today's new year's eve! has been raining the whole time. the atmosphere is kinda sad... because of the tusnami disaster. may those victims rest in peace.. then went down to east view in the morning. haha. will talk about it later. after that went to tampines mall.. walked around with peiling, lewis, zhizhang, fadly, shumin, jack, nadia and mathangi. did i miss out anyone? haha.. then left them and went to eat mac. then home. read some chemistry and slept. typical me. and now.. deciding whether to go count down... will be kinda sian... sigh...
okay.. hahahahah.. today at east view! we went there.. and they were playing a game. you know, sitting down in a circle. then 2 people will play catching outside the circle. the one running away from the catcher will try to find a sit and another one will run. actually their point of the game is to get 1 "couple" running. hahaha... childish you may say. but their band is really bonded, and they have fun together. anyway.. few of us joined in the game. and kai li and i were sabo-ed. haha. a few times. but he let me catch him.. awwww... hahaha.. then we played the whole 3 hours! a few couples in their band.. and some of them were so funny!!! hahahaha.. really had fun. then nothing much.... i really really wonder......................... hahahaha...
okay... i'll go now.
Happy New Year!
Friday, December 31, 2004
New Year.
hello! it's the last day of 2004!
okay........ this is the fourth time i'm writing this entry!! argh. first time i accidentally pressed back, second time the computer hung, and the third time i accidentally closed the freaking window. and i have typed paragraphs already!!!! i am going to type everything all over AGAIN.
i didnt blog yesterday, as in wednesday. so.. had band. we did drills. fun fun fun! haha. love it now! marching and turning around. hopes that our band can achieve some standard in drills. then the east view people came. kai li didnt come. winnie said it's because he was supposed to meet dok hui first. but she was late, so he went home to sleep. awww... okay that doesnt matter. then band-ed. after band went to eat with the ev people at west mall foodcourt. met meiqi. then went to melvin's house. wanted to do homework, but bloody me..... was too lazy to start doing. sigh... didnt even revise or study anything this whole holiday. i can just die struggling next year. sigh....... then in melvin's house played computer... nothing much... ate the noodles his dad cooked for us. nice! haha. then went home. slept the whole night. bloody pig.
the more you sleep, the more tired you are.
then today... had prefects' meeting. then went up to the band room.. shumin, peiling, simin and steph were up there, doing the band banner. so i helped out a little.. and played the euphonium. haha. quite nice! then after that went to sean's house with shumin. did the same old stuffs. then home.
haha.. 2004... yeah every year is full of ups and downs... this year.. started off quite badly... broke up with joseph.. then my friendship with xueting... sort of ended.. but now we're okay... my studies slacked the whole year through... and i was sort of friendless and lonely most of the time... and i start hating people.. especially in band. and i'm sorry for that. we're fine now, right?
but of course, i made wonderful friends like nadia, mathangi, laa, jia xin, melvin. and the wonderful friendship i have with sean... haha.. and my mummy and charlynn and meiqi coming into the house to stay with me.. added colours into my life... haha. and i met some new people.. like daniel, weida, jeremy, medeline, angeline, florence, KAI LI haha..., and the evss band people. haha. and i had a wonderful birthday this year. christmas was good too. a lot of happy memories. and also, i am not that shy anymore... hahahhaa... but i think i still am... as always. it's always me.
that was like so short. i have so many things to talk about. haha.. i should really treasure every person around me. and every second that i have. and take every chance to be a better me and always make the right choice!
okay. it's 2.20 am... i have to wake up at 7.. oh man.
Good Night!
okay........ this is the fourth time i'm writing this entry!! argh. first time i accidentally pressed back, second time the computer hung, and the third time i accidentally closed the freaking window. and i have typed paragraphs already!!!! i am going to type everything all over AGAIN.
i didnt blog yesterday, as in wednesday. so.. had band. we did drills. fun fun fun! haha. love it now! marching and turning around. hopes that our band can achieve some standard in drills. then the east view people came. kai li didnt come. winnie said it's because he was supposed to meet dok hui first. but she was late, so he went home to sleep. awww... okay that doesnt matter. then band-ed. after band went to eat with the ev people at west mall foodcourt. met meiqi. then went to melvin's house. wanted to do homework, but bloody me..... was too lazy to start doing. sigh... didnt even revise or study anything this whole holiday. i can just die struggling next year. sigh....... then in melvin's house played computer... nothing much... ate the noodles his dad cooked for us. nice! haha. then went home. slept the whole night. bloody pig.
the more you sleep, the more tired you are.
then today... had prefects' meeting. then went up to the band room.. shumin, peiling, simin and steph were up there, doing the band banner. so i helped out a little.. and played the euphonium. haha. quite nice! then after that went to sean's house with shumin. did the same old stuffs. then home.
haha.. 2004... yeah every year is full of ups and downs... this year.. started off quite badly... broke up with joseph.. then my friendship with xueting... sort of ended.. but now we're okay... my studies slacked the whole year through... and i was sort of friendless and lonely most of the time... and i start hating people.. especially in band. and i'm sorry for that. we're fine now, right?
but of course, i made wonderful friends like nadia, mathangi, laa, jia xin, melvin. and the wonderful friendship i have with sean... haha.. and my mummy and charlynn and meiqi coming into the house to stay with me.. added colours into my life... haha. and i met some new people.. like daniel, weida, jeremy, medeline, angeline, florence, KAI LI haha..., and the evss band people. haha. and i had a wonderful birthday this year. christmas was good too. a lot of happy memories. and also, i am not that shy anymore... hahahhaa... but i think i still am... as always. it's always me.
that was like so short. i have so many things to talk about. haha.. i should really treasure every person around me. and every second that i have. and take every chance to be a better me and always make the right choice!
okay. it's 2.20 am... i have to wake up at 7.. oh man.
Good Night!
Tuesday, December 28, 2004
you raise me up.... so i can stand on mountains... you raise me up... to walk on stormy seas....
hello.. haha.. who could ever make me feel that way...
hip hip hooray. i just finished my maths homework. now i have only chinese and physics left.
actually i got loads left. chemistry.. biology.. maths.. social studies.. chinese.. english.. ETC. argh. everything. it will never be done.
anyway i was thinking of my new year's resolutions. haha... read the newspapers. jog at least once a week, excludind PE's jog. welll, study hard. play hard too yeah. no going out on weekdays. work hard on my trombone and piano. love everyone. stop the mood swings man.....
call those resolutions? ahhh whatever.
god bless you all.
hip hip hooray. i just finished my maths homework. now i have only chinese and physics left.
actually i got loads left. chemistry.. biology.. maths.. social studies.. chinese.. english.. ETC. argh. everything. it will never be done.
anyway i was thinking of my new year's resolutions. haha... read the newspapers. jog at least once a week, excludind PE's jog. welll, study hard. play hard too yeah. no going out on weekdays. work hard on my trombone and piano. love everyone. stop the mood swings man.....
call those resolutions? ahhh whatever.
god bless you all.
fucking sick of things...
i think i got PMS man.. i get so iritated just seeing people. i dont even wanna talk.. oh man. fuck. how i wish that the bloody wave reached singapore and drown me.
oh please, richalynn. stop acting depressed.
haha...
yesterday had band... 3 east viewians came.. haha.. jia xin was asking winnie about kai li.. hahah.. he doesnt have a girlfriend and stuffs.. he wooed winnie before.. and a girl was cheating on him before... you mean he lied when nadia asked him whether he had a girlfriend? oh yeah, he also said jia xin was the most pretty in band. and he looks at the character before liking people.. haha... let me make this clear to myself!!! i only want to be his friend.. haha.. come on, i'm not interested in relationships and feelings for other people right now. i wanna like myself before liking others... because i suck now. haha.
after band.. met sean, meiqi and melvin.. had lunch and all... waited for quite some time before it was my turn to get my hair cut. sigh. it isnt any better. and it really sucks when i tie it up. sigh........
rushed home and rushed to jurong east to meet nadia. went to ngee ann band concert.. was okay.. slept through couple of the songs.. haha.. so rude yeah... saw mr goh and shuming and sherlyn. and desmond on stage... got one saxaphone player.. wow!!!! haha.. he stood up and played a solo part of the song imagine. so nice!!!!!!!!!! haha... his name is jefferson. haha. after more than 2 hours of music, home. nadia couldnt go anywhere.. nadia dont think too much about the angry and sad stuffs man... haha.. you've got friends who love you the way you are..
my stomach.. oh maybe not. the thorax? or abdomen.. argh. the centre part of my body... haha.. i'm so stupid... but this doesnt welcome you to insult me okay. anyway it hurt like hell last night. i was thinking maybe i have some kind of cancer or what.. i dont know why but these thoughts keep crossing my mind the past few days... haha... touch the fucking wood. i stood straight, it hurt. i lay down, it hurt. it was a pain i never felt before anyway.. sigh. whatever. i slept it away.
i dreamt of being thrown down the window. hahaha.. and my some kind of lover stabbed to death... haha.. by some person... oh fuck.
was doing maths just now.. after this i'll continue.. i must follow my fucking plan!!!
oh please, richalynn. stop acting depressed.
haha...
yesterday had band... 3 east viewians came.. haha.. jia xin was asking winnie about kai li.. hahah.. he doesnt have a girlfriend and stuffs.. he wooed winnie before.. and a girl was cheating on him before... you mean he lied when nadia asked him whether he had a girlfriend? oh yeah, he also said jia xin was the most pretty in band. and he looks at the character before liking people.. haha... let me make this clear to myself!!! i only want to be his friend.. haha.. come on, i'm not interested in relationships and feelings for other people right now. i wanna like myself before liking others... because i suck now. haha.
after band.. met sean, meiqi and melvin.. had lunch and all... waited for quite some time before it was my turn to get my hair cut. sigh. it isnt any better. and it really sucks when i tie it up. sigh........
rushed home and rushed to jurong east to meet nadia. went to ngee ann band concert.. was okay.. slept through couple of the songs.. haha.. so rude yeah... saw mr goh and shuming and sherlyn. and desmond on stage... got one saxaphone player.. wow!!!! haha.. he stood up and played a solo part of the song imagine. so nice!!!!!!!!!! haha... his name is jefferson. haha. after more than 2 hours of music, home. nadia couldnt go anywhere.. nadia dont think too much about the angry and sad stuffs man... haha.. you've got friends who love you the way you are..
my stomach.. oh maybe not. the thorax? or abdomen.. argh. the centre part of my body... haha.. i'm so stupid... but this doesnt welcome you to insult me okay. anyway it hurt like hell last night. i was thinking maybe i have some kind of cancer or what.. i dont know why but these thoughts keep crossing my mind the past few days... haha... touch the fucking wood. i stood straight, it hurt. i lay down, it hurt. it was a pain i never felt before anyway.. sigh. whatever. i slept it away.
i dreamt of being thrown down the window. hahaha.. and my some kind of lover stabbed to death... haha.. by some person... oh fuck.
was doing maths just now.. after this i'll continue.. i must follow my fucking plan!!!
Sunday, December 26, 2004
i'm sorry.
hello.
i'm just running away.. how weak.
woke up at 12 today. ate. started to clean my room. until now. i'm just taking a break.
pot calling the kettle black. it happens everytime. so just shut the fuck up.
and do not test my patience.
i'm just running away.. how weak.
woke up at 12 today. ate. started to clean my room. until now. i'm just taking a break.
pot calling the kettle black. it happens everytime. so just shut the fuck up.
and do not test my patience.
Saturday, December 25, 2004
Stephen Chow.
hello.. just came back from a movie. the kung fu hustle.. nice!!! haha.. directed by stehpen chow.. he's good to have made this kinda movie.. anyway scenes from other movies like LOTR.. matrix.. titanic.. spiderman.. came into the show. so funny!!!!!!!!! was very kua zhang too... oh man, what's the word in english.... extragavant?? okay i just asked sean and melvin.. it's exaggerating. haha.... okay... 3 comedians i really love!!! jim carrey... jimmy fallon and stephen chow!!! haha...
4 more minutes and christmas is over. i did nothing much today... went to east coast park in the afternoon.. cycled.. was okay.... crowded.. then the movie at night. nothing much for a Christmas day.. actually quite disappointing.. haha... but who cares! Merry Christmas!! 11.59.......................................
okay. it's over.
back to work and stress...........
here's my plan.
tomorrow, sunday. clear up my room!!!!!
monday. band. cut hair. finish maths homework.
tuesday. finish physics.
wednesday. finish chinese compositions.
thursday. hmmmmm..... study for tests???? oh man.
okay.. have to read the storybook everyday.
it will be done!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haha.
off the bathe.
Good night!!!!!
4 more minutes and christmas is over. i did nothing much today... went to east coast park in the afternoon.. cycled.. was okay.... crowded.. then the movie at night. nothing much for a Christmas day.. actually quite disappointing.. haha... but who cares! Merry Christmas!! 11.59.......................................
okay. it's over.
back to work and stress...........
here's my plan.
tomorrow, sunday. clear up my room!!!!!
monday. band. cut hair. finish maths homework.
tuesday. finish physics.
wednesday. finish chinese compositions.
thursday. hmmmmm..... study for tests???? oh man.
okay.. have to read the storybook everyday.
it will be done!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haha.
off the bathe.
Good night!!!!!
It's Christmas!
haha.. hello.. Merry Christmas.
seems like today's not gonna be fun.. my dad just scolded me.. what the hell...
about last night.. haha.. was good! hang around in sean's house.. eat.. play piano and stuffs. then went to jurong east to meet jia xin.. saw yi biao. haha. then went to city hall to meet melvin.. waited for quite some time.. haha. then went to esplanade there.. anyway melvin and jia xin, who look like mature adults, asked some cute guy in 7-11 to buy vodka for us.. haha.. four bottles.. drank.. okay... then after realising we have nothing to do in esplanade.. went all the way back to sean's house.. we sat on the bed and chit chatted.. haha.. drank some wine and beer. haha.. the mum allowed. so good. until 2 plus... home.
haha.. feeling moody now already.. what the fuck. but never mind..... it's Christmas.
i just refuse to do any work okay.. stop telling me what to do. argh.
Good day!
Love you!
God Bless!
seems like today's not gonna be fun.. my dad just scolded me.. what the hell...
about last night.. haha.. was good! hang around in sean's house.. eat.. play piano and stuffs. then went to jurong east to meet jia xin.. saw yi biao. haha. then went to city hall to meet melvin.. waited for quite some time.. haha. then went to esplanade there.. anyway melvin and jia xin, who look like mature adults, asked some cute guy in 7-11 to buy vodka for us.. haha.. four bottles.. drank.. okay... then after realising we have nothing to do in esplanade.. went all the way back to sean's house.. we sat on the bed and chit chatted.. haha.. drank some wine and beer. haha.. the mum allowed. so good. until 2 plus... home.
haha.. feeling moody now already.. what the fuck. but never mind..... it's Christmas.
i just refuse to do any work okay.. stop telling me what to do. argh.
Good day!
Love you!
God Bless!
