chords...

I think trio will sound nicert, but duets are cool too...

After break, was sectionals...

Took Jaslyn for sectionals...

Terrence was just there to follow as and when he wanted to, I can't be bothered to care already...

So went through the song, Jaslyn can play most of it, teaching her is more pleasent compared to the other two...

Then went back in for combined...

Put everything together and it sounded not bad actually...

Then they played novena...for the last time...

And Mr Yeo talked for abit and they were dismissed...

Piano ----> Violin.

W.e.f next year, I'll be picking up the violin...

No more piano though...

It's been 3 long years and I think I wanna pick up another instrument...

I know it's gonna be difficult to practice with all the screeching and stuff...

But LEONARD has volunteered his house to be my practice place every Saturday...

So that means every Sat is music day...

Morning band, afternoon practice for violin, at night violin lessons...

Uh-May-Zing.

I foresee alot of headaches coming up...

Grah.

End.

Wow I did blogged today...

Awesome...

Not really in a joyous mood, but will do...

I'm off to bed now...

Gonna pop some panadols before that and sleep...

I had a dream yesterday...

It's one of those dreams you really wish will never ever ever EVER happen...='[

So good night everyone...

Take care...

*Everytime I try to get away from you, you pull me back closer to you...*

Zupz Zupz!

life goes on even without you

Dear Bloggie...

Fiqz hates having to wake up early and teach people who understand alien language.

Hello all! =]

Gosh, hectic, crazy, pissing off kinda week...

I've went to two concerts so far this month...

And one more to go!

Hah.. No mood to blog... Damn...

Bad throat, feeling feverish...

Just let me die why don't cha...

Gawd...

My head's spinning too much...

Won't be blogging much anytime soon...

But thanks for visiting though, makes my tummy feel alot better...

grah.

Bye bye.

*Overworked, never paid and unappreciated...awesome job I have ya...-.-*

Zupz Zupz!

teardrops keep falling on the floor

Dear Bloggie...

And as the the moonlight reflects on these tears of mine...

Hello all! =]

Don't mind me, I'm just socially deprived and no one gives a damn...

Ah well...

I'm not emo-ing, it's called LONELY...

So yar...

And since this is my blog, I'll just crap around as much as I want, yay! =]

Piano(?) lessons.

Ok so during piano lessons today...

My cher let me play the violin!

Super fun!

Although the screeching sound was abit screechy, it had a natural VIBRATO to it...

Particularly cause my hand was too stiff and contributes to shaking...

I played D major scale!
It wasn't that difficult actually...

But my back now feels kinda sore...

At first my cher wanted to teach, as in permanently...

But she denied it cause of some valid reason...

I wanna learn cello!!!!

But not easy to find a place that got teach also....HAIZ...

So in the end, didn't play piano, just learned the violin...

Holidays.

Holidays has been great...Amazing...pretty awesome...

Get to wake up late even though I'm awake at 8am already...

But the only thing is I get bored easily, REALLY bored...

And I don't have anything to do...

And no, I don't wish there was school...

Maybe I should take this opportunity to go out more...

Maybe ask people to go out with me, hmmmmm....

Watch movie? Maybe? O.o

But everyone's busy with this and that and this and that...

Don't even talk to me anymore...

Going on MSN nowadays is as good as putting a manakin infront of the comp...

Cause no one's really there...grah...

You know what sucks?

When you're there for everyone, and everyone's not there when you need them...

Is it too much to ask?

When I'm bored, I'll freak out, seriously...

It's a phobia of being alone...haiz...

No use shouting for help or talking to anyone...

I'm on my own now anyway...*sigh*

POEM TIME! =]

Poem~

As sweet as the youngest nectar in a flower,

The innocence of one's heart being devoured,

Losing all hope on what's left at this hour,

I've decided to take things a little slower,

Your smile illuminates my heart from deep within,

The warmth of your love makes me grin,

From an extinguished candle where it had been,

Now I see our distance becomes so thin,

I'm lost with no guidance,

Not a rod nor a stick to conduct a cadence,

Just a passion that burns,

In the deep dark night it happens,

Friends of few but friends of true,

Friends of many but none like you,

Many come and leave without a clue,

But you stay like an incurable flu.

End.

I so have no inspiration tonight...

Haiz...

Anyways...

Gd nitez and sweet dreamz all...

Take carez...

*We all have our own problems, but isn't my sacrifice worth noticing?*

Zupz Zupz!

facebook pictures

Dear Bloggie...

