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Hey.... I dunno wy in d universe am I writing dis.....
I feel... Like I'm dis guy.... Hu's the Jack of all Trades, But a master of none....
I mean to say, I'm good at dis and dat... But wen it settles down on me....
I'm d loser... I juz dun understand wy it happens dat way....
Sum say itz destiny... Others say itz fate......
So I'm confused by choice.... These dreamz I get....
Wy.... I noe u can't feel d pain in my heart now..... Cuz I'm juz speechless...
I juz dunno wat 2 say animore... Yeaz... I've repeated dis alot of times b4....
My life's Ironic.... Simply Ironic.... Sumtimes I get happy.... I hoped it stayed dat way...
And d next moment, everyting starts to fall apart.... It all happens so fast for me...
Itz like having sumone with u deep inside, beside u... But yet, d person is not....
It makes ironic sense rite... Am I too sensitive.....
Itz so hard 2 comprehend to watz happenin now.....
At 1st I understood.. Suddenly, d meaning changes at a blink of an eye....
I dun expect tings to change, but for sumting 2 change so much in such a little time...
So I question myself... Hu am i... Wat I am... Am I doing aniting wrong in my life?
If I am, please, sumone, juz slap my face till my head fall off, i beg u....
Wat am I doing wrong.... I wanna understand... I wanna noe.....
Dreamz Shattered in a moment.... A feeling of loss.....
I wanna feel anger, yet i can't, itz not worth it..... I'll end up with a broken soul...
Am I too soft.... Till pple juz look at me, and dey juz look down on...
Where's my trust gone to.... I question myself.....

I look around in dis empty brain.....
What I saw b4, have juz gone down d drain.....
All I feel is my throat in pain.....
How I wished I was caned....

I look around in my empty room....
Wondering wen would i go into my tomb...
Juz like the mummy, i'm wrapped in my gloom....
Waiting for dis dream 2 end, b4 I start to bloom....

Dear Bloggie!!!!

Yoz!!!! Wazzup wazzup? Hahakz.... Gez wat? I'm feelin better!!!!
And itz all tankz to my frenz... U noe wat, I'm juz touched....
With d frenz dat I have.... And yes, Fairuz, especially u....
Tankz for being such a great fren... Will nv forget ya aight... =D
I juz wanna say, itz u guyz dat makes me move on... Carry forward...
Oh yea, my adik angkats... Adilah and Nuriah... I can nv forget u guyz tooo.. =D
In this entry, I'll try 2 name all my frenz dat have contributed to my life....
I'll try hor, but if i leave anione, please tag me... I'll add ya in kkz?

Norfazlyn!!!(did i spell it right?) Hahakz, ermz, yea, Lynn... Tankz for bein there too...
U got a great personality... Dun let others pull ya down kkz? =D Be happy always aightz...
How could I ever forget Ayu and Nel.... The pple hu are resposible for my come back....
I owe lotz to dem manz.... Ayu, I hope u can cope well in ur new school yea....
Itz not really dat bad.... Itz juz in ya mind.... Tink abt it... U got a long way 2 go....
Try 2 get used 2 d school kkz? It wun be so bad.... =D
Ah, NEL!!!! hahakz... Amalina.... Surprisingly, I met her in our old pri sch....
We've been such great frenz since den.... Keep me company during recess time....
Tankiew tankiew tankiew manz.. Or else I'd be so lonely.... Tankz dudette!! =D

Okok, My classmates... omg.. I juz got lotz to mention....K ar, juz mention dose close2 ones...
Hannah!!!! Hahakz.... Crappy fella, always so positive... But wen she's angry... Nv ever disturb...
Or she'll explode like a bomb manz... hahakz... Yeaz....
Sok!!! Mel!!! Hahakz.... Known her since sec 2..... Been dat long huh....
Yeaz.... Very clever... Look very smart with specs... Hahakz... =X....
Sori for kicking ur chair too much hor in class.. Hahakz.. =X...
Hehe.... JAYNE!!!!! Out of all d crappiest pple i noe....
I gez Jayne is juz one of d pple hu's juz plain and pure crappy... hahakz.....woopz..
Btw, tankiew fer takin my pics in class hor, with ur trusty camera... hahakz... =D
Ruzaini Rafi and Shazni... Hahakz... The three most Boring pple in class....
And in their dictionary, Boring means lame... In my dictionary....
Lame is good.. hahakz.... I gez boring IS good... ahakz... =D

Now I'll move to band peeps... Hahakz... of cuz at d top would be FILA!!!!
Hahakz.... We so got alot of tings in common huh.. seems like we are siblings manz...
Howz life so far? Everytins kewl? hehe.... Contact me la... so long nv hear from ya....
Sabby!!!!! Hahakz.... And u tot I'll forget u... hmphz... How cud u... =P
Ok... Nv actually met her b4, for so long oleady leh, ishq...
Hahakz.... She's juz a kewl fren ar, Always like to sleep onli, like me ar....
=D Hahakz... yeaz....
Oh yar! SYAKILLA!!!!! Wahahahaha.... The king of Crappiness is here....
Now i start 2 tink, I'm surrounded by crappy peeps... Hahakz... How nice...

