What The FUCKING HELL IS WRONG WITH U PPL??

Today was a ad day at night for me.. Sux sia..
Still prefers hanging out with fwens, esp 4e4 ppl
and TpJc ppl.... Rather than stay at home seeing
TAY faces.. How I wish I wasnt born in that place..
I wanna leave that place... What the hell la!! My Sis talk
cock and scold me everyday, then, mother dun care,
just let her scold.. She is at fault and she still scolds me
for not educating her well enuff.. Alrite enuff, Olrite,
Go fuck urself if u so not happy.. I dun CARE!!!!
The My Mother always sided with her.. WTF..
NBCB, Wat the hell is this.. So tis is the role of a
big brother.. Then I will rather not be one.. Juz shut up all
of u and leave me alone.. Wan Yin also another CB
one.. I bought a total of 13 dollars of econs notes and u
tell me that Juz be cos i "nvr" pay 1 time class fund which I had
paid.. Its all cancelled out.. To hell with u.. Jiak Ling,
dun tink i kidding with u ok?? I not playing with u.. I am serious,
return me my 13 bucks... I dun care... Next time u all wan econs
notes go buy them urselves... I **** hate it man... Tmr, I will tell
t-cher I resign as the Econs rep... Jarelyn will take over instead...
Father only noe how to come back and scold... Wun even forgive me
for the mistakes I made even though I am sick.. WTH..
What's ur prob? Not feeling well?? Had problems in A.management
or was it that u had a big prob??? Wateva, I am not
interested.. Dun make ur prob mine Understand???

jUz intersted with one F****** qn, Wat the hell is
wrong with u all??? Or do u all juz simply find fault with me..??
If so, GO FUCK Urselves I oso dun care, till u die tat is...

Anger: 2nd Max
Status:unhealthy-fever, Headache, running nose, cough, St ache..
Lv of endurance: At Max
Reminder... Juz 1 more person who aggiates me, I will WHACK
that person upside down...I dun care if u are my good friends, running
down with exceptions to KW and Willy ONLY!!!! remember, U all
forced me to who I am todae... I juz dun wanna hear anymore of those crap that
u gave me.. Juz in case,Olrite, remeber it, All, DUn make ur prob,
mIne Olrte???!!!! NBCB

Labels:2nd degree anger(overheated)

Dotz

Haha.. Back to blogging.
hope this post is sucessful.
Well, I have been like
in TPJC for 2 weeks le in JAE
and I love that place so much
but the only hasle is in the CCA.
I have been faring badly in GP.
Cant do well at all. Dun noe why
also. Hah, then in school,
the only JYSS friends that
would be talking to me is
Timothy, Liyi, Najihah and AK.. XK and
the rest like see me like act nvr see
like that.. Nvm lahx. Go there
is study one. Well, meet new
friends. To all JC and Poly
and ITE friends, school start le,
muz get ready and be serious le,
Unlike me, still like over there,
relax 1 corner. Cant be serious
at all.. BTW, I noe that there is a
4e4 outing or BBQ sort of thing.
To all 4e4, I may not able to go
cos the choir may go for competition
or some impt practices, so I cant
give an answer.. So maybe tats
all. FiEx signing out..

TPJC

Haha.. I have sucessfully appealed
to TPJC. Have a couple of them
that I know. Theres Jacob, Xu kang,
Najihah, Timothy,Jackson and
Liyi. Hahs, some friends from
JYSS. Well, I am hoping to have
a fruitful 2 years in this school.
But in other words, the next yr
is the A levels for me, just like
when I was a sec3 students in 2005.
Well, that may be all. maybe blog
next time.

Bad...

haiz... Got posted to
Yishun JC... Sianz.. Got 14
pts and then cannot go
Tpjc.. all Ex jyss sucessful
but only me.. Haha.. See
how first... Have to appeal
back here... Using choir maybe..

ToDaE..