Music is nothing without silence.

Hello all! =]

Everyone feeling good?

I know I'm not... heh...anyhoo...

Went to SGH today for appointment...

Had myself checked and was referred to a psychologist...

I'm finally going to see a psychologist!!

So fun!!!

First I was referred to National Dental Centre, then referred to Ear Nose and Throat clinic, and now referred to Psychologist...

Alot of referrers hor...

I'm trying to get myself admitted into the hospital or something, maybe I belong there..

Anyhoo, on with the show...~

FYP.

Ok, me and Daffodil understand the urgency of the project and deadline...

So rather than scaring ourselves, I told her to stay calm and not freak out...

See, I'm nice, I don't complain...=]

All we need now is to get the buttons working...

Plus the report needs some polishing up which I'll be doing soon...

Cool, I will keep this short. =]

ENT.(Ear, Nose and Throat)

First time today I went to SGH by myself! *wow! clap clap!*

Yes, and it almost felt as though I was going to school when I was on the train...

But I dropped off at Outram Park...

I think I have a strong long term memory, cause the moment I reach the place...

I immediately remembered where to go...*awesome memory! clap clap!*

*I should really stop the clap clap thing...*

So I placed my appointment card, AT THE WRONG PLACE...

But the nurses were nice enough to put it at the right place...

I reached the clinic at 9.08am as stated on my queue number...

And I received an email which states "your appointment is at 9.20am, your queue number is 0921 and there's 5 patients before you"...

I was glad that there's 5 people before me, cause at that moment I was in the loo taking a dump...

After relieving myself of crap, which didn't take that long with my awesome bowel system, I went back to the clinic...

And after 5 mins, the number changed to my number...

I was like...+(-).(-)+

The plus signs denotes ear phones...hee..

I immediately went to the room, those other 5 patients must have been ghosts by now...

Ok so I went in the room, was expecting to meet with the same doctor as last time...

But was greeted by a new one, very friendly and gave advice and stuff...

She referred me to a psychology, (no, not cause she thinks I'm mad handsome), it was due to the fact that I had anxiety disorders...

*Gosh, I'm really really screwed up aren't I...*

After the visit at ENT, instead of heading straight home...

I was feeling, a tad bit adventurous...

Took bus 166 to Clark Quay station where there's this shopping mall called The Central...

When ironically it's placed at some ulu ulu place -.-"

Took LOADS of pictures, which you people can find in my facebook, cause I uploaded them...

And you guys will realise, I don't take pictures of myself much... *not photogenic LA*

Ok enjoy the lovely pictures, especially the flowers!!! =]

End.

Ok I know it's been a very short entry...

But that's all I did today...

Oh! On my way back, I saw Shimei and Shazana and one unknown friend of theirs at city hall...

Okaiyz then...

My life is really boring without band nowadays...

I'm suffering from Social Deprevation and Euphonium-alone-sickness...

Plus conducting...*sob sob*

DECEMBER EIGHTEENTH! =X

17th december SPband concert, 18th december TPJC band concert!

That's when my band life resumes! woooo yea...

Ok that's all!

BEETHOVEN VIRUS ROCKS LA!

And to those who think I'm a "threat" to you from the love of your life, don't be jealous. =]

Oh, and I'm getting alot of smart readers, searching my name on google to go my blog, very creative...

I can just say a four letter F word to you...

And that word is, FIQZ! =]

I'm nice la sia...  heez..

Okaiyz...

Take carez everyone!

Good nightz and sweet dreamz! =]

*you pretend to be someone else just to make someone like you...but that someone doesn't really like you, but the person you pretend to be*

Zupz Zupz!

ho ho holidays

Dear Bloggie...

It's quiet, too quiet.

Hello all! =]

Gosh! It's been so long since I blogged huh! wooo, sorry again...

Got carried away by the holiday virus I guess...

Anyhoo, jumping in...~

Sheep(s).

Yesterday and the day before, I witness the slaughtering of sheeps...

It's not cool or anything...

But it's quite amazing...

Hari Raya Haji is a celebration whereby sheeps gets slaughtered and the meat is given to the less fortunate...

Looking at those sheeps, I couldn't help but to be sad for them...

But it's all for a good cause...

I even saw a sheep with a black face, no idea why, but it made me wonder if there's such a thing as a black sheep...

Then I remembered a song..."Baa Baa BLACK sheep..."