Friday, December 24, 2004
Merry Christmas Eve!!!!
haha.. harlow... in sean's house now... had dinner just now.. turkey and ham.. haha.. meiqi.. shumin.. jia le.. hua qian.. are all here.. sean's playing the piano now.. for his mum's friends to hear.. hahaa... doing nothing much now.... deciding where to go later.. for "countdown".. meeting jia xin and melvin too! haha.. this Christmas should be okay. haha. had champaign just now.. okay i know it's the wrong spelling!! haha.. champagne.. dont know... haha.. i love drinking alcohol.. that hot thing down your throat.. haha...
and thanks to anyone who has given me presents and stuffs... really thanks a lot.. all of you rock!! okay only love, no hate is on my mind now. =) oh man.. they just asked me to play the piano.. and i "politely" rejected man!!! sigh.
and new year's coming.. resolutions... hmm.. not to hate ANYONE. concentrate on studies. and i mean hardcore studying.. no going out and stuff.. after school is home. haha...
ok got to go.. bye!!!!!
and thanks to anyone who has given me presents and stuffs... really thanks a lot.. all of you rock!! okay only love, no hate is on my mind now. =) oh man.. they just asked me to play the piano.. and i "politely" rejected man!!! sigh.
and new year's coming.. resolutions... hmm.. not to hate ANYONE. concentrate on studies. and i mean hardcore studying.. no going out and stuff.. after school is home. haha...
ok got to go.. bye!!!!!
Thursday, December 23, 2004
Christmas!
hello... didnt update yesterday.. i went for band in the morning. was late.. haha.. then the good thing was i received some cards and a present.. most unexpectedly from stehpanie. haha... but thanks a lot.. i feel so bad for not giving them anything..
after band went to meet meiqi.. melvin and sean.. went to orchard.. bought stuffs.. the garfield for sean.. hahaha... i havent bought meiqi's.. melvin's.. and jia xin's.. and tomorrow is already christmas eve.. i'm dead.. sigh....
at night went to nanyang girls' concert.. was okay... haha.. the trombone section was GOOD. haha.. loud and strong.. what to expect, when their conductor is a trombonist. playing in SSO!!! sigh..... so good..... envies.... argh. then after the concert went all the way to JP.. to meet meiqi and melvin. haha. was talking to yibiao and jiaxin on the way there and on the way home. yi biao's nice.. haha..
sometimes i feel very sorry for myself that i have missed out a lot with other people.. never got a taste of their nice-ness.. haha... all hidden in my own sucky world... and start having my own stupid judgements and start hating people... and then i blame them for whatever reasons.. and in the end i'm the one who sucks the most.
but it's okay now! everything is alright! except for my homework, and my messy room... argh.
Christmas!! enjoy it! make full use of it! it's a time to love and share! give people some hugs! and a little Merry Christmas!
have fun at the BBQ!!!
after band went to meet meiqi.. melvin and sean.. went to orchard.. bought stuffs.. the garfield for sean.. hahaha... i havent bought meiqi's.. melvin's.. and jia xin's.. and tomorrow is already christmas eve.. i'm dead.. sigh....
at night went to nanyang girls' concert.. was okay... haha.. the trombone section was GOOD. haha.. loud and strong.. what to expect, when their conductor is a trombonist. playing in SSO!!! sigh..... so good..... envies.... argh. then after the concert went all the way to JP.. to meet meiqi and melvin. haha. was talking to yibiao and jiaxin on the way there and on the way home. yi biao's nice.. haha..
sometimes i feel very sorry for myself that i have missed out a lot with other people.. never got a taste of their nice-ness.. haha... all hidden in my own sucky world... and start having my own stupid judgements and start hating people... and then i blame them for whatever reasons.. and in the end i'm the one who sucks the most.
but it's okay now! everything is alright! except for my homework, and my messy room... argh.
Christmas!! enjoy it! make full use of it! it's a time to love and share! give people some hugs! and a little Merry Christmas!
have fun at the BBQ!!!
Wednesday, December 22, 2004
...
hello.. cant sleep.. haha.. have been sleeping for the past few afternoons and therefore having some insomnia... funny.
this year's christmas will be kinda boring i think. wait. i havent bought the presents... sigh... and i usually send christmas cards to my primary school friends.. sigh.. what the hell is with me this year.. feel like i have lost myself. this sounds stupid, but i wanna find a better me. better set some new year's resolutions... which most probable wont work out... haha..
always treat people how you want them to treat you. well.. let's see........
anyway... it's already 1 hour later... i have got lots to say... next time...
i'm being so negative..
there is really nothing much pleasurable to think about. i've got only one in my mind now.. christmas is coming. but then again, the people who are going to spend it with me...........
argh.
good night.
this year's christmas will be kinda boring i think. wait. i havent bought the presents... sigh... and i usually send christmas cards to my primary school friends.. sigh.. what the hell is with me this year.. feel like i have lost myself. this sounds stupid, but i wanna find a better me. better set some new year's resolutions... which most probable wont work out... haha..
always treat people how you want them to treat you. well.. let's see........
anyway... it's already 1 hour later... i have got lots to say... next time...
i'm being so negative..
there is really nothing much pleasurable to think about. i've got only one in my mind now.. christmas is coming. but then again, the people who are going to spend it with me...........
argh.
good night.
Tuesday, December 21, 2004
irritating fuck.
hello... today had prefects' meeting and piano... in between was sleep and games.. sigh.. what a life...
it just sucks.
it just sucks.
Monday, December 20, 2004
I feel so sorry for myself.
that's the worst feeling man....
2 weeks more.. and school's gonaa reopen.. and shit is gonna rush back in.. i havent finished my homework.. sigh...
again history repeats itself.. my mouse went crazy just now.. i lost everything i have typed...
anyway.. today went for band.. east view people came.. haha.. okay i admit i'm such a failure... didnt get to talk to him when he is just beside me... oh man............. argh... but never mind... never mind...
after band.. went to meet meiqi in west mall.. was in music concerto.. was playing the piano when bunch of the east view people came in.. sad to say he wasnt there.. haha.. we stood around.. listened to jasmine play on the piano.. haha.. then good bye.
had lunch in mcdonalds.. sean's house.. home.
so daniel thinks that people who have blogs are desperately wanting people to know how they feel.... actually quite true, i think... but depends okay... whatever.
okay... off now...
good night.
please do not get too full of yourself.
2 weeks more.. and school's gonaa reopen.. and shit is gonna rush back in.. i havent finished my homework.. sigh...
again history repeats itself.. my mouse went crazy just now.. i lost everything i have typed...
anyway.. today went for band.. east view people came.. haha.. okay i admit i'm such a failure... didnt get to talk to him when he is just beside me... oh man............. argh... but never mind... never mind...
after band.. went to meet meiqi in west mall.. was in music concerto.. was playing the piano when bunch of the east view people came in.. sad to say he wasnt there.. haha.. we stood around.. listened to jasmine play on the piano.. haha.. then good bye.
had lunch in mcdonalds.. sean's house.. home.
so daniel thinks that people who have blogs are desperately wanting people to know how they feel.... actually quite true, i think... but depends okay... whatever.
okay... off now...
good night.
please do not get too full of yourself.
Sunday, December 19, 2004
He who hesitates is last.
hey hey hello.... my leg hurts. went jogging again today... this time only 5 rounds.. my stamina just suck.
woke up 11.. went to church with sean. lunch. his house.. with meiqi.. practised piano.. home.. jogged.. dinner.. tv..
dont feel like elaborating.. haha.. i just typed a lot just now... and i accidentally pressed the "back" button... and everything was gone.. haha... what the fuck.
can i please dont think i'm some big shot just because someone is pestering me.. haha.. did i spell that correctly. anyway. whatever.
looks forward to tomorrow. haha. please dont ruin it, richalynn.
good night.
sweet dreams.
God bless you.
Don't be reckless with other people's hearts, don't put up with people who are reckless with yours.
woke up 11.. went to church with sean. lunch. his house.. with meiqi.. practised piano.. home.. jogged.. dinner.. tv..
dont feel like elaborating.. haha.. i just typed a lot just now... and i accidentally pressed the "back" button... and everything was gone.. haha... what the fuck.
can i please dont think i'm some big shot just because someone is pestering me.. haha.. did i spell that correctly. anyway. whatever.
looks forward to tomorrow. haha. please dont ruin it, richalynn.
good night.
sweet dreams.
God bless you.
Don't be reckless with other people's hearts, don't put up with people who are reckless with yours.
Saturday, December 18, 2004
aim for the highest stars, if i miss it, at least i touch the beautiful sky...
corny title.. haha.. today.. went to the prefects' meeting. haha.. the sec 1 orientation next year, i'm helping out in the activities.. needa explain games and stuff.. to the 9 classes! have to be loud enough... haha.. i must do it! overcome this bloody obstacle.. haha.. anyway there's a 1e6 next year.. haha.. i will love the people who is coming into our band. especially trombone juniors!!! haha...
then went back home.. played game.. slept.. same old stuffs.... then went jogging with my dad.. good! 8 rounds in the stadium.. must jog often.. it feels good. haha.
and now i'm here. monday, hehe.. i better be right.
havent been practising on the piano. really need one.. sigh. next year would be difficult..
love ya!
then went back home.. played game.. slept.. same old stuffs.... then went jogging with my dad.. good! 8 rounds in the stadium.. must jog often.. it feels good. haha.
and now i'm here. monday, hehe.. i better be right.
havent been practising on the piano. really need one.. sigh. next year would be difficult..
love ya!
Friday, December 17, 2004
east view.
hahaha... today was good.. was like full of music day.. morning had band.. afternoon went to east view.. night went to our school's choir concert.
the concert was okay. 1 hour of christmas songs and their normal repertoire and you raise me up! haha. sze xin!!!! hahha.. then at east view.. didnt have instrument.. so just sat down and listen to them play. haha.. nothing much..
haha.. love him. but too bad....
tomorrow got some prefects' meeting. wooo hooo!! at mcdonalds.. rare man.. haha. sec 1 orientation for next year!! actually i hope to be a leader of the class than to be some game organiser.. haha. it'll be a good chance for me! haha... what the hell anyway.
good night!
the concert was okay. 1 hour of christmas songs and their normal repertoire and you raise me up! haha. sze xin!!!! hahha.. then at east view.. didnt have instrument.. so just sat down and listen to them play. haha.. nothing much..
haha.. love him. but too bad....
tomorrow got some prefects' meeting. wooo hooo!! at mcdonalds.. rare man.. haha. sec 1 orientation for next year!! actually i hope to be a leader of the class than to be some game organiser.. haha. it'll be a good chance for me! haha... what the hell anyway.
good night!
Wednesday, December 15, 2004
demoralised.
hello... i cant find a bloody blogskin that i like now... sigh. irritating crap..
today went for band in the morning.. east view saxaphonists came down.. haha.. and mr goh apologize to me for not bringing down kai li.. he tried his best bla bla.. but kai li's very tired.. haha.. thanks man. sigh... i wonder whether it's because of me that he is not coming over. haha..
then went home.. played game.. slept through the freaking afternoon! oh my.. i havent been doing work this week. it seems little left, that's why i stopped doing.. let me see... 1 topic of a maths.. 1 topic of e maths.. 3 english projects... 2 chinese compos.. physics 2003 Nov paper.. revision of biology and chemistry.. that is it. 2 and a half weeks left.. oh god!
and sean is leaving next year! have to admit, a major part of my life will be affected.. haha.. dont have much to say.. should i be worrying what will happen next year... better treasure the 3 weeks that he will be here... sean, i love you too!!!
awww man... my christmas tree is just so beautiful...
i am so looking forward to christmas!! love that time of the year.. peaceful and all so fun and lovey.. haha..
why do people have wrong impressions of me...... or is it i'm just really like the way they think i am.
let me tell you, i'm not!
haha... meiqi just said i'm too sensitive... well... then dont care!
then what next?
oh god... i must not complain. everything is just fine the way they are. i'm starting to be okay with some people in band. it's good, it's good.
haha.. okay. look on the bright side of life, and just let it be.
haha............ so pathetic.
okay good night.
God bless.
today went for band in the morning.. east view saxaphonists came down.. haha.. and mr goh apologize to me for not bringing down kai li.. he tried his best bla bla.. but kai li's very tired.. haha.. thanks man. sigh... i wonder whether it's because of me that he is not coming over. haha..
then went home.. played game.. slept through the freaking afternoon! oh my.. i havent been doing work this week. it seems little left, that's why i stopped doing.. let me see... 1 topic of a maths.. 1 topic of e maths.. 3 english projects... 2 chinese compos.. physics 2003 Nov paper.. revision of biology and chemistry.. that is it. 2 and a half weeks left.. oh god!
and sean is leaving next year! have to admit, a major part of my life will be affected.. haha.. dont have much to say.. should i be worrying what will happen next year... better treasure the 3 weeks that he will be here... sean, i love you too!!!
awww man... my christmas tree is just so beautiful...
i am so looking forward to christmas!! love that time of the year.. peaceful and all so fun and lovey.. haha..
why do people have wrong impressions of me...... or is it i'm just really like the way they think i am.
let me tell you, i'm not!
haha... meiqi just said i'm too sensitive... well... then dont care!
then what next?
oh god... i must not complain. everything is just fine the way they are. i'm starting to be okay with some people in band. it's good, it's good.
haha.. okay. look on the bright side of life, and just let it be.
haha............ so pathetic.
okay good night.
God bless.
Tuesday, December 14, 2004
Monday, December 13, 2004
the truth hurts.
hello.. haha. today is the start of another new week. today had band... then after band played bridge in school.. with nadia, jia xin and mathangi.. haha. then ate lunch.. gossiped.. so evil.. haha... but whatever..
sigh...
i'll take it.
good night.
sigh...
i'll take it.
good night.
Sunday, December 12, 2004
joseph.
haha.. dont know what to put as the title.. so just put his name... anyway went to his church just now. was okay... played games.. sang songs.. listened to the whoever talk... sigh. joseph and me. still the same old shit. communication problem. so disappointing.. thought we could be good friends... haha.. whatever. everyone has a communication problem with me, cause i'm the problem. and finally i get to see mingli... once good friends. hope to remain that way... sigh... then came home. joseph made me feel like an idiot again. i waited for him to finish his stuff.. in the end it was better for me to go off first. haha... anything. it's my problem, my fault.
just let me be me.
good day.
study time!!!!
=)
just let me be me.
good day.
study time!!!!
=)
The Phantom Of The Opera
hello.. just came back from a movie. The Phantom of the Opera. with my sis and meiqi. love it!!! was good. all singing and less talk. and the ending was sad, and i cried... haha... pities phantom.. wanna watch it again... and i wanna read the storybook.
haha... today was okay. went for tuition in the afternoon. maybe i change my mind.. i'll go on with it.. haha. de yong said he could lend me his piano to practice on.. haha.. luckily.. and joseph is suddenly talking to me. we'll see... going to his church tomorrow. some christmas programme... please let it be good. haha.. i'm not going for mass alone.. then how can i survive church next year if sean is going away?? sigh... luckily it's just half a year... but really, i'm not gonna have a good time.
it's 2 30am!! still have to bathe later. and wake up early tomorrow. unhealthy lifestyle. better get some exercise... 3 weeks left to new year... 10 months left to o'levels. which is only 40 weeks. 280 days. 6720 hours. minus 2240 hours of sleep. 4480 hours of time left. how lame. haha... but still, have to really use my time good.
okay.. meiqi's out of her bath.
good night.
sweet dreams.
