FEAR

Face Everything And Recover.

Fuck Everything And Run.

haha. 2nd one would be so much easier. anyway...... just got back from piano lesson. alright i guess.. 2 months to exams. oh my god.. not feeling worried yet actually.. haha. but then.. i hope i can upgrade to grade 4.. as my teacher said. but of course must show that i can do it. haha.. then can shorten my path towards.. erm.. grade 8. haha.

yesterday whole day at home.. slept the whole time. woke up at 2. had lunch. then slept at 4 again until 7pm.. went out for dinner with daddy. met richavel with jeffrey. so i wasted the whole of yesterday. just watched tv.. read book.. do theory homework..

now nothing to do.. haha.. listening to spice girls. woo!

later going my mum there.. cut hair.. haha. i once dreamt of having a mum as a hairdresser. then now. it comes true. haha.

4 more days to school reopen. goddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd. exciting. meet new people. kinda know what to expect. haha. later got difficult tasks to do. then thanks. hahahaa.

come on and do it! dont care how you look it's just how it feels. come on and do it!

sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

secondary school life. indeed great. accomplishments got a few. failures also. but there was no big big failure. so no big big lesson learnt. i know, i didnt make the best out of everything. like being a prefect. i just floated around. no difference from being a normal student. hahahaha. sports day. happy thing. studies. alright. declined over the 4 years. i just hope o's result will be good. pray hard. friends i've made. i've said already. i'll treasure them.. band! hahahaha. love bbss band so so much. sec 1 went in, got so much fun and great seniors. i did my part. tried my best. but only as a IQM. i sucked. totally. well, i'll not repeat next time. only realised the greatness of teachers this year. how much they are doing for us. wanting us to excel in life. and so on.. things that happened.. just so thankful for all the friends i've made.

i so know what's stopping me from.. erm.. moving upwards in life. sigh. i wish i could just change. i'll try. jc. new chance for me.

hahahahaa. listening to toy box now. super cute. i'll spend the next few hours digging out old cds. good day!

maybe some pretty girls are in your world.
excuse me, i could also be your girl.
lately, everyone is making fun.
na na na na na na... (an an an an an an)

hahahaha. i died.

RAMBS, MIE LURBEX EUU ALL WORX!!!!!!!!!

oh please twits, just shut the fuck up.

new year resolution number 1 : cut down on vulgarities.
new year resolution number 2 : make the best out of everyday, eveything!!! and i mean EVERY!!!!!!!!!!!!

oh my god!! next year catechism class... joining the sec 3s.. back to last time. no friends again. please make sure i'll be friendlier this time. hahaha. welcome me people!! although we dont know each other.

what else to look forward to... so it's jc life, music exams, new catechism class. CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!! haha. and then... valentines day.................? o's result. and then settled to prepare for U!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haha. i like to look forward into my future. but i still dont know what i want to do in life.

new year resolution number 3 : stop looking out for good looking people.

haha.

BGR should be the last thing on my mind now. because.............. i still fail to love myself sometimes. CORNY! haha okay. but the thing is, first thought on my mind is always "i'm not good enough for him". so DUH! haha. to people who use "duh", please. please! use it wisely.

yeah... argh!!!! i'm so dumb actually!!!! so many things i dont know about. sighhhh. it's not like i feel good about it. but certain things i'm just not interested in. and the others i just didnt read about it.

i'm trying!!!! sighhh.

bye.

life's like that.

hahaha. copying from readers digest.

anyway it sucked.

doesnt work on me.

yeah i know, it's a what goes around comes around thing. haha.

haha. time to boast!!!! just now on my way up home. this uni guy wanted to do a survey with me.. some stuff on healthy lifestyle.. then he said stuffs like...................... "you got a nice figure", "you got a figure for a model", "you mean nobody told you?" then chats. forgot to ask for his name!!!! sigh. anyway i thought he was filipino.. but is mix chinese and malay. hahaha. okay. aiya! give me a chance to feel happy about these once in a blue moon compliments.

no biggie.

anyway! things were happening nonstop since christmas eve. matthew's house. mass. meet mum. party. stayed over at mum's place. party. went to tian bee's chalet. movie. dinner. whew! still feeling thrilled. hahahahhaa.