Owitez.... Dese pple I'm gonna list down... Are d longest pple I've known....
Salihin, Alfi, Jazli and Rusydi... These peeps.... Are like brothers oleady..
Yeaz.... Since I was in pri 3... I've known them... Which is like, So kewlz..
Hahakz.... Can memorise their BO liaoz.. =X Hahakz.... Woopz....
And yeaz, Liyana, sumhow, U always understand my problems......
Maybe cuz our bdays are very close la rite... =X Hehez....
But I'm still older... kekez.... But ur wiser.... =D
Huda.... Ahhh.... Was my best fren.... Yeaz....
Sumhow I dunno wat 2 write, hehez, sorii.... My brain kinda blocked now...

And lastly..... Naqiah.... How can i forget u.... Ur d most important person in my life....
In times of darkness.. U showed me d light... U make me happy wen I'm down.....
Itz been a pleasure knowing u.... Yeaz... I owe it all to u la actually... tankiew tankiew tankiew...
Without u, I dunno How i'd exist.... All dose memories we had, I'll Keep....and nv forget...
I know sumday U'll leave me, but itz ok.... Pple move on... I gez I gotta to....
Frenz forever aight... =D If ya need me, I'll still be here.....
If u dun, I'll also still be here... Cuz I can't find d reason 2 leave such a great person as u....
I juz hope u get to see me, for hu i am........

Well.... I gez datz all..... If I've missed anyone out... Please... please do tell me.... kkz? Tankiew lotz.... I'm juz tankful to have u guys as my frenz.... I hope u all will nv leave.... Everyone one of u in important to me.... So please, dun break my heart by leaving... It hurtz badly.... With dat... I juz would like to tell u guyz dat Fiqz will alwayz be around wen ya need me yea? =D AwRightEy!!!! Till next time.... Fiqz Zoomin off now.....

TWO! SPD BLUE!
Wahahahaha....

Dear Bloggie......

I dunno wy I've been updating so dutifully... Hahakz...
Dun ask me, ask OCBC hor... Anywayz... On with the day.....

In da mornin.... Wasn't feelin kinda well.... Sneezin and stuff, no biggy....
Den it got worse... I juz ignored.... Luckily during recess time I was feelin better.....
Oh yar, got to know that I got Geography test on Friday....
Out of all the days, it just had to be on a friday.....
I know how u feel.... Now on friday, I got three things....(Hat-Trick!!! woohoo!-.-")
Geography Test.... O level Maths Results, and of cuz, The Rehearsal at SCH......
My my.... This week is the worse of all the weeks manz.... Can't wait for saturday...
Anywayz... On with my story for 2day....
After recess I had English(realise my english language suddenly changed...)
Because I've got English test tommorow... Which simply, sucks....
Haiz.... The whole period, the teacher was blabbering and Bickering abt Summary writing....
For some reason I find it Annoying.... We had to do a first draft for summary.....
Which to most of the people in my class thought that it was a waste of time,....
Even the teacher herself agreed to it... But...but... but.... Always with her butts....
She said that a good technique will lead to the best answer.....
For once she actually said something logical that my brain could accept..sheesh..
Moving along....Wait, backtrack for awhile here....
1st Period was VL.... And we were given this worksheet about our strengths...
Obviously I was strong in my creative and social part...
I was also more into Researching.... Kinda weird, but its true u know....
I lurve to find out about things that I don't know.....
Finding out more about how people behave and all...
Okok.... That was just a rough idea on my VL period....
Now, I got chocolates from my junior!!!! Hahahakz...
1st time you know... Amazing, simply amazing....
Never have I gotten anything, and some more from my Junior....
Anyways... What in The World am I blabbering about manz....
Starting to sound just like my teacher...eeewwwww....

