off to New Zealand.

haha.. just some hours more and i'm heading to changi airport...

wah thanks lah. embarrassed myself. *cries*

haha.

never mind lah.

must brave up myself.

ya ya.

sigh.......

oh my god.

forget it!!

hahahahahahahaha.

so stupid man.

never mind!!!!!

anyway, farewell.

useless fuck, again.

hey hey... little india was on saturday... so i didnt update for 2 days... haha... updated that bimbotic blog... anyway sunday nothing much... church in the morning, without sean. then home.. tv.. sleep.. one piggish day lah.. haha. then monday.. yesterday!! haha.. was one fun day.. although made some "wrong" choices... went to sentosa... haha.. with sean, jiaxin, melvin, shumin, saranya, grace, eileen etc.. then those e5 guys.. some e2 and e1 guys.. and joseph.. that gang lah... okay wait.. in the morning went to school to settle those instrument stuffs.. i'm such a shit lah. so bloody nervous when asked to do something.. argh!!!!! then after that got the banner thing.. waited for years for them to come back from buying cloth and paint. then discussed a thousand years what they want to do... then till now i dunno whether they did it or not. cause i think it'll be a failure.. haha... so, i decided to forget it lah, went to sentosa... reached there.. cant find bloody siloso beach lah.. haha.. alighted at the wrong place from the bus.. then walked damn long, and finally reached. met them.. then cycled.. okay lor. the track quite suck lah. haha. then came back.. most of them dont know go where, left siloso beach... decided to go into the water.. haha! fun! at first was escaping from them with melvin. then finally they pulled me into the water.. and melvin.. swim swim.. play play.. laugh laugh.. then swam across to the small island.. first time! haha.. sean and melvin helped me a little. cause i scared i drown... haha... saranya also swam.. haha.. then the view from the island was nice.. haha. buried saranya in the sand.. haha.. she so cute when she laugh.. then swam back.. sean, melvin and eileen got buried.. haha.. then played some throwing into the sea games. haha.. quite fun lor. the laughter and all. and i had a kinda sweet feeling. never mind, shall not say. haha... then went for dinner with them at the hawker centre at the harbour front bustop there... then went to orchard with sean and melvin.. haha.. nice lor.. talk and all that. melvin has got a damn big diet lah. didnt got up to paragon.. cause got guards there who didnt allow us in.. haha.. was kinda late then went home... thousands of hahas i've typed lah. shitty.

today is tuesday... got to school. had the money management thing. nothing much. then went back to school for the prefect meeting. nothing much also. then went to buy wrapping papers.. home.

okay, according to my title, i was quite selfish lately lah... firstly right.. actually i should have helped out in the banner thing. and i should have gone for theory. and the worst things are that i lied a thousand times. and i didnt help do much for the NZ trip. i dont have bloody freaking microsoft words lah.. how to do research.. my diskette drive got problem.. my printer cant work. all in all, my computer is really crap! tried to contact sean, nadia and mathangi to help me, use their computer, but all cant.. then mathangi so nice.. help me do.. sigh.. actually is my fault right... i dont remember need to do until zafirah reminded me today... argh.... i'm really a shit lah. everything is about my own fun and interest. argh!!!!

then today we were talking to mr latiff.. he mentioned about some people dropping to normal... so sad!!! then about the miss foo thing.. mdm yaw is gonna tell us the story.. but some of us will not be around to hear it next week, will miss out. sigh. feel kinda sad for her... miss foo, dont fret. never give up in life.

so after tomorrow... !!!! haha... NZ! yoo hooooo!!!!!!! it's gonna be fun!

gonna bathe.

later.

good night.

Little India.

hey... harlow... today saturday.. quite okay lah.. went to little india there, mustafa, with mathangi.. shopped for the NZ trip.. spent almost $150 lor... what the hell... spent almost $1000 for this trip... dont know whether worth it or not.. some more plus music fees, tuition fees... i'm freaking expensive... feel so guilty... spend away all my father's money... after the trip come back, must hardcore save money... and hardcore study... whatever... then mustafa is so damn big. walked here and there.. bought those stuff.. down there no camera and protection stuffs.. so very easy to steal things from there... haha.. they just tie up your plastic bags with those plastic strips or whatever you call it lah... of course, i'm not that bad... haha... luckily my dad didnt mind i spend so much... then went out of mustafa... walked thousand of miles to bugis there... so tiring.. then walk back to little india mrt station... harbour front.. then took 188 back home... tired... nothing much liao lor... came back packed my things for the trip... watched mu lan... and now i'm here...

