today's new year's eve! has been raining the whole time. the atmosphere is kinda sad... because of the tusnami disaster. may those victims rest in peace.. then went down to east view in the morning. haha. will talk about it later. after that went to tampines mall.. walked around with peiling, lewis, zhizhang, fadly, shumin, jack, nadia and mathangi. did i miss out anyone? haha.. then left them and went to eat mac. then home. read some chemistry and slept. typical me. and now.. deciding whether to go count down... will be kinda sian... sigh...

okay.. hahahahah.. today at east view! we went there.. and they were playing a game. you know, sitting down in a circle. then 2 people will play catching outside the circle. the one running away from the catcher will try to find a sit and another one will run. actually their point of the game is to get 1 "couple" running. hahaha... childish you may say. but their band is really bonded, and they have fun together. anyway.. few of us joined in the game. and kai li and i were sabo-ed. haha. a few times. but he let me catch him.. awwww... hahaha.. then we played the whole 3 hours! a few couples in their band.. and some of them were so funny!!! hahahaha.. really had fun. then nothing much.... i really really wonder......................... hahahaha...

okay... i'll go now.

Happy New Year!

New Year.

hello! it's the last day of 2004!

okay........ this is the fourth time i'm writing this entry!! argh. first time i accidentally pressed back, second time the computer hung, and the third time i accidentally closed the freaking window. and i have typed paragraphs already!!!! i am going to type everything all over AGAIN.

i didnt blog yesterday, as in wednesday. so.. had band. we did drills. fun fun fun! haha. love it now! marching and turning around. hopes that our band can achieve some standard in drills. then the east view people came. kai li didnt come. winnie said it's because he was supposed to meet dok hui first. but she was late, so he went home to sleep. awww... okay that doesnt matter. then band-ed. after band went to eat with the ev people at west mall foodcourt. met meiqi. then went to melvin's house. wanted to do homework, but bloody me..... was too lazy to start doing. sigh... didnt even revise or study anything this whole holiday. i can just die struggling next year. sigh....... then in melvin's house played computer... nothing much... ate the noodles his dad cooked for us. nice! haha. then went home. slept the whole night. bloody pig.

the more you sleep, the more tired you are.

then today... had prefects' meeting. then went up to the band room.. shumin, peiling, simin and steph were up there, doing the band banner. so i helped out a little.. and played the euphonium. haha. quite nice! then after that went to sean's house with shumin. did the same old stuffs. then home.

haha.. 2004... yeah every year is full of ups and downs... this year.. started off quite badly... broke up with joseph.. then my friendship with xueting... sort of ended.. but now we're okay... my studies slacked the whole year through... and i was sort of friendless and lonely most of the time... and i start hating people.. especially in band. and i'm sorry for that. we're fine now, right?

but of course, i made wonderful friends like nadia, mathangi, laa, jia xin, melvin. and the wonderful friendship i have with sean... haha.. and my mummy and charlynn and meiqi coming into the house to stay with me.. added colours into my life... haha. and i met some new people.. like daniel, weida, jeremy, medeline, angeline, florence, KAI LI haha..., and the evss band people. haha. and i had a wonderful birthday this year. christmas was good too. a lot of happy memories. and also, i am not that shy anymore... hahahhaa... but i think i still am... as always. it's always me.

that was like so short. i have so many things to talk about. haha.. i should really treasure every person around me. and every second that i have. and take every chance to be a better me and always make the right choice!

okay. it's 2.20 am... i have to wake up at 7.. oh man.

Good Night!

you raise me up.... so i can stand on mountains... you raise me up... to walk on stormy seas....

hello.. haha.. who could ever make me feel that way...

hip hip hooray. i just finished my maths homework. now i have only chinese and physics left.

actually i got loads left. chemistry.. biology.. maths.. social studies.. chinese.. english.. ETC. argh. everything. it will never be done.

anyway i was thinking of my new year's resolutions. haha... read the newspapers. jog at least once a week, excludind PE's jog. welll, study hard. play hard too yeah. no going out on weekdays. work hard on my trombone and piano. love everyone. stop the mood swings man.....

call those resolutions? ahhh whatever.

god bless you all.

fucking sick of things...

