What a great year indeed! With 2 semesters with good results, and getting the fyp that I want, by getting SINGLE-listed from all the rest after submitting my proposal on pangolins. That was success I felt. And this semester's result is so good. GPA from Year 1 Sem 1 to Year 4 Sem 1: 3.08, 2.99, 3.13, 2.88, 3.83, 4.08, 4.7.  Freaking 4.7. That is some climb. But, it felt like I had this planned right from the start, do well right at the end and try to get at least 2nd lower class. so now, I'm at 3.49, just 0.01 away from a 2nd lower... Sigh, the only question is, why didnt I do better during my first two years in Uni. Would it still be the same if I had the chance to relive those years? Guess it would be, as I still hate those modules that I hated. But then again, if I had been more awake those first 2 years of my uni life, I could have done better. Much, much better. Yes I was hibernating in 2008 and 2009. I was childish, and unaware. Well now... I still am... but trying to improve. And to grow up. Seriously, need to grow up. Yes! FYP in 2012! I HAVE TO GET MY A! Work hard Richalynn, and work smart.

New year resolutions....
Learn to love.
Learn to be confident.

Thats what I really need for the better of the rest of my life.

Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!

Really can't trust my heart.

What do I feel? How to love? 

Numbed. I just wanna go away.

Just want the truth from myself. What is it? Cant I face it?

2 more days and I'm off to Guangzhou. Or Zhongshan, where my aunt lives. Hopefully it'll be a good holiday with dad and aunt. And of course with d later on. Kind of exciting because its visiting a new place. But then shouldnt expect too much or think that it'll be real fun, because with no expectations comes no disappointments. Oh yes how pessimistic to live life by this... motto. But... it's kinda true sometimes.. most of the time. But.. shouldnt indulge myself...

I'm such a stay home person nowadays! I actually avoid going out. Probably being anti-social right now... How did i spend my holiday? Reading, cleaning my room, re-watching movies, taking care of my pets, yoga, weekends with mum and charlynn, spending a lot of time with d, ran 42km, climbed 63 storeys, watched lion king musical, occasional outing with some people... And I'm contented, safe...

Super passive mode now.

Today I found a new pet, the rhino beetle! I've seen these beetles land on Blk 426 a few times before, since its a hilly forest just across the road from here. I dunno why they like to fly here. Many buggies love to end up in Blk 426. Coolest so far are the praying mantises and the rhino beetles. Pretty moths are also not a rare sight. I so love my home. Anway today is the first time I am keeping this cute beetle! Now its happily settled in a small container with soil, twigs, longan, a piece of apple, and water. Okay maybe its not so happy since its hanging on the cover right now finding a way out? Anyway some pictures of it from my not so great phone camera.

 Found it on the floor...

 Closer look.

 As if a greeting from him.

 A wee bit clumsy, and cant seem to flip himself over. 

 Moved it to a plant

 Taken with flash now. Very beautiful creature!

Dusty back...

Nice horns.

Front view

New home!

Happily munching on my longans

And now its struggling to get out! Since its so strong, able to carry things 250 times its own weight, lets see him lift up the lid. 

One by one, off they go. 

And yes, I'm probably just not interested at all. But, I believe in phases, and this is just one of them.

shall i start blogging again?

hahhaa recess week now. 2011 now. march now. what the hell is going on?

still searching.... still finding...

but what?