the two bimbos, snowball and me created this blog... only the two bimbos are updating currently... haha... i'll try to update, if i'm not being freaking lazy later...

i hope tomorrow will be my last day out the whole day... at least for now and november... cant disappoint my family... since my mum and charlynn's leaving singapore soon... to phillipines, my hometown... haha... sigh... my freaking mum got dont know what problems lah... so sad she's not going to US anymore.. to join gavin there... i dont know lah... how can she ever be happy, when she expects people to make her happy, and she herself starts blaming everybody when things dont work out for her? what the fuck? and now charlynn is like her... i'm-not-wrong-everything-is-not-my-fault mentality.... sigh......

sigh.. then now band is losing that family spirit.. and the trombone section also lah.. or maybe i'm the one who's turning my back... sigh.... i'm not into pleasing everyone... you dont like me, then whatever, i dont care, spare me your hypocrisy.

sigh.

tomorrow got catechism class... then the next 2 sundays gonna miss them, cause of the trip... haha... must try talking to my teacher about my lostness in class... haha...

good night then.

god bless you.

have nice days.

the grudge.

hey hey... today another quite nice day.. haha.. these days seem to be fine... not that bloody depressing... haha. in school, what ah... morning got the mass walk thing.. then the banner group was discussing about what to do lah... some act cute bitch so bossy. argh cant stand it. so bad lah, say things like that about people. but i just hate her. think that her ideas are the freaking best. please lah, you are pissing people off... wah then so mature man, went to look for principal to ask whether school will be opened on monday... some more bring the whole group go and ask... dont know whose idea lah, but i claps out loud for her lah.. sorry for being so evil... haha... then after that got the sexuality education... okay lor.. think mr ong was quite disappointed.. cause we were so participative man... then recess... went to the hall watch the sec 1 and 2 talentime and cheerleading thing... shao yu very cute.. haha. then had lunch at KFC with sean, melvin and jiaxin... then band.. so sick lor. thought monday can be free.. then need to go back to school for band stuffs, and the banner thing.. need to face that bossy bitch. but dont care lah. since she is so part of my life. then night... movie with sean and melvin. before that went to melvin's house for dinner.. thanks ah melvin.. haha... then played his computer, watch singapore idol... maia out!!!! sigh... what the hell... why always the one who should be out is not out. like christopher lee?? maia is good lah. sigh... hope taufik can get to the tops... haha. and leandra. after the show went to jurong point.. decided to watch the ghost movie, the grudge... okay lah... quite scary.. haha.. at least it wasnt some lame ghost story.. on the way home alone, i was really a bit freaked out... i really thought i heard some footsteps behind me on the overhead bridge... haha... of course, it was crap. then in the lift.. and when i was showering... dont dare to close my eyes lor... haha... so stupid man...

so anyway now i'm here... just now jontan online... for seconds only.. he said hello, then good something. bueno is good. haha.

then tomorrow going out with mathangi to shop for New Zealand stuffs... at mustafa... haha... and must pack my luggage liao... so excited!!! 6 more days!!! haha... hope everything will go well... must do some research on singapore lah.. later go there and ma lu... haha...

so, good night.

god bless.

sweet dreams.

=)

sean's house.

haarloow.... haha... my god... please please please... please dont let me fall into the freaking trap again.. or have i already fallen into it.. oh damn... haha... what to do...

today was quite nice... in school slack again. no lessons at all. then got the sexuality education.. okay lah... mr whatever the name is gave the talk.. the counsellor of our school.. about sex and stuff.. tomorrow still have. then after recess in class so bloody boring.. then just listen to radio.. and slept a while.. jerrold, today 2nd time sort of insulted me.. was reading that jiadi's book.. so i cant read lah.. even if it is something about evolution.. what is wrong with that?? so he just said "this girl just look at the pictures only lah". maybe you would think that i'm too sensitive. but, whatever. haha...

then after school went to BK meet sean, jiaxin and melvin.. haha.. a lot of crap lah.. then go to sean's house.. had some fun and crappy time.. piano, computer, shouting at bunch of boys playing soccer downstairs, tv.. very funny lah.. melvin.. keep on suaning sean until he go mad... haha... then the 2 bimbos.. so it's something to be proud of lah... haha... then stayed in his house had pizza for dinner.. watched singapore idol.. taufik was okay.. maia was good.. others just normal lor... wow i am so someone to judge man... then... nothing lor.. sean was quite pissed for a while.. some molly commotion.. haha... then went home about 9.30.. sean sent melvin and me down to the busstop.. took the bus with melvin.. best friends.. haha..