After Recess was Kinda dry too.... Like i've said, the english period...
But when it came to malay period... Things started to change.....
Well, for me of cuz... As you know(or don't), today I was feeling way down....
Haiz... But.....
During malay period... I brought the research thingy my teacher ask to bring....
And guess what I got, DODOL! yupz, u heard me, DODOL!
hahakz.... I just can't believe it.... In one day I got chocolates and DODOL....
Wahahaha... Ishq, I am crapping already in purrrrfect english....
Hahakz... Anyways..... Today I ended early... Got home at about 12.40pm....
And what else... I hit the bed ar..... Slept for dunno how long.....
And I woke up at about 4+... Wasn't quite sure how I woke up...
But I did... So yeaz.... Now I'm juz feeling confused.....
About what, I can tell you, everyting......
I feel destroyed... The whole day I was like far away from excitement...
Feeling kinda dead so far.... I can't voice out how I feel... Cuz...
It will juz make things worse... At a time like this... How I wish i was better of dead...
Don't worry, I've not changed to my "darkside", I'm still me....
Somehow or someway... I just get misunderstood... While trying to understand others...
That often leads to confusion and fights and quarrels and, you know wat I mean....
I hate all that... Makes me cry inside, it juz breaks my inner self....
This big heart of mine is strong, but if there's afew cracks, it breaks away easily...
Yes, I admit, I'm sensitive... I can only blame myself for that....
But I also feel for others, and I'm proud of that..... Trying to change the world...
Even in a smale scale can be quite difficult... What more in the means of Politics?
Me against this small world I'm living in....
This small world which is always changing.....
I'm starting to get old, yet I feel young and strong....
Somehow, I want to find myself out there....
I know I'm out there... Living my dreams...
Being who I am... Who I want to be....
But dreams, are just dreams which are stuck in my head...
Love, lust, confusion, miconceptions, misunderstandings, mixed feelings....
Love... What is love.... Do I even love myself for being me...
Or is there a better part of me juz waiting to be discoevered....
Lust.... Actually I don't quite understand what lust is...
Misconceptions.... Whats misconceptions.... How do u look at yourself?
What do you feel about yourself? What do you think about yourself...
Confusion... A state that I'm experiencing now.... Itz when things just go blur....
And you don't understand anything anymore, yet you still want to find out....
I feel like I'm lost.... Cursed for life.... Trying to prove myself wrong....
But I'm just proven wrong all the time... Somehow, i wish Einstein was still alive...
I can't just knock on his grave and expect his soul to pop out from no where right?
Now even THAT is unlogical.... Even though there are stuffs called GHOST....
Ok, we won't go there.... hahakz....
Misunderstandings.... this one, the most famous and common problem....
Wy can't people get along? Poor communication, as simple as that...
We can't possibly be there all the time right, so all the time spent with each other is important...
I wouldn't wanna touch on misunderstandings too deeply... Don't ask why....
Hahakz... Yeaz...

Somehow, Writing all those stuff made me feel better already......
No wonder your such a great friend bloggie... Hahakz....
Only you listens to what I say, maybe coz partly you have nothing better to do...
Hahakz... Ok la.. Fiqz not writing anymore... Those readers out there gettin tired...
So I'll stop here kkz? You all read slowly la yar... I tried 2 keep my english as standard as possible..
For dose hu dun understand, try 2 understand la yar... If still dun understand..
Den dunnid... Itz my life anywayz.. Fiqz OUT! =D

Dear Bloggieeeee.....

Wahahahahahahha.... Itz a Saturday.... Phew... Manz i needed d break....
Break from all d school stuff.... Haiz... Stressed out manz... like WHOA... hahakz...
Next week, I'm bombarded with tests..(HELP....) sheesh... To make tings worse....
I got 3 tests in one day... Wah, lawa ar, hat trick manz.....
POA, MATHS and MALAY...and one more... did i say 3? I mean four...
Oh yar, SS.... like WHOAAAA... hahakz... If u see me with a big head, u noe wy....
Hahakz... My brain cells are dyin manz... Help muiiii.... hahakz....

Ok.... Now.... Other den my brain cells exploding in my head.... Hahakz...
Today has been kinda BORING day for me.. hahakz.. yar.... all i did was wake up late...
Watch tv... Sleep again.... Den wake up go online and watch tv... oh my, slack manz...
Hahakz.... Gimme a break de lohz, Den my dad at home keep nagging at me....
I'm like, *chiang tao ni mah.....* watz his problem manz.... Ask me do dis do dat...
Sheesh... Anywayz.... I did wat he told me to.. Maybe cuz he getting old and stuff...
Yeaz... Hmmmmmz.... Dun tink i got hw, my fren say no have.... Well.. Maybe cuz....
Itz d calm b4 d storm, or should i say blizzard.... No hw for now....
But millions of tests coming later on... And I'm not even prepared... woohoo, kewlz huh,, =X
Ok, dat was meant 2 be sarcastic.... Ermz....
Hmmmmmmmz.... For sum reason I feel my life is an Irony.....
I dun quite understand d meaning of dat word... Yet I noe how 2 use it....
Now datz an Irony..... Wy i say my life is an Irony.....
For dis weekend... I dun have homework...(HOORAYYY!!!!!).......
But the Irony of it is dat, I got millions of test next week....(Awwwww manzzz....)
Grrrrrr.... Nvm nvm, I'm juz gonna brave d storm calmly....cuz I am Taufiq!
Hahakz.. Chey, like sum super hero liddat.... ahakz.... Ishqz...

