Dear Bloggie.....
My back....still hurtz... ouch again... haiz.....
Anywayz... Juz now in da mornin me had muh religous class examz....
Uhuh, yea yea, I obviously didn't study....
Can't study, dowan study... hahakz.... stupid la...
Anywayz... yeaz... I copied almost 90% of d examz....
Cumon, I was planning on copying.....
Yea yea... lalala.... grrrr.....
Hmmm.... After dat I rushed back home...(run run run)
Hmmm, den after dat I changed my clothes and was off to d interchange...
yeapz.... I was very late manz... grrrr.... had to run run run like crazee.....
Den I reached at like 3.30pm.... argh!!!! so late!!!! hahakz,, yea....
When i was outside, Wen i heard d band... whoaaa... CAIR manz, MELTZ....
hahakz... really nice.... den wen i went in... whoa, d ambience... so nice...
Well i juz stood there... wait for d band stop playing den i brought out d tuba....
I could have sworn I sounded better with a Besson Tuba, but dis one, with dents..
My sound quality became so, so so so so very very flat.... grrrrr.... wish dey changed d tuba...
yea yea... Change to Besson tuba... wah, nice...
hahakz... Yeaz..... Hmmmmm, dunno wat else to write ar, I got a big headache....
Yea, u got dat rite, confused about love.... Haiz.... wy? wat? how? wen? where? and who...?
Watz love? Itz abt us, itz abt trust sum pple say.... But wat izzit really?
Can sumone juz tell me? I can't seem 2 get d idea of love...
Sumting tells me I wouldn't wanna get involved in love ever again....
Who do i love? Now I honestly dunno, deception, mistrust and confusion.....
Misunderstandings... And d fact pple run away from me wen dey see my bad side.....
Haiz... Wat are frenz for dat matter, Tankz Ren, ur d 1st fren 2 admit 2 me, Black&White 4-eva...
And watz all dis love songs for... To cherish wen ur in it, or 2 hurt wen ur outta it?
I dunno la kz... Love love... wat is love... lalala..... Staying unloved forever...... lalala....*Black roses*
Grrrrr, tankz for readin muh blog... take care and have a wonderful day ahead.....
Byez.... '
FiQz...
Sunday, October 31, 2004
Saturday, October 30, 2004
Dear Bloggie....
Ahhhh... I'm back.... But I dun feel so good....
My back hurtz, I'm juz demoralised....
Haven't been going to band for 2 weeks...
Actually, I felt like quiting dis Ngee Ann Concert Band....
Yea, I joined SWS, well, I'm still being assesed(dunno how 2 spell)....
Yeaz, Played d tuba, wy is my future short.....
Yesterday, I had a close encounter with death, believe it or not, itz true....
U can't blame me... My legz... Dey... juz felt "itchy" for sum reason....
And I guess I was guilty.....
Cut to d blabbering, Wy did I woke up yesterday.....
I could have juz gone in peace and left everyone happy....
While I was knocked out, everyting became blank.....
But i could hear 2 people talking.... With no doubt I heard my voice....
But I was too weak to move... It was all in my mind.....
Dey were arguing, trust me, itz d worst experience.....
I juz wanted a peaceful mind to live in... But no....
Both of "me" had to make such a big noise....
I concerntrated on their, i mean, mine, i mean... alah, dem werdz....
I could figure out, one was good, d other was, other self.....
The good one was saying stuff abt wy i should live on...
It said I got a long way to go, many people to change lives....
But it was disrupted by dis strong feeling of hatred, almost from hell(if i knew wat hell was like)
It said dat i've done alot of wrong, hurt lotz of people, and not suppose 2 live on.....
It was a point of life and death... I strongly felt like dying.... I gave up listening.....
But I can't ignore d noise.... Haiz.... If dat wasn't hell, i dunno wat was.....
Den after so long of noise torture.... Sum people's voices came to my ears.....
I was too weak to move or open my eyes.. I could onli hear "He's ALIVE!!!!!"
I was like too weak 2 tink n juz laid there.. People slapping my face so hard, i couldn't feel....
Couple of minutes later, I woke up... Forced open my eyes, i saw light.....Was i in heaven?
All juz to find out i was lying on d ground with my friends surrounding me.....
Haiz.... Wy didn't dey let me die... Wy......
Do i even deserve dis 2nd chance to live..... My world was ending soon anywayz....
I had to suffer lotz... I dunno hu are my frenz or enemies.....
I feel like I'm in a mirage.... Juz blurred... Hu do I love, hu do I hate.....
Hu loves me? Hu doesn't.... hu hates me?(I bet alot)....
I'm juz so confused..... Wy am I alive......
Do I mean dat much to pple hu are around me, I juz wish dey could give me a sign.....
A reason for me to live.... I'm juz so confused, My brain feels like itz gone thru a blender....
And my heart.... Whoa... please.... U wouldn't wanna go there...
It was d ting dat brought me into dat "world" i went to hell....
Haiz.... If there's anyone out there, hu cares abt me, hu loves me, hu needs me.....
Or even people hu hates me... please, tell me, let me noe... I juz dun understand life.....
Watz dis ting called frenz, or even going into relationships.... Itz all mixed up....
I wanna start over... But I need help... But for dose hu juz wanna take advantage.....
I may be confused, but I'm not and nv stupid......
Well.... Tankz for anyone hu reads dis.....
I dunno if i should be happy or not to live on......
But anywayz, take carez, and remember, U can die anytime, anywhere......treasure life.....
Byez all.......
Ahhhh... I'm back.... But I dun feel so good....
My back hurtz, I'm juz demoralised....
Haven't been going to band for 2 weeks...
Actually, I felt like quiting dis Ngee Ann Concert Band....
Yea, I joined SWS, well, I'm still being assesed(dunno how 2 spell)....
Yeaz, Played d tuba, wy is my future short.....
Yesterday, I had a close encounter with death, believe it or not, itz true....
U can't blame me... My legz... Dey... juz felt "itchy" for sum reason....
And I guess I was guilty.....
Cut to d blabbering, Wy did I woke up yesterday.....
I could have juz gone in peace and left everyone happy....
While I was knocked out, everyting became blank.....
But i could hear 2 people talking.... With no doubt I heard my voice....
But I was too weak to move... It was all in my mind.....
Dey were arguing, trust me, itz d worst experience.....
I juz wanted a peaceful mind to live in... But no....
Both of "me" had to make such a big noise....
I concerntrated on their, i mean, mine, i mean... alah, dem werdz....
I could figure out, one was good, d other was, other self.....
The good one was saying stuff abt wy i should live on...
It said I got a long way to go, many people to change lives....
But it was disrupted by dis strong feeling of hatred, almost from hell(if i knew wat hell was like)
It said dat i've done alot of wrong, hurt lotz of people, and not suppose 2 live on.....
It was a point of life and death... I strongly felt like dying.... I gave up listening.....
But I can't ignore d noise.... Haiz.... If dat wasn't hell, i dunno wat was.....
Den after so long of noise torture.... Sum people's voices came to my ears.....
I was too weak to move or open my eyes.. I could onli hear "He's ALIVE!!!!!"
I was like too weak 2 tink n juz laid there.. People slapping my face so hard, i couldn't feel....
Couple of minutes later, I woke up... Forced open my eyes, i saw light.....Was i in heaven?
All juz to find out i was lying on d ground with my friends surrounding me.....
Haiz.... Wy didn't dey let me die... Wy......
Do i even deserve dis 2nd chance to live..... My world was ending soon anywayz....
I had to suffer lotz... I dunno hu are my frenz or enemies.....
I feel like I'm in a mirage.... Juz blurred... Hu do I love, hu do I hate.....
Hu loves me? Hu doesn't.... hu hates me?(I bet alot)....
I'm juz so confused..... Wy am I alive......
Do I mean dat much to pple hu are around me, I juz wish dey could give me a sign.....
A reason for me to live.... I'm juz so confused, My brain feels like itz gone thru a blender....
And my heart.... Whoa... please.... U wouldn't wanna go there...
It was d ting dat brought me into dat "world" i went to hell....
Haiz.... If there's anyone out there, hu cares abt me, hu loves me, hu needs me.....
Or even people hu hates me... please, tell me, let me noe... I juz dun understand life.....
Watz dis ting called frenz, or even going into relationships.... Itz all mixed up....
I wanna start over... But I need help... But for dose hu juz wanna take advantage.....
I may be confused, but I'm not and nv stupid......
Well.... Tankz for anyone hu reads dis.....
I dunno if i should be happy or not to live on......
But anywayz, take carez, and remember, U can die anytime, anywhere......treasure life.....
Byez all.......
Saturday, October 23, 2004
Dear Bloggie....
Heyy there everyone!!!! Put ur hands up to d sky!!!!!! wooohoooo!!! hahakz....
Me gone bonkers abit.. keke, no la, kiddin.... Anywayz, I actually hafta be at band now...
But hey, izzit wrong to update dis blog of mine? hahakz... =P
okok... U guyz heard abt my concert rite.... I hope it last quite long....
Coz d songs we playin are Longgggggggg.... hahakz.....
Sum I memorise, some i mesmorise.... But hey, I gotta play.....
Hmmmm, can u believe it, itz onli 10.34am and my stomachs like an earthquake.....
Maybe coz my mom's cutting meat now and my stomach "sense" food....=P*crap*
My cat have been trying to climb d mountain(my mom) since juz now to get d meat...
But my mom tak layan.. hahakz... kesian my cat, awwww.... =P
Anywayz... I had dis dream of her again.... I dunno wy, can't blame me, blame OCBC...
I dreamt dat she was playing her saxophone.... Under a void deck, tell me now, wy under void deck?
Like dun have any other romantic place g2, sheesh... Anywayz, yea, den i borrowed her tenor sax...
It was a tenor sax, coz bigger den alto bah.... But d weird ting is, d reed was smaller den d mouthpiece..
I was like, eh, funny manz, how in d world am I gonna play like dis... Den I tried.....
D outcome? I cut my mouth(OUCH!!!), obviously it didn't hurt as it was juz a dream(phew)....
I keep dreaming of her.....
Hmmm.... I created dis logic like 2 months ago and I dunno wy.....
Wait, I noe wy, it was coz of my ex.... I was so broken down dat time....
Yeaz... here goes, it doesn't rhyme, so dun worry... =D
Love is like music....(nods)
Wy?
Coz we need d melody AND harmony....(ohhh,really?)
Yeaz really, wy i say dis? (yar ar, wy ar fiq?)
Take for example a song....(uhuh...go on)
And u only play d melody.....(yarrrrrr.....nice wat?)
Oi, u deaf ar? hahakz, where nice, it would sound incomplete as there's no support...(orhhhhhh i shee i shee)
And u juz play d harmony, wouldn't it be boring? with juz harmony repeating itself?
Ok now, back to wy love is like music.....
Lets juz take a guy and a gal as harmony and melody......
Can u see it now....
A guy wun feel complete without d love of his gal.....
And d gal would feel bored without d love of his guy.....
TADA! hahakz.... how u find my theory? It juz came from no where... hahakz, yeapz...
Haiz, now i feel lonely...... haiz....
But itz ok..itz ok... Me juz hafta stay Shhhhhtrong!!!!! wahahaa....
lalala.... I miss her so much manz.... Miss her voice, miss looking at her, miss her touch....
haiz.... I MISS U SO MUCH LA!!!!..... *ok, now fiq gone alot bonkerer, hahakz*
Itz ok if u dun feel d same way as I do, coz I've messed up everyting.... so yar... itz ok, itz alrite, taufiq fite fite fite! hahakz, =D
I tink abt her all d time.... I countdown 2 d day we get together...(forever i guess....haiz)
But nvm la, as long she happy, I happy, I try help her with d best of my abilities, no wonder I'm a councillor...
yeaz... Itz been 11 days since I've met her...my heart grown fonder......
Well, all i've said so far is abt me, me and me.... U mite tink i'm selfish, i tink so myself....
Sorii!!!! big apologies.... Hmmmmm... yeaz....
"Dis is a song, lala lala, taufiq's song.....
lala lala, lala lala, taufiq's song.....