then next two days. stay home! relax and prepare myself for the new year, mentally. and then... 4e3 chalet. new year. better be good!!!!!!!

piano.. havent been practising. or doing the theory stuff. shhhhhhhhiiiiiiiiiiiiiittt. sigh.

and thanks those who made christmas so wonderful for me.

and again. so dont want this year to end. too soon. too soon.

it's seriously, Christmas Time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

helloooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!! oh my god i can tell you, i'm seriously feeling a bit tipsy now. i'm now in my mum's place. i met her and charlynn just now in lucky plaza.. they were having some kind of party in some mini "restaurant". then i drank champagne. haha dont know correct spelling or not. anyway! it was fun! okay i danced and all that. first time okay! hahahahhahaa. i enjoyed myself seriously. with my younger sis. charlynn!!! hahahahaha. okay. then.... met my mum friends. i drank like. 3 cups. but not drunk. just.... giddy. hahahaha. high!

before that went for mass with matthew. yeah and ben. we stood together. had a nice time. they were funny and talkative. it's mass hello??? ahahhaha. but it's okay. love them. and it was probably the last time i'm seeing them this year. sigh! i'm really sad okay. will miss you two! and then matthew's dad sent me to orchard. one thing i hate about myself today. why must i be so SHY in front of matthew's mum. haha. argh! but anyway. yeah.

thank god i made up with mathangi. christmas really does wonders! hahaha. okay.

yeah. love you guys!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

haha. so happy now.

Merry Christmas!!!!!!!

Christmas Eve!!!!!!!!!!!

yooooooooo hooooooo! haha. in matthew's house now... came here this afternoon for lunch. rambs plus melvin and dharshini. anyway we had a nice time i guess.. although half the time we were in silence and thinking of what to do. but turned out okay. we just dunno... did nonsensical stuffs and all. exchanged presents also. haha. of course it's nice. giving and receiving. yeah and we got to know dharshini a little better. cool. outspoken and all. haha. and drambs now. if melvin was in then drammbs. haha. okay. lame. then matthew's mum was great. thanks a lot. seriously. yeah... soon everyone had to leave. jx church. sean and ben and dharshini home. melvin out with friends. yeah. so i'm going for mass later with matt's family.

haha.

where are the virtues?

the past 3 days were awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahahhaha. anyway i jus came back from piano lesson. and received a present from my teacher. hahaha. thanks so much.

went for chalet on monday. until yesterday. it was good. haha. many turned up. some left on the first day. anyway.. we had barbecue on the first night. i finally know how it works... i'm quite dumb actually! haha. then we went to walk walk. haha. nice! was mainly with hweeting poovanes and syafiq. then came back... played cards and talked in the room with some of them. slept eventually. next morning.. wanted to see sunrise. but didnt happen. woke up at around 10... went to mac with xueting and people to eat. rented bicycles. came back. dont know doing what.. all the other girls left. was bored so i went cycling on my own.... hahaha. fell down! quite embarrassing. haha. but only 2 people saw. they helped the bicycle up, but not me! but nah.. so kind of the girl to offer to to help me back to the room. but i declined... rode all the way to the end. and back. quite enjoyable.. came back.. slept. woke up to find all the girls still not around. then i just hung around. played pool with some guys. then went to sit on the cliff. chats and all. aiya. most of the night was walking. until 5 am or something. slept for 2 hours. next morning went back with shumin.

so main things that happened during the chalet. barbeque. cycling. walking at the beach. pool. sounds boring. but........................ it's the people that you spent it with which makes it fun and memorable right??? hahahahaa. okay. yeah. so. 2e2 people. i'll treasure you all. 2 years of time together. means a lot to me. plus kai jie. haha. thanks!

then yesterday went to kbox. rambs first outing. haha. i loved it! sang. had a good time laughing and all that. took neoprints also. came home and slept all the way until this morning. so i'm back to normality now. jokes.

to jia xin and sean: i really love you both lah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i mean we can have so much fun and laughter together. even on msn. haha. next year 3 of us take 3 different paths. i really hope we will still keep in contact.

and also. matthew and ben. melvin. laavanyah. nadia. mathangi. tsz ho. 4e3 and 2e2 friends. band mates. louisse and christine. MC friends. primary school mates. seniors. teachers. schoolmates. other school friends. acquaintances.

