Nobody said it'd be easy.....

Doing work while listening to Sami Yusuf's Make Me Strong. Doakan k.

At the verge of breaking down.

This is new. =) Never have I ever ever slept with my head on my laptop in exhaustion. Never have I ever ever put so much thought before composing something. More importantly, I have never ever written on a subject that I have had zero percent interest in it - politics.

But for His sake, for the sake of the Research Unit, I'll do my best. I fear the possibility that there will be criticism being put on this piece of work I've put so much effort on, but I know that it will be constructive. 

Rabb!

بِيَدِكَ الْخَيْر إِنَّكَ عَلَى كُلِّ شَىْءٍ قَدِيرٌ - تُولِجُ الَّيْلَ فِى الْنَّهَارِ وَتُولِجُ النَّهَارَ فِى الَّيْلِ وَتُخْرِجُ الْحَىَّ مِنَ الْمَيِّتِ وَتُخْرِجُ الَمَيِّتَ مِنَ الْحَىِّ وَتَرْزُقُ مَن تَشَآءُ بِغَيْرِ حِسَابٍ

In Your Hand is the good. Verily, You are able to do all things. You make the night to enter into the day, and You make the day to enter into the night, You bring the living out of the dead, and You bring the dead out of the living. And You give wealth and sustenance to whom You will, without limit

Surah Ali 'Imran, verse 26-27

If Allah with all His greatness can do all these, He can definitely help me through. If Allah sends me somewhere, He'd be there too. I won't ever give up insyaAllah, I still see that littlest hope shining. And as long as I still see the slightest possibility of achievement, I'd never stop fighting. 

I'm not going to let go of the belief that there will be goodness coming out all of these. He promised. And His promise is always true. This, is something I won't ever have to doubt......

Allah is ever Most Gracious, The Most Merciful..... =)

Rabbi yassir, yassir, yassir!

Dia yang Maha Mengetahui

Terlalu sedih.....

Siapa pun yang difitnah akan rasa sedih. 
Iyyaakum wazzhon. Iyyaakum wazzhon..... 
Tapi Allah tahu kan, siapa yang benar? Allah selalu tahu, Dia yang Maha Mengetahui. 

Doakan saya redha.

Terlalu letih sampaikan saya rasa apa yang perlu dikejar cuma pelajaran...

Doakan saya kuat.

Doakan segala yang saya ucapkan, keputusan yang saya pilih... cuma yang terbaik.

Allah dengan segala rahmatNya dah tutup kebanyakan aib saya.

Terasa segan bila di keliling orang sebab terasa mereka semua jauh lebih mulia.

Jai Ho!

I'm not really a fan of Bollywood, but I just discovered that the song Jai Ho from the movie Slumdog Millionaire is Fun for dance workouts! Yes yes, Fun with a capital F! ^__^ I watched the movie 2 years ago, but it didn't cross my mind that I'd do some cardio workouts with it~

Never heard the song before? Ok nah~ ^__^ 

I didn't attempt the dance steps in the music video though, because I always find it hard to pick it up just by watching. Well, maybe it's possible, but it'd take me a long long time. Oh, don't let what I say stop you from trying though! =) But to me, cardio kickboxing workouts do just fine. Pick some routines from Youtube, and just do it in sync with the beat of the song! It'd be great! You'll be smiling throughout the exercise, trust me! ^__^

I have no idea what makes a workout really effective, but I think as long as you're perspiring, feeling the stretches, and having fun fun fun, it'd work and your stamina will increase by time, insyaAllah.

On top of that, crunches and sit-ups are proving to be great. Though after 6 months of in-activeness, I can only do 20+ sit-ups in a minute now. I've been in Singapore for a month and I've lost some weight Alhamdulillah. Am thinking of trying rope jumping! Read somewhere that it's actually a good cardio workout too. Shall update how it goes. =)

Imam Muslim narrated from Abu Hurairah that he mentioned the Prophet s.a.w. once said:

"The strong believer is better and more beloved to Allah than the weak believer, but in each of them there is great goodness. Be full of concern over what benefits you. Seek Allah's help and do not lend yourself to things that are void of benefit."