He wrote d music, he wrote d words,
Thatssss taufiq's song!!!!" YAY!!!! =D
I'm gonna stop here, so, yeaz, maybe i update later la after me band kkz? Sowie if i said aniting wrong or killed anybody in d process but i can assure u no one was injured or killed during d production of dis post, Fiqz safe... hahakz, ceh, like inside dose drama shows... wahahaha... K la... Take carez Aightz!!!! Bybyez!!!
Oh yar, Tankz for reading my bloggieeeee!!!!!! keke..... bye! =D
Zupz!
Roarz!
poootz(woopz =$)hahakz...
Fiqz eeeeeeoutz!
Heyy there everyone!!!! Put ur hands up to d sky!!!!!! wooohoooo!!! hahakz....
Me gone bonkers abit.. keke, no la, kiddin.... Anywayz, I actually hafta be at band now...
But hey, izzit wrong to update dis blog of mine? hahakz... =P
okok... U guyz heard abt my concert rite.... I hope it last quite long....
Coz d songs we playin are Longgggggggg.... hahakz.....
Sum I memorise, some i mesmorise.... But hey, I gotta play.....
Hmmmm, can u believe it, itz onli 10.34am and my stomachs like an earthquake.....
Maybe coz my mom's cutting meat now and my stomach "sense" food....=P*crap*
My cat have been trying to climb d mountain(my mom) since juz now to get d meat...
But my mom tak layan.. hahakz... kesian my cat, awwww.... =P
Anywayz... I had dis dream of her again.... I dunno wy, can't blame me, blame OCBC...
I dreamt dat she was playing her saxophone.... Under a void deck, tell me now, wy under void deck?
Like dun have any other romantic place g2, sheesh... Anywayz, yea, den i borrowed her tenor sax...
It was a tenor sax, coz bigger den alto bah.... But d weird ting is, d reed was smaller den d mouthpiece..
I was like, eh, funny manz, how in d world am I gonna play like dis... Den I tried.....
D outcome? I cut my mouth(OUCH!!!), obviously it didn't hurt as it was juz a dream(phew)....
I keep dreaming of her.....
Hmmm.... I created dis logic like 2 months ago and I dunno wy.....
Wait, I noe wy, it was coz of my ex.... I was so broken down dat time....
Yeaz... here goes, it doesn't rhyme, so dun worry... =D
Love is like music....(nods)
Wy?
Coz we need d melody AND harmony....(ohhh,really?)
Yeaz really, wy i say dis? (yar ar, wy ar fiq?)
Take for example a song....(uhuh...go on)
And u only play d melody.....(yarrrrrr.....nice wat?)
Oi, u deaf ar? hahakz, where nice, it would sound incomplete as there's no support...(orhhhhhh i shee i shee)
And u juz play d harmony, wouldn't it be boring? with juz harmony repeating itself?
Ok now, back to wy love is like music.....
Lets juz take a guy and a gal as harmony and melody......
Can u see it now....
A guy wun feel complete without d love of his gal.....
And d gal would feel bored without d love of his guy.....
TADA! hahakz.... how u find my theory? It juz came from no where... hahakz, yeapz...
Haiz, now i feel lonely...... haiz....
But itz ok..itz ok... Me juz hafta stay Shhhhhtrong!!!!! wahahaa....
lalala.... I miss her so much manz.... Miss her voice, miss looking at her, miss her touch....
haiz.... I MISS U SO MUCH LA!!!!..... *ok, now fiq gone alot bonkerer, hahakz*
Itz ok if u dun feel d same way as I do, coz I've messed up everyting.... so yar... itz ok, itz alrite, taufiq fite fite fite! hahakz, =D
I tink abt her all d time.... I countdown 2 d day we get together...(forever i guess....haiz)
But nvm la, as long she happy, I happy, I try help her with d best of my abilities, no wonder I'm a councillor...
yeaz... Itz been 11 days since I've met her...my heart grown fonder......
Well, all i've said so far is abt me, me and me.... U mite tink i'm selfish, i tink so myself....
Sorii!!!! big apologies.... Hmmmmm... yeaz....
"Dis is a song, lala lala, taufiq's song.....
lala lala, lala lala, taufiq's song.....
He wrote d music, he wrote d words,
Thatssss taufiq's song!!!!" YAY!!!! =D
I'm gonna stop here, so, yeaz, maybe i update later la after me band kkz? Sowie if i said aniting wrong or killed anybody in d process but i can assure u no one was injured or killed during d production of dis post, Fiqz safe... hahakz, ceh, like inside dose drama shows... wahahaha... K la... Take carez Aightz!!!! Bybyez!!!
Oh yar, Tankz for reading my bloggieeeee!!!!!! keke..... bye! =D
Zupz!
Roarz!
poootz(woopz =$)hahakz...
Fiqz eeeeeeoutz!
Friday, October 22, 2004
Dear Bloggie...
Ahhhhhhh, been a long time since i update huh...*you got dat rite*
Okok, sori ar, juz was abit "busy" with myself....
Yeapz... Hmmm now itz like gonna be break-fast soon....
So i guess I'll juz make it quick for d people out there wondering watz happenin to me..
Ok... I woke up today at around 4.30am to sahur.. den eat eat, den i slept back at around 4.50am...
Den I woke up again at 6am to solat subur... den all d way i listened 2 radio *Dan&Grace Rox!!!!*
hahakz... yea yea... den I got out of bed at 8.30am..... Got ready at around 8.45am and headed for school....
Yea yea... I was early today, for dunno wat reason... hahakz....
Took out my new tuba from d case and wat did i see?
FINGER PRINT MARKS!!!!!!
I felt like crying manz.... den i juz took out d silver cloth and wipe....
*hurr hurr hurr*
Den I wipe till shiny again... lalala.... hahakz....
And i found out from my junior dat Leonard have been messing with my tuba... Grrrrrr....
Yar, anywayz, Mrs. Chua came and we started on the King's Piece(Thailand) called Near Dawn...
It wasn't even a challenge for me, my score filled with notes here and there... can sleep... haiz...sianz...
Hmmm, yeapz... D whole day we did dat piece.... Oh yar, and i found out d cost of going thai was $450!!!
...... my jaw dropped manz..... simply crazy.... And my edusave? $96..... pathetic.....
Den how am I gonna pay??? Manz, got money problem now...
But nvm nvm... lets not talk abt dat....
Hmmmmm.... I tink i noe wat i wanna be in d future, i wanna be a Band Instructor....
I mean, I roughly noe wat itz like... to be proud of ur band....
hahakz, yea yea... lalala... Anyhoo... I got a new fren, itz name is d radio... hahakz...=P
Everytime i tune 2 my station, got my fav songs... kewlz rite... especially in d mornings..
from 6am-10am... Daniel Ong, and Grace Chua!!!! woohoo, Morning Madness Rox!!!
hahakz... yea yea... Anyhoo, I gtg now.....
Oh yar, I got my concert tickets oleady... so, yupz... for d price, come mgz me kz.....
Yeapz.... Gonna be a blast, confirm nice one.... wahahaha... =P
K la, datz all I gotta say.... Till here, Assalamualaikum...and take carez.... lalala.... Band Rulez! =D
Zupz...
Ahhhhhhh, been a long time since i update huh...*you got dat rite*
Okok, sori ar, juz was abit "busy" with myself....
Yeapz... Hmmm now itz like gonna be break-fast soon....
So i guess I'll juz make it quick for d people out there wondering watz happenin to me..
Ok... I woke up today at around 4.30am to sahur.. den eat eat, den i slept back at around 4.50am...
Den I woke up again at 6am to solat subur... den all d way i listened 2 radio *Dan&Grace Rox!!!!*
hahakz... yea yea... den I got out of bed at 8.30am..... Got ready at around 8.45am and headed for school....
Yea yea... I was early today, for dunno wat reason... hahakz....
Took out my new tuba from d case and wat did i see?
FINGER PRINT MARKS!!!!!!
I felt like crying manz.... den i juz took out d silver cloth and wipe....
*hurr hurr hurr*
Den I wipe till shiny again... lalala.... hahakz....
And i found out from my junior dat Leonard have been messing with my tuba... Grrrrrr....
Yar, anywayz, Mrs. Chua came and we started on the King's Piece(Thailand) called Near Dawn...
It wasn't even a challenge for me, my score filled with notes here and there... can sleep... haiz...sianz...
Hmmm, yeapz... D whole day we did dat piece.... Oh yar, and i found out d cost of going thai was $450!!!
...... my jaw dropped manz..... simply crazy.... And my edusave? $96..... pathetic.....
Den how am I gonna pay??? Manz, got money problem now...
But nvm nvm... lets not talk abt dat....
Hmmmmm.... I tink i noe wat i wanna be in d future, i wanna be a Band Instructor....
I mean, I roughly noe wat itz like... to be proud of ur band....
hahakz, yea yea... lalala... Anyhoo... I got a new fren, itz name is d radio... hahakz...=P
Everytime i tune 2 my station, got my fav songs... kewlz rite... especially in d mornings..
from 6am-10am... Daniel Ong, and Grace Chua!!!! woohoo, Morning Madness Rox!!!
hahakz... yea yea... Anyhoo, I gtg now.....
Oh yar, I got my concert tickets oleady... so, yupz... for d price, come mgz me kz.....
Yeapz.... Gonna be a blast, confirm nice one.... wahahaha... =P
K la, datz all I gotta say.... Till here, Assalamualaikum...and take carez.... lalala.... Band Rulez! =D
Zupz...
Monday, October 18, 2004
Dearrrrr Blogiieeeeeeee......
Wahahahaha..... 2day..... Woke up on d wrong side of d bed for sahur.... Manz, Couldn't tink straight seh.....
I juz gubled down d food into my throat and juz eat....
I was like tinking like a Minister(and NO i dun have white hair, YET! :P)
Well, I do have dropping hair now... sheesh... getting more botak le....
I was too tired, so after Makan I went back to sleep.....
Den i woke up an hour later to pray my morning prayers den go back sleep....
den an hour later, woke up again to go school....
datz like THREE times of waking up....
Whoa.... Den finally went to school....
Sheesh, there was a maths mock exam... I mean, I noe there is, I can't study d nite b4...
Dun ask me wy, I will be glad 2 tell u...(HUH?!) ok nvm...
Ahhhhh, Cher gave us d papers.... Told us abt Intergrity and all crab(p) and lobsters story....
Den she was off leaving d class to demselves.....
hai, masuk angin kluar asap like d malays would call it...
At 1st it was ok ar, everyone kept quiet.....
Den after dat, sum pple make noise....
Ask here ask there, in d end, d whole class go and copy and discuss with one another...
Sum even used calculators, can't blame dem, i also did... hahakz... bad fiq... =P
Yea, den after dat we finished oleady....
I didn't noe wy la, juz had d urge to go band dat time....
Juz wen i was abt to go up, I saw Mr. Lua....
Yea, he was holding a clarinet case, he nv knew how 2 play a clarinet...
Maybe he'd crush d clarinet with his weight....
Hahakz, ok bad joke but itz TRUE....
sheesh... I went up d stairs with him....
He was like, "Taufiq, I bought a new Tuba for u...."
I was like..."uhuh.....watever...."
Den I went into music room, greeted mrs. chua....
And there it was, (WAT?!) d............TUBA CASE.....
of cuz la, u tink wat, Tuba no need protection ar?
Yeaz.... den wen I opened it.....
My heart melted manz....*CAIR BEB!*
hahakz... yeaz.... Shiny silver..... whoa......
I took it out, Mr. Lua was like, "I tried b4, i tink got sumting wrong..."
But I was like...."Dude...... wateverrrr manz....." *engrossed with d tuba obviously*
den yar, Luckily I brought my mouthpiece... hahakz..
I tried out some notes, wen i reached dat high B flat....
There's a ringing sound coming from d forth valve....
I was like, watz dat?????
den i continue ar, still dat sound....
I was starting to get scared ar....
Manz.... I dunno wy and how.... I started to love d tuba more...
hahakz.... 1st time i said dat ok... =P
I can see my own clear reflection on it.... hahakz!!!!!
Hmmmmm....
I tink I owe d band a BIG BIG BIG apology for not believing in dem.....
I realised juz how much I loved dis band......
NASSCB..... Played songs from d heart.....
Techically good bands play every note right.....
But my band, plays every song with a meaning.....
NASSCB is d best.... No one can even come close to wat we play.....
We are special.... We sing d notes with our instruments... gracefully...