i think i got PMS man.. i get so iritated just seeing people. i dont even wanna talk.. oh man. fuck. how i wish that the bloody wave reached singapore and drown me.

oh please, richalynn. stop acting depressed.

haha...

yesterday had band... 3 east viewians came.. haha.. jia xin was asking winnie about kai li.. hahah.. he doesnt have a girlfriend and stuffs.. he wooed winnie before.. and a girl was cheating on him before... you mean he lied when nadia asked him whether he had a girlfriend? oh yeah, he also said jia xin was the most pretty in band. and he looks at the character before liking people.. haha... let me make this clear to myself!!! i only want to be his friend.. haha.. come on, i'm not interested in relationships and feelings for other people right now. i wanna like myself before liking others... because i suck now. haha.

after band.. met sean, meiqi and melvin.. had lunch and all... waited for quite some time before it was my turn to get my hair cut. sigh. it isnt any better. and it really sucks when i tie it up. sigh........

rushed home and rushed to jurong east to meet nadia. went to ngee ann band concert.. was okay.. slept through couple of the songs.. haha.. so rude yeah... saw mr goh and shuming and sherlyn. and desmond on stage... got one saxaphone player.. wow!!!! haha.. he stood up and played a solo part of the song imagine. so nice!!!!!!!!!! haha... his name is jefferson. haha. after more than 2 hours of music, home. nadia couldnt go anywhere.. nadia dont think too much about the angry and sad stuffs man... haha.. you've got friends who love you the way you are..

my stomach.. oh maybe not. the thorax? or abdomen.. argh. the centre part of my body... haha.. i'm so stupid... but this doesnt welcome you to insult me okay. anyway it hurt like hell last night. i was thinking maybe i have some kind of cancer or what.. i dont know why but these thoughts keep crossing my mind the past few days... haha... touch the fucking wood. i stood straight, it hurt. i lay down, it hurt. it was a pain i never felt before anyway.. sigh. whatever. i slept it away.

i dreamt of being thrown down the window. hahaha.. and my some kind of lover stabbed to death... haha.. by some person... oh fuck.

was doing maths just now.. after this i'll continue.. i must follow my fucking plan!!!

i'm sorry.

hello.

i'm just running away.. how weak.

woke up at 12 today. ate. started to clean my room. until now. i'm just taking a break.

pot calling the kettle black. it happens everytime. so just shut the fuck up.

and do not test my patience.

Stephen Chow.

hello.. just came back from a movie. the kung fu hustle.. nice!!! haha.. directed by stehpen chow.. he's good to have made this kinda movie.. anyway scenes from other movies like LOTR.. matrix.. titanic.. spiderman.. came into the show. so funny!!!!!!!!! was very kua zhang too... oh man, what's the word in english.... extragavant?? okay i just asked sean and melvin.. it's exaggerating. haha.... okay... 3 comedians i really love!!! jim carrey... jimmy fallon and stephen chow!!! haha...

4 more minutes and christmas is over. i did nothing much today... went to east coast park in the afternoon.. cycled.. was okay.... crowded.. then the movie at night. nothing much for a Christmas day.. actually quite disappointing.. haha... but who cares! Merry Christmas!! 11.59.......................................

okay. it's over.

back to work and stress...........

here's my plan.

tomorrow, sunday. clear up my room!!!!!

monday. band. cut hair. finish maths homework.

tuesday. finish physics.

wednesday. finish chinese compositions.

thursday. hmmmmm..... study for tests???? oh man.

okay.. have to read the storybook everyday.

it will be done!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haha.

off the bathe.

Good night!!!!!

It's Christmas!

haha.. hello.. Merry Christmas.

seems like today's not gonna be fun.. my dad just scolded me.. what the hell...

about last night.. haha.. was good! hang around in sean's house.. eat.. play piano and stuffs. then went to jurong east to meet jia xin.. saw yi biao. haha. then went to city hall to meet melvin.. waited for quite some time.. haha. then went to esplanade there.. anyway melvin and jia xin, who look like mature adults, asked some cute guy in 7-11 to buy vodka for us.. haha.. four bottles.. drank.. okay... then after realising we have nothing to do in esplanade.. went all the way back to sean's house.. we sat on the bed and chit chatted.. haha.. drank some wine and beer. haha.. the mum allowed. so good. until 2 plus... home.

haha.. feeling moody now already.. what the fuck. but never mind..... it's Christmas.

i just refuse to do any work okay.. stop telling me what to do. argh.