dont know why i am so freaking fuck when it comes to making new friends.. so bloody... unnatural... sigh.

please forgive me.

and please, will you be there on saturday afternoon? haha...

good night.

love ya.

god bless.

useless fuck.

sigh.. what a crude title... bie ren bu zhong shi wo.. what did i do or not do? where have i gone wrong? i just have to prove myself. i just hate it. many think that i'm stupid, useless, irresponsible, etc. am i? i'm not, okay... sigh..................

bye.

what a shit.

sigh... madelyne cant return my bloody money!!! i really need it for the NZ trip lah... what the hell... today nothing much also... just now in a shop in west mall with sean they all... then melvin teased me.. i throw the shirt at him... twice. not on purpose but the shopkeeper or whoever was angry lah... really bad lah.. throw the shop's things around... shit... i'm sorry lah...

argh!!! damn it. so irritated now... my results all suck lah.. biology got 68... okay lah.

sigh forget it.

good bye.

must revise some things tonight.

god bless..

whatever, let them happen.

hola. haha. learnt from jontan... "wow"... haha... how i wish we can be friends... the internet explorer sucks lah. everything in this computer sucks lah. no microsoft words. no printer. no games. no everything. and it's getting slower day by day... hanging every now and then. argh.... today was fine... chinese class... art tour... band.. music theory.. dinner.. home. the art tour was alright... tiring.. just walk here walk there around esplanade.. then listen to the willian talk and explain.. cant even go into the concert halls and theatres... then went to victoria concert hall.. the substation.. some chinese calligraphy building... okay lah... didnt know there were such places, of course. haha... oh ya... was looking for csardas score in the esplanade library... jerrold say i was overestimating myself whatever... so what lor. i already know i'm not that great lah okay. and quite sucky also lah. sigh... does that throw away my right to look at scores outside band? what shit. sigh, also think that the trombone batch now is the worst of all, since shuming times... not to insult anybody... haha... but is it my fault? since i haven't done much as a principal player... then what can i do? sigh.... then today band okay lah... our section insulted by mr goh... haha... so sick... then got practice for those going to NZ... nothing much lor. quite suck lah, 35 people play only... haha... after band went for theory.. met sean, chieng yang and huaqian in music concerto. daniel also. then dinner with sean, chieng yang, meiqi and charlynn. then home.

haha... tomorrow back to lessons... sick feeling again. havent been studying or doing homework.. haha.. later must finish them.. before starting new topics... sigh. havent change to study mode.. a bit difficult.. haha.

okay going off now.

good night.

god bless.

give me a sign!!! haha.

=)

harlow... haha.. today quite nice.. rarely got this kind of fun and nice things happen.. haha.. actually also nothing much.. but still very nice... haha. morning went to church... actually not that bad lah. just have to try my best to know my religion better.. teacher theresa came back to teach liao.. haha.. the kelvin got exams... then went for mass.. after that went for lunch with sean at burger king... then went to his house for a while... play piano.. play comp.. haha.. then went to saranya's house.. play basketbal!! haha... with sean, her and melvin.. quite fun lor.. haha. then started to rain... but we continued to play.. so fun!! play in the rain.. and melvin is quite nice.. haha. then play play... decided to stop.. went to the pool there.. play play.. jump inside.. haha. but too bad the guard saw... then the rain stopped. went back to play basketball... then play play play... aiya.. nothing much lah. haha.

now leg got blister... haha... tomorrow got excursion.. then back to lessons for 1 week and 4 days.. then off the New Zealand!!! haha..

good night.

the christian guy trombonist is so pro lah. forever my dream to be like him. haha.

god bless.

jontan!!!

haha.

enjoy the new week.