I love dis band.... No doubt abt it.... Sori for not having hope in u all....
We are d best.....
Well.... yea... noting much more to say ar...... My hands so tired.... sheesh...
Muscle aching oleady ar..... Coz of dat new tuba ar.... put on my lap for 5 hours...
my lap pain u noe!!!!! Grrrrr....
hahakz.... but no doubt it was fun....
NEW TUBA!!!!! WAHHHH!H!!!!!! hahakz... can't wait to have prac tml.....
Oh yeaz, b4 i forget, I'm having a Concert at SCH on 17th of November....
Please come look for me for deatails....I dun really have any details ar, but juz come look for me anywayz..=P
Okaiyz den.... enuff said.... my hands are begging for mercy... hahakz.....
Tankz for reading my blog!!!!! God Bless U all...... Assalamualaikum!
Fiqz..... eeeeeeeoutz.......! =D
Wahahahaha..... 2day..... Woke up on d wrong side of d bed for sahur.... Manz, Couldn't tink straight seh.....
I juz gubled down d food into my throat and juz eat....
I was like tinking like a Minister(and NO i dun have white hair, YET! :P)
Well, I do have dropping hair now... sheesh... getting more botak le....
I was too tired, so after Makan I went back to sleep.....
Den i woke up an hour later to pray my morning prayers den go back sleep....
den an hour later, woke up again to go school....
datz like THREE times of waking up....
Whoa.... Den finally went to school....
Sheesh, there was a maths mock exam... I mean, I noe there is, I can't study d nite b4...
Dun ask me wy, I will be glad 2 tell u...(HUH?!) ok nvm...
Ahhhhh, Cher gave us d papers.... Told us abt Intergrity and all crab(p) and lobsters story....
Den she was off leaving d class to demselves.....
hai, masuk angin kluar asap like d malays would call it...
At 1st it was ok ar, everyone kept quiet.....
Den after dat, sum pple make noise....
Ask here ask there, in d end, d whole class go and copy and discuss with one another...
Sum even used calculators, can't blame dem, i also did... hahakz... bad fiq... =P
Yea, den after dat we finished oleady....
I didn't noe wy la, juz had d urge to go band dat time....
Juz wen i was abt to go up, I saw Mr. Lua....
Yea, he was holding a clarinet case, he nv knew how 2 play a clarinet...
Maybe he'd crush d clarinet with his weight....
Hahakz, ok bad joke but itz TRUE....
sheesh... I went up d stairs with him....
He was like, "Taufiq, I bought a new Tuba for u...."
I was like..."uhuh.....watever...."
Den I went into music room, greeted mrs. chua....
And there it was, (WAT?!) d............TUBA CASE.....
of cuz la, u tink wat, Tuba no need protection ar?
Yeaz.... den wen I opened it.....
My heart melted manz....*CAIR BEB!*
hahakz... yeaz.... Shiny silver..... whoa......
I took it out, Mr. Lua was like, "I tried b4, i tink got sumting wrong..."
But I was like...."Dude...... wateverrrr manz....." *engrossed with d tuba obviously*
den yar, Luckily I brought my mouthpiece... hahakz..
I tried out some notes, wen i reached dat high B flat....
There's a ringing sound coming from d forth valve....
I was like, watz dat?????
den i continue ar, still dat sound....
I was starting to get scared ar....
Manz.... I dunno wy and how.... I started to love d tuba more...
hahakz.... 1st time i said dat ok... =P
I can see my own clear reflection on it.... hahakz!!!!!
Hmmmmm....
I tink I owe d band a BIG BIG BIG apology for not believing in dem.....
I realised juz how much I loved dis band......
NASSCB..... Played songs from d heart.....
Techically good bands play every note right.....
But my band, plays every song with a meaning.....
NASSCB is d best.... No one can even come close to wat we play.....
We are special.... We sing d notes with our instruments... gracefully...
I love dis band.... No doubt abt it.... Sori for not having hope in u all....
We are d best.....
Well.... yea... noting much more to say ar...... My hands so tired.... sheesh...
Muscle aching oleady ar..... Coz of dat new tuba ar.... put on my lap for 5 hours...
my lap pain u noe!!!!! Grrrrr....
hahakz.... but no doubt it was fun....
NEW TUBA!!!!! WAHHHH!H!!!!!! hahakz... can't wait to have prac tml.....
Oh yeaz, b4 i forget, I'm having a Concert at SCH on 17th of November....
Please come look for me for deatails....I dun really have any details ar, but juz come look for me anywayz..=P
Okaiyz den.... enuff said.... my hands are begging for mercy... hahakz.....
Tankz for reading my blog!!!!! God Bless U all...... Assalamualaikum!
Fiqz..... eeeeeeeoutz.......! =D
Sunday, October 17, 2004
Dear bloggie....
Every time from now onwards..... It may be my last....... So yar... haiz.... goodbye world i guess....
Hmmmm.... I've nv told dis to anyone..... Coz no one would really believe me..... yar....
Sad.... I've got a heart problem ever since i was a kid....
But I hid it cause i dowan 2 be ditched...
But I dun understand, it have been like dis...
I could run with top speed....
Though I sumtimes wonder "do i got a gift on my feet?"
watz up with all dis rhymin huh?
Watz happenin to me huh?
U guyz keep worrying abt me wen u guyz want me to leave...?
Is there like a missing link or suntin?
U guyz bring me up, juz to take me down rite....
Well, U WIN....
understand dat.....
Cause i'm weak.....
I onli got my short burst of speed to back me up...
Once my legs can't carry animore.....
My heart gives away and I'll be panting...
Ok now, Back to my health condition....
After any sports I do, My head gets dizzy...
I can't tink straight....
My brain juz doesn't want to shut down...
And I gotta suffer dat inner pain....
Datz juz after playing soccer, I fainted several times...
Wy am I very stubborn and put my life in danger....
How I wish my legs and my heart could juz work together....
My heart give way, but my legs still moving....
Haiz.... Yea, datz how itz been since d day i was born....
I still remember... My dad....
Told me i had special legs......
True dad, true..... But wat abt my heart?
No one told me abt dis heart, I gotta suffer....
U wanna noe how it feels after i play any sports?
Try having a hook poking thru ur heart and pulling vigorously....
I cried several times by d pain....
U tink i can take it?
And to survive 16 years without dying....
Juz makes me wonder wen would d time be....
And so I juz conclude, Wen my heart breaks....
Datz wen everyting juz end.....
I'm not gonna do aniting foolish.....
No one, not even my parents noe abt my heart condition....
COZ NO ONE BELIEVES IN IT!
Even saying it now, pple would go "really ar? sure ar? bluff ar fiq... wat sia..."
Datz d reason wy I've been keeping it to myself...
Recently, dat "Hook" poking thru my heart juz got sharper....
I tried 2 save it... But to no avail....
So I guess, d end is near for me....
For those hu have criticised me, hurt me, tried 2 kill me....
Trust me, I noe how 2 die...
Dun u even realise wy I dun like to watch horror movies?
Or take dose joy rides in Escape Theme Parks..?
Dun u all even WONDER WY????
noooooooo..... I can't blame u all.....
Coz itz my sickness.... I seem so fit rite...
I got a BRONZE for napha.... and guess wat, d onli ting i'm good at is shuttle run....
Dey told me I'd make a great runner.....
But would dey take me with dis heart?
Yea, I was scared 2 join another sports cca after soccer....
I lurved playing soccer, d pleasure of running around....
My kindergarten teacher called me black monkey...
hahakz.. tankz cher, i understand wy now....
Den I had to join band.....
Juz for 2 sick cca points.....
I started off with d eupho.....
Ok fine, FINE, I've fallen in love with d eupho....
I brought it to SYF in '03.....
Brought back Gold.....
I'm proud of u my Eupho.... ur three valves juz makes me happy all d time...
And onli after d seniors are gone....
I was forced 2 seperate from my eupho.....
Damn her manz....
Coz of HER i had to play d tuba.....
I wanted to tell her I can't coz of my heart....
But u tink she'd take it seriously?
I'd be a laughin stock by d end of d day.....
Yeaz, d 1st time I touched d tuba, I knew I hated it.....
And I still do.... I'm such a small person, playin a tuba...
Wat SHE said? "A good eupho player makes a good tuba player"
Watz dat?????? Do I even fit in d size criteria for tuba players?
I wanted to breakdown, but for d band's sake, I continued....
Persevered... Juz to noe d worst coming......
Haiz.... I ran out of breath many times.... uncountable....
And again, U tink i wanna tell dat conductor of mine....
Well, I did, I asked her wen can i come back to eupho....
D asnwer? PATHATIC, makes my blood rise like volcano...
She said after next year's SYF.....
DEN WAT ABT MY O LEVELS HUH?!
Pple in band see me as a tuba player.... and not see me for hu i am.....
Does anyone EVEN SEES ME for hu I AM?
Haiz.... For d peeps readin dis, dun be shocked or alarmed if I'm gone....
It juz had to be....
Hu can save me, I dunno, I pray hard I live till d day I see my children.....
But if God wants to have me earlier...
I have no objections... Life has been slightly "Interesting" lately....
So yar... Dis heart of mine... And peeps tink I'm makin it up.....
Wanna believe wen I get into my grave, too late i tink.....
Tankz for readin my blog 2day..... I got maths mock test later on.... HECK AR...
Grrrrrrr...... and band from 9am-3pm.... wah laoz.....
APER NI CABARAN AR?! MAU FITE PER?!
*breathes in strongly.....* My heart can't take it animore...
Take care everyone.... sori for my impolite language.....
Fine, laugh at me all u want....
I dun mind, I got my life on d line....
So cya aightz... Maybe not on earth but sumwhere else....
byez.
Every time from now onwards..... It may be my last....... So yar... haiz.... goodbye world i guess....
Hmmmm.... I've nv told dis to anyone..... Coz no one would really believe me..... yar....
Sad.... I've got a heart problem ever since i was a kid....
But I hid it cause i dowan 2 be ditched...
But I dun understand, it have been like dis...
I could run with top speed....
Though I sumtimes wonder "do i got a gift on my feet?"
watz up with all dis rhymin huh?
Watz happenin to me huh?
U guyz keep worrying abt me wen u guyz want me to leave...?
Is there like a missing link or suntin?
U guyz bring me up, juz to take me down rite....
Well, U WIN....
understand dat.....
Cause i'm weak.....
I onli got my short burst of speed to back me up...
Once my legs can't carry animore.....
My heart gives away and I'll be panting...
Ok now, Back to my health condition....
After any sports I do, My head gets dizzy...
I can't tink straight....
My brain juz doesn't want to shut down...
And I gotta suffer dat inner pain....
Datz juz after playing soccer, I fainted several times...
Wy am I very stubborn and put my life in danger....
How I wish my legs and my heart could juz work together....
My heart give way, but my legs still moving....
Haiz.... Yea, datz how itz been since d day i was born....
I still remember... My dad....
Told me i had special legs......
True dad, true..... But wat abt my heart?
No one told me abt dis heart, I gotta suffer....
U wanna noe how it feels after i play any sports?
Try having a hook poking thru ur heart and pulling vigorously....
I cried several times by d pain....
U tink i can take it?
And to survive 16 years without dying....
Juz makes me wonder wen would d time be....
And so I juz conclude, Wen my heart breaks....
Datz wen everyting juz end.....
I'm not gonna do aniting foolish.....
No one, not even my parents noe abt my heart condition....
COZ NO ONE BELIEVES IN IT!
Even saying it now, pple would go "really ar? sure ar? bluff ar fiq... wat sia..."
Datz d reason wy I've been keeping it to myself...
Recently, dat "Hook" poking thru my heart juz got sharper....
I tried 2 save it... But to no avail....
So I guess, d end is near for me....
For those hu have criticised me, hurt me, tried 2 kill me....
Trust me, I noe how 2 die...
Dun u even realise wy I dun like to watch horror movies?
Or take dose joy rides in Escape Theme Parks..?
Dun u all even WONDER WY????
noooooooo..... I can't blame u all.....
Coz itz my sickness.... I seem so fit rite...
I got a BRONZE for napha.... and guess wat, d onli ting i'm good at is shuttle run....
Dey told me I'd make a great runner.....
But would dey take me with dis heart?
Yea, I was scared 2 join another sports cca after soccer....