Good day!

Love you!

God Bless!

Merry Christmas Eve!!!!

haha.. harlow... in sean's house now... had dinner just now.. turkey and ham.. haha.. meiqi.. shumin.. jia le.. hua qian.. are all here.. sean's playing the piano now.. for his mum's friends to hear.. hahaa... doing nothing much now.... deciding where to go later.. for "countdown".. meeting jia xin and melvin too! haha.. this Christmas should be okay. haha. had champaign just now.. okay i know it's the wrong spelling!! haha.. champagne.. dont know... haha.. i love drinking alcohol.. that hot thing down your throat.. haha...

and thanks to anyone who has given me presents and stuffs... really thanks a lot.. all of you rock!! okay only love, no hate is on my mind now. =) oh man.. they just asked me to play the piano.. and i "politely" rejected man!!! sigh.

and new year's coming.. resolutions... hmm.. not to hate ANYONE. concentrate on studies. and i mean hardcore studying.. no going out and stuff.. after school is home. haha...

ok got to go.. bye!!!!!

Christmas!

hello... didnt update yesterday.. i went for band in the morning. was late.. haha.. then the good thing was i received some cards and a present.. most unexpectedly from stehpanie. haha... but thanks a lot.. i feel so bad for not giving them anything..

after band went to meet meiqi.. melvin and sean.. went to orchard.. bought stuffs.. the garfield for sean.. hahaha... i havent bought meiqi's.. melvin's.. and jia xin's.. and tomorrow is already christmas eve.. i'm dead.. sigh....

at night went to nanyang girls' concert.. was okay... haha.. the trombone section was GOOD. haha.. loud and strong.. what to expect, when their conductor is a trombonist. playing in SSO!!! sigh..... so good..... envies.... argh. then after the concert went all the way to JP.. to meet meiqi and melvin. haha. was talking to yibiao and jiaxin on the way there and on the way home. yi biao's nice.. haha..

sometimes i feel very sorry for myself that i have missed out a lot with other people.. never got a taste of their nice-ness.. haha... all hidden in my own sucky world... and start having my own stupid judgements and start hating people... and then i blame them for whatever reasons.. and in the end i'm the one who sucks the most.

but it's okay now! everything is alright! except for my homework, and my messy room... argh.

Christmas!! enjoy it! make full use of it! it's a time to love and share! give people some hugs! and a little Merry Christmas!

have fun at the BBQ!!!

...

hello.. cant sleep.. haha.. have been sleeping for the past few afternoons and therefore having some insomnia... funny.

this year's christmas will be kinda boring i think. wait. i havent bought the presents... sigh... and i usually send christmas cards to my primary school friends.. sigh.. what the hell is with me this year.. feel like i have lost myself. this sounds stupid, but i wanna find a better me. better set some new year's resolutions... which most probable wont work out... haha..

always treat people how you want them to treat you. well.. let's see........

anyway... it's already 1 hour later... i have got lots to say... next time...

i'm being so negative..

there is really nothing much pleasurable to think about. i've got only one in my mind now.. christmas is coming. but then again, the people who are going to spend it with me...........

argh.

good night.

irritating fuck.

hello... today had prefects' meeting and piano... in between was sleep and games.. sigh.. what a life...

it just sucks.

I feel so sorry for myself.

that's the worst feeling man....

2 weeks more.. and school's gonaa reopen.. and shit is gonna rush back in.. i havent finished my homework.. sigh...

again history repeats itself.. my mouse went crazy just now.. i lost everything i have typed...

anyway.. today went for band.. east view people came.. haha.. okay i admit i'm such a failure... didnt get to talk to him when he is just beside me... oh man............. argh... but never mind... never mind...

after band.. went to meet meiqi in west mall.. was in music concerto.. was playing the piano when bunch of the east view people came in.. sad to say he wasnt there.. haha.. we stood around.. listened to jasmine play on the piano.. haha.. then good bye.

had lunch in mcdonalds.. sean's house.. home.

so daniel thinks that people who have blogs are desperately wanting people to know how they feel.... actually quite true, i think... but depends okay... whatever.

okay... off now...

good night.













































































































please do not get too full of yourself.