=)

stop dreaming.

hey hey... haha.. just reached home not long ago... i always have this sentence.. haha. went to west coast park with daddy and meiqi.. haha.. quite fun lor. play the playground there.. how i wish i can be like a guy.. strong arms.. everything also dont care.. just do it. haha...

anyway today talked to an argentinian guy in msn... oh my god. he send me his photo. so handsome!! haha. dont know why he added me in msn... but, i just wish to know him more... haha. wah, dreams on lah. dont think too far... haha...

then today so wasted. sleep the whole time.. woke up at 12pm.. then eat and all that. then sleep again at 3... woke up at 7pm.. so piggish.. sigh. i could have used those times for better things... then had dinner at bukit timah plaza... "fun" place... haha...

tomorrow got catechism... haha... sian... i just dont see the point now... sigh. then after that dont know want to go where... havent been hanging out for a long time. and i really scared to tell my dad about my results... sigh... must study!!! really study. but i'm just so freaking lazy... argh....

needa buy stuffs for the NZ people... and look for my own stuffs to show them... never mind lah... after next week then prepare... now also short of money... luckily madelyne is returning me them soon...

i feel so fine now.. free.. haha.. okay off now.

good night.

god bless.

love you all.

but do you care?

haha.

2 more weeks.

hey. i'm just so sick of my results. really obvious drop. sigh. really really really have to study this holidays... come to think of it, it's really hard to get into a JC lah... need below 10 points.. if, B3 for all subjects, i'd get 18 points... what the hell... really bad this time. shit shit shit.

anyway, got 2 more weeks before we fly. haha. yay!!! excited~ haha. got quite some things to prepare.. gifts, clothes, stuffs... after it, study!!!

today again stay in class and waste time. haha. played card games.. hehe...

i wonder.. and i really hope.

it's not that i purposely type that to invite you to ask me what is it lah. just some things no one's supposed to know... haha...

whatever.

bye.

Results... ha.

hey... haha... singapore idol now.. all not that good lah. disco is one hard genre... haha. today got back some results.. disappointing... chemistry 52.. physics 58.. combine humanities 60... shit lah... first time in my life do so bloody badly for exams... sick.

today in school so sian. no teacher. no PE... stay in class play cards.. those old feelings came rushing back.. haha. WOW. crazy.. dont think too much lah!

nothing to talk about also... just hope................ sigh. haha.

good night.

off.

Handball Competition...

haha... what a day.. no lessons.. got handball competition.. and... we lost to 3n1... argh... actually winning.. then lost to 3e4.. dropped to losers' pool... sigh. tried our best yeah...

got back maths papers... 68 for emaths, 46 for a maths... okay lah... not reeeaaalllyyy that bad... improve 3 marks for A maths.. haha... anything lah. just hope i dont fail anything. sigh.

then today got band.. after 3 long weeks. haha.. miss my trombone.. but today only play concerto dynamico... haha. then got the briefing for the NZ thing... so expensive!! needa pay $620 cash... sigh. then still need money to spend there... anything, it's gonna be fun!! haha... desmond came for band today.. haha.. once in a blue moon.. haha. the only fun times i had in band were with him and ridzuan... haha. misses~ who cares anyway... haha. he's so bloody funny... so full of funny actions. haha.

what else......... so sick lah. sigh.

good night, anyway.

cartoonified.

harlooowww... just came back from west mall... was there for theory.. and dinner with mum, meiqi and charlynn... theory was fine.. missed 2 lessons cause of fever and sore eyes.. haha... i'm deciding whether to learn piano... if i learn, i'll quit from concerto... i want to learn.. i also want to go for my trombone.. but lots of money and time lah... some more now all too late.. studies and studies... sigh.

haha.. dont know these days too bored or what.. suddenly miss all the movie cartoons that i watched when i was young... just now at west mall bought lion king 1 and 3... haha... bought aladdin also... wah, not childish. haha. but i just like it.

tomorrow no school.. haha. no plans.. stay home and watch tv! haha... reads storybooks.. dont know why... no more going out and all that... haha... maybe cause nobody to go out with.. and got a kid in my house to take care... haha... and got a mess in my house need to clear up...

"busy" life... haha...

good night.

god bless.

last free sunday....

sigh... from next sunday onwards.. catechism class starts again.. so sian lor. hate it now. last time it would be nice. but no friends there... and i am so believing in god. sigh... then for two sundays didnt go for mass. i'm such a sinner. argh... haha.. i didnt go to that lady's church... dont care lah... but i feel so damn bad lah.

today did nothing much.. woke up around 12pm... then eat.. watch tv.. pack my things.. sleep.. read storybook.. night time then went to jurong point.. with dad, meiqi and charlynn.. went there eat and fetch richavel... she working there in john little.. haha..

nothing also lah.. now i'm not gonna think of anything but now. just dont care.

good night.