God bless......
haha... today was okay. went for tuition in the afternoon. maybe i change my mind.. i'll go on with it.. haha. de yong said he could lend me his piano to practice on.. haha.. luckily.. and joseph is suddenly talking to me. we'll see... going to his church tomorrow. some christmas programme... please let it be good. haha.. i'm not going for mass alone.. then how can i survive church next year if sean is going away?? sigh... luckily it's just half a year... but really, i'm not gonna have a good time.
it's 2 30am!! still have to bathe later. and wake up early tomorrow. unhealthy lifestyle. better get some exercise... 3 weeks left to new year... 10 months left to o'levels. which is only 40 weeks. 280 days. 6720 hours. minus 2240 hours of sleep. 4480 hours of time left. how lame. haha... but still, have to really use my time good.
okay.. meiqi's out of her bath.
good night.
sweet dreams.
God bless......
Saturday, December 11, 2004
i take, without giving.
it's 2.05 am.
want to say something.
maybe i should just stop, and take a look around me, take a look at my pathetic life.
i'm not nice. i'm selfish. i'm mean. i upset people. i'm not interesting enough for people. i am left out.
haha.. why am i demoralising myself.
argh!!!!!!!!! i wanna change!!
anyway, i'm not trying to tell anyone anything.
want to say something.
maybe i should just stop, and take a look around me, take a look at my pathetic life.
i'm not nice. i'm selfish. i'm mean. i upset people. i'm not interesting enough for people. i am left out.
haha.. why am i demoralising myself.
argh!!!!!!!!! i wanna change!!
anyway, i'm not trying to tell anyone anything.
Friday, December 10, 2004
dull life... yeah...
hello.. haha. in the midst of doing homework. getting restless yeah.. so just type some crap here..
east view just finish their band practice not long ago i think. haha. and fadly went there. he asked me, but no... haha. dont wanna go. next time.
today is stay-at-home day. woke up, had breakfast-cum-lunch. played game... did homework. haha. i'm stuck at the game!! dont know how to solve freaking puzzles. haha...
tomorrow got tuition. i starting to not like it!! feel like quitting. just quit it. since it's so expensive, and slow going. have piano lessons.. tuition.. i'm so expensive! haha.
so bored... i wanna go out and play.
i wanna study.
i wanna go overseas.
you know my sister wanna go overseas to work. and my father said we can all go together. hahaha. i wish man.
but yeah.. study hard first.
i'm good, i'm good.
later.
east view just finish their band practice not long ago i think. haha. and fadly went there. he asked me, but no... haha. dont wanna go. next time.
today is stay-at-home day. woke up, had breakfast-cum-lunch. played game... did homework. haha. i'm stuck at the game!! dont know how to solve freaking puzzles. haha...
tomorrow got tuition. i starting to not like it!! feel like quitting. just quit it. since it's so expensive, and slow going. have piano lessons.. tuition.. i'm so expensive! haha.
so bored... i wanna go out and play.
i wanna study.
i wanna go overseas.
you know my sister wanna go overseas to work. and my father said we can all go together. hahaha. i wish man.
but yeah.. study hard first.
i'm good, i'm good.
later.
Thursday, December 09, 2004
sentosa.
harlow.... today was one relaxed day at the beach. haha.. morning went to meet gladys, ming jie and jocelyn at harbour front interchange. then went to sentosa.. palawan beach. played volleyball, swimming, sitting around, talking.. was fun.. relaxing. and now my face is red! there wasnt much sun.. dont know why... hope i can be tanned.. please! haha.. whole day at the beach. nice! then went to harbour front to eat.. then home. kinda tired now. after bathing, i'll try to do some work.. haha.
as i planned, today is my last day out. i'll be at home from now onwards, doing my work!!! unless there's some important things...
haha.
okay.
good night.
sweet dreams tonight.
God bless...
as i planned, today is my last day out. i'll be at home from now onwards, doing my work!!! unless there's some important things...
haha.
okay.
good night.
sweet dreams tonight.
God bless...
Wednesday, December 08, 2004
count down 25 days.... school reopens.
harlow... today stayed at home... did abit of a maths... sigh. later still wanna do physics... but i'm soooo lazy!! woke up at 12 pm... just now slept from 4-7... bloody pig. so bloody inactive. sigh. then played tales of symphonia.
tomorrow going to sentosa.. haha. have fun!
feel kinda empty now... what the fuck?
haha... everything is so shaky...
good night.
sleep well tonight.
God bless..
tomorrow going to sentosa.. haha. have fun!
feel kinda empty now... what the fuck?
haha... everything is so shaky...
good night.
sleep well tonight.
God bless..
piano.
hello.
today was okay. went to suntec in the afternoon with my family... shopped at carrefour. didnt buy anything much. just some christmas tree ornaments, and a new game. the legend of zelda... haha. we are planning to buy a new TV... a new computer maybe.
after realising i was gonna be late, we rushed back to bukit batok... had my first piano lesson. haha. i am starting off at grade 1. needa buy quite some books. i really hope i can be good at it. trust myself. haha. then after the lesson, went all the way back to downtown east. had BBQ there... with tian bee and family. was okay. sitting around and playing cards and mahjong in the chalet. i learnt how to play mahjong! haha. quite nice actually.
then i'm home now.
tomorrow sean is leaving for australia for a week. i'm sorry not to see him off.
i'll try not to sleep tonight. do some work yeah.........
and i didnt go to east view sec today... kinda sad...
i feel so like an idiot now.
good night.
=)
today was okay. went to suntec in the afternoon with my family... shopped at carrefour. didnt buy anything much. just some christmas tree ornaments, and a new game. the legend of zelda... haha. we are planning to buy a new TV... a new computer maybe.
after realising i was gonna be late, we rushed back to bukit batok... had my first piano lesson. haha. i am starting off at grade 1. needa buy quite some books. i really hope i can be good at it. trust myself. haha. then after the lesson, went all the way back to downtown east. had BBQ there... with tian bee and family. was okay. sitting around and playing cards and mahjong in the chalet. i learnt how to play mahjong! haha. quite nice actually.
then i'm home now.
tomorrow sean is leaving for australia for a week. i'm sorry not to see him off.
i'll try not to sleep tonight. do some work yeah.........
and i didnt go to east view sec today... kinda sad...
i feel so like an idiot now.
good night.
=)
Tuesday, December 07, 2004
what is stopping me?
hey...
happy birthday mr goh.
i feel so like shit now. i am so disappointed in myself. why is going to east view secondary a problem to me??? why cant i just say, just go for fun. why?????
argh.
i have decided not to go already.
if i like someone, it is very very very difficult for me to approach him.
then why the hell still wanna like!?!?!?!?!
cant even be friends???????
then just give up man!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
why am i worrying about these stuffs???????
THIS IS SO IRRITATING.
we all have our trivial stuffs to worry over. so just let us be.
forget it.
that is what i always say.
which is so being a coward.
well then, let nature take its course.
anyway today went to wild wild wet. was good. few nice rides.. one extra thrilling one. and the life guards were all hip hop, trying to flirt. some were cute. haha. and saw this guy whom i saw during the ngee ann sec concert. shuai ge. haha.
after all my wonderful analysing...........................
i'm sad.
i'm heart-brokened.
can i just shift my concentration to my studies.
sigh.
off..
good night.
sweet dreams.
god bless...
happy birthday mr goh.
i feel so like shit now. i am so disappointed in myself. why is going to east view secondary a problem to me??? why cant i just say, just go for fun. why?????
argh.
i have decided not to go already.
if i like someone, it is very very very difficult for me to approach him.
then why the hell still wanna like!?!?!?!?!
cant even be friends???????
then just give up man!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
why am i worrying about these stuffs???????
THIS IS SO IRRITATING.
we all have our trivial stuffs to worry over. so just let us be.
forget it.
that is what i always say.
which is so being a coward.
well then, let nature take its course.
anyway today went to wild wild wet. was good. few nice rides.. one extra thrilling one. and the life guards were all hip hop, trying to flirt. some were cute. haha. and saw this guy whom i saw during the ngee ann sec concert. shuai ge. haha.
after all my wonderful analysing...........................
i'm sad.
i'm heart-brokened.
can i just shift my concentration to my studies.
sigh.
off..
good night.
sweet dreams.
god bless...
Sunday, December 05, 2004
never worry my life away.
hello... just came back from orchard.. went there to see my sis perform. haha. it was good. she just lacks the entertaining factor. haha. before that went all the way to tampines. went to auntie nancy's house to get my money back... well, $100. then went to tampines mall.. eastpoint.. walked around.. was okay. haha. then went to orchard. after watching the performance, went driving around for a while. then home.
okay, i haven't been doing my homework for 2 days, which is a big deal. haha. gotta do later... and tomorrow going to tian bee's chalet... dont know but i'm not really into it. sigh, just have fun man. and tuesday... whatever.
i'm so angry now. what the hell. so people dont misunderstand me? everything is my fucking fault! i get stepped over. i get tricked. i'm made fun of. i'm a fucking joke!
argh!!! but i dont bloody care.
i can just give up.
i'm not interested anymore.
okay, i haven't been doing my homework for 2 days, which is a big deal. haha. gotta do later... and tomorrow going to tian bee's chalet... dont know but i'm not really into it. sigh, just have fun man. and tuesday... whatever.
i'm so angry now. what the hell. so people dont misunderstand me? everything is my fucking fault! i get stepped over. i get tricked. i'm made fun of. i'm a fucking joke!
argh!!! but i dont bloody care.
i can just give up.
i'm not interested anymore.
bloody fucker.
hello... haha.. a sunday today. didnt go for mass. sigh... yesterday sucked.
went for tuition. met sean and melvin later. decided not to go for church. bad choice. went to visit melvin's grandfather in some hospital. went to orchard. ate. home.
haha.... later gonna go tampines!!! prays hard... haha. taking back $100 from madelyne yeah... haha.. i have some money to buy presents already.
i wanna know him!!!!!!!
good day.
=)
went for tuition. met sean and melvin later. decided not to go for church. bad choice. went to visit melvin's grandfather in some hospital. went to orchard. ate. home.
haha.... later gonna go tampines!!! prays hard... haha. taking back $100 from madelyne yeah... haha.. i have some money to buy presents already.
i wanna know him!!!!!!!
good day.
=)
Friday, December 03, 2004
The moon is mine tonight! Again. Haha.
hahahaha... harlow!!! today was quite good. haha. went for band in the morning. today the band sucked, as mr goh says.. haha.. and what the fuck is with zhi zhang?
so mr goh knows, or thinks that i like him. haha.. after band went to east view secondary... hahaha... stupid infatuation. just seen him twice. know nuts about him. DESPERATE. haha. i'll try not to think about it. nothing is going to stop me from going there again. but i'm happy. nothing special happened. but it's just the way it is. the look. the smile. the embarrassments. the exchange. the laugh.
OH MY GOD.
i'm mad, i'm mad.
stop thinking about it!!!!
kinda shallow.
so stop it.
haha.
off to dinner.
good night.
i love you!
so mr goh knows, or thinks that i like him. haha.. after band went to east view secondary... hahaha... stupid infatuation. just seen him twice. know nuts about him. DESPERATE. haha. i'll try not to think about it. nothing is going to stop me from going there again. but i'm happy. nothing special happened. but it's just the way it is. the look. the smile. the embarrassments. the exchange. the laugh.
OH MY GOD.
i'm mad, i'm mad.
stop thinking about it!!!!
kinda shallow.
so stop it.
haha.
off to dinner.
good night.
i love you!
Tales of Symphonia!
hello. haha. it has been quite a relaxing day.. did nothing much. well, played game.. online.. slept.. and homework only took 45 minutes of my day... anyway just now went to china town to have dinner with my dad and meiqi. was okay. nothing much, also.
have to do homework later. at least finish up trigonometry, please.
haha... tomorrow have band again. i love band. i want band to be my life. and one week break from band... gotta bring my trombone back home to practice.. haha. hope to buy the book of scores in plaza singapura. i love my trombone!!!
and tales of symphonia. i'm addicted to the game!!! there's lloyd, zelos, regal, raine, genis. COOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haha... but since lots of people care.......
it's getting irritating.
sarcasm is getting irritating.
i often worry about people not agreeing with what i say or comment or whatever! and therefore not voicing out much.
what the fuck is with me?
stop judging.
you are getting there.
i'll stop.
haha... anyway....................
sigh. whatever.
good night.
sweet dreams.
god bless.
have to do homework later. at least finish up trigonometry, please.
haha... tomorrow have band again. i love band. i want band to be my life. and one week break from band... gotta bring my trombone back home to practice.. haha. hope to buy the book of scores in plaza singapura. i love my trombone!!!
and tales of symphonia. i'm addicted to the game!!! there's lloyd, zelos, regal, raine, genis. COOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haha... but since lots of people care.......
it's getting irritating.
sarcasm is getting irritating.
i often worry about people not agreeing with what i say or comment or whatever! and therefore not voicing out much.
what the fuck is with me?
stop judging.
you are getting there.
i'll stop.
haha... anyway....................
sigh. whatever.
good night.
sweet dreams.
god bless.
Wednesday, December 01, 2004
Taufik Batisah!!!!!!!!!!!!
hello!!!!!!!!!! hahahhaa!!!!!! i'm so happy now!!!!!!!! taufik is our singapore idol!!!!! aaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!! screams out LOUD for him!!!!!! but too bad, nobody is sharing my enthusiastic joy with me now. hahahhahahaha! so happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
haha. he finally won. i always hoped he won. too bad for sylvester... haha. he didnt sing quite well anyway. went off tune and all that. haha.... i am so someone to judge man... but still. haha.
so CONGRATULATIONS TAUFIK. you sure won a lot of peoples' hearts! may you enter world idol and make us proud!!! supports him all the way. haha. i'll buy your album!!!!
i love taufik! i love lloyd irving! i love jimmy fallon! i love kai li! i love sean! i love melvin! i love nadia! i love jia xin! i love mathangi! i love jontan! i love daddy! i love meiqi! i love richavel! i love mummy! i love charlynn! i love david!
haha...
good night.
work time!
so happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!
=D
haha. he finally won. i always hoped he won. too bad for sylvester... haha. he didnt sing quite well anyway. went off tune and all that. haha.... i am so someone to judge man... but still. haha.
so CONGRATULATIONS TAUFIK. you sure won a lot of peoples' hearts! may you enter world idol and make us proud!!! supports him all the way. haha. i'll buy your album!!!!
i love taufik! i love lloyd irving! i love jimmy fallon! i love kai li! i love sean! i love melvin! i love nadia! i love jia xin! i love mathangi! i love jontan! i love daddy! i love meiqi! i love richavel! i love mummy! i love charlynn! i love david!
haha...
good night.
work time!
so happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!