He who hesitates is last.

hey hey hello.... my leg hurts. went jogging again today... this time only 5 rounds.. my stamina just suck.

woke up 11.. went to church with sean. lunch. his house.. with meiqi.. practised piano.. home.. jogged.. dinner.. tv..

dont feel like elaborating.. haha.. i just typed a lot just now... and i accidentally pressed the "back" button... and everything was gone.. haha... what the fuck.

can i please dont think i'm some big shot just because someone is pestering me.. haha.. did i spell that correctly. anyway. whatever.

looks forward to tomorrow. haha. please dont ruin it, richalynn.

good night.

sweet dreams.

God bless you.











Don't be reckless with other people's hearts, don't put up with people who are reckless with yours.

aim for the highest stars, if i miss it, at least i touch the beautiful sky...

corny title.. haha.. today.. went to the prefects' meeting. haha.. the sec 1 orientation next year, i'm helping out in the activities.. needa explain games and stuff.. to the 9 classes! have to be loud enough... haha.. i must do it! overcome this bloody obstacle.. haha.. anyway there's a 1e6 next year.. haha.. i will love the people who is coming into our band. especially trombone juniors!!! haha...

then went back home.. played game.. slept.. same old stuffs.... then went jogging with my dad.. good! 8 rounds in the stadium.. must jog often.. it feels good. haha.

and now i'm here. monday, hehe.. i better be right.

havent been practising on the piano. really need one.. sigh. next year would be difficult..

love ya!

east view.

hahaha... today was good.. was like full of music day.. morning had band.. afternoon went to east view.. night went to our school's choir concert.

the concert was okay. 1 hour of christmas songs and their normal repertoire and you raise me up! haha. sze xin!!!! hahha.. then at east view.. didnt have instrument.. so just sat down and listen to them play. haha.. nothing much..

haha.. love him. but too bad....

tomorrow got some prefects' meeting. wooo hooo!! at mcdonalds.. rare man.. haha. sec 1 orientation for next year!! actually i hope to be a leader of the class than to be some game organiser.. haha. it'll be a good chance for me! haha... what the hell anyway.

good night!

demoralised.

hello... i cant find a bloody blogskin that i like now... sigh. irritating crap..

today went for band in the morning.. east view saxaphonists came down.. haha.. and mr goh apologize to me for not bringing down kai li.. he tried his best bla bla.. but kai li's very tired.. haha.. thanks man. sigh... i wonder whether it's because of me that he is not coming over. haha..

then went home.. played game.. slept through the freaking afternoon! oh my.. i havent been doing work this week. it seems little left, that's why i stopped doing.. let me see... 1 topic of a maths.. 1 topic of e maths.. 3 english projects... 2 chinese compos.. physics 2003 Nov paper.. revision of biology and chemistry.. that is it. 2 and a half weeks left.. oh god!

and sean is leaving next year! have to admit, a major part of my life will be affected.. haha.. dont have much to say.. should i be worrying what will happen next year... better treasure the 3 weeks that he will be here... sean, i love you too!!!

awww man... my christmas tree is just so beautiful...

i am so looking forward to christmas!! love that time of the year.. peaceful and all so fun and lovey.. haha..

why do people have wrong impressions of me...... or is it i'm just really like the way they think i am.

let me tell you, i'm not!

haha... meiqi just said i'm too sensitive... well... then dont care!

then what next?

oh god... i must not complain. everything is just fine the way they are. i'm starting to be okay with some people in band. it's good, it's good.

haha.. okay. look on the bright side of life, and just let it be.

haha............ so pathetic.

okay good night.

God bless.

FUCK

the truth hurts.

hello.. haha. today is the start of another new week. today had band... then after band played bridge in school.. with nadia, jia xin and mathangi.. haha. then ate lunch.. gossiped.. so evil.. haha... but whatever..

sigh...

i'll take it.

good night.

joseph.

haha.. dont know what to put as the title.. so just put his name... anyway went to his church just now. was okay... played games.. sang songs.. listened to the whoever talk... sigh. joseph and me. still the same old shit. communication problem. so disappointing.. thought we could be good friends... haha.. whatever. everyone has a communication problem with me, cause i'm the problem. and finally i get to see mingli... once good friends. hope to remain that way... sigh... then came home. joseph made me feel like an idiot again. i waited for him to finish his stuff.. in the end it was better for me to go off first. haha... anything. it's my problem, my fault.

just let me be me.

good day.

study time!!!!