I lurved playing soccer, d pleasure of running around....
My kindergarten teacher called me black monkey...
hahakz.. tankz cher, i understand wy now....
Den I had to join band.....
Juz for 2 sick cca points.....
I started off with d eupho.....
Ok fine, FINE, I've fallen in love with d eupho....
I brought it to SYF in '03.....
Brought back Gold.....
I'm proud of u my Eupho.... ur three valves juz makes me happy all d time...
And onli after d seniors are gone....
I was forced 2 seperate from my eupho.....
Damn her manz....
Coz of HER i had to play d tuba.....
I wanted to tell her I can't coz of my heart....
But u tink she'd take it seriously?
I'd be a laughin stock by d end of d day.....
Yeaz, d 1st time I touched d tuba, I knew I hated it.....
And I still do.... I'm such a small person, playin a tuba...
Wat SHE said? "A good eupho player makes a good tuba player"
Watz dat?????? Do I even fit in d size criteria for tuba players?
I wanted to breakdown, but for d band's sake, I continued....
Persevered... Juz to noe d worst coming......
Haiz.... I ran out of breath many times.... uncountable....
And again, U tink i wanna tell dat conductor of mine....
Well, I did, I asked her wen can i come back to eupho....
D asnwer? PATHATIC, makes my blood rise like volcano...
She said after next year's SYF.....
DEN WAT ABT MY O LEVELS HUH?!
Pple in band see me as a tuba player.... and not see me for hu i am.....
Does anyone EVEN SEES ME for hu I AM?
Haiz.... For d peeps readin dis, dun be shocked or alarmed if I'm gone....
It juz had to be....
Hu can save me, I dunno, I pray hard I live till d day I see my children.....
But if God wants to have me earlier...
I have no objections... Life has been slightly "Interesting" lately....
So yar... Dis heart of mine... And peeps tink I'm makin it up.....
Wanna believe wen I get into my grave, too late i tink.....
Tankz for readin my blog 2day..... I got maths mock test later on.... HECK AR...
Grrrrrrr...... and band from 9am-3pm.... wah laoz.....
APER NI CABARAN AR?! MAU FITE PER?!
*breathes in strongly.....* My heart can't take it animore...
Take care everyone.... sori for my impolite language.....
Fine, laugh at me all u want....
I dun mind, I got my life on d line....
So cya aightz... Maybe not on earth but sumwhere else....
byez.
Saturday, October 16, 2004
Dear Bloggie....
Hmmmm, Arloooooz to all d peeps out there readin my blog.... I juz finished my tarawih prayers... I noe, I noe itz quite late oleady.... I came home late... sori ar.... hahakz....
Kkz.... 2day.....
Watz e date?
Oh yeaz, 16th of October......
Ahh, A saturday....
And yes, 2nd day of puasa!!!!! wahahaha....
I can safely say the 1st day of puasa was nicer...
2day, My stomach grumbled like crazy..
My heart raced in Lightspeed...
Yeaz... Kewlz 2day....
Oh yar, I haven't do my maths tution hw...
I tot of doing it 2day....
Tapi quite lazy ar....
So nv do.....
I woke up for sahur, d usual routine for a puasa day....
After sahur I went back 2 bed.... slept...*lalalallaa*
Den after dat woke up at like, 10.55am(for sum utter reason)
Yea, den watched tv all d way till noon.....
Sumting felt very wrong that time....
Even now d feeling's still there....
I wonder wat it is...
Oh well, juz hope I dun get heart attack can le...
Yeaz.... I hope dis feeling will go away soon....
Looking at my task on hand....
I aint gonna be dat free....
But hey, if frenz need me....
Dis Dino will alwayz give a listening ear... =D
Ok, back to my task on hand...
Most fastest deadline is my band prac...
Which is dis coming monday and stretch for d whole week....(wah laoz, torture manz in dis band)
Itz from 9am to 3pm.... see la, lambat seh... tgh puasa lagi.... Grrrrr.....
But for d band's sake, I'd go.... I HAVE to go.... sheesh...
Yeaz, And I got a maths mock exam on Monday and Tuesday.....(ok fine guys, laugh at me all u want)
I dun have 2 come to school, yet I still have to come....
Which makes me wonder, I'd rather stay at home and sleep....
Yar... Maths.... 4th and 8th November.....
Alahai... maths maths.... U noe sumting, My life dis year hasn't been dat sweet...
Alot more of downs rather den ups.... But I'm not complaining coz there are sum ups la...
Hmmmm.... Letz juz list some of my downs of dis year while I'm still alive.....
Down number 1..... Performed at 3 different places for band, but very suay......Confirm will have sumting bad..
Down number 2..... My prelim points, 9 pointz.... NINE POINTZ..... eh, considered life or death seh...
Down number 3..... My own personal down la... haiz... Tak sedap hati... and all dat.....
Down number 4..... The rest of my N level peeps are chillin while i studying for maths.... =(
Down number 5..... I dowan to go for dat band thingie in thailand, but i'm forced 2 go....
And so I ask myself.... Why can't dis year be like d last 2 years..???
In 2003, Manz, highlight of my band courier.... Went into VCH with no scores, performed with all my heart... And got a deserving gold..... Haiz... dose were d times.....
In 2002, Highlight of my education courier... Got 2nd in class and 7th in standard.... Was damn happy seh....
Juz look at me now, dis year.... Wat luck do I got.... Everyting I do went wrong.... I breakdown almost all d time.... Wat ish wrong with myself..... wat......
Haiz..... dun feel so good now.... I feel sick and my heart wanna breakdown again.... So yar, tankz for readin my blog kz u guyz...... tml, 3rd day of fasting.... arghhhh, dun feel anting manz, i'm juz numb up to my brain...
So, yeapz..... cya all.... bybyez... Fiqz outz....
lalala......haiz......
Hmmmm, Arloooooz to all d peeps out there readin my blog.... I juz finished my tarawih prayers... I noe, I noe itz quite late oleady.... I came home late... sori ar.... hahakz....
Kkz.... 2day.....
Watz e date?
Oh yeaz, 16th of October......
Ahh, A saturday....
And yes, 2nd day of puasa!!!!! wahahaha....
I can safely say the 1st day of puasa was nicer...
2day, My stomach grumbled like crazy..
My heart raced in Lightspeed...
Yeaz... Kewlz 2day....
Oh yar, I haven't do my maths tution hw...
I tot of doing it 2day....
Tapi quite lazy ar....
So nv do.....
I woke up for sahur, d usual routine for a puasa day....
After sahur I went back 2 bed.... slept...*lalalallaa*
Den after dat woke up at like, 10.55am(for sum utter reason)
Yea, den watched tv all d way till noon.....
Sumting felt very wrong that time....
Even now d feeling's still there....
I wonder wat it is...
Oh well, juz hope I dun get heart attack can le...
Yeaz.... I hope dis feeling will go away soon....
Looking at my task on hand....
I aint gonna be dat free....
But hey, if frenz need me....
Dis Dino will alwayz give a listening ear... =D
Ok, back to my task on hand...
Most fastest deadline is my band prac...
Which is dis coming monday and stretch for d whole week....(wah laoz, torture manz in dis band)
Itz from 9am to 3pm.... see la, lambat seh... tgh puasa lagi.... Grrrrr.....
But for d band's sake, I'd go.... I HAVE to go.... sheesh...
Yeaz, And I got a maths mock exam on Monday and Tuesday.....(ok fine guys, laugh at me all u want)
I dun have 2 come to school, yet I still have to come....
Which makes me wonder, I'd rather stay at home and sleep....
Yar... Maths.... 4th and 8th November.....
Alahai... maths maths.... U noe sumting, My life dis year hasn't been dat sweet...
Alot more of downs rather den ups.... But I'm not complaining coz there are sum ups la...
Hmmmm.... Letz juz list some of my downs of dis year while I'm still alive.....
Down number 1..... Performed at 3 different places for band, but very suay......Confirm will have sumting bad..
Down number 2..... My prelim points, 9 pointz.... NINE POINTZ..... eh, considered life or death seh...
Down number 3..... My own personal down la... haiz... Tak sedap hati... and all dat.....
Down number 4..... The rest of my N level peeps are chillin while i studying for maths.... =(
Down number 5..... I dowan to go for dat band thingie in thailand, but i'm forced 2 go....
And so I ask myself.... Why can't dis year be like d last 2 years..???
In 2003, Manz, highlight of my band courier.... Went into VCH with no scores, performed with all my heart... And got a deserving gold..... Haiz... dose were d times.....
In 2002, Highlight of my education courier... Got 2nd in class and 7th in standard.... Was damn happy seh....
Juz look at me now, dis year.... Wat luck do I got.... Everyting I do went wrong.... I breakdown almost all d time.... Wat ish wrong with myself..... wat......
Haiz..... dun feel so good now.... I feel sick and my heart wanna breakdown again.... So yar, tankz for readin my blog kz u guyz...... tml, 3rd day of fasting.... arghhhh, dun feel anting manz, i'm juz numb up to my brain...
So, yeapz..... cya all.... bybyez... Fiqz outz....
lalala......haiz......
Friday, October 15, 2004
Dear Dark Orb....
Ahhhh..... Itz now 5.05pm and I'm feelin great.... Filled with calm and cool....
My mind is clear.... Very clear....
I noe my frenz...
I noe my enemies.....
Those hu feel guilty, UR d enemy....
Those hu noes me well.... Ur the frenz I'm glad I have....
Yeapz.....
I juz wanna pick up my life....
From the time 26th September...
I've been in d world of lurve....
Itz a sweet thing yes....
But that's juz not hu I am now....
Now itz juz a strike 2 for my lurve life...
If I'm hit again....
God knows wat'll happen 2 me...
Now my life is juz great...
Got frenz hu i can trust....
Frenz hu understands me..
Frenz hu gives me advice...
I value these frenz alot....
Coz without dem....
I'd be sobbing in pain....
But THEY showed me d light...
And I'm very tankful, Especially to two important pple....
One of dem, Amalina....
Yea, Dudette!
Hahakz, tankz lotz manz....
She's there for me all d time, everytime...
She understands wat I'm going thru...
Can juz communicate easily...
And ahh.... The other wise guy...
hahakz.... Dun worry dude...
I appriciate u lotz too....
Even tho' Black and White are totally different...
Haven't u heard opposites go along very well?
Hahakz, yesh yesh, My fren hu prefers to be called d Drago Ranger...
Ren.... U nv fail to gimme advices wen i need dem....
I'll be there for u too dude...
As the saying goes....
Wen there's frenz, there's bound 2 be foes...
These foes brought me up, juz to take me down...
Criticize me for hu I am....
Is juz disgusted by my character...
I can't blame these peeps....
I aint perfect u noe.....
I got my weakness, and strength too..
Everyting in life is balanced...
There's the good...and the bad...
In one's self.. the devil flows through d blood...
Sumtimes u can't control ur feelings while ur brain shuts down..
And u can't tink wat to do....
In this situation.... All d advice I can give u is dat....
Listen to ur heart... Listen properly....
The answer is in front of u.....
Open ur eyes and open ur heart...
U will see ur answers unfolding....
I aint a perfect human....
I got my sins....
I've done lotz of mistakes...
So I hope d peeps out there can accept me for hu I am...
I'm giving u my hand(s).....
Are u willing to take it...
I'm willing to help anyone....
I can be a great fren.... If u noe how 2 treat me right....
I can be a great enemy... If u take me up to my limitz....
But once u become my enemy... Ur fate is sealed....
But if u become my fren... U'll be cared for....
I'll give u my fullest support... No matter hu u r....
Juz dun cross my limits, please dun.....
Or I'll roar ur head off(seriously)...
Many tell me..."watz with dis power rangers stuff?"
Den wat do u want? Me going on power puff?
I respect u for hu u r even if ur tough...
But can't u juz let me laugh?
Black.... Dominant colour...
Itz important to me....
Coz it signifies me.....
Juz like how Blue signifies my school....
I'm proud to be carrying d colour Black...
I didn't say I was a nomal person....
But I didn't say I was going to prison...
I'm juz a weird person living in a normal world...
I love to be in d dark....
It gives me comfort....
Wy did u on d lights which blinds me...
I think better in d calm of darkness...
Now tell me wy am I not normal...