merry christmas. my deepest thank you for your friendships.

okay i'm gonna go to have my last backbone checkup later. haha. then today and tomorrow just stay home and relax first.

i need to catch a movie!!!!!!!!!!

dont step back.

hello............................................................

today i went for mass with sean. met jia xin and went to orchard. bought presents and cards. went home. family outing to east coast park. had dinner at the restaurant. which totally sucked. food as well as service. and price. 10 bucks for a few pieces of pathetic kai lan!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sigh. had a nice time with sis and dad. we went to parkway parade(first time for me). and then drove around a little. home.

things should be fine now.

i just dont want the same thing to repeat again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i never wish to let you know.

haha. so. another new week. chalet and stuff!!!!!! haha. christmas!!!!!!

aiya.. live one day at a time. cant look forward too much. it wont turn out well! always like that!

it takes two hands to clap.

so i got into st andrew's jc. guess i'm fine with it. quite excited actually.. this afternoon my dad drove there to see the school. nice! right in front got Chapel of the Holy Spirit. haha. and distance doesnt matter actually. i'll get use to it. straight bus. not that bad. and then.. until now i know of no one going to that school. from my class. or anyone in BBSS. there's riana. haha. but it'll still be great. great!

and then after that my dad went to see cars. decided to get a new one! woo hoo! christmas-cum-chinese new year present for himself. and us! haha. cooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooool. nice salesman too. haha.

also went to orchard. to continue my christmas shopping. not yet done still. i met matthew and ben.. and ben's friend. darshini or something. haha. for a while. then they left for home. sean and me walked around a little. met melvin. walked. talked. watched performances. sat down at starbucks.

some little commotions here and there. i wouldnt want to give a shit. since the year is ending, why not let it cool and get on with life? set some new year resolutions. and look forward to your new year ahead. instead of engaging in some mindless and aimless arguments.

anyway...................... hahahahhaahhaha. i'm feeling alright i guess. soon it will be christmas day. i just wish to spend it nicely. with people i love. feeling peace.

still dont have any plans though! haha. with rambs probably. my dad. my mum. outing. mass. party.

then next week. so packed. first 3 days already got chalet. 2 days. then christmas. last week also.. 2 chalets. ahh!

things that i wanna do. christmas shopping. k box. outing with BMS. go out with charlynn. outing with rambs. movie movie movie.

2 weeks left!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Merry Christmas!

you're so beautiful.

christmas is coming!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i cant wait. my favourite time of the year. it'll be fun!

yesterday was goooooooooooooooooooooooooooooood. my dad sent me to ben's house. passed my stuffs to matt and ben. then 2nd big big big big house i visited. nice. then we played x-box and watched a bit of movie in the entertainment room. went off to play pool. i lost like hell. but it was quite fun. then said goodbye and i went to meet my mum. had a mother and daughters dinner at pizza hut. chatted. my sister's in looooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooove. so sweet.

today. shopping! with melvin and sean. was nice. and jia xin's back! haha. i bought some presents. and one for myself. not done yet. i still got some money left luckily...

"give me an R!"...

hahahaha. thanks guys. i thought it was so sweet.

pride and prejudice

i'm sorry jx i watched it without you!! anyway it was alright.. not very good anyway. but keira knightley. love her.

and then. so we went to bugis. rmbs. movie. dinner. was fine.

seriously, it doesnt matter.

cut the mean stuff, and all will be fine.

today was quite fun! went out with sean and melvin. met sean for church. then went to westmall... met medeline. had some piano performance thing going on in west mall.. waited for melvin. went to jurong east. library. missed the performance! missed sophistifunk! sigh. then deciding where to go........... and the coin said we should go to tampines. well people, trust the coin!! it brings good luck! haha. so....... we went to tampines mall.. did a little of window shopping. tried to call benedict out. and then went to bugis. to eat. then matthew invited us to his mother's birthday party! haha. so we went. NICE HOUSE. oh my god.......... hahahaha. envy you a lot matthew. so big and pretty. plus the christmas decorations. and then matthew and benedict waited for us at the bus stop somewhere near his house. walked in. met his mum. and friends and relatives. okay i suck at this. not being able to speak up and all. well, i'll just have to learn. ate a little. birthday song and cake. ben left. we talked. went up to his room. some oh my god stuff happened. ahhahahahahhaha. yeah and we left around 11.30.

