Dear Me Myself and most of all, I..

2day, the 27th of March.. Nothing much actually happend la, so as to say... In the morning, I wake up, den couldn't sleep cuz sum "things" were troubling my mind, so i was rolling back and forth in my bed "thinking" of sumone... haiz... anywayz, wen i finally woke up, i went straight to the bathroom and washed myself up. After dat, I got ready for band, I was quite early 2day, as I alwayz like 2 challenge myself to be on the dot for band, i was early cuz i woke early and couldn't stand rolling on my bed for any longer... And so i drank a glass of milo and ate 2 pieces of bread and was set to school...

In school, I went to the music room and looked at the time and found out dat i was 5 mins faster, i thought to myself "well, it would be nice if i was on the dot, but anywayz, juz go for it" so I set-ted up my instrument and set-ted up 4 stands, 3 Tuba stands and 1 music stands, the 3 stands were for my juniors. And guess wat, I tooked out 3 tubas, not including mine, which makes dat 4, my band has onli 5 tubas(i am very tankful for dat), and all 5 are being used dis year... And so my band major told us to settle down as he took our attendance, I was abit worried wen one of my section members didn't come, den her fren came 2 me and told me dat she had excursion, so i was like going to have to teach 3 juniors by myself.... After the attendance have been taken, we were all told to go for our sectionals, b4 I went down for sectionals with my juniors, 2 of my juniors didn't have mouthpiece and one of dem did. So i brought down mine and she brought down hers and the other two juniors juz followed.

And some may ask, wat abt the other 2 tubas? Guess wat, dey were juz left there outside their case in the music room and wy? cuz 2 of the juniors didn't bring their mouthpiece...{-.-''} Well, anywayz, afew minutes later, my ex tuba senior came and i begged him to teach the juniors, and so he brought the 2 juniors up to the music room while i teach one of the junior. This junior can play, but sumtimes forgot the fingering or juz not used 2 it, so I thought to myself, maybe after afew more practices den she would be ok liaoz... I 1st taught her how 2 play the instrument without looking at the notes as it would be easier if she oleady know how 2 play d note and juz play d note wen looking at the note. Well, basicly the junior can play la, she'z a quiet junior and quite easy to follow instructions. Wen i see she was quite tired, i told her dat she could have a 5 mins break and come back to prac, and so she went to get her 5 mins break and I started to practice on my songs...

After 10 mins, I was so shiok playing my tuba, dat i forgot the time, den i say my junior and told her to come back, now, she was refreshed abit and could play abit well, but not as well as the first time cuz i could understand the fatigue dat she'z going thru... I realised that wen ur dealing with sumone else, let it be teaching or listening or talking to sumone, understanding the person plays a vital role in making the right comments and views. So anywayz, since I have been thru the fatigue, I could understand dat the lips get abit sore even though u get a break(try playing the tuba for 45mins continously , datz like 45 times more sore den juz playing in 1 min).

After an hour of practice, with breaks in the middle, my junior has successfully played the b-flat major scale(which is from doh to high doh), I was quite impressed and thought, no wonder the tuba was the easiest to learn. After teaching my junior, I had to go to my sectionals and the juniors go into the music room to have their combine. But my juniors were using my tuba, so i don't have a tuba to prac with, so i went down and saw the clarinet section, I went there and they told me to conduct for dem as nobody was there to conduct, so they played Arioso and Kyklades. I like to listen to dem play, sounds like so natural, and to conduct such piece is so nice. But being a conductor means u got to be very alert with the tempo, a slight increase in speed or decrease will send the whole song crashing on the tempo line.

Then it was time for the main band to go back to the music room and the juniors can go home. The main band was told to move their intruments to the hall as we were going to practice there. I was like, "!!!!!!!" bring the tuba and the case down to the hall... simply craziness... But wat the heck, I juz do it and it was done for. And so...we practiced and we timed how long we played... 1st we played Y.M.C.A. and my lips were like okok ar... and so we moved on to the next piece, which was Arioso, ahhh, Ariosoo, A very very slow moving piece, well, not DAT slow la actually, but alot of high long notes for me, basicly, the longer the not and the slower the music, the longer the piece will end, so while playing this piece, i was going like "wen will this song ever end?????" and so i played till it finished, my lips were starting to get abit tired and sore.