=)

The Phantom Of The Opera

hello.. just came back from a movie. The Phantom of the Opera. with my sis and meiqi. love it!!! was good. all singing and less talk. and the ending was sad, and i cried... haha... pities phantom.. wanna watch it again... and i wanna read the storybook.

haha... today was okay. went for tuition in the afternoon. maybe i change my mind.. i'll go on with it.. haha. de yong said he could lend me his piano to practice on.. haha.. luckily.. and joseph is suddenly talking to me. we'll see... going to his church tomorrow. some christmas programme... please let it be good. haha.. i'm not going for mass alone.. then how can i survive church next year if sean is going away?? sigh... luckily it's just half a year... but really, i'm not gonna have a good time.

it's 2 30am!! still have to bathe later. and wake up early tomorrow. unhealthy lifestyle. better get some exercise... 3 weeks left to new year... 10 months left to o'levels. which is only 40 weeks. 280 days. 6720 hours. minus 2240 hours of sleep. 4480 hours of time left. how lame. haha... but still, have to really use my time good.

okay.. meiqi's out of her bath.

good night.

sweet dreams.

God bless......

i take, without giving.

it's 2.05 am.

want to say something.

maybe i should just stop, and take a look around me, take a look at my pathetic life.

i'm not nice. i'm selfish. i'm mean. i upset people. i'm not interesting enough for people. i am left out.

haha.. why am i demoralising myself.

argh!!!!!!!!! i wanna change!!

anyway, i'm not trying to tell anyone anything.

dull life... yeah...

hello.. haha. in the midst of doing homework. getting restless yeah.. so just type some crap here..

east view just finish their band practice not long ago i think. haha. and fadly went there. he asked me, but no... haha. dont wanna go. next time.

today is stay-at-home day. woke up, had breakfast-cum-lunch. played game... did homework. haha. i'm stuck at the game!! dont know how to solve freaking puzzles. haha...

tomorrow got tuition. i starting to not like it!! feel like quitting. just quit it. since it's so expensive, and slow going. have piano lessons.. tuition.. i'm so expensive! haha.

so bored... i wanna go out and play.

i wanna study.

i wanna go overseas.

you know my sister wanna go overseas to work. and my father said we can all go together. hahaha. i wish man.

but yeah.. study hard first.

i'm good, i'm good.

later.

sentosa.

harlow.... today was one relaxed day at the beach. haha.. morning went to meet gladys, ming jie and jocelyn at harbour front interchange. then went to sentosa.. palawan beach. played volleyball, swimming, sitting around, talking.. was fun.. relaxing. and now my face is red! there wasnt much sun.. dont know why... hope i can be tanned.. please! haha.. whole day at the beach. nice! then went to harbour front to eat.. then home. kinda tired now. after bathing, i'll try to do some work.. haha.

as i planned, today is my last day out. i'll be at home from now onwards, doing my work!!! unless there's some important things...

haha.
okay.
good night.
sweet dreams tonight.

God bless...

count down 25 days.... school reopens.

harlow... today stayed at home... did abit of a maths... sigh. later still wanna do physics... but i'm soooo lazy!! woke up at 12 pm... just now slept from 4-7... bloody pig. so bloody inactive. sigh. then played tales of symphonia.

tomorrow going to sentosa.. haha. have fun!

feel kinda empty now... what the fuck?

haha... everything is so shaky...

good night.

sleep well tonight.

God bless..

piano.

hello.

today was okay. went to suntec in the afternoon with my family... shopped at carrefour. didnt buy anything much. just some christmas tree ornaments, and a new game. the legend of zelda... haha. we are planning to buy a new TV... a new computer maybe.

after realising i was gonna be late, we rushed back to bukit batok... had my first piano lesson. haha. i am starting off at grade 1. needa buy quite some books. i really hope i can be good at it. trust myself. haha. then after the lesson, went all the way back to downtown east. had BBQ there... with tian bee and family. was okay. sitting around and playing cards and mahjong in the chalet. i learnt how to play mahjong! haha. quite nice actually.

then i'm home now.

tomorrow sean is leaving for australia for a week. i'm sorry not to see him off.

i'll try not to sleep tonight. do some work yeah.........

and i didnt go to east view sec today... kinda sad...

i feel so like an idiot now.

good night.