So yea, from then I conclude there's black sheep, sheeps aint racist, hooray! =X

Celebrations.

It's been quite a long long time since my whole family have seen me around...

So when I went visiting, I received stares from everywhere...

At least I didn't have to explain myself, or I'll blurt out all the grandfather story...

So over at my mother's side, I played with nieces and nephews...

Kinda makes me wish I was still young...

All of them looks so CUTE! Adorable AND pretty...Hmmm...=X

And I saw my cousins, whom, I don't really talk to...

And over at my dad's side, I talked to my uncle who's marriage is as old as me...=X

I find it cool, and he's a very nice person to talk to...=D

And also alot of "what's wrong with you?", not in a bo song way, but in a worried kinda tone...

But all I could do was just smile and say nothing...-.-

Then I had to say one word which made things worse, I said, "stress".

And EVERYONE went to me and say "eh don't", "later get old easily!", "what's there to be stressed about?" and "haiya relax la..." -.-

Well, I guess that's what you call family huh...

So after the whole day out, retreated back home and went online for awhile before going to bed...

FYP.

I don't wanna talk about it, you don't wanna hear about it, so I'll keep it short.

Went to school today for about an hour...

Discussed on our next plan, surprisingly there wasn't any quarrels...nice...

We decided to get help from a friend...

Her report is quite good, had mostly everything in it...

And that's it. See, short right? =]

Rant(s).

Without band, life has been SUPER boring...

I mean, it's not like I don't have a life...

Band is my life...

And without it, it's just.... Imagine a conversation with alot of Zzzzzzzzzs...

I need band...

And somehow I wanna get into serious conducting...

Meaning, take conducting seriously...

Study conducting and stuff...

Should be kinda fun...

But I've got no qualifications nor the talents to do so...

So I guess I'm gonna give that up and just pursue being a good eupho player...

Anyways, IT'S BEEN SO DAMN QUIET LAAAA...

People, talk to me can?

Super bored, I need to socialise...

I'm feeling the social deprevation again...-.-

Grah.

Ok I'm done here...

Maybe later play game, wahahaha...

No one wanna talk to me, I go play game better...

Wooo yea...

My wawa not naked...=X

Anyways, Good nightz and sweet dreamz everyone! =D

Take carez and listen to your heart always...

*Stop planning your life and start living your plans*

Zupz Zupz!

2 down, 2 more 2 g0

Dear Bloggie...

I'm unworthy of such lovely person...

Hello all! =]

Today started out pretty ok I guess...

6am woke up for prayers, went back to bed for half an hour, and woke up at 6.30am for school...

Left house at around 7pm...

Took MRT to pasir ris cause I wanted to get seats and went to school...

Tried studying on the way, but I felt really sleepy, so I slept instead...

Ok, let's jump into the regular schedule shall we...*jumps*

Exam.

I must say, the paper just now was much better than the one on Monday...

Totally kicked ass, can see flying colours everywhere, gosh so fairy tale-ish... =X

Most of it is cause the questions were similar to past year papers...

All I had to do was copy and paste...

But the paper tomorrow doesn't have any past year papers...

So all I can do is read and read and read... -.-

It's killing me, I need motivations...

Grah.

N.E.mation.

Ok I'm doing this advertisement to help a friend...

So here it goes...

Please visit http://www.nemation.sg/lesanimateurs.aspx  and register and select Les Animateurs as your favourite team...

It doesn't take that long so please give it a try...=]

Oh, and Les Animateurs just means The Animators...=]

They will be really grateful if you guys can help, I will be too... Thanks! =]

Rant(s).

Ok this is technically not a rant...

But I dowan to start a new topic for it, so I'll just dump it here...

So here it goes...

I am NOT an amazing person, reason being I've done alot mistakes in my life, of those I'm not proud of...

I do NOT help others to gain recognition or popularity cause these are just subjective preference...

I will NOT turn down anyone who needs help as I'll try my best to help anyone and everyone...

I do NOT look for lovers when I've already found my one and only...

Gosh this is sounding so weird...

Anyhoo...

I have no idea on what's my position right now...

Am I gonna get closer, or am I gonna get further away?

But my feelings are so strong...

If she's the one, dear God, please open her heart and let her see how much she means to me...

Please open the hearts around her to accept me for who I am...

Please forgive me if I've made any mistakes to her, she doesn't deserve the pain I put her through...

I just wanna be with her...

She knows who she is....

But if she's not the one for me, please give us the strength to love each other as true friends...