The next song dat we played was Kokomo(or like the way i like 2 say it, "komo komo" which means guggle mouth in malay, hee=P), dis song is quite moderate as it has a latin tempo to it, for the fact dat there were not many different notes to play made it a relaxing piece for me and my lips were starting to re-energise again, we ended the song with a big emphasis. Then the next song, i nv liked was Classical Canon, I had to play from the begining till the end and there was onli 4 bars of rest near the end of the song, I was tinking of "NOT FAIR!!!!" cuz the other parts got alot more rests den we did... And dis song tired my lips quite alot and by the time we finished the song, I was like panting away.. And straight away after dat was Livin' La Vida Loca, hmm, u guyz ever heard from Ricky Martin? No!!!! not the "she bangs, she bangs" dis is the "All side, inside out, i am livin la vida loca...." While playing this song, sumtimes I get too lost with the music dat sumtimes I accidentally get off concerntration. This song helps me to relax abit but my lips are abit still sore..

After dat, it was my favourite song of all the songs, it was Kykládes, This was the very first song that i learned wen I joined the main band in sec 2, and it was the song dat made NASSBAND a gold band in the SYF, I have memorised the song oleady, so i had no problem playing the song without the score, the onli problem is that the instrument I played it with is bigger and much lower the sound. This song has 5 movements but we are onli playing 3 of them which are Paros, Naxos and Santorini, The names are taken from islands in Germany. This song suddenly made a big impact for me last year and so it was close to heart and played this song whole-heartedly. After playing that song, which was a mixture of fast and slow music, we were going to play Soul Bossa Nova, the theme from Austin Powers Movies. This song was the most ok song as I didn't get any effect on my lips after dis song ended.

After dis song was Big Bands Play Folk Songs, this song, is quite recognisable but I don't really remember from where. It has a very nice swing to the song as itz a traditional american song, I usually get lost in the middle wen the Key Signature is changed. This song is very tiring for me, not onli for my lips, but for my breathing, I keep on gasping for air each time i play a note and after dis song ends, I'll look as if i have ran a long distance run around S'pore... And finally, the worse songs of the whole performance, I tink dey should change the name of the song to "I will die" cuz sumtimes we can't complete the song. The song dat we are playing last is "I Will Survive", This song, and summore after a VERY tiring performance, tops the whole performance with the most tiring and wrost songs I've ever played... I've got to do a lot of double-tounging which is very tiring for my lips and tounge and I got to gasp for air all the time which makes me tink am I going to survive after dis whole song.

Well, I can't really rite anyting else, cuz i guess there's noting really to say abt, other den my heart being beaten up like a punching bag.... Well, I hope sumday I'll cheer up and get a move on and better not repeat my mistakes... I hope to see alot of my frenz, my TRUE frenz to show up, so, anywayz, tankz again for reading my blog and I juz wanna tell U guyz how much I appriciate U guyz, tankz again and take care!!! ;)

Dear Me.. Dear dear me...

Ok, today was like d most packed day(i always say packed but there are other days worse den dis)... In the morning, I went for band at 1.45AM, haiz, very tired de.... After dat we had practice.... I practice and practice, no wait, to be precise, b4 i start practicing, i needed to go up and down the stairs 3 times to bring down my 2 stands, my tuba and my score file.... which is like tiring oleady, especially wen i was feeling very tired. But i juz did wat i had to do, DEN i started to practice.... 1st i started with warm up of the 4 scales i have learned, which is B flat major, A-Flat major, C major and E-flat major. Den after dat i started with d songs... and trust me, the songs were not much of an ease, the songs were like so many playing parts and so little rests.... I had to take regular interval 5 mins breaks.... Den after dat we went for combine in the music room, and yes, again i had to take threeeeeeee dreadful times, up and down d stairs..... haiz.... tiring de!!!

Den we played some songs which we were expected to play, den after dat the conductor ask us to play sum old songs, which got me tinking, wy didn't she chose the Simple Gifts.... haiz, my fav songs... hm, anywayz, we played uptown girl, which was a big disaster as I had the baritone sax score...