Oh yarrrr... Next week I going to SCH!!!! To have my rehearsals there....
Woohooo.... At least there's sumting to look forward to... Hahakz.... Ishq...
Gonna combine with Hai Sing!!!! Bernadette, gonna cya there manz...
The Clash between two of d best Sectional Leaders of Tuba... Bring it on!
Hahahkz... we are obviously NOT gonna fight... Juz gonna see hu better...
Hahakz, no la.. Kidding... Of cuz I lose liao... I so lousy.. tsk3......
I want my Euphony!!!!! Ishqzzzz..... OH YAR!!!!!!! hahakz....
Manz I lurve doin dat... =X wahahahaha... Ook.. sowie....
Hmmmmz.... My band joining Balloon Hat marching band comp!!!!
And itz in JUNE!!!! wahahahaha... Isn't dat Kewl or wat manz....
And I'll be like soooo over tuba... =X I'll be comin back to my euphonyyyy
wahahahha.... Hahakz.... Can't wait fer dat 2 happen manz.....
Dis Year is gonna be one heck of a year manz..
With d SYF.... With d balloon Hat Festival... and of cuz... d most unanticipated, O LEVELS...
Haiz.... For sum reason.... I kinda feel d stress building up in me oleady....
But not to worry, I aint gonna start shouting my head off to anyone....
Juz gonna keep my kewl.... And juz stay focus... I've been slacking alot actually dis year....
For d past 2 months... Slack like siao liaoz.... sheesh.... Gonna need 2 buckup lil' soldier...
Hmmmz... Well yea... I'm feeling kinda tired now....*yawnz....*
Aww manz my aching head.... Grrrr.. Muz be strong.... Fight d feelin of givin up....
GRRRRRrr.... YES! hahakz... I'm strong again... Dat was fast right.....
Itz natural, I can pick myself back up wen i fall down.... =D
Juz keep a positive mind... Tink Positive.... Everyting is positive.....
Throw out dose bad bad BADDDD stuff u got in urself......
Damn, wy am i talking abt dis.. I'm bored!!!! wahahahaha....
Ishq..

Ok La, b4 i get bored any longer, better go save myself from dis boredom... ahakz.... Fiqz Outtzzzz... Cya all and tankz fer reading!!! =D

Dear Bloggie

Awrightey Denz... Hahakz.... I'm back i'm back i'm back.....
Ok, I juz dunno wat ta write animore in here... No la, Juz kiddin....
Actually rite, 2day was like, kinda d most sianz-est day ever manz...
Well, for d past 3 days, notin has gone d right way actually....
But wat ta do rite... Datz life... Hahakz.. Juz take it with a pinch of salt ya...
yea....

Well, I'm kinda grateful too ya noe... I'm like recoverin oleady.....
And oh my, juz in time for d sch to start tml... How nice...*yar rite...*
Hahakz... Yeaz... Haiyoiz.... Haven't even done me hw...
And btw, my dreamz I've been having, manz... Damn weird2 de lohz....
Dunno ar, maybe I got dis "gift" or sumting... Could work for me, or against me...
Okok.... Letz start talkin abt 2day now shall we....
Woken up by her mgz, actually been waiting for her 2 mgz since yesterday, but nvm dat...
Yea... Told me she wanted to go out, so i asked her if i could join her.....
Den she said her sister dun let her go out, soooo.... plan cancelled again....
But itz ok, i understand..... Yeapz... Den I had lunch with my parents at Afghanistan....
Yea... We went all d way to East Point juz 2 find out dat Banquet was closed.....
We wasted time there... Manz... I aint complainin yea.. Juz sayin onli de hor....
Yea... Den I ate chicken rice at Afghanistan food centre.... After dat I went straight to Esplanade....
Kinda nice... Walkin alone along d edge of d water tingy... hahakz.. yar... nice winds.....
Den I slept in d mosque for awhile... was feeling kinda sick ar juz now.....
Yupz.... Den I walk n walk n walk.... walk till dunno where.. hahakz....
Den I went back home.... And straight to bed.....

