OMG it's the last day of the holidays!!! and tomorrow's chinese paper and listening comprehension. i didnt really prepare.. just read through the texts. i hope that helps! anyway just gonna try my best.. i hope it's not gonna be so so so tough.
today was really nice. went studying with weixing and tianbee! hahah. quite unsuccessful.. again. haha. we started chatting and doing other stuffs. like that suduko thing. how do you spell that! omg. and i read my comic. I LOVE!!!!! it's some gay comic and it's making me melt. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. then after tt we went for an early dinner. like at 5pm. went back to study and we started to chat! like so fun! we talked about good old times in primary school. and about life now. it's like some heart to heart conversations. at least i managed to pour out some of my feelings. and... they too. and i realise actually. yeah. THINGS AINT THAT BAD AFTER ALL. omg i'm such a fool i should know that! hhahaha. how many times do i want this thing to happen. anyway.... it was like so heartwarming. hahahah. love them both so much! 10 years of friendship. lol. then we were like talking about the future. talking about relationships. hahhhhaha. aiya. yeah. i just hope, this will continue.
term 3. 2 months. please let it end quick!!! hahaha. i just cant cant cant wait for Alevels to end. but this shouldnt be. hahah. i shld like enjoy every moment of life. and make everything count.
hai! i got so much to say. but dunno what to say.
good night!
good life.
BE nice.
Sunday, June 25, 2006
Thursday, June 22, 2006
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
sianZ.
just when things are going fine and up, wtf once again upset. disappointed.
the worst thing that is gonna happen is that i'll hate myself all over again and get into the freaking low self-esteem state. ARGH. what the heck is wrong with me?!?!?!
i'm sorry but it just gets me down down down down DOWN!
i need counselling.
just feel so freaking
L
O
U
S
Y
.
and like i dont belong anywhere.
i dont know. i really dont know.
this is not what i wanna be. but it just so happens it's in me. drilled into me.
i really dont want. what am i suppose to do? where am i suppose to start?
sigh... i think i'm EMOGALX.
damn it la..............................
sigh!
so the thing is, i should just concentrate on my abilities. and heck about the rest. yes. good.
FEAR=fuck everything and run.
anyway. just came back from the odac gathering not long ago.. it was at min qi's house. was pretty fun. there's this potluck thing, so everybody brought their own food. i brought fruits! haha. and then val and me arrived early at her house. and we jsut sat around.. and listened to the exco discuss the farewell thing. and it sounds really nice and fun!! it's gonna be so touching i think the j1s will cry as well. ahhahaha. what else.. we just sat around.. at the pool there. and discuss some odac stuffs. and played truth or dare. hahahaha. had some laughs.. and yeah.. just relaxing. went home at about 11. with abu. chatted and stuff. ya then reached home.
this morning had piano lesson. and i got my grade 4 books already! oh my so exciting. haha. cant wait to play. exams next march! around 7 months.. should be enough. hahahaha.
and yesterday.. tuesday.. weixing and tian bee came over to my house to study. was quite successful for me. haha. finished 2 chaps of bio. and then went out for lunch.. came back and continued studying. at night went to west mall for dinner and watched silent hill!! so nice! it's quite scary. and interesting story. hahah. then went home... and watched tv. and fell asleep on the sofa.
MONDAY. had our jog recce! was quite enjoyable. yumin, val, lester and me started walking from school to botanic gardens. super tiring. we like took some wrong paths and yeah. it was a very long distance. we took a break at balmoral plaza there. then continued... and finally reached. at the eco gardens, was really nice! peaceful and pretty. with many pigeons around. and 4 black swans who came out of the pond to eat grass. ahhaha. so not afraid of humans. very nice la... while the 3 of them went to walk the stone path, i just sat there and like listened to the sounds and just stare at the nice view. yumin, val and me also played with the pigeons and swans. so nice! plus both of them going high during the walk. that dog scene was hilarious la.. both their reactions.. lol. and then................ after botanic gardens.. 3 of us went to bugis. to eat and walk around and shop. that cafe v8 is nice! cheap and everything. the taste part is good, but they should seriously do something about improving the looks of their food. my spaghetti looked like LS, and val's seafood something looked like puke. haha. yumin's nearly looked like blood. oh man. hahahah. had a nice time walking around with them. loves.