Anywayz, after band, i and my other LTC group members(anywayz, i am in group 5, and my group name is Tshaka Zulu) went to TM to buy some stuff... well, anywayz, i gtg, continue sum other time, like next 4 days??? Cuz i having a 3 days 2 night camp starting tml.... take care k........ bybyez!!!!

Dear Myself,

Well, I've been trying to be strong these few dayz.. And from the look of my frenz towards me, dey would oleady have guessed there would be something wrong with me.. And i can't really concerntrate much on my studies so the onli way I can relieve myself ish by doing wat i can do, which onli refers to going band...

Anywayz, I'll try to put myself together to fill in my blog for today. Hmm.. Owh yar, I am having a LOONG performance, itz long cuz I've never performed for 45 mins b4 in my life in band, and I am going to perform in Sentosa in front of the musical fountain(Kewlz rite!!!). It would most probably be in the late evening cuz wen we perform, the musical fountain will also display some nice stuff.

We are going to play alot of songs, some very common and popular songs while the others are overtures or very chim songs. The common songs that we are playing are Lemon Tree, I will Survive, Soul Bossa Nova(Austin Power theme song), Livin' La Vida Loca, Y.M.C.A., Its a Big Big World. Then we got some chim easy songs such as Arioso, Theme from New York New York, Kokomo, Enjoy Your Life. Them we got some chim and damn difficult songs such as Bamberg Fantasy, Purgotorio(If we play dis song, sure confirm need a miracle to finish). So in total we are playing 12 songs, which, hopefully will last for more den 45mins.

The lemon tree, for my part I can't seem to get part of the song right, I really need lotz of prac on dat. Whereas the other songs I guess i can handle. Owh yeaz, I forgot, My tuba section rite, last time got onli 2 pple inside, den our conductor emphasized alot on tuba section, den last Saturday, I amazingly got 3 juniors. haha, datz like a relief for me la, cuz like I need 2 train dem, den HOPEFULLY all 5 will stay till next year and support the band in the 2005 SYF!!! Like I believe, We did it once, We are going to do it again, Gold is one step for us, As we got alot to Gain!

Well, I wish i can continue, but sum circumstance juz stopped me, haiz.... well, till next time den, cya all.... tankz for reading my blog.... haiz, I hope my life will change back the way it is.........

Dear Myself,

Elloz once again.... Well, d past few days have been like, d most saddest days of my life. And I really dunno wy... The person I love have been different towards me lately, and, itz really hurting me alot... I wish i could noe wy she'z treating me dis way, it could be my fault too, cuz I haven't been contacting her often, and I wish she would still noe dat I still love her. I really hope we will nv be apart and will go on for a long time together... I juz need her support and understanding, which I have been giving her. I am not trying to make a complain, but I juz hope she could realise how I feel. I know she could be angry with me wen she'z reading dis, and I noe datz cuz she cares abt me... Nurhayati, plz, try to understand wat i am telling u, so dat our love will nv die.... I still feel we can go dat long way of 10 years, but it muz have commitment, time, and the love of u and me...

With dat, I juz would like to wish u a happy 11th months Anniversary, Yati, I love u.....

Dear Myself,

OOOKKKKKK... Haiz... (I guess by my 2nd word u guys noe how i am feeling) Yea, itz d bluesss.... juz wen my life was turning for d good for a change, it juz turned d other way round... It all started on Thursday, during my tution, I got knocked alot of times on the head by my tutor, but datz not all, I did afew mistakes, and the teacher giggled and laughed and me and said "u SURE u wanna take ur "O" level dis year???", and i was like, "YAR???", and he said dat even basic stuff i can't do, which i juz didn't do, and not doing it doesn't mean I didn't noe rite?

Den I juz went on with the tution, Started a new chapter, and I was like half-way dead, and was like trying to keep my brain working for a couple of minutes. And finally, it ended(TANKFULLY). I saw him out of my house and I went straight to my bed, den I remembered to ask my dad 2 sign the LTC consent form, I didn't really checked wen the days were, but wen i flip through and saw d dates, all dat I could tink of was "haiz, jia lat....=(" *because it was 3 days 2 nites, in which b4 dat i have 2 days 1 nite, ans straight away after the 2 days, I have to go straight for d other camp* By then, I was too tired to tink abt it, I juz asked my dad to sign it and was on my bed, I messaged Yati, and soon after dat, she called, den we talk n talk, den i thought i wanted to wait for her n sleep together at d same time, den i juz felt sumting was not right, so i juz said i wanted to sleep.