Juz like any other living organisms on earth...
I have feelings too...
I fall in love with pple my heart choose...
Cuz I trust my heart as it nv lies.....
I will trust d person hu my heart chooses....
But once my heart breaks... Everyting else follows, including trust...
Itz easy to fall in love, but to leave it is like holding d earth with ur pinkie..
Anger is a dangerous ting....
It may be good, It may be bad...
Itz good if it can improve urself...
Itz bad for ur health....
So wy do pple get angry?
Itz juz dat dey dun have calm..
Dun u realise dose peeps go anger management courses?
Wy do dey even bother....
Well.... I guess I've written much for 2day oleady.... So yeaz..... I would like to end my post with a quote my best fren told me juz now....
"Dun wound sumone if u can't kill, cause d wound could onli be UR confirmation of death..."
Take care everyone!!!!!
Fiqz... OUTZ! =D
oh yar, tankz for readin my post... hehe, yeapz... tankiez! tankiew! tankayu! wahahahahhahaa me crazee de...=D
Ahhhh..... Itz now 5.05pm and I'm feelin great.... Filled with calm and cool....
My mind is clear.... Very clear....
I noe my frenz...
I noe my enemies.....
Those hu feel guilty, UR d enemy....
Those hu noes me well.... Ur the frenz I'm glad I have....
Yeapz.....
I juz wanna pick up my life....
From the time 26th September...
I've been in d world of lurve....
Itz a sweet thing yes....
But that's juz not hu I am now....
Now itz juz a strike 2 for my lurve life...
If I'm hit again....
God knows wat'll happen 2 me...
Now my life is juz great...
Got frenz hu i can trust....
Frenz hu understands me..
Frenz hu gives me advice...
I value these frenz alot....
Coz without dem....
I'd be sobbing in pain....
But THEY showed me d light...
And I'm very tankful, Especially to two important pple....
One of dem, Amalina....
Yea, Dudette!
Hahakz, tankz lotz manz....
She's there for me all d time, everytime...
She understands wat I'm going thru...
Can juz communicate easily...
And ahh.... The other wise guy...
hahakz.... Dun worry dude...
I appriciate u lotz too....
Even tho' Black and White are totally different...
Haven't u heard opposites go along very well?
Hahakz, yesh yesh, My fren hu prefers to be called d Drago Ranger...
Ren.... U nv fail to gimme advices wen i need dem....
I'll be there for u too dude...
As the saying goes....
Wen there's frenz, there's bound 2 be foes...
These foes brought me up, juz to take me down...
Criticize me for hu I am....
Is juz disgusted by my character...
I can't blame these peeps....
I aint perfect u noe.....
I got my weakness, and strength too..
Everyting in life is balanced...
There's the good...and the bad...
In one's self.. the devil flows through d blood...
Sumtimes u can't control ur feelings while ur brain shuts down..
And u can't tink wat to do....
In this situation.... All d advice I can give u is dat....
Listen to ur heart... Listen properly....
The answer is in front of u.....
Open ur eyes and open ur heart...
U will see ur answers unfolding....
I aint a perfect human....
I got my sins....
I've done lotz of mistakes...
So I hope d peeps out there can accept me for hu I am...
I'm giving u my hand(s).....
Are u willing to take it...
I'm willing to help anyone....
I can be a great fren.... If u noe how 2 treat me right....
I can be a great enemy... If u take me up to my limitz....
But once u become my enemy... Ur fate is sealed....
But if u become my fren... U'll be cared for....
I'll give u my fullest support... No matter hu u r....
Juz dun cross my limits, please dun.....
Or I'll roar ur head off(seriously)...
Many tell me..."watz with dis power rangers stuff?"
Den wat do u want? Me going on power puff?
I respect u for hu u r even if ur tough...
But can't u juz let me laugh?
Black.... Dominant colour...
Itz important to me....
Coz it signifies me.....
Juz like how Blue signifies my school....
I'm proud to be carrying d colour Black...
I didn't say I was a nomal person....
But I didn't say I was going to prison...
I'm juz a weird person living in a normal world...
I love to be in d dark....
It gives me comfort....
Wy did u on d lights which blinds me...
I think better in d calm of darkness...
Now tell me wy am I not normal...
Juz like any other living organisms on earth...
I have feelings too...
I fall in love with pple my heart choose...
Cuz I trust my heart as it nv lies.....
I will trust d person hu my heart chooses....
But once my heart breaks... Everyting else follows, including trust...
Itz easy to fall in love, but to leave it is like holding d earth with ur pinkie..
Anger is a dangerous ting....
It may be good, It may be bad...
Itz good if it can improve urself...
Itz bad for ur health....
So wy do pple get angry?
Itz juz dat dey dun have calm..
Dun u realise dose peeps go anger management courses?
Wy do dey even bother....
Well.... I guess I've written much for 2day oleady.... So yeaz..... I would like to end my post with a quote my best fren told me juz now....
"Dun wound sumone if u can't kill, cause d wound could onli be UR confirmation of death..."
Take care everyone!!!!!
Fiqz... OUTZ! =D
oh yar, tankz for readin my post... hehe, yeapz... tankiez! tankiew! tankayu! wahahahahhahaa me crazee de...=D
Dear Bloggie....
I'm really sorry for the pain I've caused many pple out there.... Either intentionally or otherwise... But I apologise with all my heart that I did wat i'm not suppose to do.... And now, since itz d fasting month for all d muslims... I feel that I would clear any wrong doings I've done to anyone of u.....
I wanna Apologise, for the past blog and bad languange....
I wanna apologise if i've raised my voice at u....
I wanna apologise if I'm a natural born idiot....
I wanna Apologise for being irritating....
I wanna apologise for being annoying....
I wanna Apologise...... To all of u, not juz any particular person..... I'm really sorry if i've caused any negativity in ur life.... I regret it to the fullest of my extent.....
Hmmm...... I dun tink I will finish my post here cause itz still in d morning... So maybe later in the afternoon I'll update okaiyz? And yes, Tankz to all of u hu have read my blog and spend ur precious time....I appriciated it alot.....=D Especially to my dearest Naqiah.... Samantha Tan/Lee/See.... "Covergirl"(hu ever u are, tankz lotz).... Ren(tankz dude)...... And many more, my brain abit jammed in d morning, so yar, tankz again.... =D U guyz make my life special........ With dat I juz wanna write a sentence I made in d toilet.....
"Powered by Will..... Steered by Determination... Aiming for Perfection....."
=D yeapz.... tink abt it.... I'll update later aightz....
I'm really sorry for the pain I've caused many pple out there.... Either intentionally or otherwise... But I apologise with all my heart that I did wat i'm not suppose to do.... And now, since itz d fasting month for all d muslims... I feel that I would clear any wrong doings I've done to anyone of u.....
I wanna Apologise, for the past blog and bad languange....
I wanna apologise if i've raised my voice at u....
I wanna apologise if I'm a natural born idiot....
I wanna Apologise for being irritating....
I wanna apologise for being annoying....
I wanna Apologise...... To all of u, not juz any particular person..... I'm really sorry if i've caused any negativity in ur life.... I regret it to the fullest of my extent.....
Hmmm...... I dun tink I will finish my post here cause itz still in d morning... So maybe later in the afternoon I'll update okaiyz? And yes, Tankz to all of u hu have read my blog and spend ur precious time....I appriciated it alot.....=D Especially to my dearest Naqiah.... Samantha Tan/Lee/See.... "Covergirl"(hu ever u are, tankz lotz).... Ren(tankz dude)...... And many more, my brain abit jammed in d morning, so yar, tankz again.... =D U guyz make my life special........ With dat I juz wanna write a sentence I made in d toilet.....
"Powered by Will..... Steered by Determination... Aiming for Perfection....."
=D yeapz.... tink abt it.... I'll update later aightz....
Thursday, October 14, 2004
Dear PPle hu reads my blog......
Everyting dat i write here has no intention in hurting anyone in d process.... Please do not take it by heart.... I juz had to release sum angst which was in me for a very long time..... I apologise for any misconduct/behavior and harsh language.... Itz juz hu I am wen I'm Angry...... I apologise once again.....
Naqiah.... I really need 2 tell u dat I seriously love u alot..... Even though we seldom have contact, my heart misses u more.... please come back 2 me..... i need u.......
Everyting dat i write here has no intention in hurting anyone in d process.... Please do not take it by heart.... I juz had to release sum angst which was in me for a very long time..... I apologise for any misconduct/behavior and harsh language.... Itz juz hu I am wen I'm Angry...... I apologise once again.....
Naqiah.... I really need 2 tell u dat I seriously love u alot..... Even though we seldom have contact, my heart misses u more.... please come back 2 me..... i need u.......
Dear FREAKIN bloggy....
Lalala.... Woke up 2day @ 6am with a heartache....
Told myself itz juz a dream....
Wish I didn't need 2 come back to reality...
Forced out of bed with d piercing sounds of my mom....
Thought of going back 2 bed....
But totally impossible...
Hate life....
Especially now....
Noting seems to turn right...
Wat more challenges will i face b4 i breakdown...
Freak dose pple hu tinks i'm gonna fall....
Freak dose pple hu tink I'm gone...
I'm oleady DEAD....
Read my werds... D.E.A.D.
I just feel left out....
I juz dun fit in....
I feel like breaking down....
sumhow I juz dun belong...
and no one understands me....
Locked myself in my room...
Turn up the volume out so loud...
And no one here's my screamin...
U tink u understand me?
U tink I'm happy while I'm not OK....
To be hurt, to feel loved, to be lost in d dark...
To be kicked wen ur down, feel like u've been pushed around...
To be on d edge of breaking down, and no one's there to save u.....
Datz my life..... U guyz feel u've fell in d worst situations of ur life...
But THIS is my blog.......
Everyting I do for this world....
FREAK dis world manz....
Maths, ahh, the subject students love to hate...
Yeaz, BELIEVE IT...MATHS SUX!
And to tink I got hope for this O level maths?
DREAM ON!
PPLE say I'm clever since I'm in a clever school...
WTH, DATZ JUZ MY SCHOOL!
Juz like Pple hu are in the Normal Tech Streams are clever!
Watz with dis high expectations?
Am i looked up dat HIGH?
Do I look clever to U?
I'm sorry to say dis, but I SUX....
Dis freakin School SUX....
From the principal to the cleaners....
Ngee Ann Secondary School...
FREAK, chinese?! We malays are so engulfed by CHINESES...
How u expect US to perform well wen we are seperated from OUR kind...
Juz look at my band....
Freak, Gold for 2003....
Muz say it was LUCK.....
Look at d pple in it now.....
ATTITUDE PROBLEMS....
Watz up with dat?
I thought music is suppose to blend pple together?
How are u suppose to "Blend" wen pple aint doing wat dey suppose to do...
I've never seen such a pathetic band in my life...
Dey used to take down notes wen the conductor instructs dem....
but now, CLEAN SCORES.....
now, everytime we play d same freakin song, itz d same freakin mistakes and d same freakin corrections..
And d Peeps wanna get Gold for Next year SYF? DREAM ON MANZ!
Itz gonna take more den dis pathetic attitude to get u to even smell dat gold...
WTH... I'm juz fed up with everyting....
Forgive my language... Fiqz gone mad pple say....
Put urself in my shoes and u'll see wy....
How would u feel if ur not appriciated?
Wen pple treat u like crap....
Da ar.... Enough ar..... NASSCB....
U guyz better do sumting abt d band..
Or i'm good as gone....
and yar, the new tuba, U TINK I CARE?
Freakin pple tink I love d TUBA....
Tink abt it, ur forced to join d tuba juz wen u've put commitment on Euphonium....
Wat the Freak is DAT?
And now they peeps beggin me to stay coz no tuba senior....
I dun even start off with a tuba, U tink I wanna play d TUBA?
U want me to Choke myself to death with dis atshma?
How i wish I was dead.....
Life would be so so so much better for lotz of peeps....
I juz can't carry on anymore....
My eyes are red, my temperature's high....
Water's dripping down from my cheeks..
So peeps out there...
Fiqz NOT wat u tink aight...
Fiqz got two person in 'em....
So dis is the other fiqz... Fiqz²....
Tankz for reading my stupid blog and wasted ur time...
Fiqz²...
Lalala.... Woke up 2day @ 6am with a heartache....