=D
Singapore Idol!
hello.
watching singapore idol now. haha. firsts song sang.
who will be the first ever singapore idol?
taufik!
watching singapore idol now. haha. firsts song sang.
who will be the first ever singapore idol?
taufik!
my fault?
hello... haha. today's 1st of december!! start of a new month, and jia xin's birthday. haha. happy birthday jia xin!!
technically yesterday was a tuesday, and we celebrated her birthday. melvin, sean and i. was quite good day, except for 3 lousy things that happened, well, to me. haha. i didnt mean anything!! but it's still my fault. anything.
okay, we went to orchard around 12.. walked in cineleisure.. ate in pastamania for lunch. walked around. window shopped. took neoprints. watched movie, the incredibles!! haha. nice one!! damn CUTE and funny. haha. then went to heeren... the 1st stupid thing that happened.. haha. i was trying on this stupid skirt. and i accidentally broke the fucking button. haha. oh my god. how dishonest i was!! i didnt tell the shopkeeper or anyone.. sigh.. on my way out of the shop, the salesgirl was checking the buttons of the skirt. well, i think she found out... that made me even more guilty!!! and i threw away the button. haha... sounds stupid. if i told the shopkeeper there, i would have been some saint. true enough? sigh.
then we headed to bugis. ate swensens there for dinner. nice. but the steak i was eating was quite raw... haha.. after that walked around.. haha.. went into a shop, had a cute guy there. haha... walked out. melvin and i said we wanted his number. dared jiaxin to get it. she did it. got his name, but not the number. lornie or something. he didnt wan to give the number. haha. he saw us hiding outside the shop. wow. he sure will think it is me who is interested. haha. who cares anyway. i should get used to this kinda things. haha. then went out to the fountain? haha.. played the water there. was kinda childish yeah.. but just enjoy. haha. running to and fro. that kind of spurt out water from the ground one.. haha. nice to play! haha...
then we went to esplanade... took pictures there. cool and windy.. walked into fullerton hotel.. went to the roof garden. took pictures. got chased out by some guy... haha... then walked back to singapore river there.. played bridge for a while. 11 pm! had to go home. rushed back to the MRT. anyway sean didnt have money in his EZ link card.. and he just got free rides using melvin's tap. he sure feel bad about it. haha.
oh yeah.. the 2nd thing... in the afternoon i asked li bin whether he wanted to share jia xin's present with me. and just now, just 2 hours ago... he sent a bloody message to me... saying he wanted me to stop smsing him about jiaxin and to leave him alone.. the message was long.. sigh. my fault??? i was just helping. OKAY IT'S MY FAULT. i did it on my own accord. i gave fucking daniel the number. sigh..... i thought it was nothing... sorry jiaxin. sorry li bin.
and the 3rd thing. WOW. the hp bill was 300+, total of my dad's, my sis' and mine... and of course i took up much of it... sigh. because of the calls i made in New Zealand. well, i called and jia xin talked most of it. sigh. not blaming you jia xin. but my dad wants the money from them............ wow. possible man. sigh...... where to get the money? to return? to buy christmas presents? to pay my fees for whatever? my father is not a rich ass anymore..... haha....
so that's it. it's now 1 30 in the morning. and i have to do some homework. and i have band tomorrow. oh god, bless me.
good night.
my life's so fun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
technically yesterday was a tuesday, and we celebrated her birthday. melvin, sean and i. was quite good day, except for 3 lousy things that happened, well, to me. haha. i didnt mean anything!! but it's still my fault. anything.
okay, we went to orchard around 12.. walked in cineleisure.. ate in pastamania for lunch. walked around. window shopped. took neoprints. watched movie, the incredibles!! haha. nice one!! damn CUTE and funny. haha. then went to heeren... the 1st stupid thing that happened.. haha. i was trying on this stupid skirt. and i accidentally broke the fucking button. haha. oh my god. how dishonest i was!! i didnt tell the shopkeeper or anyone.. sigh.. on my way out of the shop, the salesgirl was checking the buttons of the skirt. well, i think she found out... that made me even more guilty!!! and i threw away the button. haha... sounds stupid. if i told the shopkeeper there, i would have been some saint. true enough? sigh.
then we headed to bugis. ate swensens there for dinner. nice. but the steak i was eating was quite raw... haha.. after that walked around.. haha.. went into a shop, had a cute guy there. haha... walked out. melvin and i said we wanted his number. dared jiaxin to get it. she did it. got his name, but not the number. lornie or something. he didnt wan to give the number. haha. he saw us hiding outside the shop. wow. he sure will think it is me who is interested. haha. who cares anyway. i should get used to this kinda things. haha. then went out to the fountain? haha.. played the water there. was kinda childish yeah.. but just enjoy. haha. running to and fro. that kind of spurt out water from the ground one.. haha. nice to play! haha...
then we went to esplanade... took pictures there. cool and windy.. walked into fullerton hotel.. went to the roof garden. took pictures. got chased out by some guy... haha... then walked back to singapore river there.. played bridge for a while. 11 pm! had to go home. rushed back to the MRT. anyway sean didnt have money in his EZ link card.. and he just got free rides using melvin's tap. he sure feel bad about it. haha.
oh yeah.. the 2nd thing... in the afternoon i asked li bin whether he wanted to share jia xin's present with me. and just now, just 2 hours ago... he sent a bloody message to me... saying he wanted me to stop smsing him about jiaxin and to leave him alone.. the message was long.. sigh. my fault??? i was just helping. OKAY IT'S MY FAULT. i did it on my own accord. i gave fucking daniel the number. sigh..... i thought it was nothing... sorry jiaxin. sorry li bin.
and the 3rd thing. WOW. the hp bill was 300+, total of my dad's, my sis' and mine... and of course i took up much of it... sigh. because of the calls i made in New Zealand. well, i called and jia xin talked most of it. sigh. not blaming you jia xin. but my dad wants the money from them............ wow. possible man. sigh...... where to get the money? to return? to buy christmas presents? to pay my fees for whatever? my father is not a rich ass anymore..... haha....
so that's it. it's now 1 30 in the morning. and i have to do some homework. and i have band tomorrow. oh god, bless me.
good night.
my life's so fun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Monday, November 29, 2004
no time left.
hello.. i last blogged on friday.. haha. saturday.. wasted day. didnt do much. sunday went to church and stuff. i got his name. jerome. haha.
then today... went for band.. went to orchard with gladys they all.. went for theory. home. dinner. i'm feeling tired now. sigh, how am i going to do homework later. sigh...... and i miss the game!! oh my god, i'm in love with loyld!! and zelos!! even though i haven't met him!! haha. i'm crazy. falling in love with a bunch of cartoons. but how i wish to enter their world!! i love loyld!!!! and also, today watched taxi with them... haha. the guy, andy wash-something.. haha. so cute!! not handsome. but so cute!!!!! oh my god. really cute, his actions and all. oh man.... love him!!! his real name is jimmy something.. gonna check it out later. haha.
whatever.
good night.
god bless.
then today... went for band.. went to orchard with gladys they all.. went for theory. home. dinner. i'm feeling tired now. sigh, how am i going to do homework later. sigh...... and i miss the game!! oh my god, i'm in love with loyld!! and zelos!! even though i haven't met him!! haha. i'm crazy. falling in love with a bunch of cartoons. but how i wish to enter their world!! i love loyld!!!! and also, today watched taxi with them... haha. the guy, andy wash-something.. haha. so cute!! not handsome. but so cute!!!!! oh my god. really cute, his actions and all. oh man.... love him!!! his real name is jimmy something.. gonna check it out later. haha.
whatever.
good night.
god bless.
Saturday, November 27, 2004
crazy!
hey hey hey.. haha.. bueno vita, or whatever. haha. i wanna learn some foreign languages!! like spanish or french. how i admire you sean. you got the bloody chances and talent. haha. anyway, today was quite a nice day.
morning went to band as usual.. but today was different, some people from east view and siling military band came to erm, visit us? haha. mr goh said there will be some kind of exchange programme with east view sec.. and oh my god. haha. actually nothing much. there's this guy trombonist, name's kai li, the drum major of east view sec. haha. he sat in between me and de yong. then.... i dont know what gotten into me... i just somehow shyed away... and didnt talk to him, which i had to, because he was the guest. but anyway, the main thing is that... aiya.. actually nadia asked him whether he had a girlfriend or not. he had. and she made it seemed that i liked him. haha... stupid lah. he's quite nice anyway.
then after band went home to change.. met wuyi with meiqi at jurong east interchange.. okay, but the details. we went to orchard to shop for presents yeah... i bought sean's already.. cant decide what to buy for nadia, jia xin and melvin. melvin!! i really wanna buy that shirt for you!! but i cant find the one you liked.. sigh. i will choose one myself ya.. hopes that you will like it. and also i bought a damn nice blouse and a skirt.. haha. they said i looked good in those kinda skirts.. but i just dont feel comfortable wearing them.. haha.. anyway i'll try. i must!!! if not waste $29... sigh. i'm quite broke also. so...... sigh.
what else... nothing already. one and only worry. my studies. sigh. fuck them lah.
good night.
God bless.....
morning went to band as usual.. but today was different, some people from east view and siling military band came to erm, visit us? haha. mr goh said there will be some kind of exchange programme with east view sec.. and oh my god. haha. actually nothing much. there's this guy trombonist, name's kai li, the drum major of east view sec. haha. he sat in between me and de yong. then.... i dont know what gotten into me... i just somehow shyed away... and didnt talk to him, which i had to, because he was the guest. but anyway, the main thing is that... aiya.. actually nadia asked him whether he had a girlfriend or not. he had. and she made it seemed that i liked him. haha... stupid lah. he's quite nice anyway.
then after band went home to change.. met wuyi with meiqi at jurong east interchange.. okay, but the details. we went to orchard to shop for presents yeah... i bought sean's already.. cant decide what to buy for nadia, jia xin and melvin. melvin!! i really wanna buy that shirt for you!! but i cant find the one you liked.. sigh. i will choose one myself ya.. hopes that you will like it. and also i bought a damn nice blouse and a skirt.. haha. they said i looked good in those kinda skirts.. but i just dont feel comfortable wearing them.. haha.. anyway i'll try. i must!!! if not waste $29... sigh. i'm quite broke also. so...... sigh.
what else... nothing already. one and only worry. my studies. sigh. fuck them lah.
good night.
God bless.....
Thursday, November 25, 2004
Jontan!
harlow... haha... today was another free day.. had nothing on.. but i still havent done any work!!! shit myself!!! sigh.... really gonna die... forget it! i'm not gonna say anything to push myself!
today woke up at 12.. pig!!!!!!!!! then went out for lunch with family.. reached home at about 3.. did a bit of a maths.. about 2 questions? oh my god. the moment i cant do a question, i'll stop. what a bad attitude!!! i must push myself!!! sigh. then slept again.. played a bit of the game.. it rocks. then dinner.. watched singapore idol.. haha. taufik!!! he just rocks! i really hope he becomes the 1st ever singapore idol.
anyway, i've decided. can i just forget about liking anyone?? it's normal, to like anyone every now and then. and it's not very good for me. haha. so i'll forget them!!! haha. whatever. but suddenly i miss jontan. oh yeah... haha. how i wish man! to see him one day. to be his good friend over the miles!!! haha.
please!!!!! i really wish!! let me see him online.
okay. i gotta bathe now.
good night.
finally i'm in a good mood!
=)
today woke up at 12.. pig!!!!!!!!! then went out for lunch with family.. reached home at about 3.. did a bit of a maths.. about 2 questions? oh my god. the moment i cant do a question, i'll stop. what a bad attitude!!! i must push myself!!! sigh. then slept again.. played a bit of the game.. it rocks. then dinner.. watched singapore idol.. haha. taufik!!! he just rocks! i really hope he becomes the 1st ever singapore idol.
anyway, i've decided. can i just forget about liking anyone?? it's normal, to like anyone every now and then. and it's not very good for me. haha. so i'll forget them!!! haha. whatever. but suddenly i miss jontan. oh yeah... haha. how i wish man! to see him one day. to be his good friend over the miles!!! haha.
please!!!!! i really wish!! let me see him online.
okay. i gotta bathe now.
good night.
finally i'm in a good mood!
=)
Wednesday, November 24, 2004
Tuesday, November 23, 2004
so lame.
hey hey.. haha. harlow. today's tuesday. stayed at home most of the time yeah. went to buy school books in the morning.. went back home.. played game.. it's a nice game. haha. tales of symphonia. the only problem, i dont have all the time to play it!! sigh. i still havent done any work yet. everyday i tell myself at least must do a bit. but??? damn it. just now packed a bit of my room. so many things!!! quite irritating.. haha.. then slept. dinner. later, must must must!!! do some work. sigh.
anyway that stupid problem is over, according to sean. i really think it's lame. such a small matter. jumping to silly conclusions. sigh. whatever. you all still rock my world. haha.
tomorrow got that mini band performance in the stadium again... sucks. i'm not doing anything as a logistics IQM... i want to okay? next time, anything to do with stands, chairs, instruments, banners, performances, etc... i must care okay??? i am such an irresponsible person!
next, please please do my homework. i really need to worry for o'level. i want to go to a JC. a good JC. please. help myself.
next thing to worry about. church!! i must start to read the bible. i have to know more!! how can i be confirmed like that?!?!?!
sigh. and also, christmas presents. have to start buying..
and clearing up of my room. not yet done.
i have not much time left. please richalynn, BUCK UP.
OKAY????????????
argh.
i am so pissed by myself.
good night.
anyway that stupid problem is over, according to sean. i really think it's lame. such a small matter. jumping to silly conclusions. sigh. whatever. you all still rock my world. haha.
tomorrow got that mini band performance in the stadium again... sucks. i'm not doing anything as a logistics IQM... i want to okay? next time, anything to do with stands, chairs, instruments, banners, performances, etc... i must care okay??? i am such an irresponsible person!
next, please please do my homework. i really need to worry for o'level. i want to go to a JC. a good JC. please. help myself.
next thing to worry about. church!! i must start to read the bible. i have to know more!! how can i be confirmed like that?!?!?!
sigh. and also, christmas presents. have to start buying..
and clearing up of my room. not yet done.
i have not much time left. please richalynn, BUCK UP.
OKAY????????????
argh.
i am so pissed by myself.
good night.
do i have to bother?
hello. i feeling quite fucked up now. since life is so wonderful. it is wonderful. but with some of the people in it. i'm not complaining. i dont want to.
anyway today had that mini performance at toa payoh stadium. was okay... quite meaningless actually. after that went to west mall burger king to have lunch. with jia xin and daniel. thanks daniel for putting jia xin into shit. sigh. went home. played game. slept. went to meet sean, melvin and tszho. tsz ho left. went for theory. went to jia xin's house. melvin was in a bad mood. home.
well, whatever. just get on with your COMPLICATED lives.
OH FUCK!!!!!!!!!!
anyway today had that mini performance at toa payoh stadium. was okay... quite meaningless actually. after that went to west mall burger king to have lunch. with jia xin and daniel. thanks daniel for putting jia xin into shit. sigh. went home. played game. slept. went to meet sean, melvin and tszho. tsz ho left. went for theory. went to jia xin's house. melvin was in a bad mood. home.
well, whatever. just get on with your COMPLICATED lives.