On friday, I went to school, everyting went pretty fast in school, d 1st period was POA and we practiced abt wat we learned abt Corrections Of Errors, we did d work in the ledger book and as we didn't realise it, the period was over, and so we had HW for d day. After dat was english, haiz, wy does my brain hurtz wen dat english teacher of ours come to our class. Anywayz, English lesson went smoothly and I was relieved. We had our recess and after dat I had Mother Tongue. On mother tongue lesson, the teacher broke us up into 2 groups to debate on a topic which was "to decepline teenagers these days are their parents responsibilities". The 1st group was to agree on the topic and the other group was not to agree on the topic. There were three of us hu did not fall in these two groups, it was me, Shazni and haikal. The three of us had to make a composition of the debate(which I thought was the hardest part as I had to do both the agreeing and disagreeing). Every group member was given 3 minutes to speak and every group had 4 person, and guess wat, to add up to my work, I had to look after the timing. Then the debate started, everyone was VERY anxious, especially because the teacher brought a video recorder with her. The debate was a fierce and violent one, the two groups keep objecting each other, which in turn gave me d headache as to which group was agreeing or disagreeing. In the end of the debate, I managed to write down a full page, with no pharagraph and handwriting like crawling wormz. The other two guys hu were supposed 2 do d same ting juz didn't do aniting for d debate, I was d onli one hu could decide on which group was d most convincing group. Since the group dat disagreed to the topic had more reasons, I declared dem the winner and dey went wild.(manz, dat was one interesting malay period) Soon after, the bell rang and the next period was maths.

During maths period, I learned a new chapter, which was geometrical Transformation. What i can feel from this topic is that itz the worst and hardest chapter in the syllibus. There were 6 kinds of transformation, Rotate, Reflect, Stretch, Shear, sumting and sumting. We onli learned the rotate and strecth, It was very the troublesome, having have to draw alot of dotted lines here and there, I got confused for a while. Then the whole maths period we did reflecting of points and rotations. And soon after dat, d bell rang. After dat, I could go home!!!!!! haha.... anywayz, to be continued(TBC for short) i'll come back and continue next time..... ZUUUUUUUUPPPPZZZZZ!

Dear Myself,

OK, now, My life is getting better each day and i am thankful for it. hehe. Anywayz, I juz wanna start by the whole class having to move down to 1st storey and not have to go to 4th storey everyday anymore!!!!! *Thankz Daryl!!!!! or should I say PAUL!!! for breaking his leg, hehe*

OK, dat was because of going down 2 d 1st storey. And another one ish because my studies have been quite ok(thankfully) haha, I onli feel in my progress test i failed my English and POA, but d rest i tink i can survive. Actually i got all d marks for all subs except for Malay. Anywayz, i juz list my marks la ar...
English: 35/80(I hope my paper 1 pull me up!!!!)
Math: 17/20
Geog: 22/40
Physics: 42/50
Chemistry: 36/50
POA: 28/50
I forgot my SS... but wen i get my Malay together den i will write it down kayz?

Anywayz, I was chosen to go for the Cluster Camp on 15&16 of March!!! YAY!!!! hehe, juz now Kendra keep telling me dat she wanted to go for d camp and we looked d whole school for Mr. Koh cuz she wanted to get into the Cluster Camp but was not chosen, hehe, I feel sooo lucky.... keke, Anywayz, i really hope she could attend for d camp la, cause she die die also wanna come. ok, now, I REALLY CAN'T WAIT FOR D CAMP!!!!! Cuz i like to go for camps, hehe.... Dey are like so nice and fun....

Annnnyywaaaayz, gtg.... take care kayz everyone!!!!!! BybyEz!!!!!! zuuuuuuuUUUuUUuUuuUUuUUUuuupz!!!!!!!