another new week. my dad's taking leave. i wanna go out. i need to buy christmas presents and stuff. shoes. clothes. bra. haha. and this friday gonna get the posting results. oh my god! and then next week got chalet. after christmas got another one. new year got another one.

havent finish cleaning my room. didnt get to read much.

and some irritating stuff. it hurts. really. but i should just try not to take it seriously.

a friend is someone who brings out the best in you. well, it's the other way round now.

haha..... it sucks. to lose some friends just before the holidays.

and i need to do some sports! wanna go to the zoo. and some other new places.

need to plan for the next 3 weeks.

monday. k box.

tuesday. stay home. clean room. go out with father.

wednesday. stay home. family time.

thursday. piano at 8 am. christmas shopping!!!!!!!!!!!

friday. christmas shopping.

saturday. dunno.

sunday. church. i wanna go out with RAMBS please. haha.

monday. 2e2 chalet.

tuesday. 2e2 chalet.

wednesday. 2e2 chalet.

thursday. piano in the morning. no plans.

friday. no plans.

saturday. christmas eve!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! with rambs. mummy. midnight mass. i guess....

sunday. christmas. dunno yet!

monday.

tuesday. tian bee's chalet.

wednesday. tian bee's chalet.

thursday. piano.

friday. 4e3 chalet

saturday. 4e3 chalet. NEW YEARS EVE.

sunday. 2006.

haha............... i need to go out to some nice places............................ i dont want 2006 to come so soon.

a time to reflect, to love, to forgive.

twits. pricks.

heya........... it's like 2 am now.. i cant sleep. slept too much in the day already. these couple of days were totally dumb. didnt go out or anything. stayed home. main events were sleeping and playing tales of symphonia. today i had piano lesson. and i also packed my room a little.

just 2 words can bloody hell make my day!!!!!!!!!!! hahahhaha. such a sweet thing to say.

and then................. oh my god!!!!!!!! seriously love this blog. museum-of-twits.blogspot.com

haha.. totally express my feelings also.

i just hate the way they talk. and the way most of them take pictures. it's really UGH........

anyway doesnt really matter.

3 weeks.

change

hello... today nothing much happened. went for piano lesson.. and then came back home and played tales of symphonia. just looooooooooooooooooooooooooooooove that game.

anyway. the holidays. havent been real fun. sigh. just so many things i wanna do, but not done. like packing my room, reading and reading, buy christmas presents, go out with certain groups of people, go to places like the zoo. haha.

sigh. all i have done is. play game. go out. orchard orchard orchard. nothing meaningful.

quite sucky. shit.

too far. real far.

shall stay home for the next few days i guess. clean my room. take a break. do some reflection.

suck.

it's christmas time in the city

haha.

hello!!!!!!!!!!!!!

had great fun today. went to k box with jia xin and sean. we sang like crazy! let's do it again man.

dont start.

haha!

anyway sean's back!!!! yipee! looking forward to some fun times.

today.. went to jia xin's church. see her get baptised. went with mathangi. then the service. was quite impressive. haha. the enthusiasm in the people.

never try too hard.

getting good.

in jia xin's house now. hahah. came to take my stuffs back. and then used the computer and watched how to lose a guy in 10 days again. later going all the way to the east to play bowling and pool i guess. fun-ness.

anyway just now had piano lesson. i guess i'm not really prepared for the exams yet. sigh. practise more.. but then holidays everyday go out.. where was that determination??? haha.

so hungry now.

i hope history is not gonna repeat itself again and again and again. let me see it has happened around 4 times already. oh my. i dont wanna ruin it.

from now on, speak good english! haha. feeling the pressure.

natural!

happy birthday jia xin!

haha.. today was quite nice.. jia xin's birthday. we celebrated.. her bro.. matthew.. benedict.. ate in swensens.. watched 2 movies.. walked... took neoprints.. just like heavens was so nice. sweet and touching. and then saw 2..................................... was really.................... stupid.

haha. then we saw melvin. and fi!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! oh my god. was so shocked. it's a small world.

and then i got into a new clique. the RAMBS. haha. cutie.

dont really feel like typing. anyway.