=)

what is stopping me?

hey...

happy birthday mr goh.

i feel so like shit now. i am so disappointed in myself. why is going to east view secondary a problem to me??? why cant i just say, just go for fun. why?????

argh.

i have decided not to go already.

if i like someone, it is very very very difficult for me to approach him.

then why the hell still wanna like!?!?!?!?!

cant even be friends???????

then just give up man!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

why am i worrying about these stuffs???????

THIS IS SO IRRITATING.

we all have our trivial stuffs to worry over. so just let us be.

forget it.

that is what i always say.

which is so being a coward.

well then, let nature take its course.

anyway today went to wild wild wet. was good. few nice rides.. one extra thrilling one. and the life guards were all hip hop, trying to flirt. some were cute. haha. and saw this guy whom i saw during the ngee ann sec concert. shuai ge. haha.

after all my wonderful analysing...........................

i'm sad.

i'm heart-brokened.

can i just shift my concentration to my studies.

sigh.

off..

good night.

sweet dreams.

god bless...

never worry my life away.

hello... just came back from orchard.. went there to see my sis perform. haha. it was good. she just lacks the entertaining factor. haha. before that went all the way to tampines. went to auntie nancy's house to get my money back... well, $100. then went to tampines mall.. eastpoint.. walked around.. was okay. haha. then went to orchard. after watching the performance, went driving around for a while. then home.

okay, i haven't been doing my homework for 2 days, which is a big deal. haha. gotta do later... and tomorrow going to tian bee's chalet... dont know but i'm not really into it. sigh, just have fun man. and tuesday... whatever.

i'm so angry now. what the hell. so people dont misunderstand me? everything is my fucking fault! i get stepped over. i get tricked. i'm made fun of. i'm a fucking joke!

argh!!! but i dont bloody care.

i can just give up.

i'm not interested anymore.

bloody fucker.

hello... haha.. a sunday today. didnt go for mass. sigh... yesterday sucked.

went for tuition. met sean and melvin later. decided not to go for church. bad choice. went to visit melvin's grandfather in some hospital. went to orchard. ate. home.

haha.... later gonna go tampines!!! prays hard... haha. taking back $100 from madelyne yeah... haha.. i have some money to buy presents already.

i wanna know him!!!!!!!

good day.

=)

The moon is mine tonight! Again. Haha.

hahahaha... harlow!!! today was quite good. haha. went for band in the morning. today the band sucked, as mr goh says.. haha.. and what the fuck is with zhi zhang?

so mr goh knows, or thinks that i like him. haha.. after band went to east view secondary... hahaha... stupid infatuation. just seen him twice. know nuts about him. DESPERATE. haha. i'll try not to think about it. nothing is going to stop me from going there again. but i'm happy. nothing special happened. but it's just the way it is. the look. the smile. the embarrassments. the exchange. the laugh.

OH MY GOD.

i'm mad, i'm mad.

stop thinking about it!!!!

kinda shallow.

so stop it.

haha.

off to dinner.

good night.

i love you!

Tales of Symphonia!

hello. haha. it has been quite a relaxing day.. did nothing much. well, played game.. online.. slept.. and homework only took 45 minutes of my day... anyway just now went to china town to have dinner with my dad and meiqi. was okay. nothing much, also.

have to do homework later. at least finish up trigonometry, please.

haha... tomorrow have band again. i love band. i want band to be my life. and one week break from band... gotta bring my trombone back home to practice.. haha. hope to buy the book of scores in plaza singapura. i love my trombone!!!

and tales of symphonia. i'm addicted to the game!!! there's lloyd, zelos, regal, raine, genis. COOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haha... but since lots of people care.......

it's getting irritating.

sarcasm is getting irritating.

i often worry about people not agreeing with what i say or comment or whatever! and therefore not voicing out much.

what the fuck is with me?



























stop judging.

you are getting there.







































i'll stop.

































haha... anyway....................

sigh. whatever.





















good night.

sweet dreams.

god bless.