So I gez... Dat was my day den... Not DAT interesting I should admit... but hey, wat can I say... datz life...=D yup yupz.... juz like d lift, it has itz ups and downs.... yea yea.... Wart am I sayin, I have no idea... So.... Juz wanna say dat.... If U fail to do sumting, itz becoz u've found out all d ways dat wouldn't work... so try 2 find d way dat will work for ya kkz? For now, I'm juz confused abt life ya... hahahakz, trust me, I dunno wat I'm feelin now also... =X I gez I wun write too much now.... Till my next entry... Take carez den...=D bybyezzzz.....

Fiqzzz...dun stop dreamin........<^-.-^>

Dearest Bloggieeeee.........

Whoaaaaaa.... Itz d Chinese New Year!!!! Hahahakz.....
Happy Chinese New year to everyone ya!!!!! Hehe... Where's my hang Pao????
Dun put choco coins in it hor... Aint gonna accept choco coins animore.....
Either cheque or cash... hahakz... Kiddin.....
Has it been DAT long since i updated? No rite?
Cumon manz.... Dun be unreasonable......
Okok.... Sori arrrrr.... hehe..... I update now kkz? Ishq.....

Owitey denz..... Yesterday was d CNY celebration......
I can still remember CNY celeb last year manz....
U noe wy? Cuz I was d emcee for d concert... Hahakz.....
And d SCs had to do a dance... Yeaz.... Unfortunately, I forgot how to dance oleady....
Hahakz... Awwwww.... Anywayz... coming back to 2005.....
D concert was held in d middle of d classroom blocks.... Yeaz.....
But I wasn't feeling very good yesterday.. In fact, I felt worse manz......
With Waterfalls coming out of my nose.... I juz didn't noe wat was going on....
Anywayz.... The Guzheng played magnificently, eventhough I didn't really listen 2 dem...
Oh yar! I helped my fren dress up for d occasion.. Hahakz... He was d Chicken King!
Hahakz.. Pity him manz... His pride went down d drain... He was SO malu....
Wahahaha... I'm bad, i noe... kekez..... Den after everyting......
It was the prize presentation.... As u guys noe, i and sum of my classmates like Sok Ping, Jayne, Hannah, Guan Hong and sum other pple help in d class decoration rite.....
Yea yea.... And I'm proud to tell u, dat 5C2 won 1st in class decoration!!!!
Hahahakz... hooorayy!!!! 5C2! OI! 5C2! OI! 5C2 sub sub OI!!!! hahahahakz.....
Siao siao....
Congratz manz.... =DDD yea....
Den got home... with a very heavy head.... straight to d bed.....
Yeaz.. Haiz............

Ate afew medicine but it juz got worser and worser... haiz......
Juz wen I wanted 2 go out with her, she ended school late... so plan cancelled....
And I hate to help my sister, in a very bad state.. OMG......
Hahakz.... Manz... I went there, carry sum stuff, den go back home.... Ishq.... wart onli....
Den I talked 2 her on d phone 4 awhile.... And i rest after dat...... Yupz.....
Was feeling very sick by den.... couldn't move a muscle manz.... ishq....
Den I went to bed straight..... it was like 10pm? yar....
And juz wen i tink everyting was gonna end there..... I couldn't sleep....
My nose was killing my sleep... I woke up, and I tot it would be morning oleady....
Wen I looked at d watch, it was onli 11.58pm... oh manz.....
Den I told myself, die liao... Sure cannot sleep one... haiz.... And yar... I can't.....
Tossed and turned... kept sneezing.... manz.... I was very sick manz.....
den finally at abt 5am, i started 2 have peaceful sleep... den my mom woke me up for morning prayer.....
After dat, I went to bed again....

She mgz-ed me and told me she was going to Malaysia.... Den I replied back and went to bed...
After afew mins, I woke up, cannot sleep again.... Got nagged by my dad 2 bathe in cold water....
For goodness sake i was havin fever, and to bathe in cold water? Siao ar? hahakz... I juz bathe in warm water..
Juz wen tings were looking better, there was noting for me 2 eat... Had to make my own milo.....
Yar.... Haiz.... After breakfast... I watched tv all d way till now.... Haiz... Tot I would be going out today...
But she can't as she went to Malaysia... So yar, gotta stay at home and hope tings would turn out better for me...
Hmmmmm I gez datz all.... Tankz for readin my blog hor.... Yupz.... Getting very tired..... Gez I'm gonna faint now..... So, take carez everyone!!!!! wait, WHERE'S MY ANGPAO!?!?! hahahakz.... faster deliver it 2 me... =P kiddin.... HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!! Gong Xi Fa Cai!!!! =D

Fiqz zoomin eeeeeout.... =D