30th december 2003....

elloz everyone out there..., well, basically, i juz wanna write abt dat days performance at SOKA.... at d overall, it reallly was d worst experience i ever got........

D sound for sure did not travel far as i can't even here loud from where i was..... argh, it was like d worst disaster in my performing history..... and as for d whole nite, it was plain boring, didn't understand aniting...

Ellooooz one and alll....

Hm, 2day, 2day was d day... erm, watz dat line, owh yar, 2day rite, i went to d library with my syg..... den we juz talked in d library, had fun.... after dat, we went out, i wanted 2 go TM, to go buy a black shirt, den yar, we went.... den we hold hands walking together.... den after i bought d shirt, i send yati home.... den after dat went to mosque 2 pray, den after dat went homeeeeee...... wah, starting 2 get boring oleady, haha, =P....

Ok, actually d highlight ish tml la.... D SOKA performance at SOKA tampines.... For me, d performance will not be dat difficult la.... but as in d practices, i feel dat d band have been like, haven't been up to standard.... Looking at d SYF which was in july dis year, i wished i was performing with d same bunch of pple, hu really wanted music, hu really appriciated music, not cuz dey were forced 2 or aniting... owh yar, not to mention having a wonderful conductor hu made d magic happend for us... but now, dose bunch of pple are no where in band anymore, and our wonderful conductor hates us...... I hope, wen we perform, and dat our conductor is one of dem hu are in d audience, we can show to her dat we were sorry and regretted our actions, and hence, try 2 recieve us slowly... yes, i agree dat we were rude, but we didn't realised dat till u left, for d past few days of practice, i have been losing touch with music, with no one to guide, yes we do have student conductors, but dey are not proffesionals... I noe.. I noe dat it would be one in a billion chances dat she will read dis, but d band means sumting to me, and if i could, i juz would like 2 see d band together again.....

And with dat, I'll end my entry to here..... wish me luck for tml's performance..... take care everyone....

Dear diary...

Itz raining drizzily outside right now, well, my feelings are sumwhat gloomy...
The feeling of not knowing, the feeling of curiousity.... How shall i find myself, from dis maze of confusion.... Thunder, rages from d sky to earth, my sorrows have always fallen to deaf ears...

Lightning, has blinded me from seeing darkness, but without u, I'll be useless.... We found ourselves, in a weird way i may say, but it doesn't mean we were suppose to be astray... We endure, and we persevere, till now and forever, we'll alwayz be together.......

Itz dark, very dark, though how bright d light shines from the bulb, if i were to ever lose u, my life will nv be lit again...

Cuz, Nurhayati..Ur the love in my life, even though how far we may be from each other, I'll be missing u all d time.... ("(*~.~Taufiq~.~*)") ;-)

Hey there pple....

Well, d last few days have been d worst days for me.... I couldn't explain my feelings, itz like, i miss d only love of my life so much.... even if it has only been 3 days, to me, it seems like 3 months... i can't sleep at nite..... hoping dat she is safe.... now itz d forth day, and she'z burning strongly in my heart..... for i always noe, she will nv leave my heart, and i'll never leave her heart.......