=)

empty day.....

haha... harlow.. just finish watching lion king part 2... so nice lor.. so sweet. haha. but reality cannot be so easy and nice.. haha. today was so sian. did nothing but sleep, eat and read some stuffs.. and watch tv... and now got a headache... sigh. that dont know what may eng keep calling me and ask to go to her church. i missed it 2 times already lah. cant she just take the hint. i'm not interested to go!!! argh! but bloody me still agreed to go tomorrow on the freaking phone just now. argh!!! i so pissed now lah. some bitch think that one guy liking her is a very big fucking deal. and wants someone to pretend to be her boyfriend (purposely choose a handsome one) so that the guy who likes her will go away. isnt that stupid and childish?!?! think so highly of herself. please lah, i bet he's the only guy who will like you in your whole fucking life. and she freaking make everything a big big big damn big deal. fucking attention seeker. fake, irritating bitch. i hate you! but do i care? no! just get out of my life.

so bad lah. say people until like that. but since nobody cares... whatever lah! argh! curse me, condemn me, make me suffer until i die lah! irritating pieces of shits! argh!

so bloody unhappy.

can i just stop upsetting those around me!!!!!!!

off.

David Yeo!!!! i love you!!!

what the hell!!! just now singapore idol.. oh my god!!! my favourite from the start of the show!!! david yeo!!!! argh!!!! he's freaking out lah!!!! not that christopher lee... and that jerry who should be out long ago!!!!! i want to cry for him lah.. so sad lor!!!!! oh my god... not fair lah.. just not fair.. he's singing is so nice, and his personality is so cute. i love him!!! *cries*

sigh... let's pray next week.. singapore votes for TALENT.

argh!

yay! it's over!

hey yo... so sian now... didnt go out or what.. cause needa fetch my sister from school... my mum not around... nobody to go out with also... so sick. sigh. and finally the exams are over.. sort of. just 2 more papers to go... bio and chem MCQs... haha... dont care lor.. no need to study... now must plan what i'm gonna do during my free time and holidays... anyway got few birthdays coming up.. today's huaqian's birthday.. so sad i couldnt go with them to celebrate with her.. actually not sad lah. i didnt want to go also.. sigh... then got jeremy's birthday... padro? weixing! haha.. tinsong's.. si hao's.. ronald's.. haha... they dont even care that i care lor... haha... never mind.. then wanna clean up my room... rearrange.. then got the NZ trip.. tianbee's chalet.. christmas! nothing much also what... i think it's not gonna be fun.. no friends there will be to hang out with... sick! why dont i just give up.

good bye.

2 more days left!

hey... just reached home not long ago... later gotta study for chemistry.. and read some compositions.. so sian.. but just two more days. in fact only 1.. actually no need to study for MCQs..

today had biology and A maths.. both gonna die.. all gonna die! just hope my L1R5 can get less than 17.. haha... so sad lor. i really hoped i could do well for bio... but..... sigh. then after the exam went to west mall with sean, huaqian and chieng yang... ate lunch and then to popular, then MC.. met quite some people on the way.. today's okay lah. not that bad.. then met daniel in MC.. haha.. so weird!! haaaa... dont care.

today's gavin coming to singapore... and my mum's gonna leave the house for a while.. leaving charlynn here! sigh. troublesome. later quarrel and fight again. haha. i tried to treat her nice. but sometimes she's really bad... never mind. let it be.

after tomorrow... relax!!! hahaha... but on wednesday back to school.. back to band... then results... so many things gonna happen. please please please madelyne return my money.. haha. i want to buy a camera. Newzealand... hahahah! must really make the best out of it. first time in my life i travel so far.. haha.. lame.

i'm off.

good day.

Life's a bitch.

haha.. harlow.. long time no blog... after weeks and weeks.. jus came back from school not long ago... so shitty. these days always go back home so damn early. today had geography paper and physics paper 1.. i'm gonna fail physics.. or just get 50+ 60+.. and tomorrow got A maths and Biology.. sigh.... i hope i can do well. if i could just really study later.... past few days keep on sleeping in the afternoons.. night, at 10 pm then starts to revise.. then cant sleep cause afternoon slept. then have only 4 hours of sleep. so unhealthy. some more during exam period. what the hell anyway.

just 3 more days. and can relax already... looks forward to the holidays!!!

good day.