i like u since i've only known u as an on stage persona till i get to noe u a lil better

i found a comfort zone where i can be me n open up to u like ive not been doin so for awhile

im only takin a step back cuz of wat happened

im here to support a fwen, a companion

u noe better than to swim in troubled waters

dun go ard saein u miss us when u brought it upon urself

i've yet to sae my piece

life's a bitch
love's a whore
u my dear,
ure a fuckin slut



*i've got better mentors^~

maybe ure jux goin thru hurt, tts why ur words are perceived as rude.. if u nd to talk, let it out, u dun have to take it out on us.. tis is my piece, go sae ur piece..

its sad how all of u have tt pre-existin minset against me jux cuz im close to tt sumone..

i put everythin i had into it but sumthin was jux missin.. its nuthin personal, jux an honest opinion yet it hurt me deep..

its called compartmentalisin.. deal wit it, cry sumwhere else, suck it in, put it away n perform.. in short, dun brood over it..

dun let the stress of bein evaluated dull my personality

gotta let it all go
n make it up in my perf

i am not ur leader, im not even a leader.. it is not my responsibility, its ours.. everyone is entitled to express wats on their mind relating to the problem at hand, it is up to different individual on how they wanna do it, to their best interest and thru their own means. i deal it my wae.

why is it so hard to be truthful to ur significant other but better yet, how do u explain not bein loyal to ur own self..

why do u keep askin for my advices when u know ure not gonna use it after.. why do i have to help u deal wit ur problems when i have mine to tink bout

its all so easy for u now, u have ur own person to fall back on

its one thing to be happy bout sumthin, its another to make ppl go envious over the same thing

u tink im petty, tink again, its only cuz u make ppl ard u look dumb..

i went out on a limb for u n u jux BAIL..



*is it so hard to read btwn my lines^~

i called myself up n asked if maybe i wanted to go to a movie wit me. thnk god i saed yes

its more than easy for me to get hooked on the times when i can jux be myself witout havin to tink bout it

when sumbody's hard on u n scoldin u n critiquing u, its bcuz they believe tt there's so much potential n wans it to ignite, n i noe critic can be difficult but its only to make u better

if i tell u how much i care for u, in a wae, im tellin myself the same thing, n if i do tt, then i guess im openin up myself to gettin hurt again


*somedae, love will find me in the rough^~

layer 1: On the outside
Name: muhamad zarifi bin md arshad
Birthdate: 4th august 1987
Current Status: single
Eye colour: brownish
BlackHair Colour: red n copper highlight

Layer 2: On the inside
My heritage: 3/4 javanese n 1/4 chinese
My fears: not bein in control
My weaknesses: givin unfriendly faces
My perfect pizza: cheese wit turkey ham n tobasco

Layer 3: Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow
My first thought of waking up: shld i go to sch?
My bedtime: every little details of my life's scenarios
My most missed memories: happiness wit ppl who means the world to me

Layer 4: My pick.
Pepsi or coke: coke
Macdonalds or Burger King: macdonalds
Single or group dates: single
Adidas or Nike: adidas
Vanilla or Chocolate: choc n banana
Cappucino or Coffee: caramel frappe

Layer 5: Do you?
Smoke: nvr will tt includes sheesha
Curse: 2nd nature
Take a shower: jux bout to
Have a crush: nope, noone
Go to school: yar, but a whole lot of skippin
Believe in yourself: high-self esteem wit million insecurities
Think you're a health freak: cholestrol tis wae comes

Layer 6: In the past
Drink alcohol: bailey's otr nytime
Gone to the mall: like since forever
Dyed your hair: love my red hairdo back then

Layer 7: Have you ever..?
Played a stripping game: well, u can sae tt..
Change who you were to fit in: not really

Layer 8: Are you hoping to
Get married: yar, but i wanna stay single still.. i dunno

Layer 9: In a partner
Best eye colour: greyish greenish
Best hair colour: brunette
Long or short hair: silky long hair on a fair tall girl

Layer 10: What were you doing?
A minute ago: surfin
An hour ago: surfin
A Month ago: plannin on bdae surprises..llz
A Year ago: bein nywhere but here

Layer 11: Finish the sentences..
I love: my momo
I hide: imperfections n insecurities
I miss: havin tt cheerful disposition
I need: peace n love

Layer 12: Tag
1)ayu, qie
2)li, ying
3)sharul
4)ying
5)farrah, sape2 saje la..



happy bdae farrah
n
happy bdae fadli
llz

*ure cute urself^~