OH FUCK!!!!!!!!!!
Sunday, November 21, 2004
lead me on the path of righteousness and love...
hellllloooo..... oh my god.. i feel so sorry for myself now... i have done so many wrong things.... and not done anything that benefits me... sigh.
today morning went to church. thank God. i still have time to correct myself. i really need to list out them out man. i'm ruining myself!!!
i feel so bad now.... can i just be left alone???
i'm sorry.
think whatever you want. do whatever you want. say whatever you want.
i shall not care.
can i just be rude for now.
fuck off.
today morning went to church. thank God. i still have time to correct myself. i really need to list out them out man. i'm ruining myself!!!
i feel so bad now.... can i just be left alone???
i'm sorry.
think whatever you want. do whatever you want. say whatever you want.
i shall not care.
can i just be rude for now.
fuck off.
Melvin i love you!!!
hey... haha.. it's 1.23 in the morning.. and tomorrow have to wake up early to go to church!! haha.. today was nice!! even though some weird things happened.. okay.. woke up at 12 today.. being a pig again.. then ate lunch.. played some game.. then melvin called.. haha.. went to his house.. "do homework".. my father doesnt trust me.. i wont cross the line okay... sigh. anyway was in melvin's house.. looking at him use the computer.. then sean arrived.. was crapping away.. haha.. then went to jurong point to have dinner.. okay this is the main part..
we decided to eat in pizza hut.. then, sean saw a cute malay guy who was the waiter.. and of course we made a commotion over it. first, melvin i tried to go close to him to get his bloody name.. and it was lallang.. or however you spell it. then we carried on with our food.. taking looks at him once in a while. i wasnt that interested.. i had a headache, so i needed water. so, as expected we purposely called for that cuuuuutee guy for the glass of water. i think that was when he sense a bit of ermm... weirdness. anyway, melvin and sean were planning to get his number!! using me. and by accident, when sean was looking at my handphone.. and when that cuuuutee guy walked past us.. i said out loud, "faster take!!".. and thanks, he heard. was embarrassed then.. but now i think about it.. actually that smile he had was so sweet!!! haha... so he thinks i was interested in him... and melvin was persistent in getting his number... haha.. well, i'm too lazy to type the rest...
sorry melvin, i finally understand your situation... i'm not good at words!! i cant say anything to help or console you... but i'll always be there for you... dont worry, and cheer up!
so... just now.. was with meiqi and sean.. wanted to watch movie.. but forget it. no nice shows. then went to coffee bean to sit and drink. had some fun with the handphone.. took pictures and video... it was nice.. had some nice pictures.. haha.. then went to the ulu carpark.. was okay.. lazy to type..
wanna sleep already..
good night.
sweet dreams.
=)
we decided to eat in pizza hut.. then, sean saw a cute malay guy who was the waiter.. and of course we made a commotion over it. first, melvin i tried to go close to him to get his bloody name.. and it was lallang.. or however you spell it. then we carried on with our food.. taking looks at him once in a while. i wasnt that interested.. i had a headache, so i needed water. so, as expected we purposely called for that cuuuuutee guy for the glass of water. i think that was when he sense a bit of ermm... weirdness. anyway, melvin and sean were planning to get his number!! using me. and by accident, when sean was looking at my handphone.. and when that cuuuutee guy walked past us.. i said out loud, "faster take!!".. and thanks, he heard. was embarrassed then.. but now i think about it.. actually that smile he had was so sweet!!! haha... so he thinks i was interested in him... and melvin was persistent in getting his number... haha.. well, i'm too lazy to type the rest...
sorry melvin, i finally understand your situation... i'm not good at words!! i cant say anything to help or console you... but i'll always be there for you... dont worry, and cheer up!
so... just now.. was with meiqi and sean.. wanted to watch movie.. but forget it. no nice shows. then went to coffee bean to sit and drink. had some fun with the handphone.. took pictures and video... it was nice.. had some nice pictures.. haha.. then went to the ulu carpark.. was okay.. lazy to type..
wanna sleep already..
good night.
sweet dreams.
=)
Friday, November 19, 2004
taufik!
hello... haha.. just watched singapore idol... taufik and sylvester went into the finals... haha... like that, how will singapore vote?? chinese VS malay.. hope is whole singpaore VS those screaming girls crazy over sylvester!! haha...
anyway today morning went to band... then after that went to meet sean they all at orchard.. was okay.. tired walking around.. in band talked to nadia.. and thanks!! for saying things that are not true about me... whatever! i dont have to care... i know my limits!!!!! sigh.
so what else... gonna start piano lessons in december.. haha. hope it doesnt affect my studies.. i have to learn how to organise and schedule my times!!! sigh... everyday must at least do some work and study!!! dont go out too much.. leave the fun times to around christmas.. haha...
off.
good night.
do you not ever believe in me?
am i that hard to trust?
call yourself a friend?
whatever.
i'm not that great either.
anyway today morning went to band... then after that went to meet sean they all at orchard.. was okay.. tired walking around.. in band talked to nadia.. and thanks!! for saying things that are not true about me... whatever! i dont have to care... i know my limits!!!!! sigh.
so what else... gonna start piano lessons in december.. haha. hope it doesnt affect my studies.. i have to learn how to organise and schedule my times!!! sigh... everyday must at least do some work and study!!! dont go out too much.. leave the fun times to around christmas.. haha...
off.
good night.
do you not ever believe in me?
am i that hard to trust?
call yourself a friend?
whatever.
i'm not that great either.
Thursday, November 18, 2004
the moon is mine tonight!
oh my god oh my god oh my god.. haha.. i got a hp already.. but i dont know why.. i'm not that excited or happy.. just have to spend less next time... cannot use too much sms.. haha.
nothing to say...
good night.
happy holidays!!!
nothing to say...
good night.
happy holidays!!!
Monday, November 15, 2004
how i wish........
hello...... haha... am doing the online homework now... no mood to do lah... just do a few more then forget it... have to finish up maths!!! i feel better now, better than in the afternoon. so crazy lor. mood swings. bitch. i am really an ass. so mean to some people. sigh. okay now i'm not gonna use any singapore abbreviations anymore. have to improve my english yeah? my sister got C6 for her english in o'levels... sigh. i'm afraid i will too... so must start reading!! anyway i have some plans for this holiday. firstly i am very looking forward to Christmas!! my favourite time of the year. haha. wait, i wanna continue my summary of the trip to NZ.
Day 4/5
set off to kiwipaka Waitomo. the hostels were great. haha. the waitomo caves!! were damn beautiful. once of the most amazing thing i've ever seen in my freaking life. spent 2 days at the hostel there... was quite nice. although left out by the band. oh ya.. after coming out of the caves, we played volleyball. was fun!! haha. first time i played... i wanna try again. and we played with this guy, paul. he's so nice. but some asses want to speak in chinese and mock him. what the fuck? have some manners can or not??? fuckers... anyway paul was the one who drove us up the erm, hill? haha. dont know why, but i remember him. so all thanks to zhizhang, jia xin and me feel so fucking left out. call us extras?? fuck lah! other than that, dont really remember what happened... at night played pool with those guys... fun. haha.
day 6.
in kiwipaka rotorua. the rottenrua place. haha. was kind of smelly, that place. cause of the sulphur from volcanos and stuff. then went to the volcano place. was okay... and shopping too. at night, went to dipping in the hot pool. fun! with yibiao, libin they all... talking and stuff... for two nights. that's it... forgot about the rest.
day 7.
in airplane back to singapore.
i miss New Zealand!!!!
anyway my must-dos for the holiday.
-study!!!! revise all sec 3 topics.
-learn piano
-room spring-cleaning.
-buy christmas presents and cards. for karena and family, sean, melvin, jiaxin, tsz ho, sandy, and whoever i think of next.
-buy birthday presents. laa, daniel, bimbo, ...
-save money!!
-get money back from madelyne
-enjoy life!!!
-...
-be a good catholic.
haha... so, make sure i do them. love life now!!!!!!!!!!!!
good night!
God bless!
=)
Day 4/5
set off to kiwipaka Waitomo. the hostels were great. haha. the waitomo caves!! were damn beautiful. once of the most amazing thing i've ever seen in my freaking life. spent 2 days at the hostel there... was quite nice. although left out by the band. oh ya.. after coming out of the caves, we played volleyball. was fun!! haha. first time i played... i wanna try again. and we played with this guy, paul. he's so nice. but some asses want to speak in chinese and mock him. what the fuck? have some manners can or not??? fuckers... anyway paul was the one who drove us up the erm, hill? haha. dont know why, but i remember him. so all thanks to zhizhang, jia xin and me feel so fucking left out. call us extras?? fuck lah! other than that, dont really remember what happened... at night played pool with those guys... fun. haha.
day 6.
in kiwipaka rotorua. the rottenrua place. haha. was kind of smelly, that place. cause of the sulphur from volcanos and stuff. then went to the volcano place. was okay... and shopping too. at night, went to dipping in the hot pool. fun! with yibiao, libin they all... talking and stuff... for two nights. that's it... forgot about the rest.
day 7.
in airplane back to singapore.
i miss New Zealand!!!!
anyway my must-dos for the holiday.
-study!!!! revise all sec 3 topics.
-learn piano
-room spring-cleaning.
-buy christmas presents and cards. for karena and family, sean, melvin, jiaxin, tsz ho, sandy, and whoever i think of next.
-buy birthday presents. laa, daniel, bimbo, ...
-save money!!
-get money back from madelyne
-enjoy life!!!
-...
-be a good catholic.
haha... so, make sure i do them. love life now!!!!!!!!!!!!
good night!
God bless!
=)
homework, homework, homework.
hello... today's monday... holiday after hari raya yesterday... didnt blog since thursday ya?? actually come online wanted to do the online homework thing!! but what the fuck? how and where to go to the the work?? sigh. forget it lor, i'll just blog. later must finish the bloody maths homework.. and i know how to do lah!!! what the fuck man. i dont care lah, just scold all i want in this entry. sigh..... dont know why i feel so irritated. i'll just talk about what happened the past few days lor.
friday... what the hell did i do?? oh ya... had band practice in the morning. the SYF set piece came out already.. so freaking short! one page only. of course making it sound bloody good is the challenge lah. trombone section!!!! can we sound much better!?!?!?! sigh. then after band went home. sleep and slack. played game... then went to auntie jenny's house for some kinda farewell party for mummy. okay lor... loaded the pictures into the CD already.. haha.. but realised actually i didnt take much pictures in NZ. sigh. but never mind.. memories can liao.... then nothing much lor. sat around in the house. watched singapore idol.. daphne out!! haha.. luckily not taufik. actually i hoped sylvester out lor... but who cares lah. taufik just rocks lah!!! then ate the BBQ food. watched tv... then home.
next day saturday. my mum flew off to philippines with charlynn.. went to changi airport to send them off. quite sad leh. they're coming back next year. mummy merry christmas!!! after that went to plaza singapura. saw taufik, olinda and syl there... haha.. some autograph session.. i waved at taufik and he waved back at me!!! i think. haha. loves him lah!! then met sean. walked around in PS.. wanted to watch movie.. but the timing not right leh... went to orchard.. walk walk.. nothing much lah. then went back to bukit batok.. sat in coffee bean. home.
sunday.. went to church in the morning. no class!! haha.. so just attended mass.. went to jurong point. had mcdonalds for breakfast?? then went to melvin's house. nothing lor. waited for him to finish up his homework. then went to orchard. aiya. he already summarised the outing in our blog. sorry jiaxin, i'll always be there for you!! dont care about all those freaking assholes lah!! then home. tried to do homework, but fell asleep. so today... no going out.. just do my work!! and later got theory lesson. hope my teacher wont be angry lah!!!
sigh. anyway i wanted to continue my summary of the NZ trip.. but nadia just told me how to go to the online homework thing... so i have to do!!! argh!!! i'm just so sick and tired now of doing school work. BUT I JUST HAVE TO. O ' LEVELS!!! sigh..........
good day.
sorry sorry sorry!!! i feel like i have done thousand of wrong things. sigh.
what the fuck.
off.
friday... what the hell did i do?? oh ya... had band practice in the morning. the SYF set piece came out already.. so freaking short! one page only. of course making it sound bloody good is the challenge lah. trombone section!!!! can we sound much better!?!?!?! sigh. then after band went home. sleep and slack. played game... then went to auntie jenny's house for some kinda farewell party for mummy. okay lor... loaded the pictures into the CD already.. haha.. but realised actually i didnt take much pictures in NZ. sigh. but never mind.. memories can liao.... then nothing much lor. sat around in the house. watched singapore idol.. daphne out!! haha.. luckily not taufik. actually i hoped sylvester out lor... but who cares lah. taufik just rocks lah!!! then ate the BBQ food. watched tv... then home.
next day saturday. my mum flew off to philippines with charlynn.. went to changi airport to send them off. quite sad leh. they're coming back next year. mummy merry christmas!!! after that went to plaza singapura. saw taufik, olinda and syl there... haha.. some autograph session.. i waved at taufik and he waved back at me!!! i think. haha. loves him lah!! then met sean. walked around in PS.. wanted to watch movie.. but the timing not right leh... went to orchard.. walk walk.. nothing much lah. then went back to bukit batok.. sat in coffee bean. home.
sunday.. went to church in the morning. no class!! haha.. so just attended mass.. went to jurong point. had mcdonalds for breakfast?? then went to melvin's house. nothing lor. waited for him to finish up his homework. then went to orchard. aiya. he already summarised the outing in our blog. sorry jiaxin, i'll always be there for you!! dont care about all those freaking assholes lah!! then home. tried to do homework, but fell asleep. so today... no going out.. just do my work!! and later got theory lesson. hope my teacher wont be angry lah!!!
sigh. anyway i wanted to continue my summary of the NZ trip.. but nadia just told me how to go to the online homework thing... so i have to do!!! argh!!! i'm just so sick and tired now of doing school work. BUT I JUST HAVE TO. O ' LEVELS!!! sigh..........
good day.
sorry sorry sorry!!! i feel like i have done thousand of wrong things. sigh.
what the fuck.
off.