Told myself itz juz a dream....
Wish I didn't need 2 come back to reality...
Forced out of bed with d piercing sounds of my mom....
Thought of going back 2 bed....
But totally impossible...
Hate life....
Especially now....
Noting seems to turn right...
Wat more challenges will i face b4 i breakdown...
Freak dose pple hu tinks i'm gonna fall....
Freak dose pple hu tink I'm gone...
I'm oleady DEAD....
Read my werds... D.E.A.D.
I just feel left out....
I juz dun fit in....
I feel like breaking down....
sumhow I juz dun belong...
and no one understands me....
Locked myself in my room...
Turn up the volume out so loud...
And no one here's my screamin...
U tink u understand me?
U tink I'm happy while I'm not OK....
To be hurt, to feel loved, to be lost in d dark...
To be kicked wen ur down, feel like u've been pushed around...
To be on d edge of breaking down, and no one's there to save u.....
Datz my life..... U guyz feel u've fell in d worst situations of ur life...
But THIS is my blog.......
Everyting I do for this world....
FREAK dis world manz....
Maths, ahh, the subject students love to hate...
Yeaz, BELIEVE IT...MATHS SUX!
And to tink I got hope for this O level maths?
DREAM ON!
PPLE say I'm clever since I'm in a clever school...
WTH, DATZ JUZ MY SCHOOL!
Juz like Pple hu are in the Normal Tech Streams are clever!
Watz with dis high expectations?
Am i looked up dat HIGH?
Do I look clever to U?
I'm sorry to say dis, but I SUX....
Dis freakin School SUX....
From the principal to the cleaners....
Ngee Ann Secondary School...
FREAK, chinese?! We malays are so engulfed by CHINESES...
How u expect US to perform well wen we are seperated from OUR kind...
Juz look at my band....
Freak, Gold for 2003....
Muz say it was LUCK.....
Look at d pple in it now.....
ATTITUDE PROBLEMS....
Watz up with dat?
I thought music is suppose to blend pple together?
How are u suppose to "Blend" wen pple aint doing wat dey suppose to do...
I've never seen such a pathetic band in my life...
Dey used to take down notes wen the conductor instructs dem....
but now, CLEAN SCORES.....
now, everytime we play d same freakin song, itz d same freakin mistakes and d same freakin corrections..
And d Peeps wanna get Gold for Next year SYF? DREAM ON MANZ!
Itz gonna take more den dis pathetic attitude to get u to even smell dat gold...
WTH... I'm juz fed up with everyting....
Forgive my language... Fiqz gone mad pple say....
Put urself in my shoes and u'll see wy....
How would u feel if ur not appriciated?
Wen pple treat u like crap....
Da ar.... Enough ar..... NASSCB....
U guyz better do sumting abt d band..
Or i'm good as gone....
and yar, the new tuba, U TINK I CARE?
Freakin pple tink I love d TUBA....
Tink abt it, ur forced to join d tuba juz wen u've put commitment on Euphonium....
Wat the Freak is DAT?
And now they peeps beggin me to stay coz no tuba senior....
I dun even start off with a tuba, U tink I wanna play d TUBA?
U want me to Choke myself to death with dis atshma?
How i wish I was dead.....
Life would be so so so much better for lotz of peeps....
I juz can't carry on anymore....
My eyes are red, my temperature's high....
Water's dripping down from my cheeks..
So peeps out there...
Fiqz NOT wat u tink aight...
Fiqz got two person in 'em....
So dis is the other fiqz... Fiqz²....
Tankz for reading my stupid blog and wasted ur time...
Fiqz²...
Wednesday, October 13, 2004
Dear Bloggie....
Juz wanna start d blog with a song called "I'm Juz a Kid" from simple Plan, the lyrics of cuz....:
I'm just a kid and life is a nitemare
I'm juz a kid, I know that itz not fair
Nobody cares, cause i'm alone and the world is
Having more fun than me
Tonite....
Wat the hell is wrong with me?
Don't fit in with anybody
How did this happen to me..?
Wide awake I'm bored and I can't fall asleep
And every night is the worst nite ever.......
The end......
Ok... Now, There are two factors in life..... Patience and Perserverence.... If u can handle and master both skillz, Ur life which is full of challenges would be easier for u.... Believe in urself and dun let anyone tell u wat to do.... Take carez everyonez!!!!! =D Fiqz signin off as usual....
BTW, wat did d fish say wen it hit a wall? =)
Juz wanna start d blog with a song called "I'm Juz a Kid" from simple Plan, the lyrics of cuz....:
I'm just a kid and life is a nitemare
I'm juz a kid, I know that itz not fair
Nobody cares, cause i'm alone and the world is
Having more fun than me
Tonite....
Wat the hell is wrong with me?
Don't fit in with anybody
How did this happen to me..?
Wide awake I'm bored and I can't fall asleep
And every night is the worst nite ever.......
The end......
Ok... Now, There are two factors in life..... Patience and Perserverence.... If u can handle and master both skillz, Ur life which is full of challenges would be easier for u.... Believe in urself and dun let anyone tell u wat to do.... Take carez everyonez!!!!! =D Fiqz signin off as usual....
BTW, wat did d fish say wen it hit a wall? =)
Tuesday, October 12, 2004
Dear Bloggie....
Lalala..... haiz.... manz, 2day was like d worst day ever....*sings worst day ever*
hmmm.... dun tink i could actually write an account to wat happend 2day la..... itz like i've been shot dead by a nuclear bomb or sumtin..... it goes *BOOOOOOOOOOM!!!!* and d sound of rain follows by *my tears*.... I mean, I've gone so deep.... and all of a sudden, datz gone..... like drowning...yea, onli dat itz in d bermuda triangle..... ok....
Now, enough about me... Coz itz like now datz d past..... yeapz..... *Hai, cubaan..... cuuubaan....* Yer la, like i'm gonna find nujum pak belalang liddat... okok.... Naqiah, We are gonna be great frenz kz.... dun worry abt it... Sum qoutes have been written b4...and here it goes...."If u truly love sumone, u gotta let d person go..... And if that person comes back to u, den both of u are fated 2 be"... so yeapz.... I love u lotz, datz not gonna change... I can love u as a fren rite?
And yes, I'm very very very very very very sorry to pull u into dis relationship too early.... And i'm really sori to rush u through with all dis.... I should've known better den to rush u..... Haiz.... yar, well, we are gonna be good frenz naq.... I feel so guilty for letting u down..... I wish i could do better.... But datz a wish i noe will nv come true.... well, yea.... juz to make it clear, NAQIAH!!! I STILL LOVE U!!!!! =D yeapz.... juz dat we are taking our time now.... dun worry k naq, itz gonna be ok..... like my mom would say "Itz getting better!!!!" yeapz..... But i need U to believe in us naqiah.....
Come to tink of it, 2day aint dat bad at all... yeapz.... Juz need 2 see d light which is coming and u'll be fine... yeaz.... Noting have changed, I'm still me, onli dat i've become more wiser.... Naqiah, I totally respect ur decision kz.... dun worry abt it, i got two words for us now.... "FRIENDS FOREVER!!!!!!" hehe, yeapz...
From the song of Jimmy Eat World with title The Middle:
"Hey, dun write urself off yet
Itz onli in ur head dat u feel left out and looked down on
Juz do ur best
Try everyting u can
Dun worry wat dey tell demselves, wen ur away..
It just take some time
Ur in the middle of the ride
Everyting, everyting will be just fine
Everyting, everyting will be alright, alright.... =D
Hey, u noe they are all d same
U noe u doing better on ur own so dun buy in
Live right now
Juz be urself
It doesn't matter if itz good or not to sumone else"
Yeapz.... =D Naqiah, We are gonna be frenz forever.... Cuz I do, Still now and forever, love u.....;)
Naqiah & Taufiq................ 16 dayz of frenship....=D and counting forever.......
(Love....)
Lalala..... haiz.... manz, 2day was like d worst day ever....*sings worst day ever*
hmmm.... dun tink i could actually write an account to wat happend 2day la..... itz like i've been shot dead by a nuclear bomb or sumtin..... it goes *BOOOOOOOOOOM!!!!* and d sound of rain follows by *my tears*.... I mean, I've gone so deep.... and all of a sudden, datz gone..... like drowning...yea, onli dat itz in d bermuda triangle..... ok....
Now, enough about me... Coz itz like now datz d past..... yeapz..... *Hai, cubaan..... cuuubaan....* Yer la, like i'm gonna find nujum pak belalang liddat... okok.... Naqiah, We are gonna be great frenz kz.... dun worry abt it... Sum qoutes have been written b4...and here it goes...."If u truly love sumone, u gotta let d person go..... And if that person comes back to u, den both of u are fated 2 be"... so yeapz.... I love u lotz, datz not gonna change... I can love u as a fren rite?
And yes, I'm very very very very very very sorry to pull u into dis relationship too early.... And i'm really sori to rush u through with all dis.... I should've known better den to rush u..... Haiz.... yar, well, we are gonna be good frenz naq.... I feel so guilty for letting u down..... I wish i could do better.... But datz a wish i noe will nv come true.... well, yea.... juz to make it clear, NAQIAH!!! I STILL LOVE U!!!!! =D yeapz.... juz dat we are taking our time now.... dun worry k naq, itz gonna be ok..... like my mom would say "Itz getting better!!!!" yeapz..... But i need U to believe in us naqiah.....
Come to tink of it, 2day aint dat bad at all... yeapz.... Juz need 2 see d light which is coming and u'll be fine... yeaz.... Noting have changed, I'm still me, onli dat i've become more wiser.... Naqiah, I totally respect ur decision kz.... dun worry abt it, i got two words for us now.... "FRIENDS FOREVER!!!!!!" hehe, yeapz...
From the song of Jimmy Eat World with title The Middle:
"Hey, dun write urself off yet
Itz onli in ur head dat u feel left out and looked down on
Juz do ur best
Try everyting u can
Dun worry wat dey tell demselves, wen ur away..
It just take some time
Ur in the middle of the ride
Everyting, everyting will be just fine
Everyting, everyting will be alright, alright.... =D
Hey, u noe they are all d same
U noe u doing better on ur own so dun buy in
Live right now
Juz be urself
It doesn't matter if itz good or not to sumone else"
Yeapz.... =D Naqiah, We are gonna be frenz forever.... Cuz I do, Still now and forever, love u.....;)
Naqiah & Taufiq................ 16 dayz of frenship....=D and counting forever.......
(Love....)
Saturday, October 09, 2004
Dear Blooggggg......
I feel so HAPPY!!!!!!! =D hehe, Naqiah!!! I luv u SOOOO MUCH!!!!!!!!
hehe... okok.... letz juz cut 2day down 2 d part i met u k syg..... kkz.... We both met in d library, I saw her and immediately melted........ When we met... My heart was pounding like bass drums again... hahakz.... yea, itz true, i was nervous.... den i held my hand..... and she took my hand..... Our hands fitted each other perfectly..... like a key into a lock...... yeaz..... Den we walked out of the library.....
On the 2nd floor, while we were holding hands, her frenz were there too.... and she was like, "ahhh, my frennz!!!" den she hid from her frenz and we continue walking...... Soon after dat there was like these small childrens playing the violins and one of dem was playing sumting sitting down, i guessed dat was d bass la, syg, wat was dat instrument ar? i dunno seh..... yeapz, den after dat right, we go down and walked underground.....
Then she say "eh, suddenly i bump to my cousin ar..." den i was like "suddenly i bump to my mom ar" and she was like "eh.. eh.. sori makcik, terpegang ar...." hehe, cute seh....=P yeaz.... den we walk walk, i started 2 talk abt my unmatching clothes of blue and black.... hehe, den I told her dat she would look prettier with black braces.... hehe.... =P NAQIAH, UR ALWAYZ PRETTY IN MY EYES!!!!!! =D Yeapz!!! hehe.....