In the book Syarhul Muslim, Imam Nawawi explains that 'strength' refers to the strength of Imaan. Even so, I feel that being physically strong is also important and good for Muslims. With it, one may feel that it is easier to perform 'ibaadah. Easier to have the drive to study and seek knowledge.  Just don't be like me though. At times I can be very very lazy and I like to play a lot. Mmm. Yes I admit to it. ^__^"

Well, you, me, we can always improve to be better, can't we?

Have fun! But don't forget your priorities alright?

Till later, assalamu'alaikum! =)

Ps: Do the dance workouts at home k? But don't turn on the music too loud until it disturbs your neighbors! =)

Nearly there.

Half of my work is done. Alhamdulillah.

Doakan k! =)

P.s.: I'll be returning to Egypt the end of this month.....

My 26th of February.

Pagi-pagi bila terbangun... terus bersemangat! Apa tidaknya, hari ni nak pergi maulid kat sekolah. Rindu asatizah, rindu kawan-kawan, rindu adik-adik junior... hati berbunga-bunga, terlalu gembira! Dalam bas tak sudah-sudah tersenyum, lagi sikit dah hampir nak ketawa. Tapi nanti orang kata tak siuman... susah juga. Ah. Tahan aje. =) 

Bila dah ternampak kawan dari jauh... terus terketawa! Tak tahan, sungguh. Orang lain yang kat sekeliling kalau mereka betul-betul merasai indahnya ukhuwwah, mungkin akan faham kenapa saya macam gitu. Sekarang pun saya sedang tersenyum! Alhamdulillah. 

Baru 6 bulan tak tatap muka asatizah, tapi terasa macam dah lama... 

"Hei budak azhar!"

"Ustazaaah!"

"Kenapa sejak balik, belum jejak pun sekolah ni? Lambaaat betul!"

"Saje..."

"Apa saje saje??"

"Saje... jadi ustazah merindu saya lebih."

"Eh budak ni..." Ah, ustazah cubit! Hehe.

Pandangan semua yang saya sayang, terlalu mendamaikan..... =)

It's amazing, how one person can look at you and the eyes show so much love. You instantly feel so cherished. It's true, how people say that sometimes love can be felt, even when no words are being uttered. 

Met many people I knew, and hugged a whole lot of people too. It feels nice. Alhamdulillah. A primary school teacher even cried because she didn't think I'd remember her. And I actually thought that she'd be the one who forgot me, after all these years. =') 

Spent the afternoon with my secondary school friends, helping out the school, tidying up the place and having lunch. I wish I had a wonderful vocabulary so that I can describe how especially happy I was on that day. We had fun, teased each other, talked about current issues in Singapore, and caught up with one another. Friends in polytechnic are graduating soon, those in university are feeling the stress being in a higher institution (which I utterly understand) and we even tried to foresee about how the future will probably be like for us. 

I felt a bit reluctant, having to leave them and return home... really. But I know that somehow, we're going to meet again. InsyaAllah. If He wills, everything and anything can happen. =)

I reached home, thinking that I'd have a nice quiet night to myself, like always. But no, for some reason brother had the mood to talk... so he sat in my room, throwing questions about dinosaurs, and went on and on about how flawed the recorded history is. I didn't have the energy and knowledge to debate or to discuss about it thoroughly, so I just listened and wondered how in the world my brother is terribly intelligent. Abaaang~ ;( I wished he would talk about simple simple things like rainbows and butterflies instead...

He got tired of me saying "Oh..." and "Ah..." so he forced me to talk. And so I made a feeble attempt to debate, struggling to construct sentences in English (apparently speaking the language is not my strength). But it was nice just the same. We laughed a lot. Mama and abah came in my room but when they got tired they went out. In the end mama entered the room and talked about the current inflation with abang. She even related it with some verse from surah Yusuf... which I wasn't even familiar with. Hmm. I was the one who went to Egypt for 6 months, but mama seems to be the one who has turned into an ustazah. Ustazah Mama! Ah. ^__^

I watched mama and abang talk. It was funny. Mama speaks in Malay, but abang would reply in English. Abang is weird. Certain days, he'd speak English aaall the way. But certain days, he'd turn into a pure Malay. 

I fell asleep with a smile. My 26th of February, to me, was near perfect. Alhamdulillah. His blessings are abundant... =)