Thursday, November 11, 2004
Oh my god.
hello... today's Deepavali. happy Deepavali to all my indian friends out there.. laavanyah, poovanes, miss punitha, saranya, arun etc.. later tonight going to laa's house. hope to have fun.. and happy birthday sze xin!! may all your dreams and wishes come true!! like you will read this lah, but still.
anyway.. according to my title.. i've got myself into some shit lah. since dont know when. i'm really such a bitch lah!! god!!! welcome his erm, you know. i'm not really serious lah k... urgh!! what should i do???
and what short form have i for them... erm.. bbs.. haha. ok bbs are or were enjoying at miis punitha's house.. sigh. i missed out the fun!!! argh.
and my studies.... wow........ sigh. i really gotta start doing tomorrow. but everyday got something on!!! sigh. tomorrow needa go with my mum to her friend's house... load my pictures.. which is a must! sigh. i cannot lose them!!! then saturday send my mum off at the airport.. she's going to philippines.. with charlynn.. wish ya all good luck there. will miss. then after that dont know lah.. hope i can get the ball rolling and study!!! sunday... church. then sure wanna go out with sean.. monday.. band.. after that. please go home can??? go home!!! then tuesday back to school and must pass up some homework!! sigh................. tired..
off now.
bye.
bless me.
tze jie i dont wanna be your enemy.
anyway.. according to my title.. i've got myself into some shit lah. since dont know when. i'm really such a bitch lah!! god!!! welcome his erm, you know. i'm not really serious lah k... urgh!! what should i do???
and what short form have i for them... erm.. bbs.. haha. ok bbs are or were enjoying at miis punitha's house.. sigh. i missed out the fun!!! argh.
and my studies.... wow........ sigh. i really gotta start doing tomorrow. but everyday got something on!!! sigh. tomorrow needa go with my mum to her friend's house... load my pictures.. which is a must! sigh. i cannot lose them!!! then saturday send my mum off at the airport.. she's going to philippines.. with charlynn.. wish ya all good luck there. will miss. then after that dont know lah.. hope i can get the ball rolling and study!!! sunday... church. then sure wanna go out with sean.. monday.. band.. after that. please go home can??? go home!!! then tuesday back to school and must pass up some homework!! sigh................. tired..
off now.
bye.
bless me.
tze jie i dont wanna be your enemy.
Tuesday, November 09, 2004
back from New Zealand. In a mess.
hey hey... harlow.. today's tuesday.. came back from NZ on sunday night. touched to see my family waiting for me there.. haha.. but thanks lah.. got scolded and humiliated by freaking mdm fadilah. not i make the decisions one right!!! argh! whatever! blame my dad lah... made my cry.. what the fuck... that's why i had no mood to talk about my trip that night. and i'm sorry. sigh. then had mcdonalds in changi airport. talked to nadia on the handphone.. haha.. then home. slept straight away lah. without changing or showering. i'm such a pig.
then monday.. nothing much also.. cant blog cause fucking internet explorer got problem... then did nothing.. wait until 5 plus.. went to school collect my luggage.. fetched mathangi and jiaxin home in my dad's car... haha.. then went home.. prepared for music theory lesson. was okay lor. decided to learn piano.. yippeee!! haha.. then after that home. totally did nothing meaningful day lah.
today.. back to lessons. in a mess lah. so many things havent learn... so many things missed out. sigh. want to start working also so hard. after lessons went out with bimbos and snowball.. was nice.. haha.. being with them is always so fun. went to have lunch at foodcourt.. MC... then was having a freaking fuss over some sean and friends stuff lah. i can just say that it's so FUCKING CHILDISH lah. and i have nothing to do with it. and i'm just gonna go with the flow. and i hope my friendships with the people i love wont be ruined. haha... and i'm sorry if you think i'm a liar. cause i make up my mind very easily.. and i mostly do things on the spur of the moment. i can say i'm doing this later, and later i'm doing another thing. sorry lah... sigh. i just dont go with my plans. so after some walks and talks.. home.
so let me talk about the NZ trip.. oh my god.. i hope i can remember.
day 1.
arrived at auckland airport. waited until 6 am. boarded the bus. the weather was cool. haha. then went to mt ethen. an extinct volcano. nice! windy.. and the view was of the whole of auckland. there was this big crater. cool. eh wait.. the view from the plane was damn nice lah! first time see... haha.. especially during sunset. wow... okay then after the mt ethen. travelled to mahurangi college to place our instruments and meet our buddies. jiaxin, mathangi and i got karena.. haha.. then went to her house. and slept the whole day. had dinner.. met the handsome brother, jared. and his girlfriend.. haha.. he bought back some fireworks. and he lit them, so beautiful!! and the stars on the first night was wonderful.
day 2.
snells beach. had bbq lunch. canoed. sea biscuit. fun!
day 3.
performance at the college. after that went to sian's farm. haha. nice loh. saw the animals. climbed the mini hill. yep.. then went to sheep's world or what. fed the animals. got this animal show. nice. haha.
day 4.
went to this beach. had the glass bottom boat thing. haha.. ok lor. i dont really remember lah... sigh
forget it. i'm not typing anymore. i'm tired.
good night.
then monday.. nothing much also.. cant blog cause fucking internet explorer got problem... then did nothing.. wait until 5 plus.. went to school collect my luggage.. fetched mathangi and jiaxin home in my dad's car... haha.. then went home.. prepared for music theory lesson. was okay lor. decided to learn piano.. yippeee!! haha.. then after that home. totally did nothing meaningful day lah.
today.. back to lessons. in a mess lah. so many things havent learn... so many things missed out. sigh. want to start working also so hard. after lessons went out with bimbos and snowball.. was nice.. haha.. being with them is always so fun. went to have lunch at foodcourt.. MC... then was having a freaking fuss over some sean and friends stuff lah. i can just say that it's so FUCKING CHILDISH lah. and i have nothing to do with it. and i'm just gonna go with the flow. and i hope my friendships with the people i love wont be ruined. haha... and i'm sorry if you think i'm a liar. cause i make up my mind very easily.. and i mostly do things on the spur of the moment. i can say i'm doing this later, and later i'm doing another thing. sorry lah... sigh. i just dont go with my plans. so after some walks and talks.. home.
so let me talk about the NZ trip.. oh my god.. i hope i can remember.
day 1.
arrived at auckland airport. waited until 6 am. boarded the bus. the weather was cool. haha. then went to mt ethen. an extinct volcano. nice! windy.. and the view was of the whole of auckland. there was this big crater. cool. eh wait.. the view from the plane was damn nice lah! first time see... haha.. especially during sunset. wow... okay then after the mt ethen. travelled to mahurangi college to place our instruments and meet our buddies. jiaxin, mathangi and i got karena.. haha.. then went to her house. and slept the whole day. had dinner.. met the handsome brother, jared. and his girlfriend.. haha.. he bought back some fireworks. and he lit them, so beautiful!! and the stars on the first night was wonderful.
day 2.
snells beach. had bbq lunch. canoed. sea biscuit. fun!
day 3.
performance at the college. after that went to sian's farm. haha. nice loh. saw the animals. climbed the mini hill. yep.. then went to sheep's world or what. fed the animals. got this animal show. nice. haha.
day 4.
went to this beach. had the glass bottom boat thing. haha.. ok lor. i dont really remember lah... sigh
forget it. i'm not typing anymore. i'm tired.
good night.
Thursday, October 28, 2004
off to New Zealand.
haha.. just some hours more and i'm heading to changi airport...
wah thanks lah. embarrassed myself. *cries*
haha.
never mind lah.
must brave up myself.
ya ya.
sigh.......
oh my god.
forget it!!
hahahahahahahaha.
so stupid man.
never mind!!!!!
anyway, farewell.
wah thanks lah. embarrassed myself. *cries*
haha.
never mind lah.
must brave up myself.
ya ya.
sigh.......
oh my god.
forget it!!
hahahahahahahaha.
so stupid man.
never mind!!!!!
anyway, farewell.
Tuesday, October 26, 2004
useless fuck, again.
hey hey... little india was on saturday... so i didnt update for 2 days... haha... updated that bimbotic blog... anyway sunday nothing much... church in the morning, without sean. then home.. tv.. sleep.. one piggish day lah.. haha. then monday.. yesterday!! haha.. was one fun day.. although made some "wrong" choices... went to sentosa... haha.. with sean, jiaxin, melvin, shumin, saranya, grace, eileen etc.. then those e5 guys.. some e2 and e1 guys.. and joseph.. that gang lah... okay wait.. in the morning went to school to settle those instrument stuffs.. i'm such a shit lah. so bloody nervous when asked to do something.. argh!!!!! then after that got the banner thing.. waited for years for them to come back from buying cloth and paint. then discussed a thousand years what they want to do... then till now i dunno whether they did it or not. cause i think it'll be a failure.. haha... so, i decided to forget it lah, went to sentosa... reached there.. cant find bloody siloso beach lah.. haha.. alighted at the wrong place from the bus.. then walked damn long, and finally reached. met them.. then cycled.. okay lor. the track quite suck lah. haha. then came back.. most of them dont know go where, left siloso beach... decided to go into the water.. haha! fun! at first was escaping from them with melvin. then finally they pulled me into the water.. and melvin.. swim swim.. play play.. laugh laugh.. then swam across to the small island.. first time! haha.. sean and melvin helped me a little. cause i scared i drown... haha... saranya also swam.. haha.. then the view from the island was nice.. haha. buried saranya in the sand.. haha.. she so cute when she laugh.. then swam back.. sean, melvin and eileen got buried.. haha.. then played some throwing into the sea games. haha.. quite fun lor. the laughter and all. and i had a kinda sweet feeling. never mind, shall not say. haha... then went for dinner with them at the hawker centre at the harbour front bustop there... then went to orchard with sean and melvin.. haha.. nice lor.. talk and all that. melvin has got a damn big diet lah. didnt got up to paragon.. cause got guards there who didnt allow us in.. haha.. was kinda late then went home... thousands of hahas i've typed lah. shitty.
today is tuesday... got to school. had the money management thing. nothing much. then went back to school for the prefect meeting. nothing much also. then went to buy wrapping papers.. home.
okay, according to my title, i was quite selfish lately lah... firstly right.. actually i should have helped out in the banner thing. and i should have gone for theory. and the worst things are that i lied a thousand times. and i didnt help do much for the NZ trip. i dont have bloody freaking microsoft words lah.. how to do research.. my diskette drive got problem.. my printer cant work. all in all, my computer is really crap! tried to contact sean, nadia and mathangi to help me, use their computer, but all cant.. then mathangi so nice.. help me do.. sigh.. actually is my fault right... i dont remember need to do until zafirah reminded me today... argh.... i'm really a shit lah. everything is about my own fun and interest. argh!!!!
then today we were talking to mr latiff.. he mentioned about some people dropping to normal... so sad!!! then about the miss foo thing.. mdm yaw is gonna tell us the story.. but some of us will not be around to hear it next week, will miss out. sigh. feel kinda sad for her... miss foo, dont fret. never give up in life.
so after tomorrow... !!!! haha... NZ! yoo hooooo!!!!!!! it's gonna be fun!
gonna bathe.
later.
good night.
today is tuesday... got to school. had the money management thing. nothing much. then went back to school for the prefect meeting. nothing much also. then went to buy wrapping papers.. home.
okay, according to my title, i was quite selfish lately lah... firstly right.. actually i should have helped out in the banner thing. and i should have gone for theory. and the worst things are that i lied a thousand times. and i didnt help do much for the NZ trip. i dont have bloody freaking microsoft words lah.. how to do research.. my diskette drive got problem.. my printer cant work. all in all, my computer is really crap! tried to contact sean, nadia and mathangi to help me, use their computer, but all cant.. then mathangi so nice.. help me do.. sigh.. actually is my fault right... i dont remember need to do until zafirah reminded me today... argh.... i'm really a shit lah. everything is about my own fun and interest. argh!!!!
then today we were talking to mr latiff.. he mentioned about some people dropping to normal... so sad!!! then about the miss foo thing.. mdm yaw is gonna tell us the story.. but some of us will not be around to hear it next week, will miss out. sigh. feel kinda sad for her... miss foo, dont fret. never give up in life.
so after tomorrow... !!!! haha... NZ! yoo hooooo!!!!!!! it's gonna be fun!
gonna bathe.
later.
good night.
Saturday, October 23, 2004
Little India.
hey... harlow... today saturday.. quite okay lah.. went to little india there, mustafa, with mathangi.. shopped for the NZ trip.. spent almost $150 lor... what the hell... spent almost $1000 for this trip... dont know whether worth it or not.. some more plus music fees, tuition fees... i'm freaking expensive... feel so guilty... spend away all my father's money... after the trip come back, must hardcore save money... and hardcore study... whatever... then mustafa is so damn big. walked here and there.. bought those stuff.. down there no camera and protection stuffs.. so very easy to steal things from there... haha.. they just tie up your plastic bags with those plastic strips or whatever you call it lah... of course, i'm not that bad... haha... luckily my dad didnt mind i spend so much... then went out of mustafa... walked thousand of miles to bugis there... so tiring.. then walk back to little india mrt station... harbour front.. then took 188 back home... tired... nothing much liao lor... came back packed my things for the trip... watched mu lan... and now i'm here...
the two bimbos, snowball and me created this blog... only the two bimbos are updating currently... haha... i'll try to update, if i'm not being freaking lazy later...
i hope tomorrow will be my last day out the whole day... at least for now and november... cant disappoint my family... since my mum and charlynn's leaving singapore soon... to phillipines, my hometown... haha... sigh... my freaking mum got dont know what problems lah... so sad she's not going to US anymore.. to join gavin there... i dont know lah... how can she ever be happy, when she expects people to make her happy, and she herself starts blaming everybody when things dont work out for her? what the fuck? and now charlynn is like her... i'm-not-wrong-everything-is-not-my-fault mentality.... sigh......
sigh.. then now band is losing that family spirit.. and the trombone section also lah.. or maybe i'm the one who's turning my back... sigh.... i'm not into pleasing everyone... you dont like me, then whatever, i dont care, spare me your hypocrisy.
sigh.
tomorrow got catechism class... then the next 2 sundays gonna miss them, cause of the trip... haha... must try talking to my teacher about my lostness in class... haha...
good night then.
god bless you.
have nice days.
the two bimbos, snowball and me created this blog... only the two bimbos are updating currently... haha... i'll try to update, if i'm not being freaking lazy later...
i hope tomorrow will be my last day out the whole day... at least for now and november... cant disappoint my family... since my mum and charlynn's leaving singapore soon... to phillipines, my hometown... haha... sigh... my freaking mum got dont know what problems lah... so sad she's not going to US anymore.. to join gavin there... i dont know lah... how can she ever be happy, when she expects people to make her happy, and she herself starts blaming everybody when things dont work out for her? what the fuck? and now charlynn is like her... i'm-not-wrong-everything-is-not-my-fault mentality.... sigh......
sigh.. then now band is losing that family spirit.. and the trombone section also lah.. or maybe i'm the one who's turning my back... sigh.... i'm not into pleasing everyone... you dont like me, then whatever, i dont care, spare me your hypocrisy.
sigh.
tomorrow got catechism class... then the next 2 sundays gonna miss them, cause of the trip... haha... must try talking to my teacher about my lostness in class... haha...
good night then.
god bless you.
have nice days.
the grudge.
hey hey... today another quite nice day.. haha.. these days seem to be fine... not that bloody depressing... haha. in school, what ah... morning got the mass walk thing.. then the banner group was discussing about what to do lah... some act cute bitch so bossy. argh cant stand it. so bad lah, say things like that about people. but i just hate her. think that her ideas are the freaking best. please lah, you are pissing people off... wah then so mature man, went to look for principal to ask whether school will be opened on monday... some more bring the whole group go and ask... dont know whose idea lah, but i claps out loud for her lah.. sorry for being so evil... haha... then after that got the sexuality education... okay lor.. think mr ong was quite disappointed.. cause we were so participative man... then recess... went to the hall watch the sec 1 and 2 talentime and cheerleading thing... shao yu very cute.. haha. then had lunch at KFC with sean, melvin and jiaxin... then band.. so sick lor. thought monday can be free.. then need to go back to school for band stuffs, and the banner thing.. need to face that bossy bitch. but dont care lah. since she is so part of my life. then night... movie with sean and melvin. before that went to melvin's house for dinner.. thanks ah melvin.. haha... then played his computer, watch singapore idol... maia out!!!! sigh... what the hell... why always the one who should be out is not out. like christopher lee?? maia is good lah. sigh... hope taufik can get to the tops... haha. and leandra. after the show went to jurong point.. decided to watch the ghost movie, the grudge... okay lah... quite scary.. haha.. at least it wasnt some lame ghost story.. on the way home alone, i was really a bit freaked out... i really thought i heard some footsteps behind me on the overhead bridge... haha... of course, it was crap. then in the lift.. and when i was showering... dont dare to close my eyes lor... haha... so stupid man...
so anyway now i'm here... just now jontan online... for seconds only.. he said hello, then good something. bueno is good. haha.
then tomorrow going out with mathangi to shop for New Zealand stuffs... at mustafa... haha... and must pack my luggage liao... so excited!!! 6 more days!!! haha... hope everything will go well... must do some research on singapore lah.. later go there and ma lu... haha...
so, good night.
god bless.
sweet dreams.