I don't want to lose her...

I'll keep waiting for an answer...

End.

Ok that's all for today...

Quite an early entry...

Very rare hor... =X

Anyways, might be studying at night, so no time to blog...

Maybe I'll blog again...

And and and, don't forget to go to the N.E.mation website and choose Les Animateurs as your favourite team!!! =]

Till next time, take carez everyone! =]

Good afternoon, Fiqz out~

*Every moment I pray for you...*

Zupz Zupz!

the giants and the ants

Dear Bloggie...

Imperfect by size, perfect by heart.

Hello all! =]

Gosh I have great friends...

Especially Daron Na Hwee Min! =D

Ok let's jump straight in...=]

School.

Exam was totally screwed up big time...

Totally screwed up...

Not gonna say much cause I'm gonna do better at my other modules...

I must.

Band.

Nothing to write here, except that I miss my euphooooooo....=[

Grah, I feel like playing Chorales...

Anyone have Eupho/Tuba chorales that I can play? =D

Chorales are soo funnn...

General.

Pretty amazing, played RA3 just now and I'm so good on EASY difficulty...=X

Cause I like to win and putting on easy makes me win easier...

It doesn't make me a cheater... =X

Still haven't been able to do much infiltration....hmmmm....

End.

Ok so that's all for today...

I must admit it's very short...

But I got nothing to talk about anyway...

Too lazy to rant as it would be about the exam anyway...

So yea...

Take carez everyone!

Good nightz and sweet dreamz! =]

*If you're unsure of love, better let love answer it for you*

Zupz Zupz!

sad? nah...

Dear Bloggie...

Where have you been all my life?

Hello all! =]

How's life? Cool? Great? Amazing? Spontaneous? Hmmm...

Let's jump into things...*jump*

School.

Gonna have my mst starting tomorrow...

Totally unprepared, WAIT, not totally, I've studied abit just now...

But not good enough to pass, I think...

But maybe after afew more practice would make it better...=]

This is for tomorrow's paper, the other papers I haven't touched yet at all, amazing...

Fiqz, The Conductor(?).

I somehow get kinda inpired seeing conductors as they conduct...

Every conductor has their own style of stroke...

And every movement meant something...

And there's this one particular local conductor who's just amazing...

Mr Rasull...

I've never been under him before, but I've seen him conduct afew times before...

And I find him brilliant...

His flute playing is just superb...

Plus I believe he's a nice guy too...

He kinda reminds me of me, the way he talks in his blog and all...

Maybe it's just me..who knows...

Wish I could be as brilliant as him...me with my eupho.......ah well...

How I wish I could get a recommendation from Mr Yeo or something...keep dreaming fiqz, u're nothing...

Music.

Band songs galore! =X

Two songs added on my playlist recently...

Equus by Eric Whitacre, and Ride by Samuel Hazo...

Upbeats and crazy timings...Fabulous pieces of songs...

Those who wanna challenge their rhythm skills can try these songs...

This is just PURE awesomeness...

Check it out ya! =]

Band.

Grah, I just miss band alot...

Especially my eupho...

Afew more weeks to go, sianz. -.-

Even then I'll be teaching most of the time instead of playing...

And as for teaching...

I'm not sure if I'm doing the right thing...

Or even doing things right...

I mean, Silver is well and dandy...

But I strive for perfection and I try to teach my best so that others strive for perfection too...

I'm hard on myself these few days and I don't know why...

RAWR.

Piano Lesson.

I think I really suck at piano or something...

After one chord, I have to stop, process the next chord, find the first note, and play...

Which makes the whole thing damn choppy...

I understand what it means to be legato, but my brain can't process it all at once...

TWO STAVES...

Grah, if only eupho scores have two staves...

I suck manz, I really do, but I'm good at sucking, so that makes me a non-sucker...

Contradicting Oxymoronic Conflicting shit. =]

Life.

What about it except that it sucks...

But that's how life should be, sucky...

Cause if life doesn't suck, it wouldn't be called life...

It would be called death...

But death sucks too, indirectly, cause your family and friends have to suffer...

So it's like a lose lose situation...

Why do we like to make the worse out of a bad situation?

Cause it's easier that way...

Who wants to do things the hard way right? it's so MA FAN....

But we need to start thinking of the right way rather than the easy way...

Cause the right way is the only way and the easy way never existed in this game we call life.

I can become philosopher liao... Whoahahahaha... Madness..

End.

Ok, that's the end of my post today...