hahahah. so three days gone for the last week. chinese not touched. exam on monday.
hai! term 3. so before common test is over. time is quite relaxing. no odac. break on certain days. should have time for studying and piano. perhaps touching up on the proposal. and other stuff... like FITNESS. still havent jogged until now. SHIT.
after common test.... WOAH HO. busy busy busy. monday tuesday. go library study geog for h1 exam! also must go home practise piano. wednesday odac. thurs piano lesson. fri odac.
aiya what crap.
zou yi bu, suan yi bu.
please.
just when things are going fine and up, wtf once again upset. disappointed.
the worst thing that is gonna happen is that i'll hate myself all over again and get into the freaking low self-esteem state. ARGH. what the heck is wrong with me?!?!?!
i'm sorry but it just gets me down down down down DOWN!
i need counselling.
just feel so freaking
L
O
U
S
Y
.
and like i dont belong anywhere.
i dont know. i really dont know.
this is not what i wanna be. but it just so happens it's in me. drilled into me.
i really dont want. what am i suppose to do? where am i suppose to start?
sigh... i think i'm EMOGALX.
damn it la..............................
sigh!
so the thing is, i should just concentrate on my abilities. and heck about the rest. yes. good.
FEAR=fuck everything and run.
anyway. just came back from the odac gathering not long ago.. it was at min qi's house. was pretty fun. there's this potluck thing, so everybody brought their own food. i brought fruits! haha. and then val and me arrived early at her house. and we jsut sat around.. and listened to the exco discuss the farewell thing. and it sounds really nice and fun!! it's gonna be so touching i think the j1s will cry as well. ahhahaha. what else.. we just sat around.. at the pool there. and discuss some odac stuffs. and played truth or dare. hahahaha. had some laughs.. and yeah.. just relaxing. went home at about 11. with abu. chatted and stuff. ya then reached home.
this morning had piano lesson. and i got my grade 4 books already! oh my so exciting. haha. cant wait to play. exams next march! around 7 months.. should be enough. hahahaha.
and yesterday.. tuesday.. weixing and tian bee came over to my house to study. was quite successful for me. haha. finished 2 chaps of bio. and then went out for lunch.. came back and continued studying. at night went to west mall for dinner and watched silent hill!! so nice! it's quite scary. and interesting story. hahah. then went home... and watched tv. and fell asleep on the sofa.
MONDAY. had our jog recce! was quite enjoyable. yumin, val, lester and me started walking from school to botanic gardens. super tiring. we like took some wrong paths and yeah. it was a very long distance. we took a break at balmoral plaza there. then continued... and finally reached. at the eco gardens, was really nice! peaceful and pretty. with many pigeons around. and 4 black swans who came out of the pond to eat grass. ahhaha. so not afraid of humans. very nice la... while the 3 of them went to walk the stone path, i just sat there and like listened to the sounds and just stare at the nice view. yumin, val and me also played with the pigeons and swans. so nice! plus both of them going high during the walk. that dog scene was hilarious la.. both their reactions.. lol. and then................ after botanic gardens.. 3 of us went to bugis. to eat and walk around and shop. that cafe v8 is nice! cheap and everything. the taste part is good, but they should seriously do something about improving the looks of their food. my spaghetti looked like LS, and val's seafood something looked like puke. haha. yumin's nearly looked like blood. oh man. hahahah. had a nice time walking around with them. loves.
hahahah. so three days gone for the last week. chinese not touched. exam on monday.
hai! term 3. so before common test is over. time is quite relaxing. no odac. break on certain days. should have time for studying and piano. perhaps touching up on the proposal. and other stuff... like FITNESS. still havent jogged until now. SHIT.
after common test.... WOAH HO. busy busy busy. monday tuesday. go library study geog for h1 exam! also must go home practise piano. wednesday odac. thurs piano lesson. fri odac.
aiya what crap.
zou yi bu, suan yi bu.
please.