Then she felt hot... hehe.... yea, well, i was feeling quite hot too.... =P.... and she cooled down herself..... ahhhh.... yeapz.... then i was tinking wat i should get her for birthday la, den i tell her i buy for her watch... den she say she oleady got a black watch... hahakz, kewlz!!!! =P but she didn't like 2 wear watch, and i totally respect dat.... yeaz.... den she say she used 2 wear rings, but not animore, so i can't buy rings for her...... hmmmmmm.... *Frenz of Fiq, Help me here!!!! I running out of ideas to wat to buy for her!!!!* hehe.... =P
Yeapz, den we talked abt Fir..... Well, i didn't actually noe dat he wanted 2 go overseas to study la..... And he told me he wanted 2 stay here in S'pore also..... But we'll be hoping for d best for him, wun we Naq..*fiqz nods* yeapz.... Den she said maybe she go Clementi ITE since all her frenz are going there, I mean, seriously i also feel like going ITE, syg, dun be afraid dat u'll be influenced, u noe how 2 choose frenz rite... so dun worry, watever it is, i'll alwayz be with u kz.... At least itz better den going overseas rite......... I mean, not dat i wanna be selfish la, but i'll miss u lotz...... ;)
Okok..... den after dat we talked abt me wanna move house beside her house... hahakz, den she say her neighbour haven't move house, den i say i buy her neighbours house....=P hahakz, *cam kaya g2 I ni* hehez.... Itz ok, sumday we'll live together..... I have visioned the two of us together forever naqiah..... =D
Den after dat I send her to d MRT platform.... I was like, "Naq, boleh i ambik gambar u tak?" and u were like, "ala, lain kali k?" and i was like "Hmmmmm ok......" I totally respect ur decision, itz ok really.... =D but i dun understand wy d phone cannot send d pic.... hairan i... hehe, yeapz.... Den i looked at my file... den I remembered, den i quickly gave her d drawing i made.... den she gave me her neoprint, tankz alot Naqiah!!!!!!! Really Appriciated it!!!!!!! yeapz..... den she went on d train.... I looked for her wen d train was going to leave, but i couldn't see her.... haiz..... but anywayz, it was a great day for d both of us.... hehe, my ears are still hot seh.... =P yeapz.....
Well, till here den.... I love u Naqiah!!!! I hope u get well soon k my dear... get aloooot of rest and drink lotz of water..... luv u naq....
Taufiq & Naqiah...... 5 dayz..... counting till d end of time...
(Love....)
I feel so HAPPY!!!!!!! =D hehe, Naqiah!!! I luv u SOOOO MUCH!!!!!!!!
hehe... okok.... letz juz cut 2day down 2 d part i met u k syg..... kkz.... We both met in d library, I saw her and immediately melted........ When we met... My heart was pounding like bass drums again... hahakz.... yea, itz true, i was nervous.... den i held my hand..... and she took my hand..... Our hands fitted each other perfectly..... like a key into a lock...... yeaz..... Den we walked out of the library.....
On the 2nd floor, while we were holding hands, her frenz were there too.... and she was like, "ahhh, my frennz!!!" den she hid from her frenz and we continue walking...... Soon after dat there was like these small childrens playing the violins and one of dem was playing sumting sitting down, i guessed dat was d bass la, syg, wat was dat instrument ar? i dunno seh..... yeapz, den after dat right, we go down and walked underground.....
Then she say "eh, suddenly i bump to my cousin ar..." den i was like "suddenly i bump to my mom ar" and she was like "eh.. eh.. sori makcik, terpegang ar...." hehe, cute seh....=P yeaz.... den we walk walk, i started 2 talk abt my unmatching clothes of blue and black.... hehe, den I told her dat she would look prettier with black braces.... hehe.... =P NAQIAH, UR ALWAYZ PRETTY IN MY EYES!!!!!! =D Yeapz!!! hehe.....
Then she felt hot... hehe.... yea, well, i was feeling quite hot too.... =P.... and she cooled down herself..... ahhhh.... yeapz.... then i was tinking wat i should get her for birthday la, den i tell her i buy for her watch... den she say she oleady got a black watch... hahakz, kewlz!!!! =P but she didn't like 2 wear watch, and i totally respect dat.... yeaz.... den she say she used 2 wear rings, but not animore, so i can't buy rings for her...... hmmmmmm.... *Frenz of Fiq, Help me here!!!! I running out of ideas to wat to buy for her!!!!* hehe.... =P
Yeapz, den we talked abt Fir..... Well, i didn't actually noe dat he wanted 2 go overseas to study la..... And he told me he wanted 2 stay here in S'pore also..... But we'll be hoping for d best for him, wun we Naq..*fiqz nods* yeapz.... Den she said maybe she go Clementi ITE since all her frenz are going there, I mean, seriously i also feel like going ITE, syg, dun be afraid dat u'll be influenced, u noe how 2 choose frenz rite... so dun worry, watever it is, i'll alwayz be with u kz.... At least itz better den going overseas rite......... I mean, not dat i wanna be selfish la, but i'll miss u lotz...... ;)
Okok..... den after dat we talked abt me wanna move house beside her house... hahakz, den she say her neighbour haven't move house, den i say i buy her neighbours house....=P hahakz, *cam kaya g2 I ni* hehez.... Itz ok, sumday we'll live together..... I have visioned the two of us together forever naqiah..... =D
Den after dat I send her to d MRT platform.... I was like, "Naq, boleh i ambik gambar u tak?" and u were like, "ala, lain kali k?" and i was like "Hmmmmm ok......" I totally respect ur decision, itz ok really.... =D but i dun understand wy d phone cannot send d pic.... hairan i... hehe, yeapz.... Den i looked at my file... den I remembered, den i quickly gave her d drawing i made.... den she gave me her neoprint, tankz alot Naqiah!!!!!!! Really Appriciated it!!!!!!! yeapz..... den she went on d train.... I looked for her wen d train was going to leave, but i couldn't see her.... haiz..... but anywayz, it was a great day for d both of us.... hehe, my ears are still hot seh.... =P yeapz.....
Well, till here den.... I love u Naqiah!!!! I hope u get well soon k my dear... get aloooot of rest and drink lotz of water..... luv u naq....
Taufiq & Naqiah...... 5 dayz..... counting till d end of time...
(Love....)
Dear Blog.......
Ahhhhhhh, 9th october.... Hmmmmmm, I woke up smiling 2day.... hehe, well, yea, really.... =D see, i'm still smiling.... =P yea, i smile coz she mgz me..... I think abt her all d time.... She's stuck on my mind for d rest of my life...... Yesterday I slept at 12.20am coz i drew her name...... Can't wait to show it 2 her, well, dear, itz not as nice as last time, but i hope u like it.....
Yesh, later I going to Esplanade juz 2 walk2.... den if can i juz open my books and study abit...... I mean, I noe i can't go library, coz confirm will get halau by d librarian, sheesh, nak blajar pun tak leh per... Even my fren also marah seh...... sheeesh..... Isn't library d most conducive place to study? With d quietness and all.... And itz not like d library is DAT small coz itz like soooooo big..... okok, letz not angry abt dis fiq k.... *breathe in.......* Woopz.... *stinks manz....wooooooof*
Anywayz, yar, d Esplanade Library, da la besar, lokek pulak.... Hmphz.... nvm nvm..... I tink i gonna juz sit beside d sea, where there's d breeze and all, better den air-con... hahakz, natural summore..... ahhhh.... hahakz.... yeaz..... I wanted to bring my frenz, but they all go gym, so itz like, alahai, wy my body so skinny...=P But i like being skinny for one reason... I can run fast, yeapz.... maybe by scientific explanation, d wind can carry my weight and thrust me forward (whoaaaaa fiq, chiminology huh...=P) hahakz.... yeaz.....
Haiz..... Naqiah, I miss u lotz..... I care abt u lotz..... If every care i have for u can be counted in a single drop of water, I'd give u the sea..... And if every love for u is counted by a small amount of air, I can give u d atmosphere dear...... Coz from now and forever....I'd be loving u and onli u.......;)
Taufiq & Naqiah.......... 5 dayz and counting on.......till d sky drop..... =D
(Love.....)
Ahhhhhhh, 9th october.... Hmmmmmm, I woke up smiling 2day.... hehe, well, yea, really.... =D see, i'm still smiling.... =P yea, i smile coz she mgz me..... I think abt her all d time.... She's stuck on my mind for d rest of my life...... Yesterday I slept at 12.20am coz i drew her name...... Can't wait to show it 2 her, well, dear, itz not as nice as last time, but i hope u like it.....
Yesh, later I going to Esplanade juz 2 walk2.... den if can i juz open my books and study abit...... I mean, I noe i can't go library, coz confirm will get halau by d librarian, sheesh, nak blajar pun tak leh per... Even my fren also marah seh...... sheeesh..... Isn't library d most conducive place to study? With d quietness and all.... And itz not like d library is DAT small coz itz like soooooo big..... okok, letz not angry abt dis fiq k.... *breathe in.......* Woopz.... *stinks manz....wooooooof*
Anywayz, yar, d Esplanade Library, da la besar, lokek pulak.... Hmphz.... nvm nvm..... I tink i gonna juz sit beside d sea, where there's d breeze and all, better den air-con... hahakz, natural summore..... ahhhh.... hahakz.... yeaz..... I wanted to bring my frenz, but they all go gym, so itz like, alahai, wy my body so skinny...=P But i like being skinny for one reason... I can run fast, yeapz.... maybe by scientific explanation, d wind can carry my weight and thrust me forward (whoaaaaa fiq, chiminology huh...=P) hahakz.... yeaz.....
Haiz..... Naqiah, I miss u lotz..... I care abt u lotz..... If every care i have for u can be counted in a single drop of water, I'd give u the sea..... And if every love for u is counted by a small amount of air, I can give u d atmosphere dear...... Coz from now and forever....I'd be loving u and onli u.......;)
Taufiq & Naqiah.......... 5 dayz and counting on.......till d sky drop..... =D
(Love.....)
Friday, October 08, 2004
Dear Blog...
Harlowz to all!!!!! A'kum!... hmmmm, I'm basicly quite bored now... hahakz, yupz.... Noting to do..... Still tinking of u dear.... =D and yes, Good luck 4 ur Maths paper later on kz... U can do it, confirm can one..... hehe..... Yeaz.... Haiz, noting much to write.... Ahhh, Here's a joke for u guys to tink abt.... If u noe oleady dun say kz.... hehez, What type of blood donation is very very dangerous and sumtimes lead to itchyness...... hehez....... Crack ya brainzzzzzz...... kekez...... Hmmz, I wanna write more, but i dunno wat to write abt, since itz juz morning.... hehez, yeaz..... So i'll juz write a lyric from a song called "I'll Keep Waiting..." juz d chorus.....:
I'll Keep waiting...Till that day when...You come back on home to me....
Life's too short to... Live without u... Where u are, is where i wanna be.....
I'll alwayz luv u Naq......;) ur in my heart no matter wat.......=D
Taufiq & Naqiah........4 dayz and still counting on...forever....
(Love....)
Harlowz to all!!!!! A'kum!... hmmmm, I'm basicly quite bored now... hahakz, yupz.... Noting to do..... Still tinking of u dear.... =D and yes, Good luck 4 ur Maths paper later on kz... U can do it, confirm can one..... hehe..... Yeaz.... Haiz, noting much to write.... Ahhh, Here's a joke for u guys to tink abt.... If u noe oleady dun say kz.... hehez, What type of blood donation is very very dangerous and sumtimes lead to itchyness...... hehez....... Crack ya brainzzzzzz...... kekez...... Hmmz, I wanna write more, but i dunno wat to write abt, since itz juz morning.... hehez, yeaz..... So i'll juz write a lyric from a song called "I'll Keep Waiting..." juz d chorus.....:
I'll Keep waiting...Till that day when...You come back on home to me....
Life's too short to... Live without u... Where u are, is where i wanna be.....
I'll alwayz luv u Naq......;) ur in my heart no matter wat.......=D
Taufiq & Naqiah........4 dayz and still counting on...forever....
(Love....)
Thursday, October 07, 2004
Dear Blog.....
Watz Up everyone!!!!! Hmmmm, itz 7.54am now, and i juz can't sleep back..... Naq, I'm thinking of u...... And Itz like... I wonder how u are now..... Are u ok...... Are u alrite.... I'm worried abt u..... Coz i'm deeply in love with u.... I juz want u to be happy.... and u will be, juz give me ur hand and i'll show u d way..... I'm going to take care of u from d day i met u till only time will tell....