Have an amazing evening everyone...

And Good nightz and sweet dreamz in advance...

To those having exams tomorrow, 

GOOD LUCK AND STUDY LA! facebook facebook, tsk tsk... =X

*You might just be the one I've been waiting all my life for...*

Zupz Zupz!

the golden ear

Dear Bloggie...

I listen, well.

Hello all! =]

Been taking a break from blogging these few days...

And I realised there are people who still come...

Apologies for not updating and thank you for being loyal...=]

Let's jump straight into things...

School.

Been having LOADS of practical tests...

Of which I've screwed up many of them...

Can't seem to get my head straight...

But despite the screw ups, I've managed to keep my head clear for most of them...

And as for FYP, Daffodil's been barking me up like I haven't been doing anything...

And asking for other lecturers for help just doesn't help, as I got scolded for doing just that...

So now the fate of this project solely lies on me...

Daffodil is doing her best to get the report done, and I'm trying to research on ways to program stuff to work...

Further exploration of my school life could be reached by simply asking me about it on MSN or over the phone, thank you.

Band.

Heard about their results yesterday night from Ms Ong...

The band has gotten a Silver with 73 points...

Kinda reminds me about NBC as the results are quite near...

Much to my relief, the band isn't deproving....

But to  my dismay, they aren't improving as well...

Which I'm questioning myself now, am I a big help or making things worse...

Maybe I'm just not cut out to teach, maybe I'm teaching the wrong things...

And maybe their lack in performance is my fault...

Maybe I should just stop helping and see how they progress without me...

Maybe Maybe Maybe Mabeline....

Friends.

An old acquaintance turned out to be a valueable gem...

Daron Na...

Most of the time we're usually on the same boat on most situation...

Very positive minded and is just a good hearted person...=]

Even though it's been only afew days, it's kinda amazing...

And another friend would be Dila...

I gotta say she's one interesting friend with a very interesting personality...

She lays out the good points in me when I needed them...

Makes me realise how good I am...

I'm not gonna list EVERYONE of my friends, sheesh...

So yea.

Deadlines & Exams(MST).

1/12/2008 - DSP mst paper 10.30am

3/12/2008 - CSS mst paper 8.30am

4/12/2008 - OS mst paper 10am

5/12/2008 - SOCOM mst paper 10.30am

17/12/2008 - MD concert, SPband

19/12/2008 - ENT appointment 10am

23/12/2008 - Medical Check-Up 10am

Last two weeks of December - NAS Orientation, Band.

Now that it's listed down, it's time to get to business.

Rant(s). =@

Ok, this is where I don't use my head while talking, if you can't take it please leave.

Now then...

I'll rant about expired things which I need to bring up...

NASband.

I thought the strongest reason why we should have more band prac would be SYF is drawing nearer...

Sub-strong reasons would be, the band isn't improving fast enough, from a band's point of view, 3 days not playing the instrument is counted disastrous...

Embrochure will collapse, lips will be too relaxed and air circulation will not be consistant...

After 3 days of not playing, this is what musicians would call "shit tone area"...

The brain will forget the formation of the lips, rhythms will get harder to process than before, pitching will be damn crappy...

Take it from me, I've experienced it over n over n over before, and it sucks.

But hey, if the band wants to take 10 steps back with the break...

I'm powerless, it's just my thoughts anyway, and any reason from a higher authority that the break is needed would be taken seriously...

We need to stop being lazy and start to learn sacrifice...

If I have the will to come back almost all the time, *on top of my freaking life*, I'm sure sacrificing some time for band shouldn't hurt...

All I'm saying is that, there's no I in TEAM...

WE must stop thinking so much about how things affect us individually...

WE must start thinking about others, giving and taking...

WE must show that we can work together as a cohesive unit...

NO MORE "I" this and "I" that...

NO MORE "I" got something on, "I" can't come for practice...

NO MORE "I" am better than everyone, "I" suck like shit...

If one person suck, WE all go down...

"The band is as strong as it's weakest player"

WE have to help those weaker than us so WE can progress together...

No point pointing fingers to who and who suck, in the end, the only person that suck is EVERYONE...

Ok I'm done ranting...

School tomorrow at 8am!

And it's time to grit my teeth to the books, woo yea, books...-.-

So, Good nightz and sweet dreamz everyone...

My life is such a bore...bore...bore...

*Everyone's problems are my problems, but my problems aren't anyone's but my own.*

Zupz Zupz!