Hello, I am back to blogging
today. Well, managed to
kick the habit of placing 3 dots
behind the every sentences
I wrote about. Wrote that in GP,
then was reprimanded over this
mistake. Well, Let's look at the
time now, its 12. I am still
awake. Should have been sleeping
by now. Oh yes, 4E4 now starts to
call me xi xing yan jiu. Wow, I
love that name man. Haha! What
a great name. Thanx YH for
giving me that name. Saw him
today with ZL and ZM when I was
chatting away with SK and Jack.

Count down to O-levels results
starting in 5 days. I will blog
almost everyday to maintain the
countdown. Then next, will have
to wear our school uniform to
school to collect our results. Sort
of like getting more worried
than ever. Also ge to see my old
bunch of 4e4, otherwise who
called me xi xing yan jiu. Haha.
Maybe that's all for today.

FieryEx.= Xi xing yan jiu + Unappreciative

Nice equation rite?? Haha. Try and solve for
x.

Life so far...
Hmm, Lets see, I haven't been
blogging for so long le, Didn't
know why I intended to blog...
Haha, I haven't found anything
much livelier than in TPJC..
Let's say, I am quite happy there
as I have the accompany of
Jackson, Ihsan... My civics group
is quite great... Recently,
we even formed a DEMOCRATIC
alliance of boys in class..
Haha, saw 1 of my pri. school
mate there... Haha, Seems like
I almost broke off my contacts
with 4E4.. Well, I don't care about
what's really happening now...
Seems like some 4E4 is really
anti me now... Haha, what can
I do?? doesnt matter then... I
can't believe, I was never sad ever
since 2007 started...

Next, another of my concern is about the
O-levels results that I am about to get
back soon... I bet I sure hit above 20 points..
yesterday, I did some calculations
out of worry, 13 minimum, 27 maximum..
This is really a scary thought to me...
But whatever my results is, I do not intend to
open up the envelope till I reach home...
Haha, don't know why... Maybe because
I scared... That will mark the end of today..

Fiery existence is now feeling very
afraid... Recently, the more he doesnt want
to get back the O levels result...

Labels:Daily

DIGUSTED BY IT....

Willy, this is the 2nd post that I
am suposed to write yesterday..
And this post is partially dedicated
to you... Let me begin my diary
about you...

Right,Willy, the reason why I wrote
this is just to take out the fury and
stress within this matters with you and
Kok Wei...

Firstly, Willy, what's just the problem
with you??? Why is it that when I
am with you, I can never resolve
all the problems??? After I solve
one, I will have to solve another one..
It just comes so soon... What I do
is always against you and KW...
Am I the problem or the both of
you??? What mustI do to please,
or rather, Pacify you all so as to
stop all these nonsensical issues
once and for all??? You know I
am currently so irritated by the
way you work things out!! I know
that you were a precious friend, but
soon, when I started knowing and
discovering some horrible truths
about you, I was like unable to
believe it... Why have you chosen to
be my friend in this very first place???
Did you know how much I suffered
due to you??? Man I mean like, What's
the matter with you?? Now,I
shall list out all the problems with you..

1) Blocking saturdays for commitment
Now, regarding this factor, I am sensing
that this is definitely the reason why you tell
so much about losing your friend, which
is me.. I told you I was unable to, but you
kept convincing me to say yes... Still,
you ask me 1000 times, I will still say NO...
Why?? simply I cannot promise that I am
always free for you all... I cannot be selfish
as to block all my friends on Saturdays just for
you two... Don't you think this is a lil
too self-centred??? Honestly, Kok Wei
supports you as he is more SHUI BIAN
and can follow suit, but I am not
him!! Kok wei felt more affinity between you
and him...Weren't you 2 alone better???
Since hes the soul-mate and everytime,
hes the better one... Seriously, dont be
too selfish.. I know that you 2 were my true
friends, but why must you come up with
these things to make my life difficult???
You told me it was to bond and commit,
But seriously, I think they dont really help
much... If I were you, I will give the friend
some time to blend with his new batch of
friends first, then I step in... But still, during
that mingling period, We can still interact what?
Right??? So, the catch in this is that when
he has his so called friends, I'm sure that
if I were you, I will though remeber the
new friends, but will still keep the rest of our 2 ppl
, Eugene and Kok Wei in my mind.. I am sure
the all 3 of us have that as a basis...telling myself that
hey, Eugene and Kw is still my best friend...
That's it... My suggestion i there... I have no
attempt of criticising you... If I did,
then you are too serious minded and sensitive...