=)
so anyway now i'm here... just now jontan online... for seconds only.. he said hello, then good something. bueno is good. haha.
then tomorrow going out with mathangi to shop for New Zealand stuffs... at mustafa... haha... and must pack my luggage liao... so excited!!! 6 more days!!! haha... hope everything will go well... must do some research on singapore lah.. later go there and ma lu... haha...
so, good night.
god bless.
sweet dreams.
=)
Thursday, October 21, 2004
sean's house.
haarloow.... haha... my god... please please please... please dont let me fall into the freaking trap again.. or have i already fallen into it.. oh damn... haha... what to do...
today was quite nice... in school slack again. no lessons at all. then got the sexuality education.. okay lah... mr whatever the name is gave the talk.. the counsellor of our school.. about sex and stuff.. tomorrow still have. then after recess in class so bloody boring.. then just listen to radio.. and slept a while.. jerrold, today 2nd time sort of insulted me.. was reading that jiadi's book.. so i cant read lah.. even if it is something about evolution.. what is wrong with that?? so he just said "this girl just look at the pictures only lah". maybe you would think that i'm too sensitive. but, whatever. haha...
then after school went to BK meet sean, jiaxin and melvin.. haha.. a lot of crap lah.. then go to sean's house.. had some fun and crappy time.. piano, computer, shouting at bunch of boys playing soccer downstairs, tv.. very funny lah.. melvin.. keep on suaning sean until he go mad... haha... then the 2 bimbos.. so it's something to be proud of lah... haha... then stayed in his house had pizza for dinner.. watched singapore idol.. taufik was okay.. maia was good.. others just normal lor... wow i am so someone to judge man... then... nothing lor.. sean was quite pissed for a while.. some molly commotion.. haha... then went home about 9.30.. sean sent melvin and me down to the busstop.. took the bus with melvin.. best friends.. haha..
dont know why i am so freaking fuck when it comes to making new friends.. so bloody... unnatural... sigh.
please forgive me.
and please, will you be there on saturday afternoon? haha...
good night.
love ya.
god bless.
today was quite nice... in school slack again. no lessons at all. then got the sexuality education.. okay lah... mr whatever the name is gave the talk.. the counsellor of our school.. about sex and stuff.. tomorrow still have. then after recess in class so bloody boring.. then just listen to radio.. and slept a while.. jerrold, today 2nd time sort of insulted me.. was reading that jiadi's book.. so i cant read lah.. even if it is something about evolution.. what is wrong with that?? so he just said "this girl just look at the pictures only lah". maybe you would think that i'm too sensitive. but, whatever. haha...
then after school went to BK meet sean, jiaxin and melvin.. haha.. a lot of crap lah.. then go to sean's house.. had some fun and crappy time.. piano, computer, shouting at bunch of boys playing soccer downstairs, tv.. very funny lah.. melvin.. keep on suaning sean until he go mad... haha... then the 2 bimbos.. so it's something to be proud of lah... haha... then stayed in his house had pizza for dinner.. watched singapore idol.. taufik was okay.. maia was good.. others just normal lor... wow i am so someone to judge man... then... nothing lor.. sean was quite pissed for a while.. some molly commotion.. haha... then went home about 9.30.. sean sent melvin and me down to the busstop.. took the bus with melvin.. best friends.. haha..
dont know why i am so freaking fuck when it comes to making new friends.. so bloody... unnatural... sigh.
please forgive me.
and please, will you be there on saturday afternoon? haha...
good night.
love ya.
god bless.
Wednesday, October 20, 2004
useless fuck.
sigh.. what a crude title... bie ren bu zhong shi wo.. what did i do or not do? where have i gone wrong? i just have to prove myself. i just hate it. many think that i'm stupid, useless, irresponsible, etc. am i? i'm not, okay... sigh..................
bye.
bye.
Tuesday, October 19, 2004
what a shit.
sigh... madelyne cant return my bloody money!!! i really need it for the NZ trip lah... what the hell... today nothing much also... just now in a shop in west mall with sean they all... then melvin teased me.. i throw the shirt at him... twice. not on purpose but the shopkeeper or whoever was angry lah... really bad lah.. throw the shop's things around... shit... i'm sorry lah...
argh!!! damn it. so irritated now... my results all suck lah.. biology got 68... okay lah.
sigh forget it.
good bye.
must revise some things tonight.
god bless..
argh!!! damn it. so irritated now... my results all suck lah.. biology got 68... okay lah.
sigh forget it.
good bye.
must revise some things tonight.
god bless..
Monday, October 18, 2004
whatever, let them happen.
hola. haha. learnt from jontan... "wow"... haha... how i wish we can be friends... the internet explorer sucks lah. everything in this computer sucks lah. no microsoft words. no printer. no games. no everything. and it's getting slower day by day... hanging every now and then. argh.... today was fine... chinese class... art tour... band.. music theory.. dinner.. home. the art tour was alright... tiring.. just walk here walk there around esplanade.. then listen to the willian talk and explain.. cant even go into the concert halls and theatres... then went to victoria concert hall.. the substation.. some chinese calligraphy building... okay lah... didnt know there were such places, of course. haha... oh ya... was looking for csardas score in the esplanade library... jerrold say i was overestimating myself whatever... so what lor. i already know i'm not that great lah okay. and quite sucky also lah. sigh... does that throw away my right to look at scores outside band? what shit. sigh, also think that the trombone batch now is the worst of all, since shuming times... not to insult anybody... haha... but is it my fault? since i haven't done much as a principal player... then what can i do? sigh.... then today band okay lah... our section insulted by mr goh... haha... so sick... then got practice for those going to NZ... nothing much lor. quite suck lah, 35 people play only... haha... after band went for theory.. met sean, chieng yang and huaqian in music concerto. daniel also. then dinner with sean, chieng yang, meiqi and charlynn. then home.
haha... tomorrow back to lessons... sick feeling again. havent been studying or doing homework.. haha.. later must finish them.. before starting new topics... sigh. havent change to study mode.. a bit difficult.. haha.
okay going off now.
good night.
god bless.
give me a sign!!! haha.
haha... tomorrow back to lessons... sick feeling again. havent been studying or doing homework.. haha.. later must finish them.. before starting new topics... sigh. havent change to study mode.. a bit difficult.. haha.
okay going off now.
good night.
god bless.
give me a sign!!! haha.
Sunday, October 17, 2004
=)
harlow... haha.. today quite nice.. rarely got this kind of fun and nice things happen.. haha.. actually also nothing much.. but still very nice... haha. morning went to church... actually not that bad lah. just have to try my best to know my religion better.. teacher theresa came back to teach liao.. haha.. the kelvin got exams... then went for mass.. after that went for lunch with sean at burger king... then went to his house for a while... play piano.. play comp.. haha.. then went to saranya's house.. play basketbal!! haha... with sean, her and melvin.. quite fun lor.. haha. then started to rain... but we continued to play.. so fun!! play in the rain.. and melvin is quite nice.. haha. then play play... decided to stop.. went to the pool there.. play play.. jump inside.. haha. but too bad the guard saw... then the rain stopped. went back to play basketball... then play play play... aiya.. nothing much lah. haha.
now leg got blister... haha... tomorrow got excursion.. then back to lessons for 1 week and 4 days.. then off the New Zealand!!! haha..
good night.
the christian guy trombonist is so pro lah. forever my dream to be like him. haha.
god bless.
jontan!!!
haha.
enjoy the new week.
=)
now leg got blister... haha... tomorrow got excursion.. then back to lessons for 1 week and 4 days.. then off the New Zealand!!! haha..
good night.
the christian guy trombonist is so pro lah. forever my dream to be like him. haha.
god bless.
jontan!!!
haha.
enjoy the new week.
=)
stop dreaming.
hey hey... haha.. just reached home not long ago... i always have this sentence.. haha. went to west coast park with daddy and meiqi.. haha.. quite fun lor. play the playground there.. how i wish i can be like a guy.. strong arms.. everything also dont care.. just do it. haha...
anyway today talked to an argentinian guy in msn... oh my god. he send me his photo. so handsome!! haha. dont know why he added me in msn... but, i just wish to know him more... haha. wah, dreams on lah. dont think too far... haha...
then today so wasted. sleep the whole time.. woke up at 12pm.. then eat and all that. then sleep again at 3... woke up at 7pm.. so piggish.. sigh. i could have used those times for better things... then had dinner at bukit timah plaza... "fun" place... haha...
tomorrow got catechism... haha... sian... i just dont see the point now... sigh. then after that dont know want to go where... havent been hanging out for a long time. and i really scared to tell my dad about my results... sigh... must study!!! really study. but i'm just so freaking lazy... argh....
needa buy stuffs for the NZ people... and look for my own stuffs to show them... never mind lah... after next week then prepare... now also short of money... luckily madelyne is returning me them soon...
i feel so fine now.. free.. haha.. okay off now.
good night.
god bless.
love you all.
but do you care?
haha.
anyway today talked to an argentinian guy in msn... oh my god. he send me his photo. so handsome!! haha. dont know why he added me in msn... but, i just wish to know him more... haha. wah, dreams on lah. dont think too far... haha...
then today so wasted. sleep the whole time.. woke up at 12pm.. then eat and all that. then sleep again at 3... woke up at 7pm.. so piggish.. sigh. i could have used those times for better things... then had dinner at bukit timah plaza... "fun" place... haha...
tomorrow got catechism... haha... sian... i just dont see the point now... sigh. then after that dont know want to go where... havent been hanging out for a long time. and i really scared to tell my dad about my results... sigh... must study!!! really study. but i'm just so freaking lazy... argh....
needa buy stuffs for the NZ people... and look for my own stuffs to show them... never mind lah... after next week then prepare... now also short of money... luckily madelyne is returning me them soon...
i feel so fine now.. free.. haha.. okay off now.
good night.
god bless.
love you all.
but do you care?
haha.
Friday, October 15, 2004
2 more weeks.
hey. i'm just so sick of my results. really obvious drop. sigh. really really really have to study this holidays... come to think of it, it's really hard to get into a JC lah... need below 10 points.. if, B3 for all subjects, i'd get 18 points... what the hell... really bad this time. shit shit shit.
anyway, got 2 more weeks before we fly. haha. yay!!! excited~ haha. got quite some things to prepare.. gifts, clothes, stuffs... after it, study!!!
today again stay in class and waste time. haha. played card games.. hehe...
i wonder.. and i really hope.
it's not that i purposely type that to invite you to ask me what is it lah. just some things no one's supposed to know... haha...
whatever.
bye.
anyway, got 2 more weeks before we fly. haha. yay!!! excited~ haha. got quite some things to prepare.. gifts, clothes, stuffs... after it, study!!!
today again stay in class and waste time. haha. played card games.. hehe...
i wonder.. and i really hope.
it's not that i purposely type that to invite you to ask me what is it lah. just some things no one's supposed to know... haha...
whatever.
bye.
Thursday, October 14, 2004
Results... ha.
hey... haha... singapore idol now.. all not that good lah. disco is one hard genre... haha. today got back some results.. disappointing... chemistry 52.. physics 58.. combine humanities 60... shit lah... first time in my life do so bloody badly for exams... sick.
today in school so sian. no teacher. no PE... stay in class play cards.. those old feelings came rushing back.. haha. WOW. crazy.. dont think too much lah!
nothing to talk about also... just hope................ sigh. haha.
good night.
off.
today in school so sian. no teacher. no PE... stay in class play cards.. those old feelings came rushing back.. haha. WOW. crazy.. dont think too much lah!
nothing to talk about also... just hope................ sigh. haha.
good night.
off.
Wednesday, October 13, 2004
Handball Competition...
haha... what a day.. no lessons.. got handball competition.. and... we lost to 3n1... argh... actually winning.. then lost to 3e4.. dropped to losers' pool... sigh. tried our best yeah...
got back maths papers... 68 for emaths, 46 for a maths... okay lah... not reeeaaalllyyy that bad... improve 3 marks for A maths.. haha... anything lah. just hope i dont fail anything. sigh.
then today got band.. after 3 long weeks. haha.. miss my trombone.. but today only play concerto dynamico... haha. then got the briefing for the NZ thing... so expensive!! needa pay $620 cash... sigh. then still need money to spend there... anything, it's gonna be fun!! haha... desmond came for band today.. haha.. once in a blue moon.. haha. the only fun times i had in band were with him and ridzuan... haha. misses~ who cares anyway... haha. he's so bloody funny... so full of funny actions. haha.
what else......... so sick lah. sigh.
good night, anyway.
got back maths papers... 68 for emaths, 46 for a maths... okay lah... not reeeaaalllyyy that bad... improve 3 marks for A maths.. haha... anything lah. just hope i dont fail anything. sigh.
then today got band.. after 3 long weeks. haha.. miss my trombone.. but today only play concerto dynamico... haha. then got the briefing for the NZ thing... so expensive!! needa pay $620 cash... sigh. then still need money to spend there... anything, it's gonna be fun!! haha... desmond came for band today.. haha.. once in a blue moon.. haha. the only fun times i had in band were with him and ridzuan... haha. misses~ who cares anyway... haha. he's so bloody funny... so full of funny actions. haha.
what else......... so sick lah. sigh.
good night, anyway.
Monday, October 11, 2004
cartoonified.
harlooowww... just came back from west mall... was there for theory.. and dinner with mum, meiqi and charlynn... theory was fine.. missed 2 lessons cause of fever and sore eyes.. haha... i'm deciding whether to learn piano... if i learn, i'll quit from concerto... i want to learn.. i also want to go for my trombone.. but lots of money and time lah... some more now all too late.. studies and studies... sigh.
haha.. dont know these days too bored or what.. suddenly miss all the movie cartoons that i watched when i was young... just now at west mall bought lion king 1 and 3... haha... bought aladdin also... wah, not childish. haha. but i just like it.
tomorrow no school.. haha. no plans.. stay home and watch tv! haha... reads storybooks.. dont know why... no more going out and all that... haha... maybe cause nobody to go out with.. and got a kid in my house to take care... haha... and got a mess in my house need to clear up...