Wednesday, June 14, 2006
she's the man!
lol. great show. daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaamnn funny!!!! and the love story is so sweet. haha. and the main guy character, duke! damn handsome!!!! ahahahha. anyway. today. went out with amirul, jx and zul. to town. watched the movie. i planned to study. and as expected. sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i only did one maths question. what the fuckkkkkk??? hahahahhaa. sianZ. i'll try my best tomorrow, overnight studying with jx and sean and melvin. please!
hahahahha so i'm tagged by yumin to do the perfect lover thing. i've done it before!! but i dont mind typing it out again. lol.
gender: guy.
1. SPORTY. hahaha. like, loves adventure, and playing sports and stuff. gotta be fit.
2. musically inclined. if he's a pianist, i'll just die.
3. clean!! hahahaha.
4. nice and open. not too serious. funny. a little of laid-back attitude is good!! haha.
5. sensitive and understanding.
6. generous.
7. pleasant-looking. taller than me.
8. love me!
hahaha. the list goes on la..... hahaha.
shall go study chinese now. =(
hahahahha so i'm tagged by yumin to do the perfect lover thing. i've done it before!! but i dont mind typing it out again. lol.
gender: guy.
1. SPORTY. hahaha. like, loves adventure, and playing sports and stuff. gotta be fit.
2. musically inclined. if he's a pianist, i'll just die.
3. clean!! hahahaha.
4. nice and open. not too serious. funny. a little of laid-back attitude is good!! haha.
5. sensitive and understanding.
6. generous.
7. pleasant-looking. taller than me.
8. love me!
hahaha. the list goes on la..... hahaha.
shall go study chinese now. =(
Sunday, June 11, 2006
love, me.
someone please sing that song for me!
haha. sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo one darn week is gone. oh man. oh shit! 2 weeks left. studies untouched. i tried okay.... but it's always falling asleep. at home sleep. in the library also sleep.
anyway! this whole week. what have i done. k box, iceskating, studying at esplanade library, tent washing, yu min's house, piano lessons, small outings, west mall esplanade west mall west mall west mall JE. okay that's all i remember. met up with a few good old friends. MISS YOU PEOPLE. sigh.
and then............. where's the "read newspaper everyday", "read one GP article everyday", "go jogging", "exercise at home". ARGH. and i've been snacking a lot. i've to stop!!!! that time was 3 mcflurries in 4 days. after that was eating all sorts of crap. and fast food. long john silver a million times.
next week onwards. NO JUNK FOOD. READ NEWSPAPER. GO JOGGING. PRACTISE PIANO HARD. STUDY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
oh my god my teacher is upgrading me to grade 4! so cool can can can can can. i know it's gonna be tough. but well................. i've got the power!
and i got freaking distinction for grade 5 theory!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
thanks.
and then now got to do proposal writing! sounds fun! saints odac jog. hahaha so cool!
ODAC all the way!!!!!!!!!!!!!
self-reflection- i'm getting way too rude. stop it.
haha. sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo one darn week is gone. oh man. oh shit! 2 weeks left. studies untouched. i tried okay.... but it's always falling asleep. at home sleep. in the library also sleep.
anyway! this whole week. what have i done. k box, iceskating, studying at esplanade library, tent washing, yu min's house, piano lessons, small outings, west mall esplanade west mall west mall west mall JE. okay that's all i remember. met up with a few good old friends. MISS YOU PEOPLE. sigh.
and then............. where's the "read newspaper everyday", "read one GP article everyday", "go jogging", "exercise at home". ARGH. and i've been snacking a lot. i've to stop!!!! that time was 3 mcflurries in 4 days. after that was eating all sorts of crap. and fast food. long john silver a million times.
next week onwards. NO JUNK FOOD. READ NEWSPAPER. GO JOGGING. PRACTISE PIANO HARD. STUDY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
oh my god my teacher is upgrading me to grade 4! so cool can can can can can. i know it's gonna be tough. but well................. i've got the power!
and i got freaking distinction for grade 5 theory!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
thanks.
and then now got to do proposal writing! sounds fun! saints odac jog. hahaha so cool!