2) Picking free time out
Now, I believe that last 2 to 3 days ago,
you asked me if I were able to sacrifice time
just to meet up with you all... Sowhat???
you and KW can, then I cannot?? and thats
suppose to be our difference in commitment??
Well, Willy, My english may be lousy, but in
logical sense, but not language sense, I do
know about commitment... In a tied string,
rather, strong friendship, I will even dare to
tell you that Commitment do not exist in my
piece of friendship bank... What do you
think we created a 3 man for?? for fun?? no..
Why do commitment have to be in your
sense of friendship??? Tell me also, why
should I have even taken time out of NO
time due to some busy work just to be
with you all??? If you were in a true friend's
rule of hand, You will be understanding
enough to withstand the temporary lonesome
days and then also not bother him/ her
since they are busy!!! And not bother
them, and WEI NAN(make things difficult)
for them!!! Rather, you can also arrange
for a time to help this busy friend so as
to SEE that friend... Help as in assist in
the work so that it takes lesser time...
That's something more realistic, Isn't it??
Of all great choices for you to choose, you
must choose the most impulsive and
childish thing to do. Why childish?? Willy,
ask yourself honestly, how many times
have you questioned my loyalty to
you and to Kok wei??? next, proceed to asking
yourself why have you always ask for
me and Kw's company for almost
24/7??? This is in line with a child always
begging for the mother's company even
with the mother's working/busy...
Sometimes willy, Friendship is just a
simple thing... Not too much is needed..
If you were to question me about
how to not get complicated when we have diff
interests which is not easy to bond with,
then let me answer you. If you do
not have a mindset of it being complicated,
everything will resolve by itself..
In chinese, we call it YING REN ER JIE..
Also, to a friend, or rather, a companion,
who told you that you will have to see
him/her to keep contact and manage the
bond??? You could be able to talk thru
phone, or if a friend tells you he is busy,
then stop irritating him for after he finz
everything that hes gotta do, he will go back
to you!!Right?? sometimes, You dont
need to think with the state of minds,
you use your heart to feel and to think...
If you believe that your friend's is
important to you, and also that you know
you cherish them, then, all thinking
about them in the heart is also sufficient.

Well, at least in one page of my life,
i do have an inequality,

SIMPLICITY > COMPLEXITY

Why bother to do something complex,
when you can do it easy???

Willy, I am appreciative of your
warm approach to giving your best
as a good friend, but, never theless,
do not be overly passionate about it..
As you have heard, too many cook,
spoils the broom...

HIGH AMOUNTS is not = to Good ending

Each time, over small little details, you will
write in your blog that you have lost me
as a friend... Think through things... Rersolve
them.. If cannot be done, then label its
result as Non-applicable, like what you did
in maths...

UNderstand?? I have said enough already...
What I will need to say, have almost been emptied..
If you felt a need to break up this friendship
with me so that your SOULMATE dominates
this, then, so be it... I will treat it as pre-destined
by GOD!!! But believe me, at the end of the day,
you are the one who have chosen it, not me!
Choose wisely, self reflect, if you must, I am prepared
for the worst case scenario... Remember,
Friends cannot be easily replaced by
even someone so identical... Even if it means 99.9%
similar... Remember, everyone has theirv own
unique traits to attract you... What I am trying
to tell you is, Not even any one in this
world can replace this angered and obese:
EUGENE TAY YONG KANG!!!

GET IT????


The fiery existence has just burst into flames...
What should he do now??? Wait for an answer..

Labels: self reflective