Taufik Batisah!!!!!!!!!!!!

hello!!!!!!!!!! hahahhaa!!!!!! i'm so happy now!!!!!!!! taufik is our singapore idol!!!!! aaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!! screams out LOUD for him!!!!!! but too bad, nobody is sharing my enthusiastic joy with me now. hahahhahahaha! so happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

haha. he finally won. i always hoped he won. too bad for sylvester... haha. he didnt sing quite well anyway. went off tune and all that. haha.... i am so someone to judge man... but still. haha.

so CONGRATULATIONS TAUFIK. you sure won a lot of peoples' hearts! may you enter world idol and make us proud!!! supports him all the way. haha. i'll buy your album!!!!

i love taufik! i love lloyd irving! i love jimmy fallon! i love kai li! i love sean! i love melvin! i love nadia! i love jia xin! i love mathangi! i love jontan! i love daddy! i love meiqi! i love richavel! i love mummy! i love charlynn! i love david!

haha...

good night.

work time!

so happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!

=D

Singapore Idol!

hello.

watching singapore idol now. haha. firsts song sang.

who will be the first ever singapore idol?



















































taufik!

my fault?

hello... haha. today's 1st of december!! start of a new month, and jia xin's birthday. haha. happy birthday jia xin!!

technically yesterday was a tuesday, and we celebrated her birthday. melvin, sean and i. was quite good day, except for 3 lousy things that happened, well, to me. haha. i didnt mean anything!! but it's still my fault. anything.

okay, we went to orchard around 12.. walked in cineleisure.. ate in pastamania for lunch. walked around. window shopped. took neoprints. watched movie, the incredibles!! haha. nice one!! damn CUTE and funny. haha. then went to heeren... the 1st stupid thing that happened.. haha. i was trying on this stupid skirt. and i accidentally broke the fucking button. haha. oh my god. how dishonest i was!! i didnt tell the shopkeeper or anyone.. sigh.. on my way out of the shop, the salesgirl was checking the buttons of the skirt. well, i think she found out... that made me even more guilty!!! and i threw away the button. haha... sounds stupid. if i told the shopkeeper there, i would have been some saint. true enough? sigh.

then we headed to bugis. ate swensens there for dinner. nice. but the steak i was eating was quite raw... haha.. after that walked around.. haha.. went into a shop, had a cute guy there. haha... walked out. melvin and i said we wanted his number. dared jiaxin to get it. she did it. got his name, but not the number. lornie or something. he didnt wan to give the number. haha. he saw us hiding outside the shop. wow. he sure will think it is me who is interested. haha. who cares anyway. i should get used to this kinda things. haha. then went out to the fountain? haha.. played the water there. was kinda childish yeah.. but just enjoy. haha. running to and fro. that kind of spurt out water from the ground one.. haha. nice to play! haha...

then we went to esplanade... took pictures there. cool and windy.. walked into fullerton hotel.. went to the roof garden. took pictures. got chased out by some guy... haha... then walked back to singapore river there.. played bridge for a while. 11 pm! had to go home. rushed back to the MRT. anyway sean didnt have money in his EZ link card.. and he just got free rides using melvin's tap. he sure feel bad about it. haha.

oh yeah.. the 2nd thing... in the afternoon i asked li bin whether he wanted to share jia xin's present with me. and just now, just 2 hours ago... he sent a bloody message to me... saying he wanted me to stop smsing him about jiaxin and to leave him alone.. the message was long.. sigh. my fault??? i was just helping. OKAY IT'S MY FAULT. i did it on my own accord. i gave fucking daniel the number. sigh..... i thought it was nothing... sorry jiaxin. sorry li bin.

and the 3rd thing. WOW. the hp bill was 300+, total of my dad's, my sis' and mine... and of course i took up much of it... sigh. because of the calls i made in New Zealand. well, i called and jia xin talked most of it. sigh. not blaming you jia xin. but my dad wants the money from them............ wow. possible man. sigh...... where to get the money? to return? to buy christmas presents? to pay my fees for whatever? my father is not a rich ass anymore..... haha....

so that's it. it's now 1 30 in the morning. and i have to do some homework. and i have band tomorrow. oh god, bless me.

good night.

my life's so fun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!