ODAC all the way!!!!!!!!!!!!!
self-reflection- i'm getting way too rude. stop it.
Monday, June 05, 2006
hua ren!
hahaha. hey. oh man i feel like typing out everything that happened during LTC and the mt ophir trip. but shiiiiiiittt still got gp essay to do.. gotta hand it up tomorrow. SIAN. but oh well.
anyway... this 1 week was terribly awesome. haha. first was the LTC.
i definitely had great fun. learnt quite a lot of stuffs. like being a better leader, a better person, accepting others.. bla bla.. it lasted for 4 days.. had it in jalan bahtera. nice place. with quite comfortable sleeping areas and nice toilets. so.. first day was like.. we met in the trophy room in school.. briefing and stuff.. then went to east coast park to cycle! hahahaha. was quite alright. actually quite boring.. but with wei hao and yu da in our group.. singing and singing.. definitely a good source of entertainment.. so we cycled to the end and back.. anyway in my group! group 2! geok hian, clarice, xiuhui, wei hao and yu da! plus me. hahahaha. got to know them so much more during this camp. which is really wonderful. and then jesse and amos and liping as our group advisors.. sooooo nice as well. count my lucky stars. there were 4 goups anyway. haha. so after the cycling.. we made our way to jalan bahtera.. by that time it was already at night.. then dinner and stuff.. family time.. and then sleep!
second day.. HIGH ELEMENTS. haha. was super looking forward to it. loving heights la i.. haha. so.. we learnt about wearing the harnesses and helmets.. plus belaying techniques.. kelvin was teaching us.. then we got to practise for a while. after that.. the real thing started. each group to one station.. then one of us in our group had to teach the rest on how to climb the thing.. i only got to try 2 of the stations! sadness. one was broken bridge, and the rock wall thing. super fun. haha. during that rock wall one, i had to like stop mid way, and shout " wo shi hua ren!" for everyone to hear. hahahahahahhahahaha. so they loled. i looked like a malay, so that was my forfeit. haha. anyway.. i lead mine quite well i guess.. according to amos. no elaboration. :( no time la. hahaha. after this activity was...... knot tying! nothing much, just learnt how to tie the various knots. 8 of them i think. then after that.. raft building.. group 1 and 2 combined while 3 and 4 combined. each group built one raft. my group... hahahah quite unsuccessful.. didnt have a proper plan.. so didnt built a good one.. then we made our way to the sea. human sushi!!!! ahahahahhahahahha oh my god super duper fun! like, form two rows, face each other, grab hands and form a dunno-whats-it-called. then pass the person and get dunked at the end. HEHE. loved that. haha. rafting competition after that. then kayaking! fun fun fun fun fun. i partnered with geok. and we kayaked together. haha. damn cool. then dinner. proposal writing lecture. writing a night cycling proposal. family time. sleep!
3rd day! team building games for the whole day. had fun playing them. and had many things to learn from my peers leading the station game. many many many. plus group 2 and 4 combined to play together, so... had a very special person around all the time. lol. anyway. yeah.. when it was my turn to lead the group for my game "acid river", super scared and stressed out. but turned out good after all. hahahaa i'm glad.. plus it's him who was accessing me! oh my. double joy. yeah.. then geok hian said it was my game tt really bonded the group together. thanks loads.. really really encouraging.. hahahahaha.