"busy" life... haha...
good night.
god bless.
haha.. dont know these days too bored or what.. suddenly miss all the movie cartoons that i watched when i was young... just now at west mall bought lion king 1 and 3... haha... bought aladdin also... wah, not childish. haha. but i just like it.
tomorrow no school.. haha. no plans.. stay home and watch tv! haha... reads storybooks.. dont know why... no more going out and all that... haha... maybe cause nobody to go out with.. and got a kid in my house to take care... haha... and got a mess in my house need to clear up...
"busy" life... haha...
good night.
god bless.
Sunday, October 10, 2004
last free sunday....
sigh... from next sunday onwards.. catechism class starts again.. so sian lor. hate it now. last time it would be nice. but no friends there... and i am so believing in god. sigh... then for two sundays didnt go for mass. i'm such a sinner. argh... haha.. i didnt go to that lady's church... dont care lah... but i feel so damn bad lah.
today did nothing much.. woke up around 12pm... then eat.. watch tv.. pack my things.. sleep.. read storybook.. night time then went to jurong point.. with dad, meiqi and charlynn.. went there eat and fetch richavel... she working there in john little.. haha..
nothing also lah.. now i'm not gonna think of anything but now. just dont care.
good night.
=)
today did nothing much.. woke up around 12pm... then eat.. watch tv.. pack my things.. sleep.. read storybook.. night time then went to jurong point.. with dad, meiqi and charlynn.. went there eat and fetch richavel... she working there in john little.. haha..
nothing also lah.. now i'm not gonna think of anything but now. just dont care.
good night.
=)
Saturday, October 09, 2004
empty day.....
haha... harlow.. just finish watching lion king part 2... so nice lor.. so sweet. haha. but reality cannot be so easy and nice.. haha. today was so sian. did nothing but sleep, eat and read some stuffs.. and watch tv... and now got a headache... sigh. that dont know what may eng keep calling me and ask to go to her church. i missed it 2 times already lah. cant she just take the hint. i'm not interested to go!!! argh! but bloody me still agreed to go tomorrow on the freaking phone just now. argh!!! i so pissed now lah. some bitch think that one guy liking her is a very big fucking deal. and wants someone to pretend to be her boyfriend (purposely choose a handsome one) so that the guy who likes her will go away. isnt that stupid and childish?!?! think so highly of herself. please lah, i bet he's the only guy who will like you in your whole fucking life. and she freaking make everything a big big big damn big deal. fucking attention seeker. fake, irritating bitch. i hate you! but do i care? no! just get out of my life.
so bad lah. say people until like that. but since nobody cares... whatever lah! argh! curse me, condemn me, make me suffer until i die lah! irritating pieces of shits! argh!
so bloody unhappy.
can i just stop upsetting those around me!!!!!!!
off.
so bad lah. say people until like that. but since nobody cares... whatever lah! argh! curse me, condemn me, make me suffer until i die lah! irritating pieces of shits! argh!
so bloody unhappy.
can i just stop upsetting those around me!!!!!!!
off.
Friday, October 08, 2004
David Yeo!!!! i love you!!!
what the hell!!! just now singapore idol.. oh my god!!! my favourite from the start of the show!!! david yeo!!!! argh!!!! he's freaking out lah!!!! not that christopher lee... and that jerry who should be out long ago!!!!! i want to cry for him lah.. so sad lor!!!!! oh my god... not fair lah.. just not fair.. he's singing is so nice, and his personality is so cute. i love him!!! *cries*
sigh... let's pray next week.. singapore votes for TALENT.
argh!
sigh... let's pray next week.. singapore votes for TALENT.
argh!
yay! it's over!
hey yo... so sian now... didnt go out or what.. cause needa fetch my sister from school... my mum not around... nobody to go out with also... so sick. sigh. and finally the exams are over.. sort of. just 2 more papers to go... bio and chem MCQs... haha... dont care lor.. no need to study... now must plan what i'm gonna do during my free time and holidays... anyway got few birthdays coming up.. today's huaqian's birthday.. so sad i couldnt go with them to celebrate with her.. actually not sad lah. i didnt want to go also.. sigh... then got jeremy's birthday... padro? weixing! haha.. tinsong's.. si hao's.. ronald's.. haha... they dont even care that i care lor... haha... never mind.. then wanna clean up my room... rearrange.. then got the NZ trip.. tianbee's chalet.. christmas! nothing much also what... i think it's not gonna be fun.. no friends there will be to hang out with... sick! why dont i just give up.
good bye.
good bye.
Thursday, October 07, 2004
2 more days left!
hey... just reached home not long ago... later gotta study for chemistry.. and read some compositions.. so sian.. but just two more days. in fact only 1.. actually no need to study for MCQs..
today had biology and A maths.. both gonna die.. all gonna die! just hope my L1R5 can get less than 17.. haha... so sad lor. i really hoped i could do well for bio... but..... sigh. then after the exam went to west mall with sean, huaqian and chieng yang... ate lunch and then to popular, then MC.. met quite some people on the way.. today's okay lah. not that bad.. then met daniel in MC.. haha.. so weird!! haaaa... dont care.
today's gavin coming to singapore... and my mum's gonna leave the house for a while.. leaving charlynn here! sigh. troublesome. later quarrel and fight again. haha. i tried to treat her nice. but sometimes she's really bad... never mind. let it be.
after tomorrow... relax!!! hahaha... but on wednesday back to school.. back to band... then results... so many things gonna happen. please please please madelyne return my money.. haha. i want to buy a camera. Newzealand... hahahah! must really make the best out of it. first time in my life i travel so far.. haha.. lame.
i'm off.
good day.
today had biology and A maths.. both gonna die.. all gonna die! just hope my L1R5 can get less than 17.. haha... so sad lor. i really hoped i could do well for bio... but..... sigh. then after the exam went to west mall with sean, huaqian and chieng yang... ate lunch and then to popular, then MC.. met quite some people on the way.. today's okay lah. not that bad.. then met daniel in MC.. haha.. so weird!! haaaa... dont care.
today's gavin coming to singapore... and my mum's gonna leave the house for a while.. leaving charlynn here! sigh. troublesome. later quarrel and fight again. haha. i tried to treat her nice. but sometimes she's really bad... never mind. let it be.
after tomorrow... relax!!! hahaha... but on wednesday back to school.. back to band... then results... so many things gonna happen. please please please madelyne return my money.. haha. i want to buy a camera. Newzealand... hahahah! must really make the best out of it. first time in my life i travel so far.. haha.. lame.
i'm off.
good day.
Wednesday, October 06, 2004
Life's a bitch.
haha.. harlow.. long time no blog... after weeks and weeks.. jus came back from school not long ago... so shitty. these days always go back home so damn early. today had geography paper and physics paper 1.. i'm gonna fail physics.. or just get 50+ 60+.. and tomorrow got A maths and Biology.. sigh.... i hope i can do well. if i could just really study later.... past few days keep on sleeping in the afternoons.. night, at 10 pm then starts to revise.. then cant sleep cause afternoon slept. then have only 4 hours of sleep. so unhealthy. some more during exam period. what the hell anyway.
just 3 more days. and can relax already... looks forward to the holidays!!!
good day.
just 3 more days. and can relax already... looks forward to the holidays!!!
good day.
Monday, August 23, 2004
sigh....
what a day.. count my blessings lah... dont know izzit i'm minding too much about the bloody things that are happening around me.. or just really they are happening...
FORGET IT.
THANKS.
good night.
FORGET IT.
THANKS.
good night.
Sunday, August 22, 2004
Argh!!! Hate!!!
sigh... what the fuck lah okay... anyone who is going to read this shit is going to think that i am bloody petty and childish and whatever... sigh!
thanks lah okay for being so insensitive and everything! oh my god! why must people step over me, insult me and think that i am stupid all the time?! then i'll just shut the hell up and let u do and say whatever you want! then what? you blame me for being fucking quiet and whatever shit! oh, PLEASE. and can please stop complaining and complaining and complaining. it's not like you are the worst and most pitiful person on this bloody earth. and cut the fakeness in you! so bloody irritating! to all who aren't true to yourself, may your life be cursed.
argh... forget it forget it forget it... so stupid man... just dont give a bloody damn lah.
sigh... today was okay... went to church for catechism and mass in the morning.. learnt about the sign of the cross.. what does it mean and all that. something like, the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit.. humility and divinity.. dont know lah. i know nuts about being a catholic. i'm trying lah.. to be good and all that. loving and serving others... bla bla... sigh... and then in the end people still climb all over you and demoralise you.. whatever... never mind... then in mass Father talked about being disciplined.. and all that.
after church went to lot 1 for lunch with sean.. okay lor. came home. sleep again. and now haven't finish my bloody homework... sigh.
last night stood awake until 3 am to do homework... quite nice actually. just as long as i have my coffee with me. watched olympics also... so sad li jiawei didnt got the bronze..
sigh dont care lah. just do my best. study hard and all that.
good night.
god bless.
good week!
thanks lah okay for being so insensitive and everything! oh my god! why must people step over me, insult me and think that i am stupid all the time?! then i'll just shut the hell up and let u do and say whatever you want! then what? you blame me for being fucking quiet and whatever shit! oh, PLEASE. and can please stop complaining and complaining and complaining. it's not like you are the worst and most pitiful person on this bloody earth. and cut the fakeness in you! so bloody irritating! to all who aren't true to yourself, may your life be cursed.
argh... forget it forget it forget it... so stupid man... just dont give a bloody damn lah.
sigh... today was okay... went to church for catechism and mass in the morning.. learnt about the sign of the cross.. what does it mean and all that. something like, the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit.. humility and divinity.. dont know lah. i know nuts about being a catholic. i'm trying lah.. to be good and all that. loving and serving others... bla bla... sigh... and then in the end people still climb all over you and demoralise you.. whatever... never mind... then in mass Father talked about being disciplined.. and all that.
after church went to lot 1 for lunch with sean.. okay lor. came home. sleep again. and now haven't finish my bloody homework... sigh.
last night stood awake until 3 am to do homework... quite nice actually. just as long as i have my coffee with me. watched olympics also... so sad li jiawei didnt got the bronze..
sigh dont care lah. just do my best. study hard and all that.
good night.
god bless.
good week!
Saturday, August 21, 2004
Cardio Pulmonary Resuscitation.
haha... just came back from the Cpr Course thing.. quite nice lah.. and memorable.. that guy who taught us.. Mr Koh something.. haha.. talked to him a little.. quite nice. haha.. later going for tuition.. sian..
this week was okay... dunno leh i like got many things to say, but then dont know what is it. the only thing i remember is that i want to do my homework and study... and thanks ah... for saying that you dont like me.. sigh........
feel like sleeping...
good day.
this week was okay... dunno leh i like got many things to say, but then dont know what is it. the only thing i remember is that i want to do my homework and study... and thanks ah... for saying that you dont like me.. sigh........
feel like sleeping...
good day.
Thursday, August 19, 2004
study!!!
hey... sigh... being lazy now.. doing chinese composition halfway.. came online to see see.. and update this shit. haha.. these days have been fine... i think got out of that stupid problem already lah. then got a lot of homework. worst is always dont know how to do. and LAZY. have some self-motivation can or not!! haha. then... nothing special happen lah... band quite suck now... dont know why...
no life!! haha.. everyday is a routine.. just wanna get my studies right lah.
good night.
god bless...
no life!! haha.. everyday is a routine.. just wanna get my studies right lah.
good night.
god bless...
Sunday, August 15, 2004
Finally!
harlow! haha... this my new blog... finally got it done.. anyway it sucks a bit lah.. i'll do another one later...
let me see.. this week was okay? had common test on thursday and friday... physics sucked lah. the reast were okay... wont do that well also lah... then monday and tuesday no school.. cause of national day... what did i do? monday i think just stayed at home and... forget already lah. tuesday i only remember going out for music theory lesson... wednesday.. school per normal.. then no band, so went home to study for common test.. thursday night went to have dinner with mum, gavin, charlynn and meiqi.. sort of a farewell dinner for gavin.. sigh.. he always come and go.. i just hope my mum will quickly get her visa and can fly there to be with her husband... then she wont be so sad everytime... so had dinner at swensens in west mall.. was okay.. quite sucked lah the service. sigh. then went to coffee bean sat sat.. talk talk.. walk walk abit.. then home. gonna miss gavin!
then friday.. no band cause of oral.. so went to walk walk with juchi.. went up to concerto and all that.. met sean. nothing much lah.
today.. quite a long day.. morning went for flag day.. with nadia, ida and mathangi.. quite nice.. haha.. first time i really do my job.. met some really kind people. haha. god bless them. then did at west mall there.. then clementi there... after it went to school.. west mall.. then tuition.. tired.. after that went to MC to meet some people.. didnt get to see daniel. i really hope he will stop thinking that i like him. kinda like lose another friend. so one lesson learnt, never tell you like the person when you know you can never have him! what crap... whatever lah. then after that went to see my cousin perform at Fajar there... okay okay lor.. the NJC dance performance very nice. after that went to sit down and drink with sean and meiqi. actually nothing much lah... only really nice thing that happen was i met weixing on the bus on the way home! haha..
okay... stop here...
good night.
god bless.
let me see.. this week was okay? had common test on thursday and friday... physics sucked lah. the reast were okay... wont do that well also lah... then monday and tuesday no school.. cause of national day... what did i do? monday i think just stayed at home and... forget already lah. tuesday i only remember going out for music theory lesson... wednesday.. school per normal.. then no band, so went home to study for common test.. thursday night went to have dinner with mum, gavin, charlynn and meiqi.. sort of a farewell dinner for gavin.. sigh.. he always come and go.. i just hope my mum will quickly get her visa and can fly there to be with her husband... then she wont be so sad everytime... so had dinner at swensens in west mall.. was okay.. quite sucked lah the service. sigh. then went to coffee bean sat sat.. talk talk.. walk walk abit.. then home. gonna miss gavin!
then friday.. no band cause of oral.. so went to walk walk with juchi.. went up to concerto and all that.. met sean. nothing much lah.
today.. quite a long day.. morning went for flag day.. with nadia, ida and mathangi.. quite nice.. haha.. first time i really do my job.. met some really kind people. haha. god bless them. then did at west mall there.. then clementi there... after it went to school.. west mall.. then tuition.. tired.. after that went to MC to meet some people.. didnt get to see daniel. i really hope he will stop thinking that i like him. kinda like lose another friend. so one lesson learnt, never tell you like the person when you know you can never have him! what crap... whatever lah. then after that went to see my cousin perform at Fajar there... okay okay lor.. the NJC dance performance very nice. after that went to sit down and drink with sean and meiqi. actually nothing much lah... only really nice thing that happen was i met weixing on the bus on the way home! haha..
okay... stop here...
good night.
god bless.
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