Naqiah..... Ur special to me, u mean alot to me, n i love d way dat u r.... U can tell me ur a weird person, i mean, if u r dat way, i can accept dat.... Coz u may be weird to others, but in my heart ur special.... N my heart can nv lie to me.... It chose u out of all d rest, because U stand out.... Even if u've lost ur legs, hands, and all, I'll still be there for u.... Supporting u no matter wat..... Because ur part of my life, and i can't live without u....
I muz stress dis, there will be harsh times.... Relationships are bound 2 be hard times..... But doesn't mean we should be afraid.... Even when there's difficult times... It will onli make our love stronger..... And it also brings us even more closer together..... Coz naqiah, i love U.... and only u.... "Coz here in my Heart, there's a picture of us.... Together Forever, Faithy and Unbroken.... Wherever u are, ur love covers me... Forever more.....U'll me here in my heart......" I love u alot Nur Naqiah...... May our love be forever, and shall nv be broken........
Naqiah & Taufiq....... 3 Dayz and still counting on......
(Love..)
Watz Up everyone!!!!! Hmmmm, itz 7.54am now, and i juz can't sleep back..... Naq, I'm thinking of u...... And Itz like... I wonder how u are now..... Are u ok...... Are u alrite.... I'm worried abt u..... Coz i'm deeply in love with u.... I juz want u to be happy.... and u will be, juz give me ur hand and i'll show u d way..... I'm going to take care of u from d day i met u till only time will tell....
Naqiah..... Ur special to me, u mean alot to me, n i love d way dat u r.... U can tell me ur a weird person, i mean, if u r dat way, i can accept dat.... Coz u may be weird to others, but in my heart ur special.... N my heart can nv lie to me.... It chose u out of all d rest, because U stand out.... Even if u've lost ur legs, hands, and all, I'll still be there for u.... Supporting u no matter wat..... Because ur part of my life, and i can't live without u....
I muz stress dis, there will be harsh times.... Relationships are bound 2 be hard times..... But doesn't mean we should be afraid.... Even when there's difficult times... It will onli make our love stronger..... And it also brings us even more closer together..... Coz naqiah, i love U.... and only u.... "Coz here in my Heart, there's a picture of us.... Together Forever, Faithy and Unbroken.... Wherever u are, ur love covers me... Forever more.....U'll me here in my heart......" I love u alot Nur Naqiah...... May our love be forever, and shall nv be broken........
Naqiah & Taufiq....... 3 Dayz and still counting on......
(Love..)
Wednesday, October 06, 2004
Harlowz Everyone, welcome to my blog... =D
Dear Blog....
2day was d day my head exploded into thin air(hahakz, violent seh...). Actually, not exactly la, crazy ar?? hahakz... Ah yes, I had Physics and Chemistry N levels today.... lalalala..... ermz, Physics was as easy as 1+1=3..... =D and chem..... WHOA...... chem was d paper my head got alot of steam... hahakz, really, u can see smoke comin out of my head manz, wahahaha... Anywayz, yea, chem.... urgh.... *Menyampah aku* It was so difficult seh.... tol nye cekik darah....
But b4 i go to chem... which is d worst paper i've taken.... Juz take a trip back N levels Memory lane shall we? yesh of cuz.... Started on d 1st day of September Holidays(I missed my holidays coz of dis N levels, sheesh). It was Social Studies, I mean, I studied quite alot oleady la.... Butz itz like, it had to be DAT chapter dat i was weak at came out...*Ya Allah, apa la punye nasib yer...* Hmmmm, and d day after SS was Malay.... MALAY?! hahakz.... Yea yea, u got dat rite, malay...-.-" okok... Quite ok ar, but i'm not banking on malay juz coz i'm a malay, come to tink of it, i'm quite weak in malay den english....
And juz dis week was d rest of my Ns.... *Shivers* hahakz.... yea yea... seram seh... On monday I had English.... Well, English, errrrr.... English RoX!!!!! hahakz, for me english was one of d easiest to score... and I'm Banking on English as one of d best 3 subs...wahahaha.... =P *dun mind me, i'm crazee now abit, unsounded brain...:P* Den on tuesday i lax lax, hahakz.... coz no examzzzz wahahaha.... den 2day.... manz... Science was half totally good and half totally bad....=( well, d good part will always be Physics... Manz, I did d paper like a breeze... hahakz... I still got time to write write stuff, hahakz, i wrote her name like 4-5 times i tink.... i still haven't erase, u wanna see ask me k dear? =D den i draw2 at d question paper.... wahaha, i was bored manz..=P den i tot of her.... me.... we... together..... forever......... *meltz.....* hahakz.... yea yea.....
And d 2nd part of science was a pain in d throat... CHEMISTRY!!!!!! it was SUPPOSE to be easy... but wen i did d paper..... like wanna faint ar.... fuyo, susah dey! hahakz.... I juz do wat i noe, and check abt 3 times.... =P Den i lean back... and juz gave up on d paper... hahakz..... *harapanku hanya dalam Physics sajalah kalau gini* *mati mati, tentuuu mati* hahakz.... And the worst ting is dat i'm banking on Science!!!!!..... urgh..... bad day for me.... Hmmm, my syg lom balik lagi,.... lama nye, naik rindu i..... =D Dear, I love u alot!!!!! hehe.... She always makes me happy.... her smile oleady meltz my heart.... wat more her voice and her character, I'd be a liquid oleady... hehe.... Ok la.... I tink very long oleady i write... So.... Take carez k everyone!!! and tankz for readin!!!! especially u!!!! yes u my dear... tankz!!!! =D
P.S. : Good Luck to all having their examz!!!!!
P.S.S.: Thank You all!!!! Dudez, Dudettez, Guyz and Galz!!!!!
P.S.S.S: Power Rangers Rulez!!!!!!!!
P.S.S.S.S : Take care all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
P.S.S.S.S.S: Love You dear, Will nv leave u, Will alwayz love u, U'll be in my heart forever....
P.S.S.S.S.S.S: *RrrrrrrrrOooooAAAARRRRrrRRR!!!!!!* Black Dino Thunder Signin Off! Zuuuuuuuuuuupz!!!!!
Dear Blog....
2day was d day my head exploded into thin air(hahakz, violent seh...). Actually, not exactly la, crazy ar?? hahakz... Ah yes, I had Physics and Chemistry N levels today.... lalalala..... ermz, Physics was as easy as 1+1=3..... =D and chem..... WHOA...... chem was d paper my head got alot of steam... hahakz, really, u can see smoke comin out of my head manz, wahahaha... Anywayz, yea, chem.... urgh.... *Menyampah aku* It was so difficult seh.... tol nye cekik darah....
But b4 i go to chem... which is d worst paper i've taken.... Juz take a trip back N levels Memory lane shall we? yesh of cuz.... Started on d 1st day of September Holidays(I missed my holidays coz of dis N levels, sheesh). It was Social Studies, I mean, I studied quite alot oleady la.... Butz itz like, it had to be DAT chapter dat i was weak at came out...*Ya Allah, apa la punye nasib yer...* Hmmmm, and d day after SS was Malay.... MALAY?! hahakz.... Yea yea, u got dat rite, malay...-.-" okok... Quite ok ar, but i'm not banking on malay juz coz i'm a malay, come to tink of it, i'm quite weak in malay den english....
And juz dis week was d rest of my Ns.... *Shivers* hahakz.... yea yea... seram seh... On monday I had English.... Well, English, errrrr.... English RoX!!!!! hahakz, for me english was one of d easiest to score... and I'm Banking on English as one of d best 3 subs...wahahaha.... =P *dun mind me, i'm crazee now abit, unsounded brain...:P* Den on tuesday i lax lax, hahakz.... coz no examzzzz wahahaha.... den 2day.... manz... Science was half totally good and half totally bad....=( well, d good part will always be Physics... Manz, I did d paper like a breeze... hahakz... I still got time to write write stuff, hahakz, i wrote her name like 4-5 times i tink.... i still haven't erase, u wanna see ask me k dear? =D den i draw2 at d question paper.... wahaha, i was bored manz..=P den i tot of her.... me.... we... together..... forever......... *meltz.....* hahakz.... yea yea.....
And d 2nd part of science was a pain in d throat... CHEMISTRY!!!!!! it was SUPPOSE to be easy... but wen i did d paper..... like wanna faint ar.... fuyo, susah dey! hahakz.... I juz do wat i noe, and check abt 3 times.... =P Den i lean back... and juz gave up on d paper... hahakz..... *harapanku hanya dalam Physics sajalah kalau gini* *mati mati, tentuuu mati* hahakz.... And the worst ting is dat i'm banking on Science!!!!!..... urgh..... bad day for me.... Hmmm, my syg lom balik lagi,.... lama nye, naik rindu i..... =D Dear, I love u alot!!!!! hehe.... She always makes me happy.... her smile oleady meltz my heart.... wat more her voice and her character, I'd be a liquid oleady... hehe.... Ok la.... I tink very long oleady i write... So.... Take carez k everyone!!! and tankz for readin!!!! especially u!!!! yes u my dear... tankz!!!! =D
P.S. : Good Luck to all having their examz!!!!!
P.S.S.: Thank You all!!!! Dudez, Dudettez, Guyz and Galz!!!!!
P.S.S.S: Power Rangers Rulez!!!!!!!!
P.S.S.S.S : Take care all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
P.S.S.S.S.S: Love You dear, Will nv leave u, Will alwayz love u, U'll be in my heart forever....
P.S.S.S.S.S.S: *RrrrrrrrrOooooAAAARRRRrrRRR!!!!!!* Black Dino Thunder Signin Off! Zuuuuuuuuuuupz!!!!!
Tuesday, October 05, 2004
Yoz!!!!!!! Dear Bloggie Spotty..... =D
hehez.... I feeel so happy!!! Tankiew dear!!!! =D
I so so so much love u..... =D
Yesterday was a night to remember..... She pulled me deeper and deeper into her love....
I knew she was the one.... 2 months ago, while i was sound asleep...
I dreamt that i went out with sumone.... I saw her face.......
But I didn't noe her back then... So I was Ignorant....
2 months passed... And i forgot abt dat dream.....
Till I met her..... We went out for the 1st time....
I didn't realise aniting at 1st...... Maybe coz I'm oleady attracted to her....
We had alot of great laughs... We walked here and there....(laughin all d way, hahakz!!!)
There was no words i could use to describe dat day... Simply Wonderful.....
And yes.... Yesterday.....
We talked on the phone.... Tremendously, my temperature rised very quickly....
And I juz talked and talked like no tommorow.... Crack up sum laughs....(hehez....)
Then at night she couldn't use her phone as her brother using... Her dad was on d comp....
So we juz mgz-ed each other.... By that time, my love for her is very strong.....
So i asked her to be my honoured stead.... My heart was beating like a rock band drumset....
And she replied, she said...... YES! =D
It made me jump off my bed in happiness....
I will love her with all my heart as long as i live.... Ur d girl I've been dreaming of.....
Take my hand.... And letz go on dis journey together....
just.... me... and u....;)
U noe hu u r..... hehez.... ;)
hehez.... I feeel so happy!!! Tankiew dear!!!! =D
I so so so much love u..... =D
Yesterday was a night to remember..... She pulled me deeper and deeper into her love....
I knew she was the one.... 2 months ago, while i was sound asleep...
I dreamt that i went out with sumone.... I saw her face.......
But I didn't noe her back then... So I was Ignorant....
2 months passed... And i forgot abt dat dream.....
Till I met her..... We went out for the 1st time....
I didn't realise aniting at 1st...... Maybe coz I'm oleady attracted to her....
We had alot of great laughs... We walked here and there....(laughin all d way, hahakz!!!)
There was no words i could use to describe dat day... Simply Wonderful.....
And yes.... Yesterday.....
We talked on the phone.... Tremendously, my temperature rised very quickly....
And I juz talked and talked like no tommorow.... Crack up sum laughs....(hehez....)
Then at night she couldn't use her phone as her brother using... Her dad was on d comp....
So we juz mgz-ed each other.... By that time, my love for her is very strong.....
So i asked her to be my honoured stead.... My heart was beating like a rock band drumset....
And she replied, she said...... YES! =D
It made me jump off my bed in happiness....
I will love her with all my heart as long as i live.... Ur d girl I've been dreaming of.....
Take my hand.... And letz go on dis journey together....
just.... me... and u....;)
U noe hu u r..... hehez.... ;)
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