after all these games, EGG AUCTION! hahahahah. super funny! chang dee and amos were the emcees again. anyway my group won the "thanks for your effort" price LOL. obviously lost terribly. haha. each group was suppose to build an egg catcher.. catch the egg thrown from like the second floor. haha. before that had to auction for the items we want to use to build this dumb thing. and....... we didnt manage to get what we want! so we made do with what we had. hahahaha. failure big time. but it's alright! moments spent with my team mates count more. after that. dinner, proposal presentation, showed us last year's night cycling proposal done by the j2s.. family time.. then slept! it was the last night. felt quite she bu de.. aww.
last day.. had team building games again.. then area cleaning.. cleaned the toilets and stuff.. packed our bags. had our last lunch, then set off, back to school. did some stall checks. family time then home. at night had odac outing! haha. went to eat at seoul garden. bought our food for mount ophir too. so much fun. then geok wei hao and me went to chit chat at macs.
anyway.......... this whole camp. so much to learn and reflect on. one most important thing is that i've become a more confident person. i should really constantly tell myself that there is nothing to fear. NOTHING. and that i've got a whole lot to prove about myself. haha.
and! mount ophir!! oh man.. so lazy to elaborate on stuffs. i just realised i love climbing mountains. cause i love heights. and it goes on higher and higher. so it was like a four day thing. morning met in tanjong pagar railway station. took the train to malaysia. then took bus to the mountain. started climbing to checkpoint 4. camped there for the night. 2nd day went up to the summit. was a nice place! though the view was not very wow. but still, it's the summit! going up was physically tiring. going down was super not tiring at all, but damn dangerous. tricky. and i love it. hahahahah. there was this part.... OH MY GOD. had to climb up this slanted piece of rock using the ropes. halfway turn back and look. it's really, screams! the view was damn nice!!! and you will feel like you're on top of the world. hahahaha. i enjoyed that part the most most most most most. anyway.. at the summit. we took lots and lots of pictures. and had lunch. and
i
took
a
picture
with
him.
dies.
hehehhehehehe. and then went back all the way down to our base camp. rested for the night. next day went back down to the foot. took bus back. had lunch. walked to a hotel. checked in. had a great shower. dinner and shopping at night. had an enjoyable night with some of the girls. and guys. haha. slept and next morning train and reached singapore.
ahhahaha went home and rushed to BBSS. alumni performance. 2oth anniversary. was alright la.. the food was great. ahhaha. anyway i'm so sleepy now. still have to do compo. SHIT. OUT. LOUD.
good night!
happy holidays.
happy studying.
happy missing.
anyway... this 1 week was terribly awesome. haha. first was the LTC.
i definitely had great fun. learnt quite a lot of stuffs. like being a better leader, a better person, accepting others.. bla bla.. it lasted for 4 days.. had it in jalan bahtera. nice place. with quite comfortable sleeping areas and nice toilets. so.. first day was like.. we met in the trophy room in school.. briefing and stuff.. then went to east coast park to cycle! hahahaha. was quite alright. actually quite boring.. but with wei hao and yu da in our group.. singing and singing.. definitely a good source of entertainment.. so we cycled to the end and back.. anyway in my group! group 2! geok hian, clarice, xiuhui, wei hao and yu da! plus me. hahahaha. got to know them so much more during this camp. which is really wonderful. and then jesse and amos and liping as our group advisors.. sooooo nice as well. count my lucky stars. there were 4 goups anyway. haha. so after the cycling.. we made our way to jalan bahtera.. by that time it was already at night.. then dinner and stuff.. family time.. and then sleep!
second day.. HIGH ELEMENTS. haha. was super looking forward to it. loving heights la i.. haha. so.. we learnt about wearing the harnesses and helmets.. plus belaying techniques.. kelvin was teaching us.. then we got to practise for a while. after that.. the real thing started. each group to one station.. then one of us in our group had to teach the rest on how to climb the thing.. i only got to try 2 of the stations! sadness. one was broken bridge, and the rock wall thing. super fun. haha. during that rock wall one, i had to like stop mid way, and shout " wo shi hua ren!" for everyone to hear. hahahahahahhahahaha. so they loled. i looked like a malay, so that was my forfeit. haha. anyway.. i lead mine quite well i guess.. according to amos. no elaboration. :( no time la. hahaha. after this activity was...... knot tying! nothing much, just learnt how to tie the various knots. 8 of them i think. then after that.. raft building.. group 1 and 2 combined while 3 and 4 combined. each group built one raft. my group... hahahah quite unsuccessful.. didnt have a proper plan.. so didnt built a good one.. then we made our way to the sea. human sushi!!!! ahahahahhahahahha oh my god super duper fun! like, form two rows, face each other, grab hands and form a dunno-whats-it-called. then pass the person and get dunked at the end. HEHE. loved that. haha. rafting competition after that. then kayaking! fun fun fun fun fun. i partnered with geok. and we kayaked together. haha. damn cool. then dinner. proposal writing lecture. writing a night cycling proposal. family time. sleep!
3rd day! team building games for the whole day. had fun playing them. and had many things to learn from my peers leading the station game. many many many. plus group 2 and 4 combined to play together, so... had a very special person around all the time. lol. anyway. yeah.. when it was my turn to lead the group for my game "acid river", super scared and stressed out. but turned out good after all. hahahaa i'm glad.. plus it's him who was accessing me! oh my. double joy. yeah.. then geok hian said it was my game tt really bonded the group together. thanks loads.. really really encouraging.. hahahahaha.
after all these games, EGG AUCTION! hahahahah. super funny! chang dee and amos were the emcees again. anyway my group won the "thanks for your effort" price LOL. obviously lost terribly. haha. each group was suppose to build an egg catcher.. catch the egg thrown from like the second floor. haha. before that had to auction for the items we want to use to build this dumb thing. and....... we didnt manage to get what we want! so we made do with what we had. hahahaha. failure big time. but it's alright! moments spent with my team mates count more. after that. dinner, proposal presentation, showed us last year's night cycling proposal done by the j2s.. family time.. then slept! it was the last night. felt quite she bu de.. aww.
last day.. had team building games again.. then area cleaning.. cleaned the toilets and stuff.. packed our bags. had our last lunch, then set off, back to school. did some stall checks. family time then home. at night had odac outing! haha. went to eat at seoul garden. bought our food for mount ophir too. so much fun. then geok wei hao and me went to chit chat at macs.
anyway.......... this whole camp. so much to learn and reflect on. one most important thing is that i've become a more confident person. i should really constantly tell myself that there is nothing to fear. NOTHING. and that i've got a whole lot to prove about myself. haha.
and! mount ophir!! oh man.. so lazy to elaborate on stuffs. i just realised i love climbing mountains. cause i love heights. and it goes on higher and higher. so it was like a four day thing. morning met in tanjong pagar railway station. took the train to malaysia. then took bus to the mountain. started climbing to checkpoint 4. camped there for the night. 2nd day went up to the summit. was a nice place! though the view was not very wow. but still, it's the summit! going up was physically tiring. going down was super not tiring at all, but damn dangerous. tricky. and i love it. hahahahah. there was this part.... OH MY GOD. had to climb up this slanted piece of rock using the ropes. halfway turn back and look. it's really, screams! the view was damn nice!!! and you will feel like you're on top of the world. hahahaha. i enjoyed that part the most most most most most. anyway.. at the summit. we took lots and lots of pictures. and had lunch. and
i
took
a
picture
with
him.
dies.
hehehhehehehe. and then went back all the way down to our base camp. rested for the night. next day went back down to the foot. took bus back. had lunch. walked to a hotel. checked in. had a great shower. dinner and shopping at night. had an enjoyable night with some of the girls. and guys. haha. slept and next morning train and reached singapore.
ahhahaha went home and rushed to BBSS. alumni performance. 2oth anniversary. was alright la.. the food was great. ahhaha. anyway i'm so sleepy now. still have to do compo. SHIT. OUT. LOUD.
good night!
happy holidays.
happy